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Jedi whump and angst? Don't mind if I do 😈 How about a sadistic choice scenario? Rescue a bunch of civilians or a single SIS agent with critical information that could possibly save a lot of lives later?
Edit: look what you did. it's a whole damn CHAPTER- XDDDDD
THIS IS THE JAXO QUESTION BUT SO MUCH WORSE I AM GOING TO SCREAM- Anyway! Have this lil thingy I cooked up. It's set shortly after dueling Arcann on Asylum, hehe. It's not completely whump/blorbabuse, but it IS pure unadulterated angst, heh. And MCD. Sort of-not really- I promise everyone is mostly-fine! Except Corrain. I uh. beat up my faves. oops.
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"-Arcann has scores of the Ossan's crew here. Almost seven hundred of them - and easily another hundred civilians from the planet below."
Theron's voice was twisted with that telltale mix of contempt and icy calm that meant he was seconds away from exploding, his words clipped over the static of the earpiece. Corrain dove through yet another blue-lit corridor in lieu of answering, pale golden blades carving a charred path through the endless Skytroopers. Behind him, Lana growled and beheaded yet another droid, lightning flashing in the brilliant acid gold of her eyes.
"I can imagine the Exarchs treated them...unpleasantly," she huffed, only a touch out of breath from the slog of fighting through four levels of droids.
"Unpleasantly? I'd almost rather be in an Imperial prison," Theron hissed. It was enough to give Corrain pause, darting into a nearby maintenance shaft, Lana still hot on his tail. A snarl curdled unbidden on his face.
"I doubt that," he sneered, before he could stop himself, the familiar bitter ice of anger sliding into his chest. The comm crackled with sudden static silence. Lana put a hand on his shoulder, her expression tense but understanding, and squeezed gently. He paused for a moment, trying to draw back the instinctive growl, and took a deep breath.
"Right. Out of line. Sorry, Theron."
"No, I get it, Cor. Not much can compare to what you went through - but trust me. This...probably comes closer than most."
"For their sake, I hope not," he replied, tone sliding towards worried at Theron's strangled commentary. "Force- I hope not."
He and Lana cut through three more corridors of Skytroopers and Zakuulan knights on the main level, Theron keeping up a running commentary on his own progress in the underbelly of the Star Fortress's maintenance shafts the whole time. He was busy wrecking the station's weaponry and defenses and generally causing enough mayhem on board to divert at least some of the Exarch's forces to repairing the damage - and as usual, he was having entirely too much fun with it. Corrain would have smiled if the mission hadn't been quite so heavy.
But finally, a string of groaning bodies and dismembered droids in their wake, he and Lana made it to the Star Fortress's control center. The doors were familiar bronzed metal, the locking mechanism melting in seconds under the application of a lightsaber. Lana kicked the steaming door-segment down with a flourish and winked wickedly, gesturing to the new hole.
"After you, darling Commander."
"My money's on a rosy blush there, Lana."
"Hmmm...I'll give it to you. I did try for cherry but he doesn't blush quite as brightly nowadays..."
"He's gotten used to us being sweet on him."
Corrain huffed at them, face burning, but Theron's laugh over his earpiece and Lana's teasing grin were infectious.
"Can you two not," he complained, ducking through the makeshift, smoking doorway. "We're almost-"
He blinked, bronzed hallways and blue Zakuulan floor lighting vanishing, the stark red and grey durasteel of an Imperial Command center greeting him instead. It looked nearly defunct, scorch marks sizzling on every surface, the telltale angry orange of lightsaber-melted metal scored through the walls and floors. The faint scent of smoke and burned flesh filled the air.
Suddenly, the entire station lurched sharply, hurling him and Lana into the room, terrified screaming beginning to drift up from the lower levels like a chorus of the damned. He choked, reaching out- the cloying, frigid cold of fear numbing his Force-senses, drowning him in icy depths. Static crackled in his ear again, and he turned, looking helplessly back at the hallway they'd just come from only to see the blank, unbroken transparisteel windows of the Emperor's Fortress, a lightless void of space echoing beyond.
-panic...scream...
The station lurched wildly again, a curse drifting over the commlink in his ear, faded in the face of his confusion and drifting horror. Theron. Theron, alone on the maintenance decks.
"We're taking heavy fire, Corrain!" Lana cried then, already at the controls- magically working despite the charred interface, her hands flying across the station controls. "We need to get the shields up or we're all going to die here!"
He blinked- suddenly the wide windows behind him alight with cannon fire, red bolts striking the station's hull. Overhead, the lights flickered. The screaming of the trapped prisoners grew louder, echoing inside his head. There was a hiss over the earpiece. Lana clicked her tongue, suddenly, pulling up a power routing schematic. Corrain studied it for a minute, fog inside his skull growing thicker, uncomprehending as Lana swore violently.
"Theron. Theron get out of there - shield power is at six percent. One more salvo from the Fleet and we're as good as dead - the only option is to power down and depressurize every maintenance level. It'll buy us enough time to get the Ossan's crew to safety."
"...Lana, the maintenance levels are crawling with Skytroopers," Theron said after a long, tense moment, his tone wavering with quiet acceptance. "I don't know if I can make it back in time."
Lana's expression tightened, her hands trembling on the console. Sluggish understanding crept through Corrain's head, the gravity of what that meant tearing something deep within his chest asunder.
"No-" he gasped out, eyes widening. He couldn't let this happen. "No- Theron, I'll come find you-"
"Cor, I'm at the other end of the Fortress, even you couldn't make it," Theron cut him off midsentence, his tone business like as usual, hiding a tremor. "Lana- how long until the Fleet fires again?"
"Less than five minutes- Theron-"
"There's no choice here," the spy snapped suddenly. "I'm not having you two save me and condemn eight hundred innocent people to death!"
Corrain lunged for the controls then, desperately scrolling, typing- but the software glitched violently, the schematic of power rerouting blinking out and then reappearing, the commands to depressurize the maintenance levels already typed in somehow, lines of code and text blurring. Lana wrapped an arm around his chest, squeezing- he couldn't breathe. Breathing hurt, phantom pains ripping his heart out, shredding organ and bone and flesh and- he blinked, time passed- sickly cold rolled through him, chilling him to the core-
He couldn't. He couldn't do this.
Lana disappeared in a soft wisp of smoke, the choking pressure of Vitiate's presence a lingering echo. Theron coughed sharply over the earpiece again-
"Cor. Corrain, you have to let me go."
"I- I can't-"
"You can. You have to. You can't sacrifice hundreds of innocent people for me."
(could he?)
...activity...fever is...infection?
"I can't lose you, Theron!"
He couldn't- not Theron, not Lana, the only two people he'd trusted with heart, body and soul- it would be worse than losing Orgus. Worse than losing the Jedi who'd raised him, from infant to Initiate- he couldn't-
"You're a Jedi, Corrain, you can't choose one life over eight hundred just because it's me!"
A Jedi- He was a Jedi - but was he really? Eight hundred was a drop in the bucket after- after Vitiate had forced him to- had forced him- The screaming from below grew louder again, fracturing the edges of his attention-
"...I can't."
He couldn't make himself hit submit - he was frozen, staring at the enter key which would reroute power and send his beloved spy hurtling into the vacuum of space. Pain throbbed through his chest cavity, heart bleeding ice into his lungs and stomach. Thunder roared in his ears, a heartbeat agonizing with an inability to decide, an inability to let go-
"...Then- I'm so sorry, Cor. I love you. Keyword: lunar regolith. Reroute power to the shields."
Horror- anger, fury beyond belief, a betrayal more profound than any other- terror, tearing at the inside of his heart like glass through cloth- How did Theron know that, no one knew that phrase anymore, no one besides him- not even Valkorion- and then he was moving again- moving to commit another atrocity, another murder-
Echoing silence rang suddenly in the station, his hands typing in the final strokes on autopilot- He sobbed, fighting futilely with his own body, straining against a force he'd never truly defeated, not even when he'd stood over Vitiate's broken body and drove a lightsaber through his skull. Theron's voice kept going, soft and sad in his ear.
"Cor, you'll be okay. I promise, you'll be okay. And I'm s-so sorry. I love you so-"
An echoing hiss, and then static.
Silence.
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He woke up to the blur of soft medbay lights blinding overhead and drying tears carving cold arcs down his face. Cold- sickly cold, a burning cold that at once left him chilled to the marrow and burning hot, ate at the little strength he had, sapping him. For a moment, he just lay there, his memory garbled and body like wet noodles, dreamlike static sizzling in his ears, trying to piece together the shattered recollection of Theron's voice echoing softly in his ear, of Lana's hold on him turning to agony and relief all in one-
"...Corrain?"
