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gordon-freeman-phd · 2 months

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breaking my silence, i have an alien grunt oc, it has a farm post rescas to ground itself as a way to cope with being made to be a weapon and to make up for previously only interacting with the world through violence and cruelty

#half life #alien grunt #oc: V-8751 #<name based on teh format of the drones from the xen attacks episode of decay #i dont think it really identifies with proper naming or a lot of personhood implying wordage for itself #itll respond to any pronouns but it prefers it/its #both cuz of how it was created ad cuz english varies deeply from the vortigese which i think the grunts also speak since i think theyre #an engineered varient of vorts #and i think they also have adeep sense of longing and emptiness they cant place that comes from the severed connection of the vortessesnce #but grunts i think still have an innate sense of it like a ham radio receiving an mp4 it cant parse it but theres something there #i have so much lore on it so *looks all timid* if you have questions...#idoindeeddraw #ponderingradioactivedecay #YOU DIDNT FUCKING SEE ME POST THIS ON THE WRONG ACCOUNT

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broke-on-books · 1 year

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I thought about this for like half a second and now it's destroying my brain

#i picked vincent btw like its sooooooooooo vinny #i was thinking about it and it hit me and thats like objectively the best answer #he thinks its mysterious PLEASE #and he tells the 13ghosts gang to do smth and they mess it up and hes like SCOOBY SHAGGY THIS IS ALL YOUR FAULT #and everybodys like you sent 🏔🦅👹🫠🗡🥽🧪🩸🗡🗡🗡🗡🪞👍🏻🔮#and hes like yeah in the mountains theres a flying ghost monster that melts people (be careful when you kill it itll turn into green goo)#and you defeat it by making it look at its own reflection #duh #and everyones like dude. you need to stop #scooby doo #blah #velma dinkley #fred jones #shaggy rogers #scrappy doo #vincent van ghoul #flim flam #13 ghosts #also im sorry if you say scooby youre wrong btw. like i still love you guys but like the laziest answer im disappointed

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opens-up-4-nobody · 3 months

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#its seems we really may be at the end of vanity #i missed a call from my dad and thought we might be in a connors birthday situation but no. not yet #he did say that it feels like this is it bc my mom's situation is complicated bc she has so much wrong at this point #its like a h0use md episode. the doctors dont seem to kno what to do and shes not very coherent #so my dad was saying that i should look at flights and by tonight hell let me kno if i should pull the trigger and buy a one way ticket home #it sucks. he sounds rough. i feel so bad for him. his wife of 29 years is dying #its not fair. shes only 53 #i wanna be there but im stuck here across the country. i wanna go home. thats a bit frighting tho bc itll take me at least 10 hrs to travel #and i dont want her to die while im in the air but i also dont want her to suffer #i hope she gets better but if she doenst i hope its fast. there dont seem to do any good options. shes so tried and its so complicated #and if she does get better than this then what would that even mean? my sister says it doesnt feel like there will b a better anymore after #this. and bless her to the ends of the earth she reached out this morning and was giving me updates #comforting to kno im not just being dramatic. its actually just really bleak #its kinda funny tho. my sister was like meh it doesnt seem so bad and then like 10min later she was like yeah no i was wrong its sorta #horrible apprently shes been deterorating #god. if i go back home do i take clothes for a funeral? do i keep up to date with my genomics class? will i become offset from my graduate #cohort? will i get my wish to play with legos at home? all questions worth considering #well. ill deal with whatever comes. so it goes. itll b fine. i mean ill b fine #just sad ya kno?#three weeks ago she was alright and saying she could fly out to take care of me after oral surgery #now shes dying #unrelated

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todayisafridaynight · 2 months

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sister saw me wearing the puffer that i use for my daigo cosplay since im cold all the time and sweaters arent enough and she was just like 'i really like it :) you look so. 👊💥' and after going What she was like 'you look real cool :) is what i meant :)' like thank you sister of mine youre too silly for this life

#snap chats #like she punched the air and made a punch sound effect fwrjflkjle #i mean she is not. WRONG with miming that about this jacket so 💀💀💀💀#also funny im wearing my own cross necklace and a black shirt and pants. lmao #also yeah i have two puffers- one's meant for the rain and REALLY cold weather and the second one's just. Casual/Daigo #'why are you like this' cause the other puffer's way too buiky fr casual wear and daigo and the interior isn't black like his is #this one's more slim and has a black interior. which is so funny cause when i was looking for a puffer for daigo years ago #it was impossible finding such a thing specifically but i got bored and decided to look again recently and i found it on the first page #for like. three cents basically too fejLRKjELj so thats cool. cant wait to show it off at animenyc #no im actually so excited bout animenyc ... hopefully i can actually. attend a meetup unlike last time 💀#i also didnt get to go last year so itll be fun going to a con again ..#im just stoked in general bout the small-but-meaningful-edits-to-me ive done to the whole look #s'gonna be fun .. AND im gonna try tweaking my mine one too since i got compelled to do That with all the mine talk lately #idk when id show that one off if ever. UNLUCKY that i hate taking pics of myself no one ever gets to see my cosplays unless its video form #ok im done rambling i have some stuff to do before i take an exam bye

