#its sad that no one watched this show i literally watched it about over 20 times as a kid
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also omg?¿ you've probably seen the clips of matty completely breaking character upon seeing gabbriette in the front row (😭😭) like stop i literally cannot take how cute they are but....... its giving spotting teacher reader in the crowd and the way he just m e l t s entirely (the band teasing him after and even annie jumping in oh bye!!)
(he can't help but keep looking your way and the way he absolutely can't stop his smile from growing oh its so bad i fear...)
- (bff anon also needs to learn to stfu)
(THIS IS SO LATE I APOLOGISE BESTIE)
(its also not proofread so apologies for that too)
omg yes I literally must've watched those clips about 20 times over, every new angle that pops up I am LOOKING.
okay, okay, I'm imagining this is after you're already together and have been for a little bit. Obviously, you can't go on tour with him because you do have a job, and matty is MOPEY.
like he just won't stop waiting by the phone for you to text him. Anytime anyone's phone goes off, matty is jumping to his phone to check if it's you. Time difference makes it difficult, but you facetime and text as much as humanly possible.
even just little updates throughout the day, "the staff room had run out of tea bags. call the police." or "I know I shouldn't say this about a student, but ohmygod, timmy o'donnel might be the dumbest kid I've ever worked with. he'd 6, and he STILL spells his name with just one m. HOW!??!?"
sometimes, matty can't respond straight away (much to his disappointment), but when he gets back from sound check to see a text from you? my man is SWOONING. the boys all make fun of him for how giddy he gets, "dude you're like a teenage girl in a movie kicking her legs in bed and twirling the chord around her finger" "shut up"
It's not term time (do other countries call it that? like school time?? idk), so Annie is with Matty, but you're still in work on staff training days. the most boring days according to you
"I mean kids are hard work, but so is having to sit in a room with Mr. Smith for 5 hours as he tries to flirt with me" (needless to say, Matty is NOT a fan of Mr. Smith after this comment, but you assure him that no one could ever get you away from him, and you then tease him about the pink dusting on his cheeks when he hears that)
so one day, when Matty doesn't get a good morning text from you, his heart breaks a little, but he figured you had just woken up late and forgotten. but then lunch rolls around, and usually you Facetime and chat while you're on break, but still, radio silence.
he's worried, are you mad at him? Did he say something wrong? he messages asking if you're okay, but 5 minutes before he's due on stage, there's still no response. To say he's sad is an understatement. Everyone knows to give him a little space today because he is out of sorts.
but also, they know you're coming. you managed to convince your boss that you're sick (think mean girls "*cough cough" I'm sick") and sneak away to come to the Paris show. You had told the boys your plan, expecting some pushback or judgment. But, you got a unanimous "thank god" message because if they had to deal with matty missing you for one more day, they'd fly you out themselves.
you meet Mark outside, and he gets you in and has a spot at the front of the pit waiting for you. you are buzzing to see Matty, and you can't wait until he notices you in the crowd. You're wearing merch that you stole from his drawer, so you're hoping that will catch his eye.
matty gets on stage and distracts himself from thinking of you the whole show. The crowd is crazy tonight, and it's giving him the energy he needs. you're on Ross' side, and he clocks you immediately, waiting until Matty isn't looking when he waves at you sneakily.
the girls around you scream and swoon because who wouldn't when Ross waves at them? you giggle and wave back, but your eyes are immediately drawn back to Matty.
ever since that first concert, your eyes have been drawn to Matty, and seeing them live means so much more to you after that show. seeing it just brings you back to the night of your first kiss (working on this fic btw) and you feel giddy at the sight of him all smiley and dancey.
the good crowd and the sight of annie dancing around at the side of the stage keep matty pretty distracted, so for a good few songs, he doesn't notice you. but when he finally does? it's obviously to everyone in that room that he is looking at something he loves.
he is doing his usual stage antics but stops on the spot and does a double take when he sees you. you can hear the smile in his voice as he sings, but considering how wide it is on his face, you've sure the entire venue could see it anyway.
he finishes the song, doing his best to connect with the whole crowd, but he can not stop his eyes from drifting over to you. by the end of the song, he mouths to you, "I love you," whilst laughing in disbelief, and you just giggle and teasingly wave at him.
now does he call it out on stage??? perhaps... I think if he does he doesn't point you out or say your name he simply says, "I've just spotted by girlfriend in the audience, she's totally surprised me by being here so if the rest of the show is shit- you all know why"
I like to think the fans know matty has a gf but nothing else, no name or what you look like. because you're a non celeb, and he doesn't want you to have to deal with everything he does, and you don't mind either. any way you can stay out of the daily mail you're happy with
the show finishes, and it's not shit like matty said it's amazing as always. you get ushered off just before it ends to stand side stage waiting for matty.
you greet Annie when you get up there though, she's ecstatic to see you and asks whether you're staying, and you tell her you're there for the whole weekend and she shrieks and hugs you again and again. before the boys come off stage, someone comes and grabs Annie to wait in the green room. It's what's safest when there's so much commotion and movement.
she wanders off just as the boys come off stage, and you are immediately engulfed with just matty.
he hugs you, initially holding you tight and burrowing his face into your neck. He smells vaguely of sweat, wine, and cigs but somehow still smelt good.
he pulls back and hold you face between his hands, staring at you and flicking his eyes all over your face as if to confirm it's really you.
Once they hit your lips, he seems to remember he hasn't kissed you yet, so without a second thought, he pulls you in for a passionate kiss. you immediately moan at the contact, and matty uses the opportunity to slip his tongue into your mouth. your hands rake through his sweaty curls.
a wolf whistle from Ross breaks you apart, and you immediately go red and hide in mattys shoulder, he's of course, unashamed and simply throws Ross a wink, which makes everyone around you burst out laughing.
about an hour later, you're all sat in the green room, and the teasing begins;
"mate you should've seen your face I thought you were about to faint"
"I don't think I've seen your eyes go that wide since Sarah Marshall flashed you her tits at your 18th" (George covers Annie's ears as he shares this anecdote, much to her annoyance)
"I'm surprised you remembered the lyrics after that. You forget them at the best of times"
"OKAY, OKAY, let's all calm down, enough of the teasing, please," matty begs
"You did look very funny though daddy" annie says with a giggle fiddling with ross' hair as she sits in his lap.
everyone laughed at Annie's comment and she lit right up, matty however groaned and burrowed his head into your chest, you teasingly said "there there, it's so hard being a simp I know baby" whilst petting his head.
the laughter continues, and he pulls back with a gasp, open-mouthed at your cheeky comment. but he soon settles back on the sofa and pulls you into his side, and before long, Annie comes running over and burrows herself in between the two of you.
both you and annie fall asleep on the sofa, and matty sneaks a picture before he wakes you up to go to the hotel.
it's his background for the next 6 months.
(also bff, never stfu I literally love you)
blurb masterlist here :)
#this has been in my drafts for a minute#oopsie#but yes simp matty supremacy.#he loves his girl... so what????#annie would so take the piss of him bc she loves how it makes her uncles giggle#sometimes they feed her lines#teacher au!#anon!#bff anon <33333
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You know...
