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inkskinned · 10 months

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at some point it's just like. do they even fucking like the thing they're asking AI to make? "oh we'll just use AI for all the scripts" "we'll just use AI for art" "no worries AI can write this book" "oh, AI could easily design this"

like... it's so clear they've never stood in the middle of an art museum and felt like crying, looking at a piece that somehow cuts into your marrow even though the artist and you are separated by space and time. they've never looked at a poem - once, twice, three times - just because the words feel like a fired gun, something too-close, clanging behind your eyes. they've never gotten to the end of the movie and had to arrive, blinking, back into their body, laughing a little because they were holding their breath without realizing.

"oh AI can mimic style" "AI can mimic emotion" "AI can mimic you and your job is almost gone, kid."

... how do i explain to you - you can make AI that does a perfect job of imitating me. you could disseminate it through the entire world and make so much money, using my works and my ideas and my everything.

and i'd still keep writing.

i don't know there's a word for it. in high school, we become aware that the way we feel about our artform is a cliche - it's like breathing. over and over, artists all feel the same thing. "i write because i need to" and "my music is how i speak" and "i make art because it's either that or i stop existing." it is such a common experience, the violence and immediacy we mean behind it is like breathing to me - comes out like a useless understatement. it's a cliche because we all feel it, not because the experience isn't actually persistent. so many of us have this ... fluttering urgency behind our ribs.

i'm not doing it for the money. for a star on the ground in some city i've never visited. i am doing it because when i was seven i started taking notebooks with me on walks. i am doing it because in second grade i wrote a poem and stood up in front of my whole class to read it out while i shook with nerves. i am doing it because i spent high school scribbling all my feelings down. i am doing it for the 16 year old me and the 18 year old me and the today-me, how we can never put the pen down. you can take me down to a subatomic layer, eviscerate me - and never find the source of it; it is of me. when i was 19 i named this blog inkskinned because i was dramatic and lonely and it felt like the only thing that was actually permanently-true about me was that this is what is inside of me, that the words come up over everything, coat everything, bloom their little twilight arias into every nook and corner and alley

"we're gonna replace you". that is okay. you think that i am writing to fill a space. that someone said JOB OPENING: Writer Needed, and i wrote to answer. you think one raindrop replaces another, and i think they're both just falling. you think art has a place, that is simply arrives on walls when it is needed, that is only ever on demand, perfect, easily requested. you see "audience spending" and "marketability" and "multi-line merch opportunity"

and i see a kid drowning. i am writing to make her a boat. i am writing because what used to be a river raft has long become a fully-rigged ship. i am writing because you can fucking rip this out of my cold dead clammy hands and i will still come back as a ghost and i will still be penning poems about it.

it isn't even love. the word we use the most i think is "passion". devotion, obsession, necessity. my favorite little fact about the magic of artists - "abracadabra" means i create as i speak. we make because it sluices out of us. because we look down and our hands are somehow already busy. because it was the first thing we knew and it is our backbone and heartbreak and everything. because we have given up well-paying jobs and a "real life" and the approval of our parents. we create because - the cliche again. it's like breathing. we create because we must.

you create because you're greedy.

#every time someones like ''AI will replace u" im like. u will have to fucking KILL ME #there is no replacement here bc i am not filling a position. i am just writing #and the writing is what i need to be doing #writeblr #this probably doesn't make sense bc its sooo frustrating i rarely speak it the way i want to #edited for the typo wrote it and then was late to a meeting lol #i love u people who mention my typos genuinely bc i don't always catch them!!!! :) it is doing me a genuine favor!!!#my friend says i should tell you ''thank you beta editors'' but i don't know what that means #i made her promise it isn't a wolf fanfiction thing. so if it IS a wolf thing she is DEAD to me (just kidding i love her)#hey PS PS PS ??? if ur reading this thinking what it's saying is ''i am financially capable of losing this'' ur reading it wrong #i write for free. i always have. i have worked 5-7 jobs at once to make ends meet.#i did not grow up with access or money. i did not grow up with connections or like some kind of excuse #i grew up and worked my fucking ASS OFF. and i STILL!!! wrote!!! on the side!!! because i didn't know how not to!!!#i do not write for money!!!! i write because i fuckken NEED TO #i could be in the fucking desert i could be in the fuckken tundra i could be in total darkness #and i would still be writing pretentious angsty poetry about it #im not in any way saying it's a good thing. i'm not in any way implying that they're NOT tryna kill us #i'm saying. you could take away our jobs and we could go hungry and we could suffer #and from that suffering (if i know us) we'd still fuckin make art.#i would LOVE to be able to make money doing this! i never have been able to. but i don't NEED to. i will find a way to make my life work #even if it means being miserable #but i will not give up this thing. for the whole world.