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hassianlovebot · 3 months

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THE NEW PATCH LOOKS SO GOOD IM SO EXCITED

#new temple changes to climbing outdoor decor FROGBERT MY BELOVED #the new decor set is so cute!!#lvl 5 friendship!! i wonder if theyll add another romance one too #the new house looks SO good too #i wonder how itll work with the current house? like can we just upgrade our existing one or do we need to build an entire new house #and can we add our existing rooms to the new one? hmm....#and tree decor!! at different stages!! finally!!!!#im so excited #like dont get me wrong pa.lia has its fair share of issues #but it always bugs me when people say the devs Never listen to us cause like. yes they do akjdhg

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nyukyusnz · 5 days

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BRO PPL R WEIRDDDDDD

warning: rant in the tags (p0rn mention, cheating, lowk js smth fucked up)

#so i was watching this tiktok ryt ryt #and its just this girl talking abt how watching prn is cheating and yeah and all #some guy in the comments #said he watched it in a RELATIONSHIP bc his girl wouldnt send ????? thats like what the fuck #he said if she wont someones gotta do it like no???#thats just basically saying since ur gf wont fuck u youll fuck someone else #cause thats js watch watching it is #youre imagining fucking someone else and its like okay maybe ur thinking of ur partner but you arent SEEING IT #ure seeing someone elses body and all so youre actually thinkin of the other person and it doesnt matter what u say its how itll always be #thats how it works #its what ur seeing so its what ure imagining #esp if ur partner isnt remotely similar to the person ur looking at #sorry ik this is disgusting and all but i felt like talking about it bc its fucked up lowk i cant stand how sum ppl are #....#;; quiet down! ;;#if you dont wanna see these typa things block that tag<3 #this might be a rlly weird subject for me to be on but i saw it on tt and i wanted to bring it up cus its so wrong #;; the chatz! ;;

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ribbonpinky-art · 6 months

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want to cry!!!!!! fatphobia makes me want to cry so hard

a cute pic of Seiran and chubby Ringo, then boom next panel Seiran is making Ringo do situps whilst poking her belly. stabbed straight into my heart

#its so fkcing hard being triggered by smth so inescapable #also good on yall for making seiran a fatphobic piece of shit. is that cute and funny to you? what is the appeal here?#its cause u hate us right? ik that. we dont have the right to exist in a not-thin form ik that youd do anything to make us dissapear #if i had a friend that made me try to lose weight.. if they told me my body looked bad.. they would simply not be my friend #im so sorry. im very sad and angry and hurt hurt hurt #here come the waterworks wheeeeee #unfollowed the person i saw it from... i cant stay around ppl like that even if theyre friends w my friends #i cant do this. and mirrin warned me itll get so much worse due to new years resolutions. im so sad. i cant take it #pls make it stop pls let us just exist we are not bad or wrong for existing #fuck should i put trigger warnings....#tw fatphobia #tw body shaming #idk what else to put #god its so much more that body shaming. its abuse. its oppression. discrimination. cruelty on a global scale

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girl-bateman · 18 days

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Feeling a debilitating sense of dread and despair 🤨 Which probably means nothing😍👍

#girl help i cant get out of bed i feel so so awful for no reason at all #literally my soul is gone or something #i have no desires and no joys and no sense of being blessed #which is crazy bc i love life and im so blessed ! usually.#ig i should do something abt it tomorrow if it doesn't get better #alternatively get back into therapy bc tbh... after that horrible sex thing ive felt kinda off #like even after i was able to eat and sleep and function normally without the tremors and head jerks and whatnot #like its not dramatic anymore but i kinda feel drained of life and joy #moments of genuine happiness and fulfillment are ... ? idk. i did feel happy once this week and that was nice but it didnt last obviously #but like ! im not depressed in a depressed way. i take good care of myself and i read my books and eat food and hang out with friends #i just kinda dont recognise myself ig. i mean i know ill get my spark back but maybe i need some professional help #idk !! it kinda feels very silly tho #like ive been in and out of therapy for more than half of my life. and being one year therapy free was a big step for me !#so going back for this little ridiculous freakout feels like a setback #kinda like im making up things to be wrong with me just so that ill have someone to talk to ? or to have attention idk #it doesn't make sense bc i really was proud for getting bettter and i rly dont want to be in therapy anymore #but who knows 🤷‍♀️#there is also this slight risk. just clinically speaking by purely looking at symptoms of certain things. with no stake in the matter! lol #that there might be something bad and [lets not think too hard about it] that lies as a root cause of my little mental breakdown #like according to my sex having friends losing your virginity is awful but not THAT awful and not in THAT way #and my friend kinda said i scared her with how i was acting when i talked to her abt it. like my demeanour and body language and whatever #and i do trust her to know whats normal versus concerning when i dont have my own stable grip of reality #plus. if i was an outside party and applied my psych education on myself. i would say its not looking super good #but i cant really do that bc im not some random patient. im me myself and I 😩✋️ thank you #but whatever. itll be fine. tomorrow will be a better day ! yay !

