#of that massive relapse | Explore Tumblr Posts and Blogs

elialys · 23 days

Text

my favorite dumb plot hole on fringe that they never address remains how they constantly travel back and forth between Boston and New York in about 5 minutes

#like they sometimes mentioned private planes in s1 #but s2 it's just LETS GO TO MASSIVE DYNAMIC five times a day #as if it wasnt a 4h drive each way #i know because i wrote about it in fics #i love my silly show #fringe relapse 2024 #fringe

32 notes · View notes

magnusbae · 6 months

Text

Nothing hurts me quite as much as reading perfect slowburn with compelling and deeply in character interactions that are swiftly replaced by some professional lemon doppelgangers during the smut and after 😔😔😔

#like if you wouldnt show great understanding of canon compliant characteristics i wouldnt be as upset #but going from a character who cannot morally accept even looking at character B nor ever using slang to suddenly saying 'baby' and shaggin #within the paragraph is such a massive whiplash i simply cannot handle #also people assuming that once you start dating it's all easy smooth sailing with pet names and domestic bliss #WHERE IS THE AWKWARD EXCITEMENT #where is the uncertainty if they're dating like THAT #or like THIS #where is the first dates and the first hand holding and the first gifts #where is the charafter flaws from the slowburning part and the relapse under stress or when buttons are pressed #(for example not expressing feelings or being secretive or getting insedure)#(those things are not forever gone after shagging or getting together they come back to bite)#i dont know i am just so so so so so starved for slowburns AFTER the Shag/Confession....#i know ...i know i should probably just....uh....oh.....write #buns.txt

32 notes · View notes

one-winged-dreams · 6 months

Text

AUGGHHGHG manically watching KH cinematic openings to try to curb the mental illness, therefore exhibiting SYMPTOMS of mental illness but IIIIIIIIIIIIIII

am gay

#having myself a little cry rn because I'm relapsing really hard and I'm pretty sure I'm having a massive episode right now but goddammit #i've still got my f/os #so i stayed in the darkness with you

6 notes · View notes

explosionshark · 2 years

Text

Literally if I ever wrote a wholesale mundane Buffy AU it would just be to have Angel canonically be Faith's AA or NA sponsor the rest of the plot could be entirely incidental but I would love an excuse to just cement that in text

#yea yes massive issues with both organizations BUT there's something massively compelling about these characters #as people who are both in recovery. like the tjmes Angel loses his soul are very obvious relapse metaphors #n e wayz I probably won't ever go that fully au but. u never know

13 notes · View notes

ereh-emanresu-tresni · 11 months

Text

There being comparatively so many options for manga vs anime that Aren't about middle/high schoolers is so nice tbh and so dangerops for my use of time for the foreseeable future lol...

#I knew my relapse into vtubers and then react channels was a canary lol #I did not heed it and now here I am binging massively fluffy romcom shit again

5 notes · View notes

computerpeople · 1 year

Text

i dont know whos fronting and havent known for a while guess im fucked

#txt #its not a big deal its just annoying #i had this massive massive break down on the 4th and have been confused ever since #i hurt myself kind of bad but i didnt relapse which is okay #harm reduction i guess

2 notes · View notes

mantecol · 2 years

Text

😔

#adding a lot of tags so you all dont read right away #iqjdiqnidnwienwienieneieneirkqonekeen #iqjdiqnidnwienwienieneieneirkqonekeenissknwoqmdowkwomwoqmqoemeirjeineirnrieniewkeone #usneifneinwiwjeiejeieniqjdiqnidnwienwienieneieneirkqonekeensijsidneirkode #😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭#🤡🤡🤡🤡🤡🤡🤡🤡🤡🤡🤡🤡🤡🤡🤡🤡🤡🤡🤡🤡🤡🤡🤡🤡🤡🤡🤡🤡#😭🔫😭🔫😭🔫😭🔫😭🔫😭🔫😭🔫😭🔫😭🔫😭🔫😭🔫😭🔫😭🔫😭🔫😭🔫😭🔫😭🔫😭🔫😭🔫😭🔫😭🔫😭🔫😭#BUT WHEN HE HE HE HE HE IS HE HE WHEN HE HE HE HE #IM SORRY NERO LO SIENTO I KNOW I TOLD YA I WOULD GET OVER HIM BUT #IS A MENTAL ILLNESS WORSE THAN ANY MEDICAL RECORDS CAN PROVIDE #is called ENJI TODOROKI STOCKHOLM SYNDROME 😭😭😭😭😭 ESTA RE BUENO PERDONEN PERO #THE LAST CHAPTER? I WOULD ALSO CHOKE MYSELF BUT BUT THAT SHOT AND PEOPLE DRAW HIM SO HOT #I AM RELAPSING INTO DRUGS MORE OR LESS WHAT IS THIS WHY AM I ATTRACTED TO HIM #SOMEONE EUTHANIZE ME PLEASE #😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭#IS JUST HEROES IN MHA ARE MY TYPE MAN MASSIVE HUGE OLD DUDES IRL THEY MY TYPE TOO 😔🔫 THIS IS NOT FUN #I NEED A BIG VILLAIN THAT IS NOT MUSCULAR #okay ill stop please ill go seek professional help #.txt

