In which, I write angst(?) for the first time. Also, this isn’t X reader. It’s not X anyone really.

(Oh, and Fyodor got the Mother Wishes She Had a Daughter treatment)

Tbh, this is just a test. I might delete it after a few days.

Told from Fyodor’s POV

My mother and I were never the closest. It’s not like she was a bad mom. She never neglected me. She never said or did any hurtful things either. I doubt she harbored any true love for me though. That was okay because I never held true love for her either. In a way, I favored my dad more. Always trying to follow him to work, wanting his constant attention. He, like my mom, also probably never loved me. Of course, he’d attend to my needs, take care of me, and buy me the things I wanted, but his eyes never held anything but either disgust or pure hatred. When he rid his eyes of these feelings, they were empty. He would just stare down at me with an emotionless, blank stare. It would never creep me out, though. I’d always prefer his cold stare rather than to see the true when I’d accidentally make eye contact with him. Everything he did and said was always perfectly fine with me. He never loved me, but I never loved him either. Despite my parents not loving me, and me not loving them either, they seemed to love each other a lot. My dad bought me things, but he bought my mother more. When my dad looked at me, it’d be with hatred and disenchantment, but when he looked at my mother, it’d be with love and a sort of sympathy. I always wondered why he’d give her such looks, until I figured it out at last. He looked at her with sympathy because he felt bad she had to deal with me. Normally, I’d just question why he felt that way, but I already knew the answer to that. It’s simply because I didn’t meet their standards. Like all parents want, I got good grades, I’m not a very bad kid, and I have an acceptable social life. Those things were all easy for me, but I was missing one thing. That one thing ruined everything. I was always dressed as the one thing they wanted, a girl. That never seemed to be enough for them, though. Sure, my mother dressed me up in feminine clothing, but deep down both of my parents knew I would always be the opposite of what they wanted. I don’t get how someone could get so upset over a small thing such as your child not being born the gender you want them to, but I was always taught that things might be small to me, but big to someone else, so I just went with whatever they put me in. It’s not that being dressed like a girl was a completely bad thing, but it made me feel weird because of the reasoning. I never said anything to them, though. It would just cause our family more woe, so I stayed silent. I never grew into it as some people might assume. In fact, I just felt worse every year. My sadness quickly turned into anger, but I still said nothing. As I grew older, I learned to act as my parents wanted me to, but it didn’t help at all. Nothing changed. My mother continued to stay silent, and my dad kept giving me the cold looks.

This is terrible and not proofread. Plz enjoy. Plz.

Mwah!

It’s a new week! To be honest, I might start doing this only on Wednesdays or Thursdays. When ever I do it on Monday I start to get impatient (*´꒳`*)! Also, update on the child situation. Of course, the upcoming disaster hasn’t even been born yet, but I still have to do everything for it (*´-`)! It’s always “Help me pay for such and such for the baby!” Or “Go paint the baby’s room a nice shade of pink!” It’s getting annoying, so I might just start living with my dad instead (*´∀`)!

no matter when you send me kiss i will always take it all the time forever <3

ALSO NOT YOU BEING EXPECTED TO PAY FOR THE BABY??? IT'S NOT EVEN YOUR BABY???????????? bruh T-T imo the responsibility of babies should be on the parents and they shouldn't force any of it onto their other unwilling kids because THEY DIDN'T SIGN UP TO RAISE A BABY. argh idk as someone who basically lost her teen years to be a second mother this shit grinds my gears a LOT. no hate to the baby tho like i bet the baby is probably pretty chill

i wouldn't blame you if you did go to live with your dad because like, im assuming he's not doing this?? lol but yeah man i hope whatever happens you're able to live in a household where you receive attention and love as you deserve!!

Vintage love letter with boyfriend Kunikida(and if you can, Ranpo too but separately)❤️ how he would treat reader or take reader out on dates n stuff

fem!reader or Gn!reader please and thank you<3

Yay! Someone actually requested a letter instead of just asking for what they want without it!

I hope you enjoy! Sadly, I couldn’t think of too much for Ranpo so I couldn’t add him :(

Vintage Love Letter!

To even get into a relationship with Kunikida would be hard as is

But once it actually happens, he’s a pretty good lover ^ ^

I don’t think he’d be as strict as people say he would be, y’know?

He might loosen up a little

Key word: Little

We all know Kunikida plans his entire day down to the minute

He he would probably try to plan yours, too

That includes what time you wake up, how much you might eat, what you’ll eat(including hourly snack breaks), and what time you might fall back asleep

Planning your daily schedule also means making time for you in his!

He makes sure to add in a few hours for dates or maybe even just to hang out!

I don’t think he’d really take his significant other anywhere too fancy, but it’d still be a nice place!