A familiar voice- raw from exhaustion, the light accent only barely hiding the distress radiating from her. A blonde blur slid carefully into the white glow of the overhead lights, a smudge of soft gold with catlike golden eyes. He stared, blinking once - the haze only cleared enough to reveal more distinct facial features.
Lana.
"Force. Force, you're awake," she whispered, and he felt the edge of the bed he lay on dip slightly as she turned, sat down next to him. Gentle warmth enveloped one of his hands, a soft, shaky exhale leaving her lips as her fingers laced through his, her free hand pressing two fingers to the inside of his wrist, testing his pulse. Slowly, he tried to squeeze reassuringly- but the effort was vast, that slight movement sending stars sparking around the edges of his field of vision.
The soft replay of Theron's voice- cutting off into void static-
He took a breath- pain exploded through his lower ribcage, vicious even against the numbing effects of weakness and- painkiller? Kolto? Motes of understanding were slipping back, and slowly he became aware of the tube in his nose, the mask on his face and kolto pumps carefully attached to his chest, the tubes feeding into his arm. His chest ached bitterly, agony dulled in every shallow breath- from a lightsaber wound. Arcann's.
Memory came flooding back in a deluge of sudden relief. It had been a dream. Theron was fine- neither he nor Lana knew Corrain's keyword. It was just a nightmare. A nightmare borne of Arcann's lightsaber spearing fully through his body, and the brush with death that followed.
"...where...?"
His voice was cracked, barely a whisper, but it was all he could muster. Everything felt heavy and leaden. Lana choked back a wobbling little noise, tears standing unshed in her eyes, but she tried to smile.
"In the medbay on a planet called Odessen, close to the Unknown Regions," she explained, her expression strained but intensely relieved. "...you've been unconscious for almost a week now. We...we didn't think you were going to wake up."
There was a beat of silence, this information processing at an achingly slow pace, and then another voice echoed, as if coming from down a hallway. Another familiar voice, weary with worry.
"Lana, who are you talking- kriffing hell."
A blur of brown and red whirled around to the other side of his berth, the glint of metal at one temple enough to give away the game even before the hazy vision of post-injury could clear enough to let him see who it was. Theron strangled a sob as he skidded to a stop, relief pouring from him in waves.
"Stars. I thought-" Theron cut himself off midsentence, reaching for Lana with one hand even as he brought the other to Corrain's face, cupping one cheek tenderly. His hand was pleasantly cool against the fevered icyhot of Corrain's skin. And he was- he was alive. And well.
They were both alive and well, and the dream had been just that. A dream.
"...you're both okay..." Corrain breathed again, closing his eyes and leaning into Theron's grasp with an exhausted sigh. "...both okay..."
Theron and Lana both laughed at that, the sound tight and incredulous, but heartachingly fond.
"You're one to talk."
#swtor#swtor fanfic#swtor oc#swtor fanfiction#jedi knight oc#jedi oc#corrain#corrain gealai#moonrise legacy#crescent moon rising#this would be something of a 'deleted scene' in Crescent Moon Rising#100% could happen in my canon but doesn't HAVE to#also yes corrain WOULD be completely paralyzed by a choice like this#this is part of why he chooses to leave the Jedi (after Satele bonks him on the head a bit)#theron shan#lana beniko#corrain x lana x theron#ot3 ship hehehe#fanfiction#THANK YOU FOR THE PROMPT it absolutely turned itself into Madness#alsdfjasldkf#jedi knight#blorbabuse#whump
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Hey what're your thoughts on how marcille and chilchuck show affection for marchil?
I mean, marcille seems to be the type to be the most blatantly affectionate of the two, but I want to know your headcanons and observations on the subject. How do they communicate their wants for affection, and what do they view as signs of affection (ex: hugs, small gifts, ect.) and such?
Sorry it took me this long to answer!! Thank you sm for sending a marchil ask my way I swear I love them sm, they spark joy and even if I have uhh -checks- 67 drafts already I love dropping everything for them when the mood comes hehehe.
I love talking about love languages actually! Little did you know that the first post I made on this blog was about analyzing the love languages of an ot3 lmao. The only reason why this is so late overdue is because as always I’m going to talk so much about it. The pics I put in it are relevant but I don’t put them right beside where I make my point, so stick with me even if they’re a bit jarring at first, they’re just meant to show aspects of them~.
Marcille and Chilchuck’s love languages
+ their domestic romantic dynamic. I’ll say, I ended up talking even more than I expected, and though it is in a marchil context I think my analysis of the characters is relevant even if their partner was anyone else, so non-marchil shippers might also enjoy this post! Give it a shot maybe~
To open it up, I think this post is very relevant. Marchil is def a ship where the ways in which they say they love each other feel more subtle, for Chilchuck at least.
Their perspective, boundaries and overlap
I think Chilchuck and Marcille recognize the other’s way of showing affection well, though it’s very obvious that Marcille and Chilchuck’s ways are super different. Marcille is very open and loud and Chilchuck… Isn’t. Chilchuck is reserved while Marcille loves to get all the affection she can get. Marcille could be seen as too much while Chilchuck would be too little. One could even say they aren’t compatible, but I think that’d be a mistake.
Yes Marcille loves big grand gestures and a lot of open communication, but her thing is analyzing people as they are, like how when she imagines how it’d have been like as his wife she put in details like how he’d be annoyed at having to wait for her to get ready and didn’t idealize that part of their relationship. She’s very good at putting herself in others’ shoes, at understanding why they might feel this or that way.
She typically doesn’t seem put off when Chil is snappy or discouraging at her, like when she shows him the ball of Izutsumi’s hair that she shaped into a cat lol. (The panel at the start of this section was when she was disappointed in him for cheating on his wife, so her good esteem for him was gone). She has a high esteem of Chilchuck’s intentions and has good faith in him overall, so instead of going "He’s annoyed at waiting on me… Am I annoying to him? Does he dislike me?" or "He didn’t notice I got upset when we were out drinking with his colleagues. Does he even love me anymore? Would he care if I left him?" she goes "Oh that’s just how he is, I know if there’s an actual issue he’ll tell me, and he still has my best interests at heart.". Who knows if she’d always be able to rationalize and keep that optimistic attitude up long term, but it gives me a good impression that she would! Or that at least she’d communicate about it if she felt their relationship had a problem.
She loves to confront people about that sort of thing! She can be more insecure and meek when the topic is sensitive to her like her being a half-elf, but when it comes to relationships like that, I believe she’d stand up for herself if it came down to it. The way she said that his wife might have left to "test his love" and see if he’d chase after her is a bit worrying to me, but ultimately I think that was her dramatic novels fan self talking and not something that she’d do herself. If she did leave, she would sooo leave a super long dramatic letter about how she felt and the situation and he’d reply and they’d make up I think. ANYWAYS!
Of course everyone needs to be shown some affection once in a while regardless of if she knows well how he is or not, and Marcille would be very unashamed about asking that of him. She’d respect his boundaries with public displays of affection as much as he’d demand it, but she’d be her usual overt self with stealing kisses or making him say I love you regularly. 0 PDA would be rough on her if Chilchuck wanted it that far, but she’d do it, she’d be able to twist it into something endearing too, like her being like "No one else gets to see him this way but me, I have this sweet side of him all to myself" and "He’s just reserved like that, it makes the time when he does show it all the more meaningful", them cuddling a ton as soon as they get home and Marcille feels touch starved, etc etc.
So what I’m getting at with all this is: Marcille’s love languages are very self-evident and hard to miss so unless Marcille suddenly acts mopey and doesn’t tell him why, and unless Chilchuck has some anxiety (what with his ex wife just up and leaving without him having been able to see the warning signs), he would feel very confident in her love for him and comfortable in the relationship, if not a little tired or frustrated with some aspects of it if she sometimes does too much.
Meanwhile, like mentioned, even if Chilchuck’s love languages are more subtle, more rooted in casual domesticity rather than big gestures or words, Marcille would see and recognize that and not hold it against him or feel burdened by it. She highly values communication —in a way they both do, even if when it’s about feelings Chilchuck becomes a bit of an ostrich hiding his head underground— so if there’s a problem she’ll for sure confront him about it too.
Chilchuck is good at voicing when there are practical problems or when he’s uncomfortable, and Marcille is good at voicing when there are emotional problems, so they’re pretty complementary in that way.
Surprisingly I think if she ever did a marriage proposal it’d be very private though, it’d be a big deal to her and she would want to talk about it in the comfort of their lonesome, already thinking through the grief and how everything would work. I think Chikchuck would also prefer a private proposal, but on the other end I could totally see him thinking she’d love this grand fancy gesture of a big public proposal and organize one for her (Ooh good fic prompt right there). Once they’ve talked it through though they’re both very enthusiastic about it and openly talk about it with friends and coworkers, and Marcille gushes about her fiancé and they both have bachelor parties on their own end and whatnot. The big day would be a fun one, and the daughters would be the perfect wingwomen I believe~
Their love languages
Alright now that the groundwork is done let’s do this thing! Ok so the "official" love languages are words of affirmation, physical touch, gifts (giving and receiving), quality time and acts of service.
