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paiirupie · 10 months

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more akira inspired doodles plus an extra one i didn't post on twitter eheh.

#💌 paii's art #sonic #sonic the hedgehog #surge the tenrec #akira movie #tetsuo shima #kaneda shotaro #i guys can't stop me from making more of these #at this rate i might have to also rewatch akira #and perhaps also read the manga???#if my attention span even allows me to do #it has always been difficult to me to sit thru movies or series if i don't have enough will power to do so #or someone there watching the thing w me

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13eyond13 · 19 days

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Please tell me about art and media you know of that accurately captures the weirdness of dream logic and atmosphere and emotions... books and movies and video games and art and comics and YouTube stuff, whatever you want... you know, where it only makes sense on an intuitive level and falls apart when you try to explain it...

#im trying to think of examples #a great one is mullholland drive by david lynch #also actually some of david firth's (salad fingers guy's) sock series animations did that so well for me back in the day #like you know where something or someone or a place can be two things at the same time in the dream?#and how something weird and silly can have the strongest serious emotions attached to it #and how stories within stories happen #eternal sunshine of the spotless mind #was good w these vibes #silent hill 2 as well and sort of majora's mask #the book orlando #actually you know what i just rewatched a bunch of david firth's cartoons and Pulch: The Good Times is actually a better dreamlike one #than some of his dream series to me somehow #the way it has this wistful tragic nostalgic nonsense vibe that like you'd probably find deep and sad while having the dream #but upon waking it both makes no sense and seems stupid and funny instead if you were to try to explain it #also the nightmarish one about soup or wtv #when the little person gets all upset about her soup being stolen hahaha and then the creepy guy goes 'you forgot your hammer'#anywayssss #many of these things have stuck in my head since like 2007 or wtv idk theyre just fun #Sock 4: Sock Lops is good for the weird narrative jumping dream logic vibes #if you can stand to watch that much 2000s newgrounds edgy animation in this day and age...#p

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alarrylarrie · 23 days

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#people are gonna be big mad when I say this so I’m hiding it in tags #lmao if you’re still a Ziam I love you I respect you and just… stop reading now lol for your health okay?#or unfollow and block me whatever just… CURATE YOUR EXPERIENCE IS WHAT IM TRYING TO SAY #but the DIFFERENCE between how Zayn talks about his daughter #versus…. well I mean do I even have to say it lmao #I’m watching the Zach Sang interview and it is freaking WILD #W I L D #and I just think people should maybe use critical thinking skills and wonder why that is #and! and! Zayn and Gigi have done a fabulous job drawing boundaries about what they will and won’t share #so don’t come at me with oh but Louis needs to be private #or some of that nonsense #because at no point does Zayn say things that really cross that line?#he just…. he talks like an actual dad #and I’m sorry I know no one cares and we’re in this and it doesn’t matter #but the difference - if someone actually cared to look and listen?#the difference is astonishing in my opinion #anyway #ignore this lol

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appsa · 15 days

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Challengers was so diabolical for presenting tashi as the cool one who never says i love you back to art at first, and then later revealing that she wants nothing more than to stay with the man who loved her the same even after she couldnt play tennis anymore to the point where she asks patrick to throw the game so that they can stay together 😭 its not that she refuses to say that she loves art and wouldnt love him the same when they no longer had tennis to share between them, its that ART needs that to be uncertain because he never grew out of being 18 and playing for her number and he's still playing that game 15 yrs later even after shes married him and had his child

#crazyyy that its actually about how art knows there r better ppl than him #and its his privilege as a white man w a degree from a fancy college that got him where he is #hes already won the game!!!!!! but he still has this left #honestly they keep talking abt how he still has one trophy left to win. its the open or whatever. it was always patrick #patrick dropping the racquet to catch art in the last scene sticks w me for that reason 😭#theyre finally growing up and letting go of tennis jghhjjk #patrick doing the thing w his serve drives me ceazy on second watch. because its so clear that he was scared #that art would give up after that #bleghhh throws up abt it. trying to be ok abt the failed career by knowing the part u had in someone elses successful one #also also the catharsis of patrick being there to catch arts fall....#the way he wasnt there to catch tashi during herss #art who is an extension of tashi at this point.....#agh. i love it. sorry #challengers

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angelsdean · 10 days

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ruthlessly deleting old 2021/2022 posts (not by me) from my dean studies tag like *click* un-incorporating that from my beliefs system! also the way SO many posts have me like ok uh-huh good aaand then say one completely wrong thing that loses me. it's so many posts.

