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redhairedwolfwitch · 1 year

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Sombra y Amor

First part - Sombra y Fuego

A/n: I forgot where I was going with this part 2, but I have a vague idea of a timeline running up to the 2023 summer transfer window👀 but keep in mind it's set in the 2021/22 season in this part so whoops. I decided to be nice since I passed my driving theory test today:)

Summary: R’s family were family friends of the Putellas family, R grew up with them, goes over to help establish Manchester United WFC whilst studying there, over the years befriends some Dutchies and Ona when she arrives too.

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Whoever organised the villas for Ibiza clearly thought you needed to be babysat. You were in the room next to Alexia’s, and Alba was in the same villa too.

The agreement for your birthday was two celebrations, one in Manchester, which you had with your United teammates, a celebration that ended with you waking up the next morning with Ona using your chest as a pillow, and a teasing text on your phone from Jill, about how you fell asleep on the call with her.

The other celebration would be in Ibiza with as many of your Spanish national teammates as possible, plus, much to Alexia’s resistance, and Jenni’s encouragement, Jill had tagged along, meeting some of her Wolfsburg teammates in the process.

You weren’t going to admit that you’d been staying up to work on your final assignment of the trimester, the part-time degree taking up chunks of your time when you weren’t training for a match or participating in said matches.

Your sleep schedule was a mess though because of it, Ona having woken you up so you could both get to the airport in time to head back to Spain being one of the more significant events. Or how you slept on Ona’s shoulder for most of the flight back.

Footsteps approaching your room were the first thing you heard, but whoever it was knocked gently, waiting before opening the door slightly, then walking in. You ruled out Alba, Ona and Jill, and nobody else would walk into your room whilst you were sleeping but one. The knocking and waiting, the door opening slightly to peek in, it was Alexia.

“Buenos días mi pequeña sombra… are you awake? I hope you are, Jenni’s plan was to dump water on you, but I said I would check first…” Her voice was soft, reminding you of when you were a child, sneaking into her bed when you had nightmares. You would choose Alexia over Alba then because Alba accidentally rolled you out of her bed, waking up the entire Putellas household because you had hit your head on the way to the floor.

A soft groan left your mouth as you rolled over, leaving space for Alexia to sit on the edge of the bed, her hand gently pulling down the back of your pyjama shirt from where it had rolled up.

“Hm… buenos días…” you whispered, rubbing at your eyes as you rolled over to look at her.

“What’s wrong? You have that look on your face- the same one you had when… what’s bothering you?” You trailed off, avoiding admitting what you had thought of last time Alexia had that expression on her face.

“You re-signed with United?” Your signing with United in 2018 had taken Alexia, Alba and Eli by surprise, but you explained your reasons well, for the three year contract anyway, but now you were tacking on another two years, taking you up to summer 2023.

“My degree… It's taking longer than I thought, since it’s part time, but after the lockdowns, the universities got better at online work, so I’m ahead… I re-signed because it’s going to take another year at least, and United is getting better. Ona’s contract is until 2023 too, if they activate the option year. The WSL is fun, and it’s not like Barcelona needs Sombra.” You replied, about to bury your face in your pillow but Alexia let out a sigh.

“By the way, thanks for kicking Chelsa’s ass in the finals.” You changed the subject, seeing the disappointment in your older sister’s eyes at you saying Barcelona didn’t need Sombra, referring to yourself like that.

“Come on, get dressed, you’re missing breakfast. Jenni, hold off on the water. Sombra is awake.” Alexia nudged you, calling out to Jenni, who let out a bored groan in the hallway, peeking her head in as Alexia nudged you again, spotting you going back to sleep.

“Finally!” Jill teased you whilst Ona laughed, but you chose to ignore them both in favour of breakfast, sitting down next to Ona with Jill opposite you. You could feel other eyes on you as you realised that Alba, Jenni and Alexia were all watching you three.

“Hoe zijn je nieuwe teamgenoten?”

Jill let out a chuckle before replying in Dutch, the two of you chattering away as Ona looked overwhelmed, but a smile lit up her face when she saw the looks on the other Spanish players’ faces.

“How much of that do you understand?”

“Jackie’s Dutch lessons are really good, plus I like the looks on everyone’s faces when faced with a language they don’t understand.” You shrugged, before Jill said something in Dutch that left your face burning.

“Ik probeerde dat te vergeten."

Jill laughed at that, leaving you to huff as your sisters looked confused, and Ona shook her head in amusement, having a slight idea of what was happening.

“Let’s move on… what are we doing today? Also where is everyone else?” You glanced around, taking another bite of your breakfast.

“They went to rent a boat.” Jenni explained, as you got up to make a drink, following you over to make a coffee.

“A boat?”

“Yes. You can reenact Titanic.” Jenni smirked, but you frowned in confusion, taking a moment before realising.

“I’d understand that reference, if I had actually been awake during that movie.” You retorted, watching as Jenni removed the teaspoon from her coffee cup.

“Have you told Alexia about when we’re back in Barcelona? What did Mapi say?” Jenni asked into her coffee, sparing a glance in the direction of your sisters as you hummed.

“Mapi offered to do it herself, but Alexia would kill her. I haven’t told Alexia, but I think she’s still a little offended that I went with Alba for my fourth one, instead of with her. She had a media thing so couldn’t go with me.”

“Fourth? It is like you are growing up before my eyes!” Jenni teased, grinning as you grimaced into your drink.

“You’ve known me for years-”

“What are you two talking about?” Alba raised an eyebrow, walking over to make herself a drink.

“Nothing!” “Nothing!”

///

“Are you sure those three aren’t all dating?” Lola gestured to where you, Jill and Ona were on the dancefloor together.

“We’re sure, but… I don’t think our baby sister realises anything beyond trying to annoy Alexia.” Alba replied before disappearing onto the dance floor.

“Annoy you?” Lola enquired, turning to Alexia, who rolled her eyes, swaying to the music slightly as she turned to look at Lola, no longer watching you, Jill and Ona.

“My baby sisters… who have somehow disappeared?” Alexia frowned, looking over the dancefloor again to spot Ona dancing with Leila, and Jill was talking to some of her Wolfsburg teammates.

“Maybe they wanted some air?” Lola suggested, looking over the dancefloor and seeing no indication of you or Alba anywhere.

///

You had to grow out of sneaking into Alexia’s room as you grew up, because she grew up too, and you saw her less and less due to football. Instead, you’d lay awake at night, staring up at the ceiling trapped in your thoughts. Sometimes Alba would find you kicking a football outside, or Eli would wake up to find you studying at the dining room table in the early morning.

Exiting your room at the villa, your feet were soft against the floor, tapping your knuckles against the door you needed carefully, waiting before opening the door enough to peek in hesitantly. It was only when you saw that it was safe that you slipped into the room, curling up on the floor next to Alexia’s bed.

You tried not to flinch as you heard the bedsheets rustle, but Alexia was peeking over the bed to look down at you curled up on the floor.

“What’s wrong? You had a nightmare? Why are you on the floor?” Alexia whispered into the darkness, hearing you let out a sigh.

“I can’t sleep. Jill admitted she’s had feelings for me for a while, but she’s leaving for Germany, and I’m not going to see her unless Spain plays against the Netherlands and I’m on the roster. We both accepted it was a missed opportunity, but it still hurts.” You wrapped your arms around yourself, curling up further on the floor until Alexia reached down to rub your shoulder.

“I’m sorry, mi pequeña sombra, although, you’re not that little anymore…”

“I’m still five years younger… even if I’m not that toddler running after you and Alba anymore.” You replied, leaning into your sister’s touch as she huffed.

“The ball was bigger than your legs but you wanted to play with me. You would cry if I wouldn’t let you. Mi pequeña sombra… my little shadow…”

“Too long for a jersey. I still remember when they started calling me Sombra, but it didn’t warm my heart like mi pequeña sombra did. You called me just Sombra once, and I wanted to cry. You’re my sister, even if we’re not blood. You, Alba, Eli, you’re more my family than… them. I love you.” your rambling was cut off as Alexia shifted in her bed, wrapping her arms around you to pull you into her, the hold reminding you of when you were little, clinging to your big sister after nightmares had woken you up.

“I love you, mi pequeña sombra, my littlest sister… Does Alba know about it?” Alexia hummed, gently rubbing your back as you shifted.

“Yeah, we talked the entire way back here from the club, I think I wrecked her plans to dance with whoever she was eyeing at the club but if Ona saw me cry, or Jill realised her confession made me cry… Alba’s had my back ever since she threw a boy in the mud for trying to kiss me.”

“¿Qué?” Alexia almost flew up from the bed, confusion all over her face at what you had said, quickly asking when this had happened, and where she was at the time of the event.

“We were at the park. You had gone off to play football with the big kids, and I wasn’t allowed to join you since I was seven, you were twelve, Alba was nine. I’d played with the boy before on the playground, but I don’t know why he thought kissing me was a good idea. Alba spotted it, shoved him into the mud and glared at him, he cried, and I cried too when Eli came over… and that’s the story of how a boy was almost my first kiss.”

“Remind me to thank Alba. Wait, almost your first kiss… who was your first kiss?” Alexia asked, but you were either asleep, or pretending to, as Alexia got no answer. Who your first kiss was was something only you and some of the Spanish squad from the under 17’s championships in Iceland knew.

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Your sleeping-in habit was apparently contagious. You and Alexia both were still sleeping when Alba went to check on you, finding your bed empty, so she headed towards Alexia’s room, finding you asleep, having stolen the blanket from a sleeping Alexia, and your foot was dangling off the bed.

A shriek echoed through the villa, leaving everyone else in the villa, and outside it in the pool to immediately look around, wondering what had happened.

“Alba! Don’t do that!” you yelled, having awoken to a hand grabbing your ankle, whilst Alexia flew up at your shriek, protectiveness in overdrive until she realised it was only Alba pranking you.

“Lo siento, but you left your foot dangling over the edge.” Alba smirked, but you huffed, glancing around to realise you were not in your bed, or your room, and the three of you were not alone.

“Buenos días, everyone!” you got out of bed, heading into the hallway, bypassing the audience to head to your room to get ready for the day. It wasn’t until they heard another shriek for Ona that had them hurrying to your room, finding you jumping around.

“What’s going on?”

“I got my grade back on my assignment, the one I stayed up until 2am to finish, I got 75! That’s a first class!” you exclaimed, jumping around in excitement as Ona eventually realised what you had said, and what assignment you were talking about, quickly jumping into your arms to join your celebrations.

You didn’t see the way your sisters exchanged looks, because you were busy jumping around with Ona in your arms, grins on both your faces.

///

Floating in the pool, you stared up at the blue cloudless sky, the water rippling gently against your skin.

It was only when you heard a sploosh, eyes staying on the sky as the water rocked you roughly, turning your head to spot Ona swimming towards you.

“What are you doing?” Ona enquired, floating on her back next to you.

“Just thinking.”

“Be careful!” Ona teased, making you huff and roll your eyes, spotting a lone cloud drifting over.

“You, thinking can be dangerous, Sombra.” A new voice teased, making you and Ona sink instead of float, hurrying to swim over to the edge of the pool where Laia Aleixandri stood with a smirk.

“Charming… so, are you going to stand there like a lawn ornament or swim with us?”

“You two weren’t doing much swimming.” Laia deadpanned whilst Ona frowned.

“Lawn ornament?”

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“Do you know who the first kiss was with?” Alexia quietly enquired to Alba, spotting you, Laia and Ona chatting in the pool.

“You don’t?” Alba went to tease, but Alexia’s sigh was enough to stop Alba from teasing her older sister, “I just know it happened, no details, too awkward to talk about it, but it was with a girl.”

“When, Alba, when?”

“That football trip in Iceland.” Alba replied, trying to recall more.

“In 2015?” Alexia perked up, trying to recall who would have been on the Spain squad back then.

“Hey, we’re getting ready to go to the restaurant now!” Lola called out, whilst Jenni tried to jokingly wrangle everyone out of the pool with a broom.

“Why are you so interested in my first kiss anyway? It’s not like I know who yours was, or that I want to…” you dramatically grimaced as Alexia let out a gasp, whilst Alba snickered, watching on as Alexia went to tease you back.

“So it was in Iceland with the under 17’s… you’re close to a lot of our national teammates-” Alexia began but you ducked behind Ona and Laia.

“Was not us!” the two defended themselves, hurrying after you as you all went to get ready for the restaurant, not going to dinner in your swimsuits.

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“You’re so nosy today.” You pointed out, sipping your drink through a paper straw as Alexia put down her glass.

“You never told me-”

“The entire concept of a first kiss is awkward, and I haven’t spoken to her in a while because she plays in Spain, like nearly everyone else on the national team besides Ona, who isn’t going to tell you, and neither is Laia, who I also haven’t seen in ages so…” you shrugged, turning to talk to Laia, whilst Alexia sighed.

“First kiss, that happened already?” Lola turned, raising an eyebrow as she remembered you from years ago, how little you were.

“Five years ago apparently… no idea who it is, but someone from the national team during the under 17’s in Iceland. Not Ona or Laia…”

“Maybe you should drop it, Sombra does not have to kiss and tell.” Jenni suggested, leaving Alexia to nod in agreement, especially since dinner was beginning to arrive.

“You never told her?” Ona whispered, leaving you to shrug.

“You know me, I don’t realise people like me until it’s too late. Carmen, Jill, there was even a girl at school, we were fourteen. No point telling my sisters every missed opportunity of a relationship.” You explained quietly, poking at your meal with the fork, your appetite gone as you recalled what Jill had admitted to you yesterday.

Ona frowned slightly, reaching over to take your hand and squeeze it gently, gaining a forced smile from you in response which she shook her head at.

“How about we celebrate your assignment grade, that first, not your first kiss?” Ona asked, making you laugh slightly too loud as you gained the attention of some of the others.

“Fine, fine, yeah, let’s do that.”

///

Heading back to Barcelona, your sisters had noticed your sneakiness, but hadn’t been able to figure out why. Jill had left to pack up her stuff in London for the move to Wolfsburg, so it wasn’t about her.

“Have you seen-” Alexia began to ask Alba, but Alba already knew, since you three were supposed to be going out for dinner with Eli soon.

“Out with Mapi and Jenni-”

“Dios mío, they went out to get tattoos.” Alexia let out a sigh, but Alba wasn’t done.

“Leila and Ona too.”

“Sure, everyone else… didn’t even ask me.” Alexia began to sulk, much to Alba’s amusement.

///

“Happy?” Leila enquired, turning around to see you were giving Ona a piggyback as the five of you walked through the streets of Barcelona.

“Sí!” you grinned, but let out a groan when Jenni leaned back to pat your head, making a remark in Spanish about how you were growing up before her eyes.

“You’ve known me for years!”

“You were so little!” Jenni replied, pretending to wipe away a tear.

“And now I live in another country to play club football whilst studying for my degree, and have a few tattoos so…” you shrugged, shifting slightly to not drop Ona.

“You have more than a few!” Ona cut in, gaining Mapi’s attention.

“The ones on my ribs are private!” but what you said didn’t help, as Mapi looked between you and Ona on your back.

“But Ona saw them?”

Jenni and Leila stopped walking to raise eyebrows at you and Ona then.

“We share a flat, and we don’t have a shower curtain, it’s a pane of glass.” You deadpanned, about to retort when your phone began to ring in your pocket, “I’m going to be late for dinner, look, if you’re that interested in my tattoos, I’ll snapchat you… just not the rib ones, Alexia looked murderous when she found out Ona saw one, and that Jill went with me to get one done…”

“Alexia looked murderous about that? Good luck to whoever you end up dating!” Mapi deadpanned, noticing the look on Ona’s face as you huffed.

“No, too young to date!” Jenni cut in, with Leila agreeing, whilst Mapi began to laugh and Ona buried her face in your shoulder to hide her laughter.

“Literally the same age as Ona!”

///

Heading back to Manchester, you hugged Alexia, Alba and Eli tightly, not wanting to let go but your home was in Manchester, at least for the next two years.

“Ay, you’ll miss your flight.” Alba poked you in the sides as you fumbled with your suitcase handle.

“You have to go, mi pequeña sombra.” Alexia hummed, noticing your hesitation, but you nodded, smiling softly before turning to walk into the terminal.

///

Spain didn’t qualify for the Olympics in Tokyo, so you and Ona were well rested by the time that pre-season for the 2021/22 season began. Starting with some club friendlies, then the WSL began. The first game back against Reading was memorable, for more reasons than one, as Ona had scored the second goal in the match, Kirsty getting the first, and you scoring the third one.

The first game back was also memorable because of the meowing you heard on the way back from the cafe you had picked up breakfast from for you and Ona the morning after. You both had the day off, but you had volunteered for breakfast, allowing Ona some more time to sleep.

You froze at the mews, glancing around but there were no signs of the source. Paper bag of breakfast for two in one hand, you hummed, glancing around to try to get closer to the source of the voice.

“Oh, no, poor baby, no, I’ve got you, I’ve got you… Ona’s gonna kill me, I’m bringing home more than just breakfast.”

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Ona didn’t expect you to bring a soggy stinky cardboard box back for breakfast, a box that happened to be transporting a furry meowing creature that was determined to try and eat the breakfast you bought.

“I’m going to find a vet now, just don’t let any of the breakfast get eaten… also, I’m not sure how long the box was in the bins outside the cafe, so… be careful of fleas and ticks.” You grabbed your phone, starting to google, while Ona looked in the box to find the meowing creature trying to climb out. The breakfast sat forgotten on the kitchen counter as you and Ona began to sort out the latest edition to the household.

///

The fuzzball had no identification, and since being found in a soggy cardboard box near the cafe, was assumed to have been abandoned, meaning that after a few pouts between you and Ona, the cat was staying.

“Desayuno.” You ran your finger over the fuzzball’s head, the feline still not happy with the veterinary handling, but was also happier to be out of that box.

“Breakfast? You want to name the cat, breakfast?”

“Yuno for short. I went out to get breakfast for us, and came back with it, and a stray cat, thus, we have Desayuno… Sombra-Batlle.”

“Desayuno Sombra-Batlle?”

“I don’t go by my surname, and legally I’m not a Putellas, so… okay, no Lion King moment for Yuno-” you immediately put down the flailing fluffball who wasn’t enjoying being picked up and held in the air.

“Maybe once Yuno is bigger.” Ona shrugged, looking over at how the fuzzball was now exploring the flat.

“We have a couple of neighbours who can watch Yuno when we’re on away trips.” You added, following the fuzzball around the flat as Ona playfully rolled her eyes, getting her phone out to text Alexia.

///

“How many tattoos do you have now?” Vicky glanced over at you as you held the cafe menu between your fingers in thought, turning it over to make sure you’d considered all the options.

“More than my sisters think I have, but last time I went was with Mapi, Jenni, Leila and Ona in Barcelona a few months back…” you turned the menu over again, not seeing the look on Vicky’s face.

“Did you five book out an entire studio or something?”

“The others have connections, plus it was an excuse to hang out with them, bringing everyone together. Although Alexia gets grumpy every time I come back with another tattoo she didn’t know I had planned. She just needs to wait until her birthday. Tattoos, no matter your background, they bring you together, y’know…”

“That is far too philosophical for someone who used to hide behind Alexia at national team camp.” Vicky pointed out, making you falter, but Ona’s return from the cafe bathroom was enough of a distraction for the conversation to be forgotten.

///

An instagram notification distracted you from your reading, glancing up from the online textbook on your laptop to your phone to look. Yuno’s eyes opened slightly to acknowledge the movement of your arm, but the cat stayed put, happy as could be curled up in your lap (regardless of the fact you were starting to need the toilet.)

“Ona, did you tag me in something on your stories?” You enquired, but Ona had gone to her room for something after the two of you had had dinner, leaving you with a stubborn, sleeping Yuno.

Opening your phone to see what Ona had tagged you in, you chuckled at the photo of you reading, with Yuno in your lap, asleep.

Your phone buzzed again, reminding you of the time as you saw Jackie’s text, quickly opening zoom to join the group call that Jackie had sent you a link to.

“Hoi!”

///

Ona raised an eyebrow as she exited her room, hearing you talking to someone, and as she entered the kitchen, she glanced into the living room to spot you on the couch, on video call to a chunk of the Netherlands national team that you had crossed paths with at Arsenal and through knowing Jackie. Jill was part of the call, the defender discovered as she walked over to the couch, falling into frame of your camera as you leaned back to acknowledge her.

“Hoi, Ona…” you murmured, smiling as Ona sat next to you, waving to the camera. She didn’t know Dutch, but she could still pet Yuno, who stretched in your lap, a paw pressing into your stomach that made you grimace slightly. Yuno had developed a sixth sense that involved being able to press paws over your internal organs.

You froze at a comment made specifically in Dutch so Ona wouldn’t catch on, feeling your face burn as you murmured back a “misschein.” Maybe.

Maybe you looked at Ona like she hung the stars in the sky. Just maybe.

/// hopefully some translations ///

Buenos días mi pequeña sombra - good morning my little shadow

Hoe zijn je nieuwe teamgenoten? - how are your new teammates?

Ik probeerde dat te vergeten. - I tried to forget that.

¿Qué? - what?

Lo siento - I'm sorry

Dios mío - my god

Sí - yes

Desayuno - breakfast

Hoi - hi

misschein - maybe

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kams-corner · 4 months

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Jill Roord Recommendations

[disclaimer: i did not write any of the stories in these masterlists, full credit goes to the respective authors]

Key: *fluff, **angst, ***smut

* | ** friend zoned? - oneshot what happens when you're friendzoned by jill after her move to manchester city

* | ** no longer friends - two parts you and jill have a tricky time navigating your feelings / can you and jill rekindle your relationship Part 1 | Part 2

* lazy day cuddles - oneshot you and jill spend a quiet day in together

* | ** roord to the rescue - oneshot you and jill are keeping your relationship on the down low, doesn't mean she doesn't get jealous sometimes

* | ** | *** kitchen light - oneshot you and jill roord have an extremely complicated relationship

* | ** secret love - oneshot fake dating and moment of jealousy, what's not to love

* | ** "i think i'm in love with you" - oneshot you haven't seen much of jill in a while

* unnamed fic - oneshot no one knows you and jill have been dating for a while

#jill roord #jill roord x reader #jill roord imagine #woso x reader #woso imagine

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wosoimagines · 2 months

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Jill Roord Masterlist

Jersey Swap

Little Sister

Protective

The Secret Is Out

#woso #jill roord #woso imagine #jill roord imagine #woso x reader #woso imagines #jill roord x reader #jill roord imagines

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femininefutbol · 2 years

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kitchen light

transferred/modified from my wattpad and based on this song

prompt: you and jill roord have an extremely complicated relationship

word count: 6.3k

SMUT WARNING

a/n: there are mentions of smut throughout, only read/interact if you are comfortable

‘she got in my car, said take me home’

You pull up at the apartment building you know belongs to Jill's boyfriend, it's the third time this week that Jill has desperately texted you asking if she could be picked up.

"Thank you so much mijn liefje" Jill whispers, she gently kisses along your jawline.

"It's okay Jilly, I promised I would always be here for you and I meant it" you respond, purposely not reacting to the advances set on you by the younger woman sitting in your passenger seat.

Jill suddenly falls back into her seat with a 'hmph' as she receives no reaction to her sexually suggestive behaviour.