Marcille
Starting with Marcille, she’s pretty balanced I’d say! In the sense that she cranks them all to the max. Oh yes, and part of it is that she’s very aware that the time they have together is counted, so she wants to make the most out of every moment.
Idk if it’s fair to say that Marcille has something like separation anxiety, what with her getting mad at Falin when she left and they didn’t see each other for 4 years, and with during canon with Falin and such, because they’re all intense situations that don’t necessarily show how clingy(or not) she would be under normal circumstances (and she doesn’t live with them so she’s def ok with distance to some degree), but also I def think it’s fair to say that due to her experiences with loss she’s scared of taking her eye off of someone she loves for one moment and for them to disappear, also like how we see her talk to Izutsumi when she thinks she’s going to prison.
All that to say that yes, quality time!! She adores quality time, she’s the kind to soak up in someone’s presence even if they’re doing completely different things in the same room. She loves talking with him, cooking with him, bathing with him, even just chilling on the couch together. Post-canon they’d both be rather busy I imagine, so it only makes those moments they share more important. They’re trying out the long distance thing and making it work with the power of communicating well 🙏
Again, she’s big on acts of service, would resurrect you, would bathe you, would nurse you back to health or do something for you. Since she’s observant I could see her noticing subtle things in Chilchuck’s routine that she could help with, like getting his mug of coffee for him each morning, etc. I feel like those things are so natural to her that she wouldn’t mention them to Chilchuck or talk about how she does these things, so if she’s doing too much Chilchuck has to tell her because she won’t realize otherwise.
Gifts. We see with how she showers Chil in apology gifts intended to be from him to his family that she does value gifts! Giving wise, I think she’d be the type to be out shopping, see something that reminds of you then get it for you casually. It’s probably resulted in a few joke gifts that did not land lol, like idk modern AU a grumpy cat mug, or socks with "If you can read this bring me a beer" written underneath them. She’ll also put her heart and soul into gifts sometimes, especially for birthdays which mark the passage of time for her and even if a year passes by a little fast she makes it a point to always always go all out about it, she wants to show that he matters to her and thinks of him a lot, so she’ll put all of herself into picking out an heartfelt gift. She can get a little stressed and perfectionist over it but she does genuinely enjoy picking out gifts and giving them. Receiving wise, she’s also super big on it! She’s the kind to instantly value gifts more than other, maybe better suited options she has, like if you give her an ugly hair accessory or a mug she’ll 100% use them all the time from then on… Until she passes onto something new and the item gets sidelined a bit, but then when she’ll find it again years from then on she’ll be struck by memories and emotions and how much it all meant to her. I could see Chil getting her choker necklaces like she often wears for example, or books he can’t begin to understand about magic theory. It’s not as much of a ‘love language’ as the other ones I think, but she does really appreciate them, and if Chil makes an effort to get her flower bouquets somewhat regularly it would for sure make her feel really loved and happy. Oh yes! Also I def think that if she took up sewing or (personal hc) she’d love felting bc of when she did a tiny Izutsumi with her hair, she’d love making handmade gifts! She’d weave him a bracelet. She’d write him letters and put a nice scented oil on them.
Physical touch ohhh she’s big on touch. Even platonically we see that she’s very casual with her touches and does it a ton to most people (mostly Falin, Izutsumi and Chilchuck, but with her being a healer it also happens with Laios etc) and likes to cuddle or hang onto others, in daydream hour artworks, when sleeping with Izutsumi in an extra, etc etc. Even if she had a romantic partner I think she’d keep doing that with her friends and maybe even favoring Falin when she’s there for platonic touch, but I also def think that she’d be super touchy feely with her partner both in public and in private. As long as it doesn’t interfere with what Chil’s doing and he can remain cool and collected™️ he wouldn’t mind I think, so they’d be holding hands often and like, if he were to sit down on a couch with a beer she’d just drape herself over him and they’d chill out there (until they talk and she makes him laugh too hard and he spits his beer out all over them rip), not unlike how Izutsumi would. But YES physical touch is def a big love language for her, wether they’re arguing or just sharing a soft moment together, if he put his hand to her cheek gently she would melt into his touch. And she loves doting on others herself and touching them and feeling like they’re real and warm and alive, so yes yes touch is a big thing to her.
Words of affirmation aren’t a big deal to her to give out, because it’s so natural to her, but they would mean a lot to her to receive. She can get insecure and feel lonely/alone, and having someone be supportive and tell her that she is valued like in the mandrake chapter lifts a lot of weight off of her shoulders, and I imagine that’s doubly meaningful when the words are each and all true and earned when they come from Chil. Whenever he says "I love you" unprompted it’s like an arrow to the heart. Again, if he made the effort to be romantic and like idk, tell her poetic things like it’s a love letter she would absolutely melt. "My boyfriend is the best, most romantic most loving most virtuous man" @ everyone in hearing distance etc etc. She wants to keep his words all to herself and be a little greedy but just maybe while kicking her feet she’d go "and then he said blablabla~" with friends and coworkers at the palace (who may or may nit be willing listeners lol).
So because of all of this, of how she values all of them, I think she’d cherish whichever love language her partner does the least! She likes variety, and like we’ve talked a bit she adapts herself to whoever she’s with a bit. She’s personally a big cuddler, but she’d value whenever Chilchuck says that he loves her etc more in the end because she knows how much that means for him and how many feelings were put into that gesture for her.
She wants the full range of affection, everything that someone is ready to offer. She wants the full storybook romance experience babyy, if it’s a crumb of love she’ll take it and gobble it up whichever form it takes. They all mean something to her in different ways.
Chilchuck
Chilchuck is more picky. He knows what he likes and what he doesn’t like, and he doesn’t like to compromise much (though learning to do so is part of his arc in canon). His favorites are acts of service and words of affirmation, and physical touch selectively, imo.
First of all, Chilchuck is a more private person by nature, but I think it’s also worth pointing out that he has some stress over how things ended with his wife, so someone growing on him and him getting to trust them etc also just takes slower. Wether you think Chilchuck will largely be open and comfortable once the confession’s done and they’re dating, or if him opening up and growing used to being loving and loved again is more gradual even throughout their romantic relationship, his love languages will differ depending on what "stage" he is at. For example, I think he’d actually love receiving words of affirmation, they’re just not his highest priority and he needs to highly value them and trust them first, trust that they’re not lies or that you don’t have shit judgement. For the rest of this though I’ll assume they’ve been dating for a good while and have grown used to it and are very familiar with each other. Like Marcille maybe his insecurities creep up on him sometimes, but with the power of communication and support those moments tend to be short lived 💪 She keeps him from using alcohol as a bad coping mechanism & distraction too much.
Ok so starting out with quality time… I’ll get it out of the way but yes I think they’d be sexually active, though with how they work away from each other like with his wife and he spent 4 years holding out fr her his libido isn’t as intense as we’d asssume I think, and for elves "often" might be like once a month, so who knows. This is gonna come back in the physical touch section~ But yes Chilchuck spent a lot of time away from his family, so I think if he values quality time he super values the quality more than the quantity of time spent together. That said, I also headcanon that he gets stuck in his head a bunch about it so as long as he thinks about his family to motivate him on the job for example, he also half-asses the time he spends home and he’s generally too tired to go out and do big things, just wanna relax, so idk!! He might be a bit of a neglectful lover and Marcille needs to poke him so they go out on dates, but yes I think in a similar way to Marcille he really appreciates the time just spent together, even if it’s working on their own thing in the same room. As for conversations or emotionally meaningful moments, I think emotional stuff tires him out quickly, unlike with Marcille where she seeks emotional stimulation from books, so spending time being heartfelt and vulnerable together would be appreciated, but would need to be kinda rare for him to not be exhausted dead lying on the pavement and unable to keep up. Feeling gets him tired too, he never knows wether to repress or let the love grow or how to word what he’s feeling etc etc. At least at first, dates that are activities and allows him to just have fun without thinking much are best. It’ll take him time to grow more used to feeling emotionally naked with her and for it to come more easily and naturally, but they’ll get there and they’ll be sooo domestic.
So in the end! Quality time is appreciated but not particularly important, Chilchuck can really keeps the love going even when spending a loooong time away from each other or keeping the moments spent together casual. Oh yes I haven’t gone into that in any of my posts so far I think, but part of why he’s so casual and seemingly dismissive with his wife imo is because the relationship was sooo based on familiarity, respect and trust to him, they’ve been together forever, he trusted that they loved each other and were in this together and that he didn’t have to be extra for her to feel comfortable in the relationship because he trusted that she knew him well enough, trusted that she would stay with him even if their relationship wasn’t perfect, etc etc. So imo as long as he’s like "I love her and that’s enough for me, I trust that if there’s something up she’ll tell me and we can figure it out, I trust in our relationship to stay strong even if we don’t see each other much" then he can seem very casual and neglectful from an outside perspective. But make no mistake he thinks about her all the time and sighs forlornly because he wants to sleep in her arms after a hard day of work and has horny dreams of her 10/10 she matters a lot to him.
