Am I the asshole for outing my friend's relationship to their family?

I (25f) have a friend (30m). We aren't as close as we used to be, but we still hang out. I want to make it clear as this always comes up, I have NEVER wanted to date him. When I was 16 he had a crush on me, but NEVER asked me out. I always saw him as a brother, he saw me as a sister eventually.

His family loves me, and a few of them still believe me and him will end up together. He has went on to date other people and so have I; currently i am dating a guy (28m) who i think I'll marry. But that isn't here nor there. Me and my friend were hanging out (my bf was on his way but got stuck in traffic, tho it isnt uncommon for me and my friend to hang out without my bf as we have been friends for 10 years and done it prior to my relationship). While we were hanging out my friend dropped the bomb on me.

He has secretly been seeing someone and hadn't told anyone as he wanted to see how it went. I was excited for him! He has told his immediate family who it is, and told his extended family he is seeing someone but not who yet. Again, excited! Until he told me who it was.

It is a girl I babysat. She just turned 18 this week, but apparently they've been dating for 2 months. Her parents were aware (which in hindsight make sense why there were asking me about my friend a lot and why they mentioned her "growing up" and "getting a guy" in the same sentence- also, his and her family have known each other for a few years, meanwhile I've known her family my whole life) and they approved it (I verified later with them, and they gave the ok before she was 18). I felt sick.

I'm not sure what exact order happened next as it was a blur. I believe the order went me saying I thought I would be sick, my friend getting mad and yelling, and then me having a panic attack. However the panic attack could have come before the yelling. I had a panic attack because I have had adults take advantage of me when I was younger, and he knows this, and he knows I do NOT approve of those things at all.

My bf came home and obv was confused and protective of me. My friend got kicked out and I told my bf what happened after I calmed. He was also disgusted. I feel sick remembering when my friend had a crush on me, but he had never made any advances. My friend has always dated his age or women older then him.

This was last week. This past thurs (so four days later) I happened to run into his aunt and cousin at the store. They asked how I felt. I tried at first to just be all "my opinion doesn't matter. Good for him" just to get them out of my hair. They kept asking me. The cousin asked if I knew who it was. I must make it clear that I knew they had no clue who it was. They kept pestering me about it and I told them to drop it, but tjeh didn't. Finally the cousin asked if I had feelings for my friend. I blew up as they had been following me around the store. I told them "I dont give a fuck. I think he's a creep for dating someone still in high school."

Aunt was outraged. At him. Not me. Aunt had zero clue. Cousin was shocked. When I got home his other cousin from his uncle (not the same immediate fam) texted me asking if my friend was dating someone underage was true or not. I said she just turned 18 and left it at that.

I ignored it and was going to have a nice dinner with my bf when my phone blew up with calls and texts from my friend. I got called a bitch, a liar, etc. He was irate that I stole this and told his family. He claimed that I should have known better because I was outed as bi and how thst hurt me and he comforted me, I was hurting him the same. I told him it wasn't the same. He called me a ton of other names. My bf blocked him on my phone. I then got a text from the girl and she said "Aunt (she called me aunt because I babysat so often) I am super sad you did this. We won't be able to enjoy our relationship. You have hurt me personally".

That is where I wonder if I am the ahole. Apparently the extended family is pissed. I am pissed. But I have a pit in my stomach wondering if I did the right thing or not, because this girl MY NIECE (not by blood) is distraught. So AITA?

What are these acronyms?

can i just ask you abt all of them /j

how about....love poetry jaydick? and the girl gang one i love the title <333

waffle!!!!! ily thank you for asking, i am happy to gush about these two<3 <3 <3

so, love poetry was honestly just scenes of jason reciting poetry to dick and then four scenes later i realized i had a plot idea and the rest is history lol

the basic premise is that dick *thinks* he's hallucinating jason (specifically and often as robin) and is just not mentally well about anything. except! it is actually the ghost of jason! and ghost jason is looking out for dick, or trying to anyways.

“You can feel guilty over that, sure, be an idiot,” Jason huffs and [Dick] can feel the familiar exasperation rolling off of him. “Or, you can do something about it.”  His words make him pause--they always do, make him pause, make him choke the rage and grief out--but he tilts his head and just breathes. He thinks. He’s clever, his little wing is always so clever.  Or maybe, he just knows him too well. “Thanks, Jay,” He murmurs, and lets his fingers curl around him.    “A man takes his sadness and / throws it away / but then he’s still left with his hands.” Jason finishes, a wispy whisper against his skin, hands pushing him towards the ledge.  When he leaps, cold determination and the ever present rage in his gut, Jason laughs.  It carries him forward. It makes him fly.  [boot theory, richard siken]

so for a while, ghost jason is reciting poetry/literature to dick and trying to keep him alive but then, jason's body wakes up, crawls out of his grave and is found by talia. ghost jason realizes shit is about to go down and not in a good way and gives a very vague, somewhat cryptic warning to dick before disappearing (aka talia dips jason in the pit and restores his ghost/soul).

and then a few years later, red hood shows up in gotham.

that's all i have so far, but i think it will have a hopeful ending. it's gonna be messy and dark first. i've been having fun plugging in some of my favorite quotes tho<3

and then girl gang girl gang GIRL GANG!!!

okay so this one, i'm honestly excited to write !!!!! but i have so little so far lmao. anyways. it's an exploration of the fact that jason is often impacted and influenced by women. Aka Jason has a (bad) good habit of being a feminist girlboss-malewife and his team-ups always end up as all girls plus him.

it starts during his training with the league, having a team up with lady shiva and cheshire, plus his whole thing with talia. i've also been thinking of combining this with another idea i've had about, instead of jason meeting and being close with damian during his league days, he was actually closer with mara al ghul (damian's cousin), so there's that.

then jason's besties with essence and ducra at the all-caste and also befriends rose wilson during his league days. then after the whole red hood debacle, he's close with faye gunn, and when he starts to dabble in team ideas (the budding outlaws!) he meets and befriends duela dent, artemis, and later isabel ardila; has a weird reunion with barbara, which then leads to him meeting stephanie (who decides jason is her new best friend). he also causes some chaos with selina and her team while in gotham.

i've also been thinking of adding a super, just not sure if i want it to be kara or not; also bette kane is a big contender (just not sure how to introduce her yet); and then i've been thinking about adding blackfire (komand'r) because she's so fascinating to me and i think she might match the whole outlaws thing a bit better than kori.

there will be cameos from kate kane, huntress, barbara + cass, onyx, donna troy, and harley, but i really want to focus on jason, cheshire, rose, duela, artemis, and steph (and hopefully bette, komand'r, and mara).

also, here's a text message snippet!

red hood: love getting sweet messages like this <3 *insert screenshot of text message* >black mask/roman: I don’t ever want to hear from you. You terrify me. Seeing your name come across my screen throws me into a panic< spoiler!alert!: why does black mask have your number???? ravager: there is something deeply wrong with you >>reply to ravager: red hood: :kissy face emoji: >>reply to spoiler!alert! red hood: i don't talk to snitches sorry spoiler!alert!: :sad face: not a snitch red hood: bestie you’re fucking robin or batgirl idk which, i don’t wanna hear ‘im not a snitch!’ ravager: shit are you fucking batgirl???? cheshire: :eye emoji: >>reply to cheshire: ravager: stay tf out of this spoiler!alert!: are YOU? red hood: -cheshire ten bucks she's sweatin rn >>reply to red hood cheshire: make it twenty >>reply to cheshire ravager: you two are the WORST >>reply to ravager red hood: stop being a disaster bi stereotype and we won’t have to have this conversation all the time cheshire: answer the question -ravager ravager: no i don't think i will spoiler!alert!: i'm calling batgirl >>reply to spoiler!alert!: red hood: snitch behavior cheshire: major snitch vibes

listen im so excited for this one but i actually need to sit down and write it lmaooo (may also need an actual plot idk)

thank you thank you thank you for asking bestieeeee ily <3 <3 <3

wip ask game here!

