i have a personal issue with the idealization of the cottagecore vibe fandom due to living entirely off grid for 3 years in the woods and limited electricity and no running water. 10 hours a day of electricity

it is very hard work that involves a ton of labor and i think most people would not be able to sustain themselves permanently due to the burnout combined with the rest of society expecting u to live up to the standard of having electricity/shelter 24/7 and while we may romanticize the fact, hard work and isolation can entirely cut you off in the modern era even if you are a lone wolf or an introvert

if you have the money to be able to do that! great! good jorb. im glad for u

if you are poor and forced to live that way? everyone else gives u a huge fuck u when the smallest of things take a huge amount of work

it is a nice dream for sure but harder than what most expect

(this is entirely within the context of living in the USA mind you. and not the areas where plumbing is still not updated)

I think constantly about Pudding and Sanji being obviously parallels of each other and how fucked up it is that Pudding had to live the life Sanji managed to escape but she constantly gets hate online as if she hadn't been literally manipulated by her mother through the whole fucking arc. But okay. Yes. God forbid women have any sort of trauma response and if they do they're not allowed to have a redemption arc because of course they're extremely evil for making your silly baby boy cry and they don't have a heart even though it's explicitly shown in screen that they do and they regret their past actions.

today was real bad! well the morning was bad and the rest of the day was rendered unpleasant by a bruised tailbone. pharmacies are a functional institution that deliver your mail-ordered medication within the time frame the website says. i even got to scrub blood out of my bedroom carpet. still better than the time i was in a dorm bathroom and repeatedly faceplanted directly into the sharp-textured wall though. don't have epilepsy kids

i was feeling relatively okay and able to take care of my partners but then i had to sit for 40 minutes at the pharmacy drive thru to pick up the paxlovid and now um. let me just say.

Ow .

hi. look at them please

Oh My God, why do I do this to myself? I've got 7K words of another story written but I couldn't figure out a smooth dismount before the smut (my sweet spot for writing is to write around and right up to smut without having to actually write the smut-- smut adjacent, if you will) so now it's gotta be SMUTTY and I'm struggling, y'all. I'll get it there, but like, my brain does the most impressive adhd mental gymnastics trying to avoid actually writing sex scenes, it's insane.

Ough my hands hurt

can't believe all my roommate's friends were so actively working against me when it came to who gets the big room with the balcony attached to it and in the end she actually got it....

not everything that makes you uncomfortable is a fetish. not everything that could be a fetish is one. not everything that YOU view as sexual is meant that way. not everything sexual is objectifying. the human body is not inherently sexual; stop assuming that skin is there to appeal to you. kill the puritan monk in your brain, you do not need this amount of mental cornflakes in your system.

TORNADO ALLEY . I AM ON MY HANDS AND KNEES BEGGING . PLS .

...

warmies my beloveds...

kinda hate that my go-to non-merch clothing store choices are vans and hollister like we GET it im fucking californian

All the fun hobbies require me to be in some kind of physical pain, I just wanna wave swords around in peace, man, not sit out when my heart isn’t pumping or just push through when my knee is screaming. Madness I say.

i KNOW that a big part of reparenting is giving yourself discipline and making yourself take accountability. but god, between my partner being gone all week, me needing to care for the cats and the house, AND all the VERY early morning appointments i have this week??? something had got to fucking give 🫠🫠🫠 seriously idk how i'm gonna make it to all my commitments when i'm already exhausted on like day 2 ))):

i'm gonna do my absolute best and try to not be too hard on myself, while also not letting myself just shirk responsibilities bc i don't feel like going to them shsjkdldkdjksjsks

hell is when you google whether something that is said beauty ads is true or not, and all the answers are "according to the CEO of Maybelline, skin moisturisation is important and buy our products" like shut up