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jezungies · 4 years

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𝒩𝒶𝓂𝑒: 𝐉𝐮𝐧𝐠 𝐉𝐚𝐞 𝐇𝐲𝐮𝐧

𝒢𝓇𝑜𝓊𝓅: 𝐍𝐂𝐓 𝟏𝟐𝟕

𝒲𝑜𝓇𝒹 𝒞𝑜𝓊𝓃𝓉: 832

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They say that the first relationship was always going to have an affect on you, they never said if it was going to be good or bad. I just wasn’t ready for it.

It was never easy for you or him, you both tried your best, but for some reason it felt like you were the only one who wanted the relationship to work.

It was just getting harder and harder for you to handle. At first you guys took it slow, followed the flow of your waves, followed the breeze as they say, you two were just so in love nothing could get in the way, but they were wrong, they were dead wrong.

You tried to understand, but you couldn’t it was just too much to handle. You tried talking it out but it would end with yelling, screaming, and tears.

Could it get any worse?

Y/n POV

As I sat on the ledge of the window staring into the starry night, I begin to shiver, the thoughts of the past week haunted me. I pulled my leg into my chest still looking out the window. The emptiness devouring me in. That’s when I saw it, it was like I was being stabbed in the chest a million times. It felt as if someone was pulling my heart out. The pain I went through to see him with someone else. Seeing him laugh, smile and kissing someone else. I couldn’t take it anymore. I just broke down, not caring the the tears on my my face would sting more and more. I closed my eyes and remembered the happy days.

*flashback*

“ Baby I love you, I love you so much. You mean so much to me, I could never do anything to hurt you, I could never do anything to make you cry. I want to spend the rest of my life with you. I want to hug you so tight that you tell me you can’t breath. I want to be under the sheets with you for a life time. Will you be my girlfriend?” Jaehyun said taking my hands in his

“Yes, yes, I love you too” I said as I jumped into his arms

“ I promise I won’t hurt you.” He said

*end of flashback*

My thoughts were interrupted by the door swinging opening.

I got up from the ledge and went straight to him.

“WHAT THE HELL WERE YOU DOING WITH ANOTHER GIRL?” I yelled as I pulled his shirt to face me

“What do you mean?” He said laughing

“Are serious? You don’t need to lie anymore Jaehyun. I know you were out with a girl.” I said

“So what if I was? I can hang out with people. Your so clingy.” He said, his words like a sword driving through me with ease. It was like this meant nothing to him.

“ if you weren’t happy with me then you should have just told me som-

“ THATS RIGHT I’M NOT HAPPY WITH YOU ANYMORE, IS THAT WHAT YOU WANT TO HEAR CAUSE I CAN SAY IT AGAIN.” He said yelling at me, at that moment my anger took control over my body. My hand clashing onto his face as I slapped him.

“Your such a jerk, you promised me, you said-

“Said wha? I’ll stay with you forever, I’ll love you forever, I want to be with you? DO YOU REALLY BELIEVE THAT SHIT.” He said, I couldn’t take it anymore I started to hit him harder and harder my fist driving into his arms as he tried to defend himself.

“You know what, I HATE YOU I want you out of my life, I never want to see you anymore at least those other girls don’t expect much.” He said, my tears now pouring out of my eyes. I didn’t say anything but stare at him, I took my keys and wallet and walked out on him.

How could we end up like this?

Jaehyun POV

As I saw y/n’s silhouette disappear into the dark abyss, that was when I realized how much I had lost. There was no winning in this, no matter what I did, no matter how I looked at it I would have lost y/n in the end. I was a jerk, I was an idiot, I was an asshole. I ran out of the apartment to look for y/n, but they were gone, there was no way to come back from the things I did, the things I said. They were out of my grasp, the scent of their hair no longer lingered in my head. The way their soft lips would touch mine every morning I could no longer recall. Everything about them forgotten, because of me, and my idiotic decisions.

“Please come back.... I need you.”

I’m sorry, I’m sorry. I’m so sorry.. please, please

I still want you. Come back to me.

There was no turning back, nothing I could possibly do, I had crumbled your world, and my heart with it. I-I’m sorry.....

