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anteroom-of-death · 2 months

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Series 8 of doctor who is legit the most funny shit ever. Like, Clara is treating both a time lord and a solider like you treat the side piece. Missy is out here trying to plan the most elaborate "get your man back scheme" that verges into "planning a threesome". That Time Lord is acting like a jealous 17 year old who's listened to too Much Carrie Underwood and caught her bf making out with a teacher. And Danny just wants to date the pretty English teacher...

Polyamory would have made shit worse and better.

#personal #doctor who #series 8 #danny pink #gomez!master #clara oswald #12th doctor #its a love story #no it aint but you get my drift #yea #join me in my spiral #lol #oh an olly reeders there #the fuck #we cannot escape fetus boy

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foibles-fables · 2 months

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A thought I had today...come walk with me...

If Talanah had stayed at the base in HFW--as we now know was the original plan--one would assume that the flower would still be her gift for Aloy after finishing her Companion Quest™, just like the rest of the gang. Which by itself is enough to make me wanna put my head through walls until I pass out, but also consider--

What might Aloy's comment have been the first time she scanned it?

"I'm really glad Talanah stayed. It seems like it's cheering her up after everything. Makes me happy to get to spend more time with her, too."

#just the implied 'this flower is for you' conversation would be enough to give me a mortal wound #besties who wants to join me in this spiralling #slappin my clown shoes all over the tumblr #honk honk #horizon forbidden west #aloy x talanah #aloy #talanah khane padish

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symbiotic-slime · 11 days

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would you guys be interested in venom/the magnus archives crossover fan art

#I wanna draw the guys as avatars #also I think it would be a fun challenge to try to make Venom visibly an avatar of the hunt #because they already look like that #but I have ideas for the others :3 #venom #venom comics #venom movies #the magnus archives #I’m going to elaborate in the tags because I can #so Eddie is 100% an avatar of the corruption #and is also the type of guy who willingly became an avatar #he’s so deranged he would be enthralled by the wasp nest in his attic #he would be a victim of the lonely though #like especially comics!Eddie #because his bond with the symbiote is so deep that like. being singular sends him into a depressive spiral #flash is an avatar of the slaughter #but he’s not deranged like Eddie his was more of a result of his situation #like being a bully and then joining the military #very slaughter coded #and yes he’s made up for the bullying so I’m not sure how that would play in?? but he still does have some anger issues #he’s a victim of the web #like one the alcoholism is classic web #and two being manipulated. like the whole agent venom arc where he was essentially being blackmailed by jack olantern #venom is a manifestation of the corruption #an avatar of the hunt #and probably also a victim of the lonely #like I think the idea of being alone as a being who’s whole purpose is to bond and connect with a host would be devastating #recently I think they could probably also be a victim of the desolation given that everyone important to them keeps fucking dying lmao #I’m kinda second guessing myself with flash because he’s just so damn normal like he doesn’t revel in war but I also want to give him one #do any of my followers know both of these. if so please help me out I’m struggling with flash 😭

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caelanglang · 9 months

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https://archiveofourown.org/works/46673284

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Thank you for sharing this anon! I'm sorry I left this in my inbox for a long while but I finally got to read it and it's very beautiful ;w;

The motifs and structure, the vivid imagery and tone are all so well done :,)) (the age 20 one killed me orz)

Go read it if you have the time folks! It's a really beautiful one-shot

I especially love the last lines augh

#also the way how the writer showed skk's separation #bc same idk if its a hot take but i doubt chuuya felt the drastic grief or betrayal when dazai left #yeah he probably thought of it in some sort of bitter manner? but not necessarily 'oh i hate you for betraying me and leaving me behind'#sorry i dont really join discourse but thats my hot take #extra hot take is that chuuya of all people would understand and even support dazai leaving to respect a friend's dying words #i wonder if he suddenly thought of murase #okay bye i am not gonna spiral to angst aksjhalskg #but thanks for the fic recommendation anon!#inbox #fic rec

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liyazaki · 2 years

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the knife & handcuffs | kinnporsche, ep. 6

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okiroash · 2 months

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I still love ghost trick,, I'm just taking a bit of a break from it since my mind and hand been itching to rot on something else 💥💥 (still having soft feelings towards the ghost trick guy..)

if you love rpgmaker horror games.. totally check out end roll,, IT'S FREE!!!!! (manlybadasshero also made a playthrough of it, if you want to watch)

#both of these games are ripping my heart out #one is out of amazement and the other is from extreme grief #a game so sad the person have to put “this game's depressing as hell and it will continue on a downward spiral” in the warning #and yes. I can say that's the truth.. everything HURTS #come join in the pain with me #💭...

