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02.17.21
someone randomly commented “my 600 lb life livestream” when i was live on twitch today and like .. yeah .. but also, i want to cry ..
brb .. gonna go drink some tea and think about how much i hate myself for letting myself get to this point
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I left for a while because I tried to be okay. I tried to be healthy. But maybe my brain is too far gone to be healthy? Maybe okay was just never in the cards for me?
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08.03.19
I wish that I was strong enough to not put endless amounts of food into my mouth. I wish that I loved myself enough to exercise and not be fat anymore. But I’m so scared that if I lose the weight I’ll still be ugly. I’ll still be unloved. I’ll still be ordinary.
I’m scared to give up this crippling and hate filled security blanket.
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