TW - body dysmorphia, reference to csa & cocsa i need some advice on how to deal with a few feelings. hi mods, hope all is well so recently i got my hair dyed for the 2nd time since my first hair dye around late 2021. at that time, my mom told me that she would not let me dye my hair again, but i had it dyed once again and my mom, although let me do it (she was present with me), throughout the process she looked very tensed, upset, and mumbled about a few times abt the chemicals and everything. i felt super guilty at this point, but to me dyeing my hair is a form of self expression. i know it's harmful, but my hair is one part of my appearance i like, and it's the only part of my body that i don't feel ashamed of. she looked very exasperated. after we got home that night, around quite late ( i stay up late to finish up some work somedays ) she came into my room and spoke to me in a very, uh sulky type of manner i say? like she was distressed and came to me saying that she hadn't been able to sleep for the past 2 hours and felt very bad for letting my dye my hair again, that she was a bad mother for letting me damage my hair. for context, i've got very thick and voluminous hair which i'm proud of. she spoke like she was about to cry, and then told me she suffered a lot while watching my hair getting dyed and then will suffer looking at me everyday. this really upset me. she joined her hands and told me to please not dye again, which i promised her before all of this. look, i totally get her perspective and understand it's hard for her to watch me damage my hair ( i haven't dyed it fully. only the ends. ) and right now, she's around 50 and has hair loss and greying which she often feels sad about, so i get why it's hard on her. however since then i've had a hard time feeling good about my appearance since i'm obese, and i don't like looking at my new hair either. i feel guilty thinking of how my mom talked to me. she did it out of genuine concern, but it's triggered an episode of body dysmorphia and and i don't feel good about myself anymore. this also brought up some thoughts about how i've grown up being SA'd and almost raped by my elder cousin, and how i've told absolutely nobody in my life abt it. i thought about how if simply dyeing my hair caused her so much distress that she couldn't sleep that night then how much pain it would cause her if she ever found out how the nephew she's so close to assaulted me. i can't fathom how much that would hurt her.

when she said she will suffer looking at me everyday, i know she didn't mean it in that literal sense but it made me feel like expressing myself will only cause her pain. i've had some bad dreams over my SA and so since then. we didn't have a fight, or anything, and we've been acting the way we normally do, nothing wrong between us. but occasionally she'll look at my hair and say nothing. my mom's a great person and i love her a lot, but the conversation as a whole is just painful because of what the aftereffect is.

that's all, have a good day

Hi anon,

I'm so sorry about what happened. I can understand how her concerns about your hair has contributed to your body dysmorphia as well as your experience being assaulted.

As someone whose mom also had to warm up to the idea of me dying my hair, the thing is that hair grows back, so the damage isn't permanent and so it shouldn't be taken as seriously as your mom is taking it. It's possible that another reason why she feels this way is because she may, like many parents, want a sense of control over you because autonomy means you're growing up, and that can be hard for parents to accept. But it's also not an excuse to limit your freedom, especially when it comes to your body. Your body is your own and it's not up to her to dictate your bodily autonomy. She should let you have the one thing you don't hate and let you express yourself the way you want.

I also want to suggest that while I definitely see where you're coming from in terms of like, if she reacts this way then how will she react to more serious matters, they are very different subjects and so her response may be very different as well. But it is important to take into consideration how she responds to things like these so you can refine your approach when you feel comfortable having future conversations with her.

It's okay to dye your hair and you don't deserve to feel self conscious about it. I'm sure it looks great.

I hope I could help. Please let us know if you need anything.

-Bun

hey! if your still taking requests could you do a Hawkmoon fluff maybe of her finding the grim reaper cover up tatto of the moon tat :)) thankyou

Hii! I'm so sorry about taking so long!! this is a bit short but I've started a few more hawkmoon one shots and I'll be posting those soon too :) This one is super short but the rest will be longer, I promise! I hope this is what you had in mind!

tw: cursing & some sad Eli. I think that's it. (set somewhere after season 4?) wc: 865 —

"Grim reaper?" Moon asked after tossing her boyfriend's shirt to the side, pulling back from her position on his lap to examine his now-uncovered chest. He didn’t even have to see her to know that she was smiling, he was quite familiar with the sound, but this was probably the first time that it stung.

The tone of her question was not quite what he expected. Or wanted.

If he were honest, Eli hoped that there'd be at least a twinge of sadness in her voice. He hoped the tattoo had meant as much to her as it did him. The idea of it meaning nothing hurt more than he expected. "Oh... yeah. I'm sorry." 

"No! No, I'm glad.” She said, biting her lower lip and taking a moment to think. “I like your tattoos, but they should be for you, you know? Not for me or anyone else." 

"Does that– did you not like it?" He asked, hoping to hide the disappointment that was weighing on his chest.

"No! I did.” Moon assured him, placing a quick kiss on his lips. “It was sweet. You're sweet. But you should probably never get a girl's name tattooed on your body. Unless it's like your mom or something." She giggled, readjusting herself on his lap so that they were close again. This time she laid her head in the crook of his neck, opposite his tattoo. 

He tried not to make noise when she began tracing the dark lines on his skin. Moon was always gentle– that was something he loved. Right now, however, there were chills running up and down his spine and all he could think about was how close they were. It’d been a long time since he’d felt her against him, all warm and giggly and perfect. He wanted to revel in the feeling, but he couldn’t fight the ache that grew in his stomach.

"You aren't mad that I covered it up?" 

"Why would I be mad?" 

"Well, I kinda did it to spite you." 

"If you'd done it to spite me, you would've shown me, silly." 

He was glad that she couldn’t see his face. Maybe he didn’t do it to spite her. The thought of any other reason almost felt worse. He was so angry that he needed to hide it, to change something else to avoid the pain of getting dumped. Having his heart broken so easily reminded him of what he was so desperate to not be, the sting of the needle was a relaxant by that point. And it made him feel bigger, so the decision was easy.

"Oh, yeah. I guess so." He said, mentally cringing at how embarrassingly sad he sounded. Leave it to Eli fucking Moskowitz to be a bummer with a girl straddling him. 

Moon sat upright again, and the knots started tying themselves in his stomach. Thinking about the way he used to act– the anger, the impulsivity, the cruelty. It still made him cringe and he couldn't believe she still wanted him.

"Are you okay, darling? What's wrong?" 

“I don’t know, I just… everything went to shit. I ruined everything and I just wanted to show you how much you meant to me, and I messed that up too.”

When his eyes met hers again, she had a comforting smile on her lips. Not wide and cheerful like the one she usually had, but a softer, warmer one that she only wore when he was in a bad place. “Baby.” She whispered, eyes closed as she pressed her forehead against his. “I don’t need some tattoo to know that you love me. You show me that by being here.” 

She pulled away quickly and her nose was crinkled, “And by not karate-chopping people, of course.”

He let out a breathy laugh. “You make it sound so embarrassing.”

“My cousin laughed when I told her that my boyfriend was a karate champion.” 

“Oh.”

He knew it was silly, childish even, to let something like that weigh down on his self-esteem. He learned to enjoy the spotlight, to enjoy the feeling of being seen, and to use it to his advantage. His life used to be a constant yearning for darkness–being so afraid of being noticed that it physically ailed him– but that person was long gone. 

“Well damn–” He started, hoping to make a joke of the moment. The goal was to make it seem like he could brush it off, as if every little critique didn’t slowly pull apart the mask that he’s braved for so long.

“And then she cracked her phone when I showed her what you look like.”

“Oh.”

“I mean, like, bad. It slipped out of her hand when we got on the escalator. Wasn’t pretty. That’s what she gets for being a little bitch.”

He laughed again. He had too. There was such a sweetness to her, even when she was angry. Her voice was like honey; sticky sweet and supple, he would argue that it was healing. He realized, Who gives a shit what anyone else thinks? 

He had her, he had his friends, and he had his family. That was all he needed.

—

My dad passed away a few days go. And I'm having... A lot of conflicting feelings about it.

Very long and very personal rambling/venting below the cut. I just feel like I need to get this off my chest.

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I'm sad, obviously; I have never been able to handle death well. I keep talking about him in the present tense and it hits me with an empty feeling. Seeing all his stuff and photos around my mom's house was like a punch to the gut and I couldn't stop the tears forming.

But I've been finding that I'm mostly just... Angry. Angry that I had just been over there not even two weeks ago to visit them while he was bedridden in the hospital, given false hope that he was starting to recover. Angry that he went in such a painful, unceremonious way, afraid and alone in a rehab center instead of getting to come back home and go peacefully with the company of his wife and dogs. Angry that I never really had the best relationship with him... Ironically because of my mom.