To be honest, I can kinda see Kunikida taking his significant other stargazing

On the topic of how he’d treat them, of course, he’d he great

Y’know, he’d do the basic things like taking care of you when you’re sick, cleaning the house(assuming you live together), things like that!

I feel like he’d make you coffee every morning(Unless you don’t drink it)

Off topic, but you guys probably own a cat or two

Sorry it took me an entire day to respond just for this. I honestly wish I could have made it longer, but for some reason I just couldn’t think of anything.

-Plenty of thx from Kxtty-s!

Yosano is a lesbian. Fight me

Hiya, Dia! Weekly mwah ( ＾∀＾)!

Mwah!

I’m feeling better today but my mom is having another kid, so there goes that fraction of attention (=^▽^)σ! I guess it’s not too bad, though. Considering by the time he’s my age, I won’t have to deal with any of this anymore (*^^*)!

WEEKLY KISS YAYYYYYYYYY 🌸🌸🌸🌸🌸

Also forreal?? T-T i feel your pain Q. I got two younger siblings and they are so pampered fr, but at least you’re almost an adult and can like move out and shi? Also hopefully she doesnt put too much of the child rearing burden on you. I’ve been in the position of second mother since I was five years old and I’ve honestly had enough of that shit (love my younger sibs to death tho)

Dw i am gonna give you all the attention so much attention I am gonna send you memes and also may I send you random short writing things that would be fun and also yeah uh 💖💖💖💖 have a meme now

AHHH IK I ALR REQUESTED BUT I FORGOT UR WEEKLY MWAH (°▽°)!

Mwah!

Yup, that’s it! Also, i’m starting to realize that whenever I request smth or i’m just dropping by, I leave some random information about myself (*´-`)!

YOU DIDDDDD and im working on it <333

thank u for the weekly kiss

Mwah.

(P.S. Yes. That’s it

P.P.S. Expect this like every week

P.P.P.S. Will I miss a week? Probably not

P.P.P.P.S. That’s it. I just wanted to make it longer bc why not!)

dude when you sent me this i realised i hadn't followed you yet???? uhm thats my bad??? lemme just fix that rq

also! *mwah* <3

P.S. i would love a lil smooch every week that would be great 🌸

P.P.S. also literally same. sometimes you just have like extra thoughts and shit yknow? (there's a reason i use parentheses so often lol, like right now)

P.P.P.S. i won't lie, i initially read it as pspspspsps as if i were a cat you were trying to summon lmaooo (man that just reminds me one of my first crushes used to call me kitten and lowkey i miss that nickname fr 😔)

P.P.P.P.S. this got out of hand fast. i'm gonna stop now. love u <3

Awww, thanks for the compliment, Dia! But actually, it’s pretty hard for me to make new friends because of how different my online persona is from me in real life. It seems like i’d be more of a really extroverted person, but it’s not like that. I’m actually pretty introverted. I just act like this for the online attention i’m not getting IRL :/

Man I feel that so much. it's just a lot easier to be open and friendly online than it is in real life. i'm introverted as well and it's hard for me to talk to people even if i know them sometimes. writing is the only thing i really think i'm semi-decent at and the only people who've ever really appreciated it are the people i've interacted with over the last four months i've been on tumblr. it really is a nice place to be/ also i will give you all the attention you want bby ✨✨✨✨ i really do get it fam. but im here for you!! and you can talk to me about anything anytime <3

EEEEEK I MADE A NEW FRIEND TODAY, DIA!(very, very rare occurrence) TBH I JUST GET FRIENDS BY BEING EXTREMELY DESPERATE SOOOOOO……

OMG IM SO HAPPY FOR YOU!!!!! I LOVE MAKING NEW FRIENDS AS WELL IT'S LIKE SO FUN SKSKJFHEJSFHF

also how tf is it a rare occurrence for you to make friends. you're YOU. i don't get it??????

Weekly Mwah!

—(Soooo off topic but my name is Q. Yes, the letter.)

weekly kiss from Q is to me what wungo wednesday was to the bsd fandom <3333

Hi Hiiiii! This is the person who requested the compulsive liar S/O! I just wanted to thank you! Maybe bc this is the first time I’ve requested something and someone actually responded, but still ( ´ ▽ ` )!

awhh of course! i do try my best to respond to reqs even if it takes a while- i hope you enjoyed it 💜 when my reqs are open again feel free to send another!

Ya’ll are liking, which I’m thankful for, but no one is requesting :( plz, plz request! Even if it’s just to talk to me! Please look at my rules and introduction first, though! Plenty of thx from Kxtty-s!

Yuuup, I give up looking, imma just change my username to my TikTok user

Older user: Kxtyy-s

New: qupiikaaa

I’m still gonna use the old Kxtty-s tags tho :)