"Are you okay love?'' you ask tentatively, your eyes focused on the dark road ahead, your hand making it’s way to Jill's thigh.

"Yeah" she states with a sigh, "can you just take me home?" Jill pouts while grasping your hand tightly in both her hands, not wanting the contact to end anytime soon.

"Yours or mine?" you ask with a smirk, already knowing Jill’s answer and exactly what is going to happen tonight.

"Yours, always. my housemates are too nosy” Jill states, thinking about how Daan and Beth would be on her case if she brought a girl home, especially as she is openly in a relationship with a man.

"As if mine aren't? We're just lucky I'm good at sneaking around" you state. There has been a few too many times where your housemates and teammates, Sam and Erin have asked you the morning after who you had been sneaking around with, each time you have brushed them off stating it was just a random girl you had met at a club, this has given you a reputation of being a player but you doesn't mind as long as the two don't find out about Jill's affair.

‘i bring her to mine, we stumble inside, we didn't even make it past the kitchen light’

It is a struggle for Jill and yourself to make your way into the house, while you tried to avoid Jill's advances in the car the second her lips met yours, you knew that you were in for a long night.

"Jill we need to stop, at least until we get to my bedroom" you whisper against her lips, neither one of you particularly wanting to stop your current actions but you know that you need to in order to not be caught out by your roommates.

Jill pulls the hood of her jumper over her head, the action becoming part of the girl's routine whenever entering the house in order for her identity to remain a mystery to the other Chelsea women.

"It's all clear" you tug at the strings of Jill's hoodie, the only source of light within the house is the dull light above the kitchen stove, this is left on through the night and signals to you that your housemates have gone to bed.

You immediately attach your lips to Jill’s, with your grasp still tightly holding onto the hoodie strings you push Jill against the kitchen counter, easily taking control, holding her between yourself and the counter.

You continue kissing Jill forcefully, your hands trailing her body underneath her hoodie. You grab Jill's waist hoisting her onto the counter, this makes their glaring height difference between you disappear.

"Here or the bedroom?" you ask pulling Jill's hoodie over her head, leaving her in a white lace bralette and Chelsea training shorts that display the number 1, clearly belonging to you.

"Here, just hurry up, I need you to fuck me already" Jill moans out, overwhelmed by each and every move you make across her body.

You don’t waste any time, reaching around Jill's body sliding her off the counter to her feet once she is securely planted on the ground you drop to your knees. You make quick work of sliding the younger girl's shorts and underwear off in one slick movement making Jill shiver in anticipation.

You move your hand up Jill's thigh, stopping right after your fingers brush past her pussy. This causes Jill to groan, frustrated at the lack of contact, the action making you smirk.

You quickly and rather suddenly move your head between Jill's thighs, immediately giving her the attention she so desperately wants. Jill seems to forget her surroundings as she loudly moans with every movement that you make.

You continue delicately licking her folds, every flick of your tongue causing Jill to moan out loudly. You don’t realise that the less than quiet, semi-public actions have caused curiosity amongst your roommates. Both Erin and Sam peek their heads out of their rooms, shocked that you are not hooking up with a random girl but instead your best friend who everyone is aware is in a committed and straight relationship.

"(Y/N)! Holy shit!" Jill moans out, her knees buckling as she reaches her climax, you catch her quickly, steadying the girl before standing up yourself.

"So it was good, no?" you joke, capturing Jill in a quick kiss. You flick the girl's shorts and underwear in the air with your foot catching them and then picking up Jill easily carrying her to your bedroom, unaware of the commotion that this night would cause.

‘you could break my heart, i know that you tried’

"(Y/N/N) you know I'm happy with him, you can't keep asking me to break up with him" you hear your best friend state over the phone.

"Do I know you are happy with him? I pick you up from his house every few days and you spend the entire night begging me to fuck you... Look I don't know much about heterosexual relationships but I don't think that's what a happy relationship looks like Jill" you argue.

You know that asking Jill to break up with her boyfriend of three years for you is kind of ridiculous but you want to be the one that Jill is in love with. Every time you have this conversation it becomes glaringly more clear that all you will ever be is Jill's second option.

"I am happy with him (Y/N), we've discussed this so many times before. Can you please just drop it?" Jill lets out in a harsh tone.

"Yeah yeah, sorry, I'll see you when you want me to fuck you again I guess" you sigh, hanging up the phone not even waiting for Jill's response.

‘i'm glued to my bed, when it's raining outside’

You have barely gotten out of bed for the past two days, all you have been able to do is think about Jill and cry. The only positive of the situation is the fact that there are major storms in London causing both training and all FA WSL games to be cancelled over the weekend, allowing you to wallow in self pity without any distractions.

"Hey gal" you turn around, shocked to hear a voice coming from your doorway. You see both of your housemates standing there with sad smiles on their faces.

"Hi" you mumble, closing your eyes as the brightness of the outside world makes its way through your doorway.

"So you haven't moved for two days and as a professional athlete that's kind of insane" Sam states, struggling to hold back a chuckle at her own comment. "You wanna tell us what's going on?"

Your teammates make their way into your bedroom, closing the door behind them. Erin turns on a lamp and then makes herself comfortable at your desk, while Sam has already sunken into the beanbag that sits in the corner of the room.

"I'm just really tired, and it's raining, no point in moving" you whine. Your housemates look at each other, they both know that you are barely ever tired and that you are always moving about. You are probably the most active person on the team, so your current state is definitely a cause for concern.

"Are you sure it doesn't have anything to do with the Arsenal midfielder who is in a committed relationship that you just so happened to bring home and fuck?" Erin asks, both you and Sam snap your heads in the direction of the Scottish girl, for two very different reasons.

You are shocked that your housemate knows about your affair with Jill and Sam is shocked that Erin is so nonchalant about bringing up Jill as the two had agreed to do it subtly and her display was anything but subtle.

"This was a great chat, I'd like you both to leave now please" you mumble, turning your body to face away from the two girls. You don't bother to listen to if your housemates are leaving or not, you are done with the conversation and that's that.

‘can't stop thinking bout, how we fucked in the shower’

Listening to the pouring rain all you can think about is Jill, in most circumstances in your life all you think about is Jill but this time it's different. The harsh rain reminds you of the angry sex the two of you had just a few weeks ago, due to a fight you had, the same fight the two of you have been having for months.

"He obviously doesn't satisfy you like I do, otherwise you wouldn't be here" you state as the warm water runs down your body. Jill has made herself comfortable on the bathroom counter, watching you closely as you rub body wash around sensually.

"He doesn't get the chance to satisfy me, you are the only person who I allow to fuck me" Jill replies in a bored tone. This causes you to freeze, you can't help the small smile that spreads across your face.

"Then why are you with him? What does he have to offer that I don't?" you ask harshly. You want to know why Jill won't just be with you, the two of you are very clearly in love so why can't she just choose to be with you.

"It's easier with him, I don't want to have to hide my relationship, or later on come out, I don't want my dating life to be a big deal so instead I just date guys" Jill replies, this causes you to scoff.

"You can't string this poor guy along forever Jill" you spit out, annoyed mostly at the fact that Jill won't just date you already but you deflect your annoyance to make it seem like you care about Jill's boyfriend's feelings.

"You don't seem to care about his feelings when you fuck me" Jill replies, she has managed to remove her clothing and steps into the shower without you noticing.

Jill wraps her arms around your body, running her hands up and down your abs. Your face softens slightly as the actions of the woman leaves you shocked and horny.

Suddenly you grasp Jill's hands in your own, removing them from your body. You let go for a second in order to turn yourself around and push Jill against the wall of the shower.

"I don't care about his feelings, I care about mine," you admit, roughly grabbing the back of Jill's neck, pulling her in for a heated kiss.

The rough nature of the kiss continues into extremely rough sex, your obvious anger doing nothing but turning Jill on more.

You stare into Jill's eyes while shoving two fingers into her pussy without warning, this shocks Jill as she almost slips, you catch her easily holding onto her ass tightly while continuing to thrust her fingers inside your best friend.

"Oh my god, please don't stop" Jill begs as you continue your actions, attaching your mouth to Jill's neck sucking tightly on the skin, not caring that you will leave a mark that will likely get her in trouble somehow.

Just as Jill is about to cum you completely detach yourself from the woman, quickly washing your body. You turn off the water and wrap yourself in a towel leaving the bathroom and a very horny Jill standing alone.

‘now you ditch your party, and that's when you call me’

You groan as you hear your phone go off, the ringtone is a remix of the song Breaking Free from a High School Musical so you immediately know it is Jill who is calling you.

"Yes Jill?" you ask, still half asleep and frustrated at the fact that you have been woken up.

The two of you haven't spoken for weeks, the last time being during your fight over the phone. You are annoyed that the first time Jill contacts you is at 2am, the night before a game day.

"Can you please come pick me up?" Jill responds in a timid tone, knowing that she is asking a lot of you, especially with the circumstances of your relationship at the moment.

"Sure" you sigh, you are never able to say no to the girl even when you are mad or upset with her.

You get out of bed and shuffle to your closet to find a jumper to wear. "Your boyfriend's house?" you ask, assuming that the blonde wants a break from her boyfriend as that is why she would usually call you at this hour.

"No I'm at Leah's" Jill responds, this confuses you, not due to the location but because the only place Jill has ever called you from to leave is her boyfriend's house, she usually isn’t one to leave a team party.

"Why do I need to pick you up?" you ask as you make your way to your car, shivering at the cold air that hits your body.

"Arsenal party. I want to leave, I want to be with you" is all Jill responds, it's clear that the girl has had a bit to drink.

"Okay I'm on my way, I'll be there soon" you respond before hanging up. You sigh, running your hand through your hair and starting up your car.

"Maybe she is finally ready to be with me," you whisper to yourself, pulling out of your parking spot making your way across London to pick up the girl that you are so desperately in love with.

‘and none of your friends, have a clue where you're going’

"Jilldo, come play beer pong with us," Jill's teammate Lisa yells across the room, barely being held up by her girlfriend Vivianne.

"I'm okay, I think I'm going to leave actually" Jill responds walking over to the group.

"Where are you going? It's late, why don't you just stay here?” Leah asks, coming up behind the girl, throwing her arms over Jill's shoulders.

"No it's okay, my boyfriend is going to come get me, I already called him," Jill responds, making her way to the front door so she can wait outside for you.

"It's not like you to leave a party early" Vivianne sits on the front step next to Jill, having left her very drunk girlfriend inside so she could keep her friend company.

"I'm just really tired, not in much of a party mood," Jill replies. The two teammates sit in comfortable silence.

Jill sees your car pull up and quickly makes her way to her feet. "Well that's my ride, I'll see you at recovery tomorrow" Jill states, hugging Vivianne rushing to get into your car.

Vivianne sits confused, knowing very well that Jill’s boyfriend owns a black car not a white one. She also catches a glimpse of the person in the driver's seat, and it is definitely a girl, a girl that Vivianne catches Jill kissing prior to them driving off.

Vivianne enters Leah's house and immediately makes her way over to her and Jill's national teammate Daniëlle. "You need to come with me" Vivianne states, dragging Daniëlle away from the conversation she was having with Beth and Lisa.

"What?" Daniëlle whines once the two have made their way into Leah's backyard away from the rest of the party.

"I think Jill is cheating on her boyfriend" Vivianne states in her classic monotone voice.

"What?!" Daniëlle yells, not believing that Jill would be capable of doing something like that.

"I was sitting with her while she waited for her boyfriend to pick her up, and it definitely wasn't him. A girl in a white car pulled up and Jill immediately kissed her when she got in the car” Vivianne explains.

"Seriously? We'll have to ask her about it tomorrow but I really don't believe that she would do something like that" Daniëlle replies, standing up patting Vivianne on the shoulder before making her way inside to continue her conversation that was interrupted.

‘now you're at the bar, holding his hand, and i can't be mad, cause he's your man’

"How did you end up convincing us all to hang out? Especially on a weekend when we have played each other" Sam asks you as a bunch of Arsenal and Chelsea girls sit together in a pub enjoying each other's company.

"I'm just such an awesome person and everyone loves me, so you all agreed to come just because I asked" you laugh, it is common knowledge that you make friends easily, thus it is not that unusual that you have been able to convince two enemy teams to hang out after the game, it helps that their game ended in a draw, at least there is no winners versus losers arguments occurring.

While conversation continues amongst the group, you can't help but glare at Jill and her boyfriend who are standing at the bar ordering drinks.

You had wrongly assumed that Jill calling to ask you to pick her up from the party a few weeks prior was her way of saying that she wanted to be with you. That couldn't be any further from the truth though, you found out that the reason Jill had called you was because if she had called her boyfriend she would have been too drunk to not admit that there is something happening between you and her.

The events after the party really caused a bigger rift between the two of you. You were still obviously upset and Jill had resorted to avoiding you due to the talk she had with Vivienne and Daniëlle the next morning, in which she admitted to the two that she was in fact cheating on her boyfriend. She didn't admit with whom but she knew that her teammates were set on finding out, thus she has been avoiding you again in order to not raise suspicions and it was easy for her to do so as you refused to talk to her.

"Glare any more and he might catch fire" Sam whispers to you. The two of you have had many conversations about your situation with Jill and Sam has become a big support for you as you are clearly going insane over your first girl crush. This was something that Sam has told you she has extensive knowledge on, making her the best option for a confidant that you have seeing as all your other gay friends just so happen to be Lionesses teammates who play for Arsenal with Jill.

"I don't know why she brought him, she knew I would be here, I'm the one who set it up" you sigh, just wishing that you could be in her boyfriend’s place, holding Jill’s hand, whispering in her ear, kissing her cheek, that should be your job not his.

"You said partners were invited, it would be weird if she didn't bring him, everyone would question it," Sam laughs as you continue glaring.

"I should have said gay partners only" you mumble, crossing your arms and leaning back into the booth you are sitting at.

"That would be heterophobic" Sam chuckles loudly at her own joke, this causes a giggle to escape your lips.

"Well I am extremely heterophobic to be fair" you reply, the two of you laughing loudly at the dumb joke. This causes the rest of the table to look at the two wondering what you two are finding so hilarious. What is missed by you is the glare that Sam receives from Jill as she catches yourself and Sam wrapped in each other's arms laughing.

‘and i would keep you up, all fuckin night’

Murmurs are heard among the group as Jill drags you out of the bar. Jill had sent her boyfriend home for unknown reasons and now she is leaving with you. any other time something like this occurs it is seen as a perfectly normal occurrence as everyone knows that Jill and yourself are the best of friends but today there are many questions about the situation.

Some people know about what is happening such as Sam and Erin who are preparing themselves for a night of wearing earplugs when they return home.

Others are piecing things together such as Vivianne and Daniëlle who come to the assumption that you are the girl that Jill is cheating on her boyfriend with.

The rest of the two teams are not at all clued in about what is going on but with the way Jill drags you out of the bar and the hushed conversations between both Erin and Sam, and Daniëlle and Vivianne they can tell that something is definitely happening.

"So your place or mine?" you joke as Jill lets go of your arm once the two of you are on the street.

"How about right here?" Jill responds by pulling you in for a passionate kiss, at this moment neither one of the two of you care about anyone watching.

You make it back to your house, and just like when you usually return to your house the two can barely make it into the front door, too caught up in each other to even attempt to make your way into the house properly.

After many minutes of distractions, mainly the two of you stopping to make out, you finally make your way into your bedroom. Neither of you waste a second, basically throwing your clothes off as you continue kissing passionately.

The hours pass as the two of you catch up with each other, exploring every inch of the other's bodies.

"What time is it?" you sigh as you fall back onto your bed.

"uhhh 430" Jill laughs, crawling her way up to lay on top of you.

"Oh my god, we got back here at like 1700, are you all good?" you tentatively ask Jill as you run your hand through Jill's hair.

"Yep I'm absolutely perfect" Jill replies with a dopey grin, the exhaustion clear on her face, "but now it's time to sleep".

"I agree, goodnight love" you kiss Jill's head almost immediately falling asleep.

‘now that your boyfriend, is blowing up your phone’

"Shut up!'' you groan at the repetitive text tone that keeps going off. You reach over to grab the phone, feeling a body in the way. You peek your eyes open seeing the body of your beautiful best friend lying beneath you.

The sight of Jill causes you to forget what you even woke up for, you wrap your arms tightly around the woman and go back to sleep.

Soon enough you discover why you had woken up earlier as the phone continues buzzing every minute or so.

"Love" you whisper in Jill's ear, shaking her awake, "love, your phone keeps going off, can you please deal with it?"

Jill rolls over checking her phone, she has probably a hundred messages from her boyfriend and she knows she's in trouble.

"Who is it?" you ask, still barely awake.

"My boyfriend, I told him I would go to his house last night but obviously never did" Jill groans, knowing that the admission would cause an argument between the two of you who only just started talking, well, fucking again the day before.

"Wait, what? I thought you broke up with him? I thought that's why you dragged me out of the pub last night? You two are still together?” you ask, now very much awake and frustrated and the blonde haired girl.

"No, I just sent him home so I could spend more time with the girls and I dragged you out of the pub because I was jealous of the way Sam was touching you" Jill admits quietly.

You scoff, "Seriously Jill? As if you have any right to be jealous of anyone. What the hell! I'm going to shower and by the time I'm done I want you out of my house. Don't bother contacting me until you are done with your boyfriend, and I mean actually done with him. I'm telling you now I'm not doing any of this waiting around for you to acknowledge your feelings shit, if I'm taken when you finally open your goddamn eyes then that's your bad luck" you state with no emotion. You are over Jill's bullshit and you know the only way to get through to the Arsenal player is to show her that you don’t care anymore. After your rant you walk away not even sparing a glance at the girl you still happen to be madly in love with.

‘i tried to move on but it never seemed right, and i broke my own heart, a few fuckin times’

"Ayyy get it" Erin yells at you as you return to the table that your teammates are sitting at, you just roll your eyes at the girl.

"What's wrong with this one?" Sam asks you, referring to the girl that you had just returned from hooking up with. "Let me guess, she wasn't a blonde midfielder, who plays for arsenal?" Sam laughs, knowing that you are still very much hung up on your best friend.

"I want to get over her so badly, I have the hottest girls hitting on me and all I can think about is her dumb face and even dumber boyfriend" you sigh, leaning into sam's side.

"Well this approach obviously isn't working" Sam laughs at you as you are now cuddling into her.

"No shit" you state dryly looking up at her.

A hushed whisper is only just heard as teammate Millie asks "are they into each other?", this causes you to pause, could Sam be into you?

Without much thought you move upwards catching Sam in a shocking kiss which Sam even more shockingly leans in to. The two of you continue making out, forgetting about the rest of your teammates who are sitting around the table giving each other odd glances.

"I'm not the dirty blonde midfielder who plays for Arsenal, ya know?" Sam laughs as she rubs your cheek lightly.

"You like me though, don't you?" you ask, a sudden rush of confidence coming over you.

"Yeah, I have for a while," Sam replies shyly.

"I'm sorry" you reply sincerely apologising, you know you will never be into Sam the way that she is into you and you feel horrible about it.

"You have nothing to be sorry about, you know," Sam replies, looking into your eyes, as she does a sad smile make its way onto her face.

"It will always be her and I have to be sorry about that" you sigh standing up.

Sam pulls your arm causing you to trip and fall into her lap.

"I know it will and you don't have to be sorry at all" Sam counters, she kisses you on the cheek before helping you up, both of you making your way out of the club without anything being spoken amongst yourselves and the rest of your confused teammates.

‘and you finally call me, "lover i've missed you"’

"Who's ringtone is breaking free from high school musical?" Erin yells as the Chelsea women's team make their way into the locker room.

"Mine!" you yell back, suddenly sprinting into the room, making your way from the back of the group, pushing past teammates and jumping over obstacles to answer the phone.

"Hi" you sigh happily as you answer the phone to Jill.

Erin looks around confused at the display, "what is that about?" she asks Sam as everyone is aware of the fast formed friendship that the two have.

"I've got no clue, maybe she was waiting on an important call?" Sam shrugs back.

"I've missed you so much mijn liefje" you hear Jill speak over the phone.

"Are you done with him?” you ask, the happiness that could be heard in your voice originally is replaced with a cold tone.

"he is, it's you, it’s always been you. You're all I've ever wanted (Y/N) and I'm sorry it took me so long to realise" Jill responds, the smile that makes its way onto your face is one that none of your teammates had ever seen before.

"I knew you'd come to your senses soon enough" you giggle. While it had been months since the two of you had spoken you couldn't help but still be deeply and madly in love with the woman.

"It only took me 3 months," Jill laughs lightly.

"Not including the year and a half before that" your giggling continues.

"So can I come over tonight?" Jill asks.

"Still hiding me from your housemates, hey?" you respond, while your tone does not indicate that you are joking, the wide smile on your face definitely does.

"Ah-um no, I just-" Jill stutters suddenly feeling anxious about the rest of the conversation.

"I'm joking love, I'm at practice til 4, so come over anytime after 5" you smile.

"I will be there at 5. I've missed you so much and I can not wait to see you again” Jill practically yells down the phone.

"Bye my love" you sigh happily.

"Bye mijn liefje" Jill sighs back the same happiness present in her voice as well.

‘you tell me everything you never say out loud, on my bedroom floor, until we pass out’

"You know I fell in love with you the second I saw you" Jill states casually, you are leaning against your bean bag while Jill lays on your lap, happily having her hair played with by you.

"When did you even first see me?" you ask, trying to piece together the sequence of events that lead to the two of you ending up where you are right now.

"Euros semi-final in 2017" Jill replies easily, the woman will never forget that day, yes, her team won the match which was nice but it was also the day she discovered the most beautiful girl she would ever meet.

"God that was a horrible day" you laugh lightly remembering the devastating loss that England experienced that day. You know that you definitely didn't notice Jill that day, it wouldn't be until at least two years later when you were introduced after a league game that you would notice the blonde midfielder.

"Not for me'' Jill smiles, replaying the moment that she first saw you in her mind.

"I didn't even notice you that day sadly. I never used to pay much attention to opposition, I was very much focused on my football" you admit.

"Oh I'm very aware, I forced leah to introduce us because I was tired of only hearing about you and not being able to know you" Jill admits, this is something that she never thought she would tell you but in this moment she feels like it will help you understand how much she really does love you.

"Wait seriously? Is that why Leah was so set on me coming out with you guys the night we met?" you giggle, excited that Jill was so set on knowing you that she would force a meeting between the two.

"Yep, i needed to meet you" Jill smiles.

"You know you have terrible timing, I was in such a foul mood that night. I lost against you then as well" you sigh, you can feel yourself growing tired but you are enjoying this time with Jill. Usually when the two are together all you ever do is have sex but tonight all you have done is talked for hours and you don’t want this precious moment to end.

"You're just a sore loser (Y/N/N)" Jill smiles at her own joke waiting for a disagreement from you but when she looks up she is met with your gentle sleeping face, one of your hands stilled in her hair and the other wrapped around Jill’s shoulder.

Jill doesn't bother moving, instead she just closes her eyes, making herself comfortable in your lap.

‘and when we wake up you wanna make out’

Your eyes flutter open as you feel something against her lips. Once you wake up properly you realise that you and Jill are still on your bedroom floor where the two of you fell asleep the night before while in the middle of a conversation.