4 notes · View notes

narutosideblog · 2 years

Text

Tw:ed

#i've been having a massive relapse since thursday #i'm so tired of everything #i want a clean slate clean house clean body #i want to lay on the grass in the sun and have zero responsibilities #god i'm so tired #personal #tw:ed

2 notes · View notes

priceysalt · 2 years

Text

oh god oh fuck i’m back in my steven universe era

#spontaneous relapse to age 13 #so obsessed with this little fella #also i had repressed the massive crush tweenage me had on holly blue agate #the more things change the more they stay the same #*looks pointedly at the comically long list of every mean middle-age woman i’ve lusted after since then*#steven universe

3 notes · View notes

deangirldisease · 2 years

Text

whoever wrote 6x19 needs to be in jail… between the attempted rape and the fucking lesbian SHOT TO DEATH!?

#OH not to mention willows addict arc suddenly going into massive relapse #for VENGEANCE!? fuck off #btvs #that was fucked UP i dont like it here anymore

2 notes · View notes

crayolacolor · 2 years

Text

aaa

#vent cw #negative cw #( i'm sorry i try not to post vent stuff too often but i desperately need to get this off my chest )#i got hit with so much stress all at one time today #covid cases are going back up again and i'm gonna cry because i already feel like i lost 2 years of my life to this stupid virus #i just want things to go back to normal #i keep seeing those reminder: the pandemic isn't over yet posts and it feels like a punch in the gut to me #i know who they're for but honestly. do posts like that really help?#i think the people posts like that are directed towards would just see it and scoff #meanwhile people like me are hit with another reminder that everything is still horrible and nothing's getting better #and even if they DO get better it doesn't last #my mom kept us on 2020-level lockdowns throughout this whole thing and was JUST starting to let us do normal stuff again and now this.#i don't want to go back to that #i want to live #i don't want to lose another year of my life #be cautious of course but i can't just shut myself down completely for this long #my mental health can't take it #i also have had a massive relapse of an unrelated worry that i don't want to directly say because i feel like i'll speak it into existence #i don't. really believe that's a thing that can happen but it's an irrational fear with this worry specifically #and it's infuriating because it's not one that i can easily dismiss in a week or two #this one has lasted for months and is likely to keep nagging at me for the foreseeable future #i just want to not be stressed #that's literally it #i don't know what to do

2 notes · View notes

cheerstofuckedupyearz · 2 years

Text

.

#🙃🙃🙃🙃🙃🙃🙃🙃🙃🙃🙃🙃🙃🙃🙃🙃🙃🙃🙃🙃🙃🙃🙃#😔😔😔😔😔😔😔😔😔😔😔😔😔😔😔😔#I feel weird phrasing it this way but I essentially replased last night when the roe v. wade news broke #(for context ‘relapsing’ with cannabis use after making it a full fucking month)#but I just had this massive existential cirsis about the state of the world and just sorta broke #my body has had major adverse reactions to birth control especially long term ones #and between abortion no longer being protected and them essentially stating that they’re coming for birth control rights next #I feel like I’m grieving my bodily autonomy and reproductive rights #I wanted to spend some time off birth control and see how it affected my mental health but now it feels like that’s not even an option #the iud’s are the longest lasting birth control one can get but my uterus hates those bitches #but god I guess I’m gonna try them again because 5 years is a nice safety net #i recognize panic does nothing and now is the time to organize and be loud and whatnot but I just needed to vent a lil #and also I’m just like really angry at myself for giving into my addiction like god where did my will power go #personal

3 notes · View notes

mosspapi · 7 days

Text

Spending my last day in residence laying in the dark trying not to pass out or throw up. As upsetting as this is, it's also extremely fitting for the fuckin year I've been having. Jesus fuckin Christ

#idk man it's 8:50pm and I just got hit with a massive wave of depression lmao #like. I thought going to uni would help me gain some independence. I'd b able to go places and do things and meet ppl and have fun.#pretend to be normal for the first time in my life. and for one year I had that. and it's all just been taken away from me #I wanted to go to the queer arts club. visit the farmers market and goth store. sit in the parks. experience being a human.#I haven't done anything that isn't schoolwork or medical in months. I've barely gotten out of bed.#I wanted so desperately to finally be out of my abusive parents constant supervision and now I'm even more reliant on them than before.#idk man I've been having an Awful time since September and it's only gotten worse since December and I can't take it much more #I lived here so I could try to meet ppl and do things and get out of my comfort zone. I haven't spoken to another human in months.#and now I'll never get to.#idk dude it's just. I have a lot of feelings suddenly and I don't like any of them n I wanna relapse so bad but I'm physically too tired to #armchair speaks #vent post #tw vent #tw sh in tags

