It's really depressing that the only real Jedi centric and Jedi positive show in existence is written for preschoolers, while many of the more "adult" shows are edgy and about morally ambiguous or straight-up evil characters. As if lessons about being kind and selfless are somehow not important or relevant to adults just as much if not more than they are to children.

It feels like characters who are unambiguously good are seen as only enjoyable by the very young and adult viewers will only actually appreciate characters who are cruel and selfish (and the requisite "tragic backstory" that always goes with it to help excuse their cruel and selfish choices).

It's just really sad and disappointing.

STAR WARS without the force just feels like WAR WARS to me but in this series im here for it bc of the ripe-for-picking political exploration of the universe which has been overdue bc the prequels were over 20 years ago! and little subtle nods to the Force like "The Eye" of aldhani... beautiful!!

a star wars story without a force presence truly is muted in darkness and andor does a great great job at displaying that both narratively and visually with its somber colors, mist, shadow, pallid light and stretches of silence...

all those spaces? that dullness? that's the absense of the force and the light. no color, no sound, no happiness, no life.

& moral ambiguity for all (as the sith/empire is at peak power) and suppressing the light. so well done and not outright stated or obvious.

i think when ppl watch this show and cheer that there's "no lightsabers" they are missing the point of that decision. that the down-to-earthness, the War Wars of it, feels that way because the magic is, literally, gone. the force is gone.

which also reflects our own world.

The fics where authors claim to write "canon" jason with super accurate characterization that's totally not like fanon. And it's just the batfam or other characters being like "wow jason you're such an asshole but we'll still use your help when we need it. Otherwise don't interact with us we're so much better than you and morally superior."

Like I don't think that's canon jason guys, sorry but you're not writing jason as he is you're just twisting his character to fit what you think he should be. At some point just straight up say you don't like him and stop trying to prove how you can interpret him way better than anyone.

Desperately trying to make sense of Alex's motivations in Season Two and you know, I do eventually have to wonder if maybe Alex wasn't actually lying in the majority of those tapes.

Like, we tend to assume that Alex's motivations have been a consistent throughline since the college years, but do we actually know that that's the case? Do we know for sure that Alex was acting in deliberate, calculated ways in 2006; or could it be that he's telling the Truth on those olds tapes when he says he's blacking out and can't remember what's happening to anyone? After all, if we're assuming that Season 2 Alex's motivations are the exact same as his motives in Season 3, then it doesn't make any sense at all that he spend months working with Jay to try to find Amy; Season 3 Alex would have attempted to kill Jay like, on sight just to get things over with as quickly as possible and contain the spread of contamination as best as he could.

But, maybe, if Alex really had been separated from Amy after the events of the 04-04-10 tape, and if he really doesn't know where she is, then maybe that could make things start to make more sense. Maybe he really had been watching Jay's channel, and seeing Jay start going through the same things he went through in college without things devolving into violence and disappearances, and wondered if things maybe could play out differently this time. Maybe he really did send that tape to Jay to ask him for help, maybe he really was just trying to find Amy.

But then, instead of actually being helpful, Jay makes it extremely clear that he's a lot more interested in stalking Alex than he is in finding Amy. Alex asked for help, and instead there's a bunch of masked dudes on Jay's heels that keep attacking him, Jay is breaking into his house, stealing his things, leading the Operator right to him all over again, keeps trying to get other people (namely: Jessica -- if Alex is being honest when he says that his call reassuring her that Amy had been found was an effort to make Sure she stayed away from everything that was happening) involved; and instead of anything getting better, instead of anyone finding Amy, things are just getting worse all over again.

It's not until after the incident at the tunnel that things seem to start rapidly devolving. Rather than a calculated attempt to finally follow through with his need to curb the spread of contamination, this is very clearly an outburst of rage and terror. Alex's "I told you not to follow me" line in conjunction with Jay speculating that Alex didn't know who that guy was, to me, pretty firmly seems to speak to Alex having mistaken that stranger for Jay. From his point of view, Alex knows that Jay and totheark know where he live, have broken in before, he suspects that Jay stole a key to make it easier to get into his house, and he's been followed on the daily for months -- Alex is sitting at the tunnel because he doesn't know where else he can go without being constantly surveilled, hunted, and assaulted. And instead of getting a moment by himself to breathe, Jay followed him out there all over again (it feels like Alex looks directly at the camera in Jay's footage of him from this day; he knew for a fact that Jay was there), and then to make matters worse now 'Jay' won't even keep his distance anymore.

