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mourninglamby · 1 month

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tongue - miss anhedonia please for the love of god come back to Spotify

#music #I can’t stop listening to thissss #ITS SWEETER FOR ME GIVING WHAT YOU WAAANT FROM ME #SO TAKE WHAT YOU WANT FROM ME #miss anhedonia #white silas #ethel cain #hayden anhedonia #ashmedaii #id love her work under any name

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fleursscaptives · 1 year

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did this in my physics exam

#ethel cain #morute #vintage #nicole dollanganger #southern gothic #preachers daughter #miss anhedonia #tommy #hayden anhedönia

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mazzystargirl · 2 years

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would you judge me for my prayers if i said them on my knees?

#cant stop listening to this song #miss anhedonia #ethel cain #music #journal #mother cain

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pyrriax · 2 months

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OKAY as promised, the doubled up footnote post combining today's and yesterday's footnotes :3

yesterday's footnotes....... not a lot to say abt that one i was. brainrotting really hard. most of my writing is. Actual writing.

today's footnotes! the oc brainrot was really strong ok.

#haunted ecosystem #haunted bookshelf #i am. gonna make a tag for these at some point ok.#also this is missing like two ideas but i forgot them before i could write them down </3 #first three for today are for the prompt (cooking) which itook as an excuse to write abt elyria #yesterday's is very much anhedonia stuff #ALSO oc lore is all stuff that was already established through the plans we have...... i need to work on the house on the server to rerecor

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agueforts · 27 days

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hey did you know being disabled affects your ability to do things. fucked up if true

#SOME PRIMAL YEARNING DEEP WITHIN THE HOLLOWS OF MY CHEST. FOR A MATH CLASS #aspen tag #i miss doing things!#i miss learning! i miss activity! i miss being able to keep up with my interests or have hobbies or even just eat three meals a day!#i miss feeling like i had control over any part of my life!#i'm tired of being tired! it's all been the same for so long and i don't know if there's a way out!#i wouldn't know how to break out of it either way but it'd be nice to know that maybe i could!#everyone expects me to have all the answers #and all i can give is that if i knew how to help myself i wouldn't fucking be here in the first place!#coughs and composes myself. sorry. there was physics in the fic i was reading #and i briefly remembered what it was like to just. fully invest yourself in something. and how fun it is #the feeling is. um. somewhat of a rarity nowaday #gestures. avolition when i muster the energy to get you. anhedonia when i find it in myself to care #deep sigh. and so it goes 👍

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just-miru · 1 year

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ok so, about the silly rock opera from earlier-

speaking of the music, i can't say i am a big fan of what it has going on. it's got this electric sorta vibe?? not really my cup of tea when it comes to silly music, but i can't say hate it.

as for the story so far? i think it's going the way i first thought it would go - "love is the only cure" hngngnhn

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apparently tumblr has a tag limit?? it's the first time i reach it adgahahsjjakakja

anyway, these silly thoughts below were supposed to be my last silly tags, and since i can't... put them in the tags anymore, i ma just put them here, i guess-

my silly impression of it so far is kinda meh tbh, but i am curious to see if i will change my mind by the end of the story

('welcome to anhedonia' still slaps tho-)

#for context #people in anhedonia are prohibited emotions #they are not allowed to feel things‚ hence their hearts are locked in cages #people get sent to this 'emotional correction facility' for showing even the slightest sign of emotion‚ while sometimes they're are #sentenced to death #also-#a silly thing i can't get over is that (so far) they've only mentioned positive emotions (like happiness and love)#but no one of the negative ones (such as anger or sadness)#or at least i think so??#there's this part in 'no one wept' where the narator says some stuff‚ but i can barely make any of that-#and it's not like i have silly lyrics to check hngngnhng #anyway‚ back on the 'love is the only cure' part #i wouldn't mind it as much if‚ at least‚ it was referring to love in general‚ not just the romantic type‚ ya know?#and here's even more context-#there's this dude‚ Woolf‚ who 'lived his life by logic'#'he saw the world through formulas and equations' or something along those lines? anyway #and then there's this gal‚ Madeleine‚ who wishes to find a 'friend with whom she can share all her darkest secrets' and stuff #as her debut song suggests #she wants to be 'somebody's somebody'#while wolf is searching yet again for the missing piece for a machine he's been working on #(a sound machine he called 'the symphonyoum' <- no idea how to spell it adafhhad)#he sees Madeleine and falls in love with her at first sight #and then he has this 'the colour of love' moment which i guess helps him find what he needed for his machine #which got me kinda ??? but anyway #since he can't find his words (same man)#he decides to let Madeleine know how he feels by using his machine to express his emotions through sound alone #and it works!#(forgot to mention that the missing piece he was looking for was actually the feeling of love and all that jazz)#and then they have this small moment where they talk about how they can save the others with love and stuff #and this is when i decided to take a small break‚ because my silly brain got tired of all the electricity the music radiates-