I was never really that close to him. And most of the memories I do have of him are...not good ones. He was borderline - sometimes outright - verbally abusive, and controlling to the point where it ingrained me with paranoia and performance anxiety. He was insensitive about topics that were distressing to me. He was the classic sexist, racist, homophobic Southern Boomer stereotype.

But I always wonder if I could've had the chance to improve that relationship with him..If not for my mom, who tried to turn me against him. Tried to make me take her side on every dispute. Their marriage was in a very rough patch through my early teens & twenties. My mom always vented to me about everything, painted him in a bad light, despite the fact that she turned out to be even more of an emotionally abusive manipulator than he ever could be. I more or less took the role upon myself to be their marriage counselor because I was so terrified that they would seperate. No child should be put in that position. She pushed me away from him in the most formative years of my life, and... I don't think I can ever fully forgive her for that.

But even then... There's a big part of me that feels like she doesn't deserve to be alone like this. When we moved our seperate ways, their relationship started to mend. I saw them genuinely happy together for the first time in forever, and I was so happy for them. She was so, so scared when he ended up in the ICU. Begged him to come home.

She still has her dogs, and her neighbors are super supportive of her and socialize with her very often. But I can't imagine what it feels like to lose a partner of 40+ years.

I have a lot of regrets regarding my time with him when he was alive. Now that he's gone, the good memories with him have been resurfacing. He was more supportive of my nerdy interests than my mom ever was. He liked watching me play video games. He got me into Harry Potter and Lord of the Rings. We went to the theaters to see Star Wars, Avatar, Jurassic Park, we watched some Star Trek together. He respected that I wanted my own personal space, instead of barging in whenever. He actually made efforts to apologize when he knew he hurt me, instead of gaslighting or guilting me. He never meant anything he did to anyone in our family in a malicious way, unlike my mom who's always been very openly passive-aggressive and two-faced; he just had trouble showing how much he cared, because of the hardships he faced in his own family.

I'm still very worried about my mom, who is the type to hide her pain to the point of self-destruction instead of letting herself open up and be honest with her emotions. I'm scared to go through the grieving process again, after having lost grandparents, uncles, cousins, and long-time family pets.

But... I'll get through this. If you're somehow seeing this, Dad, then... I'm so sorry. I love you, and I hope you were able to see that, despite our conflicts.

|ROMAN REIGNS & SASHA BANKS|

✨THE STORYLINE; SHORT STORY ✨

Bio; Since WWE may or may not give us the Roman and Sasha interaction some of us want, I decided to write a little short story of how I sort of envisioned it going. This story will have three parts to it, hopefully you guys like it enough so I'll continue it! Feedback would be great. I also got a little inspiration from @haharollins someone had asked her to write a quick storyline between them and she wrote down a lot of great ideas I loved. Also @moxley-leakee from the head cannons she write. :)

Cast; Roman Reigns/Sasha Banks/Jey Uso etc. Everyone who has basically been involved with them as of late and a little bit of last year.

Warnings; Reminder, this is just a made up storyline! It has a bit of a romantic angle to it as well but this is not to disrespect their spouses in anyway, this is just for fun. If you don't really care for them to have that type of interaction, then this isn't the type of story for you. No sexual content involved either, just a regular storyline between the two.

|PART ONE|

November 13, 2020

Survivor Series was slowly approaching. The faces of SmackDown knew what was coming their way; Roman would be facing Drew McIntyre, and Sasha would be facing Asuka. However, the sudden, yet "untouchable" thorn in Sasha's side had attacked her after successfully retaining her championship against Bayley. Carmella's eyes were on the title, and even though Sasha was aware after last week, she had no idea who else's eyes were on her.

Earlier tonight, Roman had an intense interaction with Drew. During that time, Jey had gotten involved, and entered himself in a match with him. Roman was furious, and after scolding Jey at the top of his lungs, he had trouble calming down for the rest of the night. He stayed in his private locker room for a minute before deciding to take a walk in the hallway on his own to think. The camera's were on him, watching his every move. Roman stared at the ground as he walked in deep thought until he came across the television that was on the wall, and the blue-haired woman had caught his attention.

Sasha wore a cheetah print body suit that had blue accents all over it, and it hugged her body like a glove. Her blue hair beautifully cascaded down her back, while the women's title sparkled on her shoulder. As she continued to gloat into the microphone, Roman couldn't help but smirk to himself. He crossed his arms and licked his lips, taking notice of how gorgeous she looked. Roman always had a soft spot of Sasha; He always admired how confident she was, and she was one hell of a woman to him. Sasha had it all, and she was not the same girl he had tag-teamed with four years ago. He never would've thought that there would be a day they would be champions at the same time, but he never complained. If he could have it his way, he would keep it this way; It wasn't like he was going to lose his title anytime soon, and neither was she. Roman knew he was the best of the best, including her. He believed in her.

All of a sudden, Bayley's theme had interuppted Sasha. When Sasha wasn't looking, out of nowhere, Carmella had turned her around and super-kicked her in the face. Roman's smirk fell from his face and a slightly angered expression appeared as Carmella continued to beat her down. Carmella stood tall against Sasha; The camera switched back onto him and Roman sighed, looking away from the TV briefly.

"And there's the Universal Champion--Wait, What is he doing?" Michael Cole confusingly questioned into his headset.

"I don't know, Cole." Corey Graves replied, confused as well.

Roman's eyes wondered around in thought until he got a bright idea. He slowly looked back at the screen, watching Carmella leave Sasha alone in the ring. He unfolded his arms, biting his lip from holding back a smile, then he walked away from the television.

The cameras switched back onto Michael Cole and Corey Graves, and they stared at each other with a weird look. Then they looked back at the camera.

"It looks like the Universal Champion, Roman Reigns has something up his sleeve for the Women's Champion, Sasha Banks?" Michael Cole in a curious tone,

"Am I the only one that's still confused?" Corey Graves adds, "What is he thinking? And why would he want to have anything to do with Sasha?"

Michael Cole shrugs, "I guess we're going to have to find out next week." Then they moved on to talk about the other matches and segments.

November 20th, 2020

After getting attacked by Carmella, for the hundredth time, the boss finally began to feel defeated; This wasn't like her at all, and she was so confused. She was humiliated week after week, and now she was taken down in front of Asuka right before Survivor Series. What if the locker room thought she was weak? Or that her title reign would be shorter than all of her others combined? She was the boss but it didn't feel like it at the moment to her. She wondered if Carmella came to her like a real woman, then this would've went differently--but, it was clear that she had time and time again to put a stop to her surprises, and she didn't. Sasha knew that Carmella was after her, but she didn't have confidence in herself that she would be victorious in this fued when it was over.

The camera shot was back on the Women's Champion after Roman and Drew's contract signing was over. She said in the trainer's office, sitting down with her title lying next her. Her head was laid against wall in pain, and the trainer gave her an ice pack to put on her head for the time being. She sighed, quietly thanking him. Then, without a knock, the door opened. It revealed the Universal Champion along with his special counsel and his cousin, Jey Uso.

The two made eye contact with each other in an instant, and silence lingered in the room. Sasha slowly brought the ice pack down from her head, and she experienced a tingly feeling in her stomach. Despite her hidden enjoyment of seeing the Samoan, her eyebrows furrowed a little bit; What brought him here? The pair hadn't interacted in a long time. Not intentionally either, but time passed and they of course went their own separate ways after they had last been together. It might've been awhile, but the chemistry was still there. It never left; It was more than evident at this moment. Even though they knew each other, they were two totally different people than they were four years ago.

Roman switched his attention onto the trainer, giving him an intense expression before looking straight ahead, "Paul.." He said in an awaiting tone. Sasha looked between Paul, Jey, and the trainer. Paul nodded his head politely, signaling Jey and waved his hand over at the trainer to leave the room. The trainer nervously exited the room in fear, Paul and Jey followed behind him, closing the door shut. Roman and Sasha were left alone. Not being able to hold his gaze any longer, she looked down embarrassingly. He probably saw what happened, she thought.