"Goedemorgen, mijn liefje" Jill mumbles, the two of you had moved around throughout the night and both ended up fully on the ground cuddled into each other on your fluffy rug.

Before you can respond your lips are attacked and yourself and Jill are passionately making out.

"And just when I thought horny Jill was gone, here she is," you laugh, happy to know that the attraction was still there between the two of you.

"Never gone, just on pause for a night" Jill laughs back, "anyway maybe on pause for too long, let's get back to the good stuff" Jill goes straight back to your lips.

The two of you continue your heated make out session for quite awhile, neither of you wanting to be the one to stop things.

"Alright, this has been fun but my back is sore and Emma will be pissed if I can't move tomorrow," you sigh, pushing yourself up off the ground where the two of you were still.

Jill looks annoyed for a second, then her face turns to confusion, lastly she lets out a small 'ohhh' having realised who Emma is.

"Did you forget that Emma is my coach?" you giggle, knowing that Jill just went through a whole jealous cycle within 30 seconds.

"Only for a second," Jill admits quietly.

"You're cute Jilly, so cute" you pull the younger woman in for a kiss.

‘i think she might be the love of my life’

You quietly stand in the corner of your living room, while you are usually extremely sociable and the life of the party tonight you regret even hosting this party.

"Why are you standing here alone, horrible hosting" you look up suddenly not realising that anyone was even anywhere near you.

"Sorry Leah, just not in a party mood apparently" you sigh.

"You don't have to apologise. Are you okay though? I’ve never seen you like this before”`Leah asks sincerely, worried about you.

"Yeah I am really good actually, things are great I am just very much not feeling it right now" you reply.

Jill looks across the room, noticing that you don’t look like you are feeling too good. She makes her way over immediately hugging you into her, knowing that your love language is physical touch and that you most probably could use a good hug at the moment.

"Thank you" you whisper quietly, you instantly feel so much better, more comfortable and more social just from the simple action.

"Of course mijn liefje, I won't leave your side if you don't want me too" Jill wraps her arm around you waist proudly holding her lover close.

"I'd love you to stay with me but you don't have to, I want you to enjoy your night" you inform her.

"I'm going to have the best night with you, you're much better company than anyone here" Jill kisses your cheek, an action that isn't missed by Jill's Netherlands teammates Vivianne and Daniëlle.

The two of you stick together for most of the night, at some point though the two of you seperate. You end up in the kitchen with Sam while Jill is cornered by Vivianne and Daniëlle for a conversation that she had been happily avoiding.

"So (Y/N) is the one you are cheating on your boyfriend with?" Daniëlle asks, not being one for the subtle approach, Vivianne hits her arm.

"Sorry about her, but we are both curious," Vivianne informs her slightly younger teammate.

"I'm not cheating on my boyfriend, I broke up with him, but yes it was (Y/N) who I had been seeing" Jill admits, her two teammates smirk at each other, knowing about Jill's attraction to the woman.

"So what's the deal with (Y/N) then?" daniëlle asks.

"I think she might be the love of my life" Jill smiles, happy to finally be able to tell her teammates about the woman she loves.

"So you are talking to Jill again?" Sam asks her teammate, not quite caught up on what is happening between you and Jill.

"Yeah, she was the one who called while we were at training the other week, and ever since she has been trying to make things right" you look at Jill across the room, seeing that it seems like she has been cornered by her teammates.

"So it's serious now?'' Sam asks happily, not a single sign of jealousy or negativity coming from her.

"I think she might be the love of my life" you smile, knowing that Jill is your forever.

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Snow Day (Jill Roord x reader)

Warnings: none

Description: you wake up one snowing morning to find that weekends game cancelled, so you and your teammates decide to make the most of it. This was originally written in Jan 2021 following the weekend where most (maybe all I can’t fully remember) games were cancelled and arsenal were going through a bit of a rough patch.

Transferred from wattpad so any mistakes or bad writing can be blamed on past me.

Also as a note for any new stories I write I will likely change to using “you” instead of “I”, so send requests :)

Word count: 2028

I wake up to my alarm blaring loudly next to me, immediately my arm flings out from under the covers in search of the retched sound in an attempt to silence it, and I think to myself for the umpteenth time that I really need to change it to a nicer sound, knowing that I probably never will.

"Turn it off", Jill mutters groggily from beside me, shuffling herself further into the pillow and pulling the covers up over her head.

As I reach my arm out to silence the alarm I feel an immediate chill in the air, and curse as I imagine how freezing it's going to be outside when we play our game later in the day. I perk up a little at the thought of it being game day and roll over, winding my arms around Jills waist and tucking my face into the back of her neck.

"It's game day", I whisper in her ear excitedly, it felt like it had been an eternity since we had last played.

"I know", Jill grumbles again, "why is it so cold?", she says as she shivers and curls herself into a tighter ball, pulling my arms further around her waist and forcing me impossibly closer to her.

"I don't know, maybe the heating's broke", I suggest, I place a quick kiss on the back of her neck before pulling my arms from around her and sliding out from under the covers, the chill in the air became far more evident as my uncovered arms and legs were instantly covered in goose bumps and I shivered as I grabbed my dressing gown from the back of our bedroom door.

Once I'd sufficiently wrapped myself up, I moved to the window and pulled open the blind, light flooded in, brighter than I was expecting and it took me a second to recognise why.

"Snow!", I exclaimed, "it's snowed", I said excitedly, looking over my shoulder to find my girlfriend looking at me from where she still lay snuggled in the warm bed sheets.

"Is that a good thing?", she asked.

"Well ye-", I started, my inherent love for any weather that wasn't mild rain coming through, before I realised what snow might mean, "you don't think?", I didn't need to finish the sentence, any professional footballer, especially female ones, knows exactly what snow could mean, "I'm gonna call Leah", I stated before grabbing my phone and heading into the kitchen to start making my morning coffee.

As I opened my phone I realised that several of our teammates had already sent messages into our group chat wondering what this snow could mean for our game, though nobody had given a definite answer yet.

"I take it the snow's bad everywhere and isn't a freak storm over just my place?", Leah asked as she answered my call, knowing the exact reason I would be calling her first thing in the morning.

"I was hoping it was only here", I groaned down the phone to my best friend, "you don't think it'll be postponed so you?", I asked hopefully.

"Maybe we've got lucky, maybe the snow hasn't made it to the stadium", she replied hopefully, though I could tell she didn't believe a word of what she was saying, and neither did I.

"I can't believe this is happening", I complained, "we haven't had snow like this in years and it decides to show up today of all days!", I said, annoyed at the situation that was occurring, we needed this game.

Leah signed, "I gotta go, Jordan's taking forever in the shower".

"Okay, I'll see you later", I said before hanging up and getting on with making my coffee.

"What did Leah say?", Jill asked as she walked into the kitchen.

"That she was hoping the snow was just some freak storm over her place", I informed her, "and that Jordan was taking forever in the shower".

"Standard Jordan", Jill laughed slightly, she slowly moved around, "do you think the game will be cancelled?", she asked then, a sad look taking over her face as she slipped her arms around my waist.

"I don't know", I muttered, slipping my arms around her and resting my head on her shoulder, "I don't want to have to go another week without a game", I complained.

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Cut to a few hours later and, low and behold, our game had been cancelled. I wasn't particularly surprised but I was definitely disappointed, as was Jill, and the rest of the team of course.

But we decided to make the most of it, and organised to meet with a few of our teammates to go sledging, after all, it wasn't too often we got a whole weekend off.

"I can't believe you don't own a sledge", Leah laughed, dragging her own behind her in the snow.

"Well I didn't think i'd need one living in London", I signed.

“But you’re from the north, isn’t that how you used to get to school?”, she asked now, continuing to laugh as I pulled out my black bin bag, which I planned on using as a sledge, “you’re gonna get hurt using that thing”.

I rolled my eyes, “well if you’d let me borrow that”, I said pointing to the sledge sliding along the snow covered road behind us, “I’d be fine”.

“Don’t put your bad preparation on me y/l/n”.

Before I can reply I feel an arm fling itself over my shoulder, looking off to the side I see my friends and teammate, Kate McCabe.

“Nice bin bag y/n”, she said teasingly, obviously having heard my conversation with Leah.

“Ok I’m done with taking all this shit”, I said as I removed myself from under Katie’s arm, making her laugh, and instead went to walk with Jill, who was currently talking to Anna.

I picked up Jill’s arm and placed it over my shoulders, tangling my fingers with hers to keep her arm in place. Without skipping a beat in her conversation she pulled me closer into her side and place a kiss on the hide of my head, before continuing talking with Anna.

It wasn’t long before we arrived at the top of the hill in the park in the centre of town. It was already filled with all sorts of people, from children to adults, couples and groups of friends all enjoying the rare snow.

“Who’s going first then?” Caitlin asked.

“Leah since she’s so high and mighty with her sledge”, I suggested, making my blonde friend roll her eyes before moving out in front of everyone and climbing on. She slowing shuffled her way forwards before gravity took the reigns and off she went. Flying down the hill at an impressive speed.

“Wooo!”, Leah cheered, and we all watched as she slowly came to a stop at the bottom, she stood up raising her arms in the air, “that’s how you do it!”, she shouted back up at us all, causing her to roll my eyes.

I’ll show her how it’s done, I thought, and began pulling the bin bag over my head. I couldn’t see any of my teammates, but I imagine they were all giving me some questioning looks, and as I started trying to poke a hole into the top to stick my head through I head my girlfriends voice.

“Do you need help?”, she asked, though she was already attempting to help rip open a hole big enough for my head ti poke through.

“Y/n what are you doing?”, Katie asked as I began making holes for my arms next.

“You’ll see McCabe”, I told her, “and you’ll be jealous of my bin bag”.

“Right”, she spoke rather sceptically, not really believing what I said.

Once I was finished putting the bag on, I took a breath before running and launching myself down the hill, shocking everyone if they’re gasps were anything to go by. I slid down the hill on my belling, head first just like a penguin.

I was going well, I could here my friends cheering and I was laughing the whole way down, right up until the last minute, when a teenage boy ran across my path, but I was travelling fast and he couldn’t move out of the way. I barrelled into him, talking his legs out from under him and absolutely wiping him out.

Everyone seemed to go quiet for a moment, before I stood and helped to boy to his feet, apologising for wiping him out. Once he’d ran off to his friends I turned back to look at mine at the top of the hill, raising my arms in the air and cheering, causing them to all cheer back at me.

“Told you you’d get hurt”, Leah said as she walked over to me, her sledge in tow behind her.

“I’m not hurt”, I claimed.

“Tell that to your bruises in the morning”, she laughed, “come on let’s get back to the top”.

With that we made our way back to the top of the hill where the rest of the girls all congratulated me on my incredible bowling ball impersonation.

Jill walked over to me and pulled me into her, “you’re such an idiot”, she laughed slightly, “I thought you were just going to sit on the bag”.

“Where’s the fun in that?”, I asked, pulling back and standing up in my tiptoes to kiss her lips quickly, “how sexy do I look in this”, I said and pulled away, giving her a twirl.

“So sexy I want to rip it off of you”, Jill told me, pulling me back into her and for another kiss, this time a little longer and passionate.

“Not yet I need to go down at least five more times”, I said as I squeezed my arms around her waist, then moved my hands up to grab onto her arms that were resting on my shoulders, “you should have a go too”.

“I’m not sure I can pull off that look as well as you can”, she said, looking me up and down to emphasise her point.

“You make literally anything look incredible Jill”, I told her, making her smile and blush a little as a looked up at her.

“Ok fine, but no pictures”, she finally agreed, as she began helping me lift the bag over my head, “not quite what I had in mind when I said I wanted to rip this thing off you”, she whispered in my ear once my head was free. It was my turn to blush this time as I watched her pull the bag over her head.

I was right, she made it look like it was a runway outfit, as only Jill could, and before I could be pulling from my ogling she tooling off running and launched herself down the hill, just as I previously had, except she managed to make it to the bottom without taking out any innocent bystanders.

We spent the next hour or so messing around in the park before calling it a day and heading home.

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“Today way fun”, I said as I took off my coat and hung it by our front door.

“Yeah, makes the game being cancelling sting a little less”, Jill stated as she did the same.

I pulled the black bin bag out of my coat pocket, and scrunched it up, going to throw it in the bin.

“Woah woah woah”, Jill exclaimed, stopping me in my tracks, “I didn’t get it rip it off you yet”.

“Jill please don’t tell me you’ve discovered a new fantasy about me wearing bin bags”.

“I haven’t”, she giggled, “I just want to rip it off you”, she placed her hands on my waist pulling me into her a little.

“How about you just rip my normal clothes off instead”, I told her, dropping the tattered bin bag into the bin beside me, “without actually damaging any of my clothes”, I confirmed quickly once I saw Jill’s signature smirk make its way on her face.

“Ugh”, Jill huffed, “you’re no fun”.

I am fun and she knows it.

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nytb · 2 years

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International duty

After the poor Euros, the Norwegian manager Martin Sjögren was sacked and replaced by the U-19 Norwegian manager Hege Riise. With the managerial and technical team changes, major national team call-ups were going to change, that with the addition of Caroline Graham Hansen's temporary national team leave, allowed other Norwegian players to get called up for national team duties.

On a random Wednesday evening, the Wolfsburg academy grown winger, Y/N Y/L/N got a call from Hege Riise herself "Hi kiddo" said the manager who had previously worked with the Norwegian winger in a U-19's European Cup a while back "How do you feel about joining us for the national team break next week" asked the manager enthusiastically "Making your debut against Spain sure sounds interesting no?" added Hege. Y/N who still couldn't believe the national team call-up asked "Wait- really? I- I can't believe it" added the winger "I won't disappoint you! Thank you so much for the opportunity" she added full of enthusiasm.

The weekend arrived, Wolfsburg had a game away against Hoffenheim. On the way to the game, Y/N's call up for the national team was made public, in consequence, Y/N's phone started to blow up with congratulatory texts and tweets. Y/N who loved to interact with her fans on social media, started to repost and reply to as many messages as she could, right until a notification left her paralysed. Y/N's idol had messaged her on Instagram "Kiddo! Congrats on the call up, you looked great at the U-19s euros. You will kill it with the national team", Y/N was speechless, she couldn't believe Caroline Graham Hansen herself had watched her play, let alone that she had dm'd her.

Lynn Wilms, who as usual sat next to Y/N during their team travels saw the message on Y/N's screen, as she looked at her teammate she realised that Y/N was frozen in time. "Wake up" said Wilms as she hit her teammates shoulder bringing the Norwegian winger back from wherever she was mentally "You deserve it, you have been playing out of your boots" said the dutch international. Y/N laughed "Is that even the right idiom?" asked the winger as she mocked her teammate "Either way, thank you" added Y/N "I- I don't know what to reply" she followed up as she showed Lynn Caro's dm.

"Show me" Jill, who had been listening to the conversation jumped in "Aw that's cute" added the midfielder as she started to type something on Y/N's phone. "Wha- What are you doing?" asked the Norwegian as she watched Jill type away "Um... a non fangirl reply" replied Jill clearly mocking her fellow teammate as she gave the phone back to Y/N. "Thanks Jill" said the winger "It's actually not bad" she added. "Of course it's not, it came from me" replied Jill striking a sassy pose "A bit full of yourself no?" joked Lynn. The mockery was cut short as the bus arrived at Hoffenheim's stadium.

Tommy Stroot, Wolfsburg's manager, had decided to use Y/N as a super sub. The team was drawing 1-1 away from home, a result not good enough. "Y/N go warm up, you are coming in" announced the manager. It was the 70th minute as the winger was getting her last instructions from her manager on the sideline. The Norwegians pace and technicality could change a game in minutes. Y/N hadn't even been a 5 minutes on the pitch and she had already created two clear chances.

The third chance time was the charm, Lena Oberdorf lobbed a ball behind Hoffenheim's back line, Y/N ran onto it and was clear on goal. The Norwegian winger managed to run past her mark and was left 1v1 against the keeper who was off her line, Y/N chipped the keeper beautifully giving Wolfsburg the lead. "OMG" screamed Lena as she ran towards her teammate to celebrate the goal, along with her other teammates. "And you doubted why you got the call up" celebrated Alexandra Popp as she hugged Y/N "you deserve it kiddo" added the German international.

They went on to win the game 4-1. Y/N had not only scored, but also assisted another goal and was key in the build up play for the 4th goal.

On their way back to Wolfsburg, Y/N went trough her texts and dm's. She soon found Ingrid Engen's message "Great game today! Can't wait to play with you next week" Y/N was over the moon, her new national team teammates had pretty much all watched the game and were congratulating her on her amazing performance. Maren Mjelde, the Norwegian captain, added Y/N to the WhatsApp group chat "Welcome to the big leagues Y/N" joked Maren "Get some rest, you come play with us on monday" added the captain.

Part 2

#woso imagine #woso #woso x reader #jill roord imagine #jill roord x reader #jill roord #lynn wilms imagine #lynn wilms x reader #lynn wilms #lena oberdorf x reader #lena oberdorf imagine #lena oberdorf #ingrid engen imagine #ingrid engen x reader #ingrid engen #caroline graham hansen #maren mjelde

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women-are-hot · 2 years

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💕🤠 with jill Roord please

Secret Love

Request: 💕 (a moment of jealousy) 🤠 (fake dating)

Note: I love Jilly and missed writting for her, so I've been quite excited while writing this. Enjoy :-)

“Hold my hand” Jill whispered to Y/n as they walked around the event for football.

“I don’t want to hold your hand” Y/n whispered back.

“Suck it up, you have to”

“I hate you so much”

“Shut up and hold it!”

Y/n rolled her eyes and then put her hand into Jill’s.

“Good job,” Jill said with a laugh.

“Shut up” Y/n replied, also laughing a bit as they continued walking around and then came face to face with their ex-girlfriends as they planned.

Jill and Y/n aren’t dating, but they both got played by their ex-girlfriends, Ingrid Engen and Mapi Leon.

“Hola Y/n” Mapi said.

“Hey you” Y/n replied with a fake smile.

“How’s it going?” Ingrid asked.

“Wonderful, very very wonderful. Y/n and I just moved in together and you know, we’re just so in love and I have never felt like this before with anyone” Jill answered, making all four of them laugh very fake.

Then a kinda awkward silence filled around them.

“Yeah, we gotta go, right baby?” JIll asked Y/n as she gave her cheek a kiss.

“Alright. Have a nice evening, Ingrid” Y/n said and complenty ignored Mapi.

“You too” Ingrid replied as the new Barca couple walked away.

As they had walked enough away from each other, Y/N pushed JIll's shoulder and took her hand to herself.

“Why did you say that, you idiot?” Y/n asked.

“Say what?” JIll answered.

“That we had moved in together. They could maybe ask our teammates about it and our teammates clearly know we do not live together” Y/n explained pissed.

“Then move in with me” Jill said like it was nothing.

“What!? If we’re going to live together, then you’re going to move into my house” Y/n replied.

“No, you are- holy shit” JIll suddenly said.

“What?” Y/n asked.

“Kiss me” JIll answered.

“Excuse me?” Y/n asked once again, now knowing if she heard right.

“Just kiss me” JIll answered desperately.

“I*m not going to fucking kiss you-” Y/n started and then felt JIll’s lips on hers.

What surprised both of them was that none of them stopped kissing the other, before air became a problem.

“Ehm…” Y/n whispered.

“Let’s ditch this event and go to my place” JIll said.

Y/n sighed bit.

“Please,” JIll added.

“Okay” Y/n replied in a low voice and then JIll took her hand and dragged her home.

Ingrid and Mapi’s eyes followed them the whole way…

#woso imagine #woso x reader #woso imagines #jill roord imagines #jill roord imagine #jill roord x reader #woso #gxg #nedwnt imagines #nedwnt imagine #nedwnt x reader

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alotofpockets · 3 days

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Jill Roord Appreciation pt.2

Request a player | with @totaly-obsessed

#woso appreciation #jill roord #jill roord x reader #jill roord imagine #woso #oranjeleeuwinnen #nedwnt x reader #nedwnt #manchester city women #man city women x reader #man city wfc #man city women #woso x reader #woso imagines #woso imagine

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redhairedwolfwitch · 2 years

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Not Like We Were Hiding (1/3) - Jill Roord x Reader

A/n: I'm sorry that part 1 is over 9k words but splitting it into smaller parts doesn't work with the flow of the three segments in my head

Your bed was comfier than hers. That was Jill’s first thought as she rolled over onto her side, bare arm hitting a slightly warm empty mattress as she reached around for you. The sheet was soft against her skin, but as the daytime sun peeked through the gaps in the blinds, an ache made itself known in her skull as the hangover emerged.

The faint noise of your shower on clued Jill in on where you were, hearing it turn off before minutes later you walked in, clad in a towel and carrying a glass of water and some painkillers.

“Goedemiddag. In case your head hurts.” Your explanation was quiet as you passed Jill the glass and the tablets, your free hand moving to hold the towel as it shifted slightly.

Sipping the water, Jill’s eyes lingered over you clad in your towel, realising you were kneeling on your side of the bed, almost like you were waiting for her to say something. Taking the recommended amount of painkillers with the last of the water, Jill leaned back on her elbows, her thoughts drifting back to last night, her smirk turning into a soft smile as the sunlight through the gaps in the blinds danced over your towel-clad body.

“Do you want some breakfast?” You asked, glancing towards your blinds for a second before Jill sat up, her fingers hooking under your jaw in a moment of confidence.

“If you had waited I would have joined you in the shower.” Jill admitted, biting her lip as your eyes widened, unsure of what was happening but your gaze locked onto Jill’s lip bite as she smirked.

“But I’m also hungry now, I don’t think you have hagelslag, but I heard from Daan and Beth that you can cook…” Jill trailed off as you leaned in slightly with a smirk.

“I’ll see what I can do for some brunch.” You hummed, the energy between you and Jill electric as you stepped up from your bed, walking over to your wardrobe and opening it before letting the towel around your body drop to the floor.

///

After some persuasion to get Jill in the shower, since she’d gotten distracted by you getting dressed, you were in your little kitchen making brunch. Staring at your frying pan carefully, you watched the pancake batter bubble slightly, the edges crispening as you ran your spatula around them. Your jaw clenched slightly as you readied yourself to flip the pancake, carefully tossing it whilst using the spatula to lay it down flat in the pan again.

“Well done, pannekoeken?” Jill hummed, appearing in your kitchen wearing one of your oversized t-shirts and a pair of your shorts.

“I asked Daan for a recipe. Never seen her make them though, so if they’re shit, we can order something instead?” You explained, raising an eyebrow as Jill leaned on the counter, watching you check the pancake as it cooked.

///

You weren’t sure Jill meant to stay the whole day and sleep over the night again, but the two of you were hurrying around the next morning. Since you’d both gotten a taxi to yours, you had to drive Jill to her place to get her kit for training, following her into her place to help her find her boots.

“Do you have everything?” you asked, following Jill back to your car, watching as she put her bag in the boot before she got in the passenger seat. Jill nodded, indicating you could set off before the two of you were late to training.

You could feel the eyes on you and Jill as the two of you walked in together, heading to get ready for training.

“You two get lost or something? You live in different directions to the training grounds!” Katie pointed out as you slipped on one of your boots, electing not to reply as Leah pointed something else out to your teammates.

“Hang on, didn’t those two leave the bar together after the match against Chelsea?”