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dayas · 1 year

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wherever you stray, i follow

kiara doesn’t know what to believe in anymore. conversely, the only thing jj believes in is her.

or, alternatively, the jiara hug spec fic part two (also known as the jiara bracelet spec fic (k’s version)).

out on ao3 !

#jiara #jiara fic #jiara spec fic #jiara spec fic pt 2 #IT’S FINALLY HERE IT’S FINALLY DONE TAKE IT TAKE IT FROM ME #seriously i cannot look at it any more my brain has been on fire for like 2 weeks straight 🤡#all i can say is i tried 🙏🏽🫶🏽#obx #jj maybank #kiara carrera #jj maybank x kiara carrera #otp: ‘hi’ ‘sup’#otp: nothing to lose #k writes #collapsing until further notice #war is over like i’m so happy right now #ANYWAYS hope y’all enjoy and i hope it’s okay!!! something to help tide us over until trailer day/join in the spiraling and jump headfirst #🫶🏽

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fluffs-n-stuffs · 5 months

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"Do you not realize it? Do you... truly not see what this means?"

The next Destiny Bond update is in progress! ❄️✨ –> Check out the latest part here 🔷 –> New to the series? Follow from the start! 💜

#we back for the winter season bois :} ☃️#got some Particularly Fun parts I wanna have done before the end of the year--that I'll hopefully have time to do over the term break !!! 💫#it's actually so? insane? how we're nearing the end of the year already??????????????HUH #just a little over a week and some Ridiculous cramming I'll have to pull off (no thanks to past me sdskjfs) before I'm free for the holiday #I mean I'd--still have freelancing to do of course but without the looming dread of actively avoiding college responsibilities at least /lh #it's even more insane somehow looking back on when I actually started this whole comic that spiraled Wildly out of controlSKDJFNSDFS #to think that this all started from a prompt I had a few days after my birthday--into its own whole story I wanna see through is---#honestly something I'm really proud of. something I'm really happy I got to do for myself since it's-above all a passion project if anythin #I'm a lot slower these days what with juggling my own mental crises here and there on top of work for sure #but I get to come back to working on this whenever I find myself feeling down or with some free time to unwind and it's--really nice 💖💕#and we're still in the beginning I swear to god we're still so early I'm so sorry this is gonna take so longSDHFIUSHDNFKJSDHS #but it bears repeating how thankful I am to everyone who's joined along for this ride- who've been so wonderful and patient thus far #to know that even a handful of people out there tune in to this silly ol thing and are genuinely excited for its sporadic updates--#--has been a definite highlight in what's been a- Ridiculously--almost comically cruel year (in ways I can't begin to express skjdfnsdfs)#and what with this holiday season being all about giving and gratitude---I want to emphasize on how thankful I am for all of y'all 💖💖💖#I'll see what surprises I can sneak in to my schedule these coming weeks- the insanity of these following updates included hehee ✨#Destiny Bond comicverse #mystery man eusine #eusine pokemon #pokemon #pokemon fancomic #pokemon gsc #pokemon hgss #comic wip

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miscellaneoussmp · 6 months

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The four other wips I need to finish <<<<< A proper fic/drabble about Bad and Cellbit's relationship (the idea grabbed me by the throat and won't let go).