So Alex lashes out. And it's not until afterwards that he looks down and finally recognizes that this wasn't Jay -- it was someone completely innocent. Things have finally reached the low point he was at in college all over again; maybe even worse this time. If Alex doesn't remember attacking anyone in college, but he was at least partially conscious of it this time, then things have reached an entirely new rock bottom, they've reached an absolute point of no return.

He has no idea what happened to Amy, and he's spent months trying to find her with no hint of where she could be; he doesn't know where Jay actually is or what additional trouble he could be causing at this point; he does know that now innocent people are getting caught in the crossfire (in regards to the stranger in the tunnel, and also Jessica now that Jay has her phone number, and the untold number of people Jay got involved when he started posting videos to the Marble Hornets channel); things are spiraling out of control and there's no one left to ask for help. The situation isn't getting better, it's getting worse; things aren't getting easier to handle, they're just getting more out of hand; the negative impact is spreading and who knows how much further it can still go?

So, Alex decides to go scorched earth. He disfigures the body with the rock either to hide evidence or to make sure the guy would actually stay dead and not just get back up to start his own cycle of contamination in a few years. He tries to give Jay one last chance to back off, and Jay instead admits he's been talking to Jessica, acts obstinate and lies about not having Alex's spare key, and then breaks into Alex's house a second time (minimum). If Alex doesn't stop him now, who will? Alex met with Jay planning to kill the others, and then himself, so he could put a stop to this once and for all and keep things from getting any worse than they already were.

Maybe it makes a lot more sense if, rather than being a strangely incomprehensible detour on what should have been a straight path, the events of Season Two were the breaking point that put Alex on that path to begin with.

Def still thinking abt the notes i found on an old discord convo heavily featuring anselma con fire emblem bc i want to pick her brains so badly. there’s a lot of em in these games but damn what a woman to haunt the narrative

"i don't like this character" also them: mischaracterizes said character

o boy new life series cant wait to Stop Watching As Soon As Someone Permadies

i wish jensen would stop changing his opinion on the finale every time he’s in front of a new audience. Today he said that there was nothing he would change, he could only sing it’s praises. And I’d like to blame Jared but Jared didn’t have any input. I just don’t feel like I can ever trust jensen not to appeal to any given audience 🫤

i don't think jensen really has a choice. it's his job and he can only talk about his opinions so long as it doesn't majorly offend anyone. and he'll only be in a job as long as he keeps things in balance.

it sucks, truly, but there are consequences for speaking up, especially in his position. he also wants to keep going with the spn universe. he has big plans, and he won't get to carry them out if he alienates a good portion of the show's fanbase. something that makes spn so attractive as a business is that it's kept a dedicated base of fans who are willing to spend a lot of money. spn has never been the most popular show, but its fans are dedicated in ways that most shows can only dream of. more fans are willing to watch the winchesters, for example, than jared's walker. because all jared's done post-finale is alienate the dean fans, and the cas fans, and the destiel fans. jensen, for the most part, has done none of that.

people are ambivalent about jensen whereas misha and jared have fans that are really black and white about their passion for them, and that's because jared and misha are really outspoken. jensen's always so careful with his words and the fact that he hasn't exactly shown a neutral face post-finale speaks a lot more about what his real thoughts and feelings are, rather than when he answers con questions where the audience is often very particular in the way they think/feel about the finale.

when he talks about the finale, he's very careful. he said it made good television. and objectively, that's true. look at how hysterical it was for all parties involved. it riled up everybody. people are still talking about it. that's actually quite a feat. and that's usually what the companies behind producing these series think is good television. that's what's going to convince these companies to go for another spin-off or reboot or movie.

he said dean wouldn't have been able to go on if sam died. also objectively true. because cas was also dead. it would've looked bleak as hell for dean.

jensen at the end of the day never lies tbh. but sometimes he withholds certain truths. like how he doesn't mention cas' absence in a room full of fans who probably hate cas anyway. the fact that he doesn't mention cas doesn't mean that he doesn't think cas' death wouldn't have affected dean too. it doesn't mean that jensen doesn't think it wouldn't have been a major factor for dean's ability to continue if sam died too.

just because it's unsaid doesn't mean it isn't true.

he's always been very honest when asked about what he would've done if cas came back (a hug, a desire to address the confession). and when asked what dean probably would've done if he'd had more time to respond to cas' love confession, he was also very honest (dean would've said i love you too).

so at the end of the day, he's never said directly that he liked the finale and that he was happy about how it ended (that's a very personal opinion to express and that's just inference that certain fans have picked up). but what he has done is make very neutral and very objectively honest statements about it that keep fans dedicated to the show.

he's not changing sides. he's not changing his opinions. he's just being very very careful while telling the truth.

