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watching asy ep 5 (first eval part 2)!!
程潇多骂爱看 (cheng xiao, scold more, we love to see it) was trending on weibo a couple hours ago so i'm excited :-)
ollie is so cute (i just watched the first ep of boys planet... he is so cute) + LEADER!
a group w/o an overly flowery intro? nice
lin zhanshuo having a Vocal Moment i appreciate it! i think he fits the song super well
everyone in switch together is like. so individually talented honestly. ollie picked a Great team
sudden concept change??? this is reminding me of the k group vs g group style thing from bp999...
wait switch on is also good omg
yin junlan & chen xinhao dancing tgt 🫢
ok i had a slight thing against fang yuheng for a hot minute bc of the voting thing but. but he's cute. he & kim dongbin are a good pair!!
enone 🥹 leader & maknae hug 🥹
"the winning group is... we'll let him say it" RAIN. RAIN STOP. and it was all in korean too LMAO
oh my god zhang shengxi gave the 胜 (sheng) (means to win) in his nametag to lin zhanshuo LIKE...
JIANG XINXI!!!!!!!
their backdrop & lighting is so good? the intro part was awesome
everyone is just going "oh jiang xinxi helped me a lot" that's my man fr
lqz: "shu hao! where's the sheep?" // sh: "it (the other group) just left" HELLO this is war
LQZ. J A C K E T
炸了 they have sm charisma
"你期待吧" "you'd better anticipate us" this last grp is inspirational story material
my top 3 are still there yuehua sweep 🙏 but some of the other good trainees are so low (the live voting was also weird but live voting is usually weird ig) anyway aihe debut pls 🙏🙏🙏
ok so it turned out cheng xiao scolding was in the vip version which i do not have so i'm going to catch up on the clips tomorrow
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Ur gonna get a sans au meme every post so your welcome for that :3
I love whoever made this bc its so real^^
Anyway, first (second?) post is gonna be just basic silly headcanons.
Gender, sexuality, pronouns and age
KAY LETS GO
NIGHT!!!!!!!
Gender: Apagender
Pronouns: He/him, will let you misgender him and genuinely does not give a shit
Sexuality: Gay, Demiromantic, greyace, Polyamorous
Age: 16
DREAM!!!!!!!
Gender: Non-binary
Pronouns: Doesn’t mind :)
Sexuality: Greyace, Omnisexual/romantic, Polyamorous
Age: 16 (she and night are twins ofc)
INK!!!!!!!
Gender: Demiandrogyne
Pronouns: Any, but prefers they/them
Sexuality: Gay, GreyAroace, Polyamorous
Age: 15
ERROR!!!!!!!
Gender: Trans ftm
Pronouns: They/he
Sexuality: Pansexual, Demiace, Polyamorous
Age: 15 (they’re all gonna be 15/16 apart from Fresh and Asy but anyway)
CROSS!!!!!!!
Gender: Genderfaun (afab)
Pronouns: He/it/they/xe
Sexuality: Gay, Polyamorous
Age: 16
KILLER!!!!!!!
Gender: Genderqueer
Pronouns: They/it/xe
Sexuality: Omnisexual, Polyamorous
Age: 15
LUST!!!!!!!
I would rather give him a different name but I don’t like any of them 💔
I might name him Hearts instead
Gender: Trans ftm, genderqueer
Pronouns: Mirror pronouns
Sexuality: Bisexual, Panromantic, Polyamorous
Age: 16
HORROR!!!!!!!
Or Rory because I love calling him that
Gender: Genderfaun (amab)
Pronouns: he/xe/it
Sexuality: GreyAce, Bisexual
Age: 15
DUST!!!!!!!
Gender: Non-binary
Pronouns: he/they/xe
Sexuality: demiromantic, ace, Panromantic
Age: 15
BLUE!!!!!!!
Gender: Pangender
Pronouns: He/him
Sexuality: Bisexual, Polyamorous
Age: 16
GENO!!!!!!!
Gender: Agender
Pronouns: he/ze, doesn’t mind if you use others
Sexuality: Pansexual
Age: 16
REAPER!!!!!!!
Gender: Trans ftm, demidude
Pronouns: they/he
Sexuality: Bisexual
Age: 16
RED!!!!!!!
Gender: Trans ftm
Pronouns: He/they/xe
Sexuality: Bisexual, Ace
Age: 15
SCI!!!!!!!
Science ofc but that sounds silly for a name (Most of the others have weird names too but still)
Gender: Demidude
Pronouns: He/it
Sexuality: Gay, ace
Age: 15
FRESH!!!!!!!
Gender: Non-binary
Pronouns: They/it
Sexuality: Aroace
Age: 12 (Cute lil baby sibling to Geno and Error)
ASY!!!!!!!
Asylum, the sweet lil baby that likes hanging out with Hearts, Red, and Reaper
Gender: Unlabelled (Hearts said they could be who they want and they said “Nothing!!!”
Pronouns: They/it/he/she
Sexuality: Also Unlabelled, they aren’t too sure off what they are yet but they’ll get there :)
Age: 9
OKAY!
Thats all the sillies covered
Im probably gonna be active AS SHIT on here so good for u ig
Im watching Nimona rn and I love this film sm
#sans aus#headcanon#Sans au headcanons#nightmare sans#dream sans#ink sans#error sans#cross sans#killer sans#lust sans#horror sans#dust sans#swap sans#geno sans#reaper sans#fell sans#science sans#fresh sans#Asylum sans#queer stuff#queer characters#trans characters#highschool au
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Why do you love the Phantom? He’s mad he’s deformed and he’s a murderer!
A very good question, Nonny. I apologize in advance for my novel of an answer, but you did ask so…bear with me 😁
I first fell in love with the “Phantom of the Opera” musical when I was 15. Ever since then, I’ve read the original novel by Gaston Leroux, the novel “Phantom” by Susan Kay, I have watched pretty much every movie version of POTO, and I have done a significant amount of research to learn more about this intriguing character.
The phantom cannot help his deformity, it is not his fault; he was born that way and as a result of his deformity, he dealt with severe abuse, neglect, and hatred from the world as he grew up. I can’t imagine such a heartbreaking way to grow up where literally no one will give you love, not even your own family, simply because your appearance is “flawed.”
People were a lot more shallow, superstitious, and judgmental in the 1800s compared to nowadays as well. The more beautiful and wealthy you were? The more value you had. But if you were poor and/or ugly? You were a blemish upon humanity.
As bad as the phantom’s deformity is, that’s how talented he is as a musician (he’s also an architect, designer, a magician of sorts, composer, etc. He’s pretty much a genius). I think his various talents were given to him as a means to help him deal with and express his pain, among other things. I am a professional singer/musician, so I understand how therapeutic it is to have an outlet like that in your life; music can literally handle you in ANY mood and in ANY season of your life. It doesn’t judge you, it just takes you as you are.
I do not condone the phantom’s choice to murder at all; however, I can understand why it must be easier for him. I know his actions stem from growing up without love, not having healthy structure or discipline in his life, never being personally taught right from wrong (he probably had to observe those he was around and learn from just watching them), being hated by his own family and chased away by them, being displayed as a “monster” in a freak show at a gypsy camp as a means of entertainment, enduring physical and verbal abuse, constantly wandering and trying to find a place to call home, being constantly rejected and neglected, never having his art as appreciated as he desired it to be, etc.
I imagine it would be hard for one to make good, moral decisions when all they’ve been surrounded with in their life is pain, suffering, and pure loathing from others. “Hurting people hurt people.” Does it excuse their actions? No. But it does help us understand better why they do what they do.
To be honest, my heart hurts for the phantom (and anyone in the phantom’s shoes). I have always been a compassionate and nurturing type of person, and I HATE seeing hurting people who haven’t been fortunate to experience the kind of love and compassion that everyone should experience. I have known friends and have worked with children who grew up in broken homes, and it’s a very eye opening albeit heart wrenching thing to witness.