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bigfatbreak · 15 days

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Birds of a Feather previous / next

#my art #feralnette au #birds of a feather #long tags #sorry I went apeshit in the tags #LETS SAY IT ALL TOGETHER NOW #I - M - A - G - OOOOOOOOO #its fun drawing marinette's back to Alya and having her appear stout and unstoppable and totally logical #and then you see her face and she's like two seconds from completely snapping and is keeping it together by a thread #as a note just because mari feels very certainly abt smth doesnt mean she's right. feelings can be valid and also irrational #in the throes of grief she decided it was better to be alone than to lose someone again so she started pulling away #and lila made pulling away very very very easy to do #shes also vaguely aware she's being unfair in pinning this on alya which is why she started spinning the drain on cockmoth again #legitimately all the shit that's happened to her wouldn't have been so catastrophic if he was never in the picture and she knows it #but the bitterness of her bestie choosing a fantastic liar over her at the worst of times stiiiiiings #alya's personal timing was bad but lila really took advantage of the fact that marinette had been acting off and weird #she basically clocked marinette as being unstable from SOMETHING and made up a lie about her #knowing she wouldn't have the strength to defend herself #between her social life going tachy bc of lila and losing fu in a way that felt like personhood death marinette was really put on the spot #and alya doing her thing of busting in there and assuming her bias is correct was a terrible combo #essentially marinette is highly unstable and alya is just realizing that #busting in and giving her a lecture when she's slightly hysterical and definitely delirious from exhaustion is NOT the way #to show her she's self sabotaging #cuz thats just gonna make her double down on self sabotaging. bc marinette will not accept that she is also a CHIIIIILD

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mydairpercabeth · 2 months

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applestruda · 4 months

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"You Have Succeeded Your Task"

#im so #uh #normal #about this guy #cant believe the two sunflower folks (pearl and scar) were the last two #crazzyyy #love this earth winner #goodtimeswithscar #gtws fanart #pearl is there but its only her hand so i wont tag her #secret life spoilers #secret life #secret life smp #traffic smp #trafficblr #cw blood #my art

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junotter · 5 days

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Part 1 of my modern avatar au, the fire nation

#avatar the last airbender #atla #atla azula #atla zuko #atla mai #atla ty lee #mailee #because they in messy yuri in this au #atla modern au #technically all of them work under ozai's company in some form #azula of course is very close to power zuko is at a lower position than her #mai is under her father's department which is in ozai's company #ty lee is in an idol group sponsored by ozai's company #mai visual kei girlie in her free time duh #zuko also depicted when he finally gets out of ozai's company and works at Iroh's cafe #ive got like a decent amount of lore built up so far around this AU so dont worry sokka katara aang toph and suki have places in this world #also its set on our earth so real life locations not the nations

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risibledeer · 26 days

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SPOILER"S!!!! She's not just a heart breaker she's a soul crusher. also CLeo needs her own kim possible theme song i think. also guys guys the winner of real life is a dead person - deep stuff out of context lol

#its a bit messy cause i don't have the time for a fully finished illustration so i just kinda cleaned up the sketch lol #i hope i captured her badassery #life series #hermitcraft #trafficblr #hermitblr #life smp #zombiecleo #tw blood

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umblrspectrum · 26 days

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hi heres art so you pay attention to me now go read the tags

