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#i wanted to draw the evolver gun but i couldn't find any refs with a good angle#normal gun will have to do#in any case i wanted to draw this like 2 weeks ago when i started playing the first game#but then i couldn't stop playing it and ended up finishing it at 1 am last saturday#and then i tried to sleep right after but i couldn't bc i wanted to play nirvana initiative so badly#so then i stayed up from then on until sunrise playing the second game#just beat it the other day#didn't like it as much as the first game but i still really enjoyed it#also this marks the second year in a row where i become obsessed with a duology of visual novels and play them in under two weeks#(last year was dgs)#my grades briefly plummeted as a result but they're ok now lol#ai the somnium files#aitsf#aiba#my art
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... why he sit like this
#in this position his face is extremely 'cartoon cat' shaped.. like the perfectly round cheeks and little#rounded bump of a snout.. big round eyes. etc. stretched over the arm of a chair like a weirdo#cats#It's still Hot Evil Summer time and I have so much to do so am just aimlessly hopping between various projects but not actually#getting anything done. as usual. Also so so so so tired. I almost fell asleep in the middle of the floor like 3 times today lol#Trying to finish some costume photos and also another poll adventure thing. plus I do really want to do a sculpture sometime#I haven't finished one in a while. Hopefully my tiredness is nothing bad.#Maybe I'm anemic again so that's making me tired. Or maybe it's just a Listless phase. not that I'm ever really THAT productive considering#all of the health problems and etc. always holding me back. but still. I'm not usually 'sleep or just stare at a wall literally all day' ty#e unproductive.. at least not for multiple days in a row so. hmm... Sometimes especially in the summer though I will have periods of time#that are listless like that. I am under low level phyiscal stress for months at a time due to summer heat so I guess it makes sense#that would eventually take a toll. I just have SO MANY THINGS I WANT TO DO!!!!! AAUUGhhh#I also came up with a new idea for a game that is so so cool and I wish I could make it but I have to finish the other one first lol#which I will NEVER do. if I spend all day just sleepy unfocused barely able to do anything#I also really need to sell some clothes and sculptures because I'll probably have to buy a new computer soon so I need money. (plus still#recovering the costs of having to euthanize my other cat.. wehh) There's nothing clearly wrong with it right now but it's getting gradually#slower and there's more weird glitches happening randomly and idk.. just weird things that make me think 'hmm... bad.. possibly.'#ANYWAY... I just have so much to do that I both REALLY want or need to do - so it's perpetually frustrating that I just can't for whatever#reason like. Time is always mving forward. every day I waste is a wasted day. The year is already almost half over. I havent finished#any of the projects I wanted to .. and there's only more and more things to do each day. It's overwhelming and stinky#and thats not even considering having to do all of my tasks also with the background noise of economic inequality. everything increasingly#going into an even scarier political direction. active climate change crisis. pandemic that still exists and is insane to act otherwise. et#etc. HOW am I supposed to solo make two whole games . write 3 book series. finish sculptures. do costumes. make outfits. game videos. make#stable network of social connections. do my little side crafts. take care of myself and cats. pay rent. manage health issues. keep a routin#.try to make some sort of money. go to doctors appointments. handle regular maintenance like cleaning and cooking and self care#and buying new plates when old ones break or etc. make sure to do other things like backup my computer data regularly. do shopping lists.#take care of plants. pursue like 6 different academic interests. do the other side side projects I have for fun (like music or carving avoc#ado pits). eat in a healthy way thats okay for my Special Health Issue diet. exercise so i don't die early. etc. etc. etc. AND all while it#82F in my apartment all the time and I have tiny income and also need to move to another country/climate somehow??? lol......#ANYWAY.. ..very frustrated today over my chronic Tired Sleepy.. time for Cat Photos - which cure all of life's ailments lol
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random assortment of drawings i might as well post
