btw ! a lot of the reason why i havent been drawing very much the past few months other than my already existing health problems sapping my energy and making hand dexteroty much harder to maintain is much more recently ive started losing my sense of touch and <3 surprisingly that makes it really hard to make my hand do what i want it to on a page or screen

this week was so stupid

Feeling a debilitating sense of dread and despair 🤨 Which probably means nothing😍👍

:^(

Something I've noticed from subbing to just a couple of very small patreons (like fewer than 50 members) is how SHY people are about talking to the creator that they are paying! What's up with that? I wonder if it's because most of these patrons come via tumblr, where there is the culture of talking in the tags/reblogs and comments being your "outdoor voice"/basically it being RUDE to talk to people.

I think that's fucked up, especially in the context of artists (just to be clear every time I say artists that is inclusive of writers). Like these are people that are making a thing and showing it to you, they don't just want silent nods of approval by way of reblogs/likes. They want FEEDBACK. They want CONNECTION. I think a fundamental part of creating and sharing art is the goal of connection. And I don't think people realize how truly disheartening it is to post something and then get completely silent likes/reblogs.

For the love of God they are TALKING TO YOU. TALK BACK!!!!

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Alice and the pirates be more generous with your pant leg sizes challenge

I miss being sad in high school, it was a lot more manageable because I had a routine and there was always next year with new teachers and a different class rotation

Now every year is the same and I'll see the same people tomorrow and this stage doesn't have a prescheduled end so I just have to decide? I have to just up an leave when I'm ready? But I get the same paycheck and the same rent every time so how am I meant to find the wiggle room to worm out of this phase?

i need to go to bed but i dont wannnaaaaa

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Sorry for failing to post more than once every 3 am anyways more stalien icons 👍

Fuck

I don't want to be sad so i guess I just have to continue living

making the loose version of this hair is gonna be a nightmare. why'd i have to pick a guy with basically no bangs. hairlines are hardddd

btw im putting salon trip on my list of things thatll either be christmas present 4 myself birthday present 4 myself or new apartment present 4 myself

i google how to feel less sick from cigarettes i open quora "first, stop smoking" stop being fucking patronizing. stop it. i know i shouldnt be smoking. i am fully aware of the dangers and it is not enough to stop me because addiction runs deeper than logic. just give me the home remedies and stop acting like addicts are suddenly going to stop just because you tell us drugs are bad for us, as if we havent been bombarded with that information, as if we dont carry shame from engaging in something harmful when we know the harm it causes. stop acting like addiction is a matter of moral and intellectual failure instead of a disease stemming from underlying problems that need to be addressed in order for anything to actually change. stop being patronizing and tell me what tea will make me less nauseous. this is fine to reblog but if anyone tries to fucking lecture me about my life choices im blocking you immediately