Roman walked further in the room an stopped in front of her, but not too close to where it would make her uncomfortable, "May I?" He asked calmly, and his deep voice made her even more nervous by the second. She nodded, refusing to look at him still.

The head of the table set his title down onto the seat not too far away from him, and sat down next to the beaten up woman. He closed his hands together, resting his arms on his knees and he turned his head to look at Sasha, "I've been in your shoes."

Sasha played with her fingers while she listened to him speak. Normally, she probably would've had a rebuttal, but she felt so broken down that she had no choice but to stay quiet. Roman's attention stayed solely on her as he continued, "I can read you like an open book, Sasha. I know you."

His words replayed in her head like a broken record player; It struck a cord within her and she felt lost. What did he mean by that? What was he implying?

She finally stopped playing with her fingers and their eyes met. Roman could see the sudden confusion yet sadness right through her, which made him even more determined to get his point across.

"I know you've been beating yourself up, and I know that you've been doubting yourself, but this isn't you." Roman paused, "I know what you're going through. I've been through it all, seen it all, and heard it all. I know that people have been tearing you down for being champion; Bayley has said countless times how much you don't deserve it, and Carmella hasn't wasted any time in making sure that you lose your title. But who gives a damn about what they think? Or what they want?"

Sasha's confused facial expression turns into a softer one as she listens to what he's saying. She took in everything, paying close attention.

"The boss I remember, would prove everyone wrong regardless of the hate. You're stronger, bigger and better than any of those people. None of these women can hold a candle to you, and that's exactly why you're champion, because you're the best. You make the title, the title didn't make you. You've come so far and busted your ass for this company way too hard for Carmella, Bayley, or anyone else to take that away. Make them understand who runs this division."

Sasha realized that he was completely right. During this time, she cared way too much about what other people thought which led her to become an easy target, and the boss was never an easy target. If she was, she wouldn't be where she is right now. She had finally remembered who she was, and what she stood for, and no one was going to take that away from her. Sasha softly smiled a little bit, and nodded, understanding where he was coming from.

Roman recognized the smile on her face; It ended up making him grin a tiny bit, and he felt butterflies in his stomach which was a feeling that was mutual to Sasha as well. He gently patted her knee, getting up from his seat and slid his championship on his shoulder. Before he left, he looked down at her one last time and said truthfully, "I believe in you."

Sasha and Roman exchanged looks of admiration before he left the room, leaving her on her own. She smirked shyly, looking down at her lap. Soon enough, SmackDown went off air.

November 22, 2020

The score was so far 2-1 between Raw and SmackDown. The Raw men had successfully beaten the SmackDown men; The Street Profits beat the New Day and Bobby Lashley had beaten Sami Zayn. So far, it wasn't looking good for SmackDown. However, Sasha was determined to make the score even and hopefully Roman and the SmackDown women would be the ones to take it home.

Currently, Sasha was in a match with Asuka. The match was very intense, and it had everyone who was watching on their toes. No one was sure who would win since it was close. Sasha was close to winning multiple times, but it wasn't enough to defeat Asuka.

Asuka kicked Sasha in the chest, knocking her down roughly. When the opportunity was present, Asuka went for her finisher but when she least expected it, Sasha caught her right in the middle of it and kept her shoulders down long enough so she could successfully win the match. Sasha let go of the empress and took a deep breath while there was shock written all over Asuka's face.

"The boss has beaten the empress!" Michael Cole exclaimed. A wide smile grew on Sasha's face and she punched the air in happiness.

"And you're winner, The SmackDown Women's Champion, Sasha Banks!" The ring announcer says with his chest. The ring announcer gives Sasha her title, and helps her up so he could raise her hand. Sasha smiled brightly, feeling over the moon proud of herself that she had won.

A backstage camera showed a shot of Roman and Paul watching her victory from his locker room. He smirked, feeling just as proud. Roman turned his head to look at Paul, and he gave him a look of approval before they both turned their attention back on the screen before he started to prepare for his match with Drew later that night.

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Even though the score between Raw and SmackDown was now 3-2, Roman still brought it home for SmackDown and won against Drew McIntyre. After the low blow Roman had given Drew, Jey still came to Roman's aid to sneak a kick at Drew's face so it could put him down for the count for good. After Roman squeezed Drew in his submission, another referee had come out to declare the match. He had proven to Drew, and everyone else, that he was the champion.

As Roman walked out of the ring and up the ramp, he noticed Jey at the top, cheering him on even though he ordered him to leave the building after losing his match against Raw. Once he reaches the top, Jey and himself stare at each other. Jey looks at him nervously, wondering if he'll get angry meanwhile Roman decides to let it slide for the night, and let the consequences come later. He nods, opening his arm up so he could hug him and Jey doesn't hesitate to hold him tight.

When they pull away from the hug, Sasha's theme music plays, surprising everyone who was at the announce table and through the screen virtually.

"Is that who I think it is?" Corey Graves questions.

"It's Sasha Banks!" Michael Cole says in a excited yet confused tone, once again.

"What the hell is she doing?" Samoa Joe asked at the announce table.

As Sasha walked out from the gorilla with the title wrapped around her waist, Paul and Jey turned around to look at her. Paul proudly smiled at her, giving her the nod of approval while Jey wasted no time in clapping, hyping her up from her win earlier tonight. Sasha softly grinned at the both of them, and instead of dancing her way out like she usually does, she walked out more calmly since she was coming out to congratulate Roman, along with showing appreciation to him after encouraging her.

Roman didn't turn around right away, but couldn't help but smirk at the sound of her music. He licked his lips, and turned around to see her approaching him. She stood right next to him, and a small smile grew across her face as he looked down at her, admiring her beauty. He couldn't of been more proud of her. Roman switched his title onto his other hand, and held his hand out to her. Sasha looked down at his hand, and gently took a hold of it. Roman brought her hand to his lips, kissing the top of it softly before saying, "I told you, you could do it."

Sasha swooned on the inside by his sweet gesture, and she lightly blushed while she stared at her tribal chief, "It was all you."

Roman gave her hand a soft squeeze in reaction of her reply, winking at her and his strong--tattoed arm brought her into his side. Jey stood close to Roman while Paul watched in amazment. Meanwhile, Drew sat in the ring, looking at Roman and Sasha with a lost facial expression on his face.

Roman looked down at his title in his hand and said, "This is ours, and this stays with us for the near future. We'll take down what we want to." Then he raises his title above his head proudly, and Jey wraps his arm around Roman's shoulder. Roman looks down at me, and nods, signaling me to do the same. Sasha unbuckles her title from her waist, and holds her title above her head as well as Roman's theme music cues shortly after.

"Wait, does this mean that the head of the table has formed an alliance with the boss?" Michael Cole says in a surprised tone.

"This should be good." Samoa Joe adds, speaking what everyone else might've been thinking. After a lingering silence from the announce table, the program cuts to commerical.

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What would all the canon smurfs parents make of their kiddos partners? :3

Ok for a second I got quite confused because I was like 'wait there's canon parents' but then I realised what you meant I hope XD

I'm still have some to go of course! Including developing two for another anon atm, but I can go off the ones I currently have :) Actually, I've even been thinking about a grandparent AU~ however that would be likely to change some key events in my timeline so I'd have to work out how the hell to adjust for it to keep things more or less on the same track XD Regardless! I'll treat these like it was the grandparent AU and ignore development, I'll fix that later

Farmer's:

Both Hayseed and Florist would be super open armed and friendly to Tailor! They are literally just sweet simple living folks with big hearts and extra chairs for the table. It's a pretty different atmosphere to Tailor's house so he might feel a little bit strange at first but in a good way! The farming household is cosy and warm and likes to play silly board games into the night and there's always a bowl of goodies on the coffee table. Diligent and Sower are made a big fuss of, of course <3 Hayseed tends to be that cool grandpa that lets them ride the horses or whatever the hell the Smurf equivalent is. Florist calls Diligent a handsome spitting image of his grandpa. I mean not really but go off Florist, she’s just proud.

Tailor's:

Well lets say that regardless of their opinion, almost anyone is welcomed better than Tailor's teenage ex XD Modiste would never have approved of a bully boyfriend. Farmer on the other hand is very obviously hopelessly devoted so that's already a massive improvement! Tailor's household is much larger, especially with his cousins and we could assume aunt and uncle in this situation too. The atmosphere tends to be a bit more serious and conversational, but it's fine, Farmer does his best :) Yarner is somewhat taken aback by the sheer freaking HEIGHT of this Smurf though, but he is as short as his son which doesn't help him perspective wise.