#it's usually when they randomly drop some line of fanon. like saying dean has never admitted to being wrong in his life #or never expressed an emotion or been vulnerable or doesn't Talk About Feelings or is super duper RepressedTM #like i'm sorry. have you watched the show. oh and have you taken off the sammy POV goggles first?#bc this guy is always crying and being vulnerable and talking about his feelings. he is self-aware.#he may not always want to talk to sam abt things! but he sure does talk about things with other people #do i need to reblog the compilation posts AGAIN?#(also re: his sexualiy? AWARE. sorry i saw him flirt and be flustered by so many men. he knows how he feels.)#and then 'first time ever admitting to being wrong' this one came from a post abt dean's prayer in the trap #like i'm sorry but first of all. dean apologizes more than any other character on the show. there are hard numbers on this.#people have tracked this on spreadsheets. i think ilarual is one of them.#and often he is apologizing for things that aren't even his fault! but he still feels responsible for bc he's been made to feel that way #his whole life!!#other characters *cough samandcas *cough* apologizing Less doesn't mean they've Done less things wrong #it just means they're not owning up to it and brushing it under the rug. something both do frequently.#anyways. aside from apologies. dean also has no problem admitting he's wrong y'know when he's actually wrong #which is less often than you'd think bc he has pretty good instincts and intuition and often suspects things which turn out to be Right #but anyways. another thing abt the trap prayer is. i don't think cas Needed to be forgiven #i think dean was justified in feeling angry w cas over the circumstances leading to the Death of His Mother! totally normal grief response!#i think cas also understands dean to be someone who needs time to process and deal with his feelings (he says as much to jack)#however. despite me not think dean Needs to forgive cas. the thing is. with dean when it comes to cas the forgiveness is implicit #when he says /of course i forgive you/ and in the cut like /of course i wanted you to stay/ like. yes he was mad and dealing with grief #but also. yes cas was already forgiven even back then. he just needed Time to work through the feelings #anyways i think dean says he 'forgives' cas bc it's what CAS needed to hear to stop feeling guilty and dean gives him that closure #but i also think cas was already forgiven even in dean's anger. he wants him there always. i'd rather have you. we can fix this. etc etc #a lot of tags for a non-rebloggable post ajksdfs maybe i'll make these into a real post sometime #vic.txt #dean and feelings #so i can find this all again later

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goofyjelly · 7 months

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so youre tellin me that the internet goes wild for actor men ALL THE TIME, but when I go on wattpad I can't find ONE Ethan Peck fanfiction-

#OH SO NOW *IM* THE WEIRD ONE #NO I'M NOT TALKING ABOUT SPOCK OKAY-#take ONE LOOK at ANY INTERVIEW with Ethan Peck and try and tell me that we shouldnt be OBSESSED #THERE ARE NO EDITS #OH BUT JOSH HUTCHERSON GETS SEVEN THOUSAND EDITS AND FANFICS-#i *need* help #clearly 😭💀#in my defense..#yea i got nothing 💀#i was watching the clips of the Lower Decks SNW crossover (obsessing over mariner and boilmer #the comedy duo)#and then suddenly im watching interviews w ethan peck-#ITS A SLIPPERY SLOPE MY FRIENDS THIS COULD HAPPEN TO YOU #I DONT EVEN WATCH STRANGE NEW WORLDS-#LIKE THIS ISNT EVEN A SPOCK THING ANYMORE IM JUST *ILL*#i NEED SLEEP #omfg #ethan peck #someone better make edits and fics #i would but ive got STUFF on my plate okay #gotta clear my schedule and cancel EVERYTHING to give Ethan Peck the justice he DESERVES #goofy jelly thoughts

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pawbeanies · 2 months

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actually i would never smoke because i am so weak and would perish but like !!! i dunno what it is !!! the scent is like nice to me ..??? like ??? makes my tail wag ???

#like i passed by some1 smoking outside the building i work in and the wind sent tha smoke into my like. Direction #and like ?? i went weak in the knees for it. for a second. i dunno what it isss #fearing i may have a thing for smells but like. Weird Smells. like smoke smell #sniffs i am such a shy well behaved boy i hope someone doesnt teach me how to smoke or at least. hangs out w me while smoking.#blow a cloud of smoke into my face and watch me cough ... looking away #maybe not even just cigarettes btw. looking away even more #pawbeanies lore is once i sat next to someone smoking on the subway and i didnt mind it #they did and went 'no baby you gotta sit over there' bc they were nice and didnt want me to like breathe in the air i guess #so like. i guess the story here is that i am a freak. and also strangers call me baby .?