You were luckily speedy in getting ready for training, heading past Jill who was caught up in getting questioned/teased (honestly you couldn’t tell) by Daan and Viv, then by extension, Beth and Lisa. Jill’s gaze followed you as you headed out, catching up with Lotte, who said nothing but raised an eyebrow at you in wonder.

///

Training felt different. You couldn’t deny it. You could feel the warmth in Jill’s gaze as you trained with your fellow defenders, ignoring Leah’s questioning look when Lotte nudged you out of your focus on Jill. Jill, in turn, was ignoring the questioning looks from Daan and Beth, Lisa and Viv also getting involved after they spotted you looking over at Jill, and almost getting a football to the head in the process.

You being slightly distracted by Jill left you open to nutmegs too, much to your frustration as you pushed out everything else from your thoughts, deciding to get your mini revenge tour, and maybe show off a little for Jill watching in the process. You didn’t want to admit you were trying to show off for Jill, but you were more focussed working with the ball when you were compared to past training sessions, where you had been a little awkward and not as confident nutmegging your teammates.

Besides the warm gazes (although your teammates may call them heated or longing stares) between you and Jill, there were no public displays of affection, not a single touch that indicated the two of you were anything. Mainly because it had started out as a one night stand or just a hook-up, but Jill never left your place until training over a day later. Neither of you had talked about it, but there was something there. The two of you were drawn to each other like magnets, and it wasn’t just physical.

Leaving practice, you didn’t expect Jill to be sitting on the bonnet of your car, but there she was, waiting for you with her bag.

“I told Lisa and Viv you were driving me home.” Jill smiled slightly, hopping down from the car bonnet to pull you into a hug once you got close enough.

“They tease you after you said that?” You asked, but you didn’t get a reply as Jill’s fingertips drawing patterns on the back of your neck distracted you, your eyes flickering shut for a second before you felt something drip down onto you from above. Glancing up, you grimaced at the grey clouds, the two of you hurrying into your car as it began to rain.

Having dropped Jill off at her place after training, you didn’t expect your place to feel emptier when you got back to it, but it didn’t feel the same. Somehow nobody had commented on Jill turning up to and leaving training wearing your clothes, but you could feel the fluttering in your stomach when you pictured Jill wearing them again.

Eating dinner alone, you slept in an empty bed that night, not realising you had reached out to where Jill had slept the previous two nights until your arm hit a cold empty mattress space, instead of her warm body.

Laying in the dark, you turned onto your side to reach for your bedside table, fingers brushing the book you had been reading before you felt the coldness of your phone case under your fingertips. Picking up your phone, your eyes took a moment to adjust as you pressed the button to activate your lock screen. Opening your messages, you paused as you watched the speech bubble appear under your messages with Jill, before it disappeared with no message sent. Your stomach flipped as you thought of what to say, typing something, then backspacing with a grimace.

Resting your phone on your chest, you stared up at the dark ceiling in thought. Pulling your bottom lip between your teeth in thought, you bit slightly too hard as your phone buzzed on your collarbone, the vibrations sending ripples across your chest.

Picking up your phone, you stared at the message on the screen, your eyes stinging slightly from the brightness, but the message left you smiling to yourself, there were only a few words: ‘can’t sleep either?’.

Tapping your reply, you ran your tongue over your bottom lip, flinching as it stung slightly from where you’d bitten down on it before, ‘not without you’ then ‘maybe we should go on a date, or am I reading this all wrong?’

Jill took a few minutes to reply, leaving you staring up at the ceiling again, your eyes lingering on the slight glow of a streetlight through the gaps in your blinds, but you hummed as you read over her reply, ‘where?’

The two of you kept messaging for a while, until the comfort of talking to each other sent you both into separate slumbers for the next day.

///

Getting ready for training the next morning, you were going through your bag making sure you had switched out your dirty training kit, putting that in the washing machine whilst taking the clean training kit from the clothing airer to go in your bag. A knock at the door had you dropping your socks into your bag, heading over and opening the door quickly.

You barely made eye contact with Jill before she had lunged forwards, arms wrapped around your waist, her face buried in your neck before she pulled back slightly, pressing her lips to your neck for a moment.

“Hi, liefje,” whispering into her hair as you wrapped your arms around her form, the two of you swaying slightly in the hug. Goosebumps ran up your spine as Jill’s hands slipped under your sweatshirt, touching your bare back.

“Do you want to get coffee before training?” Jill enquired, her hands running up your bare back, distracting you from her question.

“That… that sounds great. Are we still on for tonight too?” You glanced over her as she leaned back with a smirk, pressing a kiss to your lips as an answer.

///

Walking into training together with coffees in hand meant that you gained some raised eyebrows of confusion and heard some whispers between your teammates. Some wondered if you were simply just housemates, or if the longing gazes from yesterday’s training meant something more, especially since the two of you had been seen leaving the bar together after celebrating the win against Chelsea.

With one final glance at each other, the two of you split off to get ready. The last time Jill saw you before she was locked into conversation with Viv and Lisa was you heading to talk to the physio.

The next time she saw you, she was heading into the gym with Daan, and you were doing deadlifts to one side.

“Are you two together or something?” Daan’s inquiry distracted her as you kept working out, Jill going with Daan in another direction to the exercise bikes.

Jill chuckled at Daan’s question, not answering it in favour of watching you working on weighted hip thrusts now.

“Okay…” Daan raised an eyebrow noticing Jill biting her lip, immediately she’d ask you later, or Lotte as you seemed to talk to her the most outside of the new development with Jill.

“You know, you’d struggle less with those if you focussed on them, instead of watching you know who from the corner of your eye.” Lotte pointed out quietly, tapping you in the foot with the toe of her shoe when she’d seen enough of your weight lifting.

You hummed in agreement, shifting your gaze to the barbell resting on your hips as you kept working. Jill’s gaze lingered on you until one of the staff reminded her she needed to actually cycle and not just sit on the bike.

///

Taking a moment to sip your drink, you ignored Lotte tapping you with her foot again, choosing to instead adjust the lateral pull machine to the amount of weight you wanted, rolling your neck and shoulders before sitting up straight and taking the bar above you into your hands.

You ignored the eyes watching you in the mirrors as you felt the familiar ache in your upper body with each rep, only pausing when you caught Jill doing her own workout from the corner of your eye, smiling slightly as she had paused to laugh at whatever Daan and Beth were saying.

The rest of your time working with the weights and weights machines goes smoothly along with the session on the pitch, leaving you to lay on the grass, breathing deeply as you shut your eyes.

“Are you alive down there?” Katie teased, leaning down to check you were still awake, eliciting a giggle from you as you weakly reached up to push her away.

“Those last few reps… bleh…” You ran your hands down your face, taking the offered electrolyte drink from Lisa with a smile.

“Well I’m pretty sure you beat all of us with those hip thrust reps you did earlier in the gym.” Lisa pointed out, about to wiggle her eyebrows but you grimaced, almost spitting out the electrolyte drink in the process.

“I think Jill was drooling at one point according to Daan-” Katie was cut off as you got up, giving her a soft smile to say you weren’t angry with her, but you didn’t want to hear any more teasing, and you needed a shower before tonight.

///

Dinner then a movie. Cliche, but it meant you and Jill could properly get to know each other outside of training with the team around and your place. The two of you didn’t pick anything massively fancy, but it was a cute little place that you’d found once, plus your teammates hadn’t heard of it, so running into them and explaining things was avoidable.

Sipping your drink, the conversation between you and Jill didn’t stop, from Jill teasing you about the gym session today, to you mentioning how you heard she was drooling, but you also admitted that you couldn’t keep your eyes of off her during your gym session, getting flustered for a moment until the food arrived at the table.

The two of you also spent time getting to know each other with random questions, things that hadn’t come up when you both answered questions or played games for media coverage, talking about wants, fears, likes and dislikes especially. The two of you were still chatting over dessert when you realised the movie would be starting soon.

You ended up walking into the cinema a minute before the advertisements began to end and the movie began. Jill’s arm around you as you rested your head on her shoulder, both enchanted by each other and the screen as the movie played.

After the movie, you stood on Jill’s doorstep, biting your lip as a question came to mind. Jill leaned in her doorway, smiling at your lip bite before her hand gently cupped your face, thumb running over your bottom lip to coax it out from between your teeth.

“Are we dating?” Your voice was quiet, but you maintained eye contact with Jill, her smile enchanting you with its glow as she took a moment.

“I hope we are, I’ve been enjoying your company since we left the bar together that night.”

“I have too.” You smiled back, fingers reaching out to brush Jill’s hand, smiling more as Jill took your hand, kissing the back of it with a smile.

“Good, it would suck if you didn’t feel the same way.” Jill affirmed, leaning in to rest her forehead against yours, smiling as you leaned in too.

The two of you stood in Jill’s doorway, wrapped up in each other stealing kisses until like the fairy tales, the clock struck midnight and you headed back to your place, well, it was more like your phone alarm went off for when you needed to do your skincare routine before bed.

“Goodnight, liefde.”

///

You and Jill didn’t arrive every day to the training grounds or stadiums together, but it was noticeable enough that your teammates assumed the two of you were closer than friends. Public displays of affection weren’t something the team spotted but you and Jill often left together or were each other’s go-to partners for any team bonding activities. Coming up to Halloween, the two of you didn’t necessarily do a couples costume idea, but the idea was from the same franchise, and Leah was already confident in how much money she’d betted, whilst Katie smirked, looking at Viv and Daan for their thoughts.

It was a match against Manchester City where things got a little heated for you and Jill. Your attempts at stopping their attackers turned into one of your tackles getting messy and the attacker landing on top of you. Lauren Hemp stammered out an apology, all but going red as she scrambled up, but your teammates had already seen what had happened.

“Looks like Hemp is trying to steal your lover, Jill!”

“Wait, those two are dating?” One of the City players overheard, turning to a flustered Hemp, before the ball came back into play and you were trying to focus on the game, and not how your stomach was doing acrobatics. Jill’s emotions contrasted yours however, her frustration at the teasing turned into a drive to beat City, and Hemp, but her heart longed to run over to you in front of everyone.

Arsenal won. Jill scored a goal and assisted Viv with two more.

“So, you got a bit of action out there with Hemp today-” the teasing began but you glared at Daan, about to walk out of the locker room postgame for a shower when a hand caught yours. Turning around slowly, your fingers tangled with Jill’s as you recognised a fire in her eyes.

The locker room quietened as they watched you and Jill staring into each other’s eyes, your free hand gently stroking her face, gaining a smile from your love as she took her free hand to hold it, pressing a kiss to your wrist.

“Liefde…” Jill whispered, but you cut her off, leaning in slightly with a raised eyebrow of challenge. Jill smirked at your boldness.

Neither of you had any fears of anyone knowing about the two of you, the urge to be professional around your teammates meant that public displays of affection were reduced, but your teammates could get so distracted sometimes that they’d miss how your fingers would tangle with Jill’s, or that Jill’s hand was on your thigh, your hand on the small of her back, little touches like that went ignored.

Until now, as you raised your eyebrow at Jill in challenge, waiting for her to make her move. The fire in her eyes from Hemp landing on you, and the teasing from your teammates afterwards was nothing compared to the heart eyes she was giving you now, although the smirk was more suggestive than your teammates could take.

“Kiss already!” Daan’s voice was loud and made your teammate hoot and holler in agreement but there was something else on both your minds first.

“Can we be more than just dating?” Jill asked first, but your nod left her biting her lip, the two of you so wrapped up in each other that you didn’t realise your teammates were finding out who had won the bet.

“Would you like to be my girlfriend?” tilting your head slightly to the side in question, Jill grinned, letting go of her bottom lip to instead lean in and meet your lips in a kiss that left your teammates cheering.

“Whoah! Keep it PG you two!” Lisa shouted after hands began to move, the two of you pulling away with your bottom lip tugged between Jill’s teeth, Jill wiggling her eyebrows at you slightly before letting you go, her gaze following you as you left to go take a shower.

“Ah, no, no, PG means no sharing the showers here!”

“Jill, get over here, we want details!”

///

Now that the team had the confirmation of you and Jill being together, the teasing changed to more confident questions and jokes, along with a lot of eyebrow wiggles when one of you was caught watching the other a little too intensely. Ogling was a better word for it, Jill would smirk after meeting your eyes, whilst you would tilt your head to the side in challenge. Neither of you were going to jump the other in front of everyone, or at the training grounds or game, but it made post-training and post-games more fun, the longing energy turning into something passionate. Jill had basically moved into your place, without either of you truly realising it.

Post-training, Jill found you sitting in an ice bath, chatting to Lotte who was in the ice bath next to yours. You smiled as your girlfriend slipped into the other end of the ice bath, ignoring the warmth in your body at her noises from the cold temperature, Jill’s knee bumping yours as she stretched her legs out.

Lotte withheld her laughter, the giggles coming out more as a snort as you turned to raise an eyebrow at her, but her timer went off cutting off whatever she was going to say.

Jill’s toes bumped your thigh, catching your attention as you leaned back, your arms hanging over the tub as you sent a smile to your love.

“Hoi.” “Hoi.”

“Oi, watch out, lovebirds are in the ice bath together!” Beth declared to whoever as she walked in, smirking as your gazing at Jill was cut off, whilst Jill turned her head with a shy grin to the forward.

“Give over, Beth!” flicking some of the ice water at the forward, who tried to dodge but failed, almost falling into Katie, who pushed Beth away from her with a laugh.

“Leave ‘em be, Beth. They’re cooling off!” Katie teased, you rolled your eyes before another tap to your thigh left you smiling softly at Jill, the desire to reach over and hold her hand overwhelming you as you shifted in the bath, offering your hand to her shyly.

“Now you’ve gone shy?” Daan’s voice was loud as she teased you both, the chattering in Dutch between your girlfriend and her teammates gaining your attention as you listened with your other hand on your face, hiding from the smirk that Katie was trying to give you by leaning into your line of sight.

///

Bouldering was something different that you’d heard some of the girls talking about after training one evening. It wasn’t something that you could do immediately, since practice and planning was required, there were no ropes or cables, so you wanted to be safe, neither you or Jill could risk getting injured from messing up.

But once you grew in confidence, going bouldering with Jill sometimes, or with Lotte, Leah and Jordan, you were confident taking Jill on a proper date there without being afraid of what you were doing.

“Hoi.” You whispered, gaining Jill’s attention as she glanced up, spotting you had moved from climbing vertically to a more horizontal piece of wall/ceiling?

Jill’s eyes widened as you kissed her forehead, carefully manoeuvring yourself to drop down to the ground without landing on your girlfriend. You landed on your feet with a thump, not expecting Jill to drop to her knees, cupping your face to pull you into a kiss.

“Mijn kleine spin,” her voice was soft against your lips as you leaned in to kiss her again.

“You two are lucky I got that on camera, and that the staff don’t tell you off!” Lisa exclaimed as she walked over, poking you in the side as you rolled your eyes at her.

“Last thing I’m ever going to do is hurt Jill.” You folded your arms, a slight grumpy energy coming from the fact that Lisa and some of your other teammates were crashing your date, but Jill’s arm wrapped around your waist, pulling you into her. Jill smiled before she pressed her lips to your temple.

“Last thing I’m ever going to do is hurt you either…”

///

One thing that you and Jill didn’t cope well with was long distance, even just for national breaks. Of course the start of your relationship began with Jill sleeping in your bed with you, so going without it for more than a few days was unsettling.

Jill leaving on national break to play for the Netherlands, the pride you felt outweighed how much you missed her most days, but when your other teammates also left for their national teams, you were often left with your thoughts, trying to find ways to watch the games when they weren’t easy to find on TV. Your place was quieter without Jill, it was almost eerie when you woke up alone, with nothing but a cold space on your mattress to greet you.

Jill’s playing was slightly off during the Netherlands games, the orange jerseys should have helped in contrast to Arsenal’s red ones, and yet, she was looking around for you whenever she had a moment, looking for your name and number on a jersey in the defending line, but you weren’t there. Sari, Jill’s roommate for the national break had noticed too, Jill reached out in the night, fanning the air like she was looking for someone, and that was when she did sleep. Jill didn’t sleep as well when she wasn’t next to you.

Neither of you could cope with being apart for too long, the effects on both of your mental and physical health were messy, and when reunited, one barely left the room without the other following, not even leaving the bedroom for the entire night and day before Arsenal training and prep for games continued.

Waking up earlier than your alarm but not early enough to go back to sleep left you in a limbo state, laying in bed facing a sleeping Jill, the sun’s rays gently dancing over the two of you from the gaps in your blinds. Smiling into your pillow, you reached out to gently brush a piece of hair from her face.

A soft groan left Jill’s lips as she stirred, feeling your gaze on her as your fingers brushed her cheek, “you’re staring.”

“You look beautiful,” your fingers brushing her cheekbone before Jill shifted slightly, pressing a soft kiss to your wrist.

“Goedemorgen.”

“Goedemorgen.” You grimaced slightly at your pronunciation, Jill giggling at your face along with how you’d said good morning in her native tongue.

“Match day.” Jill cooed, excitement running over her as she threw the covers from her body, heading towards the bedroom door with a smirk.

“Join me? In the shower?” Jill raised an eyebrow, waiting for you to make a move, then grinning when you hurried after her to the bathroom.

///

It was the final home match before the break, Arsenal were playing Everton. Then Jill was heading home to visit her family for the break, coming back before New Years to be with you and the rest of the Arsenal squad at the New Years party.

The Everton game had Jill starting whilst you were on the bench waiting until the decision was made to substitute another defender in. It didn’t take long for Jordan to send the ball into the back of the net, leaving you smirking into your hand at 4 minutes in. 6 minutes later, Caitlin had found the net too, but you were watching carefully as Everton kept it at 2-0 until half time. Jill was buzzing with energy as her fingers gently tangled with yours, arm swinging slightly as you both listened to the plan for the other half.

You grinned from where you’d been warming up as your fellow defender on the pitch, Jen managed to score a goal. Everton had made one switch that had caught your eye, analysing the defensive pattern of the offending team being something that you enjoyed.

Malin came off for Lia, whilst Beth scored a goal a minute later, with an assist from Jordan. Jill came off for Daan about 10 minutes later, Jill biting her lip from the bench as she spotted you hopping up and down in preparation for what you’d been told could happen during half-time. You may be subbed on, so keep warm. Viv was also subbed on for Caitlin whilst this was happening.

It took until the 80th minute for you to be subbed on for Katie, high-fiving her before you jogged onto the field, game face on.

The game ended 4-0 to Arsenal after four minutes of stoppage time.

Sitting in the changing rooms after the match, you smiled as Jill ate her celebratory pizza, sipping on your drink and singing along to the music blasting every once in a while to take in the atmosphere.

It was Lisa who asked about plans for Christmas, everyone aiming at heading home for the holiday, whilst you were staying in your little place in London for most of it, only visiting people on the 25th. Although you and Jill had been together for months now, the two of you didn’t want to rush meeting families, only having discussed the future as far as hoping to be at the same club together next season, depending on contracts.

The same old problem of the empty side of the bed haunting you both kept haunting you both, whilst you ended up cuddling a hot water bottle and debating whether Jill would mind if you snuggled her giant Olaf teddy. The two of you called each day, keeping the longing at bay the best you both could, although your place wasn’t as warm without Jill with you.

///

The New Years party came quicker than you thought it would, picking Jill up from the airport where she ran into your arms, the two of you hugging like you’d been separated for more than the 10 days you’d been apart.

“If we don’t get ready now- we’re going to end up late- and you know what will come out of the girls’ mouths-” You murmured, cut off each time as Jill pressed her lips to yours to distract you.

“You don’t want to start the new year with a bang?” Jill smirked as your eyes widened, staring up at your girlfriend for what she had just implied.

“I mean… what’s to say we can’t when we get back here?” You suggested, brushing a piece of Jill’s hair behind her ear innocently, a movement that very much juxtaposed the topic the two of you were talking about.

Your phones starting to ring left Jill having to get off of her position laying on you, picking up the phone as Daan was calling her, whilst you were being videocall requested by Katie.

“What’s up?” You answered, raising an eyebrow as Katie covered her eyes on her side of the video.

“Are ye decent at least? You answered rather quickly!” Katie pointed out, leaving you to huff, glancing down at Jill’s shirt that you were wearing.

“Decent, yes. Ready for the party tonight? Absolutely not.” You explained, sitting up on the couch, whilst Jill had sat further down to take her call to Daan, who was no doubt teasing Jill for some reason.

“Well hurry up, you and Jill need to bring snacks on your way!” Katie retorted, raising an eyebrow at the look on your face.

“What sort of snacks are we talking about here?”

“Well, I heard savoury nibbles, so crisps, pretzels, popcorn?” Katie replied, as she revealed what she was bringing, which were more sweet-based nibbles.

“Alright, alright. You know if you’d given me more time I could have done a cheese and pineapple hedgehog.” You joked, gaining laughter from both Katie and Jill, as it seemed Daan had overheard you mention ‘cheese and pineapple hedgehog’ and wondered what you were on about.

///

“Finally! The rest of the nibbles are here!” Leah declared as she opened the door, although it was Viv and Lisa’s place.

“No offence but I can do better with more notice than what Katie gave me.” You deadpanned, passing Leah some of the bags you were carrying, whilst Jill’s arms wrapped around you instead, whispering something in your ear that left you flustered, before she headed off to mingle in the party.

“Do I just ignore-” Leah began but you nodded, instead digging through one of the bags to throw the bag of cheese balls at her.

“We need bowls, Williamson.”

///

The closer it got to the countdown to midnight, the closer you and Jill became, dancing together after having had enough of the food and drink on offer, the world faded away once Jill’s arms were resting on your shoulders, her fingers drawing patterns in the back of your neck. Your hands rested on her waist, not even dancing in time to the music anymore, too distracted by gazing into the eyes of your love.

“Those two look all ready for midnight!” one of your teammates pointed out, but with the amount of couples that the Arsenal squad had, once that clock struck midnight, not many people were focussed on the fireworks going off.

///

You woke up on the 1st of January at midday, tangled between bedsheets and the slumbering body of your girlfriend. Shifting slightly to bury your face in her neck, you smiled as fingers began to draw patterns on your back before moving to your thigh.

///

Training began again for the first match back against Reading. But there was something at the back of your mind that was bothering you since the January transfer window. Laying on the couch with your face pressed into Jill’s stomach instead of watching TV, you hummed at the feeling of her fingers on your scalp, distracting you momentarily.

“I spoke with my agent. Arsenal aren’t resigning me next season.” You explained, feeling Jill’s fingers pause for a moment before she continued to draw patterns with them.

“Together, remember?” Jill smiled down at you, before her eyes were drawn back to Grey’s Anatomy on the TV, leaving you to bury your face in her stomach again to hide your tired yawn.

///

Training and matches came and went. National breaks slipped in there too after Valentine’s Day. But the stress of where you would be playing next season was beginning to overwhelm you. Jill had also decided not to resign with Arsenal, claiming that she wanted something new, and that Arsenal would not be the same without you there.

The problem was the offers that you and Jill were getting. None of them were anywhere near each other, which left your heart dropping in your chest, rubbing at your wrist until Jill gently took your hand in hers, mumbling about how you weren’t supposed to be touching your new tattoo yet unless washing it and applying the aftercare.