I grew up with TNG; it’s always been my Star Trek; I spent much of my childhood obsessed with it. And there I was, watching what promised to be the Last! Appearance! by the TNG Crew! Ever!,
and I felt nothing at all.
Nothing had any weight. The Borg Collective got blowed up real good, but they’d already got blowed up real good 20 years ago, and last season set up another, vastly more interesting version of the Borg anyways if only anyone had bothered to mention them or anything else from the first two seasons, so it means nothing. Nothing had any weight. No one even died. No one even got meaningfully assimilated. Apparently you can just peel Borg implants right off your face without, you know, bleeding to death or ripping out a chunk of your brain. Someone should probably tell Seven of Nine about that.
And now I’ve had a few hours to reflect upon it and what occurs to me is: I think I hate it. Yes, that sounds right. I hate it.
I mean, Nemesis gets a lot of sh*t, much of it deserved, but like…I actually cried during Nemesis. Nemesis also had a fascinating nature-versus-nurture theme, which admittedly, was a come-down from “All Good Things’…” promise of human transcendence, but at least it was something! This just felt like empty nostalgia calories, wrapped it a blanket with bathetic MCU quips. No thought-provoking science fiction. No exploration of the human condition. Just…bloodless violence for an hour.
And then I thought back to how this series started, my beautiful, flawed, Star Trek: Picard; and here I must admit that I’m one of those sad, lonely freaks who actually really liked the first two seasons. I liked the weighty themes of living in the cognizance of death, and the serious engagement with transhumanism. Above all, I liked the characters. Elnor, Soji, Rios, and especially Agnes. And then I thought: what an absolute Insult this season is! You dump all of the characters and you can’t even be arsed to namedrop them. I mean, shit, there’s a reference to Chekov in the first five minutes, but you can’t be arsed to reference any of the characters whose series you hijacked? You have Raffi sparring with Worf and she can’t even mention that her adopted son is a Romulan swordsmaster? You have the Borg invading, and “no one’s seen them in over ten years!” and you can’t be arsed to clarify why that Borg Queen that we all saw Jurati turn into last season doesn’t count? Literally the only allusion, anywhere, to any of the characters from the first two seasons other than Raffi is Shaw telling everyone to “Forget that weird shit on the Stargazer.” That weird shit. Yeah. One of the only characters in all fiction that I’ve ever meaningfully identified with. Thanks, Terry!
But, at the same time…what a gross insult to TNG! TNG, with its humanist utopia and moral conundra and scientific grounding. TNG, which, at its best, showed us what humanity could be; which challenged us to see the world in new ways. Reduced to this. This hollow, plastic pile of rubbish.
But, hey; the reviews are positive! The series is in the top ten for streaming! And a billion YouTube comments have already informed me that, finally, REAL Star Trek is back! Forget “all that weird bullshit,” this is what we, the fandom, wanted all along!
Anyways, can’t wait to see the next exciting installment of Star Trek: Funko Pop
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Nickelodeon owes the "fans" an apology...
I'm only saying this because apparently it's the 45th anniversary and Nickelodeon has been hiding some sneaky crap that they still haven't addressed, even after the documentary has come out. Dirty Dan gave a fake apology that sounded scripted, but that's not what we want. We want Nickelodeon, a well known CHILDREN'S network, to apologize for the most perverted, fetishy shows in existence, and also putting child actors at risk for over 20 years! Dirty Dan Schneider was working for that network since the 90s and he came out with a fake apology right after the documentary came out. We just want Dan Schneider to be IN PRISON, with John Kricfalusi, Chris Savino, James Charles, and Colleen Ballinger.
Nickelodeon needs to apologize by having a restriction against hiring children for live action shows, and also make a public announcement and apologize to all the kids who were involved in the shows, and also the fans. Apologize for putting the most fetishy, disgusting content in shows for a children's network, and also get rid of everything that isn't suitable. Not just the Dirty Dan shows, but also some of the cartoons (Like Ren & Stimpy and Loud House) should be banned as well. It's sickening that Nickelodeon even allowed that stuff in the first place. I think the Dan Schneider stuff is the worst, though. Also, inform people that you will no longer hire minors for live action shows, if you make any at all. I think Nickelodeon should have a restriction against being allowed to make live action shows after all they've done. Last of all, there are other changes that need to be made! Now that the perverted stuff is gone, it's time to bring back the shows that were more suitable for kids.
Early SpongeBob episodes were amazing, but there's others I hope Nickelodoen should bring back too;
CatDog (even though it had some subtle dirty jokes, and some episodes got a bit too heavy, it had some good messages. It was also ahead of its time)
Doug (It was made by Jim Jinkins, same guy who worked on Pinky Dinky Do so of course it's family friendly)
Rugrats (Some things didn't age well, but at least it was better than Dirty Dan's stuff)
Robot & Monster (It was weird at times but mostly family friendly)
Harvey Beaks (This show was literally so cute and the episode I watched had a decent mesage)
The Wild Thornberries (Extremely ahead of its time, I heard form someone on YouTube that they did a better job teaching about other cultures than Disney did).
Hey Arnold (I think some episodes get a bit too heavy, and the show can sometimes be straight up sad, but it's relatable and teaches serious issues)
Invader Zim (I know this one was dark and not the best for kids, but at least it's entertaining and not fetishy)
SpongeBob Squarepants, seasons 1 and 2 (it was way more family friendly back then)
So yeah, Nickelodeon! That's only 8 shows listed! You should be able to play them if you remove the Loud house, Ren & Stimpy, and EVERYTHING that has Dan Schneider's name credited. And like I said, NO MORE LIVE ACTION SHOWS PLEASE!
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Live-read: The Wheel of Destiny #8, Kerubim.
You can find this article on the Dofus MMO's site, by simply googling it.
A bit of context: this is an article, from the series called "Wheel of Destiny," which focuses on small character studies of various ecaflip characters from the World of Twelve. I won't be doing all of them, just the ones that interest me.
It is my decision to start with this in particular, because of the relatively small size of the article, to test out this... reading liveblogs thing. I hope it goes well, and isn't too boring.
I hate Eca so much it's unreal, just so you know.
To make it more obvious which parts are me, and which parts are the article, while you're skimming the post, I turned on my computer's night mode for making screenshots.
...My sincerest apologies to tumblr's dark mode users, though. I'm sure this is a nightmare for you.
And this is what I was talking about in the previous posts, where I said that, canonically, Kerubim's friendship with Bashi started before the Quest of Two Mornings in Episode 3, Strich Hunt.
Very sad to disappoint, but there does not actually seem to be a Croc Ness monster in the Dofus MMO.
Yet another confirmation of the temple being situated in Amakna. (Besides my own geographical estimations while watching the show, and it literally being there in the Dofus MMO.)
It's a long ass way between the temple, and the swamp, but it is realistically doable for two kids, especially if they have a carriage. (Which Kerubim, being the guy responsible for feeding Ecaflip, does have access too.)
"Five-Cat Monte" is a reference to "Three-Card Monte" which is a real thing.
Glad to know Bashi is also very normal and sane as a kid. Also, very glad that older kids, who give lessons, react to things like this by essentially going "Sure, go die I guess."
God, they are so fucking stupid. Anyway, they are talking about some real landmarks here, all of which are also around Amakna, and seem to be pretty accurate to the in-game geography.
