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the persona 3 protagonist 25th anniversary nui in food appliances!
#lizzy speaks#persona 3#minato arisato#makoto yuki#guys friendly reminder that this is what adulthood is about dont listen to anyone who calls you cringe#hence why im putting these in the main tags. i mean they're not incorrect for what the photos are about. lmao#anyway this was a very fun birthday!!! i feel very loved and supported by so many people and i got to do very fun things (like this)...#i think... birthday is like thanksgiving to me. in the gratitude respect.#a reminder of all the lovely people that i have gotten a chance to meet and how i've learned from them#it makes me very happy to have been born... i think every day is a great day to celebrate life's grandeur + brilliance + magnificence#it's just a very poignant and strong feeling that i have that i'm happy to have met so many wonderful people#and while there are some people i've only known for brief periods of time or people who i havent really been good at keeping in contact wit#i do cherish it! im so grateful. so happy that there are people who cheer my silly shenanigans on#while there are ways in which aging makes me go “oh hmm” i think overall i'm happy that i get to keep on living and learning#i have so much fondness for humanity and people... like even if i dont get to talk to ppl directly i just get very emotional yknow#like wow.. you exist.. thats so fucking awesome... i hope you have an awesome day... im glad our paths could cross#if you have read up to this point of my tags.. thank you for reading and being part of my life#i will keep on being the silliest guy ive ever known! cheers to more shenyanigans and self-discovery :3
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folks tonight we discovered what hitting my breaking point looks like and it is: impulse three day vacation in palm desert for ahl hockey in february by myself. does anyone have any recommendations for stuff to do in coachella valley?? like restaurants or hikes or museums or anything. i don't drink and i love museums and i will have a car and my only two commitments are evening hockey games. i should probably buy my lesbian parents alcohol, snacks, and/or spices for looking after my dog and i would like to buy local. also love a local ice cream shop or creamery. literally any recs you have would be great!! no recommendation too great or too small!!
(also podcast recs that aren't true crime or horror since i have two 7+ hour drives and if i listen to my sports podcasts the entire time i will become a worse version of myself than we started with, which is already bad lmfao)
#i'm so excited i have not been on vacation since 2021 and i have never been on vacation by myself ever#we will not discuss the circumstances that led to me making this decision in 15 mins and having a room booked and the tickets bought#within an hour and a half tonight but. know that it has been very very very bad for at least a month. lol. lmao#also i am so sorry to firebirds fans where the fresh hell does your team get off charging you $30+ dollars for ahl hockey#obviously i went apeshit and bought $80 tickets close to the bench for observation purposes but like. $30 for ahl hockey??#not even sitting close to the glass??? that's insane. i hope i get to see someone beat brisson's ass for no reason#OH FIREBIRDS FANS ALSO. WHICH LITTLE GUY SHOULD I ROOT FOR#big fan of going to minor leagues games choosing a guy at random and throwing all my emotional energy in to his game narrative#but i feel like i have. at least two firebirds fans following me maybe one of you can choose a guy for me#fresno oilers.txt#IS THE BOTANICAL GARDEN FUN
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Part 1 - Appreciation post for all the TFP universe Autobot mugshot cameos (known and unknown) in RID2015 3x25 (even if the context is that they've been OUSTED against their will)
#transformers rid2015#not me and my emotional crutch show comforting my broken soul after rewatching TFP for the nth time#every cameo and reference is another good hit of the Good Stuff#look at how g1 they all got i'm sobbing#smokey got so BUFF#sunstreaker confirmed canon!#boy do i have an angsty fic idea that explains sideswipes abandonment trauma#please tell me what ironhide was like i need to know#they included seaspray??? but he's dead jim#ultra magnus be snatched as ever#tfp universe wouldnt do mirage dirty like ROTB did#KNOCKOUT NOOOOO#is that sandstorm? I cannot tell because the resolution is GARBAGE#prowl look like he got big tiddies in this universe too <3#jetfire my g1 husband what happened to you#trailbreaker??? forever a highly functional alcoholic idc what you say#TRACKS MY REBEL SON#oh NO not the RESCUE BOTS they have done no wrong!!!#powerglide??? he ought to have been in there for as many times as the cons quoted him in this series#gears and.... is that moonracer???? I can only infer by color#BLASTERRRRR oh what I wouldn't give for a blaster/soundwave throwdown#oh this is sandstorm for SURE (then who's the other guy???) and my man KUP#oh no look how good looking they made roddy </3#ELITA AAAAA#wreckgar??? my trash son???#long post#maccadams#please bear with my internal dialogue#is that 6th one supposed to be tailgate??? wasn't him being dead like an ENTIRE plot point for all of TFP lol
