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#is it obvious yet that every one of my favorite ocs suffers the most
slippersandsmoke · 2 years
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If I have migraines, so do my characters, so here’s a list of them and how they’re affected purely for the catharsis:
Liam: He’s basically my migraine conduit at this point. He gets them often, to varying degrees. Sometimes he can work through them, sometimes they make him sensitive, and sometimes they take him out. When that happens, he’s relegated to bed until it goes away or he finally breaks and takes migraine rescue meds. He has less severe migraines so often that he doesn’t always register them as a problem, but as the resident anxiety man, he can’t avoid them.
Will: His are occasional, but they knock him out completely anywhere from a few hours to a day. They make him sick, and he just generally doesn’t have a good time the whole time. He gets migraine hangovers and tries to function through them but the brain fog gets to him pretty badly. He gets forgetful and loses track of time easily.
Enyo: Anxiety man again, but in a different book! He almost constantly has a dull headache, so constantly present that he doesn’t necessarily register it all the time. Consequently, he doesn’t normally do anything to make them better. When he gets migraines, he forgets that they’re migraines and just lies down until the worst of it stops.
Rory: He spends a lot of time at a screen and a lot of time just being...brain on. It’s almost like he uses so much energy that eventually his body is like “rest time now” and puts him in so much pain that he can’t function.
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I haven't been terribly active lately, mostly because I've been busy doing stuff instead of posting about it or reading tumblr. I'm not sure anyone cares anyway? It feels sometimes like my online activities are just sort of shouting into the void, and my FC is.. some of my favorite people have left or are (I think) in the process of leaving and that makes me sad. It's sort of the story of online things, I guess. The life cycle of online groups.
Anyway, enough with the self-pity. This probably should be like 5 posts but oh well. Have a long rambling blog post about stuff I've been working on that makes me happy, if nothing else.
I got my amaro mount! It's a little sad that I've been playing since 2014 (off and on, but mostly on; though, granted, on many different alts) and only just now got everything to 80 on any one character, but I don't even care. He needs a name that isn't Seto Jr, but I'll figure out something.
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I got the last two rare animals for my island! Twinklefleece and the alligator. Twinklefleece is both cute and horrifying, and unsurprisingly my partner loves him.
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Very minor when it comes to the forbidden tooling really, except that faces are a little difficult, but I finally gave Mercutio his real scar instead of the drawn on line facepaint that I had been using. And added his Garlean eye so I can tell when a headgear will actually cover it or not. Thank you Penumbra for making it so I can do this without turning every face 7 Midlander into a Mercutio clone.
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Worked on my G'raha/Aedan AU worldbuilding a lot and did.. way too many alterations of gear so they sort of fit what I imagined. I can't really draw, so I guess I use the game as my concept art engine~ It's conveniently teaching me a lot about Blender along the way.
I'm sort of afraid to talk about this AU because 1) it might suffer from "oc with identity theft" issues for Raha, 2) it causes.. many story issues for the main scenario (because Raha never goes to Sharlayan in it - see #1), and 3) I may have taken enough inspiration from Wakanda that it edges into ripping off territory.. It's not enough Wakanda to just like.. say it's a Wakanda AU, though. Where's the line? I don't know. Plus it's like.. 95% OCs. It will eventually make contact with the main cast (if I can work out or handwave the butterfly effect issues of no G'raha in the main game - all of Shadowbringers is a giant ¯\_(ツ)_/¯ right now), but for most of it, it's just Aedan and Raha and a bunch of people who aren't part of canon. It makes me happy though, so I guess that's enough for now.
Also many screenshots with poses that are varying levels of my work, though sadly I just noticed my favorite one is.. fucked in one very obvious place and I have no idea how I missed it, so I guess I'll have to redo it later. You can have this one instead (base poses def not mine): AU Aedan and Raha in their late teens (like 17-18). Raha's top mash-up is one of my alterations, for better or worse.
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And, if you made it this far, here's AU Aedan's and Raha's first kiss as a treat. They're older here, like 21-22, have their older hairstyles, but their outfits haven't evolved yet. Yes, there's a reason for the flowers. :)
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Bonus Raha on his tippytoes with his curly little tail.
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So, I sent you (@disgruntledspacedad) a pretty long ask a while ago (back when you had anon on) and I'm decently sure Tumblr ate it (or maybe you ignored it, in which case, feel free to ignore this one as well). But then I saw one of those "writers appreciate feedback no matter how long" posts, so I'm back here. Here is my mediocre attempt to rewrite my original review of your work. Bear in mind that English is not my first language, so if at any point my phrasing sounds weird to you, you know why. Mandatory disclaimer/apology: this might get a little too long 😅
RULES OF ENGAGEMENT
I remember being SO mad at myself for not finding this sooner. I binge read it one afternoon with no thoughts for any real life responsibilities I might have had (and no regrets). Javiears is one hell of an unconventional relationship in the beginning, and I really love what you did with them. The whole premise of your story is quite refreshing, and you somehow manage to convey the trust and mutual respect there two feel for one another without explicitly showing us the beginning of their "entanglement".
Also, fuck you for what you did to poor Emilio, that man was a saint and he deserved better! I honestly can't believe that I got so attached to a character that appeared so little in the story, but it happened, and his death kind of broke my heart.
But the Javiears reunion + mild confession was lovely, and felt completely deserved. And of course the sex scene. I won't lie, I expected a bit better from Javi there, but I did like how utterly /human/ it was. Capturing that humanity, the imperfections in each character is something you're really good at (more on that later).
AFTERSHOCKS
Ah, my emotionally constipated babies who really need to work out their communication issues. I do love them, though. And this short series did a really good job of delving a bit deeper into Ears's and Javi's psyche. Kudos to you for dealing with the medical "aftershocks" of living through an explosion AND using that experience to move your emotional plot forward. These two need to grow a lot before they can get to a stable point in their relationship, and you really manage to convey their insecurity and fear of commitment/intimacy while making it clear that they're in it for the long run and that theirs is a relationship that WILL work out so help them God.
IF I FALL
Ouch. Punch me in the gut while you're at it, why don't you?
But seriously, "If I Fall" is SO FUCKING GOOD. Don't get me wrong, it's angstier than an image of Jesus on the cross (don't judge me, it's Holy Week and I just got home from accompanying my grandma to church), but it somehow works beautifully. You, my dear, play heartstrings like they're a fucking guitar and I AM HERE FOR IT.
You're doing an amazing job at making me feel everything these characters are feeling, which is both awful (bc pain) and impressive.
Also, if anything happens to Ana I will cry, because she is adorable and wonderful and has suffered way too much already and really deserves a break and some cookies.
Also also, if anything happens to Ears I will cry, because she is badass and wonderful and has suffered way too much already and really deserves a break and some cookies.
Also also also, if anything happens to Javi I will cry, because he is loving and wonderful and has suffered way too much already and really deserves a break and some cookies.
Basically, I am really invested in the well-being of these characters and can't wait until they're happy and safe again (please tell me they will be, my heart can't handle much more pain).
A quick note on the angst complaints: yes, this story is way angstier than most other fics out there and it can be a bit too much at times, especially considering how many chapters of pain it's been. BUT it's obvious that "If I Fall" NEEDS this amount of angst to get where it's going, to send the message it wants to and to properly develop its characters. The pain is as important to this story as flour is to bread. You may not like eating flour on its own (I don't think anyone does), but you love bread (because bread is amazing) and you must recognize that bread NEEDS flour to work. It wouldn't be bread otherwise. And eating the flour as part of the bread even makes you like the flour because the bread is just DELICIOUS.
I fully understand and sympathize with the people who have elected to table "If I Fall" until it's completed so they can binge read it knowing there's a happy ending in sight, but in case you're feeling a bit self conscious about all the angst, please know that your story is beautiful not in spite of the pain, but rather /because of it/.
PS: No, I'm not high/drunk, I just really like bread
AUTHOR'S NOTES
Silly thing to comment on, I know, but I do feel like it's important that you know how useful your ANs have been. There are many details in the story that I simply wouldn't fully get without reading your comments at the end of each chapter, and I appreciate your writing a hell of a lot more knowing how deeply you understand and care for each one of your characters. Plus, it is obvious how much work you've put into researching a country and a time period that are (from what I gather) unfamiliar to you, and I really do believe you've done an amazing job of it.
JAVIER PEÑA
My boy. I love your characterization of this complicated character, and I have eagerly read each and every one of your headcanons about him. I can't really say if your version is fully faithful to the source material because it's been a while since I saw Narcos, but your Javi most definitely reads like a real person. He's fairly consistent as a character, and I feel like everything he does is perfectly natural for him to do as a character. He makes for an unconventional yet deeply interesting romantic lead, and so far I have thoroughly enjoyed all his POV chapters/scenes.
OCs
I know you've gotten some flack for making her into an OC halfway into the story, and while I get why the sudden change may have felt like a disappointment for some, I don't share that sentiment. I firmly believe that this fandom is unfairly harsh towards Original Characters and their creators, and I don't really understand why. Listen, I love Reader fics, and consume many Reader fics. I have read dozens, maybe even hundreds, and I can safely say that I've only ever "inserted" myself in approximately 10% of those stories. Reader characters are not as blank as their writers may want them to be. They can't be. They're characters, and character have personalities and moral values and senses of humor and a bunch of other things. Reader characters may not have a backstory or a physical description attached (and even that's not guaranteed), but they're still characters.
And on a more personal note, pretending they're actual blank slates is naive at best and insensitive at worst. Reader characters are American coded 99% of the time, and white coded 95% of the time. Not every readers is white nor American, even if that's the predominant demographic on Tumblr. When I read a JavixReader fic about a woman who speaks exactly zero Spanish, I know she's not me. The story may be beautifully written and have an amazing plot and character development, but the Reader *isn't me*. There is absolutely nothing wrong with that, and some of my favorite xReader stories feature a "reader" who couldn't be more different from me, but it's something that enemies of OC fics should take into account. Particularly if they are white and/or American. But I digress.
HANNAH AARONS
Your character is amazing. She's strong, smart, confident, independent and an all-around badass. She gets kidnapped while pregnant and still focuses on problem solving and survival. But she's also overly guarded and mistrustful, and really needs to work on her communication skills. There are times when I absolutely love her and even admire her, and other times when I want to whack her with a slipper. She's no Mary Sue, but remains interesting and likeable throughout the story. She feels wholly human and real, and that's no easy task. I like her, I am invested in her, and I can't wait to see what's next for her. She's a compelling and three dimensional protagonist in a complex story who never fails to draw me in. I love her. She's your baby, and you should be proud of her.
Also, quick question about personality types: I know you've typed Javi as ESFP and Ears as ENTP (100% agree on both, btw), but have you given any thought to their enneagram types? I personally have always seen Ears as being somewhere on the thinking triad, maybe a 7 or even a 6w7, but I'm not too sure about Javi. 9w8 maybe? He could also be a 6w5 🤔
PARTING THOUGHTS
Basically, I love your story, your characters and your writing in general. You are a fantastic storyteller and wordsmith. You get into the heads of incredibly different characters personality-wise (Ears, Javi, Berna...) and manage to capture all of their complexities and quirks every single time. And it doesn't feel like it's something innate for you either. To me, it seems that you have put a lot of work and effort into understanding each and every one of your characters, who they are, why they do what they do and what they want. And let me tell you, all that effort has been more than worth it. "Better Love" is a fanfic, but it wouldn't be out of place in a regular bookstore, if I'm honest. I don't know what you do for a living or if you've ever considered writing professionally, but you clearly have the skills and the drive to create some masterpieces.
You are amazing and your writing is a gift. Thank you for sharing it with us, and have a nice day! ~ 🍪
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My friend, I apologize for hoarding your first ask. I’ve been sitting on it because I’m not gonna lie, I enjoy going back and rereading it. It gave me a lot of comfort when I was in a pretty dark place, both personally and in regards to my writing, and I was reluctant to send it out into the the abyss of Tumblr where I might never see it again. 
That’s not fair, though. You put just as much effort into sending me that review as I put into my writing, and I apologize for never responding to you.
Okay, anyway, so twice now, you’ve made me cry. In a good way, I promise! 
I absolutely love your bread/flour metaphor. It made perfect sense. I want the emotional release of Javi and Hannah’s reunion to be earned, and in order to do that, the angst has to come first (there are also a few plot “ingredients” that have yet to make their appearances). Thank you very much for understanding that, and for voicing it so eloquently.
I appreciate your comments on my research and characterization. You’re correct that I’ve put a lot of time and effort into crafting a universe. In a lot of ways, I’m doing my best to stay true to the source material (regarding culture and timelines in particular), and in others, I’m branching into my own territory. 
On that note, I’ve never once regretted fully embracing Hannah Aarons’ identity as an OC. She’s stayed consistent in my mind from the beginning, and it was a relief to finally share my vision of her with the audience. And for the record, I totally agree with you regarding “reader” characters. Every reader insert echoes the perspective of their author, no matter how vague the physical description. I can only imagine how grating that must be from the perspective of a non-white, non-american reader. Thank you so much for sharing your insight! I will certainly keep it in mind the next time I write a “reader insert” fic.