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seventh-district · 15 days

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not even gonna tag this properly bc i don't wanna get Involved but i do have some Thoughts i need to get out into the void so here we go

(aaa quick edit: CW for mention/discussion of Boothill leaks)

#today's gone Badly and i'm upset but instead of venting abt it i'm gonna channel that energy into doing a bit of tag rambling abt Boothill #well. less abt Him and more abt uh. self-analyzing my anxiety surrounding contributing to fandoms. he's just today's catalyst #like. i know it's mostly a me thing. i'm hypersensitive to criticism and very conflict avoidant + socially anxious + perfectionistic etc.#so I'm the one that keeps myself from posting more stuff out of fear of being criticized or called-out for what i've made #bc inevitably Someone's gonna see it and think its OOC or a problematic take or they'll misread my intent. etc etc what have you #but like. that's inevitable. there's no way to communicate every single thing with all of the nuance required to avoid misunderstandings #and other times it's not a misunderstanding it's just a difference of opinions and that's Fine!! there's no accounting for personal taste #there's no accounting for several things actually. taste‚ bias‚ lore-knowledge‚ differing levels of chronic-online-ness‚ etc #so this isn't me complaining abt the state of fandom culture (although i do think. sometimes. ppl take shit a bit too seriously)#but anyways all of this is mostly just anxiety-fueled. it's not like i very often actually even receive negative feedback or anything #if anything ppl tend to tell me that i'm overthinking it and killing my own fun and worried that my stuff is more OOC than it is #which like. yeah. Yeah u right :) but that's just the way that i am! always losing the idgaf war i suppose #anyways what's Boothill got to do w this ur wondering. well. i've been thinking abt the quickly emerging concept that he's illiterate.#and it just. has me feeling a lot of ways. and watching ppl disagree over it has me feeling some Bad ways. bc it's def a loaded topic!#if you'll pardon the pun there. and i don't rlly have anything new to add other than that i'm conflicted abt it.#like yeah i saw the leaks days ago. of him mentioning 'not hitting the books' much as a child when we ask him why he sends voice messages #or voice Transcriptions ig. ykwim. and like. *braces for impact* ...i liked it? like. it doesn't feel right to call it endearing #i'm not trying to infantilize him. ok that's not the right word either but ugh. you know? what i mean?? who am i kidding even i don't know #it's not quite right to say that it feels like Representation either. but it's something close i guess #as a southern person myself who didn't receive a 'complete' education due to factors that weren't to do with my intelligence #the concept of seeing him as a capable force to be reckoned with and respected who also happens to have not received much formal education #i like that. i do. but there's so many issues w it at the same time. like. as i said‚ being southern myself has me Wary of the way Hoyo is-#writing him. as well as of the way that the fandom is taking the bits of his lore and running away w them. and i'm Very aware of how ppl-#will see a southern character and be All Too Eager to agree that they're lacking intelligence based on our Redneck™ stereotype #sigh. and before we even go too far with this. it's not even confirmed that hes completely illiterate. which is a valid criticism i've seen #there's Multiple reasons that could make him prefer voice to text. but regardless. i'm just worried that ppl will misconstrue my intentions #like. example: that edit i made the other day of him saying 'no thanks i can't read'. wasn't me playing into the stereotype of-#'haha dumb country boy can't read!' it was. in my eyes. something he'd say as a joke to make light of a potential insecurity #like. i think there's far more depth to Boothill's character if ppl could look past the surface. and i dont wanna contribute to the problem #but sometimes ppl Will have stereotypical traits and i wish the same could apply to characters as long as it's done Thoughtfully.

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fizzlehead · 2 years

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this house is full of M-M-MADNESS!

(betty cooper / get out of my house - youtube)

#one thing about betty cooper is there's always someone in her house #evil dad. fake brother. dark manifestation of her own self hatred. real brother. etc etc etc #but ALSO her house being literally haunted is a metaphor for how she herself is haunted BY herself & her darkness & her family...#in a lot of ways betty IS her house and the house IS her. metaphorically!#so that's what's going on here #this one tested me it really did. but i'm happy w how it turned out :)#also this is quite possibly my favorite song EVER so i was sooooo worried that making this would ruin it for me. but it didn't!!!!!#also also i don't know if anyone other than me has this problem but when i watch mp4 files on tumblr the audio is almost always a little bit #unsynced so if it feels a little off watch it on youtube instead!! i spent a lot of time on the timing of everything so i want to make sure #people are able to see it the way that it's supposed to be #anyways. my home my joy i'm barred and bolted and i WON'T let you in. so. get out of my house and so on and so forth #riverdale #my amvs #taylor xoxo