The phantom’s story is a very sad one; I always look for redemption and forgiveness in the stories I read and the movies I watch, because the idea of there being no more mercy or hope for a person? It genuinely scares me, makes me feel sick, and depresses me. I would never want to be that person who is on the receiving end of the words, “It’s too late…”
The phantom is understandably a conflicting character to like/love. His type of character tends to be more alluring than the protagonists. The phantom is made of hurt and pain, he is flawed, he is unique, he is mysterious, he is capable of making good choices, yes. But he’s been so used to being hurt and hated his whole life, that it is more natural for him to hurt and hate others as well.
It makes sense that he became so infatuated with Christine, not just as a singer, but as a person because she showed him more kindness than anyone else did aside from maybe one or two other people (I.E Madam Giry, the Daroga).
I love the phantom because I think he is a unique and complex character; I love him as a musician; his passion for music and the art he creates as a result of his pain is inspiring to me, as well as heartbreaking. I love how desperately he tries to find love and acceptance, because I would too if I were in his shoes. The only true acceptance he has, is his music.
Again, I do not condone the phantom’s actions as a murderer. But at the same time, I can understand why he does what he does. If I were involved in his life? I’d do my best to be a source of moonlight piercing through his suffocating darkness. I’d try to help him however I could and be a source of hope for him. Even if he never changed for the better, I’d still try to help him.
I would certainly want someone to reach out and help me and show me compassion if I had a dark life like the phantom had. I’d rather be too merciful than too eager to deal out punishment.
Thanks for the ask, nonny. Your question was a good and challenging one to process 🎶❤️
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what do you, as a group, need the most? Do you need more mods, a better FAQ, etc. What do you need? What would help you?
Lee says:
A ton of the questions we get are things that can be found by searching for a few key words on the blog, or even are actually directly linked to and answered in our existing resource pages.
A ton of the questions we get are things that can be found by searching for a few key words on the blog, or even are actually directly linked to and answered in our existing resource pages which are pretty full of information on a bunch of different topics.
We’ve been answering questions for over 8 years, and there are obviously some original questions particular to someone’s personal situation, but as an example, most questions about binding have probably been asked and answered dozens of times before.
So folks taking a few minutes to look around on the blog before asking something is something that can help us and also you- if you find the answer after a few mins of looking on the blog, you don’t need to wait for us to get to your question!
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We always could do with some more mods, but the issue with adding new mods means it can take a lot of time on our part to search for mods, choose applicants, train them, and then watch over their answers while they’re still new so we aren’t always able to add new mods, even if we wanted to.
But that’s not saying we’ve never added mods:
Phoenix
Kai/Sofriel
Autumn
Jared
Fox
Lukas
Jay
Ren/Josh
Chrissi
Emery
Kay
Mason
Kitty/Ellie
Max/Liana
Haruka
Lee (That’s me!)
Carl
Roxie
Tayler
Emery (a different one than the first one)
Daniel
Charlie
Devon
Chris
Eden
Kii
Ryn
Ora
Ari
Asis
Kevin/Kai (a different one than the first one)
Callie
Josh (a different one than the first one)
Archer
Autumn (a different one than the first one)
Harper
Jay (a different one than the first one)
Toddy/Delaine
Pat
Saffron
Charlotte
And that list doesn’t show every mod we’ve ever had because not all mods made a tagged intro post, but you can see there’s been a good number of mods on this blog over the years.
We’ve often had a big issue with mod burnout- we’ll get like 100 applicants if we open mod apps, then we have to sift through to choose ones who have good advice, who agree with us on the important issues, and who also fill in gaps in the diversity or experience of the current mods. Then we end up with maybe 6 new mods (we can’t add 20 people or it’s unmanagable!) who we train but they often end up being inactive pretty quickly.
It’s kind of like being a therapist when you don’t have any training- you’re being constantly sent a bunch of problems from people talking about being in abusive homes to having unsupportive friends and to having debilitating dysphoria and just being exposed to it all can take a toll on your own mental health. And of course we’re unpaid and receive no compensation for being mods, and posting on Tumblr isn’t exactly the kind of thing you can put on a job resume either.
Being a multiply marginalized person means you’re more likely to have other stuff going on in your life that prevents you from being able to dedicate hours to the blog, and people also don’t realize how much work it is. There are a lot of triggers and content things you have to remember to tag for, certain ways you should format posts, things you can’t give advice on, and so on. So I think people feel maybe stressed out when they keep getting corrected about their posts by the other mods.
And then of course also personality conflicts come up- it can be tough working in a large team, especially when a lot of us (including myself) are both Autistic, which means interpersonal communication isn’t our strong point so things end up coming out bluntly which upsets folks- and of course, a lot of us are also mentally ill, so that can also make it hard for people to take a step back and bounce back.
People also just move on in their lives, and don’t use Tumblr anymore or don’t have time to dedicate to the blog, which happens over the years.
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So yeah, we will add more mods again at some point, but until then please help us out by reading through our resources and searching on the blog before sending an ask!
#Lee says#mods#Anonymous#transgenderteensurvivalguide#trans#transgender#TTSG#nonbinary#lgbtq#lgbt#transgender teen survival guide
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Core
“I’m not a coward.” Killer hissed. Shatter opened a portal
ZM
"Than come on chicken!" She hops through the portal and lands right in front of shade.
Core
Shade jumped. “The hell?!” He hissed at Chara. “Chill out.” Error said with a sigh.
ZM
"Hello to you too shade" she rolls her eyes. "Error! Hello, I didn't get to talk last time. What have you been up to?" She goes over to shine and looks at her pet
Core
Skink has grown quite a bit, he was the same size as Shine “Well, Ink has been complaining on how her game has become dull and needs some ‘spicing up’” Error shrugged. “ Whatever that means.”
ZM
"nothing good I'm sure" she looks around. "Where is she?"
Core
“She left a bit ago, said she’ll be back soon.” Error replied. (2 turns)
ZM
"uh huh," she gets a chill thinking something is going to happen. She looks to shatter.
Core
Shatter seemed to have the same feeling as she looked around.
ZM
sense she's right by shine all she does kinda go closer to her in a protective mannor
Core
The ground spiked up, hitting Shatter directly in her soulstone.
ZM
chara sees shatters soul stone break. "INK ALL OF YOUR STUPID IDEAS MEAN NOTHING AS LONG AS CAN RELOAD. SO THE JOKES ON YOU" she looks around for her
Core
Ink was on top of the roof. “Not if I overload your save file to now.” She said with a smirk as shatter turned to dust.
ZM
"Good luck trying you piece of sh**! Oh god I hate you! Void cult yeah right" chara climbs up to face her.
Ink paused for a moment. “Where did you learn that...”
ZM
"I thought you knew EVERYTHING." She sneers her eyes glowing
Core
“Not when I’ve been stuck here.”
ZM
"whatever I don't care about your excuses. I'm going to make you hurt, you're going to tell me about this cult. And then I'm bringing shatter back. " chara surrounded ink with red knives
Core
“I can bring her back, but not unless I get something in return.” Ink replied
ZM
"Like you need anything" the knives are right by her skin grazing her
Ink’s blood was black and reformed instantly into new skin. “Enterainment.”
ZM
"Maybe you should stop being a perv and mind your own business for once in your life" she makes the knifes cut back at her, they form jags more like a saw
She saws through inks arm only for it to slowly reform. "Error wanna help me out?"
Core
“Kid, I’ve tried, she doesn’t feel pain unless she gets burns.” Error said.
ZM
"Like, actual burns or chemical burns?"
Core
Ink signaled for Error to be quiet
ZM
"You can speak errz, she doesn't own you."
