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lt-oreilly · 7 months

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queer fandom is like we're huddled together in a corner of the world sharing stories about people who loved each other but never fucking talked about it

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pentacass · 10 months

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it's them. my babies.

#angl n angy #i need to talk about them more #their dynamic is two cats put in the same house who weren't allowed to smell each other thru the door first #swtor #aelirra #vestra lenshe #jedi knight #sith inquisitor #yzstuff #yzswtor

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imperiuswrecked · 1 year

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I've only ever asked 2 former online friends to not contact me after I wanted to go our separate ways due to irreconcilable differences and the first one circumvented my blocks at least 3 or 4 times to talk to me including sending me emails from 2 different email addresses after I refused to speak with them on tumblr/twitter/discord and each time I told them to leave me alone, that took place over a period of weeks.

The second one made a burner account to talk to me after I publicly asked them not to. I'm done talking. I'm done listening. I am allowed to restrict access to my person, my time, my emotions, my own mental health.

People need to respect boundaries others set down.

#hex if you're stalking this blog know that I m not a thing to be stolen away #im a fucking person who has their own damn opinions and no lan and i weren't friends #and you are ao focused on yourself that even when I tried to talk about how that made me feel #how neglected i felt our friendship became #you just kept circling back to you to your issues #well im no longer responsible for your emotional state #and I have trans friends who never treated me like you did #so im sorry #im sorry you feel bad #im sorry things arent going well for you #but your own actions and words are your responsibility and no one elses #I'm at my limit and I'm shutting down emotionally because I literally cannot deal with your paragraphs of text #if you day one more fucking time that I didn’t hear your concerns or didnt understanding you then I will fucking scream myself hoarse #we were friends for YEARS #YEARS #I am allowed to have a boundary #I am allowed to have a different opinion than you #Im allowed!#we have talked about the subject EXTENSIVELY #there is nothing left to say #fandom is a shared space so learn to share or don't #I have my own issues and shit going on in my life that I do not put on others bc its not their responsibility #so deal with yours #bc I need to deal with mine

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chloelouygo · 5 days

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Trying hard in therapy so I can fix myself to make my therapist proud 🫡

#he's the absolute SWEETEST #gutted i can only get a course of 6 sessions with him :(#but I'll try super hard over these few months to get better!!#i told him i did cross stitch and he went🥹 i love needlepoint!! and i was like ooh i have needlepoint horses on my wall!! and he was like😍#entirely too precious ;o;#i don't tend to babble when i talk unless i connect with the person or subject I'm talking with or about #and i find myself rambling when i talk to him #which honestly im often really awkward and quiet to speak with #so he must be good if he can get me rambling lmao #it's really weird to have therapy over the phone though because like #aside from being a pasty irishman in his early 30s-ish #i have no idea what he looks like??#and like it's odd to spend a while talking but to not see tuem #i used to do weekly phone calls to lonely older people #and i spoke to 4 people over my years volunteering #i spoke to lesley for nearly 3 years #do i know whqt she looks like?#not a clue #we weren't allowed to email or know last names or anything so i have no idea what amy of my lovely old friends looked like #and it's so weird how some really important people in my life (you reading this included most likely)#are people who ive not actually seen #idk how whimsical is that #people in old times would not have understood having great friends who you can connect with really well but have never been in a room with #i be monologuing sorryyyy #ily