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fadeintoyou1993 · 1 month

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ok sorry for the super bummer post ahead but something weird ive noticed abt like having a close family member w late stage alzheimers and stuff is that youre like constantly mourning someone that talks to u and u can hug and laugh w but like i cant ask my grandma to teach me how to make the food she used to make for me cos like . she cannot . and i dont know if she will remember something that used to be like the thing she was Known for because she barely remembers her family members some days

#txt #like its really weird how my life has been like flooded w loss and grief over the years but in the last few its been like. So heavy #and watching it happen slowly like recognizing processes that will end up in me losing someone is so WEIRD #u cant do anything about it thats the only thing u know like jesus #anyways. im going thru something

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dragontatoes · 1 month

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this Watcher stuff is once again reminding me that most people genuinely put Trust akin to what they would place on a friend onto strangers whose videos they like.

"they only backpedaled because they knew it would lose them money" as would anyone who makes entertainment for a living

"I feel like we can't trust them anymore" as you shouldn't trust anyone just because you like their entertainment, which they make for a living

"this was obviously all Steven Lim's idea, and Shane hates it the most" you have placed your idea of who is most aligned with your interests on whose perceived personality you like the most, despite the fact you only know these people through their entertainment, which they make for a living

Like I thought we'd all learned by now what a parasocial relationship was. I agree this was ignorant as well as a bad business move. But I'm also not going to hold a grudge as if these were people who knew about me, individually, as a person. You need to really really understand that your comments and views are their full perspective of you.

#watcher tv #I agree with the general reaction to all this except that it didn't actually upset me. just made me say #'oh ig I can't watch them anymore. sad!' and now that they're making it basically just a patreon thing I will continue watching as normal #if you really feel that someone you watch is your friend it's probably best that you don't engage w their content

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bunnihearted · 8 months

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im so stupid for thinking anyone would ever love me

#ever since i was 13 i've longed for 'love'#i watched others around me start going on dates and getting their first kiss getting into their first relationships #i thought 'it's ok. when u start high school u'll have a bf'#but hs came and i watched everyone around me have sex for the first time and get into more serious relationships and fall in love etc etc #i was still alone and unwanted. so i thought it's ok. it's ok. maybe when u get ur first job or get into ur 20s. maybe online. maybe maybe #now im still... alone. and unwanted. i dont think ppl who hasnt experienced this knows how fkn isolating and alienating it is #no one has ever wanted to date me. or kiss me. or have sex w me. or had a crush on me or been in love w me.#i have no idea what it feels when someone touches me. i've never experienced what it's like .. all those things i dont wanna think abt it #i feel so extremely hideous and disgusting. like a disease no one wants to get close to. and why do i still long and ache for it???#shouldnt i have gotten used to it by now? i fall in love. i want. but i always do it all on my own. hust as im alone in everything.#*just. trying not to kms bc i couldnt press the right fkn letter dumb bitch #i want to.. i want to.. but i dont think im someone who gets to experience these things

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boimgfrog · 4 months

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it's always shocking 2 people that I'm extremely content to sit and watch them play video games and I'll have just as much fun doing that as I would playing it myself. maybe even MORE fun because then I don't get frustrated doing it. to the point where people sometimes do not believe me until I ask them to play games so I can watch. it's like my own personal twitch streamer except I can directly make fun of them when they fail a level.

#jay says a thing #one of my new friends was like...are you SURE its ok for me to play games while youre over?#and i was like girly.....please PLEASE play zelda so i can watch. PLEASE i love this game i want to see someone whos good at it play it #or my bf will apologize for not having any multiplayer games for me to play w him and meanwhile im like teehee play fallout so i can watch

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oatbugs · 2 months

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#meeting the sociologist/philosopher who flew in from barcelona and got basically no sleep just 2 be on time to our date soon #im wearing the earrings the ex situationship person chose for me. they have 3 sharp metal bits hanging down from them. it feels #cold like a knife and also they make noise whenever i take a step which acts a little like a friend and also a beating. dont forget who cho #for you. do you miss her? do you miss her? when you see his face will you miss her?#im going to look someone else in their eyes today #im going to study with my friend today and tomorrow #i had a call w a friend yesterday . he taught me logic metatheory intensively and he also said this whole experience has been painful for #him and the rest of my friends bc its like watching someone nearly drink cyanide over and over #it made things a bit clearer #he said its like watching a lion get declawed and that i was essentially unrecognisable. something happened to his friend #and he wanted his friend back #so im going to go back.#he said he doesnt mind dying alone. he asked why hes doing philosophy and i said pure love and he said thats true #im supposed to be in love w abstractions more than ppl #and im supposed to be in love w my friends before any romantic partner #ok going up tottenham ct escelators is a religious experience recently bc every time i will either make eye contact w the most beautiful #person ever or be reminded of the way they held me on the way down here or how i held them on the way up #anyway lets go

