Need to go to dmv 🙄 dreading it bad. Need to just try to make it happen tomorrow but it’s iffy with everything closing. Gotta get the kids by 11 from school.
I know this sounds like nothing but it’s a lot for me right now. I’m overwhelmed and weepy and struggling somethin fierce. But god damn this broth is exquisite.
List 5 things that make you happy, then put this in the askbox for the last 10 people who liked or reblogged something from you! get to know your mutuals and followers (ू•‧̫•ू⑅)♡
(I don't remember if I sent one of these to you...)
hullo hullo and thank you! it's alright i dont think you did! anyway.... lets get on with it hehe
finding out a band/artist i like has a local gig, in the few and far between times it happens
Oh I had another customer comment on my mask! He set his items down to check out and then paused, and then asked, “Are you sick?” gesturing to his face, where a mask would be if he was wearing one. “The mask makes me think you’re sick or something. Kinda freaks me out.”
in a race against my meds to type this out and make it halfway coherent, BUT!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I think I finally had a breakthrough with my fic, Getaway Car. Ever since I posed the last chapter [CH 10 In which Getaway Car is sent to print] I've felt utterly disappointed in myself. I feel like I gave in to the idea that I needed to wrap the fic up, because I'm being too much and it's too long to the point where nobody is going to want to read this nightmare fic.
While I'm still ultimately fine with the chapter itself, I've been stuck with this feeling like there should have been more leading up to that chapter. Like. Something was distinctly missing. The thing being the filming of the "fade to black" section of the script, something that someone even noted in a comment after I had posted the original Ch 10.
A month or so ago, I came to the conclusion that my biggest problem with Getaway Car was that I stopped writing for myself, and that the original ending I had planned was no longer suiting the story I wanted to tell.
Since then, I've been thinking a lot about how I actually want the story to go. What would the most self-indulgent ending to this story be if I allowed myself?
From there, I've come to the idea that I'm going to basically...move what is now Chapter 10 to be Chapter 11, go back and write a chapter for the filming of the fade to black, maybe revise a bit of what becomes ch 11, and then continue on from there.
I started a brand new outline last week, and I think I'm finally in the genuine home-stretch with this story. I won't change anything on AO3 or FFN until I have things written, but...idk. I'm really hoping to have this all wrapped up by like...February, since that's the current swiftie clown theory (affectionate) of when Taylor's going to announce reuptation TV, and look. I will keep my word about finishing this story before Getaway Car TV is released (ง'̀v‘́)ง
It's not even noon and this is already a long day. Had to come in to town for 9:30 so kid could do bank stuff then go to work for 10. Car has appointment at 1 to get Uconnect screen replaced. That will take about an hour or more. Then pick kid up at 4:30. I live 20ish min one way from town. Pointless to drive home for an hour just to turn around and come back (plus cost of gas 😖).
So here I am just parked in a random spot until it's time for car appointment. Then do the same after car appointment. I can't even window shop to kill the time because all we have is Walmart, and when I have to go there I try to get out ASAP (habit of being a former employee).
remember the person that ive been on-and-off in love with for LITERALLY A YEAR. and who is leaving in LITERALLY A MONTH. and who has never actually cared about me all that much. while *i* on the other hand have written several fairly popular mlm posts about them, and countless flop posts just rambling?? and how for months, i couldn't ever ever EVER shut up about him.
my sister spent a lot of this summer insisting that the regs are tighter and the racing is closer and that red bull really did suffer the consequences of their cheating but this looks like another "regs decide the dominant era" rut f1 has wedged themselves into. this time featuring a bowl of angry uncooked oatmeal slop they dropped into the seat of the car 3rd time in a row
( bruh i probably shouldve just. texted my manager back at the beginning of june. cuz apparently scheduling is difficult with the current employees. so idk. hopefully i get something from the freelance writing i'm doing. and i technically DO have commission info. so. if u have any ideas lmk )