1 note · View note

the-power-of-the-dog · 1 year

Text

I feel like every January of every year you've gotta contemplate relapse and vices and becoming everything you swore you wouldnt just for funsies

#ik its feb but like its early feb yknow #anybody else or is this just me #2018: massive relapse into cutting 2019: dog dies 2020 covid #cant remember 2021 but 2022 my sleep anxiety got so bad i would get suicidal and cried like most nights with like 0 support #2023 is like major family problems #love this for me

1 note · View note

doberbutts · 4 months

Note

Curious about something you mentioned in your post last week, you said that in your opinion all drugs should be legal and I’m curious about how that would be a positive at all? Like I get weed bc it’s pretty harmless but when I think of drugs I think of cocaine and heroin, which have destroyed so many lives. If it was widely available wouldn’t that end up hurting more people than helping? That’s just my opinion but I’m curious on the other side

I do think all drugs should be legal. This is said knowing that addiction runs in my family and that the only reason my older sister is my *sister* is due to drug use and addiction. Otherwise she'd be my cousin.

Making drugs illegal does not stop people from getting high. It does not stop drug related crime. And it certainly does not stop drugs from tearing families apart.

Addiction is a symptom of a larger problem. Solve the problem and the addict problem goes away. Solve the addict problem and drugs stop ruining lives and destroying families and creating massive amounts of drug related violence. Places that have roled out decriminalization strategies effectively have seen an overall reduction in crime rates across the board, a reduction in recreational drug use, and a reduction in bloodborne illness like HIV. Creating safe needle exchanges as well as safe places to get high with medical staff onhand has also created a locale where very few people die from overdose.

Most people hear "decriminalize all drugs" and think I mean a free-for-all. I don't. I think the drug market should be regulated. I don't think you should be able to get ketamine or heroin over the counter at a walmart like you can get asprin. But I think it's time to stop putting people in jail for getting high.

My aunt tore her life and her family and her health apart for years while she was addicted to heroin. My sister, her daughter, needed to be removed from her care due to the amazingly bad choices she made as a mother due to her addiction and her prioritizing drugs over the health and safety of her daughter. My aunt has had multiple heart attacks from the damage the constant drug use did to her body.

My aunt is more than a decade sober and do you know why? It's not because she got a wakeup call when her daughter was taken away, because at the time she willingly and freely signed her over to my parents because that got her "out of [her] hair". It's not because she had a heart attack, because she went right back to it the moment she was out of the hospital. It's not even because she spent time in rehab and prison, because the moment she was out she was using again.

No, my aunt got sober because her life changed. She was put on a better pain management plan. She got out of her shitty marriage to her shitty husband. She completed some education to make her more hireable so she didn't have to rely on less than safe means of paying her bills. She reconnected with my sister and reforged their relationship once she was 18. She bought her own house. She found love with someone who didn't give a shit about her past and brought out the best in her.

My aunt was a deeply unhappy person. Heroin made life more tolerable for her. Until she couldn't tolerate life without it. Until she'd do anything, anything, to get her next high.

A lot of addicts are addicts because they are self-medicating for something else and their drug of choice has chemical properties that makes their brains crave it more. If you fix the "deeply unhappy" part, you create a healthier environment for that addict to take control over their life again. Without it, they are far more likely to continue to relapse.

Knowing this, why would I then want to add the threat of prison and jailtime- life-ruining things themselves- to an addict's list of concerns?

Look up rat park sometime. In the rat paradise, drugged water was freely offered, and occasional a rat here or there would take a hit or two, but rarely enough to even get high and almost never habitually. Addiction literally didn't exist even though the rats were taking addictive substances. But the rats in cages, seperated from each other, with no enrichment, crammed into small spaces and stressed to hell? Those rats took hit after hit after hit until they overdosed and died. The addict rats were deeply unhappy. The drugs were their only escape. The paradise rats had to be lured in with sweetened drugs to even consider and even then they rejected them. The caged rats did not need sweetner, even though the drugs made the water bitter.

If we can see such a stark difference in rats having their needs met vs rats experiencing isolation and stress, what would happen if we showed human addicts the same consideration?

I think a lot better results than continuing to jail deeply unhappy and desperate people for doing the only thing they can think of to cope.

1K notes · View notes

slutdick · 2 years

Text

I’m so done with drinking

#I keep relapsing🥲#woke up with massive gashes in my arm #fuck eh

1 note · View note