...It feels nice to be right.
...I suppose that, despite its faults, the orphan temple actually gives a shit about its disciples not dying. Color me surprised? Eh, I'm mostly joking. It would be very weird if they didn't.
I will spoil things ahead for you: Ecaflip used magic to make Kerubim look like Atcham.
Bashi's reaction to Atcham being "AAAAH NOT THAT FUCKING CREEPY KID AGAIN 😨". The way he pretty much says, "a ghost?? NO. SOMETHING SCARIER. YOUR WEIRD FUCKING BROTHER."
It all implies., So much. It implies so much. I'm still not over it.
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Pictured: my vision of how Bashi reacted to Atcham, when Kerubim (against his will, unwillingly, and deeply embarrassed) was forced to introduce them to one another.
I like to think that before they began to hate one another, Kerubim's relationship with Atcham was similar to what he had with Patafiks. Except instead of copying him, Atcham would, idk. Threaten to kill himself if he got any friend other than him? Threaten to kill his friends?
Something insane and jealousy-based like that.
I may be that guy who's very critical of Kerubim, and constantly going "Atcham's sad implied backstory this, Atcham's sad implied backstory that," but you don't get reactions like that by simply being extremely bullied.
You get reactions like that by being That Heavily Bullied Kid With 20 Mental Illnesses Who Attacks People With Sharp Objects.
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Pictured: my rough theory of whatever the fuck happened between Kerubim and Atcham in the orphanage.
It is a funny image... that quickly wraps around back to being sad, once you think about little orphan Atcham, who people fucking hate for being a bingus, who has nobody except for his equally-orphaned brother (who doesn't look weird, can actually make friends, and leave him alone, if he wants to. Which he does.) and how at such a young age he got desperate enough to resort to what seems to be violence to protect himself.
Which got him absolutely no help. And also made people look down on him even further.
I think the funniest part of it all is that Atcham as an adult has:
1. The knowledge that hating Kerubim is literally not productive and a weird fucking coping mechanism.
Yet he keeps doing that.
2. A sort of moral compass that's all about protecting and respecting those in the same shit situation as him. (Even if they insult him. He hates that, but he's mature enough to uh.... just shave people against their will about it.)
While Kerubim is like. Still struggling with even saying that he doesn't even hate his brother. Somehow, he's the more emotionally constipated one.
So normal of them.
Anyway,
I think here we can see a bit of the internal growth Kerubim has had, from the time when he was a child, to adulthood.
Joris cannot picture Kerubim being ashamed, or disgusted, by Atcham, despite this article showing him doing exactly that.
It is the reason why I think one of the factors that contributed to Kerubim adopting, and keeping, Joris, was his guilt over whatever Atcham went through, despite how much he likes to say that he doesn't like Atcham.
Joris is different from other kids: small, weird, probably bald. And in any other situation, it's likely he'd develop a complex about it, except his dialogue in the movie specifically implies that Kerubim has put in conscious parenting effort into preventing exactly that.
While it's obvious that Kerubim loves Joris, there are many flaws in his parenting. So him putting a petabyte worth of effort and research into one single aspect of it is... very telling.
Now for a bit of a reach/headcanon: Who's to say that the reason Joris doesn't have many friends, is not Kerubim trying to isolate him from any potential source of shame or trauma? This part, as I've said, is purely speculation/headcanon — but it is an interesting thought.
And Atcham, who was there, and experienced shit like this from Kerubim, is still swayed by Joris's words.
What I think happened between them is that Kerubim, who yearns for societal approval, is afraid of being like Atcham, who is often ostracized and disliked by people for his looks. Besides this, I think Atcham, who was Going Through Horrors, was clingy.
For these reasons, he pushed Atcham away, and it is this betrayal, coupled with Kerubim's advantages in the form of not looking weird and being Ecaflip's favorite, that made Atcham fucking detest him.
What it all means is that Joris isn't necessarily wrong: Kerubim wouldn't hurt Atcham (at least, not unless it's self defense), and what he did was just... trying to save his own skin as kid.
Which isn't exactly malicious.
And I guess Atcham agrees with Joris on Kerubim's incapability of doing harm to him on purpose. Otherwise, he would never be convinced to change his mind.
There is probably a reason for why Kerubim would rather live in a forest, than go back to the temple looking like Atcham. And as I've said, I don't think it's a happy one.
Now think about Atcham doing this his whole life and get sad. Like I just did.
I think that, of all the things, it's most disgusting that whatever happened to Kerubim and Atcham was happening under the watch of Ecaflip, and perhaps even because of him.
I wouldn't put it past him to orchestrate their hatred for each other for fun. Or because he wanted Kerubim all alone, to himself.
I also find it interesting, the way Ecaflip says "once more" here. Implies that it used to be a normal thing for him. I suppose my guesses of Kerubim being disliked by other kids due to Atcham may have some merit.
And god, it makes me so, so sad.
He cares enough to intervene when Kerubim is about to die, which goes against his own rules, but not when it's about his kids' life being fucking awful.
...Maybe Oropo was right.
Do we know if Ecaflip's emotions are even genuine? He is the narrator of this story, after all, and he could be lying. He puts Kerubim in danger many times. Many. Just for fun and his own amusement.
I will take Ecaflip's narration as a straight-forward one, — that he really is feeling these things, but it still reads as manipulation, even if he is doing it for "Kerubim's sake". He's not a good father and never will be one, and these are very cruel lessons.
I will be real, their relationship disgusts me to my heart <3 Amen.
And now we know why Kerubim is... like that. And why his parenting is so overbearingly sweet, controlling, and obsessed with making sure Joris knows he adores him and adores him back.
Perhaps, despite everything, Atcham was the luckier one for not having Ecaflip's "love" the way Kerubim did, but honestly, I feel both of them had it equally shitty.
A true "would you rather sit on an anthill or sit on a cactus" choice.
#wheel8#ro liveblogs dofus#dofus#wakfu#krosmoz#atcham crepin#kerubim crepin#Youtube#still hate that tumblr automatically adds this tag to posts that have videos in them but whatever.
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- The first time I watched Get Back (which is the only other time I've watched Get Back) this was the day where I realised how much a mish mash mess the entire editing of it was, because obviously I know the tapes of day eight much better than the tapes of other days. (on account of it being the day where Paul and John use George as nothing but an excuse to talk about their own broken up feelings and confused affections.)
- Wonderfully, @inspiteallthedanger and @get-back-homeward posted about the cuts and snips in the lunchroom tapes, and how frustrating and impossible it all is, here. So I don't have to kill myself trying to explain how WEIRD the resulting 'conversation' Peter Jackson came up with is. What a strange strange thing he did.
- I'm aware that the art of documentary is cutting bits out, and I know they couldn't put it all in. But I do find it tiring. Even not lunchtime, but all the conversations, all the days. I just want to know what they look like at the appropriate points without having to double guess and think and disregard. We're not allowed that though, until some kind soul steals the full footage and gifts us pure wonder, so unless you can really see their lips move, it's only a mirage.
- But! the full 20 seconds that is given over to watching Paul looking sad where nobody says anything at all is the best 20 seconds Peter Jackson ever spent.
