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epersonae · 2 years

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oh bestie, what do I associate you with?

yelling about the bullshit traumas on all sides of the goddamn medical system. laying on a hotel bed talking over discord and asking "do you need to see the autopsy for *your* grief process?" holding each other and crying at the memorial in my living room. handing you my phone so you could call Dylan when I went nonverbal on my birthday. (and russian dumplings) taking the phone out of my pocket when the doctors were trying to tell me that Ryn was about to die and you making it possible for me to say goodbye in the way I needed to.

[so yeah, I'm crying]

but also SHENANIGANS. the Tentacle Incident. watching The Strip (2002) while feverish and yelling about it all the way through. making each other actually think about plot. stick figure drawings.

yarn and yarn and more yarn.

the time we watched Final Pam because I got yote out of my body by some goddamn bullshit. the fact that you found a place for me to stay overnight when I walked out of my old house with a change of clothes and my backpack -- from halfway across the country. wearing a scarf I knit from your yarn at the settlement conference, the last time I ever had to be in the same room as [redacted] and feeling safe because I had a bit of you (and the rest of the crew) with me.

the stupid terrible phrase "flesh hugs"

#miss you friendo #(oh also Malort)#just gonna have a cry it's cool #I'm gonna be mad at the medical system FOREVER that you couldn't come to the wedding #ask games

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somethingcorenotsure · 2 years

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I think it's so adorable that early humans took wild gourds - a tiny fruit that hollows out as it dries, making it float - and decided to make something out of it

they thought the tiny fruit was so good that they bred it for thousands of years, making it larger to form into bowls and cups, and different shapes to become bottles and spoons

and musical instruments

And then, people took the hollow gourds they farmed, and they turned them into houses for birds. We adapted them into the perfect houses for birds, and now there are specific breeds of birdhouse gourd just for making into birdhouses

And humans dedicated gardening space and time and thousands of years of breeding to make the gourds so absolutely perfect for birds, that there is a species of bird that lives almost exclusively in them

#yes I KNOW i posted about this the other day but *crying* i just love plant domestication and the history of agriculture #and humanity's positive affect on the ecosystems we live in #mine #image IDs in alt text #hmm. I'm gonna tag this #permaculture #just to pspsps @ that community to look at how cool gourds are please everyone grow birdhouse gourds and give cavity nesters places to live #i don't think mine will become fully ripe before i get my first frost :( next year i need to start gourds indoors #i didn't want to grow them before because i didn't have much garden space but now i do and i need to grow all of them #i might be. a little obsessed with gourds. but also i saw a pair of purple martins flying by the road last year #and i had never seen one before then! and i need to see more of them #i have a few hundred barn swallows but i need more birds flying around my house. more!!#and also i have a ton of invasive cavity nesting species around here. house sparrows and starlings.#gotta make up for those things competing with native birds for nest dites #*sites #the invasive birds very often win :/#that's why they're invasive #i really do need to start trapping them....

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defectiveferalfreak · 2 years

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i rediscovered @nicktoonsunite and @choraa ‘s art like wowie did they inspire me to dip my toes into NUverse??

also i cant believe Dib and Zim basically waltzed into NU:GoD, like WHATS UP B*TCHS WE GONNA HELP WHETHER U WANT IT OR NOT like can u believe that lol

#nicktoons unite #nicktoons unite globs of doom #nicktoons unite GoD #i find it ironic its called NU GoD #invader zim #dib membrane #iz zim #iz dib #ive been sitting on the doodles ideas since end of AUGUST. basically so long that i started to hate them lol #i have a lot of thoghts about nicktoons!Dib&Zim but almost no concentration to draw much of it #because helooo fandom interest change like autumn leaves #but i fell in love with possible nicktoons universe with those two assholes in it so they WILL live rent free in my head #so many details of this doodles that i want to talk about but im afraid to start rambling #so im just gonna sit and hope someone notices those little things #throwing this nicktoons!IZAU into the void so i could stop obsessivly staring at unfinished doodles. also gonna go cry over nicktoonsunite a #and choraa awesome OG4 art like those are fucking goals #and lack of fics for nicktoons adventures ;( like i wish someone was brave enough to write some cool NU advnetures <;(#danny phantom #fairly oddparents #the adventures of jimmy neutron: boy genius #spongebob squarepants #if someone asks me about this au i probably wont have much to say because its all very vague but i will most likely go feral lol #i wish i could finish my iz star wars au doodles ;( theyve been in my files since summer haha

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puppyeared · 11 months

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The garment, worn by those in good standing with Hyrule royalty, has been reworked with the latest improvements, such as a new shoulder guard.