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Babygirl I can concieve of stephcass dynamics you couldn't even imagine (arospec Cass not understanding why "probably bi but has a job so she doesn't have time to think about that" Steph apparently needs a man (she doesn't, it would just be nice) and doesn't want to platonically settle down with cass in their old age)
#ramblings of a lunatic#dc comics#stephcass#another sure to be no-notes banger#anyway I think steph and cass are both very. meh on labels#like i said Steph has a job (in my heart it's retail or like a fast food joint or something but in canon its just being batgirl/spoiler)#so she's not thinking about that rn#and cass was raised so outside of conventional society that she. technically understands why ppl want labels for things#but when you grow up in essentially a few rooms with just you and one other guy 90% of the time it just feels unnecessary in her heart#likewise she was raised so far from conventional romance and has such strong emotions about those she cares about#that she's just. not that interested in delineating romantic vs platonic feelings. She Likes You. Deal w/ it#steph on the other hand. oh boy steph#I'm not gonna say comphet I genuinely think she was deeply madly in love w/ tim and that's important to her character#but at the same time she's so. she's so#steph puts a lot of stock in her romantic relationships bc shes on a perpetual quest for connection and to be seen and appreciated#but. at the same time. she resents that part of her i think (at least early spoiler characterization does?-#-local girl desperately wants your approval and would rather be waterboarded than admit that to herself bc that's embarrassing)#so she's just kinda. acting like she's in it for the fun of it but that girl is searching for a soulmate#i genuinely think pre break-up she thought tim was the guy she was gonna marry. not consciously but if it were anyone it'd be him#and the whole ''married with kids'' thing IS something i think she wants. not every female character wants to be married/a mom#but Stephanie does imo#(also lets not even get into how much her breakup with tim SHOULD'VE effected her considering how it went down-#-and how that was never really gone into besides being hinted at in batgirls and kinda. dismissed in Tim's pride special-#-like on the one hand i get it bc of optics but on the other hands. he's really important to her! this should make her so much more upset!!#ahem. anyway#I'm not even the worlds biggest tim/stephanie guy i just think they're inch resting#and Cass. is close w/ Tim and Steph and should Get all of this since she's so adept at reading ppl#but like I said she's bad at categorizing platonic/romantic feelings in herself and doesn't totally Get it w/ steph#i should just write fic about this at this point these tags are too much
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When you feel weird saying your favorite actors name out loud when talking to your parents or friends because it feels like it's going to reveal how deeply obsessed you actually are
#oh how often i have said to my parents#'it's a movie with that actor i like'#because i am afraid if i say 'david tennant' i will also add 'the prettiest most gorgeous funniest guy who is so lovely and if i met him i#would probably hyperventilate and i think about him probably too much because he's just an actor but also Look At Him!!'#you know#normal fangirl stuff#i have a theory that this is either some sort of weird ocd thing deep inside of me like how for a few months i was very afraid that people#could hear my thoughts and so i never allowed myself to think strange or very personal things with many people around#or this is because other people have made me feel like i can't talk about my interests because they're so intense that they find them#annoying#or it's because i don't want my parents to think i have a crush on him because i don't and also i'm gay so like no crush potential this is#completely different emotion which i can't explain especially not my parents so i'd rather they not find out how cool i think he is#but also they probaly know because they got me 10th doctor merch for christmas without me even asking for it and my mom also said that#she noticed that he's my favorite actor which is fine it's toatally fine i'm so cool about this#any so yeah anyways#didn't think i'd analize myself that much tonight but here we are#david tennant you have to honor of recieving the title of 'that one actor i like' which is much more important than it might sound#good night#lea's random thoughts