#scribbles#ocposting#furry tag#gif#eyestrain#bright colors#the gifs showing up kinda weird i think thats just a thing on my end though#have noticed it happens a lot for me w transparent gifs on here. idk#gif was for a dta thingy btw uhhh#‘cowcheese’ thing is for my sisters weezer parody where theyre rats nd instead called cheezer#words on the one on its right are lyrics frm heres to you by zebrahead cuz it was stuck in my head..#oh also the middle drawing on the first row of three was color picked frm the cover of phoenix also by zebrahead#first drawing i just made cuz i was messing w preset brushes nd thought itd be funny#long one w the four characters is.. little goody two shoes characters But Furries . lol#oh the one left of the cheezer thing was smthn i drew in class w my friends prisma colors instead of working on my actual art project#actually started that now its driving me crazy cuz i made like a million versions of the sketch messinf w the composition#and im still not sure entirely what i do and dont wanna include and also the actual paper im doing my final on isnt like. wide enough to fi#things in nicely 💔💔💔 also i never planned out colors like an idiot so im making that up as i go and avoiding it a lot aghhghh#giegue drawings are honestly just here cuz i think hes funny#sorry for the paragraph of tags i love talking abt things#uhhhmhmmh i kinda hate postint stuff most places online now ngl#i have so much more art i COULD post but it just feels weird idk#no one really interacts w my stuff much anymore anyways like idk <- this is jot me fishing for pity or disregarding anyone who does leave#nice comments i appreciate that stuff SO mucu it means the world to me. i just dont feel super strongly abt posting shit anymore i feel lik#i have much better peace of mind just leaving things to myself sometimes#as much as i like sharing things it just hasnt been convenient lately and also ive just been getting like.. very paranoid abt a lot of#things over these past years and the constant posting everything o. tumblr thing didnt help much#🙃 okay ill stop rambling now have a nice day
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#hehe :P#still not looking at anything bc i dont want spoilers BUT#i cannot believe i traded my carat zone pc’s so quickly it took like. 2 min#i guess bc i pulled two shuas lol#also this is the first time using my jun cat keychain thing bc they smell good and i didnt want the smell to go away lmao#and btw my mom has the vocal unit pc keychain thing(?) on her bag#ahhhh im so excited but so terrified for them to see me so close in the 4th row#and during the day outside 😐#when dokyeom sent me a heart before i was a bit farther away and it was in dark tokyo dome lmfao#but anyways at the same time i am confident i can make them fall in love with me 🥰#anyways that’s all!#diamond life
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Not too bad a day at the office yesterday--helps that we can use our patio in nice weather again 😌--leading into a decent arm day workout 💪🏽 (despite how long it took to get a bench for chest press work 😩)
#ore no kao#was a bit sneaky with a guy or two nearby in the locker room lol#also ffffuck saw my big gym crush two nights in a row and both times we noticed each other more (and pretty sure he made me blush yday lol)#and we still haven't gotten to talk 😩#[or more i still havent gotten out of my head to say something hoping he would first lol]#(*made me blush Tues since i was t9o tired to post this last night lol)#maybe i'll take my coworker's advice and just find myself working out near him with weight needing a spot... 🤔#it hit me last night we've eyed each other here/there for 3-4 months already 😳#[i shouldnt be as shy about trying to talk with him since i literally just had my friend over again on sat for some fun lol but 😩]#i feel like we should've still texted a bit more by now though but he does seem to not be a texter or indeed too busy... hm
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guess who got presale tickets to the 50th anniversary event for phantom of the paradise babyyyy
#i got in 2 seconds after they went on sale and everything up to row 4 was already gone#and by the time i got this screenshot all of section b was gone#we still got really good central seats - main area row 4 is excellent#never had a shot at first row with the issues ticketmaster had this morning lol but i'm still STOKED#can't believe so many seats are already gone????? it's been 1 minute????
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grossly yelling I can’t believe I missed the lad’s 2 year design day by 3 days Q~Q anyways here’s to two-ish years of drawing my favourite dumbass 💖
#ramble in furness#ttte james#ttte humanized#pup's art#welcome to me going from learning how to draw again to taking a break somewhere along the thrird line then remembering how to draw again lol#the last one is still a wip from his new ref#which is supposed to be a callback to the first image#i love how you can tell when the onesie saga happened lmao#i think the last row is my fav#anyways thank you for putting up with my dumbass antics hahaha#me and james are gonna go admire pictures of himself now
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Finished making a cat ear beanie for my partner!
Figuring out the stitch placements to construct the ears was a pain. I couldn't follow the pattern for how I wanted them to look, bc I didn't want the long stitches to show behind the ears like they do in the pattern. I tried to make the ears curl in like a real cat's and not puff up like it had air inside looking like horns.
Their head is a lot bigger than mine and I had to try to adjust the pattern as best as I knew how. Bc it's so big it doesn't look completely right on me, but still! I think it's pretty good for my first completed knitting project in a long time.
