Three - Never Grow Up
I return from the dead after 2 months with a lousy chapter in tow, bc I lost my original idea sigh
The buzzing from his phone is getting annoying, and he contemplates turning the vibrate off so he can study in peace. He twists to regard the device on his bed, the screen lighting up with yet another incoming message.
He sighs and picks up the phone.
[Kenjirou]: This was a bad idea
[Kenjirou]: Why did I let Futakuchi talk me into this
[Kenjirou]: Right cos im stupid
[Kenjirou]: Taichi save me
[Kenjirou]: We’re in the house
[Kenjirou]: This guy must be hella rich
[Kenjirou]: Holy shit this is Akaashi’s house
[Kenjirou]: I thought Akaashi was supposed to be all goody two shoes
[Kenjirou]: apparently mot
[Kenjirou]: thk god kuroo isnt here
[Kenjirou]: ohmygod its oikawa-san
[Kenjirou]: and his ace whatshisname
[Kenjirou]: iwa-chan? Tht doesn’t sound liek a name
[Kenjirou]: Right its iwaizumi
[Kenjirou]: hes hot save me
[Kenjirou]: taichiiii answr me
Kawanishi sighs and types a reply.
[Taichi]: r u drunk
[Kenjirou]: YOU FINALLY REPLIED
[Taichi]: answer the question
[Kenjirou]: oooooh proper spellinh, scarryyyy
[Taichi]: Kenjirou.
[Kenjirou]: maybe idk
[Kenjirou]: but iwaizumisan is jow
[Kenjirou]: hot
[Kenjirou]: im gonna talk to hik
[Taichi]: be safe
Kawanishi tosses his phone onto his pillow and picks up his textbook. Shirabu’s drunk self can’t do too much damage, he reckons. He can always check back after he finishes this chapter.
[Kenjirou]: taichi stop me
[Kenjirou]: hes so cute hwlp
[Kenjirou]: ah no he left
[Kenjirou]: I shld go chase him
[Kenjirou]: ohno the other seijou boys r hwre
[Kenjirou]: the pink one is hogging him
[Kenjirou]: I need to get him back
[Kenjirou]: oh good pinky left
[Kenjirou]: no oikawa-sam in aight
[Kenjirou]: ure nog here so I’m gonna do bad things
[Kenjirou]: HE SAID HELL WALK ME BACK
[Kenjirou]: SCORE
[Kenjirou]: wait till semi-san heres
[Kenjirou]: HE PATTED MW ON THE BACK WHAT DOES THAT MEAN
[Kenjirou]: AAAHHHHH
[Kenjirou]: semi-sans in my bed
[Kenjirou]: oh kenmaz in his
[Kenjirou]: eh whatever
[Kenjirou]: hes cute ill pretend hes iwaizumi-san
[Kenjirou]: nigghtttt
Kawanishi blinks at his screen and rereads the messages, squinting at the font as if it will change the contents of the messages. It doesn’t, so he groans and throws his phone back on the bed.
Goddamnit, Kenjirou.
x.x.x.x.x
“Kenjirou.”
No response.
“Kenjirou.”
“Mmphrgh.”
“Get up and drink some water.”
“No.”
“Get up, you sick pig.”
“No. Lemme sleep.”
“Do you want me to get Semi-san?”
The covers are pulled down a little, exposing an eye lined with deep bags. “You wouldn’t.”
“I’ll get Tendou-san too.”
“Goddamnit, Taichi.”
“Thank me later.”
He sighs and closes his textbook, looking at the time.
Oh. He studied through the night. That hasn’t happened in a while.
He groans as he stretches out his legs, reaching for his phone. No new messages, but he opens the application anyway, composing a new one and sending it off.