I love how miles eyes shift between green and brown when he’s on earth 42

not to be a loser but i totally look through the bookmarks on my fics every once in a while. someone tagged gv/bj with ‘morally ambiguous character’ and i never really thought about it that way! is yoshi morally ambiguous to any of you?

Honestly to expand on my last RB a little . . .

Like, remember all those stories about UFOs and, well, not really UFOs since they were on the ground but, those stories about things some suspect to be of alien origin and while unknown what's known is that you're going to die in 5 minutes. (Radiation poisoning)

If you truly went on to believe those were made by aliens it'd be like... So sad. Like imagine you crashed a fucking shit crash you're in a new place confused lost maybe you've been looking at it for a while but now you're stranded and now everyone who so little dares to come across you will literally die an horrible death. Like man. It'd fucking suck.

why are half the meowmeows on the poll just blorbos

leuthere now is a silly old man but for awhile he was literally so many people's boogeyman, even after his reign of terror ended, even after centuries passed (though it went from 'this is very real and we need to take precautions' to 'i'm using this legend to scare my kids into taking their medicine'). especially when he very first crawled his way out of his unmarked grave, he took out his anger on anyone who evne minutely inconvenienced him. his change wasn't overnight, and he was terrible. he's spent centuries learning to become who he is now, but he will always be the man who did those terrible things.

deeply enamored by the fact every character pair my partner and I play in roleplay games boils down to "deeply serious and awkward character who doesn't like people and silly goofy character trying their absolute best to crack them (morally ambiguous) (one or both might have committed atrocities) (queer) (may or may not be in love depending on your view of 'in love' and it's proximity to romance)"

Who is this mordred you speak of, tell me tell me tell me

Yeah sure thing thank you for showing interest eheh

So I actually have two OCs named Mordred! I actually really love the name I've been thinking of adding it to my list of names you can call me but I digress. I think I've mentioned both of them on the blog before but one of them is a Persona and the other is a demon.

The Persona Mordred is the Mordred I meant when I tagged that other post as Mordred. He is Riku's Black Mask Persona (his Loki essentially) and he is based on the Mordred from Arthurian Legends. For those who don't know he's seen as either King Arthur's son or nephew depending on the version of the tale. In some portrayals he's seen as a bastard who was planning to overthrow his uncle/father for his own gain but in other interpretations he's seen as more of a sympathetic character who was manipulated against Arthur. For the Persona I keep it kinda ambiguous which Mordred I mean deliberately because I think it's more interesting that way :] Design wise he's actually my favorite Persona I've designed (Lugh is close though) and you guys have seen his old design! He's a huge black/purple dragon, more serpentine but with a humanesque torso and arms, and he has parts of his skeleton exposed. He does have his own version of call of chaos but I won't talk about that because it's sort of spoilers? It's also a bit gross. I adore Mordred so much because he is based on a) my love of monsters/fucked up creatures and b) his design philosophy? He's supposed to be fear personafied (see what I did there hehe) and also he's based off of the idea that the part of you that's angry at the world is the part of you that loves you the most. I read that idea somewhere and as someone who's struggled with my own anger it is just such a powerful concept to me idk I love it. And as for story wise very simply put: Riku awoke to him in the Metaverse when he was 14ish but only after he got sent back in time after the thieves failed the Hatanaka palace deadline in the original timeline... if that makes sense (Black Captain is a NG+ AU of sorts...)

Then for the other Mordred I plan on talking more about him soon because he is part of my Spidersona lore! Basically he's a prince of Hell (or demon dimension I haven't ironed out all those details yet) and he possessed a genetically enhanced spider that died after a failed OckTech experiment (three guesses who owns OckTech). He had the spider bite Prince Parker (me kinda) and then proceeded to make a deal with him. He would become a sort of patron for Prince (grant him extra powers outside of the spider stuff) and in return Prince helps him round up demons that have escaped hell. These demons will appear as either like small time demons that are easy enough to recapture or some are my own universe's classic Spiderman villains (Green Goblin and Lizard for example). I suppose the whole pact thing is similar to warlocks in DND (I don't play dnd but I know that's a thing). I'll go into this in more detail in the Spiderfiend post but every time Mordred grants me a new power there is a catch, and Spiderfiend wears a ring every time a new power is granted (the ring can't be removed its a symbol of the pact if you get me). Personality wise he's very serious about his position and doesn't like abusing his power. He is however a bit of a dumbass - for example the reason he had the spider bite Prince, is because he through Prince was like a human prince 💀