Acts of service!!! Biiig big one, there’s little more that Chilchuck values receiving than respect, though he’s much more stingy about giving it out, what with his teasing and insulting snappy remarks and how he’s always laughing at Marcille in canon. But yes like mentioned just before, Chilchuck likes familiarity in a relationship, so his partner anticipating his needs and going out of their way to do services for him would be suuper appreciated and would make him feel loved, would make him feel understood which in turn makes him feel safe that he doesn’t have to try and be someone he’s not to satisfy her and that she understands him well enough that she wouldn’t leave him due to miscommunication. Doing big favors would also be appreciated, but he prefers to live a routinely daily life imo so the acts of service would show themselves in small ways, like idk letting the water run in the bath because he knows Marcille will want to take a relaxing bath when she comes home from work. It’s definitely the love language that he does/give out the most imo, they’re the way he’s most comfortable showing that he cares and that he thinks of them and that he loves them, and he can feel safe doing them in any context wether he has all the eyes in the world on him or if they’re alone. He’s also generally protective, and looking out for her would fit into this category imo. But yes post-canon, I think one way in which this shows is that he’d do her hairdos, maybe even daily if possible. He loves blonde hair and he’s agile with his fingers, but he doesn’t value complicated hairdos much, but he’d learn a lot of hairdos for her, because he loves her and knows how it was once super important to her, and also bc he wants her to slay out there and at the same time he’s doing himself a favor by prettying it up hehe. He had a thing for undone long hair but he loves Marcille and when in the final chapters her hair was all messy the unfamiliar sight of it unsettled him, so besides just wanting her to get through the day without eating her hair and getting the urge to shave it all off, he also just does it because it feels so her and he remembers that side of her fondly (yes, even if that used to make her take even longer to get ready in the mornings).
Might surprise you might not but I think gifts are everything to him. Like the cowl from his daughter that he always wears, and all the mementos from his family we see he keeps in his room, like the dragon plush and the flower. Maybe they help him feel that the love people hold for him is real and exists/has existed at least at one point, maybe it’s about the memories, maybe it’s about being able to keep hanging onto them even after a relationship is over, idk!!!! But I think having gifts from his loved ones makes him feel like his life is fuller and warmer and like he always has some love surrounding him. For that reason he would super value gifts that Marcille would get for him. She overdoes it a bit and often gets him stuff for no particular occasions, mostly stuff that’s useful and that gets consumed so it’s not a problem or a bother though, but when it sticks it sticks, like a durable pair of gloves in a style he likes that she got for him. I don’t think photographs exist (at least not for the non-dwarves) but if they did oooh he’d be keeping stacks of them, would have some framed, he wouldn’t want people to know because he thinks he’d look corny but he wouuuuuld. He’d also have the "this reminds me of Marcille" moments when out into town, looking at jewelry or food that she likes (I imagine this is often the sort of gift/act of service he’d get for her, meals that he picked out because she loves them), but he’d also have the instinct to get her a gift on special occasions, and he’s s bit clumsy with it but he wants to make the item meaningful. He knows what she thinks is romantic, the woman has made plans for him to apologize to his wife with gifts after all, but he also knows that she loves gifts that scream "him" too so the man just doesn’t know what to do to make it as best as he could and he really doesn’t want to fuck it up. I think once he’d made a little metal sculpture-puzzle for her, like a little rabbit out of metal scraps, and he’d be so self-conscious about it but my god she’d adore it sooo much. It’d be cute if he got her a locket, even, and then with the help of imported dwarven technology they could get a picture of them or even all their friends into it and it becomes her most precious item for the following centuries. Ouuugh that’d make a sweet fic where he plans out a birthday party for her……
But yes yes, practical gifts… He knows she values ornamental useless things, unlike him, and though he doesn’t fully approve he also wants to do right by her so he’d go out of his comfort zone and find pretty gifts for her. I touch upon it a bit in my fic Grind Me Down Sweetly (named bc ground coffee beans & it’s meant to be like her slowly getting through the walls he built around himself :] Finding a newfound vulnerability with someone new but finding it soothing, sweet even if a lil bitter bc it’s coffee), and for example he gives her money for a favor she did for him as a friend. She doesn’t want to accept it, because to her doing something for her friend to help them out is more meaningful than getting rewarded for it, but for him respecting each other’s time and abilities is a big thing too. They end up compromising somewhat, because she then spends that money on gifts for him/them to share, so it ends up being a gift to the both of them for a shared effort~
Alrighty physical touch. In canon we see him get touched quite a lot, and when it isn’t patronizing or crowding (like others going to pet his head) he doesn’t seem to mind at all. But it’s a question of wether he’d enjoy it here. We don’t really saw that I think? He often doesn’t mind touching others but usually his touches have a practical purpose like pushing or pulling someone out of danger, and when it isn’t he doesn’t seem to enjoy it, like when Izutsumi sleeps in his bed. As far as I remember the only time we see him happy for touch beyond the few meaningful hugs like when he wanted the party to head back to the surface, was when his succubi were seducing him, sooo overall I get the feeling he’s not big on touch. Like being open with his feelings it’s something he’d keep for the more occasional time rather than something he does often. He is casual with touches but doesn’t give it out and seek it out naturally, so Marcille being very clingy’s not a problem, and as we see with Izutsumi always sleeping with him he’s ready to sacrifice his comfort for others too sometimes. I think being Marcille’s lover though I feel like he’d warm up to touches more, like she’d love to have him rest his head on her lap and to massage his scalp so eventually Chil looks forward to that as part of their routine and it relaxes him and feels right. I think he does like kissing, the routine goodbye peck feels warm and soothing, but with touch what he’d like the most would be making out and having sex and whatnot. Listen it’s super meaningful to him like, the peak of being vulnerable and naked and pouring out his emotions for someone for him. But yes she hangs onto his arm, holds his hand, goes to hug him from behind when he’s cooking, etc etc, and he doesn’t dislike it, but it’s not one of his love languages perse in that sense. It’s more that physical touches are a part of her, so he associates those with her, and so in a way he quite likes them, but it’s nit something he gravitates towards.
Words! I forget what I’ve mentioned already and what I haven’t oof, but yes Chilchuck values respect a lot, and with his last relationship he now values straightforward communication a lot. "If you want to leave me, at least please tell me first" style. But just with the way he is in canon too, where he hypes up his professional skills a lot, getting earned praised does mean something to him. Inversely, he devalues himself interpersonally quite a bit, calling himself a coward or selfish etc etc, and ultimately it’s Marcille telling him that he was a virtuous husband and that he may still have a shot with his wife that makes him see the glass half full and reflect on himself more positively! Remember what I said about Chilchuck first needing to value someone’s opinion before putting stock in their words? This is the canon moment that makes me feel the most like she earned that trust from him, he values what she says and her perspective. He knows her words aren’t empty and he’s able to trust in them more than he trusts his own judgement about himself. So yes yes, he loves getting told that he has qualities, that he’s skilled and manly and handsome and virtuous and kind, though he doesn’t need to be told "I love you" he’d still find it nice ofc. I say this because as I’ve said I think his way of being in a longterm relationship is soaking in the familiar casual soothing energy of it, he loves knowing her and noticing the little things (much like her with how she notices that he hates having to wait on someone for example), and he trusts her love in him, so he doesn’t feel like being told I love you is necessary, but it is a nice bonus.
And this is the bit where the post I linked at the beginning becomes especially relevant. I think Chilchuck shows his affection in subtle but thoughtful ways that showcase just how much they know each other, because to him love languages are less about proving how much love one holds for another but about defining the bond that they share, about quality more than quantity. He’s not one for big gestures, he just wants to feel connected with the person he’s with. Access intimacy, in-jokes, being protective/attack dogism, knowing the little details (Marcille’s favorite) and voluntary vulnerability… These truly ARE more in line with how Chilchuck shows his affection. And thus Marcille would see them for what they are and greatly value them as well.
Last points
… Help I forgot to talk about how teasing is like their whole thing lol
Ok so more concisely, Marcille will receive and give as much affection as she’s allowed, while Chilchuck needs to have the right setting right mood for it and makes more efforts for her sake to outwardly show it.