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musical-chick-13 · 6 days

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#the PROBLEM is. some properties I like I cannot even talk about my Criticisms™ because if I do it attracts people whose side I am NOT on #like in the case of a certain british procedural show adopting old mystery novels that went on hiatus a lot. I did not like season 4.#but that is not because The Ship didn't go canon and it CERTAINLY wasn't because I never thought any of the show was good in #the first place. and I don't like The Main Ship of the c-chibs era but it's because the way it was written was VERY much not for me.#it's not because I think the whole era is trash (that ship was really the ONLY part of it I didn't like I loved everything else)#I DO have beef with some of the choices in season 8 of The Gritty Deconstruction Fantasy Show but they sure weren't ANY of the issues #that anyone else had!!! and I don't think it retroactively ruined the whole show actually!!!!!#like it's just so frustrating. especially since sometimes I DO want to break down what I consider to be unfortunate writing choices.#and I DO want to complain sometimes! but so much of the discussion around various properties is taken up by me just.#trying to explain that I'm allowed to like it in the first place and defending why I don't think it's Unconditionally Bad #so I can't ever like. for example. discuss the deaths in 8x03 and my issues with THOSE as character endpoints #or why they killed mary and had her husband act terribly to her for no reason just before she died #or how shitty it was in the last era for me to see ANOTHER character be mentally ill but in the most unobtrusive palatable way possible #(and then also make that really weird comment about a previous love interest??? who WAS unpalatable in many ways--though not like.#canonically mentally ill. even if I and many other people are drawn to that interpretation.)#perHAPS I want to talk about my confusion over the story's handling of j/d for reasons that are not 'I hate these characters' or #'that's pRoBLeMaTiC and you shouldn't ship it because that's pRoBLeMaTiC'#maybe I WILL just make a 4-hour video essay unpacking all my Thoughts™ on that show. because people don't have to watch it!#they could just hit the back button!

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marcirose · 1 month

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I finally got the chance to go through Sumeru's archon quests after not playing for a while (and for a good while I mean a year or so) and no one told me about the full on racism in these quests and I don't mean the character designs

#genshin impact #sumeru #like obv the designs aren't that great cause they're all white people with arab names and the playable brown people are from the desert #and that's not even bringing up dori who is the worst offender #but why are all of the brown people from the desert and all the white people from the city #like what do you mean the brown people weren't allowed to use medieval fantasy google #what do you mean there was a wall to keep the brown people out of the city #why did no one tell me the akademiya was just full on racist T_T #thank fuck for nahida being like 'oh nah we gotta abolish all of this'#can't believe the sumeru's quests were about political corruption and racism #but like racism aside the sumeru quests were really good actually #but like i didn't see a single person talking about the details in these quests bro like omg

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thebirdandhersong · 10 months

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#talked to the godson today and was like actually you know i probably WOULD have converted to roman catholicism pretty early on #if it weren't for my questions about papal infallibility and practical Eucharist questions (about Christians of other denominations not bei #being allowed to partake) and the general rule for priests not marrying (and other questions i can't remember right now)#probably. and my godson who is the closest to a Catholic an Anglican has ever been (lol) nodded and was like oh for SURE you would've #;sld jf;dsfj ; anyway it was an interesting response and one that i was not expecting to be so fervent

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beeseverywhen · 10 months

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Saw a post talking about how it's stupid that literary analysis is seen as this boring excruciating thing and yep. Couldn't agree more. But it got me thinking about how much I love how ppl on this site talk about ideas that were traditionally pretty inaccessible things, restricted only to an academic elite, so casually. Like yeah there's no running from how there are people here who are determined to be anti intellectual and those that have their head up their own arses and are determined to think that they are way more intellectual than they are lol but there are even more people just talking about these ideas casually and I just think that's so important and so cool and honestly that's what the internets all about??? Its about getting exposed to people and ideas you never would have gotten exposed to irl.

Like its so fun! I love that ppl talk about philosophy and sociology and literature analysis as these everyday things that you can joke about and make memes about. Yeah loads of you are wrong lol and tumblr is the home of net zero information, but acting like there aren't idiots spouting shit in every university worldwide is ridiculous. Sometimes people are wrong and they are really sure they are right! And part of the fun of learning is accepting that and reading between the lines. Being ready to challenge people and challenge your own ideas! Yeah I just love it tbh. I love getting to see ppl sharing this specialist knowledge like it's nothing. I've been introduced to so many fascinating ideas and texts through tumblr. I love to bump in to someone raving about their speciality and let what they've told me lead me in to a total wormhole of research and end up knowing way more about an idea I never would have even considered

