I have to ask (only if you're willing to talk about it), how do you cope with hate...? I got the feeling from your last answer and tags that this was not the first time. Do you have any tips on how to self-regulate? How do you stay so kind-hearted & compassionate?

The reason why i'm asking is that I'm relatively new here and dread the day I receive hate mail.

Much love to you, I adore the way you write and lift others❣️

- Fellow cancerian who doesn't want to grow too hard a shell

hello fellow 🦀 thank you for the compliment on my writing and lifting others (honestly, I just feel too much and I have to thrust it on people haha)

and honestly I don’t mind answering, I don’t really have like a hard and fast answer so I apologise for the ramble under the cut:

it depends on what is said. which I know is wildly unhelpful, but it’s the truth. the one today was like…. silly? to me anyway. it wasn’t necessary, it was just—oh let’s kick someone. and like, I’m not just saying this, but I laughed and I honestly was like, jesus you feeling okay anon, like damn.

but, I’m nothing but honest (where I can be) and there have been some that have fucking hurt. like I’ve cried my eyes out—which is a lot for saying this is fun, and a hobby.

in my corner though, I have great people. one of my friends is like my rock, and she allows me to send her the more crazy ones. and we sorta have this process of talking about it first before I make a decision about deleting/responding. for me, it helps drafting my feelings or talking them out, just so I can get rid of that ‘initial’ reaction. because sometimes I just wanna shout and tear someone a new one, but that means letting them get a rise outta me? y’know.

so once I’ve done that, we normally fall on the deleting side, because it’s important to me to create a space that I feel safe in, that I’m proud of, and that others know they can come into and also feel okay. you having a bad day and seeing that I’ve been kicked down isn’t going to do anything except us both feel poopy. so unless I can be sassy, let it roll off my back, I try now not to respond.

to return back to chirpy, annoyingly nice Jo 😏 I spend time with people i love: fandom, irl and who I live with. I may go on a walk with my dog. I may put my headphones on and blast music (celine dion power ballads hit different), and lastly, I’ll churn it into something writing wise.

writing is what helps me regulate all of my emotions. I feel so much, always have done, always will. but writing helps.

unfortunately, there’s always a chance I’ll get hate. because like irl, we don’t gel with everyone. which is why I wish people would just unfollow, block and move on, but i can't control that nor can i guarantee the former will happen. so I just try to create a space I’m happy to be in, like this overtly pink blog with all you lovely lot who follow me as I throw you in fandom after fandom.

lastly, my friend said this earlier and I’m going to quote her (she’s going to love this) “you literally get what you see with you” and she’s right. it’s not me staying so kind and compassionate, that’s just who I am (which sounds big headed, like omg I’m amazing) but I just care. and on the days where being “me” feels hard, that’s when I stay off here. because it means I need some me time to get back to a good place.

I am not sure if this was helpful, 🦀 anon (this is what I’m calling you, hope that’s okay). but my dm is always open, and so is my inbox.

pls try not to let fear stop you from sharing with the world, don’t give the prospective haters any chance to steal your shine 🩷

Look, I gotta get this out. With everything that’s happened this week, I’ve lost my energy for writing about it. All I want to do is huddle in the corner in numb silence. Tbh what’s happening in the manga wouldn’t be so hard to cope with on its own, but between all the social media attention, harassment dialed up to 11, cheers and praise for Katsuki’s death being good writing (and the reverse being bad writing), antis treating it like a victory (especially for their own ship), and everyone “coping” being relentlessly laughed at, I’m just so fucking done. I can’t bring myself to make discussions of any real substance about theories or themes or anything else. Right now I can’t even talk about unrelated stuff. 

The only thing I want to say is, I’m putting my foot down. All the shitty people who have been making a racket over this week do not exist to me anymore. I’m deleting twitter until I can find the mental energy to comb through it and block, mute, unfollow, etc. until it’s peace and quiet. I won’t abide by people even interacting with negativity. It’s more apparent than ever that we are not even remotely a part of the same fandom as those people, so why are we entertaining them? They are just ruining it for us. My dream would be for all of us to wall ourselves in and go radio silent to the outside. Short of that, I want to remind everyone to at least remember to tag everything, and I mean everything, properly so that those who want to avoid discourse and leaks can do so. 

I used to think of the negative stuff as entertaining gossip sometimes, or like I couldn’t look away. But it’s different now because it’s actually getting to me, making me feel like an idiot for getting invested in the possibilities and spoiling the “fun” of fictional angst. Also, I’m reluctant to admit this, but I’m very sensitive to death, especially in recent years. I almost never get myself into stories without knowing ahead of time what I’m in for death-wise, so ongoing series like this are usually off the table. This is largely due to irl personal experience, which I’m not getting into, but suffice it to say the idea of Izuku losing Katsuki suddenly while he isn’t around hits very close to home. This is why it bothers me so much the way people are getting made fun of for mourning a fictional character because it’s not real. We read fiction to feel emotions, to experience things second-hand, and our own actual experience interfaces with that. I won’t let people get in the way of that for me.