ZM
( did killer follow or is she still back at the other place)
Core
(She stayed back.) “Yeah but she can certainly kick my ass.” Error responded, remembering last time She got in the way of one of Ink’s games
(I am just now realizing how much Ink is like the other mother from coralline)
ZM
(Yeah that sounds about right) 'I'm surrounded by cowards.' She looks upset. 'Its around this time I wish I was bigger and or could teleport' she tries to tackle ink off the roof anyway with the use of orange magic
Below is a shallow lake so that would answer her question of water Resistance
Core
Ink turned to liquid, dodging.
ZM
chara checks ink
Core
(Endurance 10/10 Speed 9/10 Physical attack 1/10 Special attack 9.5/10 Physical Defense 7/10 Special Defense 9.5/ 10)
ZM
chara puts up a ring of fire around ink
Core
Ink looked at this. “Really?”
ZM
All I can picture is chara saying "go ride a rollercoaster" all angry like in that balloon shop video
ZM
"Just because you're op as fu** doesn't mean you have to make fun of me!" She waves her arms
Core
Ink looked at Chara before her eyes flared and the flames went out.
ZM
"You know, I say 'I hate you' a lot but for you I really mean it." She shoots forward and slashes into her ink that just moves out of the way. "Help me error damn it!"
Core
“Again, I know better than to do that.” Error said. “Yeah? But I don’t!” Shade hissed climbing up.
ZM
chara's pretty shocked that shade wants to help. "Well, ah gee. Thanks kid,"
Core
Ink turned to Shade, a slight glare on her face.
ZM
Chara wonders if she were to fuse with shade and then go back in time if she could revert it.
Core
Shade shot towards Ink, who turned to liquid to dodge.
ZM
chara goes in from the other side trying to leave her no where to go.
Ink went in between Chara’s legs and reformed behind her.
ZM
Chara sighs. And turns to her. "Why did you do it. She's my friend, how is this fun to you!" she looks like she actually might cry.
Core
“Because, it’s illogical.”
ZM
"fun has NOTHING to do with logic. What world are you living in? Why hasn't the protesters of these world's come to destroy you? I've never been justice oriented but you don't deserve to live." She's been attacking her the whole time getting no where
Core
Ink grabbed Chara’s throat. “You can’t kill something that wasn’t truly alive to begin with.”
ZM
Chara struggles kicking and clawing at in not being able to breathe.
Core
Ink then dropped her, not going to kill Chara yet
ZM
Chara catches her breath rubbing her throat. She looks over to shade tiredly
Core
Shade was slipping off the roof.
ZM
she growls and looks up at ink. "What do you want."
Core
“I already told you, entertainment, you play my game, I bring your friend back.”
ZM
she rolls her eyes and sits down loosing her balance "What does that entail?" She mummbles
Core
“You can continue your little journey, but...” she thought for a moment. “You are to kill all fusions.”
ZM
"That's stupid."
Core
“Think of it as a challenge, 18 fusions, for the eighteen pieces.”
ZM
She growls "That's nothing but a waste of life. Especially sense the fusions I've met aren't even hostile." She pulls up her save file "I'm not playing your game." She thinks of a few minutes ago and starts to try to jump back.
Core
Ink smiled. “I must say, I am impressed.”
ZM
She gives her a side glance as if telling her to go on
Core
“I’ll bring her back. In due time of course, but you do have my word on that.” Ink said.
ZM
"I take your promises as well as I take asy's as to say not at all. But I do want to know what you're impressed by? I'm groveling at your damn feet"
Core
“That you refused my offer, most versions of yourself jump at the idea of a mass genocide.” Ink said.
ZM
"Ah I see, I take pleasure in making those hurt who deserve it. I'm no sociopath. Like you." She puts a hand over the reset button. "See ya on the other side freak." She salutes and pushes it.
Core
She was when they came out of the portal. “I’m not a coward.” Killer hissed.
ZM
"So you say killz, so you say." She grabs shatter's hoodie stopping her from going in the portal
Core
Shatter flinched. “Woah what’s wrong?” “So now you know why I’m not going?” Killer said in a snarky tone
ZM
"You could say that. Okay let's make this simple." She pulls shatter all the way back. "Im going to say a quick bye to the kits, and you open the portal back up after I'm done alright? Just stay here. "
Core
“Ok, will do.” Shatter said, still confused. Ink watched from the roof. “You know, resets are such a pain, ruin so much planning.”
ZM
Chara's through the portal and it shut, she glares up at ink for a moment before saying "Don't talk to me." Putting up a hand and going over to shade
Core
“About time you came back!” He said.
ZM
"Yeeeeeah about that..." she rubs the back of her head trying to think how to say it. "The thing is we're planing on keeping you two with... well with error." She looks to error " you can baby sit right?" She says with pleading eyes
Core
“I have been... I’m not there mother, don’t wanna be either.” Error replies not looking up. “Come on Error. I think it will do you some good.” Ink added. “No way Ink, kits are grabby, and thanks to you, I can’t handle that.” Error hissed softly
ZM
"I-... I don't even want to know what you mean by that." She shakes her head. "But thank you error, you're a life saver. I'll find. Someone else I guess."
Core
“Yeah, whatever.” (Yeah, ink hurt Error the last time she intervened in one of her games, so much so that Error has ptsd from it.)
ZM
he calls to shine. "Hey kid get over here!" Back to error. "You should get away from ink. She's nothing but a head ache and you know it"
Core
Shine ran on over. “Easy for you to say, you don’t have to clean up after her.” Error said
ZM
"Maybe if you stop giving her attention she'll take a hint that EVERYONE HATES HER" she turns to ink at the last word. She gives shine a hug when she makes it over.
Core
Shine actually started purring softly when she got hugged, extremely happy to have affection. “So? What if they do? Won’t change much.” Ink said
ZM
"Being liked is more enjoyable than anything in the multiverse. Of course you'll never know that." She pats shines head and walks over to where the portal was. "Shatter I'm ready!" She has no clue how shatter's powers work so she just yells and hopes she heard.
Core
Shatter opened the portal. Error looked to Ink, thinking.
ZM
"Bye error, think about it, kay?" She smiles and gets the kits through the portal and follows.
Core
Shine was still nervous about Killer. Shade happily greeted Tonic.
ZM
Tonic looked ecstatic to see them. Chara claps once and says. "So! The whole void cult, ink knows about it. Also ink killed shatter. I feel that keeping the kits with us is kinda awash now. No one's going to be safer or in more trouble if they stay." She shrugs. "Or we could drop them off with nightmare."
Core
“Night would eat them within a week, on purpose or not.” Killer said.
ZM
"Oh yeah I forgot her weird eating problem..." she clicks her tounge. "Well kids what's your opinions?"
Core
“Can we stay with you?” Shine asked “What about that laughing lady?”
ZM
"What the hell is laughing lady?"
Core
(LJ) “No she was creepy!” Shine whined, hiding behind Chara.
ZM
"Oh LJ? Yeah that's not a bad idea"
Core
“Thank you.” Shade said. Shine whined softly
ZM
"Have a better idea kiddo?" She looked behind her to shine. "You don't want to stay with us we're not nice."
Core
“Yes I do...” shine mumbled
ZM
"What is it?"
Core
“I wanna stay with you guys!” Shine spoke up
ZM
"Yeah I heard you the first time. But we're going to be running around killing big groups of cults. I kinda don't want you there for that. Nor would skink."
Core
“Take me with you please!” Shine whined
ZM
"Pfff, why?"
Core
“B-because....I dunno!” Shine whined louder, clearly annoying Killer.
ZM
Chara noticed and lead shine a couple paces away from the group "Listen shine, you deserve to grow up having fun. You don't want to see me and killer mess up the universe and practically brainwash others."
Core
“But-But you are fun!” Shine said
ZM
"HA fun? yeah no kiddo, you'll have a lot more fun without us. plus you have skink! you'll be fine"
Core
“B-But...” shine stuttered.
