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tfw you’re just trying to look up some current affairs and end up on a late night wikidive instead

(Long ghostkicks ramble incoming)

I think in the beginning of season 1 william saw Dakota as this breakable person, someone who would always be there and was a true hero. He’s always admired Dakota from the start. And some of this hasn’t changed; william still thinks Dakotas the strongest of them all and is the greatest hero. However I think a major shifting point for Williams view on Dakota was episode 13 of season 1 where Dakota nearly died because of the sword through the torso. William audibly is choked up during this scene and is the most obviously worried one out of all of them (s1 ep19 parallels). I think it’s at this point that William sees Dakota as more “human”. Although he’s still one of the toughest and strongest people he knows, Dakota still has weaknesses and can die just like the rest of them. And even more so than that was the new growing fear of losing Dakota. After the timeskip William makes it clear how much he fears losing Dakota again. To quote William from s2 ep1, “The only reason I ever even thought about getting stronger, or whatever that means, was because I met [Dakota]”. “…’cause I don’t wanna lose you for, well, I mean, ever again. We’re what we’ve got.” It all makes me wonder how William coped after Dakota disappeared for ten months with only a note left behind. And it makes me wonder what Williams full thoughts were when he said that him and Dakota eventually falling out “bound to happen”. How much has he thought about it? Was he just uselessly clinging to the friendship they still had with the impending doom caused by their differing morals hanging above them? How the fuck is episode 34 going to go??? More “Feelys” to quote the editor???? Would Dakota pick his best friend over his morals????? What if I literally ate drywall

Honestly I want bitter fighting. I want Dakota to be so frustrated and confused and angry and disappointed and I hope their fight draws blood (metaphorically or physically) and I hope I throw up and die and voluntarily become the joker. I also hope Dakota looks in Williams eye and can’t see how the person who fought so hard for Dakota to live and stay by his side is the same one who would lie and kill someone. Or maybe Dakota does look at William and can’t help but still see the awkward teenager who would hide behind his back like a shield, then the person who grew into wanting to protect him in return, the person who has put his moral faith into him and only him, the person who fucking sucks ass at driving, the person who would do anything for him, the person he trusts so so much, William Wisp.

Really all roads lead to tragedy. Maybe william knew this, and maybe that’s what he meant by it being “bound to happen”. Dakota chooses to leave William and/or turn him into the authorities? Classic tragedy. They’d be leaving behind everything that they made each other, which not only includes the heart transfer, but the way they grew because they inspired one another. William and Dakota have this reoccurring thing where they say they’re proud of each other, originating all the way back from s1. and although it’s kinda silly, even Dave and sweet summer child William from the rolleds are constantly saying how they wish to be like the other one day. It might not mean anything about og ghostkicks, but I believe since it’s still alternations of themselves that it’s worth mentioning. Dakota and William are practically parts of each other. they’re almost the definition of “paired package do not separate” with how they always end up together no matter what universe or alteration of themselves there are. (See ssc William and Dave, William Wight and Kota Kill [they have a whole thing going on it’s not healthy but I support it])

Now if Dakota chooses to stay with William? Still a tragedy in that Dakota would be sacrificing his morals and the standards that he holds himself to. And William would have to live with what he became, forcing his own friend to temporarily give up a part of his ideals from what he did, compromising far more for him than what either of them usually do. Because In Dakota’s hero way of seeing things, William should be locked up or at least put onto trial. He literally killed someone (even if it was accidental), unknowingly attempted murder on three more people, assisted in unauthorized and unconsensual surgery, and mentally tormented someone (David and X) twice. Now I’m no expert in law, but I know all of this breaks a LOT of them. As of right now, Dakota doesn’t know all of what William has done. but I doubt William would be able or willing to lie to him more in ep 34. I’m just really excited for July 1st

I had more in my head but I forgor 💀 anyways very big thanks if you got to the end of this ramble it’s probably a unintelligible and messy. please forgive me I am not a writer but I had to get these thoughts out. Thanks for coming to my Ted talk goodnight 💤

Am I aroace or have I just been awake too long?

i really need to start posting more whoopsies

2000s Alternative, my beloved

my tumblr experience has now returned to the 2012 experience of scrolling down my dash in the morning until i reach the previous night's posts and it's wonderful

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no but rly the entire feeling of "rather than having the strength to do it alone, i want to have the weakness to rely on someone" is gonna consume me

lol I am alive & maintaining 175

Pretty sure one of the baristas at my local starbucks has a crush on me and i get excited and happy about it but then i remember im gay and if she does in fact like me it would not work out 😭

we were too late to apply to a really good apartment we wanted and someone else got it and now i'm OTL

I have shit(canvases) in my art program(ibispaintx) that I apperantly worked on for more than 14 hours and didnt even actually finish in the end. They are all old canvases from when I first started making digital art. None of my new projects take that long and get abondened nowadays. Because now, I kinda know what I am doing and learned how to use digital art tools more effectively and productively. So they take less time and come out better looking.

But I cant help but admire amateur me for powering through and working diligently for that long without even getting an actual end product that looked good. In fact, they looked pretty bad. And still... right now, working on a single project for 14 hours seems so hard to me but apperantly I did it without even noticing not even a year ago. Weird shit. I kinda wanna be like that again.

Being a beginner sure was a magical thing...

I am going to do something about those abondened projects old me worked so hard on. I think they deserve it.

(But I am not going to get rid of the unfinished versions. I dont wanna forget those)

mfw my self rbs stopped showing up in my notification things

ppl on ""leftbook"" criticizing the cpusa calling them all cia plants or 'pussies' <(real word i saw being used) like. ok. but ummmm what r u doing exactly for ur community???

Being at my parents house has reminded me that I really kinda like their lil roaming vacuum

It really sucks there's a lot of shady things related to them