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bpdrug-addict · 4 months

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me: *texts my friends back more than once a month*

my dms suddenly: I love you!!! I love you <3 we love you toby🤬🤬

#this is why i missed talking to people..#my social avolition and anhedonia rlly had me missing out on the joys of others <3 #i want to reach out more!!!!#my evil trauma spirits cant keep me in the dark forever #I WAS BORN TO THRIVE AND DANCE AND LAUGH WITH OTHERS

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errantgoat · 4 months

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Only now that I again got into something to such a degree that I think about it all the time (it was a regular occurrence when I was younger, in my thirties not so much anymore) that now I realize I probably have been low- key depressed for the longest time.

#not daydreaming on regular basis should've been a clue :/#i mean I did experience worse depression in my life - not being able to take pleasure while listening to music was a thing for a while #severe anhedonia #but that had passed #still after my brain got going on bg3 i realize my soul was missing something #not like an obsession #but just loving something dearly?

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mourninglamby · 1 year

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l*vej*y performing at the same stage as ethel cain at the same event.......im sick im so sick stay away from mother .............

#lighthearted sorry its just like #....#they are not on the same level at all #wilburs white boy quartet got popular bc hes the influencer equivalent of the son of a famous person #like ...............#miss hayden anhedonia created this beautiful story/concept album #wrote it produced it and sang it HERSELF #sorry im like overreacting for fun #but im still like shocked

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fleursscaptives · 1 year

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romeo's daddy is too good

#miss anhedonia #ethel cain #tommy

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banghwa · 6 months

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wish there was a tumblr feature so that only moots/followers can see certain posts

#i don’t need miss anhedonia knowing i use her music to talk abt kpop lore .#dl

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psychoticallytrans · 6 days

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A commonly overlooked symptom of depression is anhedonia, the inability to feel joy or pleasure. The reason that it's easy to overlook is that it's easier to miss the absence of something that's not around all the time than it is to miss a symptom that causes active distress, such as feeling tired and miserable all the time.

Anhedonia is good at being a persistent undercurrent to your life. My aunt, who has major depressive disorder, related to me that she figured out that something was wrong when she looked at the daffodils she had planted blooming, and couldn't recognize the emotion that she felt when she looked at them. It had been long enough since she had felt happy that she lost the ability to recognize the emotion.

It's a particularly dangerous depressive symptom, because it robs you of the ability to feel those little spots of joy that keep a lot of people going, while not doing anything to impair your ability to function. If you don't know that this is a treatable symptom of depression, it's easy to assume that your ability to feel good is permanently broken, and decide to commit suicide because you don't want to live like that. It's not an irrational conclusion, but it is an uninformed one, and everyone deserves to have all the information when making a major decision.

This is what a lot of questionnaires are trying to look for when they ask about "loss of enjoyment". If you can't remember a loss of enjoyment because you can't remember enjoyment, then you probably have anhedonia. If you struggle to define how it is to feel "happy", "content", or "good", or how it feels when you feel those emotions, you probably have anhedonia. If you can't remember feeling any of those emotions for a week or more, you probably have anhedonia.

Symptoms commonly co-occurring with anhedonia are fatigue (often the cause), clear and thoughtful consideration of suicide, loss of desire to socialize or do activities that used to make you happy, and weight loss (due to lack of enjoyment of food).

This section is anecdotal. In what I have observed, anhedonia due to fatigue rarely responds well to depression treatment unless depression was causing the fatigue. If fatigue and anhedonia are co-occurring and are not both alleviated by depression treatment, consider other causes for the fatigue.