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My bitchass cat- 80 ft up in a goddamn tree
It has been a day
#i dont want to make a long post so im ranting in the tags#this is now day 2 of her being up there#we only just found where she was in the tree thanks to binoculars#there are lots of emotions rn#ive already had a shitty few days and now this#on top of all that#this guy that came to “help” was constantly making remarks about ways to get her down that would definitely kill her#“oh I'm just not a cat person”#ok???#and???#shut the fuck up#i lost my cool on his ass so fucking fast#i like to consider myself a generally nice person when it comes to social interactions#but within the hour i was done with this asshole#i will not mention the ways he talked about getting her down#but i will mention that i definitely threatened him#lucky i did not tell him what i was really thinking#which was that i wanted to cave his skull in#but still#i dont give a fuck that you are here to help#the past few days have been shit and now this????#why are you such an ass???#fuck that guy#thanks for reading my rant#i hope your week was good#ill update on how getting her down goes#rant post#personal rant#rant
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something i don't see people talking about is the way hyperfixations come in like stages and cycles like it's not just "i'm obsessed with this thing" it's like. euphoria from finding something new and it brings you so much joy and then as that initial dopamine rush wears off you start to get more and more down and feel isolated as you start to realise that no one else cares about it as much as you do and you feel silly for being so into it and the thoughts become repetitive and boring so you get more and more depressed and lonely and then you inevitably lose the hyperfix which leaves you drifting feeling miserable and hopeless until you start the cycle again. idk if i explained this well or if other people will understand but it brings genuine phases of euphoria and straight up depression and this is why i get annoyed when neurotypicals use words like hyperfixation to describe like, an interest. bc it's not. just an interest it becomes who you are and when you lose it it's like losing yourself and you spend so much energy thinking about it that it interrupts your daily life and it's so fucking draining 👍
#like if i see one more nt being like hyperfixation this hyperfixation that SHUT UP!! YOU HAVE AN INTEREST#talk to me when you stay up until 6am every night bc you can't fucking sleep bc ur thinking about it.#talk to me when you can't process emotions in a normal healthy way because you can only relate it back to your hyperfix#paired w madd especially it's IMPOSSIBLE to be normal about shit i swear 2 god because the second i'm upset or lonely it's straight back to#immersing myself in another world and being someone else and not facing my emotions instead letting 'someone else' deal with them#not just negative emotions yk it's anything it's fully immersive to the point i end up not knowing exactly who i am myself bc i'm rarely#myself in my head yk#and it's so isolating#and this is why i get mad when people use these terms lightly bc they don't fucking get it#oh you're hyperfixated? oh you're delusional? you're delulu? watch this#< guy who has delusions that all of his friends secretly hate him bc he's too insane abt xyz media and who feels alone bc no one else is as#into it even though it wouldn't be reasonable to expect them to be#like i'm constantly questioning whether all my friends are secretly against me & finding me annoying anytime i talk about it but it's fine#it's so fucking isolating#i'm not losing my hyperfix yet thank god but i am in the stage of like realisation where the initial euphoria has worn off and i'm like#fuck no one else gets it. no one else is thinking about it like i am. and it's so lonely#< like not to sound like 'i'm 14 and no one gets me' or i'm not like other girls or whatever 😭#it's not me being dramatic i genuinely. know that no one else is spending every waking moment thinking about the things i am the way i do#and it's so incredibly depressing i can't even explain it in a way that will make sense#because i want to talk about it so fucking bad and i can't. even to my friends and gf who always listen i end up feeling annoying#and then i get genuinely delusional not like tiktok girl voice delulu like i genuinely start questioning my entire reality#just if i talk about something a little too much#bc i'm convinced i'm fucking annoying and no one gets it and they're thinking bad things about me#but i know they wouldn't. but it feels like they are#idk#anyways !