#I miss my wife tails. I miss her a lot. I’ll be back #I love the champions leathers design but the story behind it is so sweet too like. she wanted to thank him so she went and #got some improvements added to it?? and she wanted to see his face when she surprises him with it hello?????#I think my favourite part is the half chest just for angst. I like imagining she was very particular about the armour placements #and had a chest piece added because yknow. right over the heart might I add #originally I wanted this to be more angsty but halfway through I was like wait this would completely miss the point #in my mind the armor isn’t just ‘I don’t want you to die again’ but also ‘I want to keep you safe as best I can’#in her diary she was like links armor is wearing down so you know what? I’m gonna add more armor to better protect him!!!#and with her upbringing in mind (and the conversation she had with him about whether he would still choose to be a knight if things were #different) she could have totally asked him to stop doing it altogether. but she made the armor for him instead #sidenote she also got to be a teacher and scholar like she wanted and that is so. dont look at me I’m crying #I don’t know if ANY of this makes sense I’m just rambling. yes I wear the champions leathers every chance I get why do you ask #btw if you squint the leathers chainmail and sweater are taken from the hylian armor chestpiece! slightly modified on the tunic but cool #my art #myart #tears of the kingdom #totk #totk spoilers #totk zelda #totk link #botw spoilers #botw #breath of the wild #loz #loz fanart #comic #tw blood #blood

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bl00doodle · 1 year

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DOODELS

#my art #tryignt o do sm shit help i wanma draw and finish things so baddd #the brown sketches r me crying @ the phrase 'to be loved is to be changed' i wanna make a sad emo angsty comic abt shadows loss and pain an #still endong up with a happy life bc. 🧍‍♂️ fuck i want that for myself too #THE 2NDD... MY SKY PIRATE GRANDMA MARIA AU 🫶🫶🫶🫶 basically shes super inspired by dola from castle in thsky lol #shes putting makeup on shad bc hes going on his first date ever....#in his 50yr immortal ish ageless life hes going on a date and maria will damn sure make sure hes gonna have a nice one #ehehehe guess whos hes going on a date w....👁👁(obvious)#uhhhh the cat is just older blaze leik burnin blaze inspired by her concept art #one of her hair styles is like fire and im like. thats fuckin cool!!#sHE GETS STRIPED AND GETS FWUFFY WHEN SHES OLDER bc i think its kyut 🫶#makes her related to big the cat ehehehe alt dimension shit or smhtn idk im not thinking anymore #oh fuck i forgot to tag the charas #sonic the hedgehog #maria robotnik #eggman #shadow the hedgehog #blaze the cat #amy rose #sonic chao #uhhh it uink thqts it #sowowiwjekwo #sowwy its a mess

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mumblesplash · 6 months

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man i’ve had pretty serious art block before in the past but it was always more a lack of inspiration/irl stuff draining all my energy, currently Not having art block but getting hit by my first bout EVER of feeling like i just straight up can’t make anything that’s good enough and oh my god how do people deal with this

#i have zero mental defenses against this bc it’s never happened to me #like i know i’m being stupid here bc i feel like everything ive ever drawn is somehow worse than anything anyone else has ever drawn #which first of all cannot possibly be the case bc art is subjective and also i’m not that special #and second of all ‘this means i’m bad at everything’ is not a reaction i have EVER had to art i consider ‘better’ than mine #i’ve always just been excited by the opportunity to learn how to do a new cool art thing i couldn’t do before #like what is happening here why did my brain broke #on the bright side this doesn’t seem to be even slowing me down from writing and drawing things and posting them anyway #but i could really do without the accompanying dramatics in the back of my head #‘you can’t post this you are an affront to art history and the whole of humanity’ shut Up brain it’s literally minecraft fanart for fun #anyway all this to say. thank you everyone being nice in the notes of my silly lil poems you’re gonna make me cry #mumbling

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peridots-pixiwolf · 11 months

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sketches from @mipexch 's whiteboard a couple days ago!!