ZM
chara looks at shine quietly and then sighs. "we'll come see you later. alright?"
Core
“Promise?” Shine asked.
ZM
"ehh. sure. as long as i'm not dead by than or something." she shrugs
Core
Shine then hugged Chara. “Okay, as long as you come back.”
(yeah i'm not great either. i'm going to put a couple pics here and i can only do it one at a time so sorry! if you have other ideas for some moves for frisk do tell)
ZM
chara hugs back. "heh, that's funny i thought you guys didn't like me very much
Core
“Shade doesn’t.” Shine said.
ZM
"do you know why?" she lets go and starts to head back over to the group.
Core
“Something about ‘irresponsible jerk’?”
ZM
"the irresponsible jerk being me? i don't get it." she cocks her head."
(for color changes you could have kris and chara and the vessel you make at the beginning of deltarune DANG it would be so cool)
Core
“Me neither.” Shine said. “I said put me down!” Shade hissed at Killer who was holding him up by his foot.
ZM
"i leave you for one second killer" she sighs jokingly. "put him down."
Core
“Not until he apologizes.” Killer hissed. “Never!” Shade hissed back
ZM
"what he do?"
Core
“Called me a ‘blind psycho bitch’.” Killer hissed.
ZM
chara shrugs "i thought you had thicker skin than that killz"
Core
“Oh can it.” Killer hissed. Lifting Shade higher off the ground.
ZM
"let's get the kits out of here before killer does something dumb." she tells shatter.
Core
Shatter’s eyes glowed purple as she freed Shade from Killer’s grip
ZM
"know what hold up, i wanna take them to that island and test out something if that's good with you guys." she stretches and starts picking various plants and putting them in her pockets.
Core
“What island? The one where we fought?” Shatter asked.”
ZM
"nah, the one with the waterfall we were just at"
Core
“Got ya.” Shatter said, opening a portal.
ZM
they go through and chara instantly turns to tonic. "okay!" she sits on the floor infront of them. tonic blinks confused. chara pulls out all of the plants and lays them out. "that thing we read about you said you were a support thing so i wanna see what you can do with dumb materials like these." "okay?" tonic says
Core
Shatter watched, actually interested in the experiment.
ZM
chara gives tonic a stalk of grass seed, tonic absorbed it into their paws. tonic turns a light green shade and chara makes a grumpy face. "i don't want simple healing! i want some kind of resistance to lava and crud. i know you can do that, it said so." she shoves a few more twords tonic that they take, most of them deepen the shade. leaves and weeds. when tonic got to a mushroom it was different, a bit of blue magic went to tonic's core and stayed seprate from the green. (i must sleep, bye)
Core
Shatter thought for a moment. Before summoning an egg. “Try this.”
tonic had a little sigh not exactly enjoying the little experiment. the egg gave an indigo shade that stayed in their paws.
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It was the egg of a lava lizard, an aquatic creature that would dive into lava pools and turn the molten rock into armor. Shatter senses that he was uncomfortable. “You ok?”
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the indigo had a tint of purple to it, almost like it didn't know what color it should be. tonic nods to shatter. "that might be what i'm looking for" chara says. "give me your hand" she grabs tonic's hand
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Shatter, just to make sure nothing went horribly wrong, turned into a lava lizard and went into the stream
chara took off tonic's hand as they held up their arm to not let the liquid out. chara went over to look how shatter was doing holding the potion ready to try it out.
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Shatter nodded, the molten rock warming up her scales
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chara drinks the potion and tosses the hand back to tonic. chara's skin glowed purple for a second and she went into the water. she felt perfectly fine. "haha! yess!!" she went to swim down trying to find an opening to the volcano;
Core
Shatter was swimming much faster than Chara, and allowed her to hold onto her tail.
she held on and the two of them swam under finding a crack where warm water was coming out of chara let go and started to move away some of the rocks around it.
Core
There was an air bubble, she could hear someone talking. “You feeling better now? Good, you had me worried.”
ZM
she gives a questioning look to shatter and tries to go closer
Core
Shatter broke some of the rocks to allow Chara to surface
ZM
she makes it into the area and shakes her hair and clings to a rock to keep her up. the person who was talking probably noticed her instantly.
The person was facing away, petting a phoenix
ZM
"hey you, what you doing in here?" she asks. climbing on the rock.
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The person turned to Chara. “Oh I was just helping Rodon here heal.” She said with a smile
ZM
"why are there people everywhere? i swear like what? or stars, whatever." she hops across the rocks over to where neon is. she slides over and pokes the phoenix
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“Well, I’m no star,” She said (with a 😅 face). The Phoenix squawked and nipped Chara’s finger.
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chara moved before it could bite her. "alright, what are you?" she looks intrigued.
Core
“Well, a carbon life form, but Ink kinda made the whole, ‘carbon life forms are soulless and evil’ thing seem universal, or I guess multiuniversal.” She replied
ZM
"cool! you're like that jerk! you can tell me how to torcher her!" her eyes sparkle. "error's too chicken to tell." tonic was looking down into the water with the kits and sees shatter resurface.
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Shatter shook off the water, turning back into herself. “Well, that’s pretty mean....” the person said. “I don’t even know who you are.”
ZM
"where'd chara go?" tonic's confused. "does it really matter who i am? everyone knows she deserves it."
Core
“She found a pacifist star to chat with, she’ll be fine.” Shatter said. “Well...she can’t really help being the way she is.” The woman said
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chara shakes her head confused. "excuse me? she killed my friend to 'spice things up'. SHE CAN'T EVEN ENJOY a story so she's doing this for no reason. she's the worst thing in existence!"
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“Woah, woah, ok, ok. Sorry, I didn’t know that.” The woman said
ZM
"yeah," she folds her arms. "care to share now? i'd be quite grateful." tonic nods and looks to the kits. "do you want to try going in the water?" the bit of potion still off their arm no sure what to do with it.
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“Water, it burns carbon, it’s a chemical reaction, hydrogen burns carbon.” The person said. “Me!” Shine cheered.
ZM
tonic happily handed it over to shine. "i was actually thinking about that thank you. too bad she's so hard to pin down in anyway." she pauses. "is this phoenix yours?"
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Shine drank it. “Well, I can actually help on that.” The person said. “And no, rodon lives here.”
ZM
"woah really? you'll help? you just said you don't even know me."
Core
“Well, unlike Ink, I’m not soulless. It’s called sympathy.” The person said. “My name’s Neon by the way.”
ZM
"well damn, alright i won't complain. i'm chara." she kinda feels bad she didn't specifically say that her friend isn't dead anymore but... eh.
Core
Neon smiled and climbed out of the volcano, the lava not harming her
ZM
chara not willing to get burned to death doesn't risk going the way neon did and swims up the almost boiling water back to the rest of them. "guys! we've got help!"
Core
“Really?” Shade asked. Shine was splashing and playing in the water
ZM
"yeah she'll get around her soon i assume. she's a carbon 'star' just like ink and she said she'll help us break her."
Core
“And why should we trust her?” Killer hissed. “Because I’m not like Ink.” Neon said.
ZM
"you don't trust anyone killz. you're right we'll keep an eye on her but be positive! cool things could happen with her help"
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“I understand your mistrust, but don’t worry.” Neon smiled. Shine yelped and went out of the water as the potion wore off.
( here's a bad idea, swap ink that has too many emotions and has to drink acetone a lot to make them less extreme.) tonic went over to shine "are you alright?" chara nods. "yeah killer don't worry! okay so ink says she's always listening or whatever so the only way that i can even think of finding her is to specifically ask her to come here. so i'm asking. currently." she shrugs knowing it's not going to be that easy.
Core
“Burn...” shine whined. “Yeah not that easy.” Neon shrugged, “she doesn’t literally always watch, she listens to the creators, who are currently rambling about another version of Ink.”