#i think we should celebrate this more tbh #and allow less room for ppl assuming expertise based on what expensive bits of paper you hold #internet experts are my favourite kind of experts tbh.#and yeah a lot of them are wrong and overconfident and bad at listening but you find these ppl in academia too lol #i think it's great that some ppl dedicate their life to a certain area of academic study and get published and have multiple degrees #but there is a element of privilege to get to that stage that a lot of ppl don't consider. and there are ppl with 0 degrees that have a #outstanding level of understanding of their subject and some really interesting ideas that we just wouldnt get to hear from #without accessible spaces to talk about these things in. you can't read their ideas officially cause nobody is publishing the analysis of #the guy who drives your train. or the person cleaning the supermarket. but a lot of those ppl still have really really interesting ideas #especially when it comes to sociology. I'd argue that ppl who weren't able to go to uni often have an important perspective on #ideas around class & society that just don't get explored in academia cause the ppl in uni's aren't on 'the frontlines' so to say #with that stuff. even if they once were. anyway. keep at it tumblr. love to hear about philosophy from a guy with a public library card #access to philosophy academics online to discuss/ debate with. and 0 degrees. love you

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heartbeetz · 2 months

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I'm not the kind of person who likes having fankids for my ships. So the thing about Amy (Anton's kid) is that she's not even really a fankid. She's just my version of his canon kid who 1) we haven't actually seen (only heard about) and 2) I made non-canon in my selfship outside of an au. Like I would NOT have designed her if "Anton's a single dad and his daughter is a little pink hedgehog girl named Amy (but definitely not That one. wink)" was not a running thing. Sorry Anton for un-canoning ur already ambiguously canon daughter

#my version of amy is a kid he adopted when he and pҽppᎥno were married #which is ALSO something the dev used to say was canon but has since been backpedaled on #they're exes to me. but also not fully exes. like there's still Something but only sometimes #which is also how it is with my s/i and pҽppᎥno #like I don't actively ship with him but I still ship him and anton on the side a little bit and also haven't taken him off my f/o list #polyamory but the guy who was there at the start (married anton. divorced. dated jazz before jazz met anton) was pushed off to the side #lmao if I'm being honest #sorry for doing that or whatever. oops #joint custody moment ‼️‼️#if you want you can all pretend amy is canon to my selfship she's just usually at her other dad's place #instead of with anton and jazz #also I'm allowed to make divorce jokes I come from a turbodivorce family it's fine #saying the phrase ''ex step mom'' when talking to people about my younger years is always something I find fun lol #my mom. my ex step mom. my dad's new wife who I don't call my step mom bc I wasn't around her enough to feel like her kid (was at college).#also all the girlfriends my dad INSISTS weren't girlfriends even though they literally were #it's so funny to meeeeeee #roz posts #♡: 🔨🎰🥃#au: dadton 💗🦔#s: it's happy hour

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violexides · 4 months

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the American education system needing to be improved and more accessible because as it stands a lot of people lack access to adequate schooling and it has the potential to address really important subjects and provide social support for people

coexists with the idea that societally we should not be trying to pull every piece of information from the American education system because it is not equipped even remotely to address the knowledge that can come from a person's individual lived experience nor provide the information (en masse) that goes against the state that created it.

this is something i thinka bout a lot and try to re-articulate a lot because i am resistant to answering the question "why are you only studying abolition now, through a university?" but i think a lot of things can come out of that line of questioning. because it's not just about academia it's about the people forming those communities to have those dialogues and that is key that is critical. but that doesn't negate the fact that we should have school as a starting place, and a meeting place, for all of that.