also feat. a very small reference to @onlineviolence :]

#peridots-art #bugs #bots #ultrakill #gabriel ultrakill #swordsmachine ultrakill #bugzapper ultrakill #minos prime ultrakill #v2 ultrakill #plus the rest of the fumos but those weren't done by me. someone was drawing v1 so i put a v2 beside them and came back later to like 5 mor #hence why they are out of frame. anyway this was a LOT of fun I lost track of time and stayed up till dawn even #there were so many cool and/or recognized artists.... i keep checking the ultrakill tag to see if anyone else posts their own sketches #it was posted at like 2am my time though so i didn't get to stay very long.... i checked in today on the fumo drawings and there was #just so much new art over there and in general. so many people doodling and having fun and complimenting each other and bonding over #the things we all like. im gonna cry #anyway. i think this is the longest period of non-posting (not inactivity. lol) on tumblr i've ever had #so might've forgot some tags. also i think i'll use alt text for multiple images and regular id for 1-2 #edit also i wrote 'today' in the tags up there but it was in fact two days ago. regardless #ALSO. sorry if the alt text is hard to read or anything. never used it before + penchant for lengthy descriptions #can you tell i'm really proud of the beetle gabe btw. men will see a character say 'anyone gonna buggify that?' and not wait for an answer #WAIT i've already made that joke haven't i. whatever turn your blorbo into an insect or some sort of gay bug today

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xxdrwhovianxx · 5 months

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I'm very happy that Walker is a blonde. Bc now when Nico comes in and sees this fucking sunshine boy. And then he dates Will? The boy has a type and it is golden retriever x black cat and he deserves nothing less.

#pjo tv show #nico di angelo #percy jackson #will solace #the tiny emo gay boy #I'm so excited #the cards #the party #the fucking Gut-Wrenching scene when his sister chooses the hunt over him #that one is gonna make me cry #nico my boy you have so far to go #but you will be so cool #and your sister is gonna have an asshole horse #your other sister #DO YOU GUYS THINK THEY'LL JUST DO ALL OF HIS BOOKS????

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yanderespamton78 · 1 month

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the current state of the arg

sorry guys the art isnt arting D:

(btw if youre confused on why i drew turnip like that i was referencing the picrew he did ages ago bc idk it looked fun to draw anddd i dont like taking reference off real life images)

#i felt like just a lillll bit of a creep relistening to voice messages over and over to find a good quote but. yk what. it was worth it #i totally didnt take reference from the really cool face i used in that animation because im still really proud of it #idk if emi or TD have a sona but if they do im not aware of it and i didnt feel like asking so i just drew both of them as blank characters #im too stressed to scheme lol #maybe #just maybe #i need to stop drinking tea because the caffiene makes me anxious #...#naaaaahhhh #i dont really know what to do with myself atm because i dont want to work on the animation unless turnon is ok out of pure spite #this morning i was absolutely radiating stress #i have a friend who shows up so we can walk together to school and she could tell smth was off lol #i literally could not hide it at all even if i wanted too #i kept pulling my hat over my face thats the main way you can tell that im stressed #not that it really matters that you know that bc none of you are ever gonna witness that but. fun fact abt me ig #ugh #if turnon dies i am gonna cry so hard <333 #and i wont finish the animation <333333333 #(at this point just trying anything to get turnon back)#im gonna make a word doc #i make word docs when im stressed /hj #quick question turnip : is there a way to get turnon out of the situation he is in or is he just gonna die and theres nothing we can do #about it /gen #because i have a sneaky suspicion that we cant actually do anything about this #i swear to god #LETS LOOK ON THE BRIGHT SIDE!!#A DEFRAG MIGHT COME OUT TMR!!#its been 21 days and a defrag takes on average 20-25 days #ough #turnip and addon im gonna find where you live and i will burn your respective houses down

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widevibratobitch · 8 days

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something about being told im 'the leading person at this whole academy when it comes to interpretation and stage intelligence' by the husband of the woman im trying (not really. but i mean. who knows) to seduce... ok boy you got me. lets make it a polycule.