#qsmp #qsmp badboyhalo #qsmp cellbit #(i probably shouldnt tag but im going to anyway yall get to join me in my spiral)

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burntblueberrywaffles · 8 months

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Went from shit mental health, to oh maybe I’m ok actually :) to the one fuckign thing I was looking forward to with school starting again getting canceled and now my anxiety is raging again 🫠

#i don’t even know why #i cant pinpoint a thing that’s stressing me out I’m just;;;;#fuckign WHY #my friend was supposed to join the dnd game and I was looking to it so fuckign much but apparently it won’t work out bc of her schedule #i think if I don’t have a thing to look forward to every week to keep me sane I’ll start spiraling lol #like I usually have my school’s art comitee every week #but that doesn’t start until way alter in the year and my good friend who was in it changed school #also this summer I had Star Wars screenings with the discord besties but we’re done watching most of the movies already #Ive already been feeling the RSD acting up so bad recently #and that usually means a spiral of self isolation #cause I wnat to talk with my friend but any conversation that doesn’t go 100% perfectly could set me off #welp #burntblueberrywaffles

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anteroom-of-death · 2 months

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@fellshish

#personal #memes #malcolm tucker #peter capaldi #armando iannucci #the thick of it #in the loop #join me in my spiral #will you

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circesoracle · 2 months

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my current tv rewatch list being Glee, Riverdale and Succession says more about me than any MBTI enneagram personality quiz ever could

#mutuals come join me in this madness spiral #honourable mention to my movie rewatch list which is infinite and dazzling as the cosmos

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bunnyb34r · 5 months

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I know I should just block (and not OPEN) tags and posts ab '24 but my brain is stupid and likes to be informed even if it makes me worse

#marquilla #im not even joking when i say this next election makes me wanna kms so bad. im fucking terrified and i feel like we already know what's #gonna happen. not bc people arent voting or organizing i mean bc of how far the right has gotten and how angry they are that a #dem won so theyre gonna show up in droves and it's like god i wish we could idk have some safegaurds in place??? like oh idk you #incite an insurrection you Can't run for president?? but also that wouldnt fully stop shit bc florida has its own neo nazi running and #theres more behind him in the wings. but like idk man i just get so fucking suicidal thinking ab the future #and my drs. are like well then dont look at the news??? 'i sure dont' mkay thats great (not) but um i CAN'T not watch bc i need to #be informed i need to know. and they're like well then stop worrying ab it til election day?? LIKE THAT HELPS #so i just dont bring it up. and i just spiral and have breakdowns in the shower and think ab making a will and shit yknow normal stuff #bc this is fine! just dont engage! stop worrying it's like a year away! it MIGHT get better! idk Join in your community then??#like yes yes thats a start but with what fucking energy when im bedbound most of the time im not working and that doesnt stop these fascist #s like me helping the community garden would be good for the community and probably my mental health in general BUT that doesnt deal with #the actual fear that makes me wanna Kermit #like it really fucking feels like all i can do is pray and hope god somehow intervenes (rapture anyone?) and that things do go well and #that the outright outspoken nzis don't win but like I really just wanna die man #i know the outcome more than likely will not directly affect my life bc im white. cis passing. and can go back in the closet regretfully #but like that doesnt reassure me any bc i have friends and loved ones and generally just give a shit ab other people and how this WILL #affect them directly and that terrifies me. it really feels like we cant ever have a moment to just exist yknow??#idk man i just wanna die bc im so scared haha how fun (: how normal (: this is fine. everything is fine.

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kabretoss · 5 months

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It's funny to be stuck in the 'lonely and sad' vortex when you also feel like you've forgotten how to actually talk to people normally. Like, I feel like I have to earn the privilege of talking to people when I'm in lonely and sad by having talked to them a sufficient amount when I'm feeling normal and okay, but I don't talk to anyone enough to cross that threshold.

I'm like... 50% sure... some of my friends would disagree with this assessment. But I also know there's an event horizon you can cross where you reach out enough times when you're lonely and sad and you just become the lonely, sad friend who never talks about anything but their problems.

I guess essentially I'm not very good at friendship, probably due to autism brain and lack of practice, and therefore don't really believe I should be able to reap any of the benefits of friendship, either. I know it's not something I can fix when I'm feeling the way I'm feeling right now, too, but I also don't trust myself to fix it when I'm feeling more okay.