They also fuss over the grandkids but it tends to be more of a literal fussing than coddling - Yarner likes to make sure Tailor's keeping up with proper hair care for Sower since she's the only female Smurf in their household, which Tailor's already told him a million times yes dad we know there's a lot of it, it's fine, leave off. Funnier in the human verse where all three of them have exactly the same hair so it's such a random thing for him to pick on but at least Yarner cares. Modiste just tuts about how her grandkids keep outgrowing their new clothes and could they please stop taking after their other father it's inconsiderate /j.

Clumsy’s:

Well I kind of envisioned that Clumsy wouldn’t have known his father outside of stories about him, but he’d have been verrrrrrry close to his mother <3 Even so, I think Sweet Treat would have only had a .. civil relationship with Stormy. They both tried really hard to get along but at the end of the day they were just very different women. Stormy never really liked desserts or baked goods either, too sweet for her and physical affection (so, hugs) isn’t her love language either so yeahh all of ST’s favourite things gone in an instance XD Again, they were always polite and pleasant but Sweet Treat would feel a bit sad she couldn’t have a proper bond with the mother of her first grandchildren.

And then there was Handy, who was a complete 180. He adores baked goods and sweets (secret sweet tooth don’t ya know). Sweet Treat ADORES her son-in-law. Literally gets more excited to see Handy than her own son /j /j /j. They’d have a very strong bond and ST was also so proud of her ‘handsome boys’. As for ST being a grandmother, oh god she’d be the best. She loves all 3 of her grandchildren equally, there’s no favouritism towards the twins or Mari, but she is absolutely the embodiment of this image

Handy’s:

Well, they’re ... nice, if a bit confused XD More specifically Mechanic, since Chimerical tends to be very outgoing and friendly regardless and was always very encouraging of her son;s uh, obscure romance choices! Mechanic was ... puzzled. He was fine when teen Handy was dating Architect, yeah nice, he could see a cool future there. They broke up? No biggie Handy can find someone else. He’s in love with a what now? A fish? A fish woman? A PRINCESS fish woman? Handy what the hell. Oh he’s serious about this? Oh no they broke up. Oh well that’s a shame Mechanic didn’t see how that would work anyway. Now maybe his son will think sensibly about - he’s dating someone with kids? Well I guess he’s taking the family life seriously at last. What’s the guys name? Oh give your old pa a break, Handy.

Again in terms of parenting, they’d both be very careful to include the twins as they mean a lot to Handy though :) Even if Mari is their bio granddaughter, even Mechanic wouldn’t be able to resist any of those little Smurflings for long, he doesn’t care that much as long as his son is happy at the end of the day.

Vanity’s:

Well, they’d probably appreciate Grouchy’s cynical attitude but not really be impressed by his standing. Ironically, they’d be very impressed by Don Smurfo’s noble title ... and less so by his overly passionate personality. Honestly though these parents aren’t ever really happy. Honestly probably would play favourites with Vanity being their born and raised son and Aloof being their bio grandchild compared to cloned son Somebody and adoptee Quixotic. That’s not the kids fault, Snooty and Spoiled are just kind of arseholes. At least Vanity and Somebody have each other to lean on. 

Don’s:

I still need to design his mother but I actually designed his father ages ago. Here he is :) and in contrast to Snooty and Spoiled not giving a rat’s ass about Somebody, Conte would love him!! A bit untraditional perhaps but you know what? Don loves him! And he’s kind of fun, Conte would take that over any tradition

I think tomura and toga have great sibling energy. I'm an only child but I've heard that siblings annoy each other a lot (and have also started to experience it as my cousin sister has been living with me for 3 months) so what do you think these 2 would do to annoy each other?

OH HELL YEAH!

Shig and Toga’s sibling dynamic is, in fact, the most important mha concept of all time. I love them both SO MUCH and I am so attached to the idea of Toga being Tomura’s annoying gremlin sister that he would die for.

I just feel like they would annoy each other in like ... extremely specific ways? They would do things that only make sense to them and confuse the rest of the LOV. Instead of private jokes, they have private bullying. Like some times, the whole league is just vibing in the bar together, and Toga makes eye contact with Shig across the room and whispers “hey Shig ... hey ... hey Shig hey ... Shig ... hey ............... pineapple” and everyone is confused except Shig who immediately goes fucking feral and screams “SHUT THE FUCK UP OH MY GOD!!! I’M NOT PLAYING THESE GAMES!!! I’LL FIGHT YOU!!!” and Toga is just sitting there like >:3c and everyone else is like “what THE FUCK just happened???”

They would also do some more casual basic sibling bullying like Shig sending Toga memes about ugly bats and vampires with the caption “dis u” or Toga constantly standing super close to Shig without actually touching him but still hovering over him like a lil gremlin just enough to annoy him. 

Okay but I’m suddenly thinking, they would definitely bully each other over Stain. Toga constantly changing Shig’s lock screen and computer background to pictures of Stain, or just saying stuff like “nice stan cosplay” whenever Shig wears red and black together. Shig, on the other hand, really rubs it in that he actually met Stain and insist that he was really lame and clingy and really not that cool, which really hits Toga’s nerve (also this is irrelevant to this specific topic but like ... in canon, Stain expressed a great interest in Shigaraki and said he was very curious to see how he would bloom and develop because he had a lot of potentials, and Tomura literally told him to fuck off. Idk it’s just really funny to me that most members of the LOV would kill to interact with Stain just once, and Tomura is like “yeah he expressed great interest in me and I told him that he was a basic bitch” WHAT A KING ...)

And like ... not to have a shigadabi brain rot but ... we all know Toga would bully Shig over his crush on Dabi ... it’s part of the shigadabi lore at this point. She HAS to go sit next to him on his bed like ‘so??? do u like him??? omg!!!” and try to wingman him in the most obnoxious way possible.

But yeah! Since Shig and Toga are the two youngest members of the LOV, I feel like they really just ... vibe together, you know? They have the same references, the same humour, and the same energy. Their relationship is either “Bro ... we are ride or die ... you are my nakama bro ... we in this together bro ... I would trust you with life bro ...” OR “no officer, I’ve never see this person in my life before” with almost nothing in between, which is peak sibling culture and I love that for them :’) 

(Also not to be sad but like ... Tomura finding some of Hana in Toga ... soft)

do you have any headcanon for lyarra stark and minisa whent? i've always felt that from what little we know about them and their family relations leaving them as blank boards was a bit of a wasted chance by grrm. any toughts?