He may not be able to keep his best friend out of trouble, but he knows who can.
x.x.x.x.x
[Taichi]: panadol n h2o
[Semi]: What
[Taichi]: kenjirou
[Semi]: Sigh. Thanks Taichi
[Taichi]: punch him 4 me
[Semi]: Kay
Semi tucks his phone into his back pocket, picking the finished bentos up and heading back to his room. Once inside, he digs in his bag for his small medicine stash, cutting off two tabs of panadol to place on Shirabu’s side table.
The sky is getting brighter, but he decides to leave his roommate be until he refills their water bottles.
In hindsight, that was a bad idea.
“Shirabu.”
“G’way.” The brunet mumbles incoherently and tugs the blanket over his head. A few pokes to his back earns him nothing but some wiggling, so he sighs and sits beside him.
[Semi]: How well does he hold his liquor
[Taichi]: lightweight
[Semi]: K bad question. How much did he drink
[Taichi]: enuf to b angry if u wake him
[Semi]: gdi
Semi sighs and grips the edge of the blanket. “Shirabu, you have two seconds before I rip this off.”
No response.
He tears the blanket off, taking it to the other bed to fold, ignoring the indignant whine behind him.
“Lemme sleep– Oww.”
“Drink the water and take the panadol. You’re getting to class today, whether you like it or not.”
“I hate you.”
“You’re welcome, because that’s a lab you have in an hour.”
He hears a panicked curse followed by a pained groan, and shakes his head at the sound of pattering footsteps and muffled banging disappearing down the hallway. Setting the folded blanket on the correct bed, he turns to Shirabu’s closet and starts pulling out a lab-appropriate outfit, then packs his bag and places it next to his shoes.
[Semi]: He didnt seem very angry
[Taichi]: hes late 4 class
[Taichi]: d anger will b bck
[Semi]: Thanks for the heads up?
[Taichi]: ur welcome
[Taichi]: ull need it
He’s about to head out when an angry maelstrom crashes past him, diving about the room in a flurry before setting upon the things already laid out for him. Semi would love to stay and watch – Shirabu gets stuck in his T-shirt for a solid minute, how is that even possible – but he knows better than to take Kawanishi's advice lightly, so he clicks the door shut behind him just as an infuriated yell is birthed.
He sneaks off with a snicker, messaging Futakuchi to beware the monster in class.
He gets an extremely garbled reply, and sighs heavily.
Reckless teenagers.
x.x.x.x.x
“Taichi.”
It’s a hiss, a panicked call, and he peers blearily out of his blanket nest to raise an eyebrow.
“Come help me pick an outfit.”
“Why.” He thinks he mumbles it – he isn’t sure, there are just too many blankets – but Shirabu whines and drops onto the bed anyway.
“Semi-san asked me to help distract Ushijima-san while they’re out.”
“And what’re you going to do? Dress like a stripper?”
He doesn’t even mind the smack to his leg – the blankets absorb the impact – but he does mind his roommate lying across his stomach, because he can’t breathe.
“Kenjirou– Get off–”
“I need help,” Shirabu whines. “They’ll be going into town, and I need to keep Ushijima-san occupied while Semi-san and Tendou-san find him a gift.”
“And– This is– Important– Why?” He wheezes, trying to dislodge the dead weight, but Shirabu is surprisingly heavy.
“Because what if I don’t know what to say? What am I supposed to talk about? We’re going to be by ourselves, this is the opportunity of a lifetime–”
“You– See– Him– At– Practice– Everyday.”
“I don’t need to hold a conversation during practice!”
Kawanishi finally succeeds in shoving Shirabu off his diaphragm, and wheezes for a minute. When he finally regains his breath, his roommate is seated on his legs, bemoaning his predicament.
He sits up and pulls his legs back, dislodging Shirabu and sending him sprawling, but he can’t care less. “Just wear whatever. It doesn’t matter.”
“You’re so unhelpful.”
“Ushijima-san doesn’t care about appearances,” he tells him. “But think about it this way – anything you wear would definitely be better than what Semi-san is wearing.”
“Not if Tendou-san is picking it.”