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Sooooo, how are things with Yoimiyaaa?
herhehrwehrer..
we're doing good!! during my break my mental health was at it's lowest for a while, but honestly selfshipping helped me feel better <33
today I had a poptart that I used the dinosaur sandwich maker on and I thought "yoimiya would like this.." (I did too bAHAHAH)
she misses u btw
#bro ngl I adore this blog#I missed using it#I have a sticker of yoimiya on my chromebook and she's right under the arrow keys.#it's this one emote where she's winking and there's a sparkle next to her face :} <3#YIPPEE thanks for askig <33#:shroom is typing...#...with oli:#OUGH I ALSO LOVE MY TAGGING SYSTEM#ehrehr#I kept on meaning to work on selfshipping lore but I've been busy in the way of. I don't want to do activities that require thinking.#and writing is including#you know what isn't included? playing stardew valley and romancing a character that has the same name as ur toxic ex.#I'm trying to replace him with the stardew valley character. so whenever I hear his name I think 'oh that guy's from Stardew valley'#and not 'OH NOT HIM GET HIM AWAYYYY'#oh and I'm naming all of my animals after spiritfarer characters in this run :) my first chicken was named gwen <3#also I'm at 195 hours in stardew. 15ish in the last five/six days#sorry for the stardew side-tangent adhsjdfkh
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hi hello idk if any of you were under the impression that I am either cool or normal but let me assure you that the only reason you could possibly think either of those two things is because you haven't seen me when my Super Special Interest is involved. I keep that shit on lockdown.
#this post brought to you by the full mental breakdown i'm having over#yu yu hakusho#specifically the new live action series#we're only 2 episodes in and i am always hesitant to call something good before i've gotten to the end#but oh man if this isn't fucking good as hell i'm so fucking jazzed you guys#i got so excited i had to lay on the floor multiple times because i just didn't know what else to do with my emotions#i'm a complete nutjob about this story YYH is my favorite fucking story in the whole world i love it so very much#i'm super unwell about this show and these characters and everything it's so bad#i'm having a FANTASTIC time though like 1million/10 experience for me over here
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🤍 for Mariocest
The Mario bros..... married.....
🤍 - Kiss at the wedding
In which Mario dreams of a future he never thought he'd have
Mario collapsed onto is back in the grass of the castle court yard, knocking the wind out of himself in the motion. Married, he thought. Marriage. The big show of devotion.
He'd put the concept far out of his mind before he really even understood it. He was never going to be the kind of guy to be legally married, because the only one he could fathom to ever love that much was his brother.
But now here he lay, in a Kingdom Far Far away from the rugged, probably valid, laws of Brooklyn, New York State, USA.
Every day Mario was reminded just how different the Mushroom Kingdom, and the entire world it existed within, was from his home. How they perceived Familial Relations wasn't as black and white, related or not, as it was back on Earth.
The way Peach had explained it, everyone is related in the Mushroom Kingdom, in the biological sense, in an unseen connection way. Families, parents and children and siblings, still existed but they were always more of a choice one makes than people one could be stuck with through blood ties. A choice that could be edited, reversed, altered as the relationship changed.
It was all a little too big of a concept for Mario, and the Princess tends to Grandify her explanations, but what it boiled down to was so very simple.
Here, in the Mushroom Kingdom, brothers, sisters, cousins and whoever else, are free to marry. Legal, true marriages.
Mario felt his heart rate pick up speed as it sunk in even further. Marriage. A real wedding with guests happy for them. With food and flowers and gifts and suits and- Mama mia rings.
He could propose. By Stars he could propose, a real proposal, and have it mean something. A real question with a real answer and a ceremony with vows and a big party.
Mario's hands clenched around his overall straps as he kicked his legs into the air a bit, his heart pounding in his chest as he squirmed out his excitement. He needed to calm down.
With a deep breath Mario focused on the clouds floating lazily overhead. White and fluffy and calm, oh so calm. Drifting slowly through the sky.
Mario closed his eyes, his heart rate slowing, the burning in his cheeks dimming. A cloud blocked the sun over head, cooling him down.
He wondered what Luigi would want to wear to their wedding. Mario always believed himself a Tuxedo guy. He'd wear the occasional dress, but it really wasn't his style. Luigi on the other hand...
Oh.. Luigi in a wedding dress...
Mario could see him now. Long and frilly with puffy sleeves and short gloves, standing with a thin veil and a bouquet of those beautiful rocket flowers at the end of an aisle lined with pews full of people who are so, so happy for them.
He walks down the aisle, and Mario stands tall on the staged in his white tux, and he is mesmerized by his brother's beauty, and no one else in the room seems to matter any longer.