#ides.txt #my instructor for my abolition course led a discussion about abolishing the university #and it was one of my least favorite classes because they appraoched it from a pessimistic perspective #and it became a really fraught class environment because they weren't really expanding on shit #but anyway despite that it's one of the classes that has stuck with me #because it really highlights that like. yes university is a really good thing. this should not be The Thing though #we should not have a society that relies on a pricy university to connect you to mutual aid networks #i don't know now we're deviating from the point but i guess people frustrate me when they talk about education #also i know that this is easier said than done and i'm still trying to figure out where i myself partake in all of this #because i do dickride for being a college student and i don't think that's bad but i do think that's important to acknowledge #and figure out what that means as someone who also is attempting to learn more about what an abolitionist univeristy resembles #it's a complex privilege thing because i have the privilege to love univeristy #and some people lack the privilege that would allow them to access it and thus really desire it #but then kind of within that spectrum is the whole. hey but why are we desiring it. what about it do we desire #is it just learning things? because that's what university is for me but that doesn't just have to be there #anyway i'm rambling and i'm so underqualified for all of this but #you get a glimpse into my frequent leftist crises that will go unresolved until i talk to some more people about it

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juror4 · 1 year

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It's ridiculously and infuriatingly difficult to find some casual history material on the Moors because all anyone cares about is classifying whether or not they were Black... Shut up! I want to know about the arts and the science and the clothing and the crafts and the poetry and the battles and the culture! I don't want to do race science!

#Good Lord.#Oh if I want to learn about any European population's history I'll have no issue.#But fuck me for wanting to know about North Africans. That one's only allowed with generic orientalist music #And the stupid 'but who really were the mysterious Moors and most importantly were they Black or not???'#I for one would like to talk about anything but retroactively applying racial labels that did not exist yet onto historical people.#There is so much more to be learned here but that's all we can ever talk about when it comes to non-white history.#Especially because if you REALLY REALLY REALLY care about trying to classify the Moors...#The fucking answer is some of them in the modern world would be Black and some would not. They weren't a homogenous group.#Can we move on to the vast breadth of culture and influence that is being glossed over constantly now?#I do think it's good to acknowledge many/most Moors would now be considered Black but is that all? Is that all? Really?#It's so diminishing. The obsession in and of itself is antiblack...#The only other groups who anyone cares this much about racially classifying are like. Vikings or whatever and it's always to be racist.#It's always to classify disparate peoples who saw each other as completely different as definitely 100% white. We know why..

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asterchats · 1 year

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my cat here like 'can i .... smell the candle?' and then alarmed when it is warm. no my cat, you cannot smell the candle

#ingrid talks #kdflsdkjglkfgj #hi every cat i have ever had responds to the name 'Ingrid's Cat' because that's #my family. my roommates. do not call her by her name it's always #'ingrid's cat' or in this current roommate's version of reality #just #'Cat'#it is. sad that the... it is sad there is less appreciation for cats in this household than there could be #they're not Mean they just. don't like her the way. she deserves to be liked by everyone who ever comes into contact with her #she is important #(when i moved in my absolute ground rule was i was bringing my cat and they weren't allowed to say a word about it)#(and they haven't. i think my brother in law likes the cat actually)#(he's grumpy but he's the sort of person who likes cats. i can tell)

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endusviolence · 2 months

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Rowling isn't denying holocaust. She just pointed out that burning of transgender health books is a lie as that form of cosmetic surgery didn't exist. But of course you knew that already, didn't you?

I was thinking I'd probably see one of you! You're wrong :) Let's review the history a bit, shall we?

In this case, what we're talking about is the Institut für Sexualwissenschaft, or in English, The Institute of Sexology. This Institute was founded and headed by a gay Jewish sexologist named Magnus Hirschfeld. It was founded in July of 1919 as the first sexology research clinic in the world, and was run as a private, non-profit clinic. Hirschfeld and the researchers who worked there would give out consultations, medical advice, and even treatments for free to their poorer clientele, as well as give thousands of lectures and build a unique library full of books on gender, sexuality, and eroticism. Of course, being a gay man, Hirschfeld focused a lot on the gay community and proving that homosexuality was natural and could not be "cured".

Hirschfeld was unique in his time because he believed that nobody's gender was either one or the other. Rather, he contended that everyone is a mixture of both male and female, with every individual having their own unique mix of traits.