How do people do this? It's so fuckin hard.

#it also doesn't help that being sad makes me stupid and unfunny #I genuinely forget *how* to find something fun or enjoyable or funny and the brain will not pony up the chemicals to be delighted or curiou #so I end up being a real drag to talk to #and in group conversations I drop out #and even when I'm *trying* to engage with other peoples' stuff #I can't get my brain to do it #I zone out and then feel ashamed #and everyone else is talking #and I'm just #sad #this isn't anybody else's problem but mine #there's someone in a server I joined recently who's so good about trying to engage everyone in their hyperfocus #and I feel like I let them down #like I see the effort they put into trying to make everyone feel included #and I do!#but I can't get engaged to the degree that I need to be in order to sustain a presence in the conversation #and I lose my place #and I lose track of what's going on #and it just becomes this downward spiral #and then I disappear from the rest of the server because I'm embarrassed that I can't engage to the depth that I GENUINELY WANT TO #and I'm trying to be compassionate to myself because “dad with cancer” is kind of a reasonable thing to be absolutely wrecked about #not to mention the rest of it with my brothers and my fucking body #but. I genuinely have no one who can hear about it. which again is nobody's problem but mine and I don't expect random acquaintences to car #shit I tried to talk about it to a friend a few weeks ago and got REALLY badly shut down #and that was the first and last time I talked to anyone about it other than my therapist and my wife #and a therapist and a wife do not a whole support system make #but what do you do when you've failed to make friends close enough that they're willing to be there when you're feeling lonely and sad?#you try to make new friends #or deepen your casual acquaintences #but now you're too lonely and sad to be interesting and fun

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perkeleen-lavellan · 11 months

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In the interview for the illustrated guide to Twilight Stephanie Meyer, when asked about Alice, said something along the lines of, I wish there was a real person like that, a friend like that, because she was so wonderful there had to be someone like her, and I had to sit down (I was reading it don't @ me) and joke to myself "Well girl what you want is a lesbian bestie with a crush on your heterosexual self gl"

#i rewatched the movies on the train to my moms and i spiraled #i always do when i do it #i start looking at the alice bella tag and looking for obscure twilight fanfic #the twilight renaissance is probably the best thing to happen to me #still haven't found anyone making the jaspe x alice x bella x rosalie x emmet poly ship come to life at least to my satisfaction though #edward and jacob are kissing on the side #and like #I'm sorry to be a weirdo i know it turns into a paternal relationship in canon but where's my au where that doesn't happen #and the two men tmrepressing their homoerotic desires towards other men strike out by their twosome and start dating and twilight canon #diverges like #a lot #i'm talking about edward and carlisle #right after turning edward maybe #carlisle did do that because he was insanely lonely #and edward has repressed homosexual vines tbh #like it is so important to him to be the perfect gentleman and whatever he looked up to his army dad and would have joined the army #but he's just out here playing instruments and shit #he is gay ma'am #he just hasn't accepted it yet #he still thinks he can make it straight if he's just oerfect at it #so yeah i think him and carlisle should have become a duo actually #and i need the werewolves to have gay imprintings and platonic imprintings #like shit it was supposed to be 'you'd become whatever she needs me to be' so just have one of them date a girl like normalä #and they can have a bebe and the wolf can imprint on them and become father of the century #or mother leah could do it too but she's so bi she might just end up with a lady friend #fuck you got me twilight posting #twilight

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her-midas-touch · 4 months

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You ever just plan to get your life together and it’s a completely fool-proof plan and then some annoying higher power up there just goes LOL NOPE SUFFER

(excuse me while I go cope by writing a poem about it)

#this is about school btw ignore me ughhh I hate everything #istg please stop eating popcorn up there I’m literally losing my mind smhh #oh the cruelties of this world #tis I everyone #random thoughts #ari says things that will change nothing but if nothing we must agonize #yes im having ramble-y conversations in the tags and what about it #join me on this slow spiral into insanity #oh and also I hate school #have a nice day if you happen to stumble across this I’m praying for you

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