They say their vows, they exchange rings. Mario is holding Luigi's hands so tenderly in his own, and he is crying. They're both crying, and this is really happening, and neither of them can look away or think of anything other than how happy they are to be there. Together.
"You may now kiss the bride"
Yeah.. Luigi would like the sound of bride.... Wife...
The cloud overhead moved along with the light breeze, allowing the warm sun to shine down onto Mario as he napped in Peach's court yard.
It wasn't an uncommon sight, to see the Hero of the Mushroom Kingdom asleep in the grass on warm days, so no one dared bother him.
Besides. He looked like he was having a nice dream.
#Mariocest#Emile's Writing#This got.... a touch longer than I thought it would#gkdfjgkfdjkgdfkhd#It's my blog and I'll post what I want to#Shipcest#When your irl buddy DMs you while your writing Mariocest and they don't know you're mental about the Brothers who Kiss#This is exactly the kick in the pants I need a short fic with no dialogue just Mario in his emotions#And a little bit of Toad Lore because I love them and think they're weird#They don't have gender the idea of them having kids like humans do is simply weird and wrong#Biological family Does Not Exist in the Mushroom Kingdom this is my stance#Mario thinks about kissing his brother his love directly on the mouth and takes a lil nap#As he deserves#White fluffy clouds.... White fluffy dress.... Wedding...#Look Mario's never thought about a Wedding but he HAS thought about being the Guy with the Ring down on one knee a LOT#Luigi's probably thought about wedding stuff but never seriously for the same reason as Mario#They... Married........ oh I'm so normal#I wanna go to the Mario Bros Wedding#Luigi WOULD be a Bride and he'd LOVE to be a Wife!!!!#Brief moment of reflect on Mario in a wedding dress tho he really does kill it#This is NOT a kiss fic I am a liar and a cad I'm SO sorry#I continue to not write any actual smooching#please send more requests I need to continue being unnormal
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(this is about trans stuff)
Probably need to get counselling about the fact that I’m so scared that my hormone balance is my personality.
#the cycle#so like i tend to associate my feelings with the Cycle position (menstral) that i happen to be in#so i feel strong and confiden and vivacious? upswing towards ovulation#sad and delicate? downswing towards menstruation#just being biologically essentialist or whatever some people say#thing is a lot of stuff about the effect of trans related HRT can read a little :/ if you're not feeling it#so the obvious example is gendercritical assholes saying trans women talking about feeling more emotional after starting hrt is misogyny#i actually think being emotional is not a bad thing tbh so they are tipping their own hands there#and also actually a lot of trans women seem to associate this change with positive things#but i'm talking about the way people talk about testosterone#a lot of people talk about the effects like it totally changed their personality tbh even if they don't realise it#it's scary like are our personalities our hormones????#someone on this ftm group i'm on said they were having difficulty forming romantic connections with people after a couple of years on T#and people were like 'well you're just aromantic it's fine! oh you weren't before HRT? well this is what your true#authentic self is then don't worry about it!'#like to be clear it was unclear from the post whether this guy needed reassurance that being aromantic is normal#or if he was bothered by it and wanted to change it#if first then the responses are fine#but if 2nd then .....wtf are the implications of this? is our sexuality and romantic inclination ALSO our hormones???#i don't think i'm wrong or crazy to feel weird about the idea of my personality changing and that my hormomes might be effecting it#kind of like how my personality is always shaped by depression and/or medication i'm taking for it#but it's scary like i only just got to know this brain i can't change it i'm FREAKING OUT#i feel like other trans people wouldn't want to talk to me about this because it sounds like i'm saying transphobic talking points. :(#but i really am scared of my personality changing.#if i go on t that is#can anyone talk to me about this on here?
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i screamed.
