#it took me like 6 months to gather the energy to go bedsheet shopping last time so I’ll probably just keep suffering for months again 😓 | Explore Tumblr Posts and Blogs

the-trans-dragon · 1 year

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I can’t tell if I’m just bad at finding Bedsheets That Don’t Pill, or if it’s just another case of Severe Decrease In Product Quality Due To Ongoing Plague And Labor Shortages, or if I’m just autistic and doomed to experience all bedsheet textures as Level 10 Pain

#sorenhoots #😞 the expensive bedsheets I bought a while back didn’t even make it to the first wash before pilling #due to circumstances I can say that the pain of the bad texture is literally worse than shingles!#it took me like 6 months to gather the energy to go bedsheet shopping last time so I’ll probably just keep suffering for months again 😓#I’m laying on my weighted blanket because it’s soft and stays in place but that means I don’t have my weighted blanket #I am trying a new strategy of wearing a onesie so none of my skin touches the sheet but #the occasional instances of my hands/feet briefly touching the texture is intensely horrible #I know it sounds dramatic to phrase it this way but like: it’s kinda like 😥 traumatic? if I am allowed to use that word in this instance?#the spike of panic and adrenaline I feel when I so much as *almost* touch the sheet is familiar to the panic I used to feel when avoiding #PTSD triggers or when I’d get a very distressing intrusive thought #I literally have nightmares about accidentally touching the sheets #and my entire behavior has shifted significantly to avoid the texture at any cost even at my own detriment #like when my shingles was hurting terribly but I curled up in a way that hurt it worse just to avoid the bedsheet texture #I don’t even know where to get better sheets. I tried Walmart and target but they only seem to carry their own brands now and they’re all #the same material and style and there’s no options #I thought about trying a more specialized store like a Kohl’s or idk something #but by the time I’m trying to think of where to buy new sheets I’m beyond overwhelmed and can’t even leave the house. much less #drive to a store and look for good sheets underneath fluorescent lights and loud music and the fucking Bible Belt Middle Aged Women staring #at my androgynous appearance like I’m Satan incarnate #ugh….. I need to go like. touch grass lol. watch a rolly polly meander across an acorn shell.

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