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kkujo · 10 months

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something i don't see people talking about is the way hyperfixations come in like stages and cycles like it's not just "i'm obsessed with this thing" it's like. euphoria from finding something new and it brings you so much joy and then as that initial dopamine rush wears off you start to get more and more down and feel isolated as you start to realise that no one else cares about it as much as you do and you feel silly for being so into it and the thoughts become repetitive and boring so you get more and more depressed and lonely and then you inevitably lose the hyperfix which leaves you drifting feeling miserable and hopeless until you start the cycle again. idk if i explained this well or if other people will understand but it brings genuine phases of euphoria and straight up depression and this is why i get annoyed when neurotypicals use words like hyperfixation to describe like, an interest. bc it's not. just an interest it becomes who you are and when you lose it it's like losing yourself and you spend so much energy thinking about it that it interrupts your daily life and it's so fucking draining 👍

#like if i see one more nt being like hyperfixation this hyperfixation that SHUT UP!! YOU HAVE AN INTEREST #talk to me when you stay up until 6am every night bc you can't fucking sleep bc ur thinking about it.#talk to me when you can't process emotions in a normal healthy way because you can only relate it back to your hyperfix #paired w madd especially it's IMPOSSIBLE to be normal about shit i swear 2 god because the second i'm upset or lonely it's straight back to #immersing myself in another world and being someone else and not facing my emotions instead letting 'someone else' deal with them #not just negative emotions yk it's anything it's fully immersive to the point i end up not knowing exactly who i am myself bc i'm rarely #myself in my head yk #and it's so isolating #and this is why i get mad when people use these terms lightly bc they don't fucking get it #oh you're hyperfixated? oh you're delusional? you're delulu? watch this #< guy who has delusions that all of his friends secretly hate him bc he's too insane abt xyz media and who feels alone bc no one else is as #into it even though it wouldn't be reasonable to expect them to be #like i'm constantly questioning whether all my friends are secretly against me & finding me annoying anytime i talk about it but it's fine #it's so fucking isolating #i'm not losing my hyperfix yet thank god but i am in the stage of like realisation where the initial euphoria has worn off and i'm like #fuck no one else gets it. no one else is thinking about it like i am. and it's so lonely #< like not to sound like 'i'm 14 and no one gets me' or i'm not like other girls or whatever 😭#it's not me being dramatic i genuinely. know that no one else is spending every waking moment thinking about the things i am the way i do #and it's so incredibly depressing i can't even explain it in a way that will make sense #because i want to talk about it so fucking bad and i can't. even to my friends and gf who always listen i end up feeling annoying #and then i get genuinely delusional not like tiktok girl voice delulu like i genuinely start questioning my entire reality #just if i talk about something a little too much #bc i'm convinced i'm fucking annoying and no one gets it and they're thinking bad things about me #but i know they wouldn't. but it feels like they are #idk #anyways !

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nevada-got-screwed-over · 1 year

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Actually I don’t think I’ll ever forgive how Wash’s disability and subsequent ‘cure’ was handled.

#beans speaks #personal #rvb #red versus blue #the Carolina and wash plotline was a lil ehhh bc I don’t think they gave Carolina’s attitude abt his new limits a healthy foil #like it would have been see easy to have Dr Grey or Wash himself parallel her fear and frustration #and it could have gotten into such character depth too!#shine a light on her past trauma with losing people/them getting hurt to show that a lot of her perspective is ultimately selfish #which isn’t ‘wrong’ it’s normal considering what she’s been through but she needs to respect wash’s autonomy!#I haven’t seen 0 but. I heard. they gave him a. a fucking AI and it was all yippee he’s fine #as though that doesn’t go against like a major personal boundary of Wash (not a big fan of ai in his head) while also ignoring the whole.#yeah we just have to deal with this. it’s not fun and it’s gonna suck sometimes but it doesn’t change our love or respect.#sorry if I sound insane I also haven’t watched that season in a while and I’m. a lil. wooo tonight y’know #like as a disabled person w a progressive condition that is stopping me from doing things I used to be able to do #and will continue to limit my abilities as the years go by #it makes me wanna tear someone limb from fucking limb

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