#ive been rewatching episode 7 like its the only thing on youtube and made note of many things #first off. the solver can only have one host. nori mentions skyn wants to kill off all the other solver hosts (with the dds) and disregards #the idea of both uzi and doll being its current host when they get chased #plus the main solver possessions only occur when skyn is out of the picture (the fightt in ep 7 is only after n decapitates “tessa”)#solver uzi is possible too but i dont count her cause she doesn't have the yellow #personal theory is that its more an instinctual response to overheating or something and not full on possession #second off nori calls the solver cyn. how does she know that name #cyn was on earth and only showed up to copper 9 recently and i presume nori's been here her whole life #it probably wasn't the other dds cause none of them made it down and they're all more savage beasts #since cyn specifies n's team retained their personalities and that makes me think the other teams didnt #also also we should've immediately questioned tessa arriving in the same type of pod as the mds when they were revealed to not be sent by j #im running out of characters also the people who dont like when i use tags like this can bite me #murder drones #murder drones nori #artori? that sounds cool #ill probably just stick with nori though #i have so many solver heart refs now #art #episode 7 #murder drones episode 7 #murder drones episode 7 spoilers #using the same black for shadows as my lineart doesn't work when i have to draw thin things over it #murder drones spoilers

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sbeep · 8 months

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#baldur's gate 3 #bg3 #baldur's gate iii #spoiler #bg3 spoilers #Bg3 act 2 spoilers #love of my life apple of my eye succour of my--yknow #Ive been sitting on this for near a month i think its time to let her fly

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jamieleecvrtis · 6 months

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The Fall of the House of Usher CARLA GUGINO | The Masque of the Red Death

#tfothou #tfothouedit #carlaguginoedit #the fall of the house of usher #netflixedit #carla gugino #shes so hot like......#shes 52 btw #you see what happens when you live your life as an unbothered sex symbol #the show is kinda peaks and valleys #like all the characters are caricatures to the point that mpst of them are insufferable #but its intentional bc...yknow #also that excludes Carla gugino and bruce greenwood....#absolutely chewing the scenery turning the party whenever theyre onscreen #id die for her #carla gugino you will always be famous #mygifs

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evercelle · 4 months

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merry merry christmas!!

#danganronpa v3 #ouma kokichi #saihara shuichi #saiouma #ever makes art #ever gifts #i wasnt originally gonna send holiday cards this year but i changed my mind last minute and had to paint this quickly...#happy holidays!! i hope everyone got their cards (or will soon!)#btw my mama saw the cards while i was writing them and instantly thought ouma was really suspicious. lmao #shes never seen a danganronpa in her life but its nice to know ouma instinctively incites suspicious. thats character

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tubbytarchia · 3 months

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Pearl and Cleo as requested via commission (Thank you so much!)

+ a little bonus

#pearlescentmoon #zombiecleo #trafficblr #not intended to be shippy but view as you wish(?)!!#This moment tugged so much at my heartstrings but like. so does Pearl in general in Double Life poor gal #and then Cleo burnt her bridge house down with intent to kill her dog but its okay we forgive Cleo because. It's Cleo. They can do that #my hands are really good I know. I do just draw blobs in the vague shapes of hands and I dont realize it until I've already finished it #commission #tubby art

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dovewingkinnie · 5 months

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an angel who saved a guy before he could die and vows to protect him and bring him joy

#no one was there to help him #when he was dying alone in his room #except for her #hes very sad but its ok #she is going to take him places so he can have fun!!#and finally enjoy himself #and relax #after he spent his whole life too scared to do anything #shes going to take him to see a pretty sunset #and show him how beautiful it is #oc #oc art

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boxesblr · 6 months

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replaying the clip of Cleo saying "etho doesn't take himself seriously at all, but he takes other people seriously. That's part of his charm" over and over again in my head. It's so clarifying to me

#zombiecleo #etho #ethoslab #hermitcraft #okay fine if you wanna be real im making tbis about etho as a life series character #playing face up cards on the table open and honest to cleo because he takes her seriously when she talks about loyalty #grian said he needed friends and etho said welcome home grian #bdubs seems like the fly in the ointment of the statement but when bdubs is talking about buildings and stairs etho takes him seriously #he cant take bdubs seriously when he talks about loyalty and defending him from the washed up allegations #because its about him its about etho it cant be sincere not really #anyway #just character thoughts

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applestruda · 6 months

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