Tumblr is already much quieter at least for me so I’m okay to stay here, though I might not be saying much or even responding to my inbox for now (sorry, I see you, I’m with you, I just can’t). I haven’t decided what I’m doing about leaks yet, but I’m thinking about avoiding them at least for next chapter, even though I am of course desperate to know what happens as soon as possible. It’s just so hard to participate in them while also dodging negativity, and I’m sure it’s going to be especially bad this time around. 

So in case you don’t hear from me, I’ll leave you with this: remember shipping is not about “winning” the canon endgame, it’s about enjoying the potential on your own. We do not need to be validated. It can’t be taken away. That is the true beauty of none of this being real.  

what is interesting about this being the Media Consumption Site (for me anyway) is that the like social sphere of interaction is shaped by things that would never impact any other community?

like, sometimes I will click on a funny post and look through the blog and be like “I bet op and I would get along if we knew each other irl but they hate all the shows I like and I am at best indifferent to all the shows they like so I’m not going to follow them because this is the Blorbo Gifset Website”

but at work, or school, or whatever, you meet people and make friends and preferences in media/art are just largely...not a factor in my experience? I mean, certainly getting friends into things you like is a thing that happens but I’m not out here ceasing interaction with my irl friend because she really likes Schitt’s Creek and I couldn’t get into it.

And obviously that’s because we have other stuff tying us together - here if we define ourselves by what we are posting about, of course that’s going to be the primary driver of social ties, because that’s what we’re here to do - but it’s still always odd to me to have that feeling of “huh too bad you think my fandoms are cringe” or whatever preventing me from seeking people out.

Anyway I think this is why the whole thing of “mutual that doesn’t post about anything you’re into anymore” is such a specific category of person, bc it’s an indicator that you liked the person enough that even when the thing you had in common is gone, you still want to be around them.

it’s a bit like how you have work friends and then you leave the job and most of them you don’t stay friends with because you don’t have the thing that tied you together in common anymore, I guess, it’s just that the situation of “really into this specific show I am also really into” is basically never the bonding point irl, so it feels particularly odd to me.

(edit: Also, ‘unfollowing’ is an interpersonally neutral act because of these boundaries: ie, your content is no longer what I want to see but it doesn’t mean you as an individual did anything ‘wrong’ - but I think it often feels personal because of expectations in other social spheres)

mthedm ---> mymaleficaria

Hi gang! I've had this blog since high school, but somewhere in college it fell into disuse and disrepair. I've been itching to get back on here, as a space on the internet that's not...ya know *gestures at the Twitter-sized elephant in the room*. But I also wanted to go in with a fresh coat of paint and reintroduce myself to y'all, maybe even make some new friends (or enemies. That could be hot.) A lot has changed!

Wait, why do I follow you?

Statistically, you followed me because of Wolf 359! I was big into podcasts back in the day, WTNV, Wolf 359, all those. I also wrote some Wolf 359 fics and was semi-active on the discord. Still fondly remember the show and might reblog fanart once in awhile, but it's not the direction this blog's going to go, so feel free to unfollow if what up I'm to now isn't your jam.

What's this blog about now?

Wouldn't you like to know, weatherboy? Frankly, I'm ADHD as fuck, so that'll vary by the day, but I have a few fandoms (do we still say fandoms in the year of our lord 2023???) that I've been into lately.

Dimension 20: I started watching D20 a little less than a year ago, and it entirely took over my life. It's just a series that's so robustly funny, wonderfully told, and never fails to make me smile. I'm especially fond of ACOC and Fantasy High.

Dracula Daily: I'm in this shit for the long haul! I think Lucy and Mina should kiss, but that's neither here nor there.

Game of Thrones/HotD: This show ended in a trash fire, but it literally lives in my head rent free. The political intrigue, the drama. Ugh. I'm a targ girlie through and through, so I've been eating up HotD, though it's nowhere near as good imo. Am also currently reading the 1st ASOIAF book.

YA lit/Whatever I'm reading/watching: I've read almost 50 books this year so far, and am frankly, insane. Bonus points for queer reads! Not many people to talk about books to irl, so might ramble about them on here instead. Also watch a lot of random TV drama and some anime.

Writing: I'm a fanfic writer, and a fiction writer in general, so I'll post stuff about writing--complaints, story snippets, link to my fics, etc! Headcanons and all will be found here. I've also copyedited before, which is like writing but if you get even more nitpicky about it.

Personal/Whatever the hell I feel like/My D&D Games: Life happens and sometimes you want to scream into the void. Ramblings, jokes, whatever. I transed my gender in the past few years and sometimes I'm mad about it! I also just graduated college! Madness! I play a lot of TTRPGs, and I'm usually on brainrot for one of my characters at any given time.

Why's your new username that?

One of my favorite book series is The Scholomance by Naomi Novik, and in the series, Maleficaria are the horrifying monsters that threaten to kill the students every day, and what is tumblr if not a place full of vile, evil beings? Plus, it means you all can call me Mal.

Anything else?