- Paul explaining that obstacles aren't obstacles if you refuse to acknowledge any sadness in your life think about obstacles. I mean he's not untrue, it's not not true, he could make a motivational poster.
- So proud of his terrible news bulletins idea. I actually do think ending a massive spectacular show by having a quiet man come on and quietly announce that you've broken up could be nice though. But really I'm just in love with the fact that instead of worrying about breaking up, Paul has been turning it into a project they can all work on together. (And thinking about how to make it suitably big and show-off break up, because it's the Beatles - I love that he worries about their legacy. George and John are so weighted down by legacy, and Paul's just like 'it's only hard if we don't live up to it, so we should just live up to it'. He's such a lot, but he's true.)
Linda: But you were saying yesterday, you know... you make good music together whether you like it or not.
John: I like it.
Linda: And making good music is also...
John: But it's just...
Linda: It's really hard working in a relationship.
John: I know.
- I love that they call it feeling guilty about each other.
- I love that when John is talking about how hard it is when Paul won't give in on arrangements, he specifically says that he wants it to work more like it works when they're writing. It soothes me in its easy acknowledgement that the writing is good. (even while he's destroying it I know)
- Paul jokingly saying 'You stay out of this, Yoko' to Linda when she is joining in the conversation is probably one of the first times that joke was made, where it's now a recognisable joke to almost every english speaking person in the world.
- SHUT UP I CANNOT STAND IT. (Literally no idea at what point of the thing I wrote this down but I stand by it.)
- I hope they didn't tell George they only wanted him back as a matter of policy. <333333333
When we're very old we'll all agree with each other and we'll all sing together.
- I love him talking about how it all works better if they sing properly instead of just singing half. I love that they just need to be young again and they're not young, since Brian died they haven't been at all young.
- Love John wanting someone to fact check Paul in case Tucson wasn't actually in Arizona. His surrealism does not stretch to inaccurate geography.
Ringo: The meeting was fine. A lot of good things, but then you know... they all sort of fell apart in the end.
Ringo accidentally writing a perfect little synopsis of the Beatles.
- "I don't feel like the Beatles revolve around the four people. It might be a fucking job." John trying to invent The Plastic Beatles. Or make it a bit like national service for rockstars. Everyone dreading the fucking letter that means they have to leave their families and their homes and their happy bands to go and live in a cauldron with Paul and John for a few months.
MLH: I think at some point we should talk conceptually about the show.
Everyone prepares to leave.
#get back#get back january#the beatles#the lunchroom tapes#sorry this is long#but so much I left out because I couldn't wrangle thoughts#about paul and john and their ridiculous wordings#it could have been much worse#get back words
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paige x actress!reader?
hi anon! ofc ty for the suggestion!!
paige bueckers x actress!reader hcs!
warnings: none!
my requests are open feel free to send requests!
sorry for it being so short! this is the first time ive done this!
always the one to help you record online auditions which almost never goes well cause you end up having over 20 failed attempts from her laughing
helps you practice lines
always brags about you in public to others like "my girlfriend is so talented and beautiful you should watch the movies shes in"
always gets sad when you have to travel far away for filming and she cant go cause of basketball but makes sure to face time you every single night
theres an edit of you? she already had it liked, favorited, and reposted. probably has it in her camera roll too.
shes literally your number one fan oh my gosh its insane how much she talks about you
her reposts? full of you, edits, interviews, you name it.
always talks about you to her teammates about how great and talented you are to the point that they put tape over her mouth to stop her from talking anymore than she already does
her recently watched movies and shows are all ones that you've been in
always goes to your premieres and takes pictures of you like a proud mom
her camera roll is full of you, either videos she took, or from pinterest
when i say this girl has the worst case of heart eyes for you oh my goshhh i swear if you squint hard enough her pupils are gonna turn into hearts just from seeing you
always gets sad when you tell her you have to do a kissing scene or a spicy scene, but then forgives you the moment you appear on screen, and tell her that it meant nothing.
even if she doesn't understand everything about acting she still tries to help you improve any way she can
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doing two ask games at once….top five colors and 11 20 29!!!
hello jules top five colors yippeeee um 1. guts (album) purple 2. guts (body) sticky pink 3. mahogany 4. gray rose 5. sunlight
11. what do you consider romance is one of the most interesting qs on the list to me....well i guess marriage is inherently about conformity or at least that's how i see it.....sorry did i say marriage i meant romance. romance is literally abt marriage its schrodingers marriage. not always but socially structurally etc. you can take pleasure in that conformity in a myriad of ways and take pleasure in how you're capable of creating a good portrait with blood as yr paint but still the validation comes from everyone knowing the blood existed and satisfied by it so the painting is for your happiness..which is perfectly fine and often sexy. mostly im thinking about how most people both hate it and want it and how im no different but like. in a new inspired way that totally makes all the difference !
20. what do you love about the night !! the stars are great friends. and due to its like an oven in here night is the world opening the door and placing you on the counter where delicious smells of you are wafted down to everyone in the house. night is relief and potential
29. what do you do when youre sad. well unfortunately im kind of the worst at being sad but also i cant get enough of it....i mostly watch a tv show or read a book until the dam breaks and regret washes over me. but at least there's always the indulgence of carefully scheduling the crying
#um i had more to say abt romance but i forgot. i love it so much my favorite genre (or at least the KEY element of my fav genres !!)#and one of the most interesting social phenomena. although calling it that implies a lack of choice i hate and only partially agree with#r.💌
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10th best marvel movie of all time: Thor Ragnarok
To start off this list of the top 10 best Marvel movies, I'm starting off strong with #10. Thor Ragnarok. This movie is one of the most underrated movies in MCU history, and I'll go down to my grave believing this. Obviously, I'm gonna talk about how it has an amazing character development shown, great comedy, and an amazing villain. Not only those things, but there's also thrilling music and the whole story behind it is just genius.
Not only is the movie itself so good, but watching it just brings back so many good memories. For example, the very first time I saw this movie, it was in theatres with my mom. We would always go watch the new Marvel movies together and share popcorn and orange soda. Even now, on rainy days, when we're both free, this is our go-to movie.
To dive a little more into detail into the character development, Thor specifically had a lot of learning in this movie. Like literally in the first 20 minutes we see his hammer get destroyed and that's what he would really rely himself and his powers on beforehand. For example, whenever he faced a difficult challenge or anything of the sorts, all he had to do was reach his hand out for his hammer. We even saw this happen when he first showed up to Sakaar, he reaches his hand out, and when it's not there it's just an “oh sh$t” moment. This movie really forced him to grow and learn the potential of his powers if he just put his mind to use and concentrated. I really liked to see him develop and mature throughout this movie and see his full potential finally.
The other character development seen is Loki. He FINALLY starts to become self-aware of all his flaws but doesn't really believe he can change, resulting in him flip-flopping, but this time it's actually kind of sad because we know he's actually trying. I especially love watching Loki's character development in this movie because of my love for Psychology. He's always very conflicted, trying to do what's best but doesn't want to at the same time because it's difficult. I think he is so interesting to analyze throughout the movie.