Okay, enneagrams! I am much less familiar with enneagram than I am MBTI, but I agree 110% that Javi is a 9 with a strong 8 wing. I waffled back and forth on Ears a little, but eventually landed on 8w7 for her. It came down to the eight’s deepest fear, which is being controlled. That’s Ears all over, and the fact that she and Javi share that eight willfulness means that they might butt heads a little, which also seems very appropriate for them. Big thanks to @remusstark for her insight into the eight frame of mind - our conversations helped solidify my decision on this. :)
Anyway, I’m just rambling now. The big take-away point that I want you to get is that I am so, so grateful to you, both for your insightful feedback and your dedication in making sure that I actually saw it. You are an absolute gem and a deep thinker, Cookie-Anon, and if you ever feel like sliding into my DM’s, I’d welcome the opportunity to get to know you better.
Mad love and soft hugs, 
~ Jay
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Out Of Character Questions
ROLEPLAYER GET TO KNOW YOU PROMPT
Tagged by: @hedonistschambers
Tagging: @ask-skeksa-the-mariner, @allpowerfulemperor, @asktheornamentalist, @askurva-thearcher, and anyone else who wants to :)
OOC About Your Character(s)
1.     What do you want to get out of playing this character(s)?
I used to RP on Tumblr a lot in the Megamind fandom, and seeing other Dark Crystal RPers on here made me want to try getting back into RP a little. Since I don’t have any Dark Crystal OCs who lend themselves well to RP, I decided to go with a canon character, and skekZok was a prominent one who hadn’t gotten a blog yet. I’ve always liked looking at characters and thinking about what makes them tick, so this gives me a fun chance to do that for him.  
2.     Describe your character(s) with three words.
Cultured | Sadistic | Hypocritical 
3.     What made you decide to write this muse?
I’d been following the blogs of a few other Skeksis RPers, and the absence of Zok had been remarked on. Since he’s one of my favorites, I decided to make a blog for him and join in the fun.
4.     If you could change one event in your muse’s life (in their main or canon verse), what would you change?
That’s a tough one, because Zok really doesn’t suffer that much in canon compared to other characters. I might stop ZokZah from trying to burn out part of his soul, but skekZok wouldn’t exist and there wouldn’t be much of a story if I did that. (If we include the JM Lee novels, I’d change it so he doesn’t throw skekSa under the bus.)
5.     If you could tell your muse one thing, what would you tell them?
“Don’t stab the blonde Gelfling girl. It won’t prevent the prophecy, and she’ll just come back to life anyway.”
6.     If you could give your muse one gift, what would you give them?
I’d love to see his reaction to a Swiss Army knife.
7.     If you had to take one positive thing away from your muse, what would you take away?
I’m not sure how positive this is, but I’d take away his ability to believe his own lies. It would be interesting to see how he tries to juggle all the conflicting rules and stories he’s come up with over the centuries. 
8.     If you could “borrow” one aspect of your muse and apply it to yourself or your own life, what would you borrow?
His talent for speaking in public. I wish I could command an audience like he does.
9.     Do you genuinely want your muse to be happy? What do you think would make them most happy in life?
Considering the kind of things that tend to make Zok happy? Maybe. As for what would make him happiest, he believes it would be achieving immortality and remaining one of the highest-ranked of the court and having skekSa as his permanent mate, but that still won’t heal the spiritual emptiness inside him. Much as I enjoy Zok and Zah as separate beings, I do think reunification was the best thing for them. If he and SaSan could have been together after that, that would have been even better.
10. Do you enjoy putting your muse through angst? What do you think would break their heart the most?
I don’t mind angst in small doses, as long as I plot it out with the other player(s) beforehand and we agree how it will turn out in the end. Zok doesn’t lend himself easily to angst, but losing his place in the court hierarchy or having one of his allies turn on him would do it. He’s also come to genuinely believe the mythology he’s invented over the centuries -- anything that seriously challenged that worldview would be hard for him to deal with. 
11. What do you love about your muse?
A lot of things. His charisma, his striking blue eyes, the way his voice is deeper and smoother than most of the other Skeksis, how over-the-top his gold outfit is, how he’s so attached to his headdress that he doesn’t even take it off in the spa, how unrepentantly creepy and sadistic he is -- he’s a very enjoyable character, even if he is a horrible birb.
12. What do you hate about your muse?
He's not an easy character to have interact with everyone. He can pretend to be nice when it suits him, and he’s not totally incapable of caring about people, but he’s still nasty enough that I can tell in advance a lot of interactions wouldn’t go well. 
13. What about your muse amuses you?
The contrast between the austere image he tries to keep up, and how frazzled he gets when something upsets that image (”MY CARRIAGE!”). Also when he gets sarcastic or looks down on the others when they act in a less-than-civilized way. 
14. What about your muse makes you sad?
All the people he’s hurt, and how unwilling he is to see that his way of life isn’t sustainable and won’t truly make him happy in the end.
15. How would you describe your muse to someone about to meet them, in person, for the first time?
“This guy is a creep, but he believes in good manners. Tread lightly, and you should be okay.”
16. Would you like your muse as a person if you met them in real life?
LOL no. He’s an awful person who is best left in the realm of fiction.
17. In what ways are you better than your muse? In what ways are they better than you?
I like to think I’m a much nicer person than he is. I can be blunt and a bit of a troll sometimes, but I really don’t like hurting anyone, or trying to force people to do stuff they don’t like. As for Zok, he’s much more confident and well-spoken than I am, and he’s had the determination to stick with one job for a thousand years. 
18. Why do you think you connect to your muse?
We’re both interested in culture, myth, and history, and feel better when we can assign some order to the world around us. 
19. What aspect of your muse’s personality is most important to you? What aspect of your muse’s personality do you think is most important to them? Is it the same? Why or why not?
As I see it, the core of Zok’s character is that he wants to bring order to the world; that’s why his job title is ‘Ritual Master’ rather than ‘High Priest’ or something more overtly religious. If he can’t see an obvious reason why things are the way they are, he’ll invent one that makes sense to him (and serves his needs). 
I think this is what Zok sees as his most important trait too -- in his mind, he took a bunch of feral newborn creatures who (by all rights) were never meant to have existed in the first place, and helped turn them into a civilized, godlike people who rule an entire planet. But that feral nature is always under the surface, and they still need ritual and order (and yes, punishment) to keep it in check. 
20. Has your character(s) changed over the time that you have been playing them? How have they changed?
I haven’t been playing Zok for very long, but I’ve recently had a chance to write how he feels about deeper questions, like what it would mean for Skeksis to have children, and what happens to Skeksis and urRu souls after they die. I think it’s made him a bit more three-dimensional. 
About You!
1.     What is your name?
Kate, a.k.a. Crow or Lady Stormcrow
2.     What is your profession?
Social worker, currently working in substance abuse treatment.
3.     What do you do to relax?
Watch favorite TV shows, play video games, listen to music, hang out outdoors, chat online. 
4.     What is your favorite treat (desert)?
I have a big weakness for flan and other custard desserts. Also caramel.
5.     Favorite movie
Amadeus (1984).
6.     Favorite book
Good Omens (and yes I loved the series too). 
7.     Favorite vacation spot
Grand Cayman. We were supposed to visit again this spring, but COVID happened.
8.     Favorite Disney movie
I’m not sure I have one favorite, but I love Fantasia and The Rescuers.
9.     How did you first get into role playing?
Almost 20 years ago, lol. When I first started going online in high school, I made an online friend ( @ksclaw ) who introduced me to the concept. We played interactions with our SWAT Kats fan characters, and she helped me get the hang of it.
10. What was your first platform? If it was something other than Tumblr, what made you get into Tumblr?
It was Livejournal. I discovered Tumblr in late 2011 after my friends in the Megamind fandom introduced me to it, and most of us migrated here from our old LJ community. I loved being able to reblog whatever struck my fancy, and while my interest has waxed and waned, as you can see I’m still here.
11. What’s a grammar rule you find yourself breaking or ignoring a lot?
I like to think I have pretty good grammar. I know I’m guilty of run-on sentences, though, and I overuse ellipses and mix up ; and -- far too much. 
12. Are there any languages besides English in which you think you could comfortably roleplay?
Not really. I can speak and understand a little Spanish and French, but not enough to write anything meaningful, and I’m wary of translation software for anything beyond a short sentence. Sorry!
13. Do you listen to music while your write?
Sometimes. Usually not when I’m doing the actual writing (that’s distracting, and I like to hear the words in my head), but I’ll listen to it beforehand to get myself in a mood or get some inspiration.
14. Are you a morning, day, evening, or night writer?
Late morning after I’ve had my coffee is usually my best time. Unfortunately I’m usually at work during that time, but on slow days and weekends I try to take advantage of it.
15. How does tiredness affect your writing?
It turns me into a zombie who can dream but cannot actually write.
16. What is your biggest obstacle to writing every day, if time doesn’t count?
Lack of motivation. I daydream and imagine stuff easily enough, but putting it down into writing is much harder, especially when I’m braindead from work.
17. How many drafts is a paralyzing amount?
More than 5 is daunting, though fortunately Zok hasn’t gotten that many yet.
18. Is there anything character-wise or writing style-wise that you can’t stand?
Players who are unwilling to have their characters be in the wrong, or who get upset if my character doesn’t react the way they wanted. Not all interactions are going to be smooth and happy, and I’m fine with that. Your character is not you, just like mine is not me.
19. What kind of anonymous questions are your favorite?
Weird ones. I like having my muses react to them.
20. What is your weakest point in writing? Angst, fluff, dialogue, etc.?
Fluff is kind of tricky. I don’t have trouble imagining it, but I get paralyzed thinking “this is too indulgent, I shouldn’t publish it, no one but me will like it, etc.” Maybe that’s part of why Zok appeals to me, because he’s not the fluffy type. 
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Endless List of OC Playlists ☆ Keira & Jason [ Featuring an old graphic I made on Polyvore before they shut down the site without warning ]
1) STAND BY ME // Bootstraps
❝Oh, I won't be afraid / just as long as you stand, stand by me❞
[ https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=TmVnGQSlw3k ]
I had to include this song or else I don’t think it would have been a Power Rangers playlist. This version absolutely KILLS me. This song was included in the Power Rangers 2017 soundtrack and it hits hard. This song not only represents Keira and Jason’s relationship but their relationship with the other rangers. What makes the Rangers, ‘the Rangers’ is how they are willing to do anything for each other, some rangers are willing to go further than others. For Keira and Jason, this song means that even through the darkest times, they will stand by each other no matter what.
2) WHEREVER YOU WILL GO // Charlene Soraia
❝If I could, then I would / I'll go wherever you will go / way up high or down low / I'll go wherever you will go❞
[ https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=DChHEf0lpEE ]
Out of all of the songs I picked for this playlist, I think this is the song that screams Keira and Jason to me. The way Charlene Soraia’s voice strikes a chord and makes my heart ache makes me feel like this is the perfect song for the two of them. With the two of them living more dangerous lives as Rangers, they didn’t know if they would make it past tomorrow. They would follow each other to the ends of the earth and if something were to happen (and some things have), neither of them would be able to move on. (side note: this is one of my favorite songs on this playlist and in general. Everyone should listen to this cover)
3) FALLING IN // Lifehouse
❝But it's over, without you I'm just lost, incomplete / yeah you feel like home, home to me.❞
[ https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=wBtd1rOMOCE ]
This is another song that screams Keira and Jason to me. While Wherever You Will Go is a much slower (and sad) song revolving around the possibility of loss, Falling In expresses the emotions of that initial feeling of falling in love. I could totally see Jason sprinting to Keira’s house the moment he realizes that he’s in love with her. There wouldn’t be any warning. He would be laying on his bed, finishing up some homework when it would just hit him. When he figures it out, he wouldn’t be able to keep it in for very long. When he shows up at Keira’s front door, he realizes how crazy he must seem and how frightening it is to be in love with someone (especially for the first time), but screw it. He loves her and (hopefully) she loves him.
4) ONE AND ONLY // Adele
❝I don't know why I'm scared / I've been here before / every feeling, every word / I've imagined it all.❞
[ https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=tLla9PYtcoc ]
Everyone has that moment when they have feelings for someone, played out the entire situation in their head but still doesn’t know how to express those feelings. During the duration of Jason and Keira’s friendship before they started dating, she knew something was different between the two of them. She wasn’t oblivious to the fact that Jason had made many advances towards her, but she was still confused as to why she’s hesitant to ask him for his love after having rehearsed it in her head a million times before. It’s a common symptom of love blossoming between close friends – having been around him for so long yet experiencing a loss for words when wanting to move forward in a relationship.
5) TRUE COLORS // Justin Timberlake
❝This world makes you crazy / And you've taken all you can bear / Just, call me up / 'Cause I will always be there.❞
[ https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ECO3ARGisF8 ]
Both Jason and Keira have their insecurities. Jason thinks everything he touches gets screwed up, while Keira has a habit of keeping things bottled up. Sometimes they think that the world is against them. And the both of them have their break down moments. Most of the time it results in one calling the other and lying in silence all night just holding each other. When you break down, I’ll be there. That’s what this song represents, those moments when they’ve taken all they can and just let it all go.
6) YOU MATTER TO ME // Drew Gehling & Jessie Mueller
❝Come out of hiding, I'm right here beside you / and I'll stay there as long as you'll let me / because you matter to me.❞
[ https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=js8lCNubzdY ] 
Keira is a very introverted person and the idea of being in a relationship with anyone, let alone Angel Grove’s fallen Golden Boy scared the crap out of her. This song is about a woman who has been abused and afraid to love, but a handsome stranger comes along, convinces her to come out of hiding and let him love her. The lyrics really hit hard because everyone wants to matter to someone even if they are scared. Keira was that person. She was scared to love someone, but Jason let her know that she mattered to him and he wasn’t going anywhere.