Nope! Other than to feel free to drop me a line and say hello, especially if you want to scream about D20. I'm p alone in this brainrot irl, so I'm pretty much always down to talk about the Bad Kids... especially Adaine and Fabian. I'm also always down to take fic suggestions in my asks! This show genuinely lifts me up when I'm down, so sharing it with people is one of my favorite things.

My fics (shortlist):

In Sweetness, There is Violence: Angsty ACOC one-shot about if Ruby had made a different choice in the finale. Obligatory Caramelinda Caramelinda-ing.

the words i speak are wildfires: A HOTD one-shot I intended to be smut, that ended up instead being more like a romantic sapphic moment of healing between Alicent and Rhaenyra. What can I say? I like childhood friends to enemies to lovers.

Stay Stellar: An unfinished (and, very likely, discontinued) 15-chapter high school AU for Wolf 359 that I wrote with an old friend. Featuring some truly crazy shenanigans, a lot of embarrassing Kepcobi moments, and a surprising amount of theatre.

Re: the post about bullying people on misspellings and reading comprehension and such.

no real, I’m the person people talk about when they say dyslexia

(I have all the other ones too, dysgraphia, dyscalclia, dyspraxia too)

And so my reading comprehension and also spelling is kinda trash, not in a bad faith way but in a “I genuinely completely missed like a whole paragraph” way.

which just sucks, I’m still extremely new to the whole “writing” thing.

genuinely if you saw something from a couple years ago vs now you’d be flabbergasted at how much we’ve improved.

but I always thought it was extremely rude to bully and or be mean about people who don’t understand or read things right or write things right.

you just genuinely do not know who they are and why they do it, whenever I try to correct someone I say it kindly and give constructive feedback.

Like genuinely it’s not hard to be kind, some people are still learning, sometimes it’s someone’s second language, sometimes they use speech to text and text to speech.

it’s just such a deeply ingrained belief that anyone who misspells or misspeaks or misunderstands is dumb or stupid.

I can���t even count on my fingers how many times I’ve misheard, worded something trash, or misunderstood or misinterpreted something.

but that’s just how I am and I can’t change it, but I can change my reaction and outcome and make friendships even after fucking up.

it’s just a sad feeling that even if you have the best intentions you still fail horribly, subtext and tone are hard to parse through, so much meaning and context gets a bit screwy when you write it down.

and sometimes life is filled with mistakes and failures and there’s nothing wrong with that, I can’t know everything and I probably never will.

I love the quote

“a jack of all trades is a master of none, but oftentimes better than a master of one.”

because yeah, I’ll never be a master at English or talking or anything.

but I can be a jack of all trades, I can try to learn and be better.

more skills even though I’m not a master at any, helps so much.

We beat ourselves up and others for things we can’t control rather than lift ourselves and others up.

that’s just my thoughts on it, I just didn’t want to add it on the main post it’s pretty unrelated to the original lol.

-pop

You are so very nice to write all this pop. Sorry I take a bit to respond. The system has been super busy.

The "trouble" that I mentioned in the tags that I got into was when I said I unfollowed someone for being rude about reading comprehension and had a complete stranger come out of nowhere and correct me like I was talking about them when I wasn't and then when I said I wasn't and was frustrated that people apparently do this enough to assume unrelated call outs about it are vagues about them, they acted like I was "rude" and like...

I'm an alter that has slammed doors hard enough to crack walls. I've said such utterly fucked things. I am trying my hardest, my best, to be nice when I'm upset. I have come so far and it hurts. I use all my energy when I do it. Tumblr is almost like a kind of language thinking therapy for me. It's a good place to practice being as polite as I can, because it's safer to fail online as opposed to IRL, where backspace and walk away are not options.

To try as hard as I did and still be called rude is... Ugh. It's just awful. Especially when it was an otherwise cool blog that said that about me. They even said on their blog separately if another alter apologized on my behalf that they'd be friends with them and just avoid me.

And that's actually trauma for me! That kind of thing seriously destabilizes my system. I've had people literally abuse my system by manipulating us like that and talking about me, calling me an asshole like I can't hear. But I get that that's just a mistake too.

It's all mistakes!

I think the world would be a better place if more mistakes were seen as harmless.

Also I vibe with the jack of all trades bit. We definitely as a system feel that.

꘏ General ꘏

About

This blog (mainly) creates and also interacts with dark content. I place warnings for all my content, so proceed at your own risk.

we are very very multifandom here. i hyperfixate a lot, and my adhd is sitting proudly at the wheel. whatever character my brain chooses for the day is usually how it goes. characters I write for are linked in my masterlist even if I haven't put anything out for them yet. I add as I go

I’ll be real and say that I frequently dip away from tumblr for a couple days rather often; I have a low social battery that drains even when I’m shitposting to no one in particular. But I love to chat so don’t hesitate to send an ask, I’ll get back to them next time I’m online :)

DNI’s 

My content is not suited nor intended for minors. 18 and up please and thank you. If you don’t have an age marked somewhere visible I will block. “18+” “adult” “legal” etc are not acceptable and will result in a block.