“Het spijt me… I just, what do we do? None of the clubs we got offers from are even in the same country… Jill, I hate being apart from you for too long. It’s not home without you.” You confessed, leaning into Jill’s touch as she kissed your forehead. The same knowing look in her eye that you wanted to avoid, because accepting reality was something that would destroy you, and her.

“Let’s focus on Arsenal for now, together, schatje.” Jill’s eyes lingered over your tattoo for a moment before the timer began to go off, signifying that dinner was ready.

///

You knew Wolfsburg was a perfect choice for Jill. She’d be closer to her family and have a new challenge. But Wolfsburg didn’t put an offer out for you, nowhere in Germany did. You were probably biassed with which team you did pick, because you knew Jill loved Spain, but Barcelona were interested in your playing style, you were hell for midfielders, even more after having trained with, and against Jill for so long at Arsenal. Plus, you had been trying out moving up your position on the pitch, trying to improve your game, and helping Jill out, plus you marking her gave her a new challenge. Lotte enjoyed the chaos that came with playing against you too, the two of you tussling for the ball had become quite entertaining apparently, especially when Katie got involved, whilst Leah stood on the sidelines thinking you were all being children.

The two of you still had a couple of months left before the final match of the season, then the announcements of the transfers would be made public. You’d be moving from London to Barcelona, whilst Jill went from London to Wolfsburg.

But for now, you were dancing in your tiny kitchen with the love of your life, waiting for dinner to cook after a successful practice

“Je bent zo mooi.” You whispered as Jill danced goofily to the music, not realising she had heard you until you saw the smile on her face turn into an even bigger grin, moving over so you would dance closer to her.

“Liefje, the food-” you were cut off as Jill’s hands slipped under your shirt, lingering on your back as she pulled you into her, resting her head on your shoulder.

“Do you mean it? When you got the tattoo, did you mean it?” Jill’s voice was quiet, but you held her, feeling the butterflies in your stomach.

“I mean it. Every day, I mean it. You are my liefde, no matter where we are, I don’t think I could ever get over you.” You admitted, Jill’s eyes lingering on the tattoo on your inner wrist, her handwriting staring back at her. You’d asked her to write it, maybe she thought the two of you were moving too fast now that she looked at it again, but what you felt for each other wasn’t something that could ever be replaced or overlooked. The love the two of you have for each other was a lifetime’s worth, together or not.

///

The next match was Arsenal against Bristol City, before the international break came again and Jill was heading off to play two friendlies against Spain, then Australia.

Watching from the bench, you were buzzing as Jill assisted Viv in the first goal, 4 minutes into the game. Daan’s goal, assisted by Viv during the minute of stoppage time before half time left you energised, the plan being you would be playing the second half alongside Leah who would be coming on for Lia. Leah and Beth both went on first, whilst you finally got to enter the pitch at the 61st minute, hugging Noelle as she was subbed off.

Jill glanced back at you with a smile as you jogged onto the pitch, with Malin not far behind coming on for Daan. Two minutes later, Beth scored, then another two minutes later, Viv scored again.

Your eyes followed Jill as she was subbed off for Katie to come on, whilst Bristol made some substitutions themselves, but they couldn’t fight back against the 4-0 lead that Arsenal had in the end, even after the five minutes of stoppage time.

Chewing your lip as you went to head home after the game with Jill, you debated with yourself before taking a different turn, getting your girlfriend’s attention.

“Are you awake enough to play some mini golf?” Jill’s confused look turned into a smile at your impulsive idea, any tiredness leaving her body at the idea of a mini golf date.

///

You laughed at yourself as the ball hit the rotor instead of going through, not realising that Jill was filming until you turned to look at her.

“Your turn, schatje.” You smiled, going to retrieve your ball as Jill grinned, talking to her phone camera about how you were speaking in Dutch, or something like that, you were distracted trying to find your ball.

///

“Did you have fun?” you enquired, heading home after playing two rounds of mini golf, both of you yawning slightly as you made it through the front door. It had ended originally in a draw, but a game of rock, paper, scissors and some flirtatious remarks left Jill the victor, and you a flustered mess holding the car keys.

“Yes, liefje, I did… but we could have more fun…” Jill whispered, taking your hand and leading you from the front door.

///

Jill leaving for the two friendlies, the first one against Spain, the next against Australia, left you with your thoughts as you and Lisa hung out, Viv having also gone on international duty, along with Daan, Leah and Beth.

“What about you and Jill then? Since the end of the season is coming up?” Lisa enquired, the two of you sat eating popcorn whilst watching WALL-E.

“Arsenal decided they didn’t want to re-sign me, but I’m making them regret it by becoming a bit more versatile with positions on the pitch, and I don’t know who Jill has spoken to, so…” Your fingers ran over your wrist tattoo as you explained to Lisa what was going on.

“Didn’t want to re-sign you? What utter bullshit! You’re a great defender and I know you’ve been having fun going into midfield too- so you and Jill are leaving Arsenal after this season?” Lisa realised, watching as you shoved a handful of popcorn in your mouth in response to her compliment.

“Transfer announcement won’t be made until at least after the game against Aston Villa. Technically supposed to keep my mouth shut a bit longer but I think the team picked up the nervous energy months ago so…” you shrugged, about to reach for more popcorn when Lisa pulled the bowl away.

“It won’t be the same without you two lovebirds, which lucky club is getting you both anyway?” Lisa enquired, her eyes widening when your eyes filled with tears against your will, hand covering your mouth to silence any sobs trying to leave your mouth.

“Clubs. Plural. We’re not, our offers, our offers weren’t even in the same country!” Saying the words aloud to someone that wasn’t Jill or your agent left your chest feeling lighter, but the look on Lisa’s face had the tears flowing as she moved over on the couch to pull you into a hug.

“I don’t want to lose her, but the stupid contracts, I’m with Barcelona for at least two years, and Jill’s contract is with Wolfsburg, 863 miles away… I love her, Lisa… she’s the love of my life.” You sobbed into Lisa’s shoulder, letting Lisa process the information that meant you and Jill were either going long distance, or something worse, and both options were breaking you both.

“But you two act so…”

“We love each other too much to not treasure every second until the end of the season, even if deep down we know we can’t handle long distance, but just the idea of breaking up hurts like hell.” You admitted, running your fingers over your wrist again as Lisa glanced at the words, recognising the handwriting.

///

“Zij is mijn liefde, ik kan haar niet loslaten. Ik ben verliefd op haar.” Jill confessed to her roommate, Sari during the international break after missing you too much after a few days.

///

The Netherlands friendly against Australia was hard to find anywhere to watch as you and Lisa sat trying to find any updates, since live footage was from the Netherlands and Lisa still couldn’t find the channel.

“She scored. Jill scored the first goal!” You exclaimed, finally getting Google to update on your phone, hurrying over to Lisa to show her, “Viv got the assist!”

///

Jill and the others returned after the international break ready for the rest of the WSL season, starting off with a match against Gillingham for the FA WSL Cup that ended 10-0 to Arsenal.

You could feel Jill’s eyes on you as you continued your work moving further forwards as a defensive midfielder, you were getting better, and although it brought a smile on her face, she was nervous for the future in case she ever had to play against you. No doubt you could end up being the player to mark her if Barcelona let you continue what you were working towards. She was also going to miss how good you looked in the Arsenal kit, her eyes widening as you turned around and winked at her during training.

Social media enjoyed the photo of you winking, the angle luckily meaning it was assumed you were winking at the camera, instead of the love of your life, but Jill, and your other teammates who had seen Jill’s reaction knew the truth.

3 days later and it was the beginning of the end of an era almost for Arsenal. Daan had announced her free transfer to Lyon after this season, having decided against re-signing with Arsenal. Lisa made a beeline for you when you and Jill arrived to train after Daan’s announcement had been made, pulling you into a hug because she knew what was coming, pulling Jill into a hug next that left you and Jill reaching for each other afterwards.

Soon you and Jill would be making your transfer announcements, packing up and moving out of London. Of course Jill had the Olympics coming up with the Netherlands, so she at least had plans for the summer. You however weren’t sure what you were doing with your off-season, besides the fact you would be in Barcelona by then.

///

Walking through the streets of London, your hand holding Jill’s, swaying arms slightly as you smile at each other, the April days were going quickly, and neither of you were ready for May to arrive.

“Ik hou van jou,” you whispered as you and Jill slipped into the cafe seats, sitting opposite each other holding hands over the table. Jill grinned, whispering that she loves you too before the cafe staff asked you both if you wanted a menu, interrupting the bubble the two of you were in.

///

Jill’s yellow card against Brighton, plus the fact that she had been subbed off less than ten minutes later, allowed her to watch how the rest of the game played out, including how you were playing. You were almost a completely different player in terms of skill level compared to last season, and she couldn’t help but be proud of you. You were often on the bench more than her, meaning that you watched her play more than she watched you, but there was always a soft smile on her face watching you cause havoc for the opposing team’s midfielders as you slipped back and forth from defender to defensive midfield. Plus she loved how you looked in the shorts, but that wasn’t something everyone needed to know.

Jill didn’t start in the game against West Ham three days later, so she sat on the bench next to you, the two of you holding hands hidden beneath your warm-up jersey that you had taken off, wary of cameras but still wanting that connection as the two of you watched the game. Whilst Jill was subbed on at the 72nd minute taking over for Jordan, you soon joined her on the pitch at the 85th minute for Noelle.

The game was expected to end 2-0 to Arsenal after Kim’s goal at the 78th minute adding to Jordan’s goal from the first half, but you were a player often underestimated, so when the ball flew into the net, courtesy of your skull, Jill was the first one over to celebrate with you. You grinned as her forehead rested against yours, staring into her eyes before the rest of the team made it over, patting your back or shoulders as Jill kept you in her arms until the game resumed.

The match against West Ham ended 3-0.

///

Post-match celebrations may have gone on for a while, but the next day, you and Jill headed to the park, enjoying nature before Jill grew side-tracked by the basketball court, the two of you making your way over there after you set the High School Musical soundtrack to play on your phone.

Your skill as a defender in football however didn’t cross over to basketball as you struggled to defend the hoop from your girlfriend, laughing eventually as you slipped over and landed on your bum. Jill chuckled as she walked over, offering her hands to help you up after a minute of you pouting on the ground.

///

Social media had been full of rumours of who would be transferring to Barcelona for the next season. You didn’t like looking at the rumours in case you appeared on them, or you saw fans' excitement thinking you and Jill would continue to play together. The two of you didn’t hide the fact you were in a relationship, but it was broadcasted either. Social media posts with the two of you were always with faces hidden, and you two weren’t massively into PDA in public besides hand holding and other soft things for those soft moments. You didn’t want to think about what the fans would speculate when the transfer announcements were made.

Jill had a date for hers, the day after the final game of the season against Aston Villa. You didn’t have a date for yours, but you and Jill were already struggling to pack up each other’s stuff to move out of the little home the two of you had made together over the months.

You and Jill would maybe play up to two more matches together at Arsenal, before it was all done.

Sitting on the floor in your little kitchen, you hadn’t planned on sobbing your heart out over the sheet of photo booth photos of you and Jill together, but it had fallen from the fridge door, the magnet breaking in the process. The foreshadowing alone had tears in your eyes. You weren’t ready to let go of your love.

Jill was out with Daan and Viv, giving you the option to call Lisa, sobbing down the phone until she came hurrying over.

“I don’t want to do this. I don’t want her to leave.” You sobbed into Lisa’s shoulder once she arrived, cleaning up the shattered magnet and carefully taking the photo sheet from your fingers before it got crumpled even more.

“I know, I know, you love her, she loves you too. I know that because Viv’s comforting your girl right now as they help Daan with moving to France.” Lisa admitted, the two of you sat on the floor in the tiny kitchen.

“She’s my home…” you whispered, eyes lingering on Jill’s Arsenal jersey hanging on the back of the couch as you spoke.

///

The Aston Villa game ended 0-0. Not what anyone wanted but it was hard. It was Daan’s, Jill’s and your last game with Arsenal, and it ended in a draw. What had taken you by slight surprise though was that you were subbed on for Lia, in a defensive midfield position that you’d received positive remarks for after.

Your body trembled as Daan pulled you and Jill into a hug, the three of you standing together processing everything.

The team wanted to celebrate the end of the season, but you couldn’t take your eyes off Jill’s sad smile as she walked around hugging and shaking hands with everyone.

“I’m going to miss you both.” Daan admitted, smiling as you let out a sigh.

“Me too. This sucks.” You wiped at your face, meeting Jill’s sad expression as you both knew what was coming.

///

You woke up to the announcement all over social media that Jill had signed with Wolfsburg, rolling over, Jill was nowhere to be seen. Your stomach flipped as you looked around, throwing the covers from your body as you scrambled up, hurrying into the bathroom to check if she was there before running through your place, finding Jill with her head in the fridge.

“Oh my god, I thought-” you hurried over into Jill’s arms, the carton of juice barely making it onto the kitchen counter as Jill wrapped her arms around you to hold you instead.

“I’m sorry, liefde, I didn’t mean for you to wake up alone…” Jill flinched as she glanced at the clock, realising what had scared you as you leaned back, tears in your eyes.

“I’ll have to get used to it though, won’t I? Fuck, this is so hard. I don’t think I’ll ever get over you, Jill Jamie Roord.” You confessed, Jill pressing her lips to your wrist tattoo before speaking.

“I wish we could handle the distance,” Jill admitted, stroking your cheek with her thumb and wiping away the tear making its way down your face in the process.

“Me too. Ik hou van jou.”

“Ik hou meer van jou.” Jill whispered back, closing her eyes as the two of you embraced.

///

Running your hands down your face, you let out a sigh as you unzipped your suitcase. Discarding your shirt that smelt like the airport, you tugged on one that had been Jill’s. Jill had texted you thrice since you’d moved out first. One before she’d found the letter you’d left. Another wishing you a safe flight. Then the third message, she had arrived in Germany safely, and that she loved you.

You replied to that one, admitting you were glad she was safe, and to say hello to her family for you. You never met them in person but you’d spoken to them over enough video calls that you were known to them. You sent another message after, ‘ik hou van jou, mijn liefde.’ before tugging on Jill’s shirt and getting to work unpacking your belongings. Your time in London had ended, and your time in Barcelona was beginning, but your love for Jill is timeless and eternal.

#woso x reader #woso imagine #jill roord x reader #jill roord imagine #woso imagines

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SERIOUSLY?; jill roord x fem!reader pt.2

Summary: reader finds out something about jill's past. will reader insecurities break her trust on her girlfriend?

Warnings: angst, anxiety, fluff.

Note: English is not my first language.

not my gif.

To Y/N, the summer passed quickly. She mentally do a resume about it since she stopped play on April.

First was when she can't finish the season due to her injury. The doctor recommended if she wants play on the world cup that summer, she need take care of it. A good take care and rest. So Y/N cheered her team from the stands. Her team won all the cups, again. And Y/N couldn't be happier.

Second thought was on Jill's birthday. Immediately a smile take over her lips. Y/N remember when she was injured, Jill stayed on her side almost a week, losing play the second leg of champions league. For her luck, her team pass to the final, against Barcelona. There Jill was not so lucky.

That week the blonde was watching her, literally. But Y/N was happy and never said anything. That week too was Jill's birthday, so like in theory they aren't spending it together, finally they could celebrate it. Not like Y/N had planned, but she was content how the events turned. Y/N remember too that she had to kick her out to Wolfsburg.

Later Y/N pass to another memory. The support from all her teammates, from the club to national team. And from Jill's teammates, family and friends. And of course Y/N's family. But Y/N had two people to thanked the most, to her girlfriend and Alexia. They cheered her everyday, Jill from the distance and Alexia stuck to her side. The catalan when Jill went to Wolfsburg, made Y/N moved to her apartment, so Alexia mostly accompanied her to medical appointments. When the wound healed, the scar stayed, something Y/N mentally prepared. And when Y/N take off the bandage from her left cheek, the doctor gave her a mirror to see herself how was it. Y/N felt strange, she slowly run her fingertips over the scar. It was notorious. A long horizontal scar from the nose to much of the left cheek. Y/N lowered her eyes, she didn't know very well what reaction she should have, but the one she was having, Y/N supposed it was normal.

"You look beautiful." Alexia said, wiping a tear that escaped from Y/N's eye.

Y/N looked at her, greatful for having her. Y/N remember too when they both went out from the hospital, Alexia take her hand and without a word, she placed a kiss on the scar, since there the catalan always make sure Y/N felt comfortable with it.

Alexia like the captain and good person she is, all the cups what the team won, she said that is for Y/N and a few others injured teammates, but Y/N from all of them, she was the most affected. So Alexia made her lift the Champions League cup after she lift it first.

Y/N saw Jill on the final for the first time she take off the bandages. She showed it for facetime, but in Y/N's opinion, the scar looks worse in person.

"Hey." Y/N greeted her from behind. When she saw Jill's pained expression write on her face, Y/N felt really bad.

"Hey..." The blonde paint a smile when she saw Y/N. Half content and half sad. Usually when they hug, Y/N hide her face on Jill's neck, but this time were Jill who hide her head on Y/N's neck, bringing Y/N closer to her hugging her around the waist.

"I'm sorry, baby." Y/N whispered, caressing with a hand Jill's back.

"It's okay." Jill pulled away from the hug but left an arm around Y/N's waist. Then hazel eyes from her girlfriend focused on her face, scanning the area. Y/N saw how Jill inclined her head towards the scar and planted a chaste kiss on there. "I want kiss that scar all the time, but sadly I can't. I know that you don't like it, but I do. I like it." Y/N look at her with love on her eyes.

"Damn it, I want kiss you, but then we probably take away the show to the winner team." Y/N said funnily, Jill laugh weakly while shake her head.

"Probably. I hope they are happy with all the content they are going to have." Jill gave her an innocent lipped smile, Y/N laughed.

"Yeah, I hope so too." Y/N inevitably hug Jill, hiding briefly her head where she likes. "I promise you that one day you lift that cup." Y/N mumbled convinced. She pulled away, finding teary eyes looking at her.

"I love you." Jill whispered, brushing a strand of hair from Y/N's face.

"I love you too, hemel." Y/N whispered back.

Then Jill indicated with her head where the happy screams and singing voices were. "Go and have fun. You deserve it." She stated.

"Okaaaay. See you in a few days?" Y/N asked.

Jill nod; "Of course." With a last hug, they separated. Y/N went too to greeted and comfort Jill's teammates.

Next memory was from month of June, when she reincorporated to the national team with all her club's teammates. Since there, they had an intense training sessions before they will fly to Australia, where was the place when they have their first match.

Like a tradition, Germany was on their group stage alongside with Chile and Japan. A tough group. Spain was first in the group, Germany second. Y/N enjoyed that time in Australia and New Zealand, surprisingly there were a lot of people on the stadiums, more than last time on France, so it's was something positive.

Y/N's roomie were Nerea, Jenni and Ona. With the last one Y/N always felt nervous, it's like Ona in some way intimidated her, but spending more time together, they created a special bond, so when the freckled girl tell her that that summer she will announce for Barcelona new signing, Y/N was over the moon, but not more than Patri and Aitana, since they both have a bond since a long time. The young player enjoyed her time with Jenni too, the striker make official she will moving to another club, something that it would happened after the Euro, but with some convinced with a few people Jenni stayed another season. Y/N doesn't gonna lie, the ambient sometimes was intense, but she will be missing Jenni and her jokes.

Spain didn't win the world cup. It was a favorite and potential candidate to win, but they fell in the semi-finals against Sweden. They played incredibly well, even against Sweden, but when the team its tired and the shots on goal do no enter, then you don't have many options. Sweden won against the Netherlands in the final, who surprisingly again, they went to the final. Y/N felt happiness when she watch the other semi-final on tv. Yes, she lost that same day, but Y/N seeing Jill, Lieke and Vivianne pass to another final, make her very happy. Y/N received a call an hour after that match finished. A happy Jill called, yelling, cheering, singing made Y/N laugh, then she laughed more when Jill's teammates stole her phone from her hands.

"Give me it, arsehole!" Jill's distant voice was heard.

"Y/N!!! WE WOOOOOON. I KNOW YOU LOST THIS EVENING. I'M SORRY, I REALLY AM SORRY. BUT IF I'M BEING HONEST, I'M GLAD. DON'T MISUNDERSTANDING ME, YOUR TEAM ITS A GOOD ONE TO BEAT, BUT I PROMISE YOU A THING. WE ALL WIN FOR YOU, Y/N! JILL, LIEKE AND I WILL WIN FOR YOU. I LOVE YOU!" Vivianne was the one who stole Jill's phone, it surprised Y/N. She meet the young striker and usually Viv is a quiet person. Y/N remembered when Viv won her first Champions League, and it's true that the blonde loosened up a bit, but never saw her like that before.

"Thanks, Viv. But you need win first for your family, okay? And after for your country. Promise me that?" Y/N said, she looked at Ona, who was by her side, a smug smile painted on her mouth.

"I PROMISE YOU. BUT YOU ARE FAMILY TOO. I'M GOING TO GIVE THE PHONE TO LIEKE, WAIT!" Y/N smiled, she felt a little emotional when Viv said that words to her.

"Y/N? WE GO TO THE FINAL!! I'M HAPPY IT WASN'T AGAINST SPAIN! BUT I SAYING IT ONLY LIKE RIVAL. LIKE YOUR FRIEND I SAY I'M SORRY. SHIT! JILL IS COMING!" Lieke yell, but on the line can heard footsteps and screamings.

"HELLO? ITS JACKIE! LIEKE IS ON THE FLOOR, JILL IS MAKING A JUDO KEY, BUT SHE IS FINE, SHE IS LAUGHING." Ona stole Y/N's phone from her hands. She pressed the speaker icon.

"Jackie? It's Ona." The young catalan spoke, sitting criss cross on the bed.

"HI ONA! HOW ARE YOU? I'M SORRY BY THE WAY. YOUR TEAM PLAYED AMAZING, YOU DESERVE PASS TO THE FINAL. BUT YOU KNOW HOW FOOTBALL IS." The blonde midfielder said in a rush. It's funny how it's was the only one saying that about Spain.

"Yeah, don't worry. Right now sucks, but the next time it will ours. So can you do me a favor?" Ona looks Y/N.

"YEAH, WHAT FAVOR?" Y/N laugh discreetly, she find funny how all of them was yelling while they spoke.

"Take care of the title being current champions for four years? I promise you I will take care it after." Ona joked, but a glit on her eyes say another thing.

Jackie laugh softly; "YEAH. BUT WE WOULD FIGHT FOR IT, OKAY? BY THE WAY, FIRST WE NEED WIN IT THIS YEAR, SO WE TALK IT IN ANOTHER TIME. BUT I PROMISE YOU IT."

"Okay. You deserve it, Jacks. I'm happy for you." Ona wipe her eyes fast, not letting tears fall. Y/N pass an arm around her neck, placing a kiss on her cheek.

"Thanks Ona. I will miss you." That soft words make the freckled girl break. Ona gave back her phone and went to the bathroom. Y/N sigh sad.

"Jackie? She went to the bathroom." Y/N spoke lower, playing with one hand with her sweatshirt strings.

"Take care of her for me, okay? She is special, well I'm sure you knew it before me." Y/N knew it, but later.

"I will. We will." Y/N promised.