Edited in: Short section about pet names!! Chilchuck likes to call people by name and finds that in itself to be intimate but with half-foot names having ‘first names’ where Chilchuck’s is Chil, he might instinctively shorten it to Marci. Otherwise I’ve thought it’d fun if he gave bunny themed pet names teasingly, like his silly rabbit like the meme or harebrain rip, ‘bun’ would have the benefit of being related to food…
But also I could see him defaulting to calling her ‘love’, ESPECIALLY if they had a conversation about pet names and discussed it- it could be a more sustainable way for her to feel loved since he’s not regularly showing his affection outwardly much or saying "I love you", that’d be sooo sweet I think. They discussed pet names, and since he doesn’t regularly say "I love you" or show affection all that much, having him call her love as a pet name eases all of that and makes her feel so special and loved. He takes a bit of time to get used to it and not feel silly and self-conscious, but nowadays it slips off the tongue so easily.
How do they communicate their wants for affection:
Marcille will blatantly ask for it and/or make the first move herself, except for when she senses that Chil is tired and needs his space.
Chilchuck will blink in morse code, and Marcille will somehow understand (to his upmost relief and adoration). He’ll grab her sleeve subtly to ask for her attention and touch, wordlessly walk up to her and reach for her face to leave a tender kiss on her lips, quietly speak to her if he wants to tell her something. And, you know, the other half of the time he feels horny and on top of the world so he indulges her wants for big passionate gestures and being very blunt and forward about it.
What do they view as signs of affection:
They recognize each other’s way of showing affection well enough, but it’d be more about which signs they prefer I’d say. For example, Chilchuck does love getting smothered by her kisses and affection sometimes, but if it’s in public 99% of the time the embarrassment will win over, so it ends up meaning more to him that she doesn’t, that she holds back for his sake and she loves him enough to do that and she doesn’t blame him for it and she cares and she would stay with him even if he’s maybe flawed and- It means a lot!!! It’s like an act of service in that way.
They compromise and do acts of service sooo much for each other, like she hurries in her care routine so he doesn’t have to wait on her for long, but then he sees her get out ready with her hair a mess and he takes the time to tie it up nicely for her.
But yes Marcille overanalyzes everything and will seek out signs of affection into literally anything, but values whichever way to show affection she knows is hardest to do for Chil beyond the ones that feel so heartwarming because they just scream "Chil" to her. Meanwhile Chilchuck values her keeping in mind his boundaries, values her words and her being there for him, an unchanging fixture in his life offering him unconditional love through thick and thin. He values how well they know and understand each other, and how they communicate when things don’t feel as easy. Like, you know, when one of them becomes a dungeon lord and threatens humanity for example.
The compromises that being in a romantic relationship inevitably brings, and having to put some efforts to understand the other person and better the relationship, are points at the heart of Chilchuck’s plot with his wife imo. With the bicorn chapter, Marcille and Chilchuck have already hashed out a lot of their differences and come to a deeper understanding, so I’d say they’re halfway there to making it work :) Oohh what if I gave you hope in the world sometimes being a good bright p’ace where things can go right and love can be fulfilling and rewarding, and what if you gave me a concrete real example of the virtuous man figure that I’ve always idealized in books even if no one real can be as flawless, and the compromise both our outlooks on lives mixed to make made something beautiful and productive…
A bit like how the sweet & salty sandwich feels like an ill-fitting mix of ingredients but still tastes surprisingly good… Like perhaps a sweet woman and a sour man would go well together after all.
I’ll share this lil marchil song analysis @thatsmimi did once of Soap by The Oh Hellos to be the note I leave this post on~
#Ask#Marchil#Sorry according to my dates this was asked on like the first of december aka 2 months ago. I had 67 drafts when writing this up at first#Which dates it a lot already lmao#About the Marcille changes her fave love language depending on her partner thing: for farcille I think it’d be gifts and acts of service#For laimar I think it’d be words and acts of service and- Dammit it also depends on when in the timeline it’s set#Marcille donato#chilchuck tims#dungeon meshi#delicious in dungeon#Yahoo I am now freeeeeee#Spoilers#dungeon meshi manga spoilers#Love languages#character analysis#ship analysis#analysis#This is 6k words#Headcanons#I feel so 🤓 rn I’m sorryyy I just love this topic it’s like getting to the core of each character’s psychology and shit it’s so AAAAAH#Handing you this post like a cat bringing you a bird’s corpse#They’re literally bittersweet ough they get to me
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I'm so late to this but this took me longer than expected. Had to take some specific screenshot hehehe
B A S I C S
Full name: Audhild Ubriel
Gender: Female
Sexuality: Pansexual
Pronouns: She/her
O T H E R
Family: Audhild came from a family of druids though due to her siblings and including herself pursuing different types of careers most of the family has been scattered throughout Faerun. They do regularly keep in touch.
Father: A mostly retired druid that specializes in animal handling in their grove
Mother: Part of higher ranking druids in their grove
Siblings: Has three older siblings and two younger siblings
Birthplace: Baldur's Gate
Job: Glassmaker
Phobias: Trypanophobia (needles; caused by Volo)
Guilty pleasures: Shopping
Hobbies: Home decorating, candle making
M O R A L S
Alignment: Chaotic Good
Sins: Gluttony & Wrath
Virtues: Humility & Kindness
T H I S O R T H A T
Introvert / Extrovert/ Ambivert
Organized / Disorganized
Close-minded / Open-minded
Calm / Anxious / Restless
Disagreeable / Agreeable / In between
Cautious / Reckless / In between
Patient / Impatient / In between
Outspoken / Reserved / In between
Leader / Follower / Flexible
Empathetic / Unempathetic / In between
Optimist / Pessimist / Realist
Traditional / Modern / In between
Hard-working / Lazy
R E L A T I O N S H I P S
OTP: Audhild x Gale
Acceptable ships: Audhild x Halsin
OT3: Audhild x Gale x Halsin
BROTP: Audhild x Karlach, Audhild x Wyll
NoTP: Audhild x Astarion
B A S I C S
Full name: Aoide Kilharel
Gender: Female
Sexuality: Bisexual
Pronouns: She/her
O T H E R
Family: Aoide had a tight knit and boisterous family before all the members of her clan suddenly passed away due to an unfortunate accident in their family home. No foul play happened, just an unfortunate accident.
Father: Grandson of the original founder of their Seldarine commune
Mother: Late matriarch of their family's Seldarine commune
Siblings: Has 4 older siblings - 2 older sisters and 2 older brothers
Birthplace: On the surface
Job: Temporary matriarch of the commune (originally an emissary)
Phobias: Atychiphobia (failure) & Athazagoraphobia (being forgotten or forgetting someone)
Guilty pleasures: Sweet fruity tarts
Hobbies: Wood carving, animal caring, botany
M O R A L S
Alignment: Neutral Good
Sins: Sloth & Pride
Virtues: Patience & Kindness
T H I S O R T H A T
Introvert / Extrovert/ Ambivert
Organized / Disorganized
Close-minded / Open-minded
Calm / Anxious / Restless
Disagreeable / Agreeable / In between
Cautious / Reckless / In between
Patient / Impatient / In between
Outspoken / Reserved / In between
Leader / Follower / Flexible
Empathetic / Unempathetic / In between
Optimist / Pessimist / Realist
Traditional / Modern / In between
Hard-working / Lazy
R E L A T I O N S H I P S
OTP: Aoide x Gale
Acceptable ships: Aoide x Astarion, Aoide x Lae'zel
OT3: Aoide x Gale x Simulacrum of Gale
BROTP: Aoide x Shadowheart, Aoide x Minthara
NoTP: Aoide x Karlach
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tagging randomly from mutuals, to i like your username, i see you have a tav dp. You can ignore this if you want too especially if you have done it already
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Do you have any Lewis/lando/max fics you could recommend??
this is apparently Such A Rarepair that ao3 doesn't even have the lewis/lando/max as one tag. granted, the two fics i could find also didn't use this tag so ://. anyway! take this as an invite, the red white blue girlies need more of our two brits and dutchman!
here's what i could find <3
✬🏎 4433 fic recs: with Lando edition 🏎✬
welcome everyone to this special fic rec list: 44334 - fics where, in whatever order, lewis/max/lando are together. unfortunately there's only two fics written (thank you, visionaries!) so please see this as an invite to write these three more! as far as i know these are the only fics in this ot3 ship! enjoy!
AO3 collection with all my Formula One bookmarks
general favorite fics in the 4433 ship
favorite christmas fics in the 4433 ship
favorite omegaverse fics in the 4433 ship
favorite 4433+16 fics
always be sure to check the accurate and updated tags on the fic itself (i only copy a few)! if your fic is on here and you'd like me to link your tumblr then just comment below and i'll add it :)
✬ A special way of celebrating by queenofblasphemy | E | 2,8k | complete
established norstappen / rough sex / daddy kink / face slapping / dom!max
Lando pouts in protest but his eyes betray him. They practically glow at the challenge - always an F1 driver first, never backing down. It's why all of this even started anyway, during an evening with way too many drinks and a silly drinking game between the two of them. And it's great, in more ways than one: Lando is driving so much better after they started doing this.