7) DON’T YOU WORRY CHILD // Swedish House Mafia
❝Don't you worry, don't you worry, child / see heaven's got a plan for you.❞
[ https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Fytp6BkJwDU ]
Everyone worries about how their life is going to turn out or if they’re messing the whole thing up. This song is about accepting your life how it is, there is a plan for you and you’re right on track. With everything that is/was going on in both Keira and Jason’s lives, they have their doubts about whether or not they’re doing it right. But there’s a reason for everything and a plan in place.
8) AS LONG AS YOU LOVE ME // Sleeping At Last
❝I don't care who you are / where you're from / what you did / as long as you love me.❞
[ https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=VxQE5GcyIqc ]
This song talks revolves around the idea that it doesn’t matter the background, as long as you love them, nothing else matters.  Jason was the Golden Boy quarterback who fricked up real badly. And it’s painfully obvious that he beats himself up about it. Luckily for Jason, Keira couldn’t give two sh.its about Jason’s reputation. She didn’t like him for the fact that he was the football player at their high school and she didn’t care that he messed the whole thing up (she cared that he almost killed himself in the process of escaping from the cops, but that’s a different story). She knew that he didn’t like the whole football gig anyway, his dad just wanted him to be a football star. Keira loves him for who he is as a person. Jason is a kind, passionate and loving person, his life shouldn’t revolve around something he doesn’t love.
9) FALLING SLOWLY // Arthur Darvill
❝You have suffered enough / And warred with yourself / It's time that you won.❞
[ https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=lqB_ozuCjRw ]
This is the title song for this playlist. I think this is a good song to describe Jason and Keira pre-relationship. Even though they have known each other since elementary school, it wasn’t until high school when the feelings started. They knew of each other but didn’t really know each other. The moment that he walked away from Keira after hitting her in the face with a football, he knew that he wanted to know all about her. He wasn’t exactly sure what to do about the situation and the things he felt. After the awkwardness passed and they became friends, he realized he was slowly falling for her. She made him feel like no one else had. Keira had a tough time and battled with letting herself love Jason. But slowly, she learned to love him and discovered that what they felt was real. That’s what this song is about, getting to know someone and slowly but surely loving them with all you have.
10) SUNDAY MORNING // Maroon 5
❝Back and forth we sway like branches in a storm / change the weather, still together when it ends.❞
[ https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=tXdlHueax2U ]
Jason and Keira’s relationship has its ups and its downs. Much like many any other relationship. But, when times get a little better and ‘skies look clear’ they’ll be together in the end. Through the difficult times, they’ll still stick together. That’s one of the reasons this song represents the two of them. Another reason is just the lazy morning factor of it. Just waking up on a Sunday morning, probably dead tired from training all night and just basking in each other's company. They don’t have to be intimate. It’s just a moment where they can just relax and not think about all the crazy stuff going on, just focusing on each other.
11) WHAT THE HECK I GOTTA DO / Anthony Ramos & Original Cast of 21 Chump Street
❝What the heck I gotta do to be with you?❞
[ https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=PxZ_rixvzZU ]
This is one of those kinda funny songs. It’s all about a guy trying to convince a girl to go out with him (in which she dodges his advances). It’s a more modern take on liking someone in high school and how teens usually go about it. It makes me chuckle when I think about Jason trying his best to get Keira to go out with him, but she is just not having it (she had a hard time at first, but the more he persisted the more she secretly loved it). Eventually, she just says, “I’ll think about it.”
12) CAN’T STOP THE FEELING // Justin Timberlake
❝I got that sunshine in my pocket / got that good soul in my feet.❞
[ https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Lz2lLTlUcxQ ]
This song is Keira and Jason’s go to jam. They enjoy going on car rides and road trips, it’s one of their favorite things to do together. Keira is usually in charge of the music and whenever this song comes on, the volume goes up and the ugly singing comes out. By the time the song is over they’re both laughing so hard that Jason almost swerves into oncoming traffic (he’s not the best driver).
13) IRIS // Boyz Ⅱ Men
❝No one knows me quite the way you know me / and I'd be lonely without you beside me.❞
[ https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=kGfe26GyYjU ]
I love this version of this song. The harmonies give me goosebumps. But anyways, this song reminds me of Jason and Keira’s relationship. It’s all about being afraid to show who you really are and the two of them are like that. Even though they are close to the other Rangers, there’s just something about their relationship that gives them the courage to share everything with each other. With the two of them becoming so close, no one else really knows who they are deep down except for each other. They put on a face, try their best to please others and be something that they’re not. But both of them know that they could trust each other with who they really are. And that’s special.
14) I GET TO LOVE YOU // Ruelle
❝One look at you, my whole life falls in line.❞
[ https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=oGAzVbQC-18 ]
This song is about just looking at the person you love and realizing how lucky you are to love them. Jason and Keira have a habit of staring at each other when the other isn’t looking. Classic in love, admiration eyes. When they look at each other, they know everything is okay and organized. They understand why they’re here. They would put each other’s happiness over their own. They’ll forever love each other and don’t need anyone else.
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WHAT IS UP, MY DUDES ?                  the name’s mads. short for mads mikkelsen’s #1 fan and lover —— alternatively amanda. you can call me whatever you want, though. or anytime :wink: i am twenty - three years young, and i go by she / them pronouns. my favorite movie franchise is scream and i think machine gun kelly is the best thing since sliced bread. but that’s enough about me … so, click the      READ MORE     below for a brief introduction to my oc’s ! 
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ALISHA BOE, CIS WOMAN, SHE/HER   …   you’re looking for sawyer kinney? town as small as this, you’re bound to find them — the twenty-two year old nephilim and student with an unadulterated love for soccer, bonne bell cotton candy lip smackers, and 1980′s romcoms. with blondies′ sunday girl set as the soundtrack of their stroll, everyone can see clear as day that they’re tenacious, and yet blithe. i just hope you’re finding them for the right reasons …
BACKSTORY …
MEET SAWYER KINNEY —— half angel, half fun. adopted by a nice christian pair in ‘97 after her mommy kicked the bucket. that’s what happens when you fraternise with angels, you see. so … daddy dearest dropped her off at one of eden’s many, many, many churches and said SEE YA !
since then, angelic endeavours have been stifled. for the most part. her adoptive parents died when she was thirteen years old. car crash. and it might’ve been partially sawyer’s fault. we can’t all control our divine urges. or the powers inherited from fathers we never knew.
premonition and other sorts of fun hasn’t been experienced since. partially due to the seizure meds her family feeds her like tic tacs. she’s got epilepsy ! except she like, doesn’t. but from an adult pov and an absence of telekinetic rages since childhood, sawyer accepts the diagnosis at face value. nobody said she was smart.
she’s a vet student, though ! so, she’s semi - smart. sawyer loves all animals ( bunnies mostly ) and has since she was a wee lass. same goes for soccer. nobody loves muddy balls as much as sawyer kinney, y’all.
survivor of three near death experiences, only one which was self - inflicted, sawyer’s kind of convinced herself to have a purpose. she doesn’t. but since the third incident, she’s been more connected to god than ever before. a poor idolisation considering he’d have her sniped if he knew of her existence.
another addition to sawyer’s idiocy is her lack of deep thought regarding the town she lives in. yeah, it’s quirky ! and people are superstitious ! but that’s all there is to it. but as she’s starting to engage more with the vamps of eden, as well as pushing for a release from her medication, she’ll have to unveil this creep - fest for what it is … well, a creep fest.
PERSONALITY …
she’s pushy. like, very. sawyer’s very engaged with her friends and family, possibly due to middle child slash adopted child syndrome. include her or die.
competitive, too. she can get kinda mean when there’s a WINNER title on the horizon. because she has to win, she must win — she’s the best person at whatever they’re competing in. swear to satan ! ( that was me, not sawyer, don’t worry. )
on top of that, sawyer’s the epitome of a social butterfly. she’ll befriend anyone at any given opportunity, and maybe that’s why she’s gonna end up dead in an alley. either way, if there’s a person she does not know —— sawyer will know them by the end of the day. so, it goes without saying then, that she’s quite the partier. drinking is fun ! dancing is fun ! okay ? cool.
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STEVEN YEUN, DEMI BOY, HE/THEY   …   you’re looking for wolfgang baek? town as small as this, you’re bound to find them — the thirty-seven year old human and podcast host with an unadulterated love for dario argento films, his super 8 camera, and chicken mcnuggets is easy to spot. with charles manson’s look at your game, girl set as the soundtrack of their stroll, everyone can see clear as day that they’re meddlesome, and yet voluble. i just hope you’re finding them for the right reasons …
BACKSTORY …
MEET WOLFGANG BAEK —— flop movie director / screenwriter, son of a successful movie director / screenwriter, who resorted to hosting a spooky podcast. men, am i right ? always making them podcasts …
wolfie is what you call a movie buff. horror movies specifically. he loves himself a good scare ! hence why he moved to this little hell - town called eden. it was all for that sick and twisted inspiration. for what you ask — well, for his next movie, duh ! the one he started four years ago and has yet to finish … yeah, that one.
due to his father’s job he spent the majority of his childhood on the cinematic scene. both off and on screen. yeah, he got a cameo in one of his daddy’s 1980′s films ! jealous yet ? you should be. but it isn’t just because of that he has never done a sport in his life, okay … he also has heart issues, baby. a defect heart valve that got fixed ( best it could ) when he was a wee bean. it’s fine now. for the most part.
now he’s kind of obsessed with outdoing his dad even though that is the biggest cliche out of all the cliches and he’s aware of the fact. simply being introspective is not enough, is it ? he’s made a couple shorts, and one feature length — flops the whole bunch. i mean, they’re decent to OUR standards. but to this perfectionist ? nah, son. burn that shit.
PERSONALITY …
wolfie can be … callous. insensitive. a bit of a prick. not in the sense of deliberate asshole - ness, but — he’s desensitised to the world’s tragedies ( too many true crime dramas ) and he’s incredibly pretentious. it’s cinema, darling.
he talks a lot, too. TOO MUCH ! nobody asked for his input regarding the rise and the decline of the slasher genre but here he is … putting it in regardless. odds are every other sentence includes either a. a movie reference, or b. a true crime reference. pick one.
because he’s all work and no play, he’s never had a serious girlfriend. i know ! shocking, right ? i mean, look at him !!!!!!!! but no. longest relationship lasted a whooping four months and we don’t talk about that one. there might be a part of him that believes he’s incapable of love … we don’t talk about that either.
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AUBREY PLAZA, AGENDER, SHE/THEY   …   you’re looking for muriel stafford? town as small as this, you’re bound to find them — the thirty-five year old possessed human and journalist with an unadulterated love for impromptu road trips, take-out delivery food, and burt’s bees pomegranate lip balm is easy to spot. with santana’s she’s not there set as the soundtrack of their stroll, everyone can see clear as day that they’re aloof, and yet perspicacious. i just hope you’re finding them for the right reasons …
BACKSTORY …
MEET MURIEL STAFFORD —— stanford graduate and general pain in the butt. disowned by her family and the whole ghost hunting community. things we don’t discuss: see above.
to make a long story incredibly short, merle grew up in a haunted house. or so they say … you see, when merle was nine years old, her sister was possessed BY THE DEVIL. or so they say … and all that trauma ? documented, darlings. because momma and poppa don’t hesitate to capitalise on their own children. sickening.
according to merle, her sister suffered a psychotic break, and her parents — previously z listers with an affinity for running ghost hunting blogs — didn’t hesitate to make the fact their latest pitch. AND TO STARDOM THEY WENT ! meanwhile, agnes delgado chugged drain - cleaner two years after it aired.
fast forward last year of college, and the anniversary of the notorious exorcism documentary comes creeping up. so merle says enough is enough ! girl puts her soon - to - be journalism degree to use and writes an extensive exposé on her own fam. that ought to show them, right ? well …
turns out : her input was not wanted. as if it wasn’t bad enough to have the remainder of the delgado clan turn on her, the anonymous identity she’d craved ever since entering the spotlight years ago — it is snatched from her ! safe to say she did not think it through.
so, what now ? well, we change our last name to our mommy’s maiden name and we escape the hell - scape that is texas and then, we hope nobody added your newly - zit - free face to memory. because it’s been * math years * ! okay ? forget it … you never read any of the above …
PERSONALITY … 
merle has never cared for much in general, and that’s very obvious. she has a very deadpan approach to life and all of its difficulties. plus, riveting backstory in mind — she’s unlikely to share details of her life unless it pertains recent mundane bull - crap !
going against everything previously established, her attitude towards the supernatural is not skeptical. aliens, ghosts, ghouls … all things that exist. because muriel delgado grew up in a haunted house. and while her adult mind rationalised all that was seen in her childhood, it also suffered a break of its own post her sister’s death - aversary.
it’s nice to come face to face with old friends, though, innit ? and if all she has left of her past is the demonic presence lurking in the back of her mind, then so be it. beggars cannot be choosers, merle.
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Shigeo Eizan, Erina, Eizan Etsuya, Chigeo, Kimiko and Hayama for the character thing please?
Ohh, I didn’t think anyone would ask for my own characters but ;v; !!! Sure !