"I miss you too, I want to say it because Jill is coming. Bye see you, hopefully cheering for us, and good luck, I hope you win that third place I love you! Say it to Ona too."

"LOVE? I'M SORRY! I HAVE AN AWFUL TEAMMATES. THEY ARE ALL ANNOYING." Jill spoke again, noises could be heard in the background, surely mocking Jill.

Y/N chuckle softly; "Don't worry. They all said meaningful things, so not bad at all."

"By the way... I'm sorry, mijn maan. It could be beautiful we played the final together."

"It's okay, love. Don't worry about me, focus on you, okay? You need win that final." Y/N stated.

"I will. And I will dedicated it to you." The blonde said with conviction.

"If you win only the medal, I hope you still dedicated it to me. Because if I win the third place, I'll do it."

"I'll do it. I need hang up, we need go to the hotel. Text you there, okay?"

"HEY, I DON'T COULD TALK WITH HER!" Daan's voice was heard.

"Hey, Daan. Congratulations! I can call you now, how that sound?" Y/N asked amused.

"THANKS, Y/N! ITS FINE, I CALL YOU WHEN I GET TO THE BUS." Daan yell.

"Okay. Well, Jill. If I don't text you back you know whose fault it is." Y/N chuckle.

"If Daan stole you from me, I kick her ass!" The dutch said seriously. Of course Jill kicked Daan's ass.

After the world cup finish, Y/N decided travel to Jill's native city. She wants know more about Jill's country, so when the ocasion present, the blonde agreed. They celebrated in advance their first anniversary together because when they will be busy with the preseason. Jill take her to a wood where have a beautiful lake, the dutch said that she went there when she was little. It's like a hide place to curious eyes.

And then, right now she turned to look at Jill, who was to her side, sleeping. They are in Madrid. Jill proposed to her if she would help her to install to her new apartment and explore some places of the city, since Y/N knew Madrid a little better than Jill.

It was her last day there since tomorrow started the preseason for both of them. And for Y/N she will go to another part to prepared for the upcoming matches.

"What are you thinking?" A sleepy voice ask, Y/N smile.

"About how lucky I am because I don't will see you with a Real Madrid tracksuit." Y/N joked.

Jill snorted, still with her eyes closed.

"Don't worry about it. I take a photo and send it to you."

•••

The next day, Jill kept the promise and send Y/N a photo where the blonde wear a Real Madrid tracksuit. Y/N rolled her eyes, but she wasn't going to deny that Jill looked good.

If you had put a patch on the shield, you would be better off.

:P don't lie to me baby, I know you like how do I look.

How humble🙄

By the way, nervous? Tell me everything later. I'm going on my way to the village.

Yeah. I'm a little nervous, but I'm excited!

Okay, take care😘😘

And I love you❤️

If someone messes with you they will deal with me😤

You too, I love you more💙❤️

"Leave the phone!" Aitana exclaimed behind Y/N. The midfielder turned around to look at her.

"Say you? Need I remember your entire stay in Australia and New Zealand you was on your phone?" Y/N teased back. The brunette catalan grunted.

"Fuck you." Aitana said funnily.

"Aitana!" Alexia rebuked behind the aforementioned, Y/N laugh while Aitana began to reproach.

"No way! I don't say anything bad. Also why do you never scold her?" Aitana asked. Y/N saw how Alexia looked at her briefly, hiding a smile.

"I don't know what are you talking about." The captain played dumb, looking back at her phone.

Aitana turned to look at Y/N again with an open mouth. "I hate you." The brunette mouthed to her. Y/N laughed harder, Mariona who was by Aitana's side, too.

"Come on, Aiti. Don't say lies." Y/N funny humming.

Y/N heard how Aitana grunted again.

"Laia! Want you be my roomie?" Y/N call to the girl from a few front seats from her.

"Oh my god, stop!" Aitana exclaimed.

Laia looked to them confused. She asked with a move of head what happened.

"This idiot is teasing me. Don't pay attention to her." The brunette said feigning be frustrated towards Y/N.

Laia shake her head laughing.

Y/N turned to look at Aitana again and stuck out her tongue, looking forward again. Then Y/N felt a strong pain on her right arm.

"Auch!" Y/N hissed, rubbing that part.

"Aitana! Why you hit her?" Alexia scolded once again to Aitana.

"She is feigning it Ale. I have not hit her so hard." Aitana mumbled, but soon she let out a yelp.

"Why you do that?" The young catalan ask, Y/N turned towards them, seeing Aitana rubbing her head.

"I haven't hit you so hard, why you yell?" Alexia said imitating the words that Aitana said before.

Y/N look to a sleepy Viv to her side. She unlocked her phone and took a picture of the blonde and sent it to Lisa. Then Y/N blocked it and relaxed on her seat, she still have an hour to get to the site.

•••

A few days passed, the intensity from the training and the heat, all of them were tired and lying to somewhere cool while they have a break. That evening after training, Y/N sit down in a chair on her balcony. She can heard some of her teammates outside where the pool was speaking while they tanned.

"So, that are all the couples from the team." Y/N heard Patri said. She let out a soft giggle.

"There are a lot." Ona comments.

"Yeah. Is a little weird if you dated someone from the same team. Mapi have experience in it. Well and Alexia. It's was weird when Mapi and Ingrid started dating and Ana was around. But they stayed cordials, and saw for the team." Patri explained to Ona.

"Lesbians are dramatic. Shit, we are fucked up, Patri!" Ona said laughing.

"Yeah! And it could have been worse. You heard about the rumors where Jill Roord would sign for Barcelona, right?" Y/N frown confused. She heard it, but a long time ago. "Well, imagined if she sign. More drama because Jill and Ingrid dated." Y/N noticed how her blood froze.

What?

Jill dated Ingrid?

And she is finding it now?

Y/N's mind was going a thousand miles an hour. She didn't know how time passed sitting in that chair with a lost look. Why Jill didn't tell her before? Why on earth she is hearing it now after a year or more? A hand on her shoulder made her jump on the spot.

"Are you okay?" Alexia's voice sound away despite being only a few inches from her.

"No." Y/N answers honestly. She stands up and walk out from the bedroom. Alexia look the way her roomie walk, confused. And worried.

Y/N went towards the canteen and went to sit where Sandra, Irene and Viv, the silences of the team. The quietness is what Y/N was searching right now. She saw from the distance how Mapi and Ingrid sit down next to Aitana, Frido and Laia. Then Patri and Ona came with Alexia behind them. Surely the captain went in search of them.

"Hey." Irene's hand grab Y/N's, making this look noticing how her knuckles had turned white. Y/N's breath was turning irregular, her gaze come back where Ingrid was sitting. "Y/N look at me." Y/N heard Irene, but she didn't pay attention. The more she looked at the norwegian, the more confused she felt.

Soon Y/N gaze was focusing on another face, Irene turned with their hands Y/N's face towards herself. Worried eyes scanned her.

"Match my breath." Irene whispered, Y/N tried hard on focusing on it. But she made it.

"Thanks." Y/N mumbled, starting eat from her plate. Irene looked at the others three there while Y/N was oblivious to everything.

"Don't dare you act like nothing happened." The basque said seriously. She noticed that Alexia -who sit down where they are when Y/N was having an anxiety attack, was going to speak.

"I tell you later." She was all she said.

Vivianne, Sandra, Irene and Alexia looked each other worried. They don't knowing the reason, they saw just like Y/N stared at a specific point. The lunch was getting normal, the four girls next to Y/N keep an eye on her, but for their relief, she is okay. Until Y/N's phone started ring.

Y/N looks the phone screen bright, showing a photo of Jill on one of their first dates. Y/N bite her lower lip, remaining ecstatic on the spot, letting the call finish. She started with her dessert when the sound of a text rang.

Hi baby! I called you but you probably will be busy. I have a break for lunch, so if you saw it before you start your other training session call me😘❤️

Y/N unblock the phone and read it over. She blocked it and finish eating.

"I'm going to lie down for a while." The midfielder communicate to the fours. She stands up and started walk out.

"Hey you! Where you going?" Ona's voice call her. Y/N looks at her, noticing that a few of them were looking at her, between them was Ingrid. Y/N tensed up.

"I'm tired, so I'm going to lie down." Her voice felt cold, not masking how she felt. Y/N didn't let Ona answers back, she go away fastly from there.

The young player closes the door and lie down on her bed. Her reaction isn't the most properly, inside she felt everything, but she was acting cold, without emotion.

She noticed how an arm posing on her waist. Y/N didn't turn around to knowing it's Alexia.

"I'm want be alone." She said with a hoarse voice.

"I don't going anywhere. So if you don't want speak, just don't speak. But don't push me out. I don't moving from here." Alexia said quietly, tightening her grip.

They are like that until Alexia saw its the hour to the next training session.

•••

The time in the village was getting to the final. Two days pass since Y/N found out about her teammate and girlfriend. Her mood worsened something happens always when she have that mood, she plays impeccably well. She had two panic attacks and an anxiety attack, all of them without knowing anyone there, a few of them knew of the only one she had on their lunch.

"Y/N! Jill is on the phone, she is worried about you. She said that you aren't answering her calls or texts." Viv came to where Y/N was sitting outside, waiting for the last training session. Y/N tensed up again that day and it showed up on her face. Her breath stuck in her throat, her chest tightness to the point she started feel dizzy. Viv looks at her scared. The blonde saw how it happen in a second. "Jill? I'm calling you later, okay? Don't worry, I promise you you're talking with her." Then Viv hung up and ran where Y/N is.

"Breath Y/N. Don't think about anything else. Just focus on me and in my breath, okay? Want you Alexia come here?" The dutch striker ask fastly, seeing how Y/N shake her head indicating a no. After a few minutes, Viv felt relieved, she saw Y/N breath normally again, color coming back to her cheeks.

"I don't a fool, Y/N. You need talk with her, okay? Whatever it's bothering you, we are here." Viv reassured Y/N, hugging her.

"You two! Come on, we are getting late if you don't come now!" Aitana yell at them, clearly trying to tease both of them, mostly Y/N. But Aitana face pass to a smug smile to a frowning face when Y/N pass to her side and just got on the bus. "Is the first time Y/N doesn't said anything to me. Is she okay?" The brunette asked Viv.

"I think she still is in a bad mood." Viv mumbled giving Aitana a lipped smile, getting on the bus after the short girl get in the bus first.

Viv kept an eye on her all training. She didn't lie, Y/N had giving them a hard time, the spanish girl was playing really good. And then, something happened. It's a 5v5 match. Y/N, Irene, Viv, Lieke and Cata and the other was Alexia, Mapi, Sandra, Ingrid and Aitana. The first team was winning, despite the fact that the other team had more possession of the ball. But it happened when Aitana pass the ball to Ingrid and Y/N went for it, but late. A huge scream resound in the pitch.

Y/N stared Ingrid on the floor, seeing how the tall girl was lying in the ground holding with her hands her right ankle. Mapi went immediately towards Ingrid, soon the others too, letting out Y/N. So she take advantage of it and run away to the locker room.

Y/N closed the door with a slam, tears running for her cheeks. She sit down on the floor, hiding her face on her hands

What is wrong with her?

Why the mere though of Jill and Ingrid together make her angry?

"WHAT HAPPEN WITH YOU, EH?" Mapi opened the door with another slam, scaring Y/N.

"I-I'm sor-ry, Mapi." Y/N said with a small voice.

"YOU SORRY? YOU BETTER FEEL IT. BECAUSE I SWORE TO YOU THAT IF SHE IS REALLY BAD INJURED, YOU WILL REALLY KNOW ME!" Mapi yell furious, moving closer to her with every word that came out of her mouth.

"I SAID SORRY, OKAY? STOP THAT BULLSHIT!" Y/N explotes, standing up putting herself in front of Mapi.

"You two stop now!" Alexia exclaimed, standing between the two.

"I'M DONE WITH HER, ALEXIA! SO MOVE NOW." The blonde tried get to Y/N, but Alexia stopped her.

"You don't gonna touch her." The catalan deadly serious said, stopping Mapi with her hands.

"Why are you always defending her? I don't fucking understand! She is treating us bad. I don't care what happened to her right now. My limit is Ingrid and she crossed it." The defender blurted out.

"Mapi! Stay away from her." Lieke came too, standing next to Y/N.

"Of course! Someone else to protect the poor girl!?" Mapi exclaimed sarcastic. Y/N felt her blood boil when she heard that she was getting protect from some of them.

"SHUT UP! I DON'T NEED ANYONE TO PROTECT ME." Y/N scream angry, her tears turned from guilty to rage.

"NO? ARE YOU SURE? BECAUSE ITS THE ONLY THING I SAW EVERYTIME THAT SOMETHING HAPPENS TO YOU. YOU KNOW WHAT? YOU AREN'T THE UNIQUE PERSON WITH PROBLEMS, Y/N!!" The aragonese yell at her while she made a fuss with her hands. Mapi's face turned red from angry, the vein on her forehead was starting to show.

"ENOUGH!" Alexia's powerful voice silenced them both, the pair looked at each other with rancor and anger. "Ona please, take Y/N to somewhere else." It's when Y/N broke her gaze with the blonde and saw how all of their teammates was looking at them, silently. She saw how Ona went towards her, extending her left hand to her. Y/N looks her hand, but remained there.

"Y/N please. Go with her." Lieke whispered, with one hand pushing her softly towards the freckled girl. Y/N looked again at Mapi, giving her a cold stare and went towards Ona, accepting her hand. She saw how her teammates gave her confused and worried looks while she passed between them to exit from there.

Y/N let Ona take to where the pool was. They sit down on a sun lounger. The sun was hiding and soon was getting dark, but still the last rays of the sun lit up the place.

"Felt better?" Ona ask after a while, squeezing the grip on her hand.

"Yeah." Y/N answered nodding with her head.

"Why are you acting cold? It's not for now, you are acting like it for a few days and don't wanna to ask before. So I'm doing it now, why?" Ona ask softly, the other look at her, seeing on Ona's eyes, worry.

"I found something out and I'm not assimilating well." Y/N answered defeat. She let her walls down with Ona, knowing she will not judge her.

"Want talk about it?" The defender offered, caressing with a hand Y/N's back.

Y/N shake her head slowly; "Not, I need talk with someone else. The person is involved on it." She said honestly. Ona nod, understanding.

"Okay. What about if you go to your room and start with it?" She proposed.

"That's an order?" Y/N ask with a tone of fun.

"Maybe." Ona answered back, bumping her shoulder with Y/N's. "Don't worry, if Alexia and Lieke come here I say you are on your room."

"Okay. Thanks Ona." She hugged Ona briefly and stood up.

"Anything for you darling."

•••

The first ring sound, making Y/N sigh nervous. She felt shy too. Shit, how is she gonna tell her?

"Hi baby." Jill's voice sound after the third tone.

"Hello Jill." She answers back, more formal. "I want tell you why I haven't been answering your calls and texts. If you let me explain everything at once."

"Yeah, of course. I hear you." She said calmly.

"Okay." Y/N take a deep breath and clear her throat. "First of all. I'm sorry for ignoring you. I... A few days I heard something that I don't knew and it shocked me. It's something involve you and I don't wanna to answer you badly. Actually my mood worsened and I've been having panic and anxiety attacks and today I... Have crossed the limit. In a 5v5 match, when I went for the ball, which Ingrid had, instead of hitting the ball, I hit her. I took her ankle and I think I have injured her badly. She let out a horrific scream, Jill. And for my fault. Everyone went to check on her, so I went to the locker room and after a while, Mapi came yelling at me. I scream to her too, after I apologized, but... I didn't like it when she said that I'm protected by some of them. Before it went to more, Alexia separated us." Y/N finished said while tears fell uncontrollably for her cheeks. She didn't know how her voice didn't break when she was saying all that.

"What was you heard?" Jill asked after of some minutes of silence.

"I heard Patri telling Ona about the couples from the team when she mentioned you, saying that luckily you didn't sign for the team because you and Ingrid dated and it would be weird after." Y/N's gaze was lost on the dark sky since the balcony doors was opened.

"It's went a long time ago. I thought you knew it." Y/N heard Jill sigh. "Ingrid and I dated for a couple months, it's was not serious. I mean, at the time yeah because I want try a relationship with her, something serious. But she didn't want. Our relationship was based on sex, so... When she signed for Barcelona I knew that that relationship had no begging."

Y/N didn't know how she supposed to feel. For a part she felt relieved, but for another... Felt sick.

"Happened two years then?" Y/N ask in small voice.

"Yeah." The blonde confirmed.

"I felt embarrassed... But I never experienced this feeling. It's like realizing that... You can find another person, a better person than me and I don't like it. And my mind imagining you and Ingrid together make me... Angry." Y/N tried to explain how she felt.

"If it made feel you better. I have experienced that same feeling." Jill let out a soft chuckle, Y/N frown confused. "At the start of our relationship, seeing you with Alexia made me jealous. I didn't tell you anything because the jealousy lasted only a few days. I understood that it was simply a special friendship. But... This summer I have felt it again, this time with Ona." Y/N was perplexed. She didn't believe it. Jill felt jealous about Alexia and Ona?

"Really? I'm sorry. That's not my intention."

"Baby... It's not your fault. We can't control our emotions, and less the jealousy. Don't worry, if I feel insecure I think about our moments together, our conversations and you looking at me with love eyes." Y/N laugh with the last part, she felt strange when she heard her laughter. "I look at you with the same look." Jill said that part softly, Y/N believe her.

"I love you and I'm sorry for being a shitty girlfriend." Her tears came back, more softly this time.

"You have your reasons. But promise me that if you felt again like that, you tell me, okay? If you have anxiety and panic attacks you need tell someone. And I love you more, mijn liefje."

"I promise you." They talked a few minutes more and then hung up because dinner was to start. In the case of Y/N was the last day there and they will have a little party.

•••

The blaugrana player went to the canteen, finding all of her teammates there, having fun, talking and few of them singing. Y/N went to her usual spot, next to Alexia and Lieke. They smiled at her when Y/N sit down.

"Everything okay?" Alexia ask.

"Yes. I talked with Jill and I tell her everything. Even today's events." Y/N mumbled the last part. The catalan put her right arm around Y/N's shoulders and gave her a kiss on her left cheek, she always does that, just like Jill and Lieke.

"I'm proud of you. Just you need do another thing." She whispered, nodding to where Ingrid and Mapi were.

"I know, but I think today is too much. Tomorrow I apologie to Ingrid." Y/N purposely not mentioned Mapi, she will didn't forget her words that easy.

"That's fine." Lieke said to her side, smiling.

Y/N relaxed for a while, enjoying the unusual sensation that week. She watches, after they all finish dinner and dessert, Patri grab her speakers and put a song, clearly with intentions for start the party. Y/N stayed on her spot with her phone, not participating. The others didn't insist much after what happened that afternoon. Her gaze travel for all of them, dodging Mapi when she spot her. She saw Ingrid sat with crutches next to their chair. Y/N swallowed, watching how the tall girl barely smile when her girlfriend or Frido do something to cheer her.

"I'm tired. So I'm going to my room." Y/N stated standing up. Alexia and Lieke look at her.

"Do you want me to go with you?" Her roomie ask. Y/N shake her head, she deposited a kiss on her cheek, other to Lieke's and go quietly from there.

The next day she didn't went to apologies to Ingrid.

•••

The first match of the preseason finished. Barça won 3-1 against Bayern Munich. And soon they all was focusing in the next match against Chelsea, an interesting game.

Y/N's mood was better, but not too much. She felt something strange towards Jill. Like she didn't trust her and the better part was that she didn't have a real reason for feeling like that. So today her girlfriend was on her way to Barcelona, they will have a free couple days and the dutch wants to go visit her.

"Close your eyes!" Vivianne enters the locker room and stood up in front of her, a big smile on her lips.

"Really?" She asked with a smug smile.

"Yes. Come on, I promise you would like it." Y/N did what Viv said and closed her eyes. She heard footsteps and voices whispering.

"Okay. You can open your eyes!" The blonde striker exclaimed.

Y/N does what her teammate said and opened them. She couldn't believe what she is seeing, I mean she was expecting it, but later.

"What are you doing here?" Y/N ask surprised, standing up and hugging her.

"Well. I want to surprise you." Jill said, hugging Y/N around the waist.

"You do." Y/N let out a chuckle. She was happy, really happy to see her. But a pang of anguish on her chest say other thing. It's contradictory, but she truly felt happy to see Jill there.

The couple leaned to kiss when someone made a sound clearing her throat.

"Not kisses in from of me please!" Irene exclaimed, putting a hand in front on her eyes.

"Oh yeah, sure. Like you aren't tired of seeing it everyday." Y/N said rolling her eyes, so ignoring her she leaned and kiss Jill's lips slowly.

"Why are you all at the door?" Y/N tense up when she heard Mapi's voice. Jill noticed it.

"Well, someone decided give us a show on how to kiss your girlfriend." Irene answers joking.

Y/N looks at the door and like a magnet, her gaze fell on Ingrid. She unconsciously tighten her arms around Jill's neck, bringing her closer to her.

"Hey Jill." Mapi greeted her, ignoring Y/N of course. Something mutual between that both.

"Hi Mapi." The dutch greeted back.

"Y/N take care of what you say to her. She is our rival now." Alexia teased, making a few there laugh.

"Come on Ale. Don't start crying already, the league even started." Jill teased back, earning some applause with her comeback.

"We will see who will cry in the end." The catalan said. Jill just laugh and went to hug Alexia who approached them. After she hugged Ale the others wants a hug too. It's weird see Jill and Mapi interact with each other so Y/N let them talk and went to where Sandra, Irene and Laia were. While Y/N was having a conversation with the three girls, out of the corner of her eye she saw how Ingrid had joined the conversation between Mapi and Jill. And Y/N didn't like it at all.

"I'm just notice it. Stop watching." Ona approached Y/N and sat on her lap whispering that words. Y/N frown looking at her. "Ingrid isn't to blame for how you're feeling." The freckled girl cleared up.

"Look at her and look at me." Ona does what Y/N said.

"I see two beautiful women. I don't understand your point." Y/N knew it that is a lie. Ona understand what Y/N wants to say.

"Whatever. Move, I need go to the bathroom." Y/N said, tackling Ona's side.

"Stop!" The young player exclaimed laughing.

The midfielder went to the bathroom, but just stood there. She wanna be alone, not wanting to continue watching. For her surprise Mapi enters, making her nervous. The aragonese look at her suspicious, but don't say anything, just went to a empty cubicle. Y/N let out a relief sigh. So with fast footsteps, she get out from there.

She saw Aitana and Mariona talking with her girlfriend, more calm Y/N approached them.

"Don't pay attention to what Aitana tells you." Y/N said while she hugged Jill from behind, earning a giggle from Mariona and her.

"Shut up, Y/N. Let the adults talk quietly." Aitana teased back, crossing her arms.

"I see two adults and a minion." Y/N said, starting running when she saw Aitana's expression.

"Asshole come here!" The young catalan exclaimed, running faster than her.

"Aitana! What have I told you a million times? Don't insult." Alexia scolded her, crossing her arms.

"Come on! If you are the one who releases the most insults." Aitana said indignant while she had Y/N cornered. "Don't hide behind Laia. I'm going for you soon or later."

"Laia is my shield against you! I never leave her side." Y/N said dramatically, earning laughs from the majority of them.