Or: Lando goes to Max for his reward after qualifying at the '23 Silverstone GP.
✬ Golden Fish by opsoliv | E | 4,1k | complete
established norstappen / threesome / bottom max - top lando / piercings
"You took 2nd place so I'll be your goldfish tonight. I'll grant you one wish. Use it wisely" Max said smiling at Lando
Or
Lando wants a threesome with Lewis and Max
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askbox always open for your favourite 4433(4) fics! i love to know what you love to read. this list is not complete (nor will it ever be). this IS AN INVITE to everyone reading all the way to here to write 44334 heheh! enjoy reading!
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2, 10, 13, 18 & pick whichever character/s for the character specific one hehehe
2. OT3.
Avenger Agenda. Give me the dumb edgelords any day. I love tsundere Jalter, tragic Salieri, and “no I’ll never explain a thing” Dantes. I love that they are on the same wavelength and I want to think they have a soft spot for the other.
I…. I don’t think I have any other OT3s??? I do like polyamory in ships but it’s usually the case of sharing a blorbo than saying “us 3 are exclusive”
10. What’s your favourite piece of fan art of [character]?
I’m choosing Avenger Agenda, and I choose this one.
13. What’s a character or ship you haven’t written/drawn yet but would like to?
Several Mozart ships bc I like inflicting him on others. Yashiki/Mashita from Deathmark bc they are cute. Hirouma I need to draw, desperately.
18. Type [Avenger Agenda] and tell us what autocomplete suggests as the next word.
“Avenger agenda and a lot of the things that have happened in this election”
??? The fuck.
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Fandom- Zero Escape!
Favorite character: Light hehehe
Least favorite character: Eric when i fucking GET you….Hongou and 9th Man had Something compelling going on at least. What does Eric have that’s compelling? Nothing
5 favorite ships: Aoilight, Junepei, Diokyle, Sigdi, C Team OT3 HOW COULD I HAVE FORGOTTEN THEM
Character I find most attractive: Light
Character I would marry: Light again…..yeah my bias is showing
Character I would be best friends with: Diana :)
A random thought: Carlos went to Dashcon as a teenager and he still tells that story to this day
An unpopular opinion: Just because Akane mentioned God once doesn’t mean she was talking about the Christian one!!!! I’m putting the Catholic Akane joke up on the shelf until we can understand that for real. It was funny the first couple times, but oh my God it’s gotten old
My canon OTP: Junepei….goddd they make me want to eat glass
Non-canon OTP: Aoilight which ive already gone into detail about in the previous ask
Most badass character: Akane is metal as hell, like I always think about how she had to ensure her own existence and then her ENTIRE DEAL AAAGGGHHH SHE’S EVERYTHING TO ME (screaming incoherently)
Pairing I am not a fan of: Dioluna (eye twitching)
Character I feel the writers screwed up: Kyle my beloved I’m so sorry that they didn’t give you any spotlight in ZTD like they were supposed to
Favorite friendship: Clover and Junpei :)
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😡, ❤️,💞! - Yumedanshi
Hehehe thank youuuu! @yumedanshi I'm gonna do this for my American Horror Story s/i in a very odd AU where the first season is a romcom/horror blend
(questions for if your self-insert was canon)
😡: How would someone who hated you portray you?
Ditzy as fuck! The people who want the show to be more gritty would be very pissed off with me. I think people would definitely just write me as a clueless idiot.
❤️: How popular is you x your f/o? Are you a rarepair?
We're literally canon so we're also very popular!! Our shippers are soooo annoying that people kind of try and distance themselves from the whole fandom though. It's also a very controversial pairing because y'know ghost frozen at high school age etc etc
💞: Aside from with your f/o, who else would you commonly be shipped with? Why?
Oooh good question! I feel like maybe Tate/Nora/Echo would be an OT3 that some people go for?
There's not a lot of good male characters and femslash is super rare so I feel like honestly Tate/Echo would kind of take the whole cake when it came to shipping me with people from the show.
These questions are so much fun aaaaa I'm so glad someone made this list!!!!
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LSKDJFKLSDF hi dear!!!! i'm assuming this is 4x of the envelope ask 💜 so i will be doing it 4 times for 4 diff wips lmao for context (x)
💌share something with us about an up-and-coming work (WIP) that has you excited!
i am reaching the final stretch (fingers crossed) of a wip that's been in progress since the beginning of 2022! it's one of my goals this year to finish 3 of my 6 longfic wips, and this is one of them. the current title of the fic is literally 'massively self indulgent smut' cause...well, it speaks for itself i think LMAO but really this fic was my first step into writing ovipos? and didn't end up being the first fic i posted with ovipos/eggs but that's where the 'self indulgent' bit comes in lmao. i had a TON of fun with the lore i invented for this story as well? it's a royalty au and although i'm p sure most of the backstory never makes it into the fic itself it's been a blast coming up with it lmao. it's also probably one of my most ambitious fics given that i'm trying to balance a ton of pairings/ot3s/more??? skdflksdkfj but it's been a long time in the works and i'm very excited to hopefully finish it soon, i have a good 2.5 scenes left to work on!!!!
*twirling hair* so there's these fics- no really tho i recently dipped my toes into blue lock (by which i mean i plunged headfirst) and a very dear friend of mine (hi @alienjack !!!!!!) opened my eyes to kaisae as a ship and had a cute lil idea to do kaisae july (it rhymes!!!!) and before i knew it i had not one not two but thREE really just silly fun soft fics for the occasion? and like. i'm talking 'i have reread all three of these at least 3-4 times each' kind of kicking my feet twirling my hair abt them lmao. i can't pick faves BUT i got to incorporate my silly hc that sae swears a lot when he speaks english into one of them! lmao
digging into the archives for this one cause it's on my list of ones i'd love to make real progress on/maybe finish, but i have a tdbktd boarding school longfic with "bad kid" bkg (who isn't really that bad at all, actually top of the class and earning the school awards) and actual lowkey bad kid tdrk that gets shoved in bkg's hands to deal with/tutor/keep under control, just a bunch of like. teen angst type stuff lmao. i really like the idea of bkg being SUCH a good kid in spite of what he projects and tdrk so sick of being forced into a role by his dad that he's trying SO hard to stay rebellious and they meet in the middle somewhere 👏👏
back on the subject of bllk swinging SO wildly in the opposite direction, i'm working on a sorta collab piece with a friend of mine for a kaisagi serial killer/detective au. and like. not to be like 'i'm so stupid excited abt this fic' but like. i'm very much a "write in order, always" type writer and i fully caved and wrote a particular (spicy) scene that takes place almost at the end of the fic before writing ANYTHING else cause it had me in a chokehold lmao fr i'm so hyped abt this one???? i have like one more scene to go in this (saving the best for last 😏) and i'm SUPER excited with how it's come along so far so if ur into kaisagi get excited too hehehe
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Kakairu for the first ask and Kakashi for the second!!
Hehehe I should've known I get Kakashi stuff from you <3
KakaIru:
Don't Ship It
1. Why don't you ship it?
I don't really have a reason not to hdzsgdhsa I just don't think they are very interesting together (no offense of course). They are both very cute and great characters but I never really considered them together as partners.
2. What would have made you like it?
It's not that I DISLIKE the idea of them together. I think I would just need to invest my time in exploring their dynamics together more, that's all.
3. Despite not shipping it, do you have anything positive to say about it?
I can imagine that they could be really sweet with each other! I think Kakashi would probably treat him similar as to how he would treat Yamato lmao, so I can definetly see the appeal of them.
Kakashi:
1. Favorite thing about them?
I love his kind of lazy personality and how he always looks like he doesn't give a shit about anything but actually he deeply cares about everything and everyone <3
2. Least favorite thing about them?
He bullied Obito as a child and that was very rude of him >:(
3. Favorite line?
When he talks about not wanting to let his friends and comrades die all the time, because it gives me a lot of Team Minato feelings
4. brOTP
KakaGai! I think they are so fun together and clearly are very healthy for each other and that's very important to me.
5. OTP
SURPRISEEE to everyon but it's definetly ObiKaka. They are just so... SOO... So dramatic and sad and hurtful and who am I not to love it. Even better in an OT3 together with Rin hehehe.
6. nOTP
Hmmm KakaIru? Bdhshyvhshss No idk really nothing comes to mind because I'm not a die-hard Kakashi fan haha.
7. Random headcanon
He always has dog hair on his clothes and smells like a wet sog (affectionately). Also he DEFINETLY has a fursona.
8. Unpopular opinion
I don't think I have any particular unpopular opinions about him ngl. I am basic when it comes to him.
9. Song I associate them with?
Maps - Maroon 5. It's actually an obkk song for me but it's the first thing on my mind when I think about this question!