Shigeo
general opinion: fall in a hole and die | don’t like them | eh | they’re fine I guess | like them! | love them | actual love of my life [Shigeo is a character I’m really proud of haha ; 7 ; But I’m glad he’s actually well-received. I can only repeat, that I did not expect that]
hotness level: get away from me | meh | neutral | theoretically hot but not my type | pretty hot | gorgeous! | 10/10 would bang [Honestly, I feel a bit weird over commenting on the looks of my OCs ahdhd but, I gotta admit Shigeo is much of my type...but I mean, apparently I’m not alone on that? dshdfjFGJ So many have complimented Shigeo’s appearance now and I’m screaming. Y’all are making his ego grow.]
hogwarts house: gryffindor | S L Y T H E R I N, Shigeo’s a full-fledged snake...what do u think? | ravenclaw | hufflepuff 
best quality: I said it once already, but I would actually say his loyalty is his best quality. Now, the number of people that Shigeo is loyal to is extremely slim but...well, it is a very strong loyalty. It’s just, again, it’s only few who earn that loyalty.
worst quality:  lol. I could name numerous things in that regard. But as I also said once already, I guess his most fatal flaw is that he swallows up his fears, his trauma and a lot of other things in himself and never works through it. 
ship them with:  ShigeChi >; Chieko had multiple ship-options at a certain point, but Shigeo’s only ship options always Chieko and welp ahdh The moment I started fleshing Shigeo out more, their dynamic grew more and more onto me and she also sneaked her way into his character-arc so. 
brotp them with: There’s Moe & Kiyoko, who are really close friends of his and I really love their relationships. But I also gotta bring up Suzume here. Suzume’s and Shigeo’s relationship makes me so happy, despite it not being exactly friendly ahdhd. It’s a lot of fun to think of their banter and interactions to me. Also well, Umino & Yamada deserve their mention as well, so here they go ahdh.
needs to stay away from: Ai Kabutoyama. Pls, don’t ship them. 
misc. thoughts: If “Shokugeki no Kimiko” was animated and had it’s own soundtrack, Shigeo deserves to be having a jazzy theme for himself. 
Erina
general opinion: fall in a hole and die | don’t like them | eh | they’re fine I guess | like them! | love them | actual love of my life  
hotness level: get away from me | meh | neutral | theoretically hot but not my type | pretty hot | gorgeous! | 10/10 would bang 
hogwarts house: gryffindor | slytherin | ravenclaw | hufflepuff 
best quality: I really love how much of a Boss Bitch Erina really is, she steps into a place and she owns it and she knows it. But at the same time, her social awkwardness and also obvious care for Hisako, the PSD later on etc. also make her a cutie at the same time.
worst quality: This is really more on Tsukuda’s part, but I do not like how she’s written in BLUE Arc at all, and how she honestly keeps pushing Soma away while he goes out of his way for her multiple times...
ship them with:  Soma is my favorite choice for her
brotp them with: Hisako !!
needs to stay away from: HER DAD. AND ASAHI. AND HER MOM MAYBE- IDK, give her a better family. 
misc. thoughts: Takumi said in his match against her that if she’d be on the Elite Council “She’d be the zero seat”. And honestly, I kinda found myself wishing for Tsukuda just having run with that instead. Just establish a new seat extra for Erina because she’s that good. It still sounds kinda dumb yes, but not as dumb as making her actual headmistress. With 16. What also bothers me about her being headmistress is that it’s a very busy job, I’d imagine....Let Erina be a normal teen, could you? She was already robbed off a childhood, geez. 
Eizan
general opinion: fall in a hole and die | don’t like them | eh | they’re fine I guess | like them! | love them | actual love of my life  [ Or more of: An Angry Opposum, I found in the trash and that I decided to adopt]
hotness level: get away from me | meh | neutral | theoretically hot but not my type | pretty hot [without bangs] | gorgeous! | 10/10 would bang [wiTH BANGS]
hogwarts house: gryffindor | slytherin [...duh] | ravenclaw | hufflepuff 
best quality: Eizan is SO entertaining to me, you all have no idea. He’s so god-damn funny at times and I’m just ahdhd I love him. Meep, he’s intelligent and tactical and I like that in characters? I wish, we could have seen more of him being smart instead of having him being blinded more and more by rage and vengeance ;v; 
worst quality:  Lmao, do you want a list? His obsession for money? His unscrupulousness? His disregard of fucking...decency?? ahdh I could go on.
ship them with:  //takes out megaphone// nENE KINOKUNI, LADIES AND GENTS. In my eyes, he legit seems to hold some sort-off respect for her and I hold the headcanon that Eizan is actually crushing on her a little ver since middle school. Come on, I do think it’s plausible that he’d find himself attracted to a person like Nene: She’s smart, she’s no pushover, she murders people with just a glance, her hair is green. One of the meanings attributed to the color green is actually...finances, profit, banks, moNEY- 
brotp them with: The few interactions Eizan had with Somei legit cracked me up so...hdhd yeah, Somei. But also...Momo, being real. And of course, Isshiki & Kuga. Can’t forget them.
needs to stay away from: PSD, lol. I’d say Azami, but honestly Eizan seems to handle Azami fine? Azami just shows up at his work and is like: “What u doing owo?” and Eizan replies with “Are you bored or something????” like ahdhd WOW
misc. thoughts: Honestly...Is it plausible to assume that Eizan and Nene actually had a Shokugeki?...A Shokugeki which he won? I mean, somehow he had to earn that seat above her’s......right? (Would have been nice, if Tsukuda could have explained the new Elite 10 Ranking or show what got them there but nOPE)
Chieko
general opinion: fall in a hole and die | don’t like them | eh | they’re fine I guess | like them! | love them | actual love of my life [She’s the first fanchild I ever made. I love her so much]
hotness level: get away from me | meh | neutral | theoretically hot but not my type | pretty hot | gorgeous! | 10/10 would bang [It would break my heart to say anything else...She has insecurities]
hogwarts house: gryffindor | slytherin | ravenclaw | hufflepuff 
best quality: I do love Chieko for how feisty she can be. The girl will mouth off multiple times to one of the most dangerous people at her school and I think it’s neat. 
worst quality: She does take longer to make her moves at times though, sometimes she’s just too careful and overthinking instead of stepping into battle. 
ship them with: Shigeo Eizan. Both of them succeed mainly through intellect, booth in cooking and other areas of life. It’s kind off natural, that they’d get eventually interested in each other. 
brotp them with: Yasu, Hideyoshi & Daisuke mainly, but the rest of PSD as well.
needs to stay away from: Shigeo, according to Yasu.  I don’t know as of right now honestly ahdh
misc. thoughts: Funfact, but her wearing a hairband once she’s a 2nd Year is kinda inspired by Disney’s Cinderella haha 
Kimiko
general opinion: fall in a hole and die | don’t like them | eh | they’re fine I guess | like them! | love them | actual love of my life 
hotness level: get away from me | meh | neutral | theoretically hot but not my type | pretty hot | gorgeous! | 10/10 would bang 
hogwarts house: gryffindor | slytherin | ravenclaw | hufflepuff 
best quality: Kimiko is brave and also most definitely an actor!! And as someone, who’s neither of those, I always admire these qualities ahdh. 
worst quality: Kimiko pretends that she can’t feel feelings like sadness for a good chunk of the story. She plasters a wide smile on her face, even if she’s really not okay and that’s not a good thing...I’m saying this from very strong personal experience.
ship them with: Hiroshi! It was a thing for me from the beginning on!
brotp them with: Mika and later on Kaori, mainly.
needs to stay away from: her brother, okay no ahdhd but well, the nasty part of her family she does not know too well to begin with I’d say
misc. thoughts: I’d LOVE to draw Kimiko more, you gotta believe me on that but her hair is super exhausting to draw ahdhd I love your twin tails Kimi, but they’re suffering. 
Hayama
general opinion: fall in a hole and die | don’t like them | eh | they’re fine I guess | like them! | love them | actual love of my life  
hotness level: get away from me | meh | neutral | theoretically hot but not my type | pretty hot | gorgeous! | 10/10 would bang 
hogwarts house: gryffindor | slytherin(?) | ravenclaw | hufflepuff [I can also picture him win Ravenclaw]
best quality: I kind off love how he’s the straight man in every group of friends he’s in? Someone give the poor man a break ahdhd. But I also really love how determined and ambitious he is, it’s inspiring to see (Which is why I kind off hate, that his shown that he refused to go to BLUE, because he didn’t feel strong enough? Idk, I feel the Akira I met in the Autumn Election wouldn’t have passed out on such a chance)
worst quality: not.....Not a big fan of the Central!Hayama/Soma-Shokugeki being real. I did not really enjoy his performance during that ; 7 ; But that’s just how I personally feel ;v; I don’t really dislike the idea of him joining Central, I just think it could have been done better
ship them with: Hisako!
brotp them with: Alice and Ryo of course 😤!!
needs to stay away from: Azami, haha. (Also...Not into shipping him romantically with Jun. At all. It does kinda creep me out, ngl since I do see her as a sort-off mother-figure in his life...)
misc. thoughts: It’s kinda crime, how he basically triggered the bit of Character development Hisako had, yet they never truly interacted with each other again afterwards ever again?? Like...Why? Why would you do something like this?
HISAKO AND HAYAMA REMATCH, SOMEONE GIVE IT TO ME
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 Give us the elevator pitch for your wip!
For the first book in the Illthdar series: Guardians of Las
Imagine a world where every fairytale and fantasy book you read was real. Sounds pretty amazing, right? Sure, until you realise you can’t leave, and the natives look hungry, and the salad on your plate talks and it’s raining actual fire.
Meet a rag-tag group of people, thrown together by need and by fate. For some, they work to restore the balance to the world they call home; the rest just want to get the hell off of it before land that logic and reason forgot kills them. 
Do you have any favorite antagonistic characters?
It has to be Magnilla. She’s just so amazingly extra - she is every bit that RPG/D&D character that everyone feels an irresistible urge to leap across the table and do real harm to the creator.  
What do your characters do on a night off/night out?
Depending on the mood, the teams might spend the evening in the barracks, have a meal in the repurposed brewery or take a trip from the Order of Mana to the Alewifery tavern for drinks.
Does your mc have any irrational fears or phobias?
They all have their issues to work through. In terms of phobias, Seth has the most due to being traumatised when he ended up in Illthdar as a kid; Magnilla suffers arachnophobia; and Tundra has issues with pools of blood. 
Are there any books/authors you drew inspiration from for this story?
I’ve drawn inspiration from a lot of fantasy classics as well as a few that a more obscure. Pop culture in movies and games also served as sources - though these are more in the form of easter eggs and trope-mocking. Some of the cast are OCs created by others who graciously granted permission for my use, I would be remiss if I undervalued the inspiration they provided.
Who was the first character you made for this wip and how did they come to you?
The first characters made were the first team: Abaddon, Magnilla, Nyima, Scyanatha, Vyxen and Zercey - the majority of them were those aforementioned OCs not originally mine. For the character Zercey, the lore behind her was recycled from an original fairy race I minted for a roleplay I had going with one of my oldest friends.
Do you usually have a title in mind when you start the story or does it comes to you later?
I start with book title placeholder - something that reminds me of the direction or key piece I want to convey to the reader. So far, my first place holder for my WIP hasn’t been used as an official title yet and isn’t relevant until book 4. Winning.
For you, what’s the hardest part of writing?
Currently, it’s getting all the planets to align so that there is a block of time where I can work on it. I’m accepting that isn’t likely going to happen until my youngest is 6 months or older.
What’s the best part of writing?
Getting those scenes that run on repeat in my head out onto a page. It’s an all-consuming thing for me; there’s a story that needs to be told desperately and it’s very hard to shut my brain off at night without putting time towards it.
How would your characters feel about you if they met you in person?
LOL They would straight up murder my ass with no apologies. No one stuck in that book likes how they’re living.
What helps you recharge your writing batteries when you’re running low?
Besides the obvious (see: sleep), listening to music or drawing helps. If I’m feeling stuck, I try writing the scene from a different POV, or I try pivoting to a different scene completely and work on that for a bit to clear the air some. 
Questions: same as above
Tagging: @bigmoodword, @radley-writes, @raevenlywrites, @dangerouslyspicynacho, @elizabethsyson, @floralandrogyny
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OC Interview: Margot de Havilland
Rules:
1. Choose an OC
2. Answer them as that OC
3. Tag 5 people to do the same!
Tagged by @thegreatdivide, thank you darling <3
Tagging: @solesurvivorkat, @itsmesaberaltered and @ladynyxeris​!
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1. What is your name? Margot de Havilland. I was Margot Fontaine, before I got married. My husband always used to call me Nora... that’s my middle name. Nobody else gets to call me that, though. Don’t even think about it.
2. Do you know why are you named that? My middle name was a family name, but I’m not sure if there’s a story behind my first name. I guess my parents just liked it.
3. Are you single or taken? Widowed. But seeing someone...
4. Have any abilities or powers? I can drink an uncanny amount of alcohol and barely feel a thing. Mostly. I can hold my breath underwater for a good long while. Not a bad sniper, either. And I’m good with computers. People say I’m good with words too, but I’m not so sure about that part.
5. Stop being a Mary Sue. I’m more of a mess than a Mary Sue, but okay, sure. Whatever helps you sleep at night.
6. What’s your eye color? Brown. Probably one of the few things about me that hasn’t changed since I got out of the Vault.
7. How about your hair color? Dark brown. Yes, it’s natural. No gray hairs, and believe me, nobody is more surprised about that than I am.