To continue, like always, it is just hilarious. I love this aspect of the movie so much because I adore anyone with good humour. It is one of the most important characteristics in a person for me. My dad is the funniest person I know, and he's always cracking jokes that I can't help but laugh at, just like the ones in this movie. He also is a big Marvel fan, so we get to enjoy watching Thor and bonding over the humour.
The characters are just so lovable and funny. Like Korg, this big scary rock man. Turns out he's this super sweet and super humorous character that no one was expecting, but adores to see him in further movies. Korg is definitely one of my favourite characters in this movie. Not only him, but the little jokes cracked here and there by Thor himself, the Hulk, Loki, Valkyrie, and even Stan Lee made a funny appearance. The humour is definitely up-to-date and perfectly timed, it just adds the little details that make this movie so good.
Furthermore, to dig even deeper into the movie, I'm gonna talk about Hela and what she represents. So she is the main villain, and she is a great example that history is literally written by the victors. Although she is seeking revenge, and that's not all the greatest, she does have a reason to be angry. Her history was completely rewritten to favour the "good guys". I'm not going to go into further detail with that because I don't want to spoil it for those who haven't watched it. Hela had insane potential to be a great hero in the MCU universe, but didn't get the right guidance.
So yes, this movie is not only hilarious, but there is so much underneath the surface that needs to be acknowledged, so it deserves its spot rightfully at #10.
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I felt sad for Jill in her latest video. 😢 she was really upset
(tw: miscarriage)
I just watched it and yea, she does seem genuinely devastated in the part where she talks about it alone and I really do feel for her.
I don't want to repost the video just because I feel weird about it but here are some notes I took while watching:
- ok well first, I saw it was over 20 minutes long, which just made me very afraid of what was to come
- Jill plays a recorded face time of her and Nurie telling Kaylee about her pregnancy from Florida, which just struck me as so weird at first. I guess it shouldn't bc I'm sure she was going to include it in some even longer announcement video if the pregnancy had been viable, but its unclear if everyone involved knows is being recorded, especially bc Kaylee in particular sounds more normal then I've ever heard her in my whole time of watching these guys. The thought that Jill might just record video calls all the time with the intention of posting them on YouTube kinda skeeves me out.
- She also includes some videos of the kids talking about her miscarriage on their own which, ya know, ok whatever you wanna do, but Nurie and Renee do it out in a boat in the middle of the water for some reason? And it's so windy and noisy while they're having this emotional conversation, it just creates a very weird and slightly irritating (for me or anyone else with sensory issues) atmosphere. Also Jill's editing of said video is god awful (more on that in a few bullet points).
- there is a little mini sideshow of just pictures of Jill on the beach
- Jill says she had "weeks" of intense pain that felt like labor pains. Which, listen, if she did all the things pictured in her little slideshow while she was in that kind of pain, I'll give it to her, that's very impressive. I'm sad she felt like she HAD to do all that but impressed that she did. She shows herself performing at churches, looking after grandkids, going out, etc.
- ok so there are several areas where the older girls in particular are talking about the miscarriage and their feelings about it, and Jill will literally cut them off MID sentence and edit out god knows how much of what they're saying.......... it is so frustrating and I can't help but notice she only does this once to herself (and when she does there's no confusion about what she's saying or the point she's trying to make). At one point Renee is saying "I can't wait to meet my six siblings in heaven someda-" and is literally cut off right there, it filled me with rage. I want to know what they're saying!!!
- Jill, Nurie, and Kaylee are so obsessed with being pregnant together.........I just..... don't relate. They mention it at least 5 times.
- she has Sadie (who's 9) read a short, sweet letter she wrote to Jill about her miscarriage for Valentines Day on camera.
- Jill goes over all of her miscarriages, which I know a lot of people are aware of but here is what she says for those who don't know: her first ever pregnancy was a miscarriage, followed by 9 viable pregnancies. Right after they decided to do their traveling, full time ministry and just as she turned 30, she had 3 miscarriages in a row, then Olivia, then one more miscarriage. After that she had Sadie, Sofia, and Janessa right in a row, which then brings us to her latest miscarriage.
- They chose the name 'Reagan' in honor of president Reagan, and because it was gender neutral and they hadn't been far along enough to know the gender. Jill says that she's named all of her miscarriages with a name that ends in -an or -en, in birth order they are: Morgan, Aaron (ends with an -on but ok), Lauren, Jordan, Nolan, and then Reagan.
Very par for the course Jill video but like I said, I do think she's genuinely upset and had a particularly painful few weeks, all of which makes me feel awful for her.
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Idk if anyone follows my posts enough to even notice this but you may have seen me talking about a lot of new things I've watched so far this year, both tv and film. I kind of made a mini resolution to do this because I found, especially at the end of 2023, that I was stuck in a rut of either rewatching old things or mindlessly flipping through YouTube videos I had little to no interest in. There's so much media out there I'm interested in and now I feel almost reinvigorated to go through it and I've been having a blast.
Most of the time I'll probably just reblog a gifset or two with thoughts in the tags but I finally watched the Interview with the Vampire tv show and I have FEELINGS (mostly good)! Spoilers for season one and I do talk about book things that eventually happen so beware in case you don't know and want to continue the show completely blind...
So I kinda put off watching this at first because the Vampire Chronicles books are some of my favourites, and while it did have its own issues, the 1994 film holds a special place in my heart. I was like... do we really need anything else? But I'm glad I gave it a chance because the show was able to go so much further in so many aspects and also now we have a chance to actually see even more of the book events take place!
I'm gonna say up front that almost every character felt very different from how they are in the book except for Lestat. Lestat was actual perfection and I cannot BELIEVE someone did a (dare I say) even better job than Tom Cruise who gave the performance of his life in the film. Sam Reid's Lestat is unhinged and dramatic and terrifying and sad and cringe and yet also loveable and it was a masterpiece of acting. For the majority of the other characters I really didn't mind the differences and in some instances I thought they were actually improved. Daniel Molloy, for example, who is basically Anthony Bourdain? Perfection. Louis who is yes kind of pathetic and dramatic like the book, but also is volatile and complicated which Lestat is drawn to right from the beginning instead of only after having his little breakdown caused by his brother's death? Excellent. Armand who is older and looks nothing like the Armand described in the books but I can see without any problem how Marius fell madly deeply insanely in love with him because he's GORGEOUS and has this unsettling serenity about him? Give. Me. MORE.
The only issue I really had was with Claudia. I see people praising her all over the place so I'm sure this is an unpopular opinion but I hated that they aged her up so much. The most compelling thing about Claudia as a character is that she is an adult woman trapped in the body of a literal CHILD. A pre-pubescent child. Not a teenager. It's absolutely horrifying and it should be horrifying. Now, I will say, I saw an article where they talked about part of the reason behind this choice being that they needed the actor to work longer hours and it was impossible for a kid to do that, plus the very intense material, and I fully FULLY support any protections for child actors because the industry is insane. But it does make me sad and I wish there was some way they could have worked around it. I get what they tried to do with teenage Claudia but it just fell flat for me. And also the actress really looks her age (I think she's 20?) so like the few times where people were making fun of her for "playing dress up" or whatever I'm like... she fully looks like an older teen at LEAST what are you talking about lol. Also I thought her accent was kind of bad.