“Well, true, but how often does that happen?”
He’s met with silence, and hides his small smile in the blankets.
“Okay, fine, I’ll just wear jeans and whatever.”
“As long as you’re wearing clothes,” Kawanishi drawls, promptly flopping back and hiding himself in the blankets.
“I’m not an exhibitionist or a nudist, of course I’ll wear clothes.”
Kawanishi doesn’t bother to reply him.
x.x.x.x.x
“Shirabu-kun.”
He turns around slowly – after too many near-vomiting experiences that day, he has resigned himself to the vertigo – looking up into a pair of familiar green eyes. “Iwaizumi-san.”
Iwaizumi looks kind of awkward, but he holds out a familiar-looking jacket – his, he realises belatedly.
“Thanks for your jacket last night. It was a nice gesture,” he says, a crooked smile lifting a corner of his mouth. Shirabu takes the jacket from him – no wonder he couldn’t find it – and returns his smile sheepishly.
“No problem. Sorry for the trouble yesterday,” he mumbles.
“It was no trouble at all. I’d be more worried if you didn’t get back safely.”
“You didn’t have to,” he mutters. “But thank you. I don’t remember anything about last night.”
Iwaizumi frowns. “Nothing at all?”
“I remember seeing the other Seijou boys in your year, but that’s about it. Everything after that is gone.” He tries not to blush – he is above blushing like a schoolgirl, damnit – but allows an embarrassed grin to show his sincerity.
The other chuckles. “You don’t remember giving me your jacket, then?”
“No.”
“You were very nice about it,” Iwaizumi tells him. “You said you couldn’t let me go back out into the cold without anything on and shoved it at me until I took it.”
Shirabu is stunned for a moment, before he chokes out, “I’m sorry I’m such a pushy drunk. That doesn’t sound nice.”
“You are very stubborn, but it was a nice gesture.” He starts to turn away, then whips back around, brow furrowed. “Wait. If you don’t remember anything, then why would you apologise for causing me trouble?”
“I, uh,” he fidgets uncomfortably, before softly admitting, “I’m always trouble when I’m drunk.”
Iwaizumi laughs loudly, and he’s stunned – he has such a beautiful laugh, but he’s also so embarrassed.
The older grins widely and claps him on the back, almost making him stumble. “Don’t worry about it. You weren’t that much trouble.”
“Really?” Shirabu’s sceptical – despite denying it, he does know a little of what transpired. His gushing messages to Kawanishi are proof enough of that.
“Well,” Iwaizumi pauses, “There is one thing I’d like to ask about.”
Oh no. Please don’t let it be–
“Shirabu-kun,” their eyes meet, bright green and nervous hazel, “You kept mentioning how ‘hot’ I was?”
Please kill me.
It takes him a few seconds to get his voice working again, but he manages to choke out, “I wasn’t lying.”
Iwaizumi’s expression softens a little, and he cracks a small smile. “I don’t think you were.”
“I’m sorry,” he bursts out. “Don’t tell anyone else, please.”
Iwaizumi looks confused. “Tell anyone what?”
“That I’m, you know,” he waves a hand, “Not straight.”
Some of the confusion clears from the older’s face, but he still sounds puzzled when he asks, “Why would I tell anyone that?”
“What?”
(He’s so confused.)
“It’s not my place to tell anyone else what your preferences are,” Iwaizumi says firmly, and he looks so serious, Shirabu actually believes him. “I wouldn’t want anyone doing that to me, and I wouldn’t do it to anyone else either.”
“I– Thank you.” He hesitates just a moment, before asking softly, “Can I ask? What your preferences are?”
Iwaizumi smiles a little. “I’m demisexual. You?”
“Pansexual.” It feels like a weight has been lifted when he says it out loud, and he lets out a small sigh.
He hears a laugh, looks up to see Iwaizumi grinning at him. “Never told anyone before?”
“…no,” he admits. “There wasn’t a need to.”