#im playing it all cool and funny now but atm i legit burst into tears lol #like he said i have a 'good voice too of course' but i know realistically that is not my strongest asset #and even if i were technically perfect. which im NOT lol. the voice itself is just nothing special. it's there ig but that's about it #but its nice to know i may not be 100% useless after all #(just 90%)#also apparently the most feared and respected professor who came to the concert said. again. that he likes me the most.#which again. crying real actual tears about this all rn this means literally the world to me this is everything i have #and i have no one to share this with because im not gonna say it to my uni friend cause i dont want her to feel like im boasting or sth #(even tho she has no such qualms herself but probably because i know how. not great. it feels when someone keeps talking about themselves #and about how great they are and how easy everything is for them. i dont wanna do it back at her.#well there's also the fact that i dont think im great and this is not fucking easy to me at all lol #but idk i think the difference between us is that she actually admitted she sees no point in singing if she cant show off (thus she hates #the duet we're singing because she sings the lower part and cant show off her high notes or coloratura.#which is like. an insane take to me. i mean it i get it. kinda. if i had a voice like hers maybe id be like that too fuck knows.#but that just feels so. idk. sad to me. so self obsessed and empty. like you dont care about the music itself? about you being a part of it?#also immediately made singing with her not fun anymore. i thought we were creating something TOGETHER. but thanks for the confirmation #that you only really care about being 'better than'. yikes.#like idk this behaviour is funny and iconic in old school opera legends like yes go bite each others dicks off.#but it hits completely different when it's your own colleague let alone your friend. like damn girl. damn)#) anyway. the husband is kinda hot too now that i think of it. i really should seduce them both.#except its realistically not possible since they've both seen me cry now (she saw it like a hundred times lol)#so ive lost the hot and mysterious card alas. no uni professors romance for me

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caluupin · 2 months

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Father!!! 🔥🔥🔥🔥

#caluuart #genshin impact #genshin #art #arlecchino #god she's just so. cool. pretty. ethereal. badass.#also I LOVE HER STORY QUEST SO MUCH!! I think it's definitely one of the best story quests in the game tbh.#wait uh arlecchino story quest spoilers below:#for one; the quest really gives even more depth to arlecchino's character. like yeah the whole thing is well. messed up.#it's an orphanage that raises orphans to be child soldiers after all. But it's also like. It's more.... humane? nicer? for the fatui anyway #which does bring me to the next thing. you know how arlecchino's like “if you're gonna leave the HotH you need to fight for it with ur life #I genuinely think that she's gonna just. straight up kill them. although it's not unlikely at all it turns out that (most of the time?) she #-just gives them a one trip to memory loss and set them free. which i do know it's kinda like death in genshin's lore but still.#I just find that pretty interesting.#also the cutscene where clervie says goodbye n stuff. It makes me cry EVERY TIME. ARGHHHH TRAGIC CHILDHOOD DOOMED YURI MY BELOVED :(((#clervie makes me so sad man. the fact that she just. accepts death. she really just let peruere kill her huh. crucabena when I fucking get #the hopelessness getting to her at that point. all attempts of freedom failed until that day..... GOD. and clervie finally getting closure-#-in the story quest as a spirit... I just..... man.........#on a lighter note :)#I got obsessed with a bloodborne OST LMAO. the uhh the lugwig boss theme. esp the sec phase one. it's SO GOOD. I first heard abt it in a-#-vid analyzing the ost musically. At the time i was like. woah. cool. what a cool sounding track. fast foward to like. a day before 4.6 #I'm watching a genshin theory video and I heard the music in the bg. I recognized it but I couldn't remember where I heard it from #UNTIL I REMEMBERED. and looked it up. And I have not known peace since. good music.#anw I've been rambling too much so yeah. gn my dear fellows!!

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honkshoo-zzz · 6 months

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@quazies AAHUAUAUAUUASYGDHAGGAHDHSJDFJSKXJSKRJENEFJKSXJJEKSKDBRJRODSKBDSKDLDMS

TY QUAZIES FOR THIS BLESSING UPON MY HOME I LOVE HIM SO MUCH HE WILL BE TREASURED FOREVER

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always-a-joyful-note · 3 months

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This is actually the most important panel ever

#idolish7 spoilers #idolish7 #fandom spamdom #note's notes #LOOK AT HER IM CRYING #now that the story is finished and she is still 15 im gonna headcanon that she has a growth spurt and is pretty tall for a woman #just because look at her vibe!!#she really does have tamakis cool vibe #can definitely imagine her having a cool female idol image and people being thrown off when she is violent and unhinged...#...and like doing cute things like cooking except they turn out to be like sogos spice nightmares #also once again im in love with her and isumis friendship #they are like sangah and dokja to me in some ways