For Lyarra I have a headcanon that she was actually a little older than Rickard and that contrary to expectations, Brandon and Lyanna’s more ‘wild’ ways were actually inherited from their father, not their mother haha. By that I mean I like to think that Rickard was more of an impulsive hothead as a younger man, before he became Lord of Winterfell and when he was still a teenager, whereas I think of Lyarra as being the more reserved and stoic one who was sort of an uh... calming influence on him. I think they knew each other well enough growing up and had been betrothed from a young age so the marriage was not this shocking big deal for either of them, and that as betrothed teens they got along well enough, even if they weren’t super into each other. I think it shifted into a loving marriage over time as they matured and had children together, and that Lyarra became quite attached to Rickard over the years of seeing him grow from a reckless teenage boy to an ambitious but very family-oriented and honorable man.  I think Lyarra was quiet but not shy or timid, and that she was just one of those people who tends to keep to themselves and not have many close friends, but who is very content with their own company and deeply loyal to those she does care about. I think she was a lot like Ned, basically, and that she was very close with her own older sister, Branda, until her sister went south to marry. I also think Lyarra was not someone super interested in political alliances with the south and who would have preferred all her children to marry into the North and stay close. I can see her not being thrilled with Rickard arranging for Ned to foster in the Vale, but ultimately making her son promise to write lots of letters, and always visiting Brandon during his fostering at Barrowton.  I also think she was an active person who liked to hunt and hawk, and an extremely skilled horsewoman- I headcanon Lyanna as growing up hearing tales of what a talented rider her mother was. I also think she enjoyed reading and history and that like Bran, as a child she was always climbing into high up places much to the annoyance of her family, mostly so she could be alone and read or just daydream.  I think her special favorite of her children was Ned because of their similarities but I think she loved them all, of course, and was very proud of them up until her untimely death. For Minisa I headcanon that she sort of had a lonely childhood, being the only child of her parents to survive the first five years or life, and that she grew up at Harrenhal with her cousins, surrounded by ghosts and grim stories. However I don’t think her childhood was miserable and that she learned to entertain herself, spending a lot of time alone, and also that she fancied she could talk to ghosts, and even made up a language to speak with them, like how Catelyn and Lysa would later make up a secret sister language. I think she was at some point maybe sent to another household with daughters her own age because her parents worried she was a bit socially awkward and isolated after her childhood, and that Minisa grew up into a quiet, slightly eccentric, but essentially kind and loving young woman who wound up catching Hoster’s eye, since I headcanon that he negotiated the match himself with his father already dead at that point.  I do think theirs was basically a love match from the point that they met onwards and that Minisa was very taken with him, though sad in some sense to leave Harrenhal behind. But I do think she probably appreciated the bright and cheery change of scenery at Riverrun and that she loved the gardens there most of all, since the gardens at Harrenhal were pretty desolate and barren. I also think she loved to swim and taught her children to swim at a very young age, and that while Catelyn was clearly Hoster’s favorite, Lysa was Minisa’s because she reminded her of herself at that age, being sort of dreamy and idealistic.  I also headcanon that though her first two sons died in early infancy, she still was very attached to their memories and while they were given a Tully burial on the river, she would visit a certain spot to think about them and maybe talk to them when she was missing them or feeling upset. 

Sarah...I finally got the job I was hoping to get. I'll be moving in a week, it's in another state. I'm excited but also nervous. This is the first time I'll be on my own and it's kinda scary. I've never been away from my family before....I just hope everything goes well.

BABY!! MY LOVE!! SUGAR!! I’M SO PROUD OF YOU!!!! Congratulations, that’s absolutely amazing! I can’t wait to hear all about your new job and the move!

Moving on your own is extremely nerve wracking, and there’s absolutely no shame in being a little scared or nervous! It’s normal! I moved into my own place for the first time 4 years ago and prior to that, I had never really been away from my family for long periods of time! I’m very veryyyy close with my entire family and I was very lucky that while growing up, I spent every Saturday night with all my aunts/uncles, cousins, parents, and grandparents, so moving to a new state and living alone, where I didn’t have that in person family bond was really hard for me. But that doesn’t mean your bond isn’t there anymore, you just get used to a new way! Make good use of FaceTime or any of video chat service you use! I had a set day once a week where I videoed my parents and we chatted about what happened that week and how work was and what was going on at home and it was really great to see their faces! And to have that day to look forward to every week made missing them a bit easier! But I also will say to set boundaries! I don’t let my parents facetime me when their at family parties or celebrations because I know I’ll get sad I’m not there. I told my mom that I’m not going to be texti nv her every second of every day so she’s gotta stop worrying when I don’t answer. Just little things that you feel like you need in order to keep your relationship healthy while living away!

Some other quick little things I learned while living alone:

make good use of autopay!!! this was super helpful for me because I have a pea brain and sometimes would forget when bills are due! This way, it automatically takes the money from your account and you don’t get late fees!

if you don’t want to use autopay, get a dry erase calendar and keep it somewhere you pass regularly (i.e. the kitchen or next to your door or in your bedroom etc.) to mark down what days your bills are due and use a red marker so you can clearly see it! I always marked down that my bills were due a few days before they actually were just to give me a cushion in case anything happened

always have extra toilet paper on hand. I know it might sound strange, but just spend a bit more and buy that pack with 20 rolls. Sometimes shit happens (lol) and you’ll be happy you have the extra

DONT OVER BUY PRODUCE!!!! Only buy a small amount for what you know you’ll need/use. while you do your shopping, you might think you’re gonna be super healthy and eat all this fresh produce so you spend the extra money to get the good stuff. Produce goes bad so SO fast and I’m gonna be honest, if you aren’t someone who cooks a meal every single night, youll probably forget its there and it’ll go bad.

try not to shop when you’re super hungry. You’ll get home and be happy with what you bought, but then a few days later you’ll realize you only have tortilla chips and cherries and kick yourself

you really don’t need most of the things you think you do. Try going through your belongings and see what really makes you happy and what you truly need. Sure you’re living on your own, but that could mean less space then your used to!

making your own decor is a lot cheaper and easier then you think! Especially now, there’s tons of tutorials on things online or try freehanding something or buy second hand! Everyone wants their place to look nice and feel homey, but don’t break the bank trying to do so!

I’m someone who doesn’t like turning the heat on very high during the winter because I don’t like spending the money hahaha I’ll usually just put it on low and sweat lots of layers! so if you’re the same, walmart and target have amazingly warm blankets you can keep on the couch or your bed or anywhere! Target has fuzzy socks for like $1! but also, if you are the same, make sure you don’t ever completely shut your heat off in the winter! It’ll freeze your pipes and they’ll burst causing a leak! So keep it low is anything!

get a brita filter. it pops right on your sink and cleans your water! It’s much more cost effective and better for the environment then buying those plastic water bottles

HAVE FUN!!! this is such an exciting time for you and you’re creating a life for yourself in this new city! Make friends, invite them over, go see what the city has to offer, try new restaurants or bars or clubs or museums or anything you find interesting! Don’t stay couped up in your place because you’ll only feel isolated and alone! This new chapter is literally all about you, so do things that make you happy and make it look any way you’d like it to look! There’s no right or wrong way to do things, everything’s just a trial run until you find what suits you best!💛

More Than Enough

Part 9 of So Happy Together

part 8

Note: theres a song that kind of inspired the name and closing lines. it always reminds me of friendship and how important it is. its called all that we get by first aid kit. give it a listen if you wanna get the vibe this chapters giving off!

   The next morning was much the same. You woke up. Got ready, and headed for your first class. On your way to the first period of the day, you ran into Hux and Phasma. Phasma gave you a big smile and waved you over. You jogged across the lawn holding your skirt down so nobody got an unnecessary show. Once you reached them they both said hello and asked you to walk with them. 

“Y/N i was wondering if we could sit together first period. Last night reminded me of how much I love being around you!”

“Ummm, of course, I forgot how much we clicked too, i feel like I haven't been a very good friend.”

“I can assure you i've been just as bad. I never reached out to you much either.” she said gently, placing her hand on your shoulder as you all started walking.

“I can testify that Phas, is indeed, a bad friend.” Hux teased. It was weird seeing him so relaxed, you figured it was a perk of being his friend. Ever since that morning at the diner you always saw a less serious version of him. Once you had reached the building where your first classes were held, Hux announced that he would have to be on his way to reach his class. You all said goodbye as you continued walking with Phasma. Once you stepped through the building doors you saw Ben leaning against a wall. Someone was with him, but not just anyone. It was Rey, you should've known she would have dug her claws in quick. He turned over to you when his smile dropped. You gave him a small wave when he said something to Rey then walked away. She looked over at you and began charging towards you.  

  Phasma had noticed the change of your facial expression. You could tell she was about to ask you something when you felt something ram into you. You fell back and dropped your bag, all its contents spilling out. You looked up and saw Rey looking down at you.

“I see you're still a clumsy little shit, guess some things never change, huh?” you watched as smiled, turned and walked away.

Phasma bent down to help you gather your things, “she's still a bitch to you after all these years? Some things never change I guess.” 

You could tell she was making fun of what she had said, but you were too hurt by Ben to focus on your cousin. Once everything was in your bag phasma stood, and held out her hand to help you up. You took it and stood up. While you fixed your skirt the bell had gone off. Great now you were late on top of everything. You both ran to your class and the professor had been waiting outside. 

“Ladies, might I ask why you're late.” Miss Sloane was intense, she almost scared you. Before you had a chance to answer phasma spoke up. 

“I'm sorry professor Sloane. The hall was crowded and we bumped into someone and our things fell. It won't happen again. I promise.” who would've thought that she was charismatic. You saw Sloane turn towards you. 