Blank blogs annoy the piss out of me but I'm too lazy to block them all so just have an age listed okay.

do not interact with my content (reblogs especially) if your own blog rules are not 18+. If i see 17+ or similiar, that makes me uncomfortable.

no dc anti’s (if you know how to scroll past, this doesn't include you) hate will be ignored. if you don’t like my content, the stuff i reblog, or the things i say, just block me or unfollow. 

if you ask for part 2s. it’s a rude thing to do in general. 

Rules and Asks

I typically answer all my asks, I don't ignore people so if I'm taking awhile to respond it's either because i havent seen it or I'm thinking on a response. However, if I think an ask is worded in a way that would make others or myself uncomfortable, check my return to sender tag. I'll probably have made a post with a response without directly posting the ask itself.

I do need a listed age to feel comfortable responding! Please no trauma dumping. And I'm awful at writing comfort so pls no "what would Chara do" h/c situation asks 🥲 I'm bad at them. Awful. The result of my attempt would somehow make your day worse. For your own mental health just pls do not lol.

I'm down with being called bb/babes,girl by just about anyone. But bitch/bestie/love are reserved for mutuals and discord friends, those are very important terms of endearment for me and it feels off getting them from people I don't know.

If you send me compliments about my writing we’re valentines. this isn’t even my own rule, this is cosmic law. 

Writing Info

I write every day, but I write and post at my own pace, the pace my irl life allows. If something is listed in my wips, I’m working on it so please don’t demand content from me.

The stuff I write is usually explicit, and even when it’s not has mature, dark, or unsettling natures to it. Not every fic will include these topics but beware they may contain incest, a/b/o, monsterfucking, horror, yandere etc. Here’s a little link to give you an idea on more, listing them can get tedious so i keep it separate and update it as I go.

I don’t do requests (commissions aside) but if you want to tell me your thoughts on a character, or maybe put them in a messy little situation, it might spark something in my mind and a little something might come of it, you never know ;3

what do i not write... hm. scat. vore. the Obvious. Other than that this is a really tough Q bc my mood switches up a lot. Sometimes I go on a single trope spree, other days I will write criminal level fluff in one hour and shiver inducing dark alley shit in the next. I have so much range, please expect me to use it.

Intro Post!!

Hiiii my name is Valerie I am 20. they please!

• I have a beautiful girlfriend who I am madly in love with in a way that is more beautiful than addiction and uglier than obsession

• I’m first gen Peruvian American. I’m mixed indigenous and white, at like a 40/60 split.

• if I talk about a condition I have, it’s because I’m professionally diagnosed with it. If I do talk about it it’s usually either about my autism or bipolar disorder. Not inherently against self dx though do what you gotta do

• i major in psychology, philosophy, and religion. For some reason I’m minoring in biology now. I do undergraduate research on social perceptions of autism, including self dx and the marketing demographic built around a particular brand of neurodivergence. And of course the language we use to talk about it.

• my special interest is psychology. I really like statistics too. I actually tutor the subject!

• typology I’m sure of: sL[O]/AI/ 1(w2)25 So/Sx mel-chol

• i don’t really tag things if you need anything tagged I am probably not the blog to follow. I mean I don’t really reblog anything extreme anyways. But I do tag my musings with #valerieisms and use other tags like #valerieonhousemd and #valerieonmeds even if I’m just saying things in tags

• I’m not an nsfw blog but sometimes I jibber jabber So i think no minors. Ermmm other than that i don’t really have a dni. I hate terfs and the white moderate. And other losers of course. That’s about it

• I have an art blog…I love drawing!! I’m really shy about it irl but I like posting some of my drawings online. On @mooondial

• I think the quickest way to my heart is to take an active interest in my characters. I usually tag my posts about them with #mindscape but now I post on a blog called @emerypilled

• I’m also an RA I talk about that a lot…and how much I hate it LOL this blog is a catch all for my thoughts + sketches + art I don’t feel like posting on mooondial + vents + whatever. And it’s never anything too extreme I’m just scared at being bad at my jobs

• I enjoy going through certain tags (like characters) in people’s blogs and reblogging a ton of stuff from them at once #mybad

• Ummmmm if you unfollow please sb. I don’t really check but it’s just something id prefer. I totally understand though. I actually have a massive inferiority complex about what I reblog I worry it’s cringe but it’s interesting to me and this blog is for me. So it doesn’t really matter!

That’s all!

ur right and i hope u don't get any hate for it. besides some trans people still like harry potter while not supporting it which is a whole other thing. like sometimes u feel emotionally connected to something that was important to u as a kid while still knowing the person who made it is bad. its so much more complicated than "only bad people like this movie and if u like it u become a bad person right away"