10. Favorite picture of him?
All the manga panels where he and Obito do "the thing" (when you see half of each others faces with the Sharingan activating). Also anything where he is a comfortable old man.
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Tumblr only just showed me that @ksjundel2003 tagged me with this just now, as technology does. I'll always take the chance to ramble (also thank u for the compliment ahhh :D). These ended up being essays hahahaaaha
1. Three Ships: Uhhh so I'm in a weird place where I'm not actively shipping anything. Like don't get me wrong I still love many ships (I'm a super multi shipper, I have no idea how people dedicate their online everything to one ship) I'm just currently not actively pursuing certain ship tags rn... Hmm hxh's return reminded me of how much I love Leopika, I got into fe3h in this last year and I've read a silly amount of dimiclaude. Also finally got around to getting into mp100 and Terumob is so cute.
Genshin thats what people are here for but if I'm honest while I still am very into the game, I haven't read genshin fic consistently for a while and thats how I interact with shipping the most. Like I love Chili, theres a reason I have plans for that ship, but I haven't read a fic with them in forever (and in the more recent examples it was me searching for found fam harb content). I also adore Kaebedo but same story. I love a lot of genshin ships, many 'contradictory' (love Zhongven as well for example), I just haven't been brainrotting about any of them for a while. God that sounds so morose pfft, its really me just letting my brain take a break and experience other things! Also just know I do think about the final planned Zhongli and Childe scene in this fic (well for the main fic at least) every once in a while and grin like a loon. Hehehe I love it so much and rip its so far away (though also once I get there it'll be right near the end and that thought makes me sad).
Also I think about my fic specific ships a lot too. Sandy and Nella for example have a scene that brings me much amusement in a couple chapters (those 2 always bring me joy). Also I've been recently thinking about the ot3 that's a big old spoiler. There's this angsty but also hopeful romantic scene that's been banging around in my head that I literally can't use in my fic it doesn't work with the timeline. But I love it, maybe an eventual bonus chap. (all I'll say on this ot3 is that at least 1 person is a harb). And taras x any harb that isn't his bro, my favorite running gag I take too seriously. Also Madame Volkov x Tsar, I can't wait to reveal why that ship cracks me up (also weirdly angsty).
uhhh that was way too long of an answer um sorry.
2. First ever ship: God I don't know. Probably amuto from Shugo Chara (I was elementary/middle school, the age gap did not clock as weird then). However my first ship with taste was Soulsilvershipping from pokemon (god we need to bring back that ship name format, so fun). I didn't have fictional crushes the same way most seemed to, however what was close enough was Silver Pokemon my beloved. He spawned my love of grumpy long haired red heads so when I saw Diluc for the first time I remember going fuck I'm gonna love him (and I did haha).
3. Last song: uhhh fun fact I'm not a music person at all. As a child I hated it pfft, while I grew out of that I still have no idea what I'm doing with it. 90% of the music I listen to is from animatics (and back in the day from amvs) or musicals because plot. And u know u find a lot of musicals because of animatics its a cycle. However saying that I was listening to Ricky Montgomery, idk why.
4. Last movie: my parents were like we're watching a movie as a fam and in true Christmas spirit we watched Top Gun Maverick pfft. tbh the movie was fine but not the stunning piece of cinema everyone seemed to be saying... also super military propaganda but we all knew that
5. Currently reading? I'm catching up on the Ascendance of a Bookworm Light Novels (I'm on the last book in part 4 and I have part 5 #1 ready). I've also been really slowly reading through (and got back into after almost a year accidental break) Lout of the Counts Family. Also hunter x hunter (my brain is filled with Sheila theories, despite being the Harbinger found fam fic writer I don't care about the troop lol, just Sheila). I also have some DC comics open in my tabs because I want to watch the newest comicpop back issues episode. Its sort of strange I've been on a reading fan fic break of sorts haha, reading lots of original stuff.
6. Currently watching? uhhhh Mob Psycho though that just ended. Also me and my sis are watching Miraculous together. We used to watch it years ago and we are watching all the stuff we missed and cringing. I also am constantly watching lots of video essays, love a good video essay to put on while doing other things like playing genshin/art/etc
7. Currently consuming? We have a holiday party every year and my dad makes his amazing to die for lasagna (we are not remotely italian, but everyone we know says its amazing). So I've been eating those leftovers and having a time.
8. Currently craving? validation uhhh free time maybe. I had so much free time while I was away at school (well more like I should have been working on stuff time, but it was time I could organize myself). I'm home and between Christmas and parties and my grandparents/Cousins/feels like everyone visiting I've had no time for myself. I love seeing my cute baby cousins I don't get to see too often but its a lot. Also a job, I don't want to have to job but it'll get my mother off my case.
Well that ended on a too serious note haha. Also this was way too long and I have no idea who to tag and I'm anxious so uh, no one I guess. I must now return to my chaotic life, as one does.
#avem rambling#avem's asks#i'll count this as an ask#this was very top heavy but its fine lol#my complicated shipping thoughts#also if anyone wants to contribute to this go ahead!#I just have always been terrible at tagging people in these sorts of things#I'm also just bad at engaging with people over the internet in general...#despite the fact that I sounded sort of distressed at the end#I really did enjoy doing this!#it was fun I just get a bit too honest sometimes lol
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for the ask game…… criminal minds? 🫣
(from this ask game!)
hehehe THANK YOU I haven't talked about criminal minds on here in forever
favorite character: Toss up between Hotch and Emily I can't choose
least favorite character: JJ world's worst girlboss. yes we KNOW you're a mom. we get it.
brOTP: whatever the fuck Derek, Hotch, and Emily have going on I love their dynamic so much. I also just love all three of them on their own.
OTP: Wow gonna be basic and say Derek/Spencer they should have kissed. Derek/Penelope is also HIGH on the list
OT3: ohhh idk when I was in the online fandom I read a few really good Derek/Penelope/Spencer fics, but I don't seek it out, you know? Generally (and especially when I'm not ask big into the online fandom bc I don't have to see people being weird) I'm a multishipper and unless there's something wrong with the ship I'm down with anything. That being said,
NOTP: I do not vibe with Jemily. I do not vibe with JJ at all
favorite storyline: the beginning of season 4 with Hotch getting blown up literally while his personal life blows up figuratively. get him.
least favorite storyline: Spencer and whatsherface. his girlfriend. idk if you've gotten there yet so I won't say anything other than a.) Spencer is gay to me and b.) the arc itself was really rushed and poorly done.
what I wish had happened but didn’t: Derek and Penelope should make out for a whole episode
what happened that I wish hadn’t: Pretty much everything after the end of season 9. After that, the show lost everything about it that drew me in the first place. Shockingly, I actually don't like procedurals/cop shows/detective shows. Criminal Minds is the only one I can tolerate and whatever it was that made it special to me disappeared as the seasons went on. I still really enjoy everything before that, though, and I will sometimes skip ahead to watch the Mr. Scratch arc bc it's my duty as a Hotch Girl
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Can I just Ramble abt cr2 ships;;; (spoilers till ep 69)
I'm so into fjorclay rn for the mutual angst and pine potential heheh also w how cad is helping fjord heal and overcome his patron induced trauma ... 🥺 I read a fic where cad finds his destiny/purpose in helping fjord and !!! HHHHH
They are SAVING E/O....
I love them as a soft fluffy couple !
Maybe I will come back to fjordgast or clayleb. Or maybe an ot3 who knows .. but rn .. BRRR fjorclay / teahaw only
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for the ot3 ask game hehehe:
Who teases the others the most?
Who proposes?
Who is the most protective?
spare some good ship food uwu <3
DGSKEBKEJRJR DAMNIT HANA I KNEW YOU WOULD DO THIS-
Who teases the others the most?
Oh god........hmm I would say Neige teases Riddle and Ame the most, though Riddle has plenty of moments of teasing back. Poor Ame gets flustered too easily so she can't fight back at all. AND DONT GET ME STARTED ON THE GUYS WORKING TOGETHER AGAINST HER FFS-
Who proposes?
Definitely Riddle, it was during one of their tea parties (probably on the anniversary that they got together no less) and let me tell you the other two cried an ocean. It didn't help that Riddle said he was willing to throw away his name and run away from his mother if it meant being with them. They tackle hugged him screaming yes.
Who's the most protective?
Honestly....they're all protective in some way, like Neige is more emotionally protective (meaning he's like the person who anchors the others emotions) and Riddle is more physical protective, since I can see him being a bit possessive (like in a good comforting way, not in the bad way). Ame is an inbetween, she tries best though most often its her that needs to be protected cause she's oblivious as fuck-
#ot3 ask game#roseblanc#FUCK NOW IM THINKING ABOUT NEIGE AND RIDDLE GANGING UP ON ME NOOOOOOO#CRYING I CANT HANDLE TEASING I HATE THIS#TEASING GETS ME TOO FLUSTERED
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Abigail for the ask! Or Skwisgaar hehehe
why not both because uh…abigaar rights. yeah.
ladies first~
do I like them: yes!
