i honestly really relate to you wishing you were transfem. I do too, so much that it hurts. But I never say anything because I don't think anyone in the community would accept it. I constantly wish I was born male and transitioned in a non-binary way. I tell myself I can be a male non-binary. I just have to take extra steps (taking T first). That's how I survive this feeling. But honestly being born the way I am feels like such a prison in terms of gender. sorry about this little vent

no i agree 100%... there is a small transmascfem / transfemasc / ftmtf / mtftm community but i feel like even within that, it's more of a...presentation focused thing rather than this feeling? obviously not for everyone, that's just the vibe i get.

i guess its just hard because theres this idea that if (binary) trans people could've been born their actual gender, they would choose that. but as a transfem, i was born that gender, except it was still wrong. i can never transition in a way that soothes all aspects of my dysphoria.

i guess part of the cure is to de-binarise society... but that's a task thats bigger than you or i.

MtFtN Pride Flag

[ID.: nine horizontal stripes colored with cyan, light pink, pink, lighter green, darker green, lighter green, pink, light pink, and cyan. End ID.]

MtFtN/M2F2N (MtFtNB/M2F2NB or MtFtX/M2F2X): transitioning from male to female to neutrois/neither/neutral and/or non-binary.

The urge to make Will “bad agender rep” by making them mtftx, and coincidentally also making their backstory morally messy but ultimately when you get to the present it’s alright since it’s been like. Thousands of years, and Will doesn’t remember jack shit