Yeah I mean I just made a post on that. I mean like there’s so much nuance I don’t want to get into but like yeah in your daily life you’re going to run into someone who is like “oh well my family was sitting down for movie night and was watching Harry Potter on our DVDs from 2010 and therefore not actively Duncan Italy supporting JKR and in that moment I decided it was better to sit down and watch a movie I enjoyed as a kid with my family than to make it a political debate” and like. How exactly are you going to treat that person IRL. Are you going to snub them? Are you going to post about them later and be like “I can’t believe a trans person didn’t want to start a fight with their family so they watched a Harry Potter DVD from 10+ years ago”. You’re going to meet trans people who are like “My mom dragged me to Hobby Lobby because she needed something and bought something and I didn’t tell her that she’s supporting gay people’s deaths because I’m 15 and I can’t afford to start a fight with a parent who controls my entire life including my finances and where I live and could possibly kick me out” and are you going to tell them they should have said something and risked their livelihood for the greater good of all gay people? You’re going to meet trans people who are like “my family unanimously decided that we’re stopping at Chick-Fil-A and this was the only chance I was going to have to eat dinner so I had to eat some” are you going to tell them they should have starved themselves? Like I understand these are really drastic things but also I’ve been in all of these scenarios so like it’s REALLY not that uncommon. Like there is nuance. Like listen. My cousin works at Chick-Fil-A. She’s developmentally disabled. She worked at Lowe’s for a time but quit because they were bullying her. She loves working at Chick-Fil-A because her coworkers are kind to her despite her disabilities. Are you really going to tell me I shouldn’t love and support her because she works at a corporation that sends money to conversion therapy camps. My own developmentally delayed cousin. I have a friend who literally told me she doesn’t think people should be gay because it’s against the Bible. But she loves and supports me anyway. I’m a work place where actual gay people working there make snide comments to me, make ableist remarks to me, and treat me like dog shit, she watches and says “I’m really sorry that people are treating you like this. I see it happened to you.” And she goes and reports it and supports me when I vent about it. Nuance. There are going to be good people out there who like Harry Potter and bad people out there who reject it and whether or not someone likes Harry Potter shouldn’t be the basis of whether or not they are a good or a bad person. Of course, you are FULLY within your right on tumblr.com to unfollow someone because they like Harry Potter and you think that’s bad. And you are well within your right to go to that person and say “I think you’re a bad person for liking Harry Potter”. And quite honestly I DO think that if you are choosing to financially support JKR in any way you ARE part of the problem even as a fellow trans person. But when it comes to something as small as a trans person who goes out of their way to be an activist on and offline simply answering what their hogwarts house is and you feel like that’s directly harming the trans community because you DARED to acknowledge it exists. Like idk yeah get offline maybe.

WHAT NOT TO DO WHEN INTERACTING WITH MY BLOG - Customizable Edition

BASICS !

Name / Alias: Spooky Pronouns: he/they Blog type: single muse | Multi-muse | non selective | semi selective | selective| mutuals only | private | other (specify) Type of muses: canon | OCs | both | other (specify)

GENERALITIES ! Triggers people MUST tag: animal death Interest tracker / checker: I have it and it's mandatory | I have it, it's not mandatory but I'm more likely to follow bad / interact with the people who fill it | I have one and I prefer it if people fill it in | I have it but it's to people whether to fill it or not | I don't have one | other (specify) Reblog karma: I practise it | I practise it sometimes | I don't practise it | I always reblog memes from the source | indifferent | other (specify) Rule passwords: I have one and it's mandatory | I have one and it's optional | I don't have one | I send passwords | don't sent passwords | I have to hype myself up to send one

3-5 ESSENTIAL RULES PEOPLE HAVE TO RESPECT

please read my rules

please be patient with me. irl stuff can get in my way or leave me too drained to do stuff, even if i WANT to write

the basic stuff, no metagaming, godmodding, infomodding, etc

3-5 IMPORTANT PET PEEVES TO KEEP IN MIND

I am 100% okay with my rp partner not matching my reply length. Be it shorter or longer. (heck, if they make it longer then I'll feel better abt my next reply being longer.) HOWEVER, if I give a paragraph or two, I will expect more than one line. which is what I actually got one time.

if my rp partner goes into a thread with me assuming something about my muse even though I make it clear that my muse is canon divergent. I'm absolutely free to IM if you have questions! I'm friendly and don't bite, i promise. QwQ

when i can't figure out your blog. please, readability is the most important thing to me. which is why the most I do is small text. I will change my theme if I think even one thing is making it unreadable or even slightly harder to read. bright harsh colors as well, makes the blog a mess to read anything on.

not trimming your posts. it makes it hard to follow whats going on sometimes. even if tumblr now makes long posts auto readmore. (at least it does for me)

i do prefer that ppl tag their posts most of the time, but that's not really a requirement if it's not like for a trigger or something. it just helps me search for stuff on their blogs if i can't find it through our notes.

2-5 THINGS THAT WILL LEAD TO INSTANT (SOFT/HARD)BLOCKING

if the blog looks like a bot in some way

if it's a personal who has repeatedly reblogged something after being asked not to

if it's someone i've known in the past to make me uncomfortable

2-5 THINGS THAT LEAD ME TO UNFOLLOW / SOFTBLOCK A MUTUAL / SOMEONE I INTERACT WITH

ooc drama between people, vague posts, bullying

minor/adult ships

very rarely, if they're spamming TOO MUCH ooc stuff, untagged or other wise, in a short amount of time. I mean like, many posts that are actually ooc not having anything to do with their character. not like aesthetic posts, headcanons, or art. I'm also not talking abt like, PSAs or updates on the mun's health/lack of energy. i get that it's your blog. but i didn't want to follow a blog that's being treated more like a personal blog.

also very rarely, if my dash is going too fast and it's clear someone isn't going to interact with me i might unfollow just to make things easier for myself to keep up with. but again, that doesn't happen very often.

if it's clear a blog has been abandoned. if they show signs of activity later tho, i may refollow. bc i know irl stuff happens, u kno.