But honestly, that was really the only problem I had with the whole series. I absolutely loved how they went full-on explicit with the Lestat/Louis romance and the chemistry between the two of them was... WOOF. I was actually really interested in the modern portions too, mostly because Anthony Bour-- I mean Daniel Molloy was so entertaining lol. I loved how he pushed and pushed at Louis and their whole back and forth was brilliant. Although putting on my archivist's hat for a second to be outraged at Daniel consenting to wearing the cotton gloves to handle the diaries but then eating a fucking sandwich right beside the book???? Absolutely not lol. It was so much fun to see the Armand reveal (which I was spoiled for somehow but that's ok) especially knowing that Armand eventually turns Daniel and boy oh boy I hope they go long enough to get to that. I loved the continued references to Lestat's love of music which makes me hope they're planting seeds to make rock star Lestat a little more believable lol (god can you even imagine?? And we don't talk about the Queen of the Damned movie ok).
As for S2, I'm so excited for Paris and the Théâtre des Vampires and HELLO Ben Daniels as Santiago!!! Omg so hype for that. And it's going to be so interesting to see the Armand/Louis relationship as well because I mean it's always going to be Lestat/Louis and Armand/Marius for me so Louis being like "he's the love of my life"... girl. (And speaking of Armand/Marius please GOD give us some flashbacks because they are my Vampire Chronicles OTP and I need to see that whole story including my girl Bianca thank youuuuu).
Yeah so overall I'm quite positive about the whole thing and sincerely hope that they get many more seasons because there's so many interesting stories in those books and we've only ever gotten a TINY portion on screen.
#tbptalks#interview with the vampire#in addition to watching new things i'm apparently also reverting to my livejournal days and writing long rambly posts about media lol#i like throwing my opinions into the void ok sometimes i just need to get them out there#and when i have a lot to say i don't like using the tags on someone else's post
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Baddddd bad bad bad very sad
My head hurts, the pressure makes me feel like it's being squeezed and crushed by rubber bands ... from sinus inflammation and dehydration and not eating probably isn't helping
I feel like I want to cry again but I'm trying to stop myself so I won't make the pain even worse
This is only, what, a week into dst? Not even winter yet.. Seasonal affective disorder is going in for the kill this year I guess. I don't know what im going to do because I'm so tired, physically and mentally and just tired of my life, there's no fight in me left. And no one will or can help me. I'm my family's least favorite and so i get the least help, doctors won't take my health seriously, my partner needs more time, possibly more than a year, before moving in with me with me somewhere. I can't afford to live on my own. I barely have energy to keep collecting scraps of money to show as income so I can continue getting food assistance.
I had a spark of hope for a while but it feels like it was a mistake to let myself have it. How much longer can I lie to myself and say "one more year until it gets better"? I mean, I can't. That illusion is broken. So what can I tell myself? It truly feels like there's nothing. Things keep getting worse. I tried so hard, I really did. I'm exhausted. Truly utterly exhausted.
Unless anyone out there (just like, the world not @-ing Tumblr dot com) has a spare 20 grand or something they'd just hand to me to live off for "one more year" (and then some) and detox from my miserable quality of life, surviving it barely even sounds appealing knowing that my physical and mental health I'll be another year WORSE than where it is now. And even then. There's not guarantee it ends there :''') its an estimate, an "if I'm lucky" estimate and it's not even considerably lucky to be in this position.
I genuinely don't know how I'm gonna keep living like everything is fine and normal while I continue losing steam to make money, make art, care for myself (I'm already down to roughly 2 showers a week and at best 1 real meal a day because I'm so tired), to keep filling out paperwork begging for assistance (I think I'm already overdue for my food stamp update), and watching other people in my family just be handed endless help while I'm patronized with "have you considered painting Christmas ornaments for a living" and interrogated about the validity of my disabilities (which I always fail to prove good enough)
Almost everyone around me is happier than me. Almost everyone else's life is on track and I'm at best simply left behind, and at worst I was someone they stepped on to get what they needed before tossing me to the side.
My life is not only painful and exhausting but humiliating. I don't feel like a person. I don't feel important. I feel like if i did die out of the blue, nobody would say they regret helping me more like people usually say, they'd just talk about how I should have done xyz better and it's my own fault (not a s*icide threat just being hypothetical like literally if i died for any random reason)
Most of everything that's happened in my life, I feel, has validated my chronic sense of worthlessness. Everyone says I'm not but prove it. Someone prove it. Someone put me first. Sacrifice something for me (and not complain what a burden I am on them!). For once. If I wasn't worthless, well, I'd be worth it, without strings attached.
It won't happen. It never happens. I have to dance like a fucking circus animal for people and then beg on my knees I'm entertaining enough to keep alive so I can do it over and over again
#seth speaks#neg#angry parts arent vaguing tumblr ppl its mostly irl stuff like thats the issue thats where i need the most help
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As much as I knew it was going to end like this..i mean it was never going to end any other way. That man ran away for 20 years because of how he felt. And although I got why he did it, the frustration that I feel towards In is also sadness. I don't know I missed it, but did they ever explain as to why In preferred to be alone. Did it go over my head? I mean this man has been alone for 20 fucking years, running, hiding, disappearing for 20 fucking years. He lives in that big house that he had designed in the mountains, alone, for 20 years. He has no one, he doesn't even visit the villagers that live across the bridge from him. The only relationship that he has is with his coworker/housekeeper/bulter I'm not sure what that man is to him to be honest, but my point is that hes no one who he is close with. He has chosen that over and over and over and over again.
He has had love literally thrown at him, the deep kind, the kind that makes you question and realize how love works, the bone deep kind that leaves scars and wounds and an ache for the person. The all consuming kind that has you thinking of no one else but your person. He has had that twice now.
And I got why he rejected it the first time. But the second time...
He would rather give up everything he wants so that the person who has said you disgust them can what exactly?... just what not surrender yourself and be loved.
And Mol blames him as if it was hit fault that Siam loves In. She blames In for making Wang want to leave as if they haven't been fighting about that same topic before In was even in the picture. Wang wants freedom. And I'm not a mother, but I can understand you not wanting your children to leave you, being alone when your so use to caring for others can be a struggle, but its a struggle that can be managed. Why would you continued to trap your son all because you can't handle being alone. How is that fair to Wang? In the long run how will that be fair to you. He's going to end up one day leaving you. It going to happen, it has to happen. Mol delaying it doesn't mean it's not going to happen.
I feel so bad for Wang, but at the same time its like, what did you expect. My brave, brave boy, you cannot make homes out of people.
And I'm not going to lie, I thought it was just infatuation, but the more it went on, the more I was like...fuck I think he actually does love this man. I hope Wang finds someone who is just as brave as he is.
I'm sorry this was a mess. I'm just having a lot of thoughts that are incomplete. Anyway, this was a good good show and I'm so glad I watched it. I thought I would want another season of this, but I think I like the way it ended. Anyway, its 10/10 for me.
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Favorite Cats Moment?
Oof, that's a hard one.
If you're asking in regards to which moment I usually watch the most often, and fast forward to if applicable, and that is very near and dear to me, it would be the entirety of "Gus the Theatre Cat" from beginning to end - interlude number not withstanding, just the bookend bits. Phenomenal. Nothing like it. Especially when that poor cat is staring up into the rafters with tears in his eyes coming to the crashing realization that everything he loved at one point is never going to be the same again and only exists in his memories - nothing like that.