“Don’t I know how that feels,” Iwaizumi sighs.
There’s a beat of silence between them, before Iwaizumi says, “Well, I ought to be getting back. Thanks again.”
He can feel the opportunity slipping from between his fingers, breath catching in his throat as the words lodge themselves in the tight space, refusing to come out.
Last chance, the wind whispers as it brushes by.
His hand clenches around the jacket, turning fully to face his retreating back. “Iwaizumi-san!”
He turns, confusion playing out across his features, and he takes a deep breath, exhaling forcefully.
“I know you told me your preferences, but would you like to go out to dinner with me sometime? Tonight, if you’re free?”
The taller boy’s expression clears, replaced by a sort of wry smile. “I’ll agree on one condition.”
“What is it?”
“We’re going as friends. Don’t expect more.”
He bows sharply, hiding his smile in his collar.
“Of course.”
x.x.x.x.x
[Shirabu]: Won’t be back for dinner
[Semi]: again?
[Shirabu]: You’re not my mom
[Semi]: I pick up after yo u enough to be
[Shirabu]: whatever
[Shirabu]: I’ll be eating dinner on my own, relax
[Semi]: well, im glad you know what I’m worrying abt
[Shirabu]: IM NOT THT SKINNY
[Semi]: Yes you are
[Shirabu]: no
[Semi]: yes
[Shirabu]: No.
[Shirabu]: ps thanks for the shirasu-don
[Semi]: … youre welcome
[Shirabu]: I was bring sincere but guess I wont anymore
[Semi]: I was stunned, sue me
[Shirabu]: I’m not that ungrateful
[Semi]: o rlly
[Shirabu]: guess I’ll put the tekka maki back
[Semi]: WAIT
Shirabu snickers as he pockets his phone without replying, putting the packet of fish into the basket and nudging the person beside him. “Come on, let’s go.”
Kenma barely looks up from his game, but he does ask, “Do you have the apple pie?”
Shirabu rolls his eyes. “No. I’m going to make you apple pie instead of letting you eat the store-bought one.”
“Really?” It’s the most hopeful Shirabu has ever heard him, and he smothers a laugh.
“Yes, of course. You should learn how to make it too.”
“Lazy,” Kenma mumbles, trudging along behind him. “Kuro’ll get me some any time.”
“You treat him like a servant.”
“Like you’re one to talk.”
“Huh?”
“Eita spends half his time picking up after you.”
“I don’t ask him to.”
“But he still does, and you don’t thank him. At least I thank Kuro.”
Shirabu opens his mouth to refute, but finds his words gone, any eloquence dried up like an old well. He can practically feel the smugness radiating off his friend, and stews quietly – what else can he do?
They’re almost at the checkout when he thinks to say, “I do things for him sometimes too.”
Kenma doesn’t reply for a long while – he thinks he must have reached the boss stage – but when he does, it’s with a sigh and the blackened screen of his game. “Not as much as he does for you.”
Shirabu’s almost too stunned that he turned off his game to answer. “He doesn’t have to. He’s trying to be my mom,” he grumbles.
“He cares about you.”
“He cares about everyone.”
“Fair point.”
Shirabu props the basket onto the self-checkout counter, scanning in silence. Kenma helps to bag the items, remaining mercifully quiet until they exit the store.
“You know, there was a point in time where Kuroo told me he liked me.”
“Oh?” He is confused; what does this have to do with their earlier conversation?
“Yeah,” Kenma muses. “But now he has Koutarou, so I don’t have to worry about feelings I can’t return.”
“I see.”
(Really, what is he supposed to say to all this?)
“You don’t understand what I’m trying to hint at,” Kenma comments.
Shirabu feels relieved and slightly annoyed. “What gave it away?”
“Your face, maybe.”
“Maybe?”
“Maybe.” Kenma smiles, but it drops quickly, sighing. “Maybe Eita’s so caring because he likes you.”
He snorts. “As if Semi-san would ever like me.”