2-5 REASON YOU DON'T FOLLOW (BACK) SOMEONE

if their muse is from a series i am uncomfortable with. (used to love HP, but i can't look at anything from it now. for example.)

if they ASK why i haven't followed them back. just feels weird, man. I will then not follow out of spite for how uncalled for that question is. nobody is owed a follow. not even me.

Hi! I just saw the Daniel edit: it’s very good. I dare to say, it’s TOO GOOD lmao I got a little disturbed. But I don’t think that is a bad thing! Because it is a Halloween thing!

I think you shouldn’t let people with mean comments bother you, you know? You are being creative and you are being SO clear that things are edits for a specific purpose. You are using tags correctly too. If anyone is bothered by your edits they can unfollow, they can block, they can filter tags. They can stop interacting with your content.

I want to make it very clear: I DONT THINK THE PROBLEM IS YOU OR YOUR EDITS OR THE PLATFORM ITSELF. THE PROBLEM IS PEOPLE NOT BEING ABLE TO TAKE RESPONSIBILITY FOR THE CONTENT THEY CONSUME.

And it’s okay if you decide you don’t want to reply to this ask, I just wanted to tell you what I think and let you know that although I don’t want you to stop posting your edits, which I find better every time and also more creative as you develop your talents and learn new skills, I respect whatever you decide to do. But please know you do not owe anyone anything and it’s not on you if people are mean or rude. I have many many thoughts on this so please take away: I support you and please you do you no matter what anyone says.

Literally, thank u so much for this ❤️ i am so thankful for your endless support

But for now I’m just done. Tbf it’s not that ask particularly, it was just like the last straw tbf.

It has been happening for a year, where no matter what i do or post; people come in my ask to shit about me. I can’t even reblog some drivers without people being like ‘wait ew u support him?’. I can’t joke about stuff without people giving me their opinion without me asking, where they just write about how wrong my edit is and how cringe it is and asking me basically to take it down. Or asks I receive when I’m sharing personal topics where people call me literally crazy and that I should be in therapy or making friends instead of being here because I’m out of reality. Or even people pointing out what is wrong with my edits (tips: if i dont ask for an opinion pls dont give it).

I love editing but if what i get is shitty anons instead of them unfollowing me then it’s not the case. Because for me, these comments are not helping my creativity. I’m not saying i don’t accept criticism, I just don’t accept the way people here give it to me. I’m having enough of that irl i dont need it here. Like, I know i should ignore comments like that, sometimes i just simply delete them but at one point it hurts me and yes it hurts my feelings

I’m just going to keep posting random and simple and easy gifsets because this doesn’t bring negativity, will keep the f1 edits for myself or share it privately with friends because i dont feel like sharing stuff

I’ve been in many fandoms (i was literally in the 5sos fandom… when all the drama happened) and god the f1 one is the one where I’ve received rude messages

So yeah i have a few more halloween edits to posts, a few more f1 ones and then i’ll stop and just go back to simple gifs

sue ramble/vent, trying to get brain to process and figure out how to tackle social media and interacting with others

i guess while i am in the process of using tumblr more—it might be a good idea to reconsider a lot of social media, and by default, friendships/socializing/what i really want to do vs what i am doing out pure habit. like, It’s Always Been that Way without having any awareness to consider…hmm, maybe that’s unhealthy, maybe this isn’t fun. so on. not all of it is inherently good or bad, but ready to move on and find a better path

it’s a variety of things that interconnect. small stuff like making sure i’m following/unfollowing/setting more practical tactics. to putting my foot down and communicating firmly over anything that may come up. this also will help me hopefully to figure out how i want to handle art and business side of my persona. i run a discord server and ultimately at the end of the day, a lot of that is my responsibility and there’s no way in hell i’m going to neglect it. but it’s not my job—i got fussed at that a year before, was grounded by my friends. so i’m far from flaws—fawning, people pleasing, helping. it’s a weird balance and sometimes goes up and down. then there’s my struggle with handling 1v1 and connecting to friends individually. and finally, real life and touching grass

so that mess of a paragraph shows the chaos and goals that are all over the place. but it’s progress. one thing that has been helping me is trying to spin both irl world and my internet usage on similar fields. ie—no, i do not need a ton of friends here and just because i dont go out every weekend means i’m not being social enough. or that “if i was hanging with irl friends the way i do online?” which made me realize that it’s not necessarily healthy to spend hours with a friend or a group everyday for hours at a time. i couldn’t handle that—going to a coffee shop, a meeting, meeting multiple friends throughout the day? Either of these sides don’t translate perfectly, and sometimes can vary.