Character moment? Again I'm a sucker for anything Gus does in his short time on, and have a very soft spot for Asparagus sweeping in with "There's a man over there" and then old-man-in-training Munkustrap saddling up behind him and the absolute *ire* the *gall* - when it's sped through I get *sad*
If you're asking favourite of all time, as in it is quintessential CATS for me and if they aren't done well I feel actual disappointment, there are a couple:
-"Jellicle Songs for Jellicle Cats", the whole thing really because it's a great pump up number (and if it falls flat tbh the rest of the show is in trouble), the first song I ever heard from this musical more than 20 years ago, and has so much personality about it when the performers sell it, both in individual vocals and together - but I am especially fond of when they do the harmonies during the chorus which you can hear the clearest in productions like, say, Mexico in 1991. If I could eat a piece of music, it would be that.
-The "Boys Step" section of the "Jellicle Ball" but those notes better be *crisp* and everyone has to be on that exact beat because it's just so *fun* when it's done correctly.
-The musical swells in "The Moments of Happiness" where Deuteronomy's voice *booms* across the theatre and the performers on stage arch their spines or tremble and it seems to resonate through each and every one of them. That is *chills* territory if done well.
-Jemima/Sillabub's second interlude in "Memory (Reprise)", but specifically beginning right at "endless masquerading" (which is like, as a side note, still something that resonates so deeply with me as a line - even the original inspiration of "With the other masquerades/That time resumes" like...girl) and bleeding into Grizabella's own musical swell - if those voices *fit* together and harmonize working to that crescendo, that is almost spiritual in its execution.
-The final note of "The Ad-dressing of Cats" where all the voices come together and they reach towards the sky, where Deuteronomy's can be heard again soaring underneath it, sheesh. Powerful. Amazing. Show stopping (literally).
#jellicles ask because jellicles dare#storyweaverofgondor#i'm a vocals type of person if you didn't catch that#i would also add when the golden guy and his golden wife interact at any given moment in time#but *unfortunately* i have been robbed of that#(kidding but am i)
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Man, Jerry Lewis sucks. He was not funny. Dean’s reaction shots were funnier than anything Jerry ever did.
And Frank and Dean were blood brothers and life partners. Their relationship is 100x better than any Jerry Lewis nonsense.
Humor is often subjective and I wouldn't criticize a person (or France) for finding Jerry Lewis funny, but I will say that I'm in pretty much the same boat as you. I don't find him funny and he/whatever character(s) he played make me so uncomfortable that I just cannot watch him. The voice alone makes me squirm.
On the relationship question, I feel much more confident making strong assertions. (RIP my inbox for that choice).
Just from a cursory view, Jerry and Dean were together for ten years, during a significant portion of which their relationship was more or less dysfunctional. We also don't have a great sense of their personal closeness, because most of our information about their relationship comes only from one side (ie Jerry) with an agenda of its own to push. Meanwhile, Frank and Dean met the same year Dean met Jerry, and were in some sort of professional partnership/contact for about 35 years, friends for 45. Literally Dean's last public appearance was to wish Frank a happy 75th birthday.
Jerry was always very invested in downplaying the importance and depth of Dean's relationship with Frank. I mean, it's not unexpected when you see that he titled his book about Dean, published in 2005, Dean & Me: A Love Story. The book is hilariously un-self aware but that could be its own 10k word analysis. Suffice to say that he describes himself, post-break up, as the person that was "closer to Dean Martin than anyone else" and Dean as “my partner and best friend", asserting a claim on him long after 20 years of radio silence and another 20 of occasional awkward interactions.
Whereas he argued that "where Frank was concerned, Dean could never totally let down his guard. And — in a not totally healthy way — Frank was drawn to that reserve." Never mind that he wasn't anywhere near close enough to Dean post-1956 to know jack about the workings of his personal relationship with Frank, the idea of Jerry Fucking Lewis criticizing anyone for having unhealthy interpersonal relationships is so deranged it's laughable. (Oh yeah, and Frank was the one who engineered Dean and Jerry's 'reunion' in 1976 and convinced Dean to do it/stayed with him through the whole appearance).
Professionally, jettisoning Jerry was one of the best things that ever happened to Dean. He went from second fiddle straightman in a popular duo to a genuine solo star, with hit records, popular TV shows, blockbuster movies, and in person residencies (with the Rat Pack and alone) that regularly sold out. Frank was hugely supportive of this and did everything he could to personally show it for Dean, including making an appearance on his first television show. In contrast to many of the later Martin-Lewis sets, Dean and Frank were known for working well as a team, and the Rat Pack movie sets, like Oceans Eleven, were notorious mostly for being good fun. Frank conducted the orchestra and picked the musicians for Dean's most critically acclaimed albums.
On a personal level they were likely each other's most important relationships. Frank had mental health issues. He was open about it: "Being an 18-karat manic-depressive and having lived a life of violent emotional contradictions, I have an over-acute capacity for sadness as well as elation." Dean supported him through those and his sense of humor/natural placidity were a huge boon to Frank in bad times. When Frank's mother, whom he was very close to, died in a plane crash, Dean stayed with him through the search for the wreckage, helped him through the funeral, etc. And when Dean's son, Dean Paul, died in a flight training accident years later, Frank did the same. He tried his best to pull him out of his depressive spiral.
It's evident in the everyday, too. They had neighboring houses in Pam Springs and raised their kids together. Frank had matching pinkie rings made for them and Dean never took his off. Jeanne, Dean's wife, said that "Frank adored Dean, Frank wanted to be with Dean all the time" and Deana, his daughter, called Frank his "closest friend." Frank was the last person Dean ever spoke to before he died, and Frank told his bodyguard, who asked why he was laughing so much after the end of their conversation, that even though Dean was the ill one he had managed to make Frank feel better: "That cuckoo bastard is still telling jokes…He’s sick and he’s still making wisecracks. I love him."
"We’re practically like brothers. Everything we do, we do together. We always keep in touch with each other and our families are always together. Well, we’re brothers. Everything is Frank and Dean."-Dean Martin
“Dean has been like the air I breathe, always there, always close by. He was my brother not by blood, but by choice.”-Frank Sinatra
#jerry was the ill considered and borderline emotionally abusive boyfriend of his 20s#frank was the damn husband#dean martin#frank sinatra#not the stones#ask response#anonymous#((I would say I was more pissed off about this than I expected. but I know myself. and the special rage that that analysis brings me))
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Heyo, it’s me !!!