8. Have any family members? My family used to be a lot bigger, put it that way. I lost my dad in the Sino-American War - he was shot down over Anchorage. My mom worked for RobCo, but I never found out what happened to her after the bombs dropped. I had a little sister, Peggy... she and her husband were supposed to have a place in a Vault, but they lived in the D.C. area and I heard it got hit pretty hard. I suppose I’ll never know if they made it in time.
I’m guessing my in-laws are gone now. They lived here in the Commonwealth and I’ve never been able to find any trace of them. Nate had some family in West Virginia - some uncles and an aunt, and his cousins, Alice and Darnell. I’m assuming they’re gone too. If any of them did make it into a Vault, I doubt they were lucky enough to get frozen.
As for my husband, and my son... well, I’m sure you’ve heard about what happened to them by now. No sense in opening up old wounds.
But I still have a family. I have little Shaun, and Codsworth, and Dogmeat - and more brothers and sisters than I can count in the Brotherhood of Steel. I’m also lucky enough to have some good friends out here. Nick, Piper, Deacon, Curie, and the others... they’re as good as family in my book.
9. Oh? How about pets?
Good old Dogmeat. He’s the best dog I could ever have asked for. I ran into him on my first day out of the Vault, outside the old Red Rocket station - he’s stuck by my side ever since.
10. That’s cool, I guess. Now tell me something you don’t like? Raiders. Gunners. Having date night interrupted. Walking home in the rain. Deathclaws. Ann Codman. The list just goes on and on...
11. Do you have any activities/hobbies that you like to do? I used to read a lot. Don’t have much time for reading novels these days, the Minutemen and Brotherhood keep me pretty busy between them, but I try to read a bedtime story to Shaun every night.
Uh, what else? I like cooking, dancing, listening to music, fixing things... collecting things from before the Great War. Sometimes I’ll head on over to the other settlements to trade, help out, make sure everyone’s doing okay. Sturges and I are working on a new robotics project, that’s going pretty well. Oh, and I like watching old movies. I’m hoping to head on over to the Starlight Drive-In again, now that they’ve got their projector back up and running - I promised Shaun I’d take him to see the Grognak the Barbarian movie.
12. Have you ever hurt anyone in any way before? Probably. But honestly, I try not to hurt anyone who doesn’t deserve it. There’s enough suffering out here without me adding to the pile.
13. Ever… killed anyone before? Kellogg, but he had it coming. I also heard a rumor that I’m top of the Gunners’ hit list after all my run-ins with them. I’d tell you the bounty, but I’m worried you might be tempted to take a shot at me yourself if you heard how much they’re willing to pay for my head. And I’m kind of amazed that we haven’t run out of Raiders yet - God knows I’ve killed enough of those bastards. You’d think they’d take the hint, wouldn’t you?
And of course there’s the little matter of destroying the Institute... but that’s kind of personal. I’d rather not relive that experience right now, if you don’t mind. Next question?
14. What kind of animal are you? The other girls in my sorority used to call me a party animal. Does that count?
15. Name your worst habits? I worry about drinking too much. Whiskey can get to be a nasty habit. And then there’s the cursing. And the insubordination. Elder Maxson once publicly called me a pain in the ass. He’s probably not wrong. I don’t exactly set out to do it, but... I don’t know. I guess I never did let go of a grudge easily.
16. Do you look up to anyone at all? There was nobody I admired more than my dad when I was a kid. He was my hero. And then there was Nate... he went through so much for the sake of our family. Elder Maxson was someone I admired for a long time - although that was before the incident with Danse. If I had to pick someone now? I’d say Danse, or Preston. They’re both natural leaders, and they’re two of the best people I know. Or Nick. He’s been a good friend to me, probably a better one than I deserve. He helped to keep me on the straight and narrow when I was really in danger of going off the rails... one of these days, I’ll have to tell him how much I appreciate that.
17. Are you gay, straight or bisexual? Rather a personal question, don’t you think?
18. Do you go to school? No, I did my time in law school. And then there was boot camp with the Brotherhood. I think I’ve had enough formal instruction for a while.
19. Ever want to marry and have kids one day? I tried that, and it didn’t exactly work out well for me. Although - I don’t know. I’m trying my best to be a good mom to Shaun. Perhaps marriage will be on the cards one day, if D- uh, never mind. I’m getting ahead of myself here. Forget I said anything.
20. Do you have any fangirls/fanboys? I think Preston gets a little starry-eyed around the General of the Minutemen. Not that I’m not flattered, but I don’t think I’m the legendary warrior he thinks I am. Hey, he picked me to be in charge. He should be the one getting all the praise in this outfit.
21. What are you most afraid of? Dying out in the wastes somewhere and never getting to say goodbye. Or being trapped underground. I don’t like caves, or those old Vaults I keep running across. Two hundred and ten years underground is more than enough, thank you very much.
22. What do you usually wear? Uniform and armor of some kind. Minutemen, Brotherhood, depends who I’m helping that day. Don’t get me wrong, I’m the first one in line for pretty dresses at the clothing vendors, but I’m not sure why I waste the caps... I don’t really get to wear any of them them unless I have some downtime at home. And that’s quite a luxury these days.
23. What’s one food that tempts you? I’ve been known to pretend that we’re out of blue-frosted Fancy Lad Snack Cakes, so I can keep at least one for myself... sorry, Shaun. I’ll make it up to you, buddy.
24. Am I annoying to you? Not really. Although I don’t have all day to chat. Can we wrap this up soon?
25. Well, it’s still not over! I’ll take that as a no, shall I?
26. What class are you (low/middle/high)? Lower-middle, I guess, although I think my mother-in-law cared more about that sort of thing than I ever did. Not that any of that matters any more, unless you’re in the Upper Stands and don’t have any actual problems to worry about...
27. How many friends do you have? More than I had before the war, if you can believe it. There’s Preston, Sturges, Nick, Piper, Cait, Curie, Deacon, MacCready, Hancock, Haylen... and Danse, of course. Danse is very dear to me.
28. What are your thoughts on pie? That damn perfectly-preserved pie in the vending machines. I swear to God it’s taunting me. I’m thinking about smashing the next one open if it doesn’t pay out on me this time. Although I wonder how exactly it’s being preserved so well... some of those Pre-War additives were kind of dicey. Knowing my luck, it’ll probably dissolve into a pile of mold the minute it’s exposed to air.
29. Favorite drink? Nuka-Cola. Whiskey if I’m off-duty. It used to be champagne, but try tracking down a bottle of that nowadays!
30. What’s your favorite place? Sanctuary Hills. There really is no place like home.
31. Are you interested in anyone? Well, there is a certain handsome man in Power Armor that I’ve been seeing for a while now...
32. That was a stupid question… I’ve been told it’s terribly obvious.
33. Would you rather swim in a lake or the ocean? They’re both irradiated. I think I’d prefer to stay out of the water until we can do something about that.
34. What’s your type? Handsome military men. Tragic past optional.
35. Any fetishes? Not really. Nate was more of the adventurous type in the bedroom than I was. Although I did give burlesque dancing a try once. That was.... quite an experience.
36. Camping or outdoors? I never was much of an outdoors girl. I’d prefer to be at home in my own bed.
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Thanks to the lovely @notimetoblog for taking the time to answer these! Get to know more about her, go give her a follow and then show her some love!
These questions are from this list. You should check it out, there’s 50 questions all together and they’d be great to ask your favorite fic writer!
2) Do you prefer writing OC’s or reader inserts? Explain your answer.
I tried writing an original character in a creative writing class but didn’t enjoy it as much as I do writing reader inserts. I’m not entirely sure why, but reader inserts just come more easily to me.
5) When is your preferred time to write?
I tend to prefer writing in the afternoon. This is in part because I have the most time in the afternoon and I usually have the house to myself so it’s very quiet. It’s hard to concentrate when there’s many people around having conversations.
6) Where do you take your inspiration from?
My inspiration comes from various sources. I sometimes listen to songs that jump start my imagination and I find myself daydreaming of scenarios. Things that happen to me in real life also have inspired some stories I have written. Writers I follow, of course, also inspire me to continue writing.
7) What’s your favorite scene that you’ve written?
My favorite scene to write, so far, has been the café scene in Falling. I love writing flirty Bucky, and he was just piling on the charm in that scene. Anything involving banter is also a favorite of mine.
9) Who is your favorite character to write for? Why?
BUCKY BARNES! Sorry was that too loud? I think part of the fascination with this character is his determination to overcome something that to many might be unsurmountable. His past is full of pain and torture, something that still affects him. I think, though, that it also motivates him to find himself and be the caring person he truly is. He is a hero that, apart from fighting crime, has to fight his inner demons. This is something that many people can relate to. He is such a strong character that it is very appealing to write for him. My need to constantly surround him with love and fluff in my stories is practically endless at this point.
11) How do you come up with the titles for your stories?
The titles usually come at the end. I will write out my stories and then I find myself sitting back and thinking of the title. I don’t think I’m the best at titles, so I usually stick to what I think are obvious ones. The title to my very first story was chosen because it was a phrase that I kept repeating in the story. Other stories have been titled after the song the story was based on.
12) What do you think is the best idea you’ve had for a story so far?
*gasp* This is a tough one! I’m not sure. I DO know that I was recently chatting with a friend here on tumblr and an idea for a mini series came up! I’m very excited about it and have been researching for the past few days. Can’t wait to write it out! I feel its going to be a special one.
13) Do you have any abandoned WIP’s? What made you abandon them?
I do have abandoned WIPs. I haven’t been writing for too long so I’m still a bit unsure about my writing. One particular aspect I’m unsure about is writing angst. I have two WIPs that have been abandoned because I feel like I haven’t been able to write out angst the way I hope to.
14) Are there any stories that you’ve written that you’d really love to do a sequel to?
Nights in Spanish. I had a couple of people ask for a possible sequel and I think it would be a fun one to revisit. A lovely person suggested some ideas for the sequel and I’ve been trying to get to work on those.
16) Tell me about another writer(s) who you admire? What is it about them that you admire?
There are many writers I admire. One that immediately comes to mind is @bitsandbobsandstuff​ . Her work is just incredible. I don’t think any of the words I could type out will ever do justice to how talented she is. All her stories are so vivid, raw, real, and simply amazing. Her way of describing environments and characters just plays out so well in my mind. It’s like I can see exactly what shes writing playing out. She’s incredible and I screamed every time I was notified of a new Safe With Me chapter.
Another would be @irndad​ . I always make sure to tell her how magical and lovely her stories are. The way she describes emotion is beyond amazing. I was hooked after I read one story by her. I immediately needed more.
@sgtjbuccky​ is another writer I admire. She’s amazing and so very kind. Her series are always full of fluff but when she unleashes the angst, my poor heart suffers (even though I love every minute of it). There are many more, but I don’t think I’ll ever be able to finish if I keep going.
18) Do you prefer listening to music when you’re writing or do you need silence?
I like to listen to music while I write. It’s become a habit while I study, so I just transitioned it to my writing. For some reason, music doesn’t distract me but the tv or conversations happening around me, do. I really don’t know why.
19) Have you ever cried whilst writing a story?
Not yet. One day, maybe my angst skills develop to that point and I’ll be so very happy. I have teared up while reading stories, though.
21) Do you make a general outline for your stories or do you just go with the flow?
I’ve never written an outline for a story. I usually go into a story knowing how I want it to start and where I want it to go. There have been some stories that have deviated from my original plan, so I have just gone with the flow.
22) What is something you wished you’d known before you started posting fan-fiction?
HOW ADDICTING IT COULD BE! I seriously didn’t stop writing when I posted my first story. I went all in with a multi-chapter series and just couldn’t stop!
26) What’s the biggest compliment you’ve gotten?
Any comment I get melts my heart. People have been very kind to me, so much so that I consider my biggest compliment any interaction they have with a story of mine. The fact that people take their time to write out a comment, look for a gif, like a story, or reblog a story, makes me so happy. THANK YOU!
28) Do you share your story ideas with anyone else or do you keep them close to your chest?
I have shared ideas with people on tumblr. I was nervous about posting my latest series, so I asked a friend to look over it and she gave me the confidence to post it. Like I mentioned before, another conversation with another person led up to an idea for a future mini-series.
29) Do people know you write fan-fiction?
No. I think people think I’m writing a bunch of essays while I’m working on a story.
30) What’s your favorite minor character you’ve written?
I loved writing Maya in Not the Time. I loved how strong she was and how determined she was to help out her friend, even if it meant standing up to a super soldier. I also love writing Sam into my stories (although I wouldn’t consider him a minor character).
33) Can you remember the first fic you read? What was it about?
It was a while ago! It was on ao3, when I just heard about that site through twitter. I don’t remember the title, but I remember Bucky and reader had become very close friends. She would cook for the team and he would always eat with them since he loved her cooking, but he suddenly stopped. He would not eat with them and just take large amounts of food up to his room whenever she cooked salmon. Reader was worried and thought maybe he was upset. Turns out, he had found a box of kittens (*swoon*) when he was out by a bakery buying cookies for reader, and he was keeping them a secret from Tony who would not allow him to keep them. Reader discovered this after catching him in the middle of the night feeding and playing with the kittens. It’s all fluff and now I have to go back and find it because I’m still not over how adorable it was.
34) If you could write only angst, fluff or smut for the rest of your writing life, which would it be and why?
FLUFF!! I love it. I am a complete and total sucker for it. I also don’t think my heart would be able to take writing angst (especially for Bucky) forever.