and finally, i’m beginning to feel more on track with being myself, taking up space, and embracing my hermit aura. i think for years and years i was scolded for my like of solitary, and still clashed with my inherent habit of getting involved with communities, how important it is to help others, and loving to meet new people. but i’m getting pretty clear signs from others and the universe about where i need to shift—and if not, then it’s all learning in the end

i might make a simple to -do list, post it here? lately lists have done nothing for me, which is usually one of those time management techniques i need. some i think is forcing myself/i am out of practice. but the other bit is exhaustion. i always ramble about this, but god i can do so much more and it’s easier to do basic tasks to actual goals when i feel well. my brain is <insert some computer analogy>, so it keeps having BSODs, memory problems, the limited CPU can’t handle all the things that need to run inside my brain. so everything feels twice as hard and exhausting

mmm it is nice to be able to go beyond a word limit and just blog XD, it does help. i’ve been struggling as well to keep up with journaling and other practices that help with self-therapy

rn tho, feeling pretty anxious—I think it’s bcs I had too much coffee. but i turned off the PC, moved to the bedroom to quietly read or do art. Pablo’s already crashed; I feel safer if he’s right by me when i get all antsy

i guess i should make an intro!

hi! i'm wyatt. i'm 17, and i use he/they pronouns. i also go by sammy! either name works, but most people just call me wyatt, and that's the name i use IRL as well. i've had this blog for a while (over a year? i had one in 2019 and then deleted it at some point, and idk when i made this one!) but i think i'll be more active here now because tumblr's interface feels more user friendly. who knows, tho ¯\_(ツ)_/¯

some info about me and this account (a BYF, i guess):

this is a very general purpose blog. i will post all sorts of crap here. from fanart to serious topics to cats with ridiculous names! i don't repost serious things too often (i don't think, anyway).

most of my posts are just reblogs! i don't have a large audience so i don't feel the need to make posts. i know you have to make posts to have a large audience, but i'm fine with a smaller audience as well. im just in my own silly little environment

i'm on social media for my own enjoyment, which means i will post as little or as much as i feel like at the moment! i will also block people for small or silly reasons (like, if i don't like the stuff they post, even if it's not problematic).

if anyone else remembers framecast/drawcast hmu because sometimes i wonder if that was just something i dreamt

FEEL FREE TO SEND ME PICS OF UR ANIMALS ANYTIME

please don't feel bad if i don't watch/listen to/read something you suggest. i have a huge huge huge list of things i need to watch, read, listen to, play, etc. i have not crossed off a single thing. i really just suck at getting into new content for some reason

that being said, i think learning about a piece of media through a person that really really likes it is much more enthralling than actually looking into it myself. so feel free to rant to me about things!

give me ur ocs this is a threat

i have my own ocs that i may post about from time to time! feel free to ask me about them. please.

i don't know half the shit that goes on in the online world. if i follow someone who is problematic, just assume i don't know anything because i probably don't!

if anyone needs me to give photo IDs/transcriptions of images i post, don't hesitate to ask! i'll gladly add one on

i can't read most fancy fonts. i know some (like zalgo text) are made with the intention to be incomprehensible, but if you use a fancy font (such as over-the-top cursive, some gothic/medieval fonts, or ɑׁׅ֮ꪀׁׅᨮ꫶ׁׅ֮tׁׅhׁׅ֮ꪱׁׅꪀׁׅᧁׁ ᥣׁׅ֪ꪱׁׅƙׁׅ֑ꫀׁׅܻ tׁׅhׁׅ֮ꪱׁׅ꯱ׁׅ֒ (anything like this), i will not be able to read it! a translation or caption would be nice if you use one of these fonts, but it's probably not something i'll unfollow you over

i use parentheses often (because how else will i communicate vital information in an easy and concise manner?)

that's it for disclaimers, i think! here's some of my interests:

five nights at freddys :(

the walten files

blaseball

my ocs!!

stardew valley

pre-2010s microsoft windows operating systems

will i get laughed off of this website if i say purble place? bc yeah

homestuck (im sorry)

anything with convoluted lore ig

backrooms/"liminal spaces" (idk why they're called liminal spaces, which is why there's quotation marks around them) (also i don't know shit about the backrooms lore i just like empty places that fill me with dread)

so yeah!!

i guess everyone is doing "before you follow" and "don't interact" warnings. i pretty much did a byf up at the top. but here's a dni ig:

DNI: proshippers. i think that's it really

YCIBYOTI (you can interact but you're on thin ice): tiktok kids y'all scare the crap out of me. genshin fans (i call y'all genshpacters so don't be surprised by that). danganronpa fand. again i don't want to tell people who like those things not to follow me, because no group of ppl are a monolith and there's definitely a bunch of people who don't live up to the stereotypes. but i am Slightly Wary of y'all. this isn't a hardcore "don't interact" but more like "proceed with caution & please don't tap the glass because it scares the animals (me)"

that's it!

a picture of my cat, for your troubles

ok cya 👋

☠ ♦

salty munday meme.