#🌙.rambles#[ ffxiv. ]#i forgot abt the manga for a bit. GOT NERVOUS TO READ BCS I'LL GO. HDFKLASJDFLKSJDFLKADSJF YK#( apollo's watching over my shoulder n said to write that i'm ugly. like. artemis is ugly. sobs )#oh my god. i can't read this. i just want to change all my pfps now n. be delusional. daydream. FUCK#EMET-SELCH YOU'RE SO UNFAIR 😭😭#& yotsuyu ma'am you're so pretty pls step on me hahahaha#n then alphi my bb first year he's so adorable i love love love him so much. my bb boy my dearest#AYMERIC YOU'RE SO LOVELY N HAURCHEFANT YOU'RE SO PRECIOUS I'LL CRY#the rest of them too but. rn my brain. is in school mode. i cannot. handle this. rn. oh my god. help#GAIA N RYNE WAHH THEY'RE SO CUTE I LOVE THEM SO MUCH 🥹🫶🏼#i'm enjoying this so much but i'm just skimming through to look at stuff#guys i love final fantasy xiv so much.#alphinaud at the end of the second chapter is so me actually#i froze when i saw emet-selch w the book. i have no words. oh my god.#GAIA N YSAYLE INTERACTION MY GIRLS I LOVE YOU BOTH SO MUCH 😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭#i have. assignments to do tho lmfaoooo that's enough for now. actually maybe i'll just quickly skim to the end of this chapter#i'm too shy to add more pics bcs. the 4th chapter. BUT. ALPHINAUD SAVING THE LIL KID I'M SO IN LOVE 🥹🥹🥹🥹🫶🏼🫶🏼🫶🏼🫶🏼#alphi n alisaie. i'm emotional. I LOVE THEM SO MUCH 😭😭 alphi's soft smile there though.. i'm. so. in love.#alphi w the kid. alphi n alisaie. hdflaksdjfldk i love alphi so much my dear alphi :c#i want to ramble so much help me. but. SCHOOL. HFDALKDSFJDLKFJ SOBBING BYE#just some snippets from the manga yes. don't mind me
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try not to do any activity on discord other than staying invisible and focus on your own mental health in 3, 2, 1, go! (has started since morning)
seriously though.
i miss those two, i wish i was able to say hi in the server but mentally and emotionally i'm not doing well. sorry guys :(
#guys pls remember i love you all. i love these THREE (other one isn't on discord sad)#i'm not used to being unavailable to literally anyone i know so like. hi i hope you understand why i'm more active on tumblr/fb than dc rn#especially with the stuff i said yesterday???? i'm really SORRY YOU HAD TO CARRY MY EMOTIONAL BAGGAGE AND SHIT#i know i said we have to separate personal stuff from work because it makes me uncomfortable myself but here we are oh shit oh fuck#i guess i am baby 😓😓😓#i don't wanna be babied anymore 😓 i dont feel like im even growing#please help#tldr something happened at school today. that's why i'm here venting#fr something made me so uncomfortable it dropped my mood. i'm so sorry. i hope i get better tomorrow :((((#missing entry#the institute
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[ meet the prisoners! (t2 edition) ] prisoner 007: yano asahi
the youngest linagram prisoner is here!! i love his t2 design a lot actually. though i love his design in general. i love this cute purple boi. his t2 mv makes me so scared of him
btw i wanna apologize if the profiles look "inconsistent", this is gonna sound weird, but i worked on everything, including the profiles, the vds, the mv descriptions, etc, for a couple months and it's like, basically if i had some free time, i worked on those things, so i had some things in my phone notes, if i had my tablet with me, i wrote something in my notes there, if i wasn't having any problems with my computer, i used it instead. i know that it would make much more sense to just have everything in one place, but because of some stuff, i wasn't able to do it that way. i often forget to edit some things, like i forgot that i don't need to write "kei's t2 profile" in his profile and i also forgot to change "non-deco*27 cover" to "different vocaloid producer cover" in eiko's profile. also my computer keyboard is kinda broken which. makes things a lot harder to write and even though i have a second one, IT'S ALSO BROKEN AND IT'S EVEN WORSE. sooooo uhhhh yeah sorry djsksksls
General info.
T1 Verdict: Asahi was voted innocent and he sure was happy with his verdict! Haha, he totally expected to be forgiven, no, he knew that he's gonna be forgiven. I mean, they had to forgive a child, they wouldn't punish someone as young as him, right? Asahi's hair grew a little bit longer between trials, so he got a new hairstyle. He also got a new outfit, though it's kind of similar to his T1 one. Even though he was voted innocent, he still has a bandaid under his right eye because of Yurika's attack and yes, it's definitely not as serious as Akio and Kei's injuries, but he still likes to remind everyone how much of a victim he is. Like, look at him, how dare Yurika hurt a poor child like him? He got a few other scratches because of her, but they have already healed and there's only one left now.