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Basically I promised @raventheenigma if they posted another chapter of their fanfic called Priceless I would put up a little story I did of my own OC Guess who decided to write and update their fanfic
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ “My girl is a force of nature”
Not most people get to say that truthfully, however Zephyr isn't exactly "most people".  Zephyr Stardust was born into a rather interesting family composed of his older and rather scary sister Carly, his sweet and intelligent mother Olive, his father Carl who would to say the least be the most obnoxious man he has ever met, and his agendered alien parent simply known as Pippy who was the more snarky and violent type. Olive was usually the only one able to keep them calm but it became apparent that Zephyr's triplet brother Paul was also able to give Pippy that sense of relaxation; while his other sibling Ziva was more for his mother's sweet and gentle loving embrace. Zephyr on the other hand, was never more for one or the other as all he saw was the constant fighting and bickering between the three. He had seen nothing very positive of the emotions he lacked, so he was generally "glad" he gained more of Pippy than he had either of his other two parents. He always saw Pippy and Paul off on fun and dangerous adventures and witnessing Ziva cry and express herself over absolutely everything mixed in with the constant fighting and general tension of the house; he was more than happy to be the emotionless husk of a boy he was. "Less troublesome" he always thought to himself "not as if I was meant for more than being  a baby monitor for Pippy after all. No need for me to have my own emotions to get in the way of my soul reason for living." He would grow along side his other two triplets and find as they both expressed their emotions constantly along with the world around them; falling in love, growing hatred for bullies, shifting, changing.
Too many variables for Zephyr to take into consideration.
He preferred keeping to himself and whatever work he was assigned. He had tried before to express as others had and gained a leech in the form of a friend named Babak to which he had little care for. He mainly used to use him for running simple tasks and giving him information but as years progressed Zephyr found it was better to seem good and helpful to others. Easier to use them as the tools he would need if he had a good reputation.  Yet even then socializing was on the low end of his priorities, he was far more invested in finding and discovering things. Perhaps he was much like his Pippy in that way seeing as his Pippy was a scientist and researcher themselves roaming off the planet they work in to find and learn as much they can. He, in particular, took his fascinations to the ocean.
Something about those sapphire waves lapping against the very shores he frequented beckoned to him with such force even his emotionless heart was tugged to near tears. It had always been that way, yet he sadly could not go too often seeing as both him and Ziva had negative reactions to prolonged submersion in water. Another thing they gained from their Pippy; perhaps one day Zephyr would explore deeper into his alien parent's origins. For now, he is pulled even harder to the sea. It's near as if the ocean sings to him. Sometimes he swears if he sits long enough in the shallows he can feel his legs being gently caressed by soft slender fingers. Every time he feels this gentle hand to his flesh he always desires to go deeper; to explore and find what beauty is making him feel this way. Ever since he had finally gained emotions thanks to his strange Pippy's experiments and alternative universe shenanigans with Paul he has had a near suffocating desire to always be near the vast unknown of the sea. He longed to dive deeper, and thus began his work on becoming a marine biologist. It gives him a good reason to be where he feels so loved and at home in stark comparison to that cold and tense world he has come to known and suffer through since birth.
He had finally gained a proper friendship connection with Babak in his recent years and the two decided to move out together. It happened sooner than Babak had planned due to Zephyr's attempts to being popular being exposed thanks to his beautiful yet deadly elder sister Carly following the two of them to a local rave party; and Babak knows Zephyr well enough to be able to tell him working two jobs and constantly studying and going to school for his preferred profession has been getting to him.
"Hey bro, why don't we go out or something today? No work and No school, and you've had your head in those books for so long I damn near forgot what your smile looks like."
"I can't today Babak, I have finals soon" Zephyr said dully as he leafed through the pages of his own notes. Babak slammed the book shut, causing Zephyr to look up to his smiling face, his black hair for once not pulled into a low ponytail as he seems to be finishing his morning routine.
"C'mon man, there's a rave at the beach tonight! You haven't gotten laid in a while and I know you love showing off your archery for any damn reason! I hear they're holding a couple sports contests for cash prizes! We may just be able to win a few and you can finally get a damn vacation!"
He paused from reopening his book. The notion of winning money for a vacation was tempting, but what was even moreso was the promise of being near the sea once more. It had been near two years since he saw his true home and he grew ever so weary. A good swim and feel of that absolute bliss the water gives him would raise his spirits quite a bit. He looks up to Babak, who seems to have already read his face and emotions as his smile only grew wider and he rushes off to the dresser drawer in the living room Babak claimed as his room.
"Ahh I KNEW you'd say yes if I told you about the rave! C'mon get your nerdy ass up and get your swim trunks!"
He shook his head with a chuckle as he sets aside his books and notes and rises from the table. <i>I suppose a day off wouldn't harm my grades</i> he thought to himself as he went to his room and got his swim trunks and beach bag out from the back of the closet. <i>Has it really been so long my usually most frequently used items are to the back of my closet?</i> he shook the thoughts from his already racing mind as he got dressed and came out with his keys to see Babak already wearing his swimsuit and shades.
It was surreal, taking the long drive back out to the beach while Babak blasted his favorite techno songs on the aux cord. Zephyr near drowned out any noises just to focus on the road leading to his safe haven away from this cruel unfeeling world he must deal with daily. His jobs had only exposed him to more examples on why emotions only destroy and cause a pain that cannot heal and it disgusts him every second he must deal with others outside of Babak. He hadn't bothered returning to his family knowing well he must be branded now as the family disappointment and only comes to drop off birthday gifts to his respective family members. But seeing his true home and love crest from the horizon, the scent of the salty air intoxicating to him and sending shivers up his spine. <i>I'm home</i> he repeated mentally as he drove around several beach side parking lots finally finding an open space to park. Babak eagerly leapt from his seat to grab their bags and turned on his GPS to find where exactly the rave was. Zephyr followed closely after and inhaled with a smile upon his feet feeling the scorching sand underneath him once more.
Babak's voice sounded like a distant siren slightly keeping him back in touch with reality as Zephyr strode to dip his feet in the shallows of the water, feeling the cool water on his body instantly calmed his very soul and brought a wide blissful grin to his face. He followed his best friend's voice as he walked in the water, near losing himself to the song of the sea once more. He could near hear it again, that gorgeous voice that sounds not like a man, woman or alien: but simply is. He could feel his body instinctively pull inwards to the sea, and only woke from his trance to the sound of heavy bass being played on loud speakers and Babak's happy squeal upon seeing the huge gathering of already half drunk youths dancing horridly out of sync to the blaring music. He begrudgingly left the waters to join his best friend who immediately began ordering drinks for himself and scouting out what they could do here. Zephyr merely allowed himself to be dragged around by his overeager companion and giving neutral answers to the plethora of activities this one party alone had provided for its attendees.
"There it is bro! I knew they would have an archery competition! Looks like its just some dull arrows probably to not do much damage but hey! Still archery right?"
It was obvious this was a rather shoddy setup for a contest, however he could make do to at least play around with a bow and arrow again. Babak was ever so skilled in hunting down the right people to strike up a gamble with and who to find to spread rumors so after he had signed Zephyr up he already had several people betting to the side. As the day went on the archery contest was finally starting up after near every other sport had begun and ended. Zephyr had spent his free time trying to socialize and ignore the teasing and loud song of the sea, and broke once more from the trance once his name was called for the contest. Archery was something he had always been fond of and always excelled in, so he was just as eager to compete as he was to finally be rid of these nuances called humans and dive into the vast body of his love. Besides, if he won he could use his vacation time to come back again which only brought more focus to the task at hand than the ocean. Gripping the bow in his palm as he is announced, he pulls back on the string to feel how the wood reacts. <i>It's been too long seeing you as well, old friend<i> he thought with a smirk. It was a rather easy competition he thought; just three distances to all hit a bullseye on.  He had dealt with far worse when he was competing in high school seeing as his coach saw his skill and ambition and pushed him farther than the others. With a deep inhale as he draw his arrow, a clean release and twice the marks were hit. <i>Child's play, really</i> he thought as he readied his bow once more. Only this time, his eyes drifted for but a moment to the sea and caught a glimpse of something... new.
A humanoid body of water was standing on the distant shore had been watching him as he shot. He blinked several times to ensure that this was indeed here and his mind and eyes were not merely playing tricks on him. His vision only moved from the figure when he was shouted at by Babak, and shook his head clear of any thoughts of the watery figure as he released. His hands were far too shaky and he knew well he would not hit the center, however a gust of wind suddenly pushed the arrow just enough to land the bullseye and cheers erupted around him. Babak came running to congratulate him, and was only greeted with the bow and quiver being shoved into his arms as Zephyr ran off to the ocean in search of what he had seen; yet a scan of the horizon would only show the waves breaking and rushing to the shore. Babak had followed after and shook him, shouting "Hey man the hell? You JUST WON! Come get the prize money man you can swim later!"
"Y-yeah sorry Babak..." he murmured still in disbelief and distraction, allowing himself to once again be pulled back by Babak and congratulated again as he received both the prize money and a small cheap trophy for winning.
As the sun began to fall below the horizon, Babak had been far more interested in the men offering him drinks to bother Zephyr, and Zephyr used this opportunity to return to one of the quieter areas of the beach and enter the water till about waist deep. He ran his hands barely above the surface as he began to mumble to himself or perhaps to the ocean he was unsure, "Was I just seeing things, or did I really see a water person watching me earlier today...? Am I losing my mind?... Have I been away from you for too long...?"
"I'm all you need my darling" he heard whispered in his ear, much to his fright and began to search around frantically; only to see yet again the distant waves and the far lights from the rave.
"W-was... was that you...?" he whispered in return to the water beneath and around him
"You've been gone for too long, you won. You should come to me again soon."
He was unsure of what to make of this. Clearly he must be losing his mind, hearing voices and seeing things not possible: well not possible on this planet at least.  And yet... this voice sounds eerily familiar to the song he always hears from the ocean. Could it be the ocean after so long finally decided to speak to him?
"I have always spoken with you, Zephyr." The voice coos in a near teasing manner.
"How did you-"
"I know you too well my darling. I've missed you."
Okay, NOW he is POSITIVE he is losing his mind. Had his newfound emotions convinced his mind he needed romantic affection? He could have just as easily fallen for Babak, he is the only kind of guy Zephyr would be okay with dating after all he has only ever experienced loveless sex for some cheap thrill but the OCEAN??
"I'm losing my mind, there is no way I am talking to a nonliving body of water"
"Yet I am living, constantly flowing and changing, allowing life to flourish within me and around me. You have always known I was here for you. Do you not remember when you couldn't reach this far?"
He recalls to his younger days when he would hear a faint voice when he was enjoying the beach with his family. His Pippy always came to get him before he went too deep and he would always say he wanted to see his friend.
"I was a child, that was merely make believe"
"Are you imagining me right now then?"
"No I'm losing my sanity right now apparently!" None of this was logical. On this planet and in this time he was certain that HUMANS were the only sentient living and higher beings on this planet, and yet he was of perfectly sound mind this morning and he most certainly is not imagining this right now at least not on his own free will.
"I... how can I believe in something that simply cannot be?"
"Return to me next week, at 12am. I shall show you that you can believe in me."
<i>This is ridiculous</i> he thought <i>there is no way I am actually going to do that</i> and yet something within him, whether it be sheer curiosity or the foolish hope that this is indeed real, something compels him.
"F-fine... this exact spot, at 12am next Saturday."
"I will eagerly await your return my darling" the voice sings so sweetly, and he can feel the hands brush against his calves and slip deeper into the sea. He lingers a moment before he returns to the party to collect Babak and their bags and drive home: the only thing on his mind being next Saturday at midnight.
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The OC Interview
Or, in other words, “Let’s have some fun pretending to be my petty, miserable fuck of a narrator.”
Rules:
1. Pick an original character! 2. Fill in the questions/statements as if you were being interviewed for an article and you were the character/muse 3. Tag 5 to do the same: (except I don’t wanna do 5 so hey there my fellow nanowrimo buddies) @boundtoanandroid @hijinksace @nyrnerosmartell
tagged by no one lmao. I just wanted to munch on some creative energy before it’s all dead and gone by november.
1. WHAT IS YOUR NAME?
“Rostov Vasiliev. You have no need for my birth name, I may only hope?”
2. WHAT IS YOUR REAL NAME?
Disheartened, they begin to fidget while scrounging for the right answer.
"Oh, well... I swear it’s not important. I shared a name with my mother, you must understand. I don’t consider myself... worthy, persay, and for lack of a better term, to carry that name. God rest her adored soul.”
3. DO YOU KNOW WHY YOU WERE CALLED THAT?
“Rostov was from a novel I read over and over as a child at home. It was really a beautiful concept at the time. I mean, novel-Rostov suffers for falling into temptation, and... well. I meant it to be as a reminder for my own self, but now I think it’s just sort of inane in the grand scheme of things.”
4. ARE YOU SINGLE OR TAKEN?
Their look grows especially piteous. Guilty, even.
“Single. I could never justify trying to be something more than just myself. More power to the blessed souls who've lovingly found their own to hold, but I’m frankly convinced I don’t deserve any extension of such trust.” 
5. DO YOU HAVE ANY ABILITIES OR POWERS?
A humorless smile grows on their face as they perk up only slightly.