“This is your first tardy in the 3 years youve been in my class. I won't count it this time.” she stepped out of the doorway allowing you both to enter. You rushed to the back table where there were two empty spots and sat. you went the whole class not speaking, trying to avoid further trouble. Near the end of class everyone had finished up early, and Sloane had decided to give everyone free time. That's when phasma asked the dreaded question. 

“So. What happened out there? That guy looked at you and your whole mood changed.”

You leaned closer to her so nobody could hear your conversation. “That was Ben solo.”

“I don't see how that's relevant to you looking like your soul had been crushed.”

  You took the time to give her a brief summary of the situation. She gave you a sad look when you told her about the kiss, and how he was your first kiss. 

“Oh honey. That sounds so beautiful, why do you think he's acting like this all of a sudden?” 

“I don't know, but it hurts. He seemed like he really liked me. What sucks is I have to see his brother a lot, and he knows about it. What do i do if he asks about me and him again?”

Her face twisted and she looked thoughtful for a second. “Is his brother Matt?” 

“Yes.” you replied. 

“Now that i think about it. I see it. Anyways, if he asks, tell him the truth, maybe he can tell you what is going on.”

  The bell rang dismissing you to your next class. You slowly got up, not wanting to go back out. In fact you wanted nothing more than to go back to your dorm. Hell, part of you wanted to run to your grandfathers. Your perfect attendance kept you from it though. As you walked out she invited you to sit with her and Hux at lunch. You told her about the project with Matt and she informed you that he sat with them anyways. You never noticed who hung out with who until now. You reluctantly agreed, and you two went your separate ways. You went to your next class, which was one you hated. You had somehow gotten into calculus. You have no clue how you sucked at math, but the worst part was you had it with Rey. 

  You walked in and noticed you had gotten there before her. You took a spot in the back, hoping to be ignored by her. Soon everyone had arrived, but her. You had a moment of relief, before the door opened. She walked in and after her came Ben. Perfect. Professor Windu asked about the man behind her and she had informed him that he had been moved into the class. The professor welcomed him and asked him to introduce himself. When he stood at the front of the room he looked around. You tried putting your head down, but you knew he had seen you. 

“Uhh, im Ben. Ben Solo. This is actually my last year in school, so it's kinda pointless for my parents to move me here, but here I am,” you looked up and you had looked him right in the eyes. “Guess it could be worse though.” you remembered those words. He said those exact words to you. It could be worse. It felt almost dirty hearing him say it again in front of a crowd. 

  He kept his eyes locked on yours as he took his seat next to Rey. you hated this. You hated it with everything in you. This was going to be excruciating. Not only did you have to be in a room with someone who made you absolutely miserable, but you had to watch as she threw herself all over the guy you liked. You tried your best to stay focused, but it was hard. 

Once more you heard the bell and you waited until Ben and Rey had walked out before moving towards the door. A couple more periods went by and eventually it was your lunch period. You made your way towards the cafeteria waiting for someone from your group to arrive so they could show you where they sit. After a while you decide to text Matt and ask about where they sit. Once you were told you made your way over. On your way there you came face to face with Rey, and what a surprise, Ben. she made a face at you before bumping into you again. You looked at Ben with sadness in your eyes. All he did was shake his head and follow after Rey. You watched as they sat with her friends. Poe, Finn, and Rose. you had known them well. You all were friends at one point, but in this school it was all about money. The more money you had the cooler you were. To put it in polite your parents were filthy rich. They could sell their business’ and there would be enough money to last until your kids were in their teens. There were a few things about it though. You didn't like that social system, and you didn't like flaunting your wealth. Rey on the other hand. Her mother, your father's sister, had married super rich. A Palpatine. They were old money, not new money like your family. Rey loved letting people know she was richer than them. It was like a personality trait to her. 

  You walked over to where Matt, Phasma, and Hux were sitting. You tried your best to forget about the whole day and focus on your project, and friends. You couldn't help but look over at Ben every now and then. He looked sad. Meanwhile everyone around him was talking, almost ignoring him. You decided to try and reach out. Just to gauge if there was still something there. You sent a text to him asking if he was alright. You hit sent and watched carefully. You watched as he took his phone out and read the message. He looked up at you with his phone still in his hands. Looking you dead in the eyes he put his phone back in his pocket, and jumped into the conversation that everyone at his table was having. Okay. that hurt. That hurt more than anything, more than seeing him with rey in the hall. More than him being rude that first day. This was a new hurt. This. This was a heartbreak. You felt the tears welling up before you were pulled out of your thoughts when Hux had put his hand on your shoulder. 

“You alright?” you looked up to see your friends watching you as tears fell down your face. Phasma looked at where you had been looking. She looked right at Ben with a look of anger on her face. 

You quickly gathered your things. “I'm sorry, I'm not feeling well, i've gotta go.”

  Your run out, having to pass by Ben's table made you cry harder, but you didn't care who saw. You ran straight for your dorm tears streaming down your face as you went. As soon as you got there you ran in throwing yourself on your bed. your body wracked with an onslaught of sobs. You cried hard, and you cried loud. If you could guess it wasn't just because of Ben, it was the pain of being ignored by someone else. You're always ignored by the people you want most, and you were growing weary of it. You had only ever wanted your parents attention. Ben was the only other person where you desperately wanted his attention. He had given it to you so easily, and just as quickly he had taken it back. You eventually cried yourself to sleep.

 You woke up to the sound of knocking at your door. You weren't sure how much time had passed, but you got up and opened the door. Matt stood there looking down at you. You never noticed how tall he was until now. He walked past you into your room, and sat on the bed. You looked at the clock in the hall. Your last period was supposed to be starting now, why was he here? 

“You left lunch pretty quick. You were so upset I was positive you weren't coming to class so I thought I'd come check up on you.” he said with a soft voice. 

“Why? You're gonna get in trouble for skipping.”

“I know we don't know each other too well, but I like you, you’re so cool, and I just wanted to make sure you were okay.” 

   You stayed silent. Trying to find an excuse so you wouldn't have to tell him about his brother. 

“Phas told me about Ben. he's an ass trust me Y/N nobody knows that better than me.” you walked over to sit next to him. As soon as you sat down you started sobbing again. He put his arm around you and let you cry. It was a while before he had said anything.

“Look, i can see how it would be weird to talk about it with me. I'm willing to listen though, if you want to sit in silence and cry, I'll let you do that too, but just know me, Phas, and Hux are all here for you.“ you hugged him and he awkwardly hugged you back. 

“Do you think it was something I did?” you asked him.

“No. for sure no. If anything something probably happened, and he got scared. For as tough as he acts he runs at the first sight of emotions.” you laughed. 

You sat up wiping the tears off your face. “I don't know why, I just feel so heartbroken over this. I've never felt this way about anyone.”

“Trust me I get the feeling. You never knew this, but I've had a crush on Elaine since like 3rd grade. I told her about it and she rejected me. She wanted to focus on school. I understood, but it hurt like hell still. She agreed to not bring it up to anyone because of how embarrassed i was.”

“How'd you deal with it?”

“I didn't have a lot of friends, but the few I did I kinda just hung out with them. It distracted me. I had them so everything was okay.” 

You nodded and took in his advice. You had him. You had Phasma, and Hux. most importantly you had Elaine. You haven't been friends with them long, but a part of you knew that Hux, Phasma, and Matt loved you. You knew without a doubt that Elaine loved and adored you. You knew they would be there. You knew they'd help. Most importantly you knew it would be alright and that one day the pain that Ben Solo had caused you would all be a distant memory. All because you had them. What if this was all that you get? Now that you think about it. That was enough. That was more than enough.

My Top 5 Canon/Could-Be Naruto Ships

Listen you fnckers I'm REALLY new to this fandom so I don't really know what's up with the beef in the Naruto fandom. I just know y'all are at each others' throats. So I'm going to give my true and honest opinion on the ships and why I ship/like them.