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osakaprince · 5 years

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𝐡𝐞 𝐥𝐨𝐯𝐞𝐬 𝐦𝐞 𝐧𝐨𝐭 - 𝐦.𝐭𝐥

𝐒𝐘𝐍𝐎𝐏𝐒𝐈𝐒 — while on tour, taeil realizeds his love for you is no longer. he takes the step to call it quits.

𝐆𝐄𝐍𝐑𝐄 — sad, minor fluff

𝐖𝐎𝐑𝐃 𝐂𝐎𝐔𝐍𝐓 — 850+

the atmosphere shifted dramatically as taeil walked into the practice room. the members had taken a five from their dance routines and were currently sprawled out across the floor, soaking up the rest time as much as possible.

everyone knew about the struggles you and taeil had been having in your relationship recently. things hadn't been the same since he came back home from the promotional tour for their new album. you didn't want to seem crazy so, instead, you allowed the distance to continue forming.

the other boys took notice as well. several of them confronted you after seeing you shut yourself away in the dorms all day rather than hanging with them as usual. today had been the first day you joined them at practice in months. they missed having their happy, go lucky friend around.

"why did everyone get so quiet?" taeil muttered and plopped down next to johnny, who happened to be on the opposite side of the room as you.

nobody spoke. some glanced at each other while others pretended to be distracted by their cellphones. taeil rolled his eyes and began scrolling through his social's. you sighed, exceptionally loud, and turned to face the other way, your back now exposed to taeil.

before the dance instructor called them all back together, your phone buzzed.

taeil 🌙

wait up for me after practice. we need to talk.

your heart seemingly skipped a beat and dropped at the same time. was he finally going to apologize for being so distant? or was he going to explain why he was so distant?

several hours passed before taeil came home from the studio, sweat still glistening off of his skin. it was nearing midnight and your eyes struggled to stay open much longer but your racing thoughts managed to keep you up long enough.

taeil slipped his bag onto the chair, let out a huff, and headed for the shower. you shook your head and mumbled, "nice to see you too."

by the time he came out of the bathroom, you had been pacing the floor in order to not fall asleep. he gave you a strange look while towel drying his hair, making you feel insane. like he had for months. you stopped in your tracks in hopes that he would begin talking.

"w-what did you want to talk about?" you stuttered, hands fiddling in front of you.

he began unmaking the bed, tossing a pillow to the side, "let's talk about it tomorrow, i'm tired."

you furrowed your eyebrows in confusion, anger beginning to rise in your body. he didn't take notice in your reaction until you let out a sarcastic breath.

"is this relationship some joke to you?"

he straightened his figure and pursed his lips, not sure exactly how to respond. a sliver of your heart broke. why wasn't he denying it? he had to deny it, right? he loved you.

"taeil," you closed your eyes to stop the tears. "please."

he swallowed hard, "what?"

"if you're gonna break my heart, just break it." you begged. "i can't keep living like this. it's miserable."

taeil sat on the edge of the bed where you had fallen to. he rested his hands on his thighs and cleared his throat. "i'm so sorry."

you stood up and began nervously pacing again. was this actually happening right now? the love of your life was really about to end your relationship?

"was it something i did? did i not give you my all?" you mindlessly rambled in hopes for a solution. "because i will, i promise. i'll give you my time and affection. i didn't know that i-"

"-it's not you, y/n." he cut you off. "i'm the one that fell out of love. it's me."

tears slipped down your cheek rapidly with no possibility of stopping. your heart was torn in two looking at the man in front of you. he was genuinely sorry and you could tell that, but that didn't make it hurt any less.

taeil rose to his feet and grabbed you by the arms to stop your hasting. you did not dare look into his eyes for you knew it would only hurt you more. he bent down to meet yours instead. those dark orbs that you so helplessly fell in love with were now looking at you with pitty. an ugly sob escape your lips and you clasped your hand over your mouth to try and stop it.

"y/n," his voice was nearly a gasp. "i never meant to hurt you."

you nodded, "i know."

"and i want us to remain good friends. i love having you around. you bring such an energy to our group." he continued. "i just don't want to drag us along when i know what i need to do. you don't deserve that."

taeil pressed his palm to your cheek and it almost seemed as if he was going to kiss you. you wanted nothing more than to feel his lips on yours again, filled with so much passion and sentiment. you wanted to spend the nights endlessly laughing about the silliest things. or dancing in the kitchen at two in the morning while wearing nothing but a tshirt.

you just wanted him back, but he was far gone.

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