top 10 tv moments that make me scream and claw at the walls

I will never get over how Station 11 subverted the parent/child found family trope. They acknowledged resentment in a way I've never seen before. Jeevan literally told that kid to her face "I was only supposed to bring you home" implying that he didn't ask for this level of responsibility when her parents were nowhere to be found. Like he obviously loves her, but that scene was wild to me and so heartbreaking. I absolutely loved it.

This dynamic just never gets old 😌 ✨

this is not a joke i am putting a gun to everyone's head someone more insightful than me better watch station eleven right now because my brain is going to explode.

by the end of the season i think someone should have made a devastating parallel post about the pandemic in tlou and the one in station eleven with quotes about like. the human spirit's frailty & indestructibility or about finding love in the darkest times or any other big statement about Humanity

if u like tlou go read/watch station eleven PLEASE im serious u wont regret it

thinking about how kirsten and tyler were probably the only two people alive in year twenty who had read the station eleven book

and also how they performed a scene from it in front of two of the only people who could recognize the words and who wrote them

i will never understand why the uncharted movie decided that sully meeting 15 yr old street urchin nate and going “well i have a child now and must risk my life and betray the powerful violent people who employ me to protect him” was not a good enough backstory

Over the weeks as S11 came out we got all this native stuff for social, which I’ll try to put here when I find it buried on my phone.

wept for like two straight hours as i finished station eleven today because. the airport. the wheel. jeevan on the subway. the race at the dock and the hotel on another continent. the timeloop in the book. none of them got to go home, they were all stuck in this liminal space when the apocalypse hit them--jeevan even walked kirsten home but she couldn't get into her house anymore because she didn't have a key! this recurring question, of if the past matters, if it should be destroyed or enshrined, if we can go home again after a world-shifting tragedy. (like doctor eleven--they always come back, but can they ever go home?)

and THEN. and then kirsten and jeevan's final exchange--"it was so cold. she forgot her key." "you walked her home." i am weeping i tell you. she's come unstuck from that place of transit. she's home.

no one understands how hard i am trying not to get Into into station eleven, i love it so much (show + book i don’t discriminate) but it’s too niche of a fandom… like there’s nothing to Engage with there. kirsten and jeevan occupy my thoughts rent free though.

there’s this Lizzy McAlpine song that I kept replaying over and over after I finished watching Station Eleven (which is also SO GOOD if you like the whole post-apocalyptic survival thing) because it reminded me of the bond between Kirsten and Jeevan.

But the song applies even MORE to Ellie and Joel and I just need a gifted graphic maker to make a set of gifs of episode 5’s scene with Ellie on the ground and Joel looking after her from above, with the lyrics to Lizzy McAlpine’s “I Don’t Know You At All”

Feels like we’ve been through war together Feels like you've been right here forever But I don't even know you at all

This whole scene feels like war to me. Their bond is already so deep and instinctual that they can communicate with just looks from idk how many feet away. It’s how Joel knows Ellie’s next move is the car window. It’s how Ellie looks at him to tell him she’s going after Henry and Sam. It’s how Joel nods at her, letting her know he’s got her back.

I’m gonna be sick.