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fr4ncium · 3 months

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Fuck you

*black metals your Blade*

#i need help #ive been awake for the whole day #mg brains rotting #honkai star rail #blade x reader #blade

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albatris · 4 days

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either today was a bizarre fluke or this new medication is going to be a gamechanger

#if this is my life from now on I'm unstoppable #so powerful #started low dose naltrexone for energy purposes #i got up at 7 and stayed awake (voluntarily!!!!) for the whole day until now #11pm #i had time for a nap between shifts and i didn't take it!!!! by my own volition!!!!#i knitted and read a book!! i went to an appointment!!#i felt NORMAL tired!!! which i havent felt for almost a decade!!!#i could FUNCTION!!!#it couldve been a fluke but I'm really hoping it wasn't #this is the first time ive felt hope re: chronic fatigue since high school lol #i did feel tense as hell and had heart palpitations a bit though so better keep an eye on that #yes i overshare on the internet what of it

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puppyeared · 4 months

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for like 3 weeks i was wondering why i was sleeping so much and felt listless. and just now I managed to email 3 people and responded to a month old message in the span of an hour because I got back to TAKING MY FUCKIN MEDS..........

#MOTHER FFFFUCKER #to be fair. my doc said I could stop taking them while im on break since i wouldnt need to be constantly pumped on stimulants #im not sure if it was a side effect but i managed to take like 3 different naps in one day and STILL managed to sleep thru the whole night #at least 2 days into my break. the weird thing is i didnt feel more or less rested afterwards. but mentally i think im in a good place rn #to really put the level of awakeness im at rn i feel weirdly confident i could start one piece. also bc of that sick new opening it BANGS #the song is really good and im in love with the animation style. did some digging and it seems one of the lead animators is masato mori #but i could be wrong. it seems he also did some work on mp100 which could explain a lot lol.. he uses smear frames really well to convey #consistent movement and fluidity!!! someone else might have done color design but it works really really well esp with odas style!!#just love the overall vibe and aesthetic and id really love to study it and incorporate a bit of it into my art.. especially the thick #outlines which i think helps to separate characters and objects on screen. though i have to say the style is definitely more suited to #animation bc of the simpleness and smears. maybe that will help me explore shapes and perspective when i draw... i wanna get better #at drawing poses and angles but i have a hard time wrapping my head around space and using perspective guide lines NGHHHH #i wonder if it has to do with my dogshit ability to judge distance. not depth perception but like. judge how far smth is in metres etc #im also wearing an N95 for the first couple weeks back bc of the wave. absolutely NO BODY is wearing a mask its so fucking over #where im sitting ive heard 5 different people coughing probably not into their elbows!!! and im just. head in my fucking hands #there was a kid sitting a couple seats away in class coughing as he pleases and i wanted to grab him in a chokehold so badly. PLEASEE #ive been annoying my family by asking them to mask up and reminding them to bring masks when they go out and showing them news articles #but at least its working bc we ordered some KN95s and my mom is at least taking me seriously so. please dont be afraid to speak up abt your #health. take care of yourself and others however u can!! wear that mask indoors at your maskless friends house!!! stay home when u can!!#im wearing a surgical mask at home too bc my parents have '''a dry throat cough''' and they are so bad at coughing into their sleeves #also im pretty sure dry throat isnt transmissible bc my brother started coughing too so.. i also tested negative but they havent tested yet #im also not a doctor but i have to keep reminding ppl whenever i can that covid and flu work differently. covid is new and too recent to #have nearly as much research done on it. it seems its also compounding so instead of building immunity it weakens the body and spreads to #to other systems which might explain brain fog and muscle weakness. i remember someone early in the pandemic got infected and it messed up #their smell/taste receptors so bad that they cant eat most foods and that stays in the front of my mind when i think abt covid. christ #yapping