5. NaruHina (Naruto & Hinata)

These two are the cutest and purest ship I've ever seen. I started watching Naruto VERY late so I already knew a LOT of spoilers, including who Naruto gets with in the end. I started watching the show with some comments from my guy friends and my little cousin, all of them telling me this in a middle of a fanboy rant, that Naruto doesn't get with Sakura, but with someone else. So I started the series kinda miffed that he doesn't get with his teammate (it's a trope I love) but shipping isn't one of my make it or break it preferences so I watched it anyway. I immediately fell in love with Naruto's character. He reminded me of myself as a kid (though I wasn't as rambunctious nor dumb) and I admired his perseverence and his strength. Later, when Hinata was presented, I absolutely fell in love with her. She was an adorable little smol bean and I loved that she was the only one with a crush on Naruto from the beginning and not one of his fangirls. In the end, I was glad that she finally got the man of her dreams and I was so happy that she finally got some love. However, I do agree that Naruto's feelings just came to light overnight and they weren't really developed that well. I was slightly disappointed and I was hoping to see more love struck Naruto, but I'm overall happy with how it turned out.

4. SasuSaku (Sasuke & Sakura)

Listen, these two have such a complex love story and I LOVE it. In the beginning, oh God, I HATED Sakura. She was mumbling crud about Sasuke and being all needy and stuff, but throughout the course of the show, I started respecting her. In the whole Zabuza/Haku arc (that sh!t scarred me for life tbh) I was crying alongside her when Sasuke "died". Her tears were more than a stupid crush and I felt it. Granted, I also hated Sasuke in the beginning. His air of arrogance and his conceitedness was annoying to say the least. However, I only actually started to like him during the Chunin Exams, when he fought Orochimaru. Throughout the series, I noticed that although Sasuke was always "cold", he was actually still showing emotion in his own way and I started shipping it. The scene when he was going to leave the village was heart-breaking (though a little too drawled out) and I squealed when he thanked her before knocking her out. That right there confirmed to me that he was harboring feelings, even if he didn't like it. In the end, I loved how Sakura's love never wavered and Sasuke acknowledged her love for him and her strength as a kunoichi. Same with Naruhina,I wish I got to see more scenes of them together after the war, but we may still have a chance. Boruto might show us some flashbacks of the parents of the New Gen together.

3. JiraTsuna (Jiraiya & Tsunade)

I FNCKING LOVE THIS SONG! 😭 Jiraiya and Tsunade was such a sad "could-have-been" ship, you know? Jiraiya, a player kinda guy (who's a fncking perv), sets his sight on one girl when he was 12. He starts to train harder than ever when she comments on how she likes strong men like Orochimaru. He becomed a fncking SAGE to win her heart. He practically becomes her best friend because Orochimaru is too creepy for that and they become close. He's there for her when her brother dies. Dan comes along and she falls in love with him, leaving Jiraiya in the dust. Then Jiraiya chases after Orochimaru and Dan dies and then she leaves the village. He offers up Tsunade as the Hokage because he has faith in her and knows it'll be good for her. He brings Naruto because he knows that this boi will remind her of what her brother and Dan stood for. He carries a picture if her with him. Then they both meet up again and she's fncking depressed but Jiraiya believes in her and reminds her why the loves of her life died and she becomes Hokage. When Jiraiya leaves and both of them aren't sure if he'll make it back, she almost bawls. Tsunade, one of the strongest kunoichi ever, almost cries at the thought of losing Jiraiya. Then he fncking dies. THOSE FNCKING FLASHBACKS. I WASN'T READY TO SHIP IT AND I WAS BAWLING BECAUSE HE WAS SO CLOSE TO FINALLY GET THE GIRL HE WAS AIMING FOR BUT, YOU KNOW, PAIN HAD TO FNCKING KILL HIM. Their stlmory itself is enough shipling material. No debate there.

2. ItaIzu

THIS WAS THE LOVE ITACHI FNCKING DESERVED OMG. The moment I saw that Itachi saved her and she came back to thank him and to try to hold Sasuke, I fell in love with their dynamic (when I saw that she was also an Uchiha, I highkey freaked, but then I read that she's a distant cousin and barely one at that so I was all gucci later). I just...I LOVED how he was a quiet, polite, genius student in the Acadmey and she was just a really eccentric girl who was super nice and adorable. But THEN THE FNCKING COUP DE'TAT (idk if that's how you spell it but oh well) HAPPENED AND HE HAD TO KILL HER. OOF. I heard that in the manga, he put her under a tsukuyomi where they both live the rest of their lives together and die in the other's arms so that she can at least die in peace and I wasn't ready for that beautiful act of love and I almost burst in tears. (Glaring at SP for not animating it).

1. ObiRin (Obito & Rin)

They were so adorable! I couldn't handle it! OMGGGG❤ This was truly a tragic story. They had so many chances to be together, yet Rin was head over heels fir Kakashi and Obito was smitten with Rin. But it could've happened, you know? After the fight at the bridge, they could've gone home and Kakashi could have been the eingman he should have been when they were younger to get them together. Rin could have realized that her care for Obito was deeper than friendly protectiveness. Team 7 could have been the ultimate wing...kids? They could have had such a happy life of love. But Obito had to fncking almost die and get stuck under a pile of massive boulders and later go all psychotic when he sees Rin sacrifice herself for the village's sake. And the fact that he only joined Madara's infinited tsukuyomi plan was so he could build a world where Rin was alive and where he could have had the life he wanted other than the world he has now. Yes, he was insane, but I love that his motives were fueled by his thoughts of her. Also, the fact that Rin must have been so confused to see that Obito wasn't in the afterlife breaks my heart and tears me to pieces. Their reunion (and both of them helping Team 7 win even after death) just BROKE ME EVEN MORE. If I ever had the chance to make an alternate reality, it would be one where Obito and Rin were still alive and where they could live happily ever after.

Hey, I've never asked you for tips but I love your answers. I'm wondering if you have advice for getting over a friend who totally ditched and disappeared after they started dating someone? I'm angered, very hurt and sad about the loss of my close and very long friendship, and I feel so dumb not being able to move on while they probably don't even think about me at all. It feels terrible, like all that time spent together meant nothing. Thank you in advance

aw, thank you! that’s really sweet and i appreciate that! and well, i’m sure many girls have been in this position before because i have spoken to some before and i am one myself!!! i had a friend who was like a best friend/sister to me and we spent the morning we woke up to the moment we went to bed texting/talking and seeing each other at least maybe once a week or every other week. 

ALSO: LET ME ADD, this may not necessarily be ur case as many girls who are super in lovey dovey can get so caught up they forget their friends and basically everything around them lmao so you can also talk to her about it and how u are feeling and how important she is to u and see if she takes the time out to appreciate u and keep ur friendship going (i’m supposed to add this at the very end but like idk if you read it already and possibly won’t see it if i add it in the read more))

she had a boyfriend already, but it wasn’t public to her parents as yet- however, we stopped talking for a while suddenly, no idea why really? but when i did talk to her, it was like a week or two of just not talking and she told me “hey i told my dad about my boyfriend and he met him and everything’s going good” and i was super shocked b/c i was like ????? this is huge news!! i can’t believe you weren’t even excited to tell me or let me know? she told me this like over a week later and it was just kind of like ????? ok lol. after that happened, we literally just stopped talking, she did her own things, went out, spent all her time with her boyfriend (and maybe other friends she had but claimed she had no friends) she did have other friends though, like her brother’s ex girlfriend she’d hang around with and literally WALK UP MY BLOCK WHERE I LIVE and never come to say hi or anything LOL. basically, don’t let it get you that down, i was SUPER HURT AND HEARTBROKEN, DEVASTATED, i felt BETRAYED and i felt ANGERED AND STRONG dislike towards her and honestly, i don’t like her at all anymore or the person she’s become i’ve heard and well- encountered myself. she proved to be like many girls out here today, never a real friend and never was even though i really believed we were. it took me years to figure this out though because she was my cousin and throughout my whole childhood up until like two years ago i thought we had something real and special but nahhhh it never was and she never was a real friend to me like i thought all these years. as she grew and time passed, i finally got to see that she was just waiting for her life to go places, that family didn’t matter, i didn’t matter, no one matters except her and her man and whomever else she feels worthy of her time- until she gets bored or jealous, or pretends to like, as she’s done before many times. all i can tell you really is- be glad they’re out of your life and you saw who they really were. you’ll meet better friends someday. i tell myself that but honestly i haven’t met a single one yet!!!! not a single friend. but hopefully you do. they always come back someday, you can talk to her and tell her how you feel, see if she changes for you and gives you time and appreciates you still but if not, it was never worth it.