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imblocking-you · 2 months

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AINT NO WAY THEYRE SHIPPING QUILL WITH NEBULA

#guardians of the galaxy #volume 3 #guardians of the galaxy vol. 3 #ALSO MANTIS IS SO HOT WHY DOES NO ONE EVER TALK AB IT #nebula was my bias but bro SHES SO FINE #she meaning mantis WAHAHAHAHA #// maple #lowkey i thought the security lady at orgcorp was jodi sta. maria lawl #and the songs used here are always a vibe :D #WOAHH the nebula gamora and quill screamoff in the ship was saur goodd sksjsk #adam himbo asf LMFAOSJSJS #gamora not knowing who is talking on the intercom shows she's not really as close to the ravagers just yet T T #so counter earth is just furrydom #MIKU??#HIDING GUNS IN GROOT IS A FIREEE IDEAAANSJSH #i have an inkling this dude with the passkey is filipino #WHY ARE THE SCREAMING MATCHES HERE SO GOOD WHAT #SHITS SAD FOR NO REASON #got me attached to a talking raccoon COME AWN NOW #NEBULA CRYING IM BAWLING #the fact that comet was a reference to laika #drax coming through by making kids laugh GAHAHAHSJA #LMFAO ALSO KNOWING THE LANGUAGE LOLOLOL #'fell out of your bag' as if she didnt do a whats in my bad while they were gone 😭#the new arrow dude's awakening LETS GO #'did that look cool?'#'im done runnin' AYOOOO #theyre still saving adam 😭#gamora getting the last shot at bro feels perfectly served #I KNEW ADAM WAS GONNA COME THRU SOMEHOW

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sharp-tooths · 1 year

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Thinking about the fact that Knives loved western movies as a kid and liked the idea of gunslingers and how after the crash he took the gun from a man he killed and gave it to vash, not only because he wanted his brother to protect himself and join him in killing humans, but because he thought gunslingers were cool. He gave Vash a gun cause he thought having his brother be a gunslinger on a desert planet would be cool. Just like a western movie.

Im dying

#trigun stampede #millions knives #vash the stampede #im just gonna go lie on the floor and cry for a while again #kni at the ripe old age of maybe 7 years old:#my names going to be millions knives #and my brother is going to be a cool gunslinger #and were going to protect our people and kill all of humanity!#im sobbing #on one hand i can see why vash would still so readily forgive him despite the things hes done that alot of ppl would find irredeemable #but also. kni has already been so blindingly consumed by his fear fuled rage #that hes come full circle and doesnt realize hes committed the very same acts he condemns humans for doing to plants #on the very people he was trying to protect #his brother and all the remaining dependent plants #and i personally think the way he went about it was so much more unforgivable and horrific #cause what the ever loving FUCK that was in episode 11 makes me want to puke #and in the beginning of episode 12 i actually almost did #i didnt mean to start ranting in the tags i just have FEELINGS #trigun stampede spoilers

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zeddertop-bugster · 10 months

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i almost posted this in doatkcord but i think i just got scared and ran away. I dont remember. but i did get scared. BUt some of you are here so i will offer this to the smaller...smaller audience on Tumble. thanks

#doing it scared doing it scared #gonna instantly post over w artfights dw #doatk #diary of a tourney kid #digital art #digital artist #fandom art #jake from state farm #THE INNOCENT #girl im gonna be real i habe no idea what the actual lore is and there are so many docs in the dicord and it goes back so far #im in love but idk if i have that brainspace while going to college going into work but it seems cool #ANyways doing it scared doibg it scared doing it SCAREEEDDDSS #IK THE PAPER EFFECT ISNT THERE ON THE GASTER BLASTED GUYS BUT I WANTED TO GIVE ITS A SHOT #AUGH SCREAMING CRYING BC IDK WHAT IM DOING i just wanted to ummmm ....try #ill do better later probably but i gotta draw my besties blorbo first post artfights scream go to work go to school explose and DIE or smth #(oh yeah some of the lYers got. fucked up and dont look to close basically)#body horror #body horror cw #← i forgor

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