This leads into the Institute's work with transgender patients. Hirschfeld was actually the one to coin the term "transsexual" in 1923, though this word didn't become popular phrasing until 30 years later when Harry Benjamin began expanding his research (I'll just be shortening it to trans for this brief overview.) For the Institute, their revolutionary work with gay men eventually began to attract other members of the LGBTA+, including of course trans people.

Contrary to what Anon says, sex reassignment surgery was first tested in 1912. It'd already being used on humans throughout Europe during the 1920's by the time a doctor at the Institute named Ludwig Levy-Lenz began performing it on patients in 1931. Hirschfeld was at first opposed, but he came around quickly because it lowered the rate of suicide among their trans patients. Not only was reassignment performed at the Institute, but both facial feminization and facial masculization surgery were also done.

The Institute employed some of these patients, gave them therapy to help with other issues, even gave some of the mentioned surgeries for free to this who could not afford it! They spoke out on their behalf to the public, even getting Berlin police to help them create "transvestite passes" to allow people to dress however they wanted without the threat of being arrested. They worked together to fight the law, including trying to strike down Paragraph 175, which made it illegal to be homosexual. The picture below is from their holiday party, Magnus Hirschfeld being the gentleman on the right with the fabulous mustache. Many of the other people in this photo are transgender.

[Image ID: A black and white photo of a group of people. Some are smiling at the camera, others have serious expressions. Either way, they all seem to be happy. On the right side, an older gentleman in glasses- Magnus Hirschfeld- is sitting. He has short hair and a bushy mustache. He is resting one hand on the shoulder of the person in front of him. His other hand is being held by a person to his left. Another person to his right is holding his shoulder.]

There was always push back against the Institute, especially from conservatives who saw all of this as a bad thing. But conservatism can't stop progress without destroying it. They weren't willing to go that far for a good while. It all ended in March of 1933, when a new Chancellor was elected. The Nazis did not like homosexuals for several reasons. Chief among them, we break the boundaries of "normal" society. Shortly after the election, on May 6th, the book burnings began. The Jewish, gay, and obviously liberal Magnus Hirschfeld and his library of boundary-breaking literature was one of the very first targets. Thankfully, Hirschfeld was spared by virtue of being in Paris at the time (he would die in 1935, before the Nazis were able to invade France). His library wasn't so lucky.

This famous picture of the book burnings was taken after the Institute of Sexology had been raided. That's their books. Literature on so much about sexuality, eroticism, and gender, yes including their new work on trans people. This is the trans community's Alexandria. We're incredibly lucky that enough of it survived for Harry Benjamin and everyone who came after him was able to build on the Institute's work.

[Image ID: A black and white photo of the May Nazi book burning of the Institute of Sexology's library. A soldier, back facing the camera, is throwing a stack of books into the fire. In the background of the right side, a crowd is watching.]

As the Holocaust went on, the homosexuals of Germany became a targeted group. This did include transgender people, no matter what you say. To deny this reality is Holocaust denial. JK Rowling and everyone else who tries to pretend like this isn't reality is participating in that evil. You're agreeing with the Nazis.

But of course, you knew that already, didn't you?

Edit: Added image IDs. I apologize to those using screen readers for forgetting them. Please reblog this version instead.

#transgender #trans history #transsexual #transphobia #Magnus Hirschfeld #holocaust #holocaust denial #book burning #j.k. rowling #jk rowling #just in case you missed what i mean by all this: go fuck yourself anon :)#trans people have always existed #and we will always exist #if you really wanna pick a fight with me over well-documented history then you better bring in some sources to back your shit #queer history #queer #lgbt+#lgbta+#lgbt #lgbt history #edit: i finally got around to those damn image IDs. i am so very sorry for totally forgetting that's my bimbo moment of the month #also real quick i thought about adding an image of the actual building but the only one i can find has a Nazi parade in front of it #it was taken the day of the book burning raid and honestly if i were to include it then i'd add it to the first few paragraphs #and i think the story's better told when you uphold the hope Magnus Hirschfeld and all the researchers he worked with had #also keeps being brought up: yes Hirschfeld was a eugenicist. it was a popular belief set that was only discredited after WW2 #Hirschfeld died in 1935. he literally didn't live long enough to see science turn against those beliefs and practices #considering how he changed his mind on transitions i like to think he would've changed his mind on eugenics too if he'd lived

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nanabanonana · 14 days

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y'know what, after thinking about it, i'm really glad i never got into the fandom while atla was airing. i wrote some truly awful fic for naruto back then and if zukka had been my first fandom i would never have to guts to go back lmao

glad i waited until i was a decent writer to start putting fic out there.