ZM
"i can help you with that, no worries." tonic starts to heal her up ('they're currently rambling about another version of ink, lol i don't know why that's funny to me) "oh" chara says. "wait how do you know that?"
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Shine had burns on her legs. (Because it’s what we were doing) “I can hear them too.” Neon explained.
ZM
( that's what I mean! It shouldn't be funny! ) "uh huh... can you like... ask them to shove ink over to us?" Tonic fishes healing and shines legs feel better than ever.
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“You two heard Chara, are you gonna make it that easy?” Neon asked seemingly no one. (Which Ink? 😈) “My creator asks ‘which ink’” Neon sighed. “She never makes things easy.”
ZM
( Lol this is so weird, HI NEON) "... know what. I don't trust them at all maybe we should forget them." "You know which ink" she rolls her eyes
Core
“You’re creator calls my ability weird and says hi to me.” Neon explained. “Hello, Zora.” Shatter sighed. “Can I use you as a link to find Ink?”
ZM
Chara's just confused
Core
“Sure you can try.” Neon shrugged as Shatter’s eyes turned purple.
ZM
Tonic trots over to shatter
Core
(is that so?) “She’s at the marble ruins?” Shatter said with a questioning tone
ZM
tonic seems to know that place and looks at their watch thing which hasn't done anything resently
Core
Killer seemed suspicious. “Can’t be that easy.” “Lotus is there...” shatter sighed. “That sounds about right.” The watch was on Draco.
ZM
Chara cocks her head. "Well let's go!"
Core
Shatter sighed and made a portal
Core
ZM
they get to the marble ruins where lotus is. chara slides up next to her and greets her. "hello! where's that jerk ink!"
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She slid next to a teen in a black cloak. “What the hell are you planning to prank us with this time?” Lotus asked in a bored tone. “Hey Lotus! There was some bu-.....” another chars yelled as they rounded the corner.
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"ooo hey a me!" she hops up and down. "HI!"
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Lotus looked at them both, her eyes glowing. “Ok, that makes sense.” She said, before going back to tending to the plants. “Uhhhhh... ok, this is weird.” The other Chara said(let’s call him oc for now)
ZM
"well get used to it, there's a lot more weird where i came from." tonic joins them and so do the kits "but sieriously. i assume you're lotus? shatter was talking about you and I NEED to see ink asap."
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“I know already, and I can’t detect ink, she has no soul. I can see people for what they truly are, and see how long they are supposed to live for.” Lotus explained, her voice lacking much emotion. OC huffed. “Yeah, it sucks because you have destroyed three of my hosts, THREE!”
ZM
"pff, sucks for you." turning her attention to lotus "yeah? that's pretty fancy... know what hold on-" chara goes and grabs killer's arm. "tell me about her if you'd be nice."
“Why just tell you when I can show you?” Lotus suggested with a sigh, her eyes glowing as a silhouette off a creature formed around Killer. Inside of that silhouette was one of a girl who seemed to be crying. Killer herself seemed in a trance when Lotus was doing this. “Another corrupted soul... so cool.” OC said with a smile. (Creature in picture)
ZM
"that's not 'cool' that's my friend ya jerk." she sighs. "is there anything i can do to help her?"
Core
“Well, see the lighter part, the girl? That’s her true self, it’s just hidden. She had done this to herself.” Lotus’s eyes stopped glowing, Killer shook her head as the silhouettes disappeared. “They are when ya get to see them fight, so gory.” OC smiled.
ZM
chara glares at oc "... i don't like you." she looks a lotus. "even if she did do this to herself can't i help?"
Core
“You won’t be the last.” OC smiled. “Well yes, there are some traditions to ‘cleanse’ a soul of such corruption, but that would change the person you know.” Lotus explained, before a familiar face showed up; Papercut. “Hey, Lotus, you have the new knife I left here?” She said, yawning like she had just gotten up.
ZM
chara wasn't thrilled to see papercut not wantting to get into a fight with her knowing she'd loose. "i don't want to just 'fix her' i want her to just feel better."
Core
“Have you asked her what she wants?” Lotus asked.
ZM
"i meannnn, not really?"
Core
Neon wandered off, catching Shade’s attention. Shine was nervous. “And I left your knife in that old shop, with the pink roses.” Lotus told Papercut. “Thanks.” Papercut said leaving
ZM
"well aren't you popular." she turns to killer. "well? what do you what?"
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“I’ve told you before, I’m fine like this.” Killer said. (A Corrupted shell can also be used to as a safety shell, it makes the host feel protected)
ZM
(got ya) chara stares her down. "i don't think i believe you."
Core
Shatter sighed, looking around. “Believe me or not, it doesn’t change how I feel.” Killer said bluntly.
ZM
chara clicks her tongue. "whatever." back to lotus. "so you said you don't know where ink is?"
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“I do.” Oc said, “I pranked her this morning.” He laughed. “It was awesome!”
ZM
"would ya show us?" tonic tapped her foot thinking she should follow neon and so she does that.
Core
Neon was looking around, walking into one of the ruins, “there you are.” She said, finding Ink. “Well I can’t leave until I heal, now can I?” Ink replied her wing was all burnt up, “She went into one of the buildings, I burnt up her whole wing, it was epic.” Oc smiled. (Oc is my headcanon of Chara btw)
ZM
(yee i was assuming that) tonic has the instant urge to heal ink but they refrain. "well damn i guess we better get going before she heals. why are you stronger than me! that's not fair!" she pushes oc forward wanting him to lead to the place
ZM
(you should tell me how oc looks >:3 )
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(Well He is after a Genocide timeline, he’s tall, slim build. Massey hair that almost covers his eyes, which are blood red.) Neon sighed. “Well, I can’t say you didn’t deserve it.” OC chuckled, leading them to some of the buildings, looking in each one.
ZM
chara follows, looking back at her group noticing two are gone. "shade where'd those two go?"
(dang it all. i don't even know this kid and i already picked a song for him)
ZM
(i take it back, he's toby)
(i don't know how to express how much i love your ink. she is gorgeous. in fact .... lol. i made a star that's infatuated with her and follows her around.)
Core
(Shine was the one who stayed, and he has a striped shirt with 2 or three stripes, and he is around 6’1” so tall boy.) Shine shook her head. “T-they followed Neon.” “I walk through a doorway and get water dunked on me, yeah I deserve that.” Ink replied “No, it’s a result for messing with this stories flow, your not linked to the creator like the rest of us, so you can affect the flow in ways she doesn’t like.” Neon explained (Actually in the church they talked about expectations, so maybe I should tell you mine about you?)
ZM
tonic nods accepting neon's explanation. chara groans. "well which way?"
Core
Shine pointed to the building.
ZM
chara goes to that building "ah there you all are!" ?? "why are you talking to her neon?"
Core
“Kept her from fleeing, did it not?
ZM
"suppose so." chara throws a knife at her other wing. tonic stepped aside not wanting to watch a torture session.
Core
Ink hissed at this, the wing raw and burnt from OC’s prank.
ZM
Chara throws some purple webs down wrapping Ink up "so so so. Do you feel guilty for any thing you've done?" Under her breath. "Dang it I'm starting to sound like sans"
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“No, of course not, I cannot feel guilty in the first place.” Ink hissed, Shine whined slightlyz
ZM
She goes close to ink and summons an ax. "I'm going to MAKE you feel guilty. You're not above conciquences and I'm going to prove to you that exact fact." She slams the ax ink her leg
ZM
(Into her leg)
Core
“Not gonna happen.” Ink hissed breaking some of the webs and reaching to Chara, she just needed to consume some carbon to get back to full health
ZM
Chara growls and a starts attaking somewhat wildly and signals to tonic who shakes their head not wanting to do what chara asked them to before but after chara threw a knife at tonic as a warning they gave up and used about half of the liquid inside them to cover ink, it basically would react like water.