“Why not?”
“We just don’t like each other.” His tone is hard, trying to signal the end of the conversation, and he’s glad when Kenma doesn’t press further.
He doesn’t want to revisit those memories. After all, they’ve been locked away for a reason.
x.x.x.x.x
“You sure you'll be okay?”
“For goodness sake, yes. I’m moving to the city, not to another country.”
“Just checking. I–”
“Worry. I know.” His voice has softened, and he drops his bag, tilting his head back to regard him. “I’ll be fine. Really.”
His friend pulls him into a smothering hug, enveloping him fully in his embrace, counting, counting, keeping time until he has to let go.
“Be safe.” A whisper as he steps back, full of panic and worry and desperate, desperate wishes.
“I’ll do what I can.” It’s not a promise – he can’t promise this, definitely not – but it’s the sincerity of the sentiment that pacifies him, because now, it might take him a bit longer to do something stupid.
“Call me when you get there.”
“I’ll text you,” he offers. “You’re getting overbearing like this.”
He opens his mouth only to bite back the I worry that threatens to fall out, swapping it for an Okay instead.
This time it’s Shirabu who steps forward for a hug, whispering his goodbyes, shouting them in the strength of his embrace, lightly reassuring him in the soft touch on his hair.
And then he’s on the train, and the afternoon sun blinds him as he watches the train disappear.
x.x.x.x.x
[Eita]: Coming over?
[Kenma]: Nah. Kuros cooking
[Eita]: For Futakuchi too or no
[Eita]: ?
[Kenma]: ofc for futa too
[Kenma]: I am very kinf, u kno
[Eita]: how did kenma let you have his phone
[Kenma]: I have my ways
[Kenma]: n e way, kitten and futa r with me tonite
[Eita]: I had to stare at that for 5 min before it made sense
[Kenma]: Kuros spelling sucks
[Eita]: Tell me sth I dont know
[Kenma]: Futakuchi snores
[Kenma]: Dinner. C u tmr
[Eita]: See you
Semi places his phone at the edge of the table, lacing his hands behind his head. A slow grin spreads over his face as the reality of the situation settles on him.
No Shirabu, Kenma or Futakuchi tonight. Wow.
I can finally study in peace, hell yes.
He gets up to pluck a textbook from his bag, setting a timer on his phone before putting it in the dresser.
If he's to study, there can be no distractions. But he’ll have to get up and make dinner eventually, and he refuses to forget to eat just because he’s actually studying for once.
He flips open to where he left off, re-reading the familiar concept, sinking into the rhythm of absorbing information.
x.x.x.x.x
It’s 11pm when he stops, and as he gets up to brush his teeth, his eyes land on the empty bed next to him.
It’s a little worrying, but he reminds himself that Shirabu is old enough to take care of himself, pushing the thought out of mind as he leaves the room.
He writes a note and pins it to their corkboard, casting a last glance at the vacant bed before he turns out the lights.
(The emptiness rings in his head, a despondent purr throbbing in his mind. It prods at the gaping maw of his heart, reminding, reminding, of better times, noisier times, a time where there was laughter and table lamps and trundling snores–)
The room is too quiet, and he sighs.
He’ll never get used to sleeping alone.
x.x.x.x.x
Come home earlier next time, it’s not safe late at night.
P.S. It’s your turn to make lunch but I’m getting up early because I’m sure you won’t wake up.
He plucks the note from the board, smiling at the first part of the message, sticking his tongue out at his roommate's back at the latter half.
Grabbing a pen from the table, he scribbles his reply and sticks the note back on the board before grabbing his things to shower.
His phone lights up with a new message, and he types a reply with a small grin before leaving, closing the door quietly behind him.
In the silence of the room, the phone vibrates periodically, marking the pauses between the soft snores from the occupied bed.
1 unread message from Taichi
15 unread messages from Futakuchi
2 unread messages from Iwaizumi✨
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