"Actually Jill. I don't know how you have patience with this one." Aitana started said, a smug smile growing on her face. "She is annoying, has not taste in music and for her fault Alexia is always scolding me." Y/N pout behind Laia. Aitana leaned her head to a side, already forgetting that Y/N referred to her like a minion.

"You are so mean with me Aiti. I don't understand why." Y/N hugged Laia from behind, putting her head on a shoulder.

"I'm the only one mean? Come here you idiot." Aitana extended an arm towards her. Y/N accept and went to hug her.

"These two are always acting like that?" Jill ask funnily to Mariona and Alexia, while she saw how Aitana started tickle Y/N's sides.

"Yep. I'm not going to complain, I have a good time with their interactions." Mariona answered with a big smile.

"Is funny tease Aitana. She is easy and Y/N likes that type of interactions. I like mess with Aiti too." Alexia said laughing.

The blonde watch with a smile the pair, she mentally thanked Aitana for make her girlfriend relax and have fun.

•••

The two days pass fastly. Right now Y/N was helping Jill to pack a few things. Y/N's mind was a whirlpool of thoughts. She had in mind do something, an idea that round for a few days. And she decided express it loud.

"I think we need break up..." Y/N mumbled. She saw how Jill stood petrified on the spot, slowly turning her head towards her. Y/N swallowed shyly.

"What?" Jill asked with a small voice, confusion writing on her face.

"We need break up." This time Y/N said more clear, looking at Jill with conviction.

"Why? Please, tell me it's not for Ingrid." The dutch throw away what she had on her hands to the bed. Y/N watch how Jill was getting angry. "Want you break up because you are jealous? I don't fucking understand it, Y/N!" Jill exclaimed mad.

"I think it's better for both of us. Maybe you can find someone better than me..."

"Oh my god! Y/N, I don't want be with anyone else. I'm want be with you! You are the better person. Why you don't see it?" Y/N let out a tear, but turned quickly for Jill can't see it.

"This past days I'm been reading and... I don't know why, but your name next to a few girls more is hard to see. I don't want be with you, Jill. I can't." Y/N said turning around with a hoarse voice.

"What do you mean? Y/N... It's you. I don't care what you read or heard. My name will always be next to yours. You trust me?" Jill approached Y/N. Her look showed more than her face, Jill was containing herself. The blonde grab Y/N's hands. A frown appears on her face when Y/N were taking time to answer. "You trust me, right?" She asked again, with a fear voice.

"Yes. I do. But... Right now I can't be with you because I will doubt every woman that you will talk. And you didn't deserve that. I think... Its better, for both if we break up."

"I DON'T FUCKING UNDERSTAND! I'M TIRED OF YOUR BULLSHIT. THAT IS A CRAP OF EXCUSE. YOU LOVE ME AND I LOVE YOU. I DON'T GONNA CHEAT ON YOU IF THAT IS WHAT YOU BELIEVE." Jill angrily started yell. Y/N knew that Jill have right in everything she said. But like the ignorant part of her, she started scream too.

"MAYBE I DON'T WANT BE WITH A FUCKBOI!!" Y/N immediately regret it. She tried to get closer, but stayed where she was when Y/N saw her expression of pain. A deathly silence settled there. Jill look at Y/N not believing what she said. The blonde pass her tongue for her lips, wiping her tears with the palm of the hand furiously.

"You want to break up? Good, we break up." Jill said coldly. She grab her things and get out from the apartment, closing the door with a slam.

It's was the turn to Y/N to cry. She already misses her presence there.

•••

The preseason finished with a satisfying result against Chelsea and Montpellier. September came with a broken internally Y/N. She regret every day since she call Jill for that word, but do nothing to apologies. Even she blocked her number.

Her mood with the team she tried to participate in conversations and act like nothing happened, even when some of them make a joke or ask how Jill is. But for some reason, Y/N was sure that Lieke and Viv knew what had happened. Viv looks at her without emotion, but never spoke at her badly and Lieke was more attentive to her.

Today was the first training focusing on the first match in the league. So the intensity was guaranteed. Y/N get out from the canteen with Ona and Caro to direction to the locker room.

"So girls, some ideas name to call to my new friend?" Ona asked, after showing them a photo of the siberian husky she adopt.

"What about Nox?" Y/N suggest.

Ona raised an eyebrow; "Something related to Harry Potter?" Asked teasingly.

"Maybe..." Y/N trailed off, earning laughs from the pair.

"For your luck I like it, so I will think about it." Ona said entering in the locker room.

"Okay." Y/N said content. Ona shake her head funny. Y/N sit down on her bench to change her shoes.

Irene and Alexia were the next on enter to the site. Y/N smiled to the two, Irene reciprocate the gesture but Alexia didn't. Y/N frown, that's weird on her friend.

"Something happen captain?" Y/N asked from where she was while tying her shoelaces.

"I don't know, tell me yourself." Alexia muttered coldly. Y/N's head raised up, looking at her confused. Then she looks at Ona, who looks back at her just as confused as her.

"What are you talking about?" Y/N asked.

Patri, Aitana, Sandra, Lieke and Laia were entering there too, Alexia's answers take them in the middle.

"About shitty person you are." Y/N's eyes opened surprised.

"Alexia!" Ona scolded her. An awkward silence settled.

"I can't believe how dumb I being to protect you! I regret every interaction I had with you." Y/N felt her world fall apart with that words.

"Alexia I don't know what are you doing, but stop right now!" Ona once again interfered going where Y/N was when she saw Alexia walk to where Y/N's.

"Y/N BREAK UP WITH JILL BECAUSE SHE AND INGRID DATED AND Y/N CAN HANDLE IT. YOU ARE SO COWARD ITS A SHAME!" Alexia vociferated to everyone there. Y/N stood up, tears falling.

"YOU DON'T HAVE RIGHT TO DO THAT, ALEXIA! I THINK THE SHITTY PERSON HERE RIGHT NOW ITS YOU." Lieke yelled when she process everything. The dutch went to where Y/N was.

"YOU THROW UP THE ONLY GOOD YOU HAD ON YOUR LIFE." Alexia ignored Lieke and Ona. The older player looked at her with contempt. Y/N run away from there just hearing that words.

Her breath hitched, thanks to her tears she can't see properly, just seeing all for where she passed blurred. Y/N when she arrived to the pitch where they all will train, she collapsed on the floor, sobbing. Alexia is right. She is a shitty person, she is a shame and she threw out the only good thing in her life.

"Hey..." A soft voice startled Y/N. She looks at the person, seeing only a blurry face but identified by hair.

"M-Mapi." Y/N stutters and pounced on her.

"I've got you." The blonde player whispered, holding Y/N between her arms.

"S-She is r-right, Mapi. I-I'm a bad p-person." Y/N said between sob.

"Not. She isn't right. Alexia haven't right at all." Mapi grab with her hands Y/N's face and wipes with her thumbs her tears in vain. "The training will start soon. Stay with me, Ona and Lieke, okay? Don't focus on anyone else." She instructed her, kissing Y/N's cheek.

"Ok-kay." Y/N nodded with her head.

•••

The training session went the most quiet and uncomfortable that they all had. Y/N and Alexia trained in separate groups. Still, the atmosphere was charged with tension. They all stayed there after finish because later will be another session, more light than that morning.

Y/N sit down alone in a table, looking down she didn't dare to look at the rest. She just look up when someone removed the chair.

"You don't have to sit here." Y/N mumbled quietly, looking at her plate.

"I know it. But I want." Mapi answered. They stayed quiet while they eat. To Y/N is a little weird that someone she had a discussion and didn't talk, sit there and it was one who comforted her. "I don't judge you, Y/N." Mapi spoke again when they finish. Y/N looks at her with confusion. She saw how Mapi crossed her arms on top at the table.

"Why?" Y/N asked shyly.

"Because I'm nobody to say or judge someone. You have your decision to do whatever you think is right, even when you aren't." The aragonese saw how Y/N started cry.

"I'm sorry for everything, Mapi. I truly do." Y/N said wiping her tears.

"I know. Don't worry more about it, okay?" Mapi stood up and went next to her, sitting alongside. She put an arm around her shoulders, bringing her towards herself.

"Y/N? Can you come with me, please?" Jonatan, their coach, asked kindly.

"Yeah." Y/N frown, looking at Mapi.

"I wait for you here." The defender informed, smiling reassuring. Y/N nodded standing up.

She followed her coach to his office silently. He kindly open the door and offered that she enter first. Y/N gave him a small smile. Then she sit in a chair while he sit down in front of his desk.

"Y/N. You knew that you can count on us whatever it's bothering you, right?" Y/N nodded shyly.

"Yes, coach."

"Good. Look I will be honest with you. It's not the first time you have problems with some of your teammates. The staff team and I discussed it and we... We concluded that you aren't going to play the first game." Y/N can't believe what her coach said.

"Excuse me?" She asked stunned.

"I know. And I'm sorry. But we need warning you that this building, this team, it's not your boxing bag. If you have problems with someone, please tell us, but don't take it into someone else." He finished said. Y/N felt really sad and disoriented.

"Okay. But... What about Alexia? She is the only one to who confronted me this morning." The young player said confused. She can understand about Mapi and Ingrid, but about Alexia don't.

"We are going to talk with her. But where we know, she just caused this morning. You in change have confrontations with three different people."

"The only thing I understand about it is you need Alexia and not me. I understand she is the choice you want maintain." Y/N said serious, she stood up.

"Y/N..." Jonatan stood up too.

"I get it, coach. Since I'm suspended, can I have the week off?" Y/N said really mad and annoyed.

Jonatan nodded with his head, looking at her with sadness; "Yes, of course. But you need training, okay?" Y/N nod and walk away from there.

She walks rapidly to the locker room and without saying anything to the few teammates there, went to grab her gym bag and get out from there. Y/N didn't want Mapi hanging without knowing about her, so she went to the cafeteria.

She spot her with Ona and Lieke.

"Where are you going?" Ona ask when she saw her gym bag.

"I'm taking the week off." Y/N answers calmly, she didn't want the rest heard her.

"What? Why?" Lieke asked confused.

"Ask your captain." Y/N simply said. "Look, I want come here because I don't wanna go without saying goodbye." The three looked really mad and don't understanding anything.

"Is seriously?" Mapi ask stunned.

Y/N nodded with head afflicted.

"Good luck this Sunday. See you next week." The midfielder was to embrace them in the form of farewell.

They hugged each other shortly and the three watch how Y/N walk away from the building.

•••

That week for a part, it was good for Y/N. She does what she supposed had to do in training with less intensity of course. She received some support from her teammates, calling her and going to her apartment when they finish training. Y/N remembered the next day to her suspension, Jenni called her. The striker found out that Alexia screamed at her in the locker room and Jenni was really angry about it. Y/N reassured that she was hurt but fine. They talked about how in Jenni's first game, she scored two goals and gave an assist. The league where Jenni was started a week before. Y/N didn't mention her suspension to Jenni because she know that the madrilenian could catch a flight and fly to Barcelona. Then Jenni made her promise that if Alexia or someone else started scream at her, she will scream more loud. This make Y/N laugh.

Another detail she has recently noted it's that she is been looking more at the scar, passing minutes and hours in front of a mirror. Everytime Y/N hate a little more that scar, she think that since she had that, everything started fall apart.

Her team started winning their first match against Valencia. 5-1, hat-trick from Vivianne, a goal from Claudia and a goal from Patri and all assist from Lieke Martens. Y/N felt really proud of her friend. She noticed that her captain played really bad and was subbed of for Mariona. Maybe it's karma, thought Y/N.

And not to mention that she thought about Jill every day and every night. She looked their photos together or just where the blonde goes out alone. Y/N watch Real Madrid's first game. The dutch not was starting, but she came on the second half and she played really well, even she scored her first goal, giving to her new team the first three points.

Since her team played on Sunday, the next is day off. So Ona and Lieke showed up that day on her apartment, bringing with them their flurry friends. This make Y/N really happy.

"Nox, careful!" Ona exclaimed. Y/N smiled when she heard the name. "Don't dare say anything." The freckled girl mumbled. Lieke and Y/N laughed.

"I guess Mapi is with Ingrid, right?" Y/N ask sitting in a chair on her balcony.

"Yes. It's like they don't see each other at all." Ona rolled her eyes.

"Ona, Ingrid is injured. They see but less and thanks to me. You're welcome." Lieke gave her a soft punch on her arm.

"Stop it. It was an accident." The dutch player said. They stayed in silence, enjoying the soft rays of sun on their skin, the only noise was their dogs playing with each other.

"Lieke didn't want you know it but Mapi had a discussion with Alexia the same day of your suspension." Ona said calmly. Y/N without looking at her laugh when she heard Lieke scolded her.

"Since there, they don't speak." Ona kept talking.

"Jenni called me this days. Before you can fuck it up, she didn't know that I'm been suspended. So please, I want she didn't find out." Y/N warns Ona. "By the way, how she found out about the discussion?" She asked opening an eye and looking to her.

"Ona and I." Lieke answered for Ona. Y/N look at her surprised. "What? I was angry." The dutch simply said, shrugging her shoulders. Y/N laughed.

"What was her reaction when she found out that I was suspended?" Y/N ask curious. She gonnat lie, she didn't forget her words that easily. But she felt curiosity about her reaction, maybe she was happy, after all. Y/N is a shitty person.

"She was mad. Alexia said that she doesn't pretending to suspend you. Even she offered that suspend her and not you." Ona mumbled.

Y/N laugh ironically; "She played bad. And Alexia never play bad. So I'm assuming it was on purpose."

"Maybe." Lieke played mysterious. "Look, I don't going to defend her actions. But she truly fight off for you when she found out. You are someone special to her, even when she said that no sense."

Y/N shake her head, deep in thought. "I don't care. She doesn't asked me why I did it or say if she didn't agree with me in privately. She did it publicly and just for humiliation." Y/N said what she truly Alexia did that.

Lieke and Ona looked at each other worried. They just found out that it was the start and maybe the end of a friendship.

•••

October arrived and Y/N started felt better. Even when half of her team don't speak her. That is something Y/N doesn't understand, they don't talk her because she break up with someone and she had discussion with Alexia. Maybe the catalan was the trigger. If Alexia does it, was for sure for a reason. Y/N smiled ironically to this thought. So her friendship reduced to Mapi, Lieke, Ona and surprisingly Ingrid. The rest talked to her only when it's necessary and Y/N does the same. If they retired the word, she too. She hasn't done anything to them. Same happens with her national team. The majority were from her club. There was no Lieke, but there was Jenni. And Nerea, Lola, Laia, Misa and Leila apart from Ona and Mapi. They are right now in the stoppage for national selections.

Y/N remembered the last month with her national teammates. In the first day after their first training, Jenni cornered Alexia in the locker room in front of everyone. The striker started recriminate why Alexia did it. Alexia remained silent, she simply waited for Jenni to finish speaking and left there. It make Jenni more angry, she tried go behind her, but Lola stop her. Literally they act like an divorced couple fighting for what their child do bad.

So a month and half and still Y/N and Alexia didn't talk, even when both of them are involved in a goal. Like the last match. Y/N knew where her teammates will be or supposed to be. And when Y/N grab the ball from a rival, immediately have two rivals trying to stole the ball, failing. She practically dribbled past half the team but she had no angle to kick the ball so in a beautiful pass crossing between three rival, the ball reached Alexia's feet and the captain did the simple thing, put the ball in the back of the net. Y/N doesn't celebrate too much, she let Alexia approach her and cordially they gave each other a high five. Y/N get away from there quickly and celebrate a little more when Mapi lifted her, making Y/N giggle.

"You think will could win against USA?" Leila asked Y/N, awakening her from her thoughts.

"Well, the last time we do... So I say a yes, I trust on us." Y/N answers sincerely. They will play a friendly against the americans and the second will be against Macedonia to qualify for the euro. Spain wants maintein the winners title another four years.

"Well... If you maintain on that form, a hat-trick can fall." Y/N laugh to Leila's answers.

"Only if you have my back."

"Deal." Leila extended her hand, smiling. Y/N reciprocated the gesture, sealing the deal with a shake of hands.

The game went surprisingly like Leila said. Y/N scored a hat-trick, taking with her the ball. She couldn't believe it. She scored three times to a big team like United States. It's the first time that she genuinely felt happy. Jenni put Camela in the locker room to celebrate after she present to her Christen Press. Y/N had heard a lot of stories from the striker with her and like Jenni describes her it's short to actually Christen is. Jenni help her to meet an idol and Y/N will always be grateful for that.

Y/N looked the ball dreamy. In the background sounding Cuando Zarpa El Amor and her head with an idea that for terms on how she is with the team, she doesn't dare to express it loud.

"I told you, Y/N/N!" Leila came to her side, giving Y/N a sound kiss on her cheek.

"And you have fulfilled the other part of the deal." Y/N said smiling, hugging Leila. The brunette alongside Misa, help her a lot. They don't know too much, Misa is Jill teammate and maybe she does, but never look or act different towards her. The couple adopt her joining Ona.

"Where is my child!?" Jenni exclaimed climb on a chair. Y/N laugh for her antics.

"I'm here Jenni. What do you want?" Y/N went to her side, letting the ball where her stuff are.

"Dance with me!" The tall woman got down from the chair. Y/N didn't want to disappoint Jenni, so she dance with her while they both sing with passion. Soon Lola and Leila joined. Y/N saw how Ona was recording it smiling.

"Cuando zarpa el amor, navega a ciegas es quien lleva el timón. Y cuando sube la marea al corazón. Sabe que el viento sopla a su favor. No podemos hacer nada por cambiar el rumbo que marcó, para los dos. ¡Cuando zarpa el amor!" They sang the chorus, laughing and cheering.

"I'm going to upload this video to Instagram!" Ona exclaimed laughing.

"No, Ona! Please it's embarrassing." Y/N said blushing.

"So that's why I'm going to upload it." Ona informed her, sticking out her tongue.

Y/N was going to complain to her threatening her with telling her to Alexia. But that thought was rectified immediately, she briefly look at the brunette, like knowing would happen, Alexia looks at her. Y/N put her eyes on Ona again, who noticed the brief interaction. The defender smiled at her reassuring.

"I will take my revenge, Batlle!" Was the only thing Y/N said, starting to dance.

•••

Barcelona won another game, staying on first on the league. Y/N was on fire that season, even when her club suspended her, something that anybody apart from the club and teammates, find out. The midfielder hoped that nobody found it out.

"Good game!" Mapi said sitting next to Y/N, giving a pat on her leg.

"Thanks. But it's a win of all of us. And the second goal was thanks to a pass of yours." Y/N compliment her and their teammates.

"I couldn't resist seeing you alone." Mapi said smiling.

They talk more about the game, commenting too about their close rivals if would win or lose maybe can destabilize some positions. For luck, Barça was still unbeaten. Real Madrid was on second place and the third was between Atlético de Madrid and Real Sociedad.

"Hey..." A new voice approached them, making both to look at the new person. Y/N jaw clenched inevitably.

"Hi Ale." Mapi greeted. They come back to speak after clear out their difference in the last convocation with national team.

"Can we talk?" Alexia asked shyly to Y/N.

The young player frown, thinking. Letting out a sigh, she nodded with her head.

"I'm going." Mapi said standing up, but Y/N stop her putting a hand on her left arm.

"Stay. If you want talk, Mapi is staying here." Y/N command, still with a frown on her face.

Alexia nod and went to sit in front of them.

"I'm sorry. For everything I said." Alexia started to say, making a pause and catching air, she started talk again. "I don't have right to speak to you like that, even if I don't agree with your choice. I regret it since the same day. I-I don't tell you anything because I know you. And I understand that my words hurt you and... I'm really sorry." The catalan finish with regret voice. Y/N could see on her face that she truly felt it. Alexia's eyes were tearful, but Y/N was hurtful and she wasn't going to forgive her. At least not so easy.

"Okay." Y/N simply said. Mapi and Alexia looked at her confused.

"What? Just that?" Alexia asked with hurt.

"Yes. I don't know what you want to me say." The young player said shrugging her shoulders.

"You don't forgive me." The catalan confirm, nodding with her statement.

"Exactly." Y/N said dryly, standing up.

"I said sorry. I know it's not too much for all I said. But I don't know what I have to do." The captain said standing up too.

"You don't have to do anything. I don't ask you to do something for it." Y/N said calmly.

"I'm sorry Y/N! Please I miss you." Y/N broke a little when she saw when Alexia started crying. But Y/N was stubborn.

"I don't forgive you Alexia. You know how you make me feel? The only person I thought that never will judge me, did it! You humiliated me. And guess what? I'm get suspended for it. And wait! My teammates, safe for four people, they turned their back on me! You think that I not regret break up with her? BECAUSE BELIEVE ME, I DO IT. I DONT NEED TO BE EXPOSED IN FRONT OF ANYONE FOR IT. SO NO ALEXIA, I DON'T FUCKING FORGIVE YOU!" Y/N yelled angrily, making gestures with her hands while she spoke. Y/N's cheeks was red from her anger, her breath was irregular and tears of rage streamed down her red cheeks.

"Y/N!" Mapi exclaimed to her surprised.

Alexia shake her head towards Mapi, wiping her tears; "Don't worry Mapi. She have right, I get it. Just if you need me, I'll be here. Always." She said and gave her a lipped sad smile and went from there.

"Y/N..." Ona trailed off, coming to her side.

"Not now." Y/N said going to her bench.

•••

April 2022

The first leg of the semi-finals against Wolfsburg were to start. Y/N wasn't going starting, so she seated on the bench with her other teammates who do not starting. She saw with amazement who the first goal came early. All the bench stood up cheering. The happiness flooded for her body. The first half finish with four goals to zero. A great result. Y/N started warm up and was called in the minute 71st to enter. She was subbed for Patri.

To say that Y/N was nervous was a statement. Alexia greeted her when the midfielder pass for her side. The first time Y/N touch the ball, she gave a beautiful pass to Caro. The norwegian almost scored, the ball grazed the stick. The tall girl applause towards her, in a form of thanks. The next action that they almost score Alexia went down from a Wolfsburg's player. The referee made a signal that that was penalty.

"Take it." Alexia approach Y/N and whispered. The young player frown, confused.

"Are you sure?" Y/N ask unsure. The other nod giving her the ball.

Y/N take the ball between her hands and went to put it at the penalty spot. She take a few steps backward, she looked at the goalkeeper briefly, taking a deep breath, she waited for the referee to indicate that she could shoot.

The referee indicate it and without thinking too much, Y/N put the ball in a part where the goalkeeper couldn't stop the ball. The young player went to celebrate it with her teammates, who went towards her to celebrate. Alexia give her a loving kiss on her cheek, like a proud sister. Y/N when they separate, made a gesture to the stands where her injured teammates were. Y/N scored the fifth goal and she let herself vibrate with the public at the Camp Nou when the referee indicate the final whistle. They all stayed on the pitch. After they shake hands with their rivals, they approached the stands.

After a while there, slowly the people started to go. Y/N find Lieke talking with someone who Y/N didn't recognize, but she understood a dutch word that Lieke teach her.

"Happy birthday!" Y/N exclaimed behind the person. The tall blonde girl turned around, making Y/N blush immediately.

"You understand dutch? Also thanks." The unknown girl ask with a soft voice. Y/N looks at Lieke, who was smiling like a fool by the tall blonde side.