Core
Ink screeched at this, burning up.
ZM
"that's what you should feel like constantly! You deserve it!" This time as she couldn't move she cut off her boiling leg successfully.
Core
Ink grabbed Chara’s arm her hand almost bone. She pulled Chara in
ZM
Chara tried to form a knife but her magic is low so she trys to claw her hand away from ink
ZM
Around that time a glitchy portal appeared with a defending pop (get ready, template gets annoying, also ink knows template plenty well.)
Core
(Ok, gotcha.) Ink scratched Chara’s arm using the carbon in her blood to heal
ZM
Chara kicks her in the gut managing to get away as ink’s hand snapped off of her arm turning into ink and falling on the ground. Chara whines for someone to help her with ink. Neon, shatter, killer she doesn't care but she needs to get this done before she heals all the way
Core
Neon wasn’t completely okay with the idea, and actually wanted Ink to heal. Shatter felt similar, seeing this as going to far. Killer hated Ink, so gladly joined in with her knife.
ZM
The two of them work on that until chara gets hit in the head and falls to the floor, template was invisible and tried to nullify killer as well.
ZM
Chara tries to get up but passes out
Core
Killer went numb, backing up. Ink’s skeleton was made of diamond like material
ZM
"ink! Oh my god are you alright?!" Template kneels by her though he doesn't have anyway to heal her. "
Core
“I’ll be fine, just need carbon.” Ink said, digging up some carbon from the rocks, using it to remake her body. “Good to see your finally back.”
ZM
"Seems I can't leave you alone for a second anymore!" He growls at killer and tonic who were the closest. Tonic backed away to shatter. "What's wrong with you all?! Leave ink alone!"
Core
“Technically you have been gone for 7 months.” Ink replied. Killer shook off the numb, hissing back. “And why are you defending the squid?!”
ZM
"I cant keep track if time." To killer "Because she didn't do anything to you! She's my ma- my friend. She's my friend." (He was gonna say mate but they're not.)
Core
“Friend?” Killer started laughing
ZM
Template had blush roll over him as he's easily flustered. "Yes. Now get lost unless you want your soul stone shattered."
Chara slowly shook off the bludgeoning she just got and looked at the new star. Chara’s livid as ink is no longer basically only a skeleton. She splashes the water on the floor at ink and slides over to get another hit in. Template stomps down on charas hand and kicks her away to neon.
Core
“Is that a challenge?” Killer hissed before seeing Template attack Chara, she then lashed out, actually trying to bite him. Neon caught Chara, her palms burning at the water.
ZM
Template made killer's soul stone indigo and increased the gravity on her. She's pretty resilient to his attack as she's right by his neck as he guards himself with his arms he pulls at her hair with the arm not pushing her away.
Core
Killer landed a bite, the black dripping from her eyes getting into the wound as she released.
ZM
Chara shook her hand as it almost feels broken. She grimaces and gets away from neon noticing the burns. Template is very defencive but every move he makes he does get weaker. "Toxins. The way of the coward" he states and pulls her down to the ground deforming her soul a little.
Core
“No, the way of brain over brawn.” Killer hissed, resisting as much as she could
ZM
He rolls his eyes and the gravity gets stronger as his hatered slowly grows. "Are we going to have a problem or will you leave my friend alone?" The ground cracks under killer.
Core
“As long as you leave Chara alone...” Killer hissed, cracking under pressure
ZM
The pressure was released seemingly agreeing to killers demand. he went back over to ink and sat by her.
Core
Ink looked at Template. “You sure do know how to make situations interesting.”
ZM
he blushes and looks away shyly "Heheh, I try."
Core
Killer looked at Chara, “You ok?”
ZM
Chara lifted her hand to show killer, it was mangled and a purple shade. "That felt really good." She says sarcasticly.
It kinda flops over grossly. "I don't have enough dt. Someone wants make me a save star?"
Core
“Sh*t, yeah I know that feeling.” Killer cringed. “Neon, can you repair it?” Killer asked. “Yes, yes of course.” Neon said, fixing the hand. “Although that variant may be troublesome.” Ink hissed softly.
ZM
Chara didn't like the feeling of the healing as her hand was pretty numb before and now the pain is in the main dealing she makes groans and bites her arm to keep her from screaming. "Do you mean the killer or chara variant?" He asks quietly.
Core
“I mean Neon.” Ink replied, watching her heal.
ZM
"...perhaps." he watches as well. " do you want to stay here to watch or do you want me to take you somewhere to heal? " "I can keep an eye on them if you like."
Core
“It would be appreciated if you keep watch while I heal.” Ink said to Template
ZM
He nods. "Will do." Chara snaps "ARE YOU DONE YET" as she holds back tears
Core
Ink turned into a liquid and fled. “And done. Sorry hands are complex...” Neon replied
ZM
Chara pulls her hand away as the pain stops. "It's fine.. thank you."
(Can I just say it's so precious how killer cares for chara ;u; what a good girl)
Core
(If she heard you say that...) “Ok, good. I was worried.”
ZM
( BUT SHE'S SO CUTE! SHE MUST KNOW!) she looks at neon not sure how to read her. "Why didn't you help just now with ink? And you shatter? You guys just stood there!"
Core
“Ink isn’t that much different than me, so it’s... unnerving to say the least.”
ZM
"What about you shatter?"
Core
“Honestly my reasoning is stupid, sorry.”
ZM
"I still wanna hear it."
Core
“Something told me not to.” Shatter explained
ZM
"... huh?" Chara doesn't get it at all. "You're kidding right?"
Core
“No, told you it was stupid.”
ZM
"What told you? I don't get it."
Core
“My gut.” Shatter said. “Always good to listen to that, Papercut said, coming over to see what was happening
ZM
"Well my gut tells me that my friends probably should have helped more than they did." She stands glancing to template. "Now we have to find her again." She looks to papercut, "not that I mind but I also kind of do, what do you want? Frankly you're creeping me out."
Core
“Nothing much, just waiting for Rotten to show up.” Papercut smiles.
ZM
"Uh-huh... Alright so here's the question for shatter and neon. If we find ink again will you help or not. We shouldn't waste our time with it if we'll just get a repeat of what just happened. I'd much rather level up with the kits."
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Neon shook her head. “I will.” Shatter nodded
ZM
"Kay~" she stands "i'ma go see if I can find lotus again. Killz would LJ or one of your other friends like to try out that cleansing ritchual or are they all happy how they are like you?"
Core
“Probably Nightmare.” Killer said.
ZM
"Cool. Shall we than?" She grins "maybe she'll give us something for our efforts. Like watching the kits haha." She looks around trying to find oc
Core
OC was sparing with Rurik. “Yeah, I can teleport us.” Killer said
ZM
"Thank you, you're a life saver Yuma." She grins and walks through the portal. Template followed like he said he would from a desent distance.
Core
Killer took them to Nightmare who was asleep again
ZM
"Nightmare!hey boss! We got some cool news!" She shouts up at her.
Core
Nightmare opened her eye. “Yeah? What’s up?” She yawned
ZM
Chara climbs the tree quickly and sits on a branch. "We met a star that can clear you from your corruption! How cool is that!"
Core
Nightmare sat up quickly. “What?”
ZM
"You heard me"
Core
“Where.” Nightmare said sternly
ZM
She looks back down. "Killer, doll, mind taking us back?" She hops down the tree.
Core
“I’m not a doll.” Killer said, before teleporting them all back
ZM
Chara snickers and they're back at lotus. "It's her, she'll help you."
ZM
Template is starting to get impatient, he wants to see if inks healing alright but he knows she'd be mad at him if he just left. So instead he taps his foot and draws in the sand with a stick.