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roachemoji · 8 months

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#bo posting #talky #ive been writing so much the last few days and as great as it iss #i miss drawing so much #i enjoy being creative and im so happy i get to do this for someone i love dearly #but DAMN i wish i could just draw #and im also stressed out because i decided i wanna keep this project private...#like im gonna delete links n posts n stuff to it i dont wanna post about it anymore #this is a gift to someone i love and i wanna keep it between us #and i aughahdkashd #i feel SHITTY like im keeping a secret #but this is special and important #Im scared that im making people jealous because i havent been very present since the whole fiasco with my medication #and the fact that my sleep schedule is far more consistent because im trying to time it be awake when my friends in later timezones #are actually online?#Which makes it harder to stay up late #like i get ready for bed at 11pm lmao #im trying so hard to spend time with everyone equally #or plan a head so i try to have movie nights or eat dinner or talk with friends before other plans if i can spare the energy #because i DONT want them to feel left out or like im prioritizing other people #but i still worry that they might feel that way and im too scared to talk about it #because theres a mountain of other fucking issues #and ive dug myself into a hole of things i havent beenable to talk about #because ive been drugged out of my mind and am only just now in this very moment realizing how present i am mentally #AHHHHHHHAJHKFSHJASKDHKJ #maintaining friendships is so fucking hard for me and i hate it so much #it shouldnt be this hard but it is!!!!!!!!!!!#i shouldnt struggle with balancing my time between people but it feels like such a task and i feel so shitty saying that #i love my friends but i feel like a bad friend

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pepprs · 1 year

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not doing good. at all

#purrs #today and yesterday ive been unspeakably depressed. and no one knows what to do with me and i don’t know what to do with me. but ivs been ge #getting absolutely SHIT sleep bc of my siblings staying up late and my sisters ocd stuff which is probably part of it. I now im wide awake a #and it’s 2 and im miseravle and can’t sleep and already did sleep for 2 hours and it didn’t help and im hungry and weak #i truly don’t n kw what’s wro ng with me. i want to be happy and normal but every day i have long moments where im trying so hard not to cry #and i think most ppl would excuse themselves to go cry or take a break or like. speak up and ask for help if they’re miserable but i don’t d #do any of that. i just hold it all in until i get so tired it disappears. and then when i do snap im too miserable and ashamed to actually b #be honest about how anyone can help me which only makes me cry more. atp idk what will help. im in therapy now im about to have some time of #km eating food i like even though it’s not the healthiest ive tried resting and getting sleep and whatever. maybe im just not cut out for #any of what im doing and i just need to detach myself from reality even harder than i am already doing apparently. idk nothing im typing is #making sense i just can’t fall asleep now and im so pissed at my siblings and im pissed at my whole family for not giving a shit that im mis #miserable and easily overstimulated by noise bc i could’ve had ghe room downstairs and im still being held hostage by redacted and being #shaken awake to redacted like last night and work is killing me for the dumbest reasons. i literally cannot keep living like this #delete later

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floralovebot · 1 year

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*loudly, from a megaphone* SO WHO WANTS TO TALK ABOUT HELIA

#i know some of you are awake don't hide from me !!#adhgldag #anyway ive been thinking a lot about his backstory and i thought of a fun new one that makes him way too cool #one day ill give him a boring backstory. one day.#but not today!!#anyway2 i think i want to work on his playlist now! ive literally only added One song #so i want to add more!#give suggestions maybe 👉👈#i want to add songs that are happier too! i think i may work on tecna's playlist too actually!#i added one more song but there's like three or four in total now? def need to add more #also there's been this recent trend of the whole poet king soldier thing and i started thinking about the wi.nx blorbos in relation #its sad that helia is anything but the poet

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penguin--person · 10 months

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dolochov save me

#dolochov #wpuld u velieve me of i said ive been awake a Whole day by Accident #i tried to sleepppp the sleep tealm does not want me

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donexmiras · 7 months

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I have a bed fully set up, frame and all, and it took me all of three hours of sleep for me to be awake

#ive been sleep deprived for days #struggled to sleep on the couch the other night #but now i finally have the sleeping arrangements ive wanted for a long time #and it kind of reminded me of back when i was first getting back into ut #i didnt need as much sleep i could be awake the whole night and still be functional #so actually finally being comfortable may bring out those old habits again 👁️👁️#i cant promise ut though #im still trying to figure out if i even want to be an active creator for it #but yall may at least finally get me being more active #and in a healthier mindset hopefully ✌️

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vanillabat99 · 11 months

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I had another nightmare last night. It wasn't anything major, but I have been a little rattled all day, and I'm apprehensive about going to sleep tonight... I have the telltale feeling of an impending nightmare but I'm so exhausted today!!!! It's never worth the risk of a nightmare, especially since ones like this are usually a doozy, so I guess I'm staying awake until it passes ._.