#like i can't even imagine surviving the mortification of someone going 'hey weren't you the one who wrote X'#i'd die #and now i'm suffering for an entirely different reason #zukka my beloved are you truly worth the pain of a long fic #obvs yes but i'm allowed to whine about it #nana talks tag #fandom A #mar y sol #pen battles

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baezdylan · 2 months

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ahhhh just laid my soul bare

#jo in the tardis*#i think i can finally live again now. i haven't been able to since i left this place a month ago #because i experience everything too deeply and i experience it both in advance and in retrospect #and nothing happening was unbearable to me less than a year ago... and then thing started happening #and they weren't as overwhelming because i was living them as they were happening #but now it's like i switched back to reading my own story and i'm in constant fear of every chapter's end #like... i'll be sitting in that amphitheatre feeling like i could start crying any second because it will be over #and there will be next year but it won't be THIS year #and that isn't even the main issue... whatever happens in academic spaces is easy to me no matter how hard #because no matter how challenged i am there i am challenged in a way that i can easily understand #it's my primary mechanism. to be the person that wants to learn. and wants to love what others know #and i think the issue with my hypothesis regarding why i have a hard time Being There wasn't that i #SHOULDN'T be the person who has to be so devoted to everything but that i should accept myself as that person instead #like hey this is me. and i shouldn't get too deep about it.#i think the very reason why i was able to enjoy going back home was the fact that i didn't wanna go back #because that allowed me to feel that emotion in the right moment aka as it happened to me #i just... live for that feeling of... maybe... maybe i can just get out right now and pack almost nothing in my bag and go somewhere #i don't ever have to do it but the very idea that i could is enough for me...#i kind of wandered off here to talk about everything that's wrong with me lmao but yeah. i said it out loud earlier #for the first time and it's easier now

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kiyinian · 22 days

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Part one

.・。.・゜✭・.・✫・゜・。..・。.・゜✭・.・✫・

Ex-husband Simon who: Didn't leave your side when you said you were pregnant, who went to see you every day, even if those visits were after his work, in the middle of the night.

Ex-husband Simon who: Made video calls to you when he couldn't show up at your house, talking to you and the children, asking you multiple times if you were okay. Most of the time he listened to you talk about your day, he listened until you fell asleep on the other side, and he watched you sleep for a while. When he saw that you were safe and well, he would whisper goodnight and I love you, hoping that you would somehow hear it.

Ex-husband Simon who: Always found a way to go to all your appointments, just as he had done with your other times when you were pregnant. Every month he would go with you for a check-up, he could even play the tough guy, but he couldn't hold back the tear that formed in the corner of his eye when he heard the little ones' heartbeat. His own flesh and blood.

Ex-husband Simon who: Cried his heart out when he found out he was going to be the father of two girls, feeling nervous at the same time. At the ultrasound, he held your hand so tightly, his other hand stroking your hair as you watched your girls. He couldn't have been happier, and even happier that you were carrying his children once again.

Ex-husband Simon who: Almost committed a traffic accident when one of your kids called him, the little one saying that you weren't feeling well. He drove as fast as he could to your house, his hands shaking as he went to look for you. It was even worse when he found you pale, almost falling to the ground, probably a drop in your pressure. But it was enough to keep him up all night.

Ex-husband Simon who: Wouldn't take no for an answer when you told him he didn't need to move in with you, that you could manage on your own. But how? A whole house to look after, children, pregnancy. No, it was too much. You didn't have to deal with it on your own when he was around. So despite your protests, the next day he showed up with his suitcases, ready to move in with you once again.