Core
Nightmare went up to Lotus. “You really can help me get rid of... this?” Nightmare asked. Lotus nodded
ZM
(so i totally don't remember what nightmare said happened to her sister, want to remind me?) tonic hopped over interested to see the process
Core
(Well Dream helped save a human child from falling off a cliff, when the father saw this he thought Dream was trying to hurt the child and pushed her. Her impact on the rocks below broke her soul stone.) Lotus’s eyes glowed as she revealed Nightmare’s ‘true self’. Much like Killer, a corrupted shell, a sad center.
ZM
( well gee that's sad.) template is disturbed by the corruption and he kinda scowls in their direction
Core
Lotus then summoned her scythe, carvings of a rose vine was in the handle.
ZM
the watchers stay silent at the anticipation
Core
Lotus slashed through the corrupted shell, Nightmare’s coating cracked and fell off as pieces. Her real self had night black hair and deep violet eyes,
ZM
tonic takes some of the shell that was dropped. chara goes closer to night inspecting her. "how you feel boss?"
Core
Nightmare looked over, before looking at her hands, “a-amazing... I’m... me again.” She smiled
ZM
chara grins back happy that she's pleased. "pretty cool lotus. pretty cool indeed."
Core
Nightmare stretched back, hissing since there was still pain, but was still happy.
ZM
"where'd you learn how to do that?" she asks
Core
“Well, I’m a reaper, so I just reaped the corrupted part of the soul.” Lotus shrugged.
ZM
"that's really strange. but hey i guess it works!"
ZM
"so night." she's obviously expecting nighmare to do what she asks. "sense we oh so kindly led you to this little reaper and now your feeling good how about you watch the kits?"
“I can also control souls, including lost ones.” Lotus said
ZM
"oh yeah?" chara being herself instantly wants this power. she makes a scythe. it gets a black hue that radiates off it. simmilar to what lotus's had.
Core
Lotus’s scythe glowed a soft red. “The scythe isn’t the source of my power, kid.”
ZM
(idk if you missed it but chara asked night to baby sit the kits) "well duh." chara says. "ya gotta start somewhere. here let me see..." she spins it and tries to get the shade lotus's magic is.
Core
(Oh I did miss it, Nightmare accepted) “It’s all about the main slash, you need to use your entire upper body.” Lotus instructed
ZM
"similar to an ax i assume?" she does her best slash she could manage.
Core
“Not exactly, you curve more.” Lotus explained.
ZM
"curve more. got it." she holds the sythe back far behind her and leans into the swing. "hows that?" "not to disturb your lesson chara.. but shouldn't we go find ink?" tonic says as they absorb the shell.
Core
Neon thought for a moment, as if listening. (Skull lagoon, 😈) Shatter agreed with Tonic.
ZM
template didn't like the sound of that and instantly goes to the little cave behind a wall of vines that ink was resting in. "but this is fun!" she whines. she sighs "but you're right. this is time sensitive. let's go." she says unhappily. "you two are staying with nightmare." talking to the kits.
Core
“Ok!” Shine smiled. Ink was almost back to her full game. “They are at the skull lagoon.” Neon told the others
ZM
"you're handy." she says to neon. "glad you stuck around" template portaled a little bit away from ink as to not hurt her ears with the pop his portals make. he moves the vines away and is relived to see she's looking alright. "they're on their way. apparently the little agreement we had didn't last long."
Core
“That makes two of us.” Neon smiled. “It’s fine, the soil here is high in carbon,” Ink responded, absorbing just a bit more.
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People say life teaches you the hardest lessons of all and you shoudl learn from those lessons. (insert qupte herer) However, I feel that it isn't life teaching you it is you, you tech yourself these things because they're your experiences and only you can decide how you feel and how you want to live your life. Yes, these are always outside influences. Up the unlimited decisions are always made.by you and you're the one who has to live with said decisions. No one else I the world knows what you want and no one else but you knows how you feel. So why shouldn't the person who is with yo the most by the one who lobes you the most? Life is full of old but I feel the most important love one should feel is the love for themselves. How much you love yourself depends on how you perceive yourself and who you think you are. If you base your self perception on the feelings of others you'll always be unsure of who you are because you are differ t and hold different meanings for different people. Your mother sees a different person than your best friend and you teacher may know more about you than the. Other combined but only you know who you all. Who you are is. On prized of all these things, it is the whole picture not just the pieces taken by different people.
A lot of this perception takes place in our own minds because how we see ourselves is reflected in all of our actions, someone who feels poorly about themselves may nto stand as straight or walk with a certain swager as soemone else who is confident in themselves. And in today's world with the ever constant attack on your girls in the media I find it more difficult to find girls who can honestly say they lvoe themselves and take pride in how intelligent, beautiful, and witty they are. If you ask a woman if they are aware of their beauty they shy away and find 50 things ":wrong" with themselves within twenty seconds because they have a list in their heads of their flaws. It is alwyas there when we're out buying clothes or watching a movie there is a pressure to look, act, and dress adn certian way to be considered attractive. Go to the store and pick up a tabloid and i gaurentee you'll see it plastered everywhere of "how to loose weiht, makeup tips to look better, and hwo to get/please a man." We are tarught that it is our goal to confomr to what the male gaze desrires fom us adn become that no matter how unrealistic. I vividly rememebr thinking if i read all the magazines and dress like them and looked like them aht boys owuld like me and i would be completley happy with every aspect of my life. Thankfully that never happened because I am a different person nwo and how I fel about myself is how every girl/woman shold feel about herself and that is loved. Every woman should love herself for all that shee is because all the media we see isn't real and none of it will ever make you happy with yourself. The media is made that way to make you spend money trying to look like these women who are photoshopped or diet and starve themelves in order to look the wway they do. It is a vicious cycle but it is on ethat can be broken. So that little girls don't grow up and skip meals because it'll make tem prettier. So they grow up to be women who own thier bodies prudly and aren't afraid to say "yes, i am beautiful.". I love body positivity and sein women lvoe thier bodesi no matter how much hair, fat, or stretch marks they have on them. I also love seing women complimenting each other instead of competing to be the prettiest in the room to gain male attention. There is so much propoganda tearing women down that it is empowring and heatwarming to see them wake up and shun the idea that they should be anythin other than what they are. That they should o to extremes to "fit in". Quit frankyl if you don't love yourself of rall that you are you will never be happy ith how you look there will alwyas be somethin ot be fixed. As soon as oyu stop lookin on the ouside for balidatio your life will imporve and your confidence wil improve because if you build youself up with the compliments from men thier criticisms will tear you down. So you become your own bricks abd rebuild yourself and your self image to one taht you like. So you take a look inside yourself and hwo you are to amke taht person better and make thsat person one who loves themelf.