#Ella life#Ella face#I've never posted any knitting stuff before#Ella yarn stuff#Ella crafts#idk man lol#I do not want to touch my scarf yet bc I'm still mad that I have to undo all that great troubleshooting I did before which was a PAIN#idk how I'm gonna make the tension right again in that part TTATT#I don't want to undo that section and fix it only for the tension to be all stupid again anyway and make me frog it several rows back TTATT#DON'T MAKE ME DO IIIIIIIIIT TTATT#oh! also this was my first time using microfiber yarn which made it a bit hard to see individual stitches when I was sewing it up#but I think I did well!
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feeling silly might submit the one flash piece i have that's submittable (lol) to another litmag just to see what happens.
#i've already gotten 3 high tier rejections in a row from said mag so at this point another just feels like part of this beautiful dance#i dont simultaneously submit beyond like. 3 submissions so im like OOOOH he's soooo crazzzyyyyyy#i did not initially see the story as 'fitting' the mag but i don't think it necessarily. does not fit. if that makes sense#like not my first thought but idk i feel alive i feel crazy#let me read it first to see if it still hits#havent read her for a month LOL
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all my attacks for art fight 2023!!! team werewolves ftw 🐺🎨✨
#purrs#my art#i did most of these in the first 5 days of art fight and burned out IMMEDIATELY (but also i gave myself carpal tunnel over it + life got#kinda hard / busy anyways lol so there was a lot going on) so i barely did anything art fight related for the next 3 weeks and ended up#finishing all my wip revenges in the last 24 hrs of the event 💀💀💀💀 but even still i had a great time and im rly proud of myself! i think#im really starting to pin down my style again which feels rly good after not drawing for like 3 yrs. tysm to everyone who attacked me esp m#beloved mutuals ily all so much and it was a PLEASURE drawing ur characters!! for those i didnt get to attack back... see u next yr >:"~)#also 2 fun facts! 1) this is the 2nd yr in a row that my last attack of the yr featured a snail-related character… and 2) SO many of the#characters i drew this yr are wearing spiked collars / armbands it’s kinda wild. i choose to see it as a prophecy that led me to joining#animal jam (but also the one animal jam attack i did (HIIII MICHAEL) literally did get me into animal jam lol <3)
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i'm so bad about publishing stuff i end up spending the entire first day editing all the little mistakes that i only ever notice after posting publicly & reuploading it 500 times and it's always so embarrassinggggg
#i Should find an editor one day but it just doesnt feel necessary for little stuff like this#idk there's only so much u can do rereading your own writing 500 times in a row mndfkjsfkh#it's even worse this time cus people are downloading it and i cant fix it in the same way as something that plays in browser :|#must admit to the mortifying ordeal of making mistakes#it is what it is i guess.....#maybe it will get easier the more completed/polished stuff i post#one day hike was similar tho after that first day of fixing typos and stuff i calmed down and havent touched it#even tho i know there's still a typo in there. i should fix that too LOL
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some girls took my place??
#and now i have to sit in the first desk in middle row. and you can guess how that looks#my class is very mean to 'loners' and i stand out even more now. sooner or later they'll get to me#i just wish they asked if they could sit there? or if they could sit beside me?#it's true that i came in late but they knew i was always sitting there. i just think it's mean#i'm going to get up super early tomorrow to take it back because idc. i'm not going to be bullied again#thankfully we don't have a lot of lessons today but still#i know that i would ask before taking someone's fixed place. it's an unspoken rule and it's nice#sorry if i sound rude but i've been sitting there for a while and they knew it. i'm going to be targeted by the class#sigh#anyways bye i hope you're all doing better than me today <3#gotta go to class now lol
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I would like to know what was put in Leo/Need’s storylines to make me basically disinterested, until the last 3 chapters when I’m suddenly so deeply invested in these girls and their band
#rambles#pjsk#project sekai#like I love Leo/need but I always have to kinda make myself sit through the first five chapters#and then it’s like three bangers that tug at my heart#it’s fascinating and has happened with almost all theirs story’s lol#yes I’m still making my way through the past events yes I IMMEDIATLY played emus new event what of it#to be fair I had at that point completed all the past wxs events (sadly)#project sekai posting again whoop I am so tired rn lol#but I full combo’d like 5 hard charts in a row so I feel like I could kill god yknow?
