something that is like the baseline of amys entire character to me is that shes lonely. shes clingy and physically affectionate in a way none of her friends really are, shes always getting pushed aside and left behind. yeah, she helps out people she doesnt know because shes a nice person, but also, she sees part of herself in them. she wont leave someone else behind because she knows the feeling —and more importantly, hates the feeling. if she doesnt have somebody to stand by her and be there for her, then shes going to be that person for everybody else. something something her obsession with sonic is really just like a manifestation of that desire for closeness with someone, and she thinks that romance is the only way to get that. idk... this hedgehog can have so many abandonment issues.

So, i've been on hiatus for a lil bit and I might continue after this depending on if things irl calm down or not BUT I do feel the need to stop by here and say happy halloween. No face reveal for tumblr, but you can have this instead <3

I told you it wouldn’t just be satosugu next time I posted jjk furries. This time there are even more gay people :)

going into instagram comments is crazy it’s like seeing into a (much MUCH) worse alternate reality like You ppl live such unfathomably terrible lives to me….

oh wow very upset right now lol

how does a cat manage to cause this much damage with one throw up oh my god

sorry I literally had my phone down eyes closed ready to at least try to sleep but I remembered something that happened yesterday that still boils my blood and I need to talk about it. my sister seriously has the audacity to be constantly seethingly jealous and bitter of me and my brother's good relationship and then will not even treat him like a human being it's just fucking baffling. we were at a restaurant and me and him were having a conversation about tv and then she puts her phone up right in front of his face to show our dad her instagram, completely blocking us from being able to talk and see each other. and the whole time she's going wow look at this photo look at this look how silly I look in this one! and my brother COMPLETELY REASONABLY. because the back of the phone is right in his face and he's hearing about how great these photos are. asks my sister is he can see them. and then she told him off for it! can you kill yourself!

Im a bit mad ab being so into hsr rn cos hoyoverse keeps gegting my ass. AT LEAST i never spent MONEY on hi3 and not gonna on hsr either so its almost ok

like re last post i see it happen with jhw too actually but ESPECIALLY ysa. i think on  a lot of levels orv fans suck about ysa including people who really like her but reduce her down to. nice girl whos a bit bitter about it. you knwo!? theres so much more to her than just that. shes a major character for a reason.

hoyoverse is getting revenge on me for shit talking artem’s second anniversary card i see

i had a really weird interaction on youtube the other week. i commented on a short tv clip of someone gay doing something funny a few years ago and i said smth sweet and generic like “oh wow that’s cute i love him” and it became a top comment so sometimes i still get notifications of ppl liking or replying to it. 

but for some reason, you know how faceless people on the internet will say their most shallow and judgmental thoughts to a real person like it’s not the rudest thing you can do? yeah that happened. i had left the most impersonal, inoffensive comment in the world but someone responded to me “just admit you’re only entertained bc he’s obviously gay and you project your lack of a personality onto that”

and i was just like. honestly shocked. like what? you literally don’t know me at all. i didnt even say I WAS GAY in the comment or anything about being gay it was LITERALLY just a tv clip i thought was funny and cute. but this angry homophobe who clearly just hates to see queer ppl have fun and make jokes on the internet made it *my* problem...

and like first of all i don’t do that. i don’t just identify w everyone i come across who is queer and funny and root for them for that reason alone. the only person i project my lack of personality onto is dave davies... ok... chill out that’s not what i watch jeopardy for, that’s why i listen to the kinks

what is this shit. beginning to think i may actually have the disorder i am diagnosed with

my family . i love them . but good god .

the thing they dont tell you about having a lot of people that you knew in high school that you periodically check in on is that it only takes one time to feel completely justified in being truly deeply afraid of seeing an obituary. 

Fighting the urge to be petty right now

Just a heads up, I've been feeling kinda shit for the past few days (mix of artistic burnout after suptober + lots of shit happening irl) so I'm going to try to take an active break from here for a while. I'm not deleting the app or anything, just don't be surprised if you don't see me as much for a bit.

I'll definitely be fully back for my bday event tho ofc <]:)