I am so adament about htis because I was trapped in the world of pandering to the male gze and constnaly fhanign my appreacne to get them to like me which nveer worked or bsing my self confience on how others saw me and i was miserable. I was depressed, suicidial, and quite frankly i ahted myself and my body image. I still struggle with my body image because it has been engraved into my brain dn way of thiking of hwo i hsould look adn i have to stop myself form thinmkin gthat way. I am admaent about his becaue i wasted years of my life and destroyed my body for a peive of mind i never got. I am a recovering annorexic and although it has been four years since i "quit" it has never left me. It is an ever looming shadow on my life because it is a constant thing when you have it. I was always counting calories and doing anything not to eat to avoid gaining weight. I exercised excessivly and i remember almost passing out at every workout session i would go to because i hadn't eaten htat day. I had a system of going three days without eating and on the third day maintaing a one-thousand calorie limit. It was toture but i was losing weiht and i gauged the weight by how easily you could see my bones. I pradiesd myself everytime i could see them a little bit more. I cursed myself whenever I did eat on the third day calling myself names like fat, worthless, and weak. Not only di di curse myself i punished myself for eating so much with mroe exercise or waiting an extra day to eat. I thin that was the biggest struglle of all, eating. Every bite felt like i was getting fatter and it was as trule ot force myself to eat a single bite. Every swallow felt like it was stuck in my throat and like i should go vomit ot keep it from getting ot my stomach. it was an awful feeling in multiple asy but mainly becase i love food i love eating and tastin things but i oculdn't llow myself the one htin i lvoed. An incidnet i had where i felt the weakest were When my mother made my favorite mamwhich which i love to death but i couldn't brin myself to eat it even though th esmell was intoxicating. So i went o bed with no dinner that night to get up in the morning and get ready for shcool. I wasso desperate for it i got a spoon adn just tastd it. It was loruious they savyory and salty i even chewed it a little bit but i could not le tmyself swallow it. So i we tot eh sink and spat it out and even went as far as to wsh ti task out my mouth because i couldn't even swallow that it woud be cheating. It was constant and thw rost part was i ot compliments on ym weiht loss. The compliments pushed me to continue even further because i knew it was working. I thrived off of the compliment sbecause it meant my heard work was paying off. Adn you don't get that kind ofprasie from reovery you get digusted looks like " you really let youserlf go". Or irls would be nasty in school like the usually are and i heard comment on haw faat i've gotten and horrible giggles from these gaggles of girls. Recovery is one of ht e toughtest things I ever had to go through and i had to go through it alone because no one knew about it. I coudn't let anyone know about my anorexica and peopel to this day don't know abut it because i kpeti tso well hidden. Although my eatin habits are back and i'm at a normal weigh tnow i still feel the thoughts creep up on me. i still ahe htoughts of "wow you're fat" and i have to tell myelf "yes, i have fat but i'm happy and fat is not a negative thing ot be. Fat is not a person or a noun it is an adjective to describe something and shoudn't define my entie person and how i fel abiout myself. i have fat and taht is kay and the more i accept that the happier i am with myself and the tiem i spent worryign about hwo i looked turned into learnign about why i felt that way and learnig more about myself and the wordl aroudn em. In the years since my recovery I have become mroe eduacted and acepting and aware of the world around me and I feel better for it. I feel mroe empathethic adn it gives me hope fora brihter future where i can be even better than the prson taht i am nw. I always want to learnadn grow ad I hope to ive that experince to someon eelse via my time in college and far after. I want ot encourage women to love themselves and every part of them becaue they desreve to. Because no one should have to go through what i went thorugh and because these girls are worth much mre than thier measurments. They are doctors htey are mothers they are terachers and daughters firefighers senators and presidnets. Women are amazing and capable creatures who deserve to feel some self love and that is not soomething life will teach you. that is something you ahve to teaf. to love yousrelf deeply and with no bounds. The love the should feel for thiemselves should equal the ones they read about in reomance novels unconditional. It took some a long time to get where I am in loving self and who I am and I even falter sometimes when I overheard mean comments and I start to think badly of myself. I have to physically and mentally stop myself and dispute whatever it is that was said about me because I can't let myself jnternalize it. If I internalize it Nd take their opinion a truth I begin to be,I e it and become self deprecating. And now that I am in a better place i still see. Y peers whose still I the negative space that I was in and I even hear my mother and sister picking at their bodies and h Ow they wish they were different or skinnier. And I want to explain how it is a via thing to search for and to try to be. Skinny and healthy do no correlate nor does skinny and happy. It is a long process to love yourself. It is a daily regime of stopping negTive behaviors and correcting them. Small comments like oh I'm so fat or I couldnstandtk lose weight wear your self sped teem. It's about stopping yourself from those thoughts and placing them with I'm amazing and wonderful. Another thing is a denoting compliments 9/10 women will deny any compliments as if they aren't true but accepting them is accepting yourself and agreeing that ueah I am cute or adorable or whatever it is. I never wit any girls to go through the struggle that I went through especially. Yniece. These little things these Mir agrees ions add up over time and really affect how you see yourself and it starts at a young age. Children can be cruel especially she it comes to weight and Eve. Adults are cruel. I remember as a child it was a joke in the family how fat I was but it really stuck with me as I grew up that this I show people see me and bow people see me matters. And I've learned that it doesn't that it is how I see myself and how I h
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[Spanish/Español]
I'M FREAKING HAPPYYYYY
AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH
TRES TARDES EN ESTA COSA
ESTO ES LO QUE LE PASA A UNA CUANDO CAE DE NUEVO AL FANDOM DE NINJAGO BUT AHORA ES FUJOSHI Y EMPIEZA A SHIPEAR TODO LO QUE TIENE PATAS
ok ya, vamo a calmarno.
Estaba viendo ninjago de nuevo (me quede en la temporada cinco antes de empezar esto) y comencé a shipear greenflame y bruises (aunque todo el fandom sabe que esta re muerto) y dije, 'why not?' me puse a dibujar esta cosa
Y ESTOY FELIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIZZZZZZZZ
Son Azul, Brian y Celeste.
Azul: la mayor de los hijos de Kai y Lloyd, ella heredo el poder dorado
Brian: el siguiente en la linea, el tiene el poder de Kai, el fuego.
Celeste: la mas pequeña, no heredo ni el poder de Kai ni el de Lloyd sino el de la madre de Kai, el agua.
De verdad tengo como cinco Fics greenflame que no se si sacar, tal vez saque algun piloto o algo asi......
aaaaaaaahhh
no c
ESTOY FELIZ
-MODO CANDACE ON-
ABBYCHUELA FUERA PAZ
ATTE: Abby tha Candy
[English/Ingles]
I'M FREAKING HAPPYYYYY
Aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa
THREE AFTERNOONS IN THIS THING
THIS IS WHAT HAPPENS TO ONE WHEN IT FALLS BACK TO THE FANDOM OF NINJAGO BUT NOW IT IS FUJOSHI AND IT STARTS TO SHIP EVERYTHING THAT HAS LEGS
ok ya, I'm going to calm down.
I was watching ninjago again (I stayed in season five before I started this) and I started shpping greenflame and bruises (although all the fandom knows it's dead) and said, 'why not?' I started to draw this thing
AND I AM HAPPYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY
They are Azul, Brian and Celeste.
Azul: the oldest of Kai's and Lloyd's children, she inherited the golden power
Brian: the next on the line, he has the power of Kai, fire.
Celeste: the smallest, does not inherit the power of Kai or Lloyd's but haves the power of Kai's mother, water.
I really have about five greenflame Fics that I do not know if I can take out, maybe I'll take out some pilot or something like that......
aaaaaaaahhh
idk
I AM HAPPY
-CANDACE MOOD ON-
ABBY OUT, PEACE
ATTE: Abby the candy
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my thoughts on asy finale (look away this is going to offend people)
THE GROUP NAME IS STUPID. i was joking it would be "SuperStar" bc the show name literally translates to "asia super star group" but. i think that would be better guys...
did i know the hong kong trainees were going to debut? yes. am i HAPPY about it? Well.
wen zuokuang? wen zuokuang who got in a fight with chen liang? wen zuokuang famous for his 黑脸 angry face? someone protect chen liang rn (liang shiyu time to use your wushu)
WHERE did bai ziyi come from huh...
at least liang shiyu made it (i know it was NOT realistic to have every single boyhood member make it but well... guo dianjia i am so sorry you deserved So much)
kim dongbin & tan yitian :( dongbin said if he doesn't debut he's going to go serve in the military :(
but at least enone will be together?
even if they didn't debut at least xxxy stayed together...
and of course shoutout to the top 3 of my heart: jxx ollie lqz <3 ok but. how did jxx drop to 4th. give him back his top 3 place.
c-netizens will have so much to say about this. (update: i just scrolled through weibo. they definitely have so much to say about this.)
in conclusion: 12459 run NOW
one more thing THE GROUP LOGO LOOKS LIKE NINEPERCENT. ninepercent revive they're plagiarising you 😦😦
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