“Comparatively, I’m as useless as the barnacles I scrub from the Silver Solace. I make being even a deckhand seem strenuous. Not that it’s any painless task, but I have it easy, is all.”
6. STOP BEING A GARY STU.
They raise one dense brow in honest confusion.
“I’m... terribly sorry, and am afraid I don’t take your meaning. If I’ve- I’ve done something to offend, you have my sincerest apology and I can quickly see myself out.”
NEVERMIND.
7. WHAT IS YOUR EYE COLOR?
“Cold brown.”
8. HOW ABOUT YOUR HAIR COLOR?
“Black, but appearing brown in the right squint of sunlight.”
9. HAVE YOU ANY FAMILY MEMBERS?
Their mouth twists in distaste.
“As I’ve said, my angel mother passed not long ago. Her first child, Kolya, fell early to anemia before I was born. I don’t like to picture my father still drawing his hawking, arrogant breaths on this earth, so for the sake of my satisfaction, I’ll hope he’s dead.”
10. OH? WHAT ABOUT PETS?
"The word ‘pet’ is a bit too definitive, but there’s a little dog called Worley below the deck of the ship who’s excellent company when evicting the spare rats.”
11. TELL ME ABOUT SOMETHING YOU DON’T LIKE.
“I can’t bear myself for even still thinking this, but that playboy corsair who the crew seems to love so much, Gideon, acts as if he’s too well-read to work a hard day’s labor in his life.”
12.  DO YOU HAVE ANY HOBBIES/ACTIVITIES YOU LIKE DOING?
“Woodcarving narratives into the bunks below deck, provided Mirabel’s company, has become something I greatly look forward to each evening, even if it catches me the evil eye of Dune when we ever get too close to his bed.”
13. EVER HURT ANYONE BEFORE?
Their posture worsens as they shrink slightly into their self.
“My actions were born out of jealousy from a rivalry of my own imagining. I regret it, of course. For driving a wedge between the captain and the crew, for sparking the hysteria that only townspeople in squalor manage best, and for exposing a buried past that wasn’t mine to disclose.”
14. EVER…KILLED ANYONE BEFORE?
“I tore my fingernails til they bled for four days and four sleepless nights believing I did. Needless to say, I won’t ever be attempting what I never even meant to do in the first place.”
15. WHAT KIND OF ANIMAL ARE YOU?
“A turtle, perhaps? I’d like to be a gopher though. With no greater sense of purpose than burrowing for my daily bread.”
16. NAME ONE OF YOUR WORST HABITS.
“The fingernails, probably. But then again, I also stare too much, and can never mind my own business.”
17. DO YOU LOOK UP TO ANYONE AT ALL?
"The captain of the Silver Solace is one of the most unconventionally generous persons I’ve ever met, but beyond that, the wild, yet honest and knowing look in her eyes is something I’ll never live well enough to mirror. Then there’s Mirabel, who I could rattle for hours about in all her kindness, and Kaia, who even upon shaking hands seems to be more fable than tangible human.”
18. SEXUAL ORIENTATION?
"Who?”
19. DO YOU GO TO SCHOOL?
“Not traditionally, but every single last spare ruple my mother could swindle in her sales went towards purchasing literature. I would’ve spent the full day reading regardless, even if I weren’t obligated.”
20. DO YOU EVER WANT TO MARRY AND HAVE KIDS ONE DAY?
“I’ve... fantasized of such a life. If and only if I weren’t myself.”
21. WHAT ARE YOU MOST AFRAID OF?
"Not death. That’s for sure now. The opposite of that, then. Immortality.”
22. WHAT DO YOU USUALLY WEAR?
"Whatever spare clothing the crew is so gracious to provide.”
23. DO YOU LOVE SOMEONE?
They take a solid moment to think before answering, furrowing their brow in obvious distress.
"It’s no place of mine to love someone who could never love me back. What good is my love if she--someone-- would prefer it coming from somebody else?”
24. WHAT CLASS ARE YOU? (HIGH/MIDDLE/LOW)
“I’m as low in class as in stature. However, I’m grateful that the crew provides for me these days.”
25. HOW MANY FRIENDS DO YOU HAVE?
"I don’t take your meaning. These pirates--the crew-- they’re close-knit, but friends? It’s a word too childish... although Mirabel has gone out of her way a few... more than a few times to speak kindly with me.”
26. THOUGHTS ON PIE?
"Shepherd’s pie. A hearty meal and a homemade delicacy. The only fault it could have would be from the blame of a poor cook.”
27. FAVORITE DRINK?
“I’m a ninny for boring old water. The hard stuff Kaia distills is too strong... despite apparently being her weakest.”
28. WHAT’S YOUR FAVORITE PLACE?
“My bunk, though cramped, always manages to feel secure in even the worst of the storms.”
29. WOULD YOU RATHER SWIM IN THE LAKE OR THE OCEAN?
"Whether or not I’m a fool, I know that the ocean at even half of her worst would churn me like butter. I’ll settle for a lake.”
30. ARE YOU INTERESTED IN ANYONE?
"Interested? Sure, in plenty. That’s how it tends to be when you live on a ship where amassing the greatest bounty over your head is considered an achievement.”
31. WHAT’S YOUR BRA CUP/DICK SIZE?
They grow uncomfortable, tugging out of habit on their loose fitting clothes.
"I don’t... care to consider the specifics of this question, but my body’s very boring anyways.”
32. WHAT’S YOUR TYPE?
“I enjoy people who are kind, yet persistent, even if I can’t convince myself for even a moment that I’m worth their time.”
33. ANY FETISHES?
“Uh-hum... I think I’d just like to be loved. If I had that much, I wouldn’t bother being picky.”
34. SEME OR UKE? TOP OR BOTTOM? DOMINANT OR SUBMISSIVE?
"I wouldn’t know.”
35. CAMPING INDOORS OR OUTDOORS? :)
“A night under the stars would sound terribly beautiful if I didn’t fear the rain.”
36. ARE YOU WANTING THE QUIZ TO END?
“Waiting? I’ve been wondering when it would end-- but not out of any resentment for the quiz! A deckhand has duties is all. Is that... oh, that’s the cue that it’s over?”
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Fandom Fic Rec Days - My Personal Favorites Fic Rec List!
In honor of #ficrecdays (happening Feb. 10th, 11th, and 12th), and my stupidly long ao3 bookmarks page which is a pain to go through, I want to make this list of the best of the the best of my favorite fics - the ones that make me gasp or laugh or cry and just generally ache at their beauty each time I read them. I hope you’ll read and enjoy them too! I encourage you to try something even outside a fandom you know well because all of these works are great fiction in their own right.
This list includes a total of 24 fics or series from nine fandoms: James Bond (3 works), The Martian (1 work), Marvel which is mostly Captain America (5 works/series), Soccer RPF which is all FC Barcelona RPF (4 works/series), Star Trek (2 works), Star Wars (1 work), Supernatural (2 works/series), True Blood (1 work), and The West Wing (5 works).
Some of these fics are already wildly popular, but in order to promote less popular fic a bit more, within a fandom works are sorted from least to most ao3 kudos. Read on and discover my absolute favorite fanfics!
James Bond
Search and Seizure by @kryptaria00q and @stephrc79 (16670 words, James Bond/Q/Alec Trevelyan) - After two assassination attempts on MI6 executives, the British Secret Service now requires self-defence training for all high level employees. Bond and Alec have taken it upon themselves to help keep their lover safe, no matter how much Q might hate them for it. Too bad they never seem to be able to stay on track. (a.k.a. frisking porn with plot)
basically trust porn along with being real porn. everyone’s POV gets shown off and it’s just so much fun watching these boys interact when they so obviously care for each other!
Treasons, Traitors, and Treachery by kryptaria and @zooeyscigar (63245 words, James Bond/Q) - All James Bond wanted was a quiet holiday on his luxury motoryacht on the Costa del Sol. Time to recuperate and think about his future with MI6. But his plans get hijacked when a traitor to the crown returns, bringing news of an even greater threat to MI6. And the traitor isn’t working alone. Thankfully, neither is James.
every single character in here is written flawlessly, and the OC is one of the BEST OCs to ever OC. There’s sass and hilarity, believably written government intrigue, and a very realistic level of depth in all the characters.
so you were never a saint. by @paperclipbitch (12319 words, gen) - “I think Bond’s trying to be your friend,” Eve tells him. “…well,” Q says slowly, “this is a new and disturbing development.”
the asexual!Q epic that defined a lot of my Q headcanons. also a lot of my MONEYPENNY IS AMAZING headcanons! it’s sort of an ensemble fic and sort of a character study and it just makes me like MI6 so much.
The Martian
You Know You Have a Permanent Piece of My Medium-Sized American Heart by tricatular [on tumblr but I’m not able to tag them, sorry!] (9151 words, gen) - “Hey Hermes!” The ambient suspicion level in the Rec ratcheted up significantly. Kapoor was disturbingly cheerful. “We’ve sent you some mission updates in the data dump, but Mitch and I wanted to personally let you know—” Mitch visibly rolled his eyes in the background. “—That thanks to some…strong suggestions from the White House, and on Annie and Director Sanders’ recommendation, we’ve started releasing Watney’s Mars logs to the public.”
deftly mixes standard narration, transcripts of recordings, and social media posts to show what Mark’s journal back to Earth would have been like both for him and for everyone who cared about his story (ie. the whole planet).
Marvel / Captain America
Walking Far From Home by TaleWorthTelling (6222 words, various Sam-centric pairings) - Sam’s relationship with birds starts early and inexplicably.
basically, Sam Wilson’s whole life. as the author’s note says, “Sam is the only person with his shit together, but he got there the hard way.” and then we’re treated to 6000 words of what that path was like, including stellar input from Sam’s OC family and the familiar MCU favorites. and Sam can talk to birds!
The Murder Ballads by BetteNoire (160839 words, 3 works, Steve/Bucky) - Something wicked is coming for Steve Rogers. Luckily for him, something even more wicked stands in its way: the unrepentant, unbroken Bucky Barnes. A murder-mystery/action thriller with violence, magic, and several big MCU guest stars.
like most CA fans I’ve read a stupid amount of post-winter soldier fic, so the first praise for this series is that it has a completely original take on that subject. and that take - the plot complexity, the multi-layered characterizations, the sequel - made me fall in love with Bucky all over again and permanently changed the way I think of him.
your blue-eyed boys by Feather (123233 words, 4 works, Steve/Bucky with sides of Pepper/Tony, Bruce/Betty, and Clint/Natasha) - Steve has no plan. Not because he hadn’t tried to make one. He’d tried to make lots of plans. Plan, adapt, plan again, tried to think of every contingency. And then he’d thrown them away, because there wasn’t much point. What could you plan for? He couldn’t guess the possible contingencies, the situations, the potentials. And he sure as sure hadn’t figured on what’s happened now, on coming back to his place and finding Bucky here. He hadn’t even hoped for that. He hadn’t realized he could. [post-Winter Soldier recovery fic]
if you’d like a slightly more typically-plotted approach to your post-WS fic than “The Murder Ballads” you absolutely can’t go wrong with “your blue-eyed boys”. it’s the most realistic version of Bucky’s recovery that I can imagine - heartbreaking and sickening and real. and the love between Steve and him and the team as a whole is obvious. DON’T MISS the associated verse, which is 450000 words (and growing) of shortfic in the same timeline, and which incidentally has the best OCs in the entire fandom.
Hollow Your Bones Like a Bird’s by @scifigrl47 (95514 words, Clint/Phil) - In the wake of the Chitauri invasion, Clint Barton wakes up in a world that he very nearly had a hand in destroying. And confronting a loss he might not be able to cope with. The Avengers always needed something to avenge, but once the crisis is past, what keeps them together?
I have yet to see a better representation of grief in fanfic, and that’s only maybe half of Clint’s problems in this fic. maybe you’ve noticed I like realism when fic deals with hard topics, and this shies away from nothing - and Clint will treat you to excellent analyses of his friends, as well as many bird facts, along the way!
Ain’t No Grave (Can Keep My Body Down) by spitandvinegar [on tumblr but I’m not able to tag them, sorry!] (107076 words, Steve/Bucky) - It’s six in the morning, and Steve is heading out on a run when he nearly trips over a bouquet of sunflowers on the front steps of his brownstone. For a second paranoia takes over, and he kicks the flowers a little, waiting for them to explode. They don’t. They also came with a card, which he picks up. The front of the card has a tasteful picture of the Brooklyn bridge at sunset. It’s very nice and sedate, like the kind of card you would buy to give to your boss. On the inside someone has written a short message in big, shaky block letters. I AM SORRY FOR SHOOTING YOU. Steve sits down hard on the steps.
ok yet more wonderfully detailed post-ws Bucky trying to recover fic, except in this one Bucky is homeless and a drug addict and ADOPTS THE BEST OCS with the BEST POVS EVER, oh my GOD. also Steve is smart and kind, Sam is long-suffering (and smart and kind), and the whole thing is hilarious.
Soccer / FC Barcelona RPF
only the children (know what they’re looking for) by therestisdetail (7253 words, gen) - I drew a picture of him, later, but I shall not show it to you for it is a sad demonstration of what will happen if you stop drawing when you are six, and certainly much less charming than its model. He wore a shirt that was too large and had soft dark eyes hiding beneath dark, indecisive hair; it did not seem to know if it was short or long, or what shape it wanted to be. He was very pale, very slight, had no shoes, and held a battered football beneath one arm with an air of pride. (Le Petit Prince redone feat. FC Barcelona)
a young Andrés Iniesta meets an even younger Leo Messi, and they quite simply tear my heart in two. no knowledge of The Little Prince required, but the fic is just as understatedly beautiful as the original.