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oflgtfol · 1 year

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on one hand 2021 was the year my dog got sick and died and was really horrific to experience that and its what kickstarted my current depression spiral but on the other hand i had so much more time to hang out with my friends and enjoy other things in life while experiencing that, which i dont have any more, and so i cant help but miss it. im sure its just rose colored glasses though

#like between all my time hiking + exploring and generally being outside #its also like. thats when i first got into sw!! i miss the whimsy of it when i first started #its only been 2 years how am i so jaded about sw already #brot posts #idk i just miss like. having hobbies? and passions? and things i enjoy? and having fun?#and w my depression lately its just. even my interests are more of a habit than like actual enjoyment #or like its an INTEREST not a /hobby/ yknow #like im just not happy. Lol #wats the word my therapist used #anhedonia or whatever #head in my hands #delete soon

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pyrriax · 5 months

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hi guys im going a little feral about headcanons tonight

#haunted ecosystem #i have NO idea how to tag this. im avoiding maintags #but like. hi welcome to how my brain works. i am buzzing with joy tonight.#I WAS gonna include like even more detail in my notes. then i realized i dont think anybody is gonna KNOW but like. then again. my notes #are for me. soooo. fuck it i am writing Everything. also missing is me being like “okay but chief would totally call themself a girlboy”#because. i said so. this is selfindulgence not worrying about accuracy simulator #i PROMISE im focusing on anhedonia but also i wanna write this silly fic. because self care.

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kneelingshadowsalome · 10 months

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Ghost masterlist

(Ghost art by Coruja3571/Twitter)

I Never Missed You {Bodyguard AU. Romance, smut, light angst, 18+}

Simon 'Ghost' Riley x F!Reader | He must be trained to be so calm, but you're not. You're used to making men a little stupid and flustered. You're used to men eating out of your hand. He's not behaving at all like he's supposed to... Simon Riley is just a mountain without emotion.

Part 1 | Part 2 | Part 3

Anhedonia {Smut, hurt/comfort, 18+}

Simon 'Ghost' Riley x F!Reader | You would lick that blade clean if he asked gently, but he's not gentle. You'd flatten your tongue on his thighs too, if he asked nicely, if there was a chance he might pet your hair while you do it – but Ghost doesn't take pets. He only has soldiers. Subordinates.

Part 1 (5.5 k) | Part 2 (4.4 k)

Ghost stories {Smut, angst, Ghost POV, 18+}

Simon 'Ghost' Riley x FMedic!Reader | It's only work that awaits him. From dawn till dusk, with hungry arms and a cold, dead cunt.

Refugee (6.5 k) | Lazarus (5.7 k) | Immortal (5.5 k)

Man-sized {Romance, flangst, smut, 18+}

Simon 'Ghost' Riley x F!OC | Not only did he contact her, he sent her a picture of himself looking like… like war. The tired eyes stared at her from inside what looked like the top of a human skull attached to a black balaclava. He wasn't a foot soldier, or a mercenary, he wasn't even working for the UK version of a SWAT team. He was something else.

Love is a Heavy Weapon (sequel to Man-sized on Ao3)

On Sarah & Simon's wedding How did the shibari class go? Will they ever have kids? Part 1 | Part 2 | Part 3

Drabbles & headcanons [18+]

Ghost x Virgin!Reader (2.9 k) This is not a Drill (2.2 k, size difference) Wildflowers Grow in Ruins (5 k, Reader tries to break up with Ghost) Couldn't Love You More (3.7 k, breeding kink)

Random headcanons Getting into a relationship with Ghost What would it take to win Ghost's heart?

#simon ghost riley x f!reader #simon ghost riley #cod mw2 #simon ghost riley x reader #simon ghost riley x you #ghost x reader #ghost x you #simon riley x you #simon riley x reader #ghost smut #simon riley fluff #simon riley smut #cod fanfic #simon riley fanfic #ghost x oc #simon riley x oc

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altar-ov-plagues · 2 years

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When all the vultures bow, To taste us fallen down.

#undersmile #anhedonia #girls come back i miss your ghastly lullabies

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