vidiya game hug gave me a wave of serotonin. also i had to reload three times to pass the damn perception check

“slow, love, slow only the weak are not lonely”

nightwish — slow, love, slow

tav q's! 1, 3, 4, 5, and 14!

thank you for asking!! i'm gonna do this for nedwyss since she's the one i'm playing as rn

1. Tell us about your Tav! Name, class and subclass, race, pronouns. Do you have a headcanon for where they're from? Their family? Are they a Dark Urge? Or did you choose an Origin Character? Was it an easy decision?

nedwyss is a cleric of lathander, light domain. she's a seldarine drow and goes by she/her. she was raised in the underdark, as most drow, but later left to join the clergy. i think her family were the stereotypical drow™, praising cruelty, ambition and competition. nedwyss was decent at playing pretend for that role for a while, but eventually decided she couldn't go on, and that's why she became a cleric of the morninglord. she's not a dark urge because i wanted to save that storyline for someone who wasn't made with the goal of being a tentacle enjoyer. nothing wrong with enjoying some tentacles, but y'know.

3. Has your Character been using their illithid powers?

in lore/headcanon? yes, she starts using them because she believes it's a way to go good. the source of the powers may suck, but she has them regardless, might as well use them to protect innocents. but i haven't really been using them in-game, mostly bc i haven't unlocked any truly fun ones yet.

4. Do you remember in which order you recruited your companions? Which companion introduction would have felt the most familiar / like home to your Tav / Character?

i don't recall the exact order, but it was probably something like shadowheart, gale, astarion, lae'zel, wyll, karlach. wyll is probably the companion she feels is most like her, they share the kindness and the desire to protect innocents, but lae'zel (and perhaps later shadowheart) reminded her of her childhood, the cruel and unforgiving society she was raised in. so wyll was "home" in a way that home is where your heart is, but lae'zel was home in a way her literal home was like.

5. Do you remember the first humanoid enemy your Character killed? Was it the first person they've ever killed, in your opinion? Would they have been bothered by it?

the forgotten realms wiki says goblins are humanoid, so the first one she killed was the bunch that attacked the grove when you first visit it. i don't think it was her first kill, but she definitely doesn't have a high count of souls she took at that point. killing that particular bunch didn't really upset her -- they attacked first, after all -- but she was bothered by having to slaughter the goblin camp, including the children. in nedwyss' mind, there is a difference between defending innocents from an attacker and going into someone's territory and becoming the attacker herself. so for her, it was no different from what the goblins attacking the grove did, and she felt awful, no matter how illogical that was.

14. Do you have another NPC you loved from a faction not mentioned above? What about your Character?

i mean we both know the answer don't we. of course it's the emperor/guardian. brainrot maximized. he's so friend shaped. i loved him because on my first playthrough i was playing as a clone of my character from another game and made the guardian look like her LI from that game. brainrot carryover y'know. he is incredibly fun on his own too, but i think it's that blorbo familiarity that led to me loving the guardian (and afterwards the emperor) so much. as for nedwyss, she shares my adoration because she was literally tailor made for empy romance shenanigans because the first time she saw the guardian was just after clearing out the goblin camp, and as i said, having to do that really upset her. his presence was comforting, reassuring, he was protecting her from turning into a mind flayer and generally was a kind, supportive person, he was exactly what she needed in that moment of distress. so she had a silly little crush that is going to turn into a corruption arc <3 i haven't decided yet whether i'll make a happy ending (or something as close to it as possible, considering the fucked upness of it all) for these two, partially because i'm not sure if that's a pussy move, partially because i actually don't know what happens in the "control the netherbrain, become the absolute" ending. we'll see.

it's hug day

also finally got to see the catalyst to nedwyss' corruption arc yaaay

finally finished the game on a test character and i have a rough outline of what i'll do for nedwyss

she starts out as a super nice super kind person helping everyone she can. this goes on for the entirety of act1 (or, well, until she meets the guardian) but after the goblin camp where she's forced to kill them despite not really wanting to, something in her breaks and she finds comfort in this mysterious person who visits her dreams. act2 goes on in a similar fashion, no kills or evil stuff unless she absolutely has to, but the guardian nudging her to use the tadpoles and the vlaakith situation (she sides against her) take a further effect on her personality. she's still kind, but more broken. more willing to reach for power which she wants to use for good. the fact she seems to form a connection (whether it starts out as platonic and turns to romantic or is sort of love at first sight, i haven't decided yet) with the visitor, she feels compelled to do as he says, which leads to a slow corruption arc for her. i might make some evil choices with her in act3, representing her rushing to do what in her opinion will benefit the majority. and she will accept the half illithid transformation, of course. at the end she will not free orpheus, and will persuade the emperor to not destroy the netherbrain but to take control and become absolute together. i know the choice is there but i don't know whether he actually stays with tav who successfully persuades him on that. i'll decide on any canon divergences (if there even will be any) after i finish the game with her so i actually know how those choices okay out.

yes i am consumed by the emperor brainrot don't mind me

i forgot this conversation existed afajkfakfkjaf but what if. what if astarion was the one to put this idea in nedwyss' head. it would make sense

blorbos from my games, aka ocs. spoiler warning

Renaria, Mefistopheles Tiefling, Great Old One Warlock, she/her

i haven't gotten to play much with her during full release, she's still on the nautiloid, but she was my ea main (and looked quite differently back then...), she's a rather good-natured person but she doesn't shy away from some evil aligned decisions either. comes with being a warlock, i think

romance: Gale

Nedwyss, Seldarine Drow, Light Domain Cleric (Lathlander), she/her

she's my upcoming playthrough and i made her super nice super good and kind just to hit her with becoming half illithid and having a corruption arc <3

romance: the Emperor

Rej, Lolth-sworn Drow, Draconic Bloodline Sorcerer, he/they

i just made him because he looks pretty. will update post when i have rotated him in my head for some time and decided on his info. he's gonna be more evil than most of my blorbos but not like. a murderhobo or anything

romance: ???

Astorna, Human, Tempest Domain Cleric/Storm Sorcerer, she/her

she's gonna be my tactician playthrogh. whenever i get to it. she has quite a stern personality, but she's also good-aligned.

romance: ???

Jernag, Wood Half-elf, Archfey Warlock, she/her (subject to change), the Dark Urge

no good screenshots? megamind.jpg. anyway she's gonna resist the urge bc it's fun

romance: ???

Maladir, Drow Half-elf, Necromancy Wizard, she/her

she's gonna be the evil playthrough. selfish, unkind, cold and disrespectful. playing into the drow stereotype yeah

romance: probably minthara