Like a Hand Grenade by @meretricula (20430 words, 2 works, Cesc/Messi) - Cesc Fabregas is born a girl. She still loves football.
full disclosure, I do not care about Cesc Fabregas. I didn’t care about Cesc Fabregas even before his career got, frankly, weird and dispiriting. but BY GOD these works make me care about genderbent!Cesc and everything she could have been. the sequel is particularly nice for some cameos from other well-loved players!
Go Gentle by @ferritin4​ (20977 words, eventually Xaviesta) - Things change, but only some things. In which Barça is indeed més que un club, no one stays on top forever, and it all comes back to Andrés in the end.
hands down my favorite football rpf. uses the A/B/O trope and the idea of pack dynamics to tell the story of the last decade of Barcelona football, which makes a hell of a lot of sense, and although Andrés is quietly the star, the different POVs let a lot of people shine.
It’s Going to Take a Lot to Drag Me Away from You by meretricula (31296 words, 10 works, Xaviesta, Fabregas/Messi/Pique, and Messilla) -  Everybody knows Barcelona’s midfielders are psychic anyway. (Soulbonding AU)
try to tell me that a soulbonding AU isn’t the most logical thing in the world for Xavi and Iniesta, just try to tell me that! there’s also a good look at how the politics of this system could get messy quick, which, let’s be real, just makes sense for barça-centric fic.
Star Trek
How Many Roads? or, 27 Times Jim Kirk hit on Nyota Uhura by Deastar (8806 words, Uhura/Spock) - After the bar fight, Nyota thinks to herself that if this is what being hit on by Jim Kirk leads to, she’s very glad she’s never going to have to see him again.
Uhura and Kirk’s relationship goes from the dumpster fire it was in Iowa to the professional respect we get throughout the movies, but we never really see how it happens. this fic shows all of that and much more, and oh my god, I just like these characters so much.
Counteractive Measures by rikke_leonhart (9159 words, loosely Kirk/Spock) - The thing is – giving Jim Kirk a dare will never ever work. “Enlist,” she repeats to herself as Pike’s back disappears out the door. She snorts. It’s one of those things that just keep getting funnier.
Jim Kirk’s whole life - if Jim Kirk were a girl, and slightly less cliche about her motivations and psychology. and if Spock and especially McCoy were just as awesome as ever, because of course they are!
Star Wars
The Last Poem of Jedha by @schweinsty (15486 words, gen) - How Bodhi Rook temporarily misplaced the two most important things in the galaxy, and how he found them again (with a little help).
literally every fic on this list is amazing, I promise, but this one is my favorite out of them all. if you’ve ever cared about star wars for five seconds, please read this. the world-building, the characterizations, the plot structure, the family and team relationships: all stellar!
Supernatural
In His Image by @whitmerule (153067 words, Gabriel/Sam and Castiel/Dean) - Kali can breathe life back into a corpse, but what exactly is Gabriel now? Gabriel flits around various centuries trying to work that out, Dean has another powered-down angel and a little brother to look out for, Castiel has forgotten how to trust, and someone keeps sending Sam annoying little notes on his laptop. Oh, and Bobby would like to remind you all that there’s an Apocalypse still going on. Covers season 5 from Gabriel’s death to the finale.
half season 5 AU, half historical fiction, it feels like one story thread should distract from the other but instead it all works together to make the definitive Gabriel-centric story!
Sammyverse by shangrilada (249230 words, 42 works, gen) - It’s an AU, but not a deep one, until season 4 or thereabouts, where it starts to get kind of weird. Basically, Sam has really hideous asthma, and the boys are both pretty excellent at dealing with it and each other. They’re [not] all from Dean’s POV, and even though I’m branching now into later stuff, I’m going to keep doing pre-Stanford–Season 2 for a long time because that makes me happy. Honestly it’s a lot of H/C porn of the boys just being friendly and affectionate towards each other, because that’s how I like them. It is, to put it simply, gen. To put it more honestly, it’s as fucked up as I see it in canon and not a bit more or less. You can read into it as much or as little as you like.
it’s just like the show, except Sam is chronically ill and also the boys like each other. based on the show you might think the boys already like each other, but my friends, this ‘verse will show you just how much was missing. Dean’s internal monologues are things of beauty, and I love how much Jess is featured in the Stanford-era fics. (note: this master list includes most but not all of the fic in the verse, so if you’d like the rest be sure to check the author’s page or ask me for links!)
True Blood
We Who Are Alive And Remain by @branwyn-says (10448 words, Sookie/Eric) - Terrified by changes she witnesses in herself, Sookie hides from the world and everyone in it. When Eric finds out her secret, she will either find that he is worthy of her trust-or she’ll be dead.
the non-linear timeline makes this fic shine, and from the very beginning the plot is intriguing. before the plot is resolved we get to see a lot about who Sookie is who Eric is to her, and the dynamics between Sookie and nearly everyone in her life.
The West Wing
We Don’t Notice Time Pass by pene (1304 words, gen) -  “I’d no idea you’d even met her.” It’s friendship and it’s women.
focusing on female friendship within The West Wing is annoyingly difficult, but this story focuses on what relationships among women can be. Mrs. Landingham acts as a bit of a mentor to Ainsley, and Ainsley’s relationship with her childhood best friend is achingly and heartwarmingly true to life.
Define Your Terms by candle_beck (4443 words, Josh/Sam) -  It’s very complicated inside Josh’s head.
Josh is manic and about five conversations ahead of Sam. it works out because these two idiots care about each other very, very strongly. I love Josh’s mental voice in this one!
Vidui by Marguerite (7358 words, gen) - In the fall of 2001, Toby went to shul. In past years he had carried sins enough to confess, sins both petty and great, transgressions against God’s ordinances and those of men.
a beautiful meditation on Toby’s relationship with the people he works with/calls his family, through an explicitly Jewish lense. Toby is the person, and the Jew, that I wish I could be <3</p>
The Thinner the Skin by Jane St Clair (2149 words, Josh/Sam) - Of couches and expensive suits, with some mention of madness.
if you’re going to write a Josh/Sam post-Noel fic, this is unquestionably the way to do it! nothing is shied away from but there’s all the best kind of comfort that h/c can offer, and nice backstory details that make the characters seem realer.
highways and byways and roads in between by @greatestheights​ (10456 words, Josh/Donna) - “Maps are for losers. Maps are for people with no sense of adventure, like you, and…I don’t know. Toby, probably.” Josh, Donna, the open road, five states, and some of the things they said while they were driving.
Josh and Donna and, just, everything that they are (that is, a well-meaning idiot and better than you, respectively), with a healthy dose of Donna/career. everyone is characterized spotlessly, the dialogue is episode-caliber, and there’s fun local geography/culture!
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I was going to ramble about which of my stories is my Own Personal Favorite.
But then, after deleting 4 or 5 different paragraphs of mind-changing pre-write, I realized... I really can’t choose just one? Or even three???
** NOTE that all of these can be found on my fanfic profile!  - Raven’s secret-keeper over there! - Two on AO3: Ravens secret-keeper (pseudonymn: StellarSecretKeeper)
~ Dove’s Dark Discovery is the best-written Actually Published story! It has a sub-plot (re: her struggles with her powers as they grow, AND her relationship with Raven being strained throughout the story), it included the other Titans in Important Scenes (Dove and Raven are by far my favorite characters to write about, but the whole reason I write these stories as TEEN TITANS fanfics is the background of the team!), it EXCELS at “rising action” and “building escalation” (it gets concerning, then anxious, then frantic, then downright devastating), and the DESCRIPTIONS. Holy heavens and hells, the mindscape descriptions!! I absolutely LOVE some of those lines! And the goddamn cLIMAX. That scene alone has literally gone through 6 versions (though the kernel of an idea, “Raven vs. Evil!Dove in the Mindscape”, has always remained the same), and while it’s still not as smooth as I’d like it, some of the rhythmic cadence in that scene is pure stylistic GOLD.
~ The Final Journey is so incredible to write! It has long held an especially special place in my heart, because it’s one of the first stories I ever started writing. I can remember where I wrote almost every single scene in the binder. 
~ Even in Death got some High Quality Additions! Though it’s still not As Great as far as verbiage and pacing and the silky-smooth emotional transitions I’ve been teaching myself to use, the headcanon power it runs on (re: Azarath and Raven’s Abilities and Dove’s PTSD) is GREAT. It discusses something that’s really close to my heart, and also really close to both Raven and Dove’s (mental illness, PTSD, loss and grief and healing). It has a lot of Personal Significance too; let’s just say the revision was inspired by an Actual Astral Adventure and I realized how deeply a revelation like that would affect Dove... And that revelation finally gave that oneshot a reason to exist besides just, “I learned there was this one time...” Dove needed that closure. Desperately. And it’s a big step in her healing from that traumatic day.
~ Heart to Heart was so incredibly sweet, adorable, dramatic, AND satisfying! As far as a self-contained oneshot, it’s definitely the best I’ve ever written. (I daresay it’s among the best scenes ever, and certainly among my favorite flashback-containing scenes!) Dove and Srentha deserve a lot more Emotional Heartfelt Moments that really dive into how much they mean to each other, but I’m an emotionally-stunted aro whose sense of romance is basically “tell her i love her once in awhile”. and I don’t really know how to write those Emotionally Intense Moments with a romantic bend yet. ;; The fact that I wrote that entire scene in like, two weeks, was a complete fluke. 
~ Speaking of oneshot flukes, I’m also really proud of Umbrella? I wrote that sucker in a singular fucking HOUR. I didn’t realize “drabble” had a character limit, but  I’m glad I didn’t know, because it grew into an excellent exploration of Dove’s mindset during her first months on Earth, how she experienced the city, how she experienced strangers, and in the end, human kindness.
Also, my favorite fanfic writer for the animated series (and others!) was inspired to headcanon the random man Dove encounters in the city as his very own protagonist OC. Which I delightfully endorsed. And he wrote it into one of his very own stories. So that absolutely blew my entire mind. It’s still blown to this day! (That writer was also kind enough to review the DDD climax when I desperately needed feedback. It should be “three times as long and nine times the punch”, he said. I took it to heart, took it to the words, and I like to think I KILLED it at long last~)
~ Mystery Sickness is probably my favorite in terms of Total Rewrite Growth^tm? But it’s not Finished Yet, so I can’t show you all the Changes! Its original version (visible on fanfic.net) is heavy on the deus ex machina, and Things Happening without anyone really knowing why. Hell, I didn’t know why when I wrote the damn thing! I kind of treated it like “this is just what I see happening so I gotta write it down”. Raven falls ill, figures it has something to do with Dove, never really explain why Dove is Making Her Unwell, then she kind of just gets better? But now: Oh stars, we have a HUGE Reason! (And it’s Dove’s mother’s spells! It took a good long while for me to really Understand what was going on in Dove’s childhood, what with Alerina constantly and desperately doing everything in her power to hide Dove’s existence, including a slew of spells that kept Dove safe from the rest of Azarath AND Trigon.) And now, when I re-publish it, everything’s going to make sense.
Not to mention, I am having FUN with Mumbo in the rewrite.
~ Something Special About Srentha is probably the first story I wrote with Actual Plot, clear in the story from start to finish. It’s definitely one of my most Cohesive Plots, with the most Consistently Relevant scenes. Granted, in the Mindquest trilogy (Missing: Raven, DDD, and TFJ), every plot point plays into how it progresses, but in Something Special it’s really quite obvious and complete. Intruders are in the mystical forest, they investigate, Dove gets kidnapped, they try to save her, fail a couple times, Dove suffers and learns about her kidnappers, Srentha finds out if they don’t save her they’re going to force her into a ritual to become one of them, and then they try Extra Hard to save her. And then the sequel (Something Strange) is all about the Direct Results of the intruders’ magic having an effect on Dove and Srentha. So, you should all know by now how mystical my ass is, and Srentha’s too come to think of it, so writing these stories touches on a lot of Personal Passions for me AND them. Even the personal struggles, for everyone involved, come as a direct result of everything happening in the plot. And it just naturally turned out that way. I don’t think any story had been so entirely Relevant to one plot before, nor have I managed to captures such contiguous storytelling since.
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Thoughts on MLP The Movie: Unpopular Opinion Edition
(I made a small post about this a few weeks ago, closer to when the movie premiered, but now that the hype has kind of fizzled out I thought I’d take the time to fuss more in-depth.)
So... I really thought the MLP movie was bad.  Terrible.  I had sooo many problems with it, so where do I start?
Warning: SPOILERS AHEAD!! 
My two biggest complaints are:
1) The movie didn’t hold up in terms of quality-- nevermind MLP expectations, it was just a bad movie in general.
2) Target demographic was noticeably shifted (downwards), especially when compared to the show.
Let me start by saying I’m not at all notorious even among friends for being this grouchy, self-elevated, overreaching entertainment critic/analyst.  I can enjoy most things at face value, ie. MLP.  I despise fanaticism (not fandom, fanaticism), and I’m long past the mindset that if I like something, I have to be blindly uncritical of it.  
Please also note that I have not read the movie prequels or supporting media, and I went into this movie with only limited knowledge of those materials.
*deep breath*
(1) So, starting from the top: “It was just a bad movie in general.”
Visually, the movie barