2023 has been a dream I was wishing for a long time. A year I could allow myself to love and be loved, full of oportunities and memories I'll cherish with all my heart. I can start hoping for new tomorrows, smiling despite everything. I wish you all the love for next year too, thank you 💙

Everyone talks about Pantalone practically becoming a sugar daddy when he dates someone, but I'm thinking. Pondering. Perhaps even scheming.

Miser Pantalone, who hates spending any of his obscene wealth. He's greedy, he hoards his wealth, and he's more than willing to use his power and status to get high-quality items for lower than market value.

This allows him to keep his wealth and also fends off anyone who may be trying to use him for said wealth. Anyone he dates is very disappointed when they realize just how cheap he can be, and a lot of the time, they end up leaving him over it. He doesn't mind, though. One less thief he has to worry about.

But then you come along. You don't seem to mind that he hates paying full price. In fact, you praise his bartering skills and financial consciousness! He's just being smart with his money. That's a good thing!

He's thrown for a fuckin' loop. In his time as a Harbinger, hell, in his time of simply being rich, he's never found someone who truly doesn't mind his penny-pinching (mora-pinching?) habits. As he's sure as hell, never had someone praise him for it!

If you find a gift that's a little bit expensive on your bed the next day, think nothing of it.

OH MY GOSH IM EATING THIS UP... 😭 No because i could totally see this happening, a possible explanation being that he's scared of losing it all and returning to the same powerless poor boy who couldn't do anything, so he clings to his wealth so that doesn't happen. The other Harbingers despise that he's in charge of the funding because he gives them just the exact amount needed to get by in his eyes. There's no wiggle room. Nothing more, nothing less, they have to be extremely smart with their money otherwise they want to end up asking for more, causing them to be in debt to Pantalone... which you should never, ever do. Most people are surprised when they learn of how he handles his money... shouldn't he be more generous, since a few million Mora could hardly make a dent in his numerous bank accounts..? But nope, those people don't bother him. He is a Harbinger after all! Harbingers aren't nice people.

Now, he's used to going on fancy outings and all, it comes with being one as popular with the social circle as he is. But he considers it a waste of time, as it always ends up with the same ending - the other person(s) being disappointed over his unwillingness to spend, much less splurge on them... and really, he expects you to be no different. But... you aren't. Rather, you thank him for his time, how it was so worth it to talk to one such successful as himself. You seem interested in his Mora, but not in the manner of him spending it on you, but rather his habits, his management, etc. You're so interested in his Mora-pinching habits, complimenting about how smart he is saving money like that, and he's just... yeah. Shocked. He hopes you didn't catch the split second of surprise on his face before he schooled it back into a composed smile. One thing is for sure, he's interested in meeting you again... ;) He's intrigued as to your perspective now... what could possibly have caused you to have such a different response from the others?

After a long time, I think it would be a bit jarring for you to see him slowly go from nothing to spoiling you like there's no tomorrow. You're really confused and maybe a bit scared because he's not like this at all?? You try to return the gifts and urge him to get his money back, but nope, he practically shoves them right back to you all with a smile, because they're all yours now (along with his heart, this part you have yet to know about though.)

*slides this across the table like its a $20 bill* Random Morganthe screensaver I made for no reason other than... well you know. She.

Also show Mr. House looks like a raging homosexual and smokes that cigarette like he’s what the British call cigs too.

little meow meow i luv her

(the scarring on her leg has very thin fur on it so it’s not just bare skin btw)

I’m a wh*re for Charles wearing turtleneck tops 👁️🫦👁️

I love how everything just has to contrast between them. It's not only just the colors, the nature, it's even where they stood against each other (Karna - on sky, Arjuna - on land) and it's the camera expanding (Karna - zoom out and Arjuna - zoom in) and, and and-

This PV is so good, I want to eat it for the rest of my life.