☠ What does someone have to do for an instant unfollow from you?

i don’t think i instantly soft block people anymore? but one of the few things that i’ve been seeing recently that i actually had to soft block someone for on another account was reblogging and promoting(?) callout posts. they also kept vague posting to the person that was being called out and fought with anons either from the person or people on their side almost every day. it was honestly so irritating and they just kept pushing for them to start something with them despite being an adult and a parent no less. it was just extremely childish and turned me off from the writer so hard that their muse no longer interested me anymore. i was told they were cool, as were their character, but such behavior and lack of self-control is a huge no for me.

small pet peeve as well: they always posted and asked to discuss shipping but did little to nothing else aside from the callout fighting. i think they were busy with irl things as well but man. i waited maybe a week or two for me to see something worth while from them but the calling out pushed me away so bad.

♦ What was a mildly annoying thing that has happened to you rp wise?

honestly... probably talking with a writer ooc about things we could and wanted to write but then the other person kinda going cold and stop talking to me, both ooc and ic. it’s not necessarily new or super deep but it still kinda stings to have all these ideas discussed and then be either forgotten or ignored for months. it doesn’t feel great.

also, as nice as it can be, sometimes overenthusiasm can throw me off or make me close myself off, especially if i get spammed things. this is mostly towards exclusively shipping things, especially since many of my ocs are not ones to get romantically attached easily. many if not all of them have commitment issues for one reason or another and i’d prefer to write out each relationship as such unless it’s pre-established. even then, i’m surprisingly not as big a fan of acquiring many romantic ships suddenly, as i also like to study people’s characters for a while before discussing anything close to a dedicated ship. of course close friends are pretty much exempt from this, but anyone else will have to be patient with me.

juice cleanses are out social media cleanses are IN. halve your following list on instagram and it’s like a shot of lemon water straight to the brain

hm . feeling weirdly distant again ):<

Sorry if someone has sent an ask on this but I have a topic for discussion I think you would like. So I've been seeing a lot of Tumblr posts that fall into two categories: "I hate X thing, I can be as loud or public or insulting about the people liking it--up to and including calling the people who enjoy it Bad People--as I want and if you don't like that you're a oversensitive baby!" And "wow it would be nice if people stop shitting on this thing I hold dear so openly, sometimes in official tags, and sometimes even irl to my face knowing that I like it"

Like I understand it's one's own tumblr blog, you can say whatever you want on it and nobody is required to engage. But I have a fan focused blog and any deviation from the exact tags or following the exact right people I see constant posts degrading something I hold dear or even casually like as immoral, Problematic and therefore you Must Not Engange or as Bad Quality And Unenjoyable. Part of it is just Tumblr culture being contrarian and snappy lately. Part of it is learning new ways to cut down who I follow, for instance unfollowing people who I otherwise like but make fun of fanfiction increased the quality of my feed a lot.

But I had a friend who mentioned a song they like and hold dear and their other friend immediately went into how it's morally wrong because it's "capitalizing on someone's trauma" which is a wild and baseless claim in context and just rude?

My question is: why do people think insulting something, especially if it's popular is always appropriate and right?

I've even seen people say it's wrong to be offended by this because "people these days see their interests as extensions of themselves" (implied that they shouldn't)

Also do these snobs just leave any conversation irl when someone mentions Marvel movies? Do they refuse to dance at a party when someone plays a pop song?

Anyway rant over. Thoughts?

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1. Bold of you to assume they socialize offline or that they're brave enough to get in someone's face when not hiding behind a keyboard.

2. Honestly, 99% of all this is an issue of social media formats that have reblogging and site-wide tags.

Look, I know we all love reblogging, and there are positives to this format. The biggest one is that you don't have to constantly produce substantial content in order to have something for your blog.

But the downside is that the tags are used as both a main feed for people who like the thing and each blog's personal categorization system and an accurate label for a rant post about how the thing sucks. Social conventions might separate these things a little, but tumblr is designed in a way that conflates them.

A lot of this has more to do with the failings of a tumblr or twitter type format than the failings of any given person.

But...

3. Why do people think hating on shit is awesome?

I think a portion of it is that really popular things one hates feel like they're getting shoved in one's face constantly, so people lash out.

But far more of it is a general toxic geek thing of thinking that being sniffily superior makes you sound smart.

Sadly for them, it does the opposite.

Talk to any cinephile douchebags offline, and they'll happily shit all over all sorts of films that aren't up to their ~standards~, often while showing how ignorant they actually are about cinematography, editing, and any director who isn't part of that 70s new hollywood movement.

Loving things, especially with extreme earnestness, is the very definition of cringe for a lot of people because admitting something intimate about your taste means being vulnerable and unashamed. People who refuse to let go of their shame hate it when other people demonstrate that that's a them problem and not just the universal way to be. "How dare you exist as a [BL fan/writer of indulgent self inserts/fat person/GNC person/slut/weirdo/fan of schlock] and NOT FEEL BAD ABOUT IT????"

Hating on shit is safe.

Loving things in public means being vulnerable.