5 good qualities: hard working, funny, determined, talented and mischievous (affectionate) (see shipping a whole ass band to a different country)
3 bad qualities: idk how to word it in just three words but she has like “hardworking protag in a hallmark movie who doesn’t have TIME for fun because she’s busy with WORK” vibes
favourite episode/etc: it’s a shame that she’s introduced in my least favorite season and her moments are usually tied up in being a love interest/The Girl but her laughing at the band and their jerk off carpal tunnel in goingdownklok is good :)
otp: i’m torn between abigaar and ambergail (and a oc/canon thing me and @mmortelumina talk about but-) but if i HAD to pick…i can’t :(
brotp: her and charles…i love the idea of abigail also being honestly an awkward introverted nerd who gets along with him PERFECTLY
ot3: abigail/amber/melmord momento mori comic style fanon dethklok aus shenanigans. is this anything.
notp: magnus/abigail 🤺 away 🤺
best quote: …i’ve forgotten everything this woman ever said i’m so sorry
head canon: she’s a salt water girl. woe upon whoever asks her “is that just a tank with rocks” because that is her REEF TANK and those corals are Expensive, Okay
skwisgaar~
do I like them: he has grown on me since i first watched the show as a kid, but yes
5 good qualities: talented, studious, hard working, protective and a loyal friend
3 bad qualities: impatient, quick tempered and idk exactly how to phrase this but he’s a terminal people pleaser
favourite episode/etc: skwisklok is such a good episode period and one of his few actual episodes. but his best moment was the “come on crosby stills and nash-“ moment with nathan making fun of murderface
otp: skwistok
brotp: one day i will do something with my idea that skwisgaar is obsessed with the weird shit seth gets into. they aren’t friends but they are bros (nathan distantly is like “i can take you four wheeling dude stop bringing him everywhere”)
ot3: nathan/toki/skwisgaar aka “gee nathan how come you get to kiss TWO guitarists”
notp: eh? i don’t have any specific one for him idk
best quote: “takes you under my flippers”
head canon: he had an aunt that paid for his music lessons and got him his first guitar. he loves his aunt, spent a lot of time with her as a kid
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For the ask game, 001- BaroRyuu and 002- Barok van Zieks! :D
OH BOY BUCKLE UP
will contain dgs-dgs2 spoilers so anyone reading who hasn't finished the games, DONT LOOK LOL
baroryuu
- when I started shipping it
oh god oh jeez. it was after I'd finished the games actually, I wasn't into it at first. I think fanfic converted me and now I'm feral LOL
- my thoughts
HHEHRHRHEHRHRHRHHRHGGGHRJRNNGGNGNGGNG
no but for real uhhhh I love them. there's something soooo chefs kiss abt this dynamic. I love when big scary guy is absolutely brought to his knees by a cute little weirdo who believed in him. saved him even. hhhrhrhrhhr they are special to me and I'm squeezing them
- what makes me happy abt them
well all of the above hdwjksjfjd but uhhh I love the growth of their relationship a lot, especially on barok's end like he realizes his behavior was shitty and is genuinely sorry for it, I love that he's not too proud to admit this. and ryuu is always so patient with him and insists that he's good even though he's treated him badly ouhghhgh they believe in each other!! wheeee
- what makes me sad abt them
the fact that ryuu had to leave ouhsgsgdjjdjff you mean you LEFT him ALONE??? hhfhdjskdj no I know he had to go it's important and I wouldn't change it but oouuuhh the heartbreak. i feel these long distance feels all too well ough
- things done in fanfic that annoy me
when someone makes ryuu like. too wooby. like turns him into a helpless damsel or some shit lol it is not my thing, I like him to have agency jdjwjdjd and don't like when he's made out to be like. an idiot lol. also in a similar vein don't like when barok is made into too much of an asshole, he's actually a kind person to most he's just a bit gruff and has a lot of walls up lol
- things I look for in fanfic
im a well documented dom ryuu enjoyer hdjsjskfjfj so that for sure (altho I don't mind any dynamic between them, I just prefer this lol) but also I like relationship reveal fics, love confessions, and anything where barok's softer side gets to peek through a lot <3 hehehe
- who I'd be comfortable with them ending up with besides each other
kazuma. lol he's just the other part of my ot3 tho hdjwkskfjjf
herlock with either of them is a fun time but I have a hard time seeing him w either of them longterm, I think vanlock are exes lmao and ryuulock probably was a fling at some point but I don't think they'd end up together
yeah it's basically just kazuma hfjwkqksjdkdk like as a longterm thing lol
- my happily ever after for them
as stated above my ot3 is asobaroryuu (any configuration of the ship lol) so I like the idea of them all moving to japan and doing law stuff together lol they have a big house and adopt a kid or two! as self indulgent as possible here jdskkskfjfjf
- who is the big spoon/little spoon
i think most of the time ryuu is probably the little spoon bc it's easier given the height difference lol but sometimes it's barok bc sometimes even a bad bitch needs to be held okay !!! and ryuu likes holding his big scary bf it makes him feel good too hehe
- what is their favorite non-sexual activity
self indulgent answer: cuddles
possibly more realistic answer but still self-indulgent: goin on walks together and talking about everything and nothing. while holding hands. also facing off in court, I think they'd enjoy being able to do that without any animosity between them
thank u im insane!!!!!!! anyways
barok van zieks
OH BOY OKAY OKAY OKAY
- how I feel about this character
[10 minutes of screaming, breaking glass noises, clown honks, car crash sounds, ripping noises, growling, whimpering, crying, insane laughter]
very normal.
I love him a lot and I never expected to going into the games!! bc I had only seen negative things abt him and expected him to be this irredeemable asshole. but no!!! he's literally a huge softie inside actually???? and like. care about truth and justice which is more than one can say for many aa prosecutors lol like he's probably the most competent of the bunch, he's just a cunt to ryuunosuke at first but he apologizes later 😭 also I love the fact that he has bats in his office like it's both a great supplement to his goth vampire aesthetic but also seems to imply he likes animals and I love to imagine him feeding his lil fruit bats hdjskdjfjf. also he's so fucking pretty and i would climb him like a tree. im incredibly normal about his tits. and thighs. anyway let's move on
- all the people I ship romantically with this character
ryuunosuke n kazuma, at the same time preferably lol. herlock, albert, and genshin get honorable mentions as ppl i think he may have had a thing for/with in the past but i don't necessarily see as a Ship for me personally lol
- my non-romantic otp for this character
i want to see the vanlock exes to worsties agenda lmaooo they are never getting back together but they are going to make each other's lives worsebetter forever <3
- my unpopular opinion abt this character
hes a sub. like at least as a strong preference jdjwkdjfj and also even in a non-sexual way, I think it would be a great de-stressing thing for him to let someone he trusts take over for a bit and take care of him, kinda just let his worries melt away. big praise kink and worship kink on this guy I think :3
- one thing I wish would happen/had happened with this character in canon
i want uncle barok and iris interactions!!! he would be the best uncle he would spoil her rotten and she would let him lol
- my otp
asobaroryuu <3 I really think the three of them would balance out really well once they worked out their issues, baroryuu is my fav among the three pairings here n the only one that really stands on its own for me but I prefer them all together soooo much i don't like leaving kazuma out hes a little feral beast he spices up the proceedings lol
- my crossover ship
dont have one sowwy ;-;
- a headcanon fact
hes autistic. like holy shit. I saw this mans office w his constantly rearranged wine barrels and his specific custom made chalices n his whole like. aura. n was like aha. the tism. bdjskajxjdf but no fr theres more thn that that i cant think of now and i may be projecting here lol but that man is not neurotypical!!! :D
WAUGH tht was a lot lmaooooo
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your getting into heroines run the show? i love the anime! recently i got in to the fact that the show actually has a bunch of music videos too! i love the lip x lip guys! i wonder if hiyori actually likes them but they don't like her since she's not in any of their music videos except nonfantasy, but it looks like that mv was just a dream, but the two boys seem to sing about each other a lot? anyway i think they're all really cute! lets get into this lore together!
I am indeed! Fun fact I still haven’t started the show yet and the plotbunnies attacked me from the MVs alone. I already know Aizo will be my fav purely bc his seiyuu voices Yuki Sohma, aka the best boy of all time hehehe~
my headcanons might change once I watch the anime but I like to think they wrote non-fantasy FOR Hiyori~ me being multishipping trash I Will ship them every which way but the OT3 definitely has a vice grip on my heart so I cannot escape ahaha
Yes yes, let’s explore HeroTaru lore (^з^)-☆
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