T2 Personality: Asahi, surprisingly, is more polite now and he doesn't swear as often as he used to. At least that's what it seems like on the outside. Asahi is happy that he got forgiven, but he's secretly very afraid of being voted guilty this time, so.. Why not start acting like an even more "cute" version of himself? People will love him more if he starts acting nicer and more obedient, right? It doesn't mean that he really is nicer now though. When nobody else is around, he will gladly make fun of the guilty prisoners, go back to his usual manner of speaking and bully those who are even weaker than him. And if anyone even tries to accuse him, he will start crying and claiming that this never happened. And well, Miki can't help but forgive him again and again, even though this kid is trying to manipulate not only the guards, but also the other prisoners. He even steals food and other things from the guilty prisoners. He doesn't even need those things, he just does it because.. uh.. because.. Well, because he deserves them!
T2 Relationship dynamics:
Yeah, Naomi and Asahi's relationship is.. not good, to say the least. It's very sad to think about, when you remember how much Asahi wants a mother figure and kinda expects Naomi to become one, but she's not interested in that at all and clearly hates the kid. So no matter how hard Asahi tries to make her like him, she just ends up hating him even more. Honestly, if it wasn't for the guards, she would've probably already killed him, he annoys her that much.
Obviously, Asahi dislikes Yurika now, and when other people are around, he doesn't hesitate to remind them how bad she is and how he's still in "so much pain because of her". However, when there is only Yurika around, Asahi suddenly stops acting so brave and tries his best to avoid her. He knows that Yurika isn't afraid of the guards, so even if they try to stop her, she will attack anyone who makes her angry.
If Naomi and Asahi's dynamic makes you sad, don't worry, because Eiji and Asahi both hate each other equally! <3 Eiji hates him because he still finds him annoying and suspicious and he doubts that Asahi deserved to be forgiven, but he can't say anything because he's Miki's brother. Meanwhile Asahi is very protective of Miki and he thinks that Eiji will end up hurting her one day, so he keeps his eye on him and sometimes purposefully asks Miki to hang out with him so that she doesn't have to spend time with Eiji. Both of them hate each other, but for Miki's sake, they try to hide it.
Asahi likes Miki so much, even though it may not be obvious because of his personality, but he does. He may ask her to spend time with him so that she stays away from Eiji (but also so that he can show Eiji that "she likes Asahi more"), but sometimes he actually wants to help her feel better. He can even share his food with her sometimes or ask her to play with him. Yes, Asahi is a terrible and very annoying kid, but he's also still just a kid.
Music info.
Milgram cover: All-Knowing All-Agony. (HE LITERALLY HAS AN IMAGINARY MOTHER. HE NEEDS HELP. But also he's scared of not being forgiven this time, so some lyrics describe that as well.)
DECO*27 cover: Fakery Tale. (I just think this song would sound very cute and soft (but also sad) as his cover.. Like I kinda imagine it sounding like a lullaby even?? (The instrumental would most likely be different in this case, probably a music box cover) But also some lyrics actually fit him and his backstory (and crime) a lot, like "a slightly lonely place, a somewhat kind and gentle one as well, I want to go there", "don't cry with that ashamed face, I want to forget it all and go back, I beg of you" and "I'll see you later, let's surely meet here someday, until then, good night". It makes me very sad to think about the last lyrics ("That body of mine disappeared, well then, where shall I go?"), because Asahi was kicked out of his new home by his adoptive father and he just.. walked, trying to find a place to stay or someone to ask for help. It's even more difficult than it already sounds, because his biological parents are dead and his adoptive mother as well, meanwhile his adoptive father doesn't want to do anything with him for a good reason. So.. yeah, he really had nowhere to go. It's highly possible that if he wasn't able to get any help before getting kidnapped and being brought to Milgram, he would've died of starvation or some other reasons (he could easily end up in a lot of dangerous situations because of his mental state), which makes him being the most demanding prisoner more understandable and really sad.)
Different Vocaloid producer cover: Selfish Princess by Fujiwo (Do I even have to explain anything. It's literally him.)