#im too tired for distractions but also if i sleep now i will regret it ._.#idk if anyone else experiences the nightmare premonitions but ive been getting them my whole life.#ive had nightmares without getting the vibe but if i get the vibe then its like. red alert. big bad nightmare incoming. do not sleep.#sometimes i am physically incapable of staying awake through it and its always so awful :( this might be one of those times ._.#anyways. my day has been really good otherwise!!!!!#dance class was nice and i played animal crossing for a little while :3 #batty blogging #text

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notquiteaghost · 1 year

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i have lived in this country My Entire Damn Life and still sunday opening hours slip my mind. ive fucking worked retail on sundays. i worked a sunday retail shift for the best part of a year. and yet!!

#yelling at clouds #my plan for today is to do pkmn go community day. and then go to shop #community day is 2pm - 5pm #everywhere shuts. at 5pm.#which is Fine it's not gonna take me three hours to catch two shiny noibats but #morrisons gets fucking insane after 3pm on sundays. i KNOW this #if my brain worked i cldve just already gone. and come back. it's 1:30 now ive been awake since midday.#then i cld do community day w/o having to carry my shopping the whole time #this is a minor inconvenience. i am very tired of the adhd minorly inconveniencing me.

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thenarrativefoil · 2 years

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thank god for dayquil/nyquil but beasties I am straight up not having a good time

#text #i've been running a 99.8 fever and i usually sit around 96.7 #ive got a cough now #my sore throat went away and then came back with a vengance #i have had. period cramps. which I haven't had since surgery earlier this year. lots of shooting pains in my arms and legs.#which i assume are blood clots. fun.#also. fatigue. can't really stand up or stay awake for very long.#like thank god I'm on so many antiinflamatories for MCAS.#i was finally looking forward to some easy work days last week and this upcoming week but instead i gotta be sick.#bc ppl dont wear their goddamn masks and this plague mutated into a more contagious variant that isn't stopped by anything less than n95s #i was also going to try and pick up my artwork from my mom's house this weekend but that's not happening obvs. which has been a whole thing.#so many ppl have gotten sick like #THIS week too #ppl that have otherwise avoided covid thus far #and damn if i didn't try to get the bivalent shot at my doctor's office but the pharmacy closed.#i hate that the health of everyone on this fucking planet has been individualized to hell and back and it's so overwhelming #i've had difficulties grappling with it too #we cannot just look out for ourselves we have to actively protect others as well jfc its like this whole country failed the stone age.#tag rant tag rant delirious covid tag rant what fun its like its 2010 or something

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cannot-copia · 2 years

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took some Benadryl bc I wanted it to make me go to sleep

i played myself it didn’t make me sleepy at all now everything just feels like,,,, fake

#I’ve only had it one other time in as long as I can remember #and it made me go to sleep then #but the whole next day at work I was doing literally everything wrong and dropping everything #so even if it wasn’t related ive been hesitant to take it again #but I can’t really do anything rn so I don’t want to be awake #so was like fuck it #but I played myself ig #delete later

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rsmrymnt-tea · 2 years

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holy shit how long have i been asleep

#i thought it was 5pm and then realized its 5am only to see my family awake and realize its actually 5pm #ive been out like a light that whole time?? what time did i even fall asleep shdjdhdksjsbdhsj #makes sense i guess because i was soooo fucking tired even tho it wasn’t registering properly #anyway man i guess there goes my day? dunno if i wanna try catching up with being productive #or sleep some more #but i definitely had a really good sleep omg #insane what the hell its been a while since ive slept that hard #self & soliloquy #saglitan lamang

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dragons-and-yellow-roses · 2 months

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On Day 4 of my No Napping streak 😊