PUD ATTACK YOUUUUU WITH LOVE AND VALIDATION MUAHAHAHAHAHAHAH~

@mellybabbles

Enjoy some gifts bean<333

what is she doodling? 🤨

aromantic thoughts

in one book about transness i read, the author said that even if you go through transition, even if you accomplish everything trans related you wanted, the feeling, the years, of sadness and alienation just don't go away and are always somewhere deep inside you. you may still compare yourself to cis people and still not feel enough. even if transphobia magically evaporated, your transness wouldn't - even if you had a perfect life with no transphobic incidents.

and it's exactly the same with aromanticism. i generally feel good. but there are days where i just can't understand why i can't feel the same way as other people do. why i can't understand that one (supposed to be universal) beautiful poem about love. why most people's values are a bit different than mine. why i can't be truly happy in a queer club, because there are people in love everywhere and my friend's talking to me about her love problem with a guy and the people next to me are all flirting with each other and a girl's hitting on me but i'm afraid bc she'll probably stop when i say "hey, i don't wanna go on a date. ever. but we can kiss if you want". (don't even know if i actually like doing that).

many times i feel like that while talking about friends. life. attitude, not necessarily towards relationship things. it doesn't have to be anything romantic. bc romance as a norm goes so deep you're reminded everyday you're different, and that your difference - if you show it to others - is a rather bad thing in their morality spectrum. everytime i think about that i wonder if i'm not confusing aromanticism with sth different, but i do think aromanticism falls under that category too.

the author of the book i mentioned said that when she first realized she was trans, she was terrified of the thought that was how her life was gonna look like - after all those awful years, it'd only go downhill (realization, transition process etc), this time bc of her own actions. similarly, i know the way i live now is the best for me (probably). but i do that deliberately. i could stop anytime and try to go against myself, caring for someone the way my friends seem to be able to. i long for that, simultaneously knowing i wouldn't last a minute.

honestly if you think leaving a comment on years-old fanfic is cringe (the author has written that fanfic you're reading. we're all "cringe" here. be free) or that it will make the author [some kind of upset] (as if we're not constantly searching for community engagement lol)... then please know that i got a comment today, reread the fic (that i had forgotten about sort of kind of) and cried my eyes out bc i'm so overwhelmed that a complete stranger. only interaction was those comments. just told me they've been re-reading my fanfic and think of it often

like. i do this with a bunch of fics !! when i'm able to read, i reread fics almost as often as i read new ones. some of them have changed me on a fundamental level. i've made dear dear friends thanks to them, and there's some fics that are such core aspects of how i view a character or a piece of media that they might as well be canon events to me. i've even left that kind of comment myself. but being on the other side of it ? i didn't really think about it, tbh, as a writer i feel it's easy to forget that... regardless of how many, you will have readers ? you are not the exception of the fanfic-loving continuum. and, to every commenter: your words of appreciation mean the world

scribbly-doos of some of my fave c3 ships

Dyejtsksi5d I FORGOT TO POST THIS

TADA!! @judejazza :P

Idk how to link posts but remember a few days ago how Freya was talking about on oc idea she had? So I drew her >:3

one thing about mytho is that he WILL fall out of a window

It’s so fucking annoying that any time there’s criticism about the show there’s a stupid reply/post in turn that’s like “the writers already said it would be different! adaptations aren’t supposed to be 100% faithful!” as if that means that you can’t say anything bad about it ever. Like the no negativity bs makes me hate it more actually! What are we, kpop stans? 🙄

(I’m a kpop stan so I can say that ok)

Lvdbsvbdsv go off!!! The toxic positivity in this fandom is insanely annoying, and the reason I take care that my posts don't show up in the general tag. I don't mind adaptations changing the source, HBO TLOU just ended this week and it's one of the best adaptations I've ever seen despite going off the beaten path. But the writing still has to be GOOD. It doesn't need to be SAME, it has to BE GOOD. SaB is a bad show even if you haven't read the books. "Stop complaining or we won't get a SoC spinoff" like why would I even want a SoC spinoff that would be the same quality as this????? "They had to speed things up because Netflix cancels everything after 2 seasons" 2 seasons would have been more than enough to wrap up the entire duology or the trilogy, just not both at the same time???? I feel like I dropped into an alternate universe where the ATLA fandom defends M. Night Shyamalan