dont know why i feel compelled to do so tonight specifically, but given that i have not posted a selfie in like... 2+ (perhaps more??) years?? and because i am migrating back from twitter to tumblr? i feel like i should break the hiatus with some pics i took in the Natural History Museum of Vienna (our art school class got to visit Austria!!) back in early October

this is not important

but the shirt is important

but it was important to me specifically

bc i was the only person who vissited the museum on that trip

and they only had children's shirts but i bought one anyway

because it perfectly represents my hyperfixation (dinosaurs and paleontology)

and there was so much to see that i ran out of time on the day before we flew back to Scotland so i went back the NEXT day too and spent my last hours in Vienna there to check out every open exhibit

and now this shirt is one of my most prized posessions and imscared to even wash it in case the print starts to fade because in the middle of the museum i was tearing up as a 26 year old woman because i love dinosaurs so much and they had a whole allosaurus fossil AND an animatronic version of it a diplodocus a sauropod leg bone dimetrodons and cynodonts and shit, even "UNIDENTIFIED oceanic vertibrates" and im getting emotional even thinking about it rn oh my god oh my god oh mygod

Hanging out with some friends in this last 2023 selfie to usher in 2024 🥂

Last selfie of 2023. Hope the next one treats you better, lovelies🩷

da freaking mario brothers baby

📸: @jet_visions on insta | @oplordmusic on insta

a swinging sixties inspired outfit because i swing both ways (ba dum tss)

(they/them)

@bittersweet-mermaid

Harvey teasing a coming surprise with Christian Siriano. Maybe a look for the Oscars, where Puss in Boots: The Last Wish is nominated for Best Animated Film?

todays outfit :3

fave concert partner 🤞🏻💕

@moonmoutainn @thatgirlavaa

A cryptid steps into the sunshine

Art Summary for 2023!

I spent a lot of this year working on sketching. It was something I think I got a bit lazy with because I wasn't getting the results I wanted. I have spent so much more time with it and incorporating it into my art. It really helps with values and details.

I also did way more experimental pieces. Working with colours, anatomy and backgrounds. I am really pleased with my progress this year. Especially gaining so many like minded friends that have made me want to create and push myself

2022 can be found here

6 selfies of 2023 📸✨️

Some really good stuff happened this year. I went on two absolutely wonderful holidays (to Ireland and Southern Germany) with cherished friends. Achieved my dream of seeing basking sharks in the wild. Embraced my inner Barbie. And am now a permanent employee at the job I started at last year, which is a great position to be in.

Of course life isn't all pink and dinosaurs. My Crohn's disease started acting up again, increasing my fatigue and decreasing my appetite (don't worry, I love food so I'm still getting enough calories). Which meant another MRI and maybe a change in medication (will know more next week). Also lost some more muscle mass, and experienced hair loss due to my meds, doing wonders for my self-esteem (not). At prolonged times throughout the year I found it difficult to engage in fandom and family/friendships, feeling pretty apathetic and low, unmotivated, negative, lonely, self-hating and a lot less joyful than I used to be.

Luckily my neighbourhood coach took my mental state seriously and applied me for the Social Support Act, so I can get coaching from an organisation that specialises in coaching people with autism. (A lot of my self-loathing stems from feeling different/abnormal/socially challenged, also I struggle with finding balance between alone time and socialising, especially with the added Crohn exhaustion.) I'll be starting this January, and have been trying really hard not to fall back into another downward spiral because I'm sick of feeling that low. It's a daily struggle, but better mental health is definitely worth fighting for!

(Every second counts, after all. 😉)

henlo

Day 8 in NY: The Play That Goes Wrong!!! aka our last show