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volfoss · 3 months

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honestly the more grant morrison comics i read/more i learn about them, the more i want them to blow up violently

#twist rambles #like. obviously when i hit their issues in the tal.ia chronology itll be BAD but like. genuinely horrific to me the shit that they got away #w writing lmao. for a while it was just a minor dislike of them and being like yeah. their writing isnt my fave. but the more i read the #more im like oh. oh you SUCK at writing ok. sure cant wait to see how much worse tal.ias stuff gets when we go from like. whatever fresh #horrors that o'neil gives me (which. is a lot do not get me wrong) to whatever FAR WORSE horrors that morrison gives me.#and whoever was responsible for like. half the shit on the al ghuls wiki page... bc every time i look into it im like wow. ok yeah this is #horrific. like i do NOT like ra's. i do think hes an effective villain and kind of fun. but i think the tendency that some writers have to #mke him cartoonishly evil just stems from the racism they have towards him.#this entire post started bc of morris.on sure putting words out there in a book from 2011 about ta.lia and good god oh its gonna make me #scream. but the list of comic authors i NEED to blow up grows daily

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nintendont2502 · 7 months

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do you believe in luck?

uhhhh. complicated.

i dont really know if i *believe* in luck - like i dont really do anything or feel like i can do anything to control my luck, and i dont really think luck exists tbh. i just tend to assume ill get an average result in everything i do, and if i get better thats cool, if i get worse then. eh. who really gives a fuck yk this too shall pass and all that

#i think it comes from constantly figuring out and imagining the worst possible outcome in every scenario #and after years of doing that and convincing yourslef itll happen you just. stop caring tbh #like yeah most of the time im wrong #if im not wrong then hey im not even surprised #at this point when bad things happen to me im just like 'oh hey this is a new experience for me. cool'#like if i ever have to go to hospital for some reason i dont think id give a shit #ive already planned the funniest way to tell people when i eventually do get into an accident or whatever so. idk. almost looking forward t #that eventually happening #i exist purely for the bit #me.txt

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aria0fgold · 5 months

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For the "artist end of the year ask game"

What is the best advice you've received this year, or, what's something new you learned about art?

I didn't really received any advice, well, to be exact, the advice that I saw are tumblr posts directed to all artists and not just me. One particular advice that I always make sure to remember is the "create for yourself" one. Whenever I catch myself low on confidence with the stuff I make (be it art or writing), I always take a step back and remind myself that what I create are things I want for myself. If this makes me happy, then that's enough for me. Others liking what I make is a really nice bonus of it!

I know it's an "or" but I'm gonna answer it too cuz there's a lot of new stuff I learned about art! As a beginner artist, I have so much to learn and each time I do, it's always such a thrilling experience! Though something important that I've learned is that art doesn't need to be perfect. It was something that I struggled with at first, where I have to make sure that there's not a single mistake in my art at all and that it has to be 100% polished with no line overlapping or colour out of the line.

But then while looking at official arts from games a lot closely, I'd notice there being a line going over another section. That was when I realized that I don't need to be so meticulous with it. Seeing the mistakes in those drawings didn't suddenly make them look bad, if anything it made them look even better, and "human" in a way that you know there was an artist behind the creation of it, an artist that missed that one line but it didn't change the quality of their art at all. So I can be just as messy with mine too. Miss a line or two and it'll be just fine, cuz that's what being human is like.

#arianswer #anon #honestly tho realizing that being imperfect with art is alright for me is pretty crazy cuz im someone that rlly likes #seeing sketchy or ''messy'' artstyles cuz im always amazed at how ppl are able to make it so pretty despite it being messy #then i turn to myself and suddenly just: no messiness at all otherwise itll turn BAD #after realizing that im like: gurl... what is wrong with you? to myself cuz honestly. why did that take me awhile to realize #also just goes to show that ai art will always be shit. i hate ai art.#seein tiny lil art mistakes that a human makes is always lovely cuz its understandable for someone to miss a single line #when working on such a wonderful piece. then there are also the artists that go: sorry for that one mistake #then i look at the art and see nothing at all. like: wtv that mistake is became part of the beauty of what you created now #and i think that's lovely on its own way

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vypridae · 6 months

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vent (AGAIN IM SO SORRY)

i THOUGHT i was fine and hten my FRIENDS say NOE THING and then i start FCRYING agAIN im goign to bed. i dont want to deal with this all night

#ill be normal tomorrow i promise #maybe ill draw something to make up for it #siglai maybe. skk or kunizai or kunichuuzai. maybe a lil fyolai as a treat. fyosiglai for my truthers out there #idk ill draw you guys something cute to make up for tonight i promise ghjkghjkghgj #i just dk what. either way itll happen i promise #if u have ideas pls send them in my inbox ill look at and consider them tomorrow #xanvents #if u saw me tag this wrong no u didnt #im going insane give me a break

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gibbearish · 7 months

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> be me

> never send asks bc im scared ill mess something up