Ex-husband Simon who: Did everything in the house, he didn't let you lift a single weight, he didn't even allow you to spend much time walking back and forth. You were pregnant, getting bigger and bigger, all you had to do was relax. The rest he did without complaint. Although he did burn the food, most of the time.

Ex-husband Simon who: Never ignored your cravings, no matter if it was late at night, or early in the morning, he would buy you whatever you asked of him. Even if it meant going out in the middle of the night to buy some random flavor of ice cream, he didn't care, as long as he could see you satisfied.

Ex-husband Simon who: Bought all the baby's utensils together with you, from the crib to the clothes, bottles, pacifiers, whatever you wanted to buy, he would go with you, and pay for everything, of course. Always buying toys for your other children, too. And he'd always buy whatever you wanted or needed, he'd never forget you.

Ex-husband Simon who: Surprised you by preparing the babies' nursery with everything you had bought, he renovated an entire room to make it fit for the arrival of the girls, and he also made some changes to the little ones' room, giving it to them as a gift.

Ex-husband Simon who: Watched you every night, waiting for you to fall asleep, keeping a watchful eye in case you needed something, anything. He was willing to help you with simple things, even if you needed help going to the toilet, if you had a craving, he was there for you. Once he saw you already asleep, curled up in the sheets, cuddled up with your comforter, he would go over to you and give you a kiss on the forehead, whispering I love you, and silently praying that you would respond with an 'I do too'.

Ex-husband Simon who: Agreed to spend the whole night by your side, comforting you after you had a terrible nightmare involving the children. He lay next to you as you asked, gently wrapping his arms around you and hugging you, kissing you on the cheek and calming you down.

Ex-husband Simon who: Felt his heart skip a beat when you told him you loved him and needed him, and that you wanted him to move back in with you and the children permanently. You didn't have to ask him twice, because he was absolutely sure that he would come back to you whenever you wanted him to.

Ex-husband Simon who: Couldn't contain the urge to kiss you, to touch you, just hearing you say you loved him, was enough to ignite a hot flame in him. In a matter of seconds he had his hands all over you, once again claiming what was surely his.

Ex-husband Simon who: Slowly pushed you to the side, spooning you from behind, his lips on your neck as he slowly entered you, pampering you with little kisses here and there. He made love to you so gently, in such a loving way, thrusting into you nice and deep, just the way you liked it. He'd be fucked if he didn't make this night with you count, he did everything the way you loved it, just to hear you begging him for more and more. He wasn't going to let you out of his arms that night.

Ex-husband Simon who: Woke up before you, ready to make breakfast for you and the children, but all his plans went up in smoke when he heard you give a little gasp, whispering that your water broke. He panicked.

Ex-husband Simon who: Knew it was your third pregnancy, but he couldn't control the adrenaline when you went into labor, it was always like the first time. He didn't waste much time and took you to the hospital, praying to whatever God up there that everything would work out.

Ex-husband Simon who: Stayed by your side throughout your labor, holding your hand while whispering sweet words in your ear, he didn't care how hard you were squeezing his hand, it even hurt, but he wanted to do the best he could to help you. It was desperate that he couldn't do anything for you, but his ears focused on the sound of crying that echoed through the hospital room, the first girl had come out, healthy and well. After some more time, thank God, the other little one came out healthy too.

Ex-husband Simon who: Cried inconsolably while holding one of the girls in his arms, rocking her while looking at her with all the tenderness in the world. She was so beautiful, so reminiscent of you. His heart beat so fast as he saw one of his little girls, his little daughter. Just as he didn't leave your side, watching you breastfeed the other little one. He tried to stop himself from crying even more at the sight.

Ex-husband Simon who: He won't leave your side, ever, not even if you asked him to. Especially now that your family was even bigger, he knew the responsibility that would come with two small children, but he also knew that every night awake would be worth it. Just as he wouldn't give up until he put a ring on your finger once again.

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