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she's here
(can't use her until my workbench comes in tho :/)
#came 2 months earlier than I expectee#the lady said there was an issue w the row counter but if I was ok w that I could have it now#and since it still works it's just a lil rickety I figured I could deal#worst case I could use my handknitting app lol#i know I have to do 500 beginner swatches before I even look at a pattern (nevermind that it's a lace pattern)#but still I wanna do a lacey throw as my -first project-#i shouldn't#esp since I would wanna use the whole 200 needle bed#but I wanna#knitting#knitting machine#vintage
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i had such a good day yesterday i needed it 😌
#did fuck all literally just did things to enjoy myself and it was nice!!! saw a movie w my bf AND went to a restaurant after 😶🌫️#Bc why nott#The only thing was itsl ike actually spring weather rn and like 50-60f degrees somehow even tho#i swear like a month ago itwas really hot and in the 80s but now itslike moderately cool again#and i only brought one sweater 😭bc i didnt expect it to be like kind of cold out lol#And its been rainy the past two days ive been driving in heavy gross rain on the highway to meet my bf and i hate itt#it was gross outside and we walked in light rajn after but idc#it would hav been nicer if the day was nicer and sunny out but i still had fun and we went to b&n before the movie#bc we had time and looked around#It was the same b&n we went to on our 2nd date over the summer two yrs ago and we kissed in tje parking lot first time when the place was#empty nd no one around and just us at nightt :*#and then we saw the movie and went to one of the onl restaurants open bc it was like 10 by then and then we left at 11 and walked around#and kissed for 40+min and saying goodbye and kissed a lot in the parking lot b4 we had to go#we werent exactly in the same spot where we had our first kiss bc we parked like a parking lot over at the time#not directly in front of the b&n like now but it was basically the same area ;)#so romanticc and we were like the onl ppl there bc it was so empty at that time#:* then i went home and played fort ite online w my bf and we won both games twice in a row Lmfao 😶🌫️😶🌫️
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HAD THE. CRAZIEST INSANE SEQUENCE OF EVENTS AT UNIVERSAL TODAY
#okay. in line for our first ride we notice the couple behind us is british and we're like omg! thats fun. dont hear a lot of british accents#so we like move on. and go to our next ride. and notice behind us there was a group of british teens#and we were like omg! what a fun coincidence. hahahaha. anyways :) and we left and went to our next ride#and as we got to the end we saw this guy arguing about the fact he couldnt bring his backpack onto the ride#so he left to put it in a locker and went. “sorry i cant get on” in. YOU GUESSED IT. A BRITISH ACCENT.#and they had a little kid so we were like OMG. 3 diff british families thats so insane. and like little kids with accents are always so fun#so we leave like. are we on punkd? this is wild. and we go to another ride. No British people around. but.#as we get to like the ride area the door isnt open#so i turn to my friend like should i just open it myself? and i hear. from the family who's going in with us.#'just go ahead and open it love'. SHOCK#DISBELIEF. A FOURTH FUCKING BRITISH FAMILY. COMPLETELY SEPERATE FROM THE OTHER 3. ALL IN A ROW.#we leave in a daze. surely thats just insane. so we go to the other park and get on our first ride. no british people#we think okay. its finally over. go to another ride. still no british people. like i guess the curse is lifted lol!#and as we are walking to our next ride i am physically blocked by this family. and as i go to complain about it what do i hear?#TWO LITTLE KIDS SPEAKING IN GERMAN. TWO GERMAN CHILDREN. WHAT THE FUCK.#i start flipping out because in all my years of living in orlando i have never seen a german tourist. thats crazy.#and after all THAT? MY GOD!#we leave the ride in a daze. and we decide to go on one last ride (a harry potter one)#of course i have the thought like lol. there should be a british family here itd be appropriate#and as we're walking up i see another guy getting told he has to put his backpack in a locker. as a joke i turn to my friend and say#'i cant get on!' in the same accent as that guy from all those rides ago. as a funny reference to ourselves#and as i step closer what do i hear exit this mans mouth? A FUCKING. SCOTTISH ACCENT.#I FELT LIKE I WAS IN A FEVER DREAM. WHAT THE FUCK. HOW DOES THIS HAPPEN#i have NEVER seen so many british people in my entire life. ALL IN ONE DAY.
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