#yall dont understand how bad my napping problem was #and im not even joking. for the last dour years i can count on two hands the amount of days i didnt nap #literally most of the last four years has been sleeping #but recently i got burnt out and slept for two days straight with like. two breaks to take care of my dog #(i have a sibling who also cares for the dog i havent been neglecting him)#and that whole mess reset my sleep schedule (i slipped into sleeping during the day and staying awake all night for a couple weeks)#and made it so i dont have to nap i guess because i haven't needed to #its been super weird. i have so much more time now and its hard to fill it #one day i went to the coffee shop and walgreens and the coinstar machine. and did laundry and other tidying #yesterday and today ive cooked whole meals. yesterday it was tortellini and broccoli and garlic bread #like idk how to explain it but thats so out of character for me #literally every day of my life for the last four years has been wake up. to go to work. stay up all night maybe. sleep until work #but now im... getting better i think? it seems better #i have an hour before i have to get ready for work (going in early because theres a bar crawl today and the other concierge wants help)#so im debating between playing on my phone in bed and enjoying the fresh air and sunlight coming from my window #or doing some cleaning and packing. i kind of want to do this because yesterday i had a nightmare that it was moving day and i wasnt ready #it was terrifying. so yeah ill probs get in some cleaning #wish me luck tonight! its saturday (busiest day of the week) and a bar crawl (the literal worst)

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seuugyoon · 5 months

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#rant

#if i have one more fuxking dream about him im gonna k**#like ive been having dreams about him since we met but this is too much #and i get it im going through another breakup but girl pls dont do this #its so fuckn weird how realistic it was #like ik dreams are realistic but jfc #hanging out with friends while we drink and eat but bc im deeply deeply #antisocial i stay in the kitchen and handle the cooking and this mf stays with mr the whole time #like last time at our pal's bday the same thing happened we just stayed together and im not delusional #at least not that much to think its bc he l**** me but it was very fckn confusing!!#and this dream took fulll advantage bc he literally was like fondling my ass and then suddenly he began telling me about all the things #he'd do if we were dating like brooo #and then the cincher that actually scared me awake was how i was in the middle of making our salad #and i was asking him like hey how do you like your tomatoes (mid ass fondling btw) and then he somehow #got two stools and had me sit on the front one while he sat behind me and then he enveloped me in a massive hug #that covered my ears and then confessed how much he likes me and whatnot #😭😭like homeboy said he didn't believe in love but now he kinda does and im like uhhhhh #and then i fcking woke up like aaaaahh #why would i dream about that and why did it make me so h**** like.....FUCK!#mind you this comes a few days after i chatted with my ex and cleared fhe the air and this mf asked if i wanted to go back to his like ummm #pls do not play with my feelings they're very delicate rn #anyway early morning rant is all #i even forgot i had this blog omg

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cinnabeat · 6 months

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anyways the other day when i went out with my friend and stayed out far later than i usually do i came to the realization that i dont actually have a curfew anymore and its mind boggling

#i technically didnt have a curfew before either but my parents always said to be home by 1 am or dont come home at all #not in a 'we're locking you out' kind of way but in a 'if you come home and make boise while everyone is asleep there WILL be consequences #and like i can respect that since my prents room is right next to the front door #and in the end i would always be home around 10 bc MY friends had curfews #and like man i came home the other day and it was almost 12 #ive never done that before #i was like taking out my keys to go in and it hit me that like i just? sont have a curfew?#i can go home whenever??#either my brothers awake gaming or hes at work so it litwrally doesnt matter???#it was bizzare like im just allowed to do that now? and no one can stop me???#like idk lately i havent really been feeling my age #i kind of still feel nineteen you know?#not even 18 bc 2020 was not a real year lmao i think my brain skipped that year entirely #like man in almost 22 #thata wild #i never imagined mysef getting to this age not in a bad way but like #idk ive never known anybody in their 20s you know?????#people were either my age or still in school like k-12 or they were 30 and above #like i dont know what to expect for this decade of my life? which no one knows what to wxpect and we're all at different paces but like?#its like my whole life has been step1. be a child step 2. be a child in school step3. Prepare For College #step4. college :D you have made your parents proud step5.?????????????#step 6. congratulations you are now an adult 🥳🥳#like does this make sense #ive never really considered my life beyond school bc my entire life HAS BEEN school so jn this nebulous area of my life where im in school b #but also like 80% of the way to independence and im about to graduate and no longer be in school #and get a career and make money and get groceries and pay bills and like idk exist as an independent member of society #idk man its a lot! it is 9 pm i should stop thinking so much actually #michi tag

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