I’m literally DYING to learn your top soundtrack list, the conversations we’ve had have given me nothing but absolute satisfaction and I’m looking forward to having more material to yell about 👀<333 please go WILD it can get ad long as you want I’ll read it and listen to it ALL
STRIKE UP THE BAND (PART ONE OF FOUR)
let me preface this by saying I have so damn many favourites that I will inevitably forget MANY of them. I'm coasting purely on ✨vibes✨ here. this will be chaos.
elias -- person of interest / ramin djawadi
i tried not to put this one first. i truly did. it is INEVITABLE. now I've linked other tracks by djawadi before bc I am physically incapable of not loving his work, but THIS ONE MAKES ME WANNA BREAK BRICKS OVER MY HEAD. the scene was glorious, and the music perfectly captures it. the scene is a massive spoiler for s1 so if that's not your jam then go careful. the harsher strings at 1:20, and the build to the 2min mark?? I'm BREAKING STUFF. i'm not sure if my attachment started with the music or the scene or a combination but I don't care to detangle them, to be quite frank, i'm happy going absolutely insane forever over it
a kind word and a friendly face -- the sandman / david buckley
i'm cackling a lil at myself bc of COURSE there had to be something from sandman here. i'm nothing if not predictable. and of course I had to pick death's theme. we're going to pointedly ignore the fact i'm in love with her and focus INSTEAD on how beautifully soft her theme is, how gentle and warm, how serene. I always know a piece of music is special when I have to pause what i'm watching to process what I've heard, and this was that. the scene let the music take centre stage too, which I find is remarkably rare, and i appreciate it so much. its sentiment is crying, but not as mourning, as the deepest, most heartfelt love. it's bittersweet grief. a sad parting with someone beloved. i'm not crying you're crying
last man standing -- the order: 1886 / jason graves
OHOHOHOH THIS ONE. okay so IF you do end up playing this game, I need to know. this is from the final scene and let me tell you when I say it HURTS i mean it HURTS. the start is lovely, matches the rest of the score with some tremulous notes to show the conflict--a little of galahad's theme in there too, but then the low stuff starts, and internally i am SCREAMING bc i know that's coming. this game annoyed so many people for being short but it was an incredible, short window into a rich and dark world full of tension and war, and at the two minute mark you feel it come back down to the people. it narrows its cope back down to the emotional core of the piece and i will never forgive them for making me watch this scene and hear this music and feel inevitability the way they made me feel it.
beyond the horizon -- a plague tale: innocence / olivier derivière
time for that ORGAN MUSIC NOW I could link half of this score, to be honest, and several of its tracks (+related ones) are in my honourable mentions list, so I don't overload this one. this slow progression in this one absolutely floors me every time. the heartbeat type percussion at two minutes is strong enough to rip my heart from my chest. the vocals that join a minute later sound as I leave my body. this track is a slow and weary march towards a terrifying, eclipsed future, bright sun blocked by the obstacles between the present and safety. it's putting one foot in front of the other anyway, and holding out a shaking hand for the people that walk with you. if i never hear this performed live at dusk in the bleak autumn, candlelight teasing and chasing the shadows...sigh i'm going to stop waxing poetic
whatever comes -- horizon: forbidden west / oleska lozowchuk
i have a weirdly hard time picking a favourite track from horizon, both forbidden west and zero dawn, because they all blend together--not in a bland kind of way, in a way that makes it feel like a place, not a sound. this one is a track I keep coming back to because it's so so lovely. aloy's theme interwoven with the main game theme...the machine theme....I'm back there right now........
#req 🎻#asks#audio tag#FOUR POSTS WORTH OF MUSIC. FOUR POSTS#WHY DID I DO THIS.#the editing is a nightmare. the html hates me. i have picked FIFTEEN separate fights with the tumblr text editor.#i've told it to meet me out back in the alley so i can kick its ass PROPERLY.#set to incredible fight music obviously#SIDE NOTE i love you for this. i've never listed all of my favourites before. this endeavour has had listening to the BEST STUFF
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In case anybody was wondering how my week has been going, i am here to offer this inside look into my life. Literally a day after I sent the message where he mentioned Queer Eye, one of the guys from the group announced that he is leaving the show and he has been sad all week. He’s been watching the episodes of the show for the past 3 days because he is sad about him leaving since I guess it was one of his favorites. And i guess to honor(?) him for the fact that he is leaving the show, he decided to rearrange MY furniture in MY living room in the middle of the night. He couldn’t actually move anything big except this one like armchair type of thing I have that came with like a tiny foot rest, that I actually hate so i just use it as an extra seat. Anyway, he moved it to be on the opposite side of where it was before which okay, i guess. But the problem is that he decided to put the foot rest in front of the armchair which made it to be in front of the door that leads into the yard. Do you see where this is going? Because he somehow did not. He wakes up pretty early because of his meds and then usually he gets his coffee and goes outside to have his little alone time. Well on the way out everything went well and then I came downstairs, saw what he did and called him which lead to him being excited like a golden retriever to show me what he did and trying to run inside, FORGETTING that HE placed that damn foot rest almost directly in front of the door and he flew over it like he was in a cartoon. And it would’ve been hilarious if he didnt try to save himself by putting his arm up to catch himself which resulted in him breaking his wrist. So now he has a cast on for like 2 months. The only fun parts about it all were: when he fell, we didn’t immediately realize he broke it and all he did was yell out ‘fuck you netflix’ so loudly my neighbor heard him which is kinda funny in a way. And when we went to the ER, one of his old doctors was there, saw him and went 'What did you do now? Please tell me that show you’re watching didnt cause this’ And my brother went ‘Don’t bring Brian into this, it was a different gay show this time.‘ The doctor then made a joke that maybe he should start watching “straight tv” since he keeps ending up in the ER. And this dumbass forgot about his arm being broken and like slammed/clutched his chest to be dramatic and went ‘sounds borin- FUCKING HELL MOTHERFUCKER THAT HURT!’ This all happened in the waiting room btw and yes, everyone did stare at him. When we were leaving the doctor was telling me about his check up next week and then went ‘good luck with *waves his hand towards my brother talking to a random old lady behind me* all that, seems like you need it.’ My favorite part was when he said bye to my brother, he was giving him instructions and he goes ‘now when you get home, lay down on a couch and don’t move’ and my brother goes ‘for like a day or the weekend or how long?’ And the doctor goes ‘try forever. I have a feeling it’s the only way to keep you alive’ I’m glad other people are starting to see my pain. And just so you know: he is absolutely terrified (lol) to tell our mom. So he’s trying to come up with a plan on how to do it because they have a FaceTime scheduled for tomorrow where they both eat lunch and talk about random shit. Which includes QAF!!! They made a compromise: he can talk about the show but she puts 20 minutes on a timer and when it goes off, he has to immediately shut up about the show. And she actually pays attention and even asks questions! OH! And when we got home from the hospital, he had a package waiting for him that deserves its own separate message because i thought it was the coolest/cutest thing ever!
Oh my god. He broking his freaking wrist? I am dying. And over ANOTHER queer show? Admittedly, Bobby is the hardest working of the bunch. He literally does renovation on people's homes in the same time that Karamo takes them to play paintball and Antoni smashes an avocado on bread.
I almost wish you had footage of his fall. My spouse went ass over head over my SIL's dog two Christmases ago and their ring camera caught the entire thing. It is my favorite thing ever. (They are unharmed, both spouse and dog).
The doctor is OVER your brother (but I think also entertained, like this is the highlight of his week).
And look at your mom compromising and showing interest! I hope she doesn't kill him because we are dying to know how he reacts to S5.
Thank you for this update! I had folks wondering if I had heard from you recently.
#ask winderlylandchime#dear sweet anon#queer as folk#a straight man watches qaf us 2000 in the year of our lord 2023
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