His T2 Trailer Voicelines:
"Oh! Eiji-nii, Miki-nee! Did you bring me something nice today as well?.. Miki-nee, why do you always look so pale when you talk to me? Did this guy do something bad to you? "It's nothing"?.. Okay then. Anyway, you're gonna forgive me this time too, right? You would never punish a poor child like me, right?.. I will be safe, right? You know that I'm still traumatized from what happened earlier, don't you?.."
*heavy breathing* "You.. Why did you say that?.. Did you really mean it?.."
His T2 Song Trailer Voiceline:
"Hey, does that mean they're firing you, Eiji-nii?"
Trivia:
Asahi's second image color was chosen because of his hair color.
As you've probably already guessed, Asahi really wants to be forgiven again, though it's hard to say if that will happen, considering his behavior.
Speaking of his verdict, interestingly, his VD shows him in a much more innocent light, but his MV shows him in a more guilty light and the ending is particularly creepy. It's like the opposite version of Kei's situation, because I personally think his VD still shows him as someone who's more "guilty" and his MV definitely shows him as someone who's more "innocent".
He's actually gonna reveal a lot about his murder this time!
Since Asahi's thoughts were affirmed, this is one of the reasons why he tries to act more "cute" and "soft" this time. To be honest, he thinks that he got forgiven only because he's a cute child and not because of his crime being understandable and something that can be forgiven, so.. yeah 😔
It may look like he has dark circles, but no, that's just the shading, haha. Though I think it would be fitting for him to have those, because he's not doing so well mentally, even though he was forgiven.
#his song lyrics were so fun to work on you have no idea.#it's like even the very first lyrics are so cool.#honestly i think the hunger pair t2 mvs are my favorite (though kei and riku's ones are also very cool)#because tbh i'm not a big fan of their t1 mvs. i think i could have done a better job but oh well#BUT THIS TIME. THESE GUYS REALLY LOOKED AT THEIR THEME AND THEY UNDERSTOOD THE ASSIGNMENT#his vd makes me so so sad though. he's my emotional support annoying rich (not really) kid#milgram#milgram oc#milgram project#ocgram#🍬prisoner 007: yano asahi 🍬
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holy shit tsukutabe ep18 was so devastating and good and i'm still crying from it. holy shit holy shit spoilery yelling in tags
#KASUGAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA#CRYING FOREVER#it's so crazy how good the acting was.... you've seen this character basically NEVER emote for the entire show#and then when her voice cracks you're just oh no. oh NO#IT WAS SO GOOD.#PERFECT ADAPTION OF THE SCENE.#I'M SO HAPPY AND ALSO CRYING#also absolutely losing my shit over the song choice#CHOSEN FAMILY. BY RINA SAWAYAMA? A SONG THAT ALREADY MAKES ME CRY ON THE REGULAR?#DO YOU WANT TO KILL ME?#AND NOMOTO ALMOST CONFESSED HER FEELINGS THERE TOO#MY GOD. MY FUCKING GOD!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!#best episode of the show so far hands down they didn't even make any food and i didn't even care#also i'm so happy kasuga has a friend in the lady from work too#nomoto gets her work buddy and now kasuga also has a work buddy!!#perfect show. seriously perfect show i wouldn't change a thing#also Sena was sooooooo cute in this week's episodes too that's my babygirl!!!!!! baby!!!!!!!#not even gonna maintag you guys will have to find this breakdown of mine organically
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theatre or open mic night would fix me
#I MISS PERFORMING SO MUCH (was a theatre kid)#i'm sure you guys can tell from following me but hi i like attention and i have not been able to get that since pre-covid#there's something so freeing about it to me#it's like venting. it's an emotional outlet. you can throw all your feelings into your performance#and it makes other people happy#so i would feel better AND I'd be being useful and making other people happy#you get that emotional vulnerability in the show but it's also just a performance so you have it at arms length at the same time#dealing with it without DEALING with it. also people clap for you#hold up is this why i'm obsessed with pokemon coordinators specifically? hm.#see now i'm just thinking about all the emotions you can throw into a contest performance.........#me writing the tags on this post is like strolling aimlessly in the woods and tripping over a copy of the dsm-5 in the dirt#just rambling and then it turns into 'oh that's why i'm like this about these characters'
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