"I understand a few words. Lieke teach me some phrases." Y/N answers shyly, going to where Lieke is, intertwining their arms.

"Mijn naam is Jill." The blonde said in dutch, extending her right hand towards Y/N, smiling.

"Leuk om je te ontmoeten. Mijn naam is Y/N." She said with her best pronunciation, accepting Jill's hand.

"You speak it well. Lieke is a great teacher." Jill compliment. The pair let out their hands. "By the way, congratulations. You scored a great penalty." Y/N blushed more, she heard Lieke snort to her side.

"Thanks. You scored a great goal too." Y/N compliment back shyly, putting her head on Lieke's shoulder. She saw how Jill leaned her head to a side and gave her a cute gesture with her face.

"Ze is schattig." The blonde said in dutch looking at Lieke. Y/N furrow her eyebrows, a little confused. She didn't understand that.

"She is." Lieke simply said, smiling big. Soon Patri, Jenni and Leila came towards them. The striker had the great idea of take Y/N on her shoulder, making the young scream surprised, and went running carefully to the locker room, with the other two running laughing with Jenni.

"Oh my god, Jenni! Stop." Y/N demand in vain. She heard like Jenni hummed a no while they enter at the site. "Alexia!! Help me, please. The big baby ignores me." Y/N complain to her friend, pouting.

"Wait." Y/N heard Alexia say. A few seconds later she heard the sound of someone making a photo, Y/N rolled her eyes. "Jenni put her down, please. You can take Aitana, she is more short than Y/N." The brunette suggest tentatively, something that help because the older put her down. Jenni gave her a sound kiss on her cheek and went to search Aitana, who scream when the striker pick her.

"PUT ME DOWN!" Aitana demand mad. She saw Aitana kick repeatedly unsuccessfully. She saw too how Alexia take another photo, making Y/N snort to her side.

"What? I want memories from today." Alexia said frowning adorably. Y/N didn't said anything more and giving Alexia a kiss on her cheek, Y/N went towards Sandra, Irene, Pere and Claudia were. But someone had others plans. She see how Lieke grab her arm and take her to another more empty spot.

"What are you doing?" Y/N said laughing confused.

"You like her?" Lieke ask. Y/N frown.

"Who?" The dutch rolled her eyes.

"Jill. I saw how you blush just seeing her." Lieke said while she moved her eyebrows suggestively. Just heard the name, Y/N blushed again.

"N-No. I m-mean, it's the first time I saw her. Why would like her?" Y/N stammer nervous, but she was telling the truth.

"You don't see her before of this match? Also don't like like, but are you physically attracted to her?" Lieke tried to be specific.

"Maybe I coincide with her, but I never put attention. And about the other thing... She is pretty. Why you ask?" Y/N said honestly. Lieke smiled mysteriously.

"For nothing." She answers, clearly Y/N didn't buy it. The young player raised an eyebrow. "I just discovered that I have a mission to do." Then she went to another part laughing.

"Wait, what? What are going to do?" Y/N asked.

***

Lieke didn't take long with her plan. She need some help and decided talk about it with no other than Alexia. The dutch knew that it would take a few days to convince the catalan, knowing Y/N is a soft spot to her and she wasn't going to give in so easily. Lieke just spoke once Alexia agreed. At first Alexia said no, Lieke asked why and the answer not surprised her. Jill have some fame.

"I promise you she isn't like the people said. I meet her, Ale. And you know that Y/N is a soft spot for me too. I don't put her with anyone." Lieke reasoned with her teammate. Alexia sigh.

"Okay. I trust you. But are you sure Y/N have a crush on her?" The captain ask, frowning.

"Yes. Before I tell you this I made sure. And in the last encounters I confirm it." Alexia sigh again.

"I will help you. But what about Jill? Because I don't want make her illusion for nothing." Alexia ask intrigued.

"Let me Jill to myself. I tell you to the final of this summer, this two will be together." Lieke said confidently.

***

June 2022

Y/N never used Instagram too much. But recently she had been using it. She just follow all her teammates from club and national team. But since May, she pass hours in a profile that she didn't follow. Y/N admits it after the second leg that she for the first time, a developed a crush.

She carefully made sure to not give likes. It would be embarrassing, and more if she didn't follow her. She does it less due to the training sessions with the national team for the upcoming euro. But when she have some free time, inevitably she need see almost a photo of her. The blonde make her calm and nervous at the same time.

But a normal day, on her normal routine. A new notification from the bored app, appears on her screen. Y/N frown, she usually wasn't have many notifications from Instagram. She was with a few of her teammates sitting while they make time for dinner. Y/N unblock her phone and went towards the app and tap in the notification. She almost pass out when she saw what is was.

Jill Roord started follow you.

She noticed all the blood going to her cheeks. Damn she even start to sweat. Y/N needed talk with someone. And she knew who. So standing up fastly, making the others look at her weirdly, get out from there. Y/N search the room and when she found it, started she knocking on the door.

"What?" Alexia opened the door sleepy. She open the door more and went to her bed again. Y/N enters the bedroom and closed the door and went to sit where Alexia lie down.

"I have a crush on Jill Roord." Y/N said shyly. This made Alexia open her eyes surprised. The catalan sat up in bed.

"What?" She asked again, this time more awake. Y/N unblock her phone and showed her something. Alexia take Y/N's phone and saw what it was. It was a notification saying that said girl started to follow her. The brunette bit the inside of her cheek. "You like her?" Alexia asked softly, looking at her carefully.

"Yes. I mean, she is pretty and when we talked she was super nice. Damn it, I had an interaction with her and she trapped me." Y/N mumbled the last part.

"You spoke with her?" Alexia ask playing like she didn't know anything and just find out.

"We spoke in the first semifinal. I saw Lieke talk with someone and just I heard her say her happy birthday in dutch. I wish her happy birthday, she asked me if I'm knew her language I said no then she congratulated me for the goal I said the same. Later she said something in dutch that I don't understood and then Jenni came and put me on her shoulder." Y/N resume briefly all the interaction. Alexia raised an eyebrow, smiling.

"You remember everything. What was the word?" The older player ask curious. Y/N shrugged her shoulders, letting her know that she didn't knew the meaning. Then started laugh when she made memory and saw how Y/N looked at her confused. "It's funny that Jenni apart from your crush that day. You know how many times I stopped her from trying get you a date?"

Y/N blinked a few times. "Wait, what? She tried that I get a date?" She asked incredulous.

"Yes. She even tried match you with Nerea, but then she discovered that Nerea had girlfriend. She get disappointed." Alexia explain laughing softly when she saw Y/N's reaction.

"Why I never entered about it?"

"Because I never let her told you anything about it. You look good on your own bubble." Alexia said, but worried when she saw how Y/N gaze fell to the ground, looking sad. "Hey, what's wrong?"

"Am I weird?" Y/N asked sad. Alexia frown.

"You are a good person. I don't care if you are weird or not. Okay? Why you ask?" The catalan said seriously.

"I never dated someone... I don't know, I just..." Y/N trailed off.

"Look at me." Alexia said, grabbing Y/N's face between her hands. "You don't dated anyone... And what about it? To me I don't care if you do or don't. And if you like Jill now, it's okay. But you don't have to worry about it, because you are weird, don't means it's bad." Alexia said slowly and clear.

"You are the best." Y/N said starting to smile.

***

The national team fly to England two weeks before the tournament starts. The city where they were staying since they arrived there hasn't been a sunny day.

Alexia helped deal Y/N with her new and first crush. She advised Y/N on some things. Like for example, what to do. Alexia knew that Y/N wasn't going to do anything because she was insecure and shy. So since Jill started follow Y/N on Instagram, Alexia advised that Y/N would start follow back a few hours later, just not right away. Then if Jill upload a photo, Y/N would give her a like. Just little steps, but always on Y/N's way.

But days passed and Jill didn't upload a photo. Alexia saw how Y/N get disappointed at the time so she suggested that maybe Y/N should upload a photo. And she did that. Y/N upload a photo that Patri take in their first day off on England. It was one where Y/N was caught off guard when Patri take it. But there was something in that photo, Y/N's eyes were too bright, a simple photo that say too much. Or that what say Patri.

"I don't know Ale... I like it, but..." Y/N trailed off, but Alexia curt her.

"You look beautiful. Don't though too much, okay?" The catalan said while she sit down to Y/N side.

"Okay." Y/N press the icon to upload the photo. She put a brief description; someone capture something here. Then she tagged Patri on the photo. Y/N let her phone with a nervous sigh. "Well that's it." She said looking at Alexia. They both are in their shared bedroom.

"Now we wait." The brunette said while she grab her phone and enter to the app. She wasn't the first to give her a like, because people gave some before her. It happen when you are a known person.

When Y/N looked the app that night before she went to sleep, she read the names who gave her likes and her heartbeat accelerates when she read her name. She went to sleep with a big smile on her face.

***

"Are you sure you don't want to come?" Alexia ask while Y/N was grabbing her stuff to go to somewhere that day. "You knew that they love you." The brunette added.

"I know you idiot. But I told you like to the others that I don't want to intrude. I want you have alone time with your family." Y/N said. Today was day off and their families fly to visit them. Well, not all of them can, like Y/N's family. She gonna lie, she was sad, but her parents promise her that they will be on her first game. That make her happy.

Alexia let out a sigh; "Okay, I'm going. If you change you mind, you know what to do." Then the catalan deposited a kiss on her head since Y/N was sat on her bed and went a last gesture of her hand, get out from the bedroom.

Was Y/N's turn to sigh. She was accustomed to it, her parents were always busy with work. She shake her head and grabbing her bag, she get out from there. She went not too far from there, she doesn't know very well the city and don't risk in case she get lose. Y/N sit down under a tree near of a park next to the hotel and grabbing her book, she started read it. She let herself dive through the pages of the book.

"Schattig!" Someone exclaimed in front of her. Y/N look up and she can't believe the person she was seeing.

"Hi!" Y/N greeted Jill, who was smiling to her. Y/N saw that the blonde was wearing training clothes.

"Are you staying here?" Jill ask pointing with a finger the hotel. Y/N nodded shyly. "That's cool. I knew there is another team, but I don't exactly know what team." Jill explained, giving her a smile.

"I just found out that there is another team." Y/N said blushing, giggling nervously.

"Can I?" The blonde asked while pointing next to Y/N. The spanish girl nodded, watching her sit next to Y/N. She started read again when Jill with a move of her head pointed the book. They are in silence for a good portion of time. "I'm assuming you are on your day off." Jill asked when Y/N closed the book.

"Yes. I am." Y/N confirm.

"I had it yesterday. It was a relief when I saw my family." Jill mumbled. She turned to look at her when she saw Y/N's face. "Oh shit! I said something wrong?" She asked fearful.

"No, don't worry." Y/N answered reassuringly.

"You are here alone. So I'm guessing your family couldn't come here." Jill guessed.

"Hm. The habitual." Y/N muttered to herself. But the dutch blonde heard her. She put her right hand on Y/N's left leg and gave a soft squeeze.

"Do you want to go walk?" Jill ask. Y/N nodded slowly, assimilating the gesture that Jill just made. They both stood up and started walk towards the park.

They talk about the upcoming tournament. Making a bet on who would win it. Y/N choose Germany and Jill choose Spain. Y/N laugh softly to this. Then without they noted it, they started talk about some personal things. It made Y/N felt better when she expressed how she felt with her family. Jill listened without talk, letting Y/N vent about it.

"Well. They lost it. You are her only child and they don't showed any interest? I'm sorry because I'm barely know you. But they are the worst." Jill said mad. She heard the pain in Y/N's voice and it's true that she barely know her. But no one deserves that treatment. And less from their parents.

"Alexia said the same thing." Y/N said chuckling.

"Good. Because I'm sorry but its the truth." Jill said shyly. They arrived to the hotel.

"Thank you for your lovely company this evening." Y/N said with trust, smiling.

"Well. It's all my pleasure." Jill said while she scratched her neck. "If you want repeat, sit down on that tree and I will come to your rescue."

Jill accompanied her to her room. They said goodbye with a short hug. Well Jill hug her, making Y/N does the same.

"See you. I'll hope before you first game." The blonde said walking to the elevator. Y/N waving goodbye with her hand. She enter on her room with a dreamily gaze and a big smile.

"It was time. You know how use a phone? Because... Why are you smiling like that?" Alexia started to scold her but stopped when she saw Y/N's face.

"For once I am happy that my parents couldn't come." The young player said, letting her stuff on her bed while Y/N went towards Alexia's bed and sit down. The catalan looks at her curious. "You know that tree next to the park?" Y/N ask, when she saw Alexia nod, she continued. "Well I went there to relax and read when I heard someone said the same word I head a few months ago and I don't knew the meaning. It's was Jill, Ale. She approached and decided sit with me." Y/N finish while she lie down putting her head on Alexia's lap.

"She approached you? And what happened next?" Alexia asked, passing her fingers for Y/N's hair. She likes how relaxed and happy Y/N is right now, not like when she get out from there letting out a sad girl because her family is so selfish that their jobs were ahead of their daughter.

"She came and asked if she could sit next to me. Then she sit down and with a gesture of her head indícate me that I continued with my reading. So after a while in silence, we start to talk and decided to walk... And we spoke about which team could win and about more personal things." Y/N resume everything to her friend. "By the way, she agreed with you that my parents are the worst." She said it and gave Alexia a lipped smile.

"I think every person that knew your situation would agree with me. You are the only one who maintain hope and if I don't agreed with you, I understand." Alexia sigh. "Why you talk about them?" She ask more softly.

"She comments that yesterday she has the day off and her family came to visit her. And... It happened." Y/N answered. Alexia nodded with her head, making an idea.

"We have to go to dinner." The catalan informed. She saw how Y/N stood up and said that she needed go to the bathroom quickly. Alexia take opportunity of it and send a text to Lieke.

these two are going to date this summer.

•••

Y/N wipe a tear smiling while she watch for umpteenth time that week a fan video about her and Jill. They never made their relationship public, but never hide it. They don't feel that necessity to made it official. While sha was watching it, inevitably came to her mind memories from when they first meet.

A slam scared Y/N, who was in the locker room alone and like they have a little break Y/N decided go there and watch videos. She stood up but without seeing it, something was directed towards her face, mostly to her right eye.

Y/N let out a painful grunt, putting her hands on her face while she slid down the wall she was leaning on before.

When Alexia heard someone whimper her blood froze. She went immediately to where she heard it and saw Y/N there. Alexia start to panic and cry.

"I'm s-sorry Y/N... W-what are you doing h-here? Let me see it, please." Alexia carefully removed Y/N's hand and her breath choke on her throat. Thankfully the catalan didn't hit her on her eyes because Alexia never will forgive her.

Alexia in an angry outburst she had thrown away the football shoes. And for bad luck to Y/N, a cleats had hit her in her eyebrow.

"I'm really sorry. I'm a-angry for the bad t-training I h-had and... I don't know that you a-are here." Alexia apologies nonstop, cleaning the blood on her eyebrow with the jumper Alexia take off.

"It's okay Alexia. Help me to stand up please." Y/N said with a hiss when Alexia tried clean it.

"Ok-kay." The catalan stood up first and help Y/N slowly to stand up. Once they are face to face, Y/N felt bad watching Alexia cry and practically broke in front of her. She never saw her like that. Y/N were to speak when people started to enter the locker room.

"Oh my god! What happened to her?" Laia Aleixandri asked worried, going to where the pair were.

"I'm hit her w-with my cleats football." Alexia answer weakly.

"Laia could you go and call the medic team, please?" Y/N ask kindly, hoping that the young player catch that she wants to talk with Alexia in privately. Laia nodded and kicking out the others, closed the door.

"Ale..." Y/N put her hands on Alexia's cheeks, wiping her tears.

"It's a long time that you called me like that." The catalan said smiling sadly.

"We don't have many time. So I say it. I forgive you okay? Don't think more about it. I miss you too." Y/N said, kissing her wet cheek and hugging her. This made Alexia released cry more, tightening her grip on Y/N's waist.

And like that the medic team came.

•••

Y/N needed stitches on her right eyebrow and repose, so she fell off from the call from her national team, abandoning it.

She reassured Alexia that it not her fault and they will talk more calmly when she come back to Barcelona. Y/N saw the friendly against the Netherlands and maybe is for that that Y/N was more susceptible that last week.

For Y/N surprise, she saw how Jill foul Alexia a little with aggressiveness and then when they was standing up, Jill cornered and whispered something. Something very understandable.

Stay away from her.

Then Lieke came and push her away with Viv and some of Y/N's teammates to another part. The referee give her a yellow card.

Jill found out about what Alexia did to Y/N unintentionally. Y/N's heartbeat accelerates knowing that the blonde still care about her, even if it's just a little. She grab her phone and went to Jill's number. Since a few weeks Y/N had in mind unblock her number, she didn't know why blocked in first place. So with nervousness she unblock it and blocked her phone quickly, with her cheeks red.

A few days later, when the convocation finish and her teammates come to their clubs, Alexia and Y/N talk long and wide. Alexia not letting out Y/N's hand between herself.

"Why Jill told you that?" Y/N after a silence, curiosity taking the best of her.

Alexia bite her lower lip.

"Lieke called me when she saw that you were replaced by another player. I told her everything what happened and I think Jill was with her and heard everything." Alexia explained calmly, playing with Y/N's fingers.

•••

December 13th came and with that day, Y/N's birthday. All her teammates wished her a happy birthday when she arrived to the locker room.

The half of the team who let her off after the discussion with Alexia, asked her if she forgive them. They all apologies sincerely and Y/N accept them. She apologies too for her mood in the preseason. But there's one person that still didn't spoke to her and Y/N talk to her even when she knew that she barely with had respond. It's was Viv. The young blonde had her reasons and Y/N understood very clear. She hurt Viv's best friend after all.

That day went with a lot of people wishing her happy birthday. Even after training, Mapi organized a short party on her apartment. They all sang to her the famous song and give her gifts. Y/N knew that Alexia still felt bad for everything that happened and gift her two tickets to go to Warner Bros Studios to see everything related with Harry Potter. Y/N cried excited while she repeat that Alexia didn't to have that. The catalan repeating that she would does it again if she can saw her happy.

After dance and sing with them, Y/N went to the balcony, letting the cold air embrace her features.

"Can we talk?" Ingrid's voice startled Y/N, making her jump on the spot. "Sorry, I don't pretend to scare you." She said, chuckling softly.

"Yes. Something happen?" Y/N ask, biting the inside of her cheek, nervous.

"I dated Jill. And she was the most caring person, after Mapi, that I met. I say it because I appreciate you and I think you deserve hear it. I could understand how you found it after a year of relationship with her and your reaction about it. But that was past. And she was with you and I'm with Mapi. I saw how she looks you, Y/N. She will does everything for you, just like you for her. I don't understand why you broke with her and it infuriating me. Because if I'm the reason, you are a fool. With all my respect. So... Let your proud to a side and talk with her, I think she deserve that." Ingrid said all that with the most sincere and affection towards Y/N.

The young spanish eyes were tearful hearing all that truth words. She looked at Ingrid and pounced on her, hugging her.

"You have right and... I'm sorry. I never told you it and you deserve it. You had by my side this months, always with a smile on your face towards me when I don't deserve it. I injured you but I promise you it was unintentionally." Y/N said all that fastly.

Ingrid let out a soft laugh; "I know that you don't it on purpose. And I appreciate your apology and I forgive you." The tall girl hug Y/N's shoulders.

•••

Once the party was over and all them on theirs house. Y/N decided upload a photo thanking all of them. She checked all the story where she was tagged from her teammates and some from another people. She did something she hadn't done in a long time. Check her private chat. And for her surprise, all of the messages from people who had spoken to her, there was one that stood out, the icon only mentioned the number of messages, two.

Y/N press the chat with nervousness and find out a large text from Jill. The first was simple and short.

Happy birthday Y/N!

I'm sorry but I needed told you it. I fucking miss you and I know how we broke up... But I do it and I'm sure you miss me too. The point is... It angry me that the big reason that you decided break up was for Ingrid and then you hang out with her. I know that I don't have right to tell you this, because you can do whatever you want. But it mad me. Just... I hope you the best and hoped you had a good day. ❤️💙

Y/N broke when she saw the two colored hearts. It was something that she did just because represent the colours from her club and for teased Jill, she send it. Y/N decided answer back, but in another app.

She pressed her chat and started type.

Thanks, Jill. You have right to be mad. Today, Ingrid approached me. We hang out before but was mainly for Mapi. We never spoken, almost not for my part. You want to know what she told me? Well, basically she call me fool. And she have right. I'm a fool because I called you a word that you don't are. You are the perfect person I have had the pleasure of knowing. And regret every day that fucking I wanted to break up with you. I love you Jill and I hope we could speak in person this weekend when I went play against Real Madrid. ❤️💙

•••

The first draw against Real Madrid and Barcelona happen. 2-2.

Goals from Alexia and Y/N and from Jill and Athenea.

It's was the first time Y/N and Jill coincided since their break up. Y/N felt really nervous and shy. And more knowing that they will speak after the match. Jill agreed when Y/N send the text.

Y/N waited in the tunnel after shake hands with the rivals, spoking with some of them.

"Schattig." Jill greeted when she walk next to Y/N.

The blaugrana player smile with nostalgia. "Hi." She greeted back. Jill hug her, surprising Y/N.

"How are you?" The blonde ask softly.

"I'm better. You?" Y/N answered with honest.

"Same." They look each other with wishfully and love. Jill grab Y/N's left hand.

"You have another scar." Jill point out.

"Yeah. This one is more short." Y/N said with a snort.

"I don't like how you made it. Well, mostly who made it." The dutch mumbled madly, playing with Y/N's fingers distractedly.

"Hey... Alexia haven't any fault. If you need blame someone then it will be me." Y/N said. She saw how her features turn into one of confusion. "She thought no one was there. But I was." She said without enter in details.

Jill raised a hand to Y/N's new scar and traced it carefully with her fingertips.

"You are still beautiful." The blonde mumbled, her breath bumping into her face.

Y/N looks at her with adoration. She saw how Jill put her forehead against hers. Y/N bite her lower lip.

"Y/N... We can't break up for that stupidity. It hurt me lost you for such a foolish thing. I know actually you don't think that I'm a fuckboi. But you was scared and started to read things that aren't true, it's like all came a once and you stressed out. Just give me an opportunity Y/N and I show you that you are the only one I want. You are my person."

Y/N was speechless. She stared in awe and putting her arms on Jill's neck and like the blonde is a little more tall than Y/N, she stood on tiptoe and pressed their lips together. At first was just a brush, but it soon intensified. Jill wrapped her arms around Y/N's waist and drew Y/N to her.

They separated for air.

"I miss you and I really sorry called you that. You are a sunshine of person and... I can't judge for your past and I don't care if it was true or not. I care how you treat me. So... Forgive me?" Y/N whispered slowly.

Jill pass her nose against hers and ran her tongue over her lips.

"I forgive you, my love." Jill began to distribute kisses on Y/N's cheeks, stopping at the scar, placing small kisses there. They heard noises behind them, making the pair look at that direction. They saw how all their teammates were there, a mix of blue, red and white.

"So... You are finally back?" Lieke asked hopeful, next to her was Alexia, smiling shyly.

They turned to look at each other again.

"Yes, we are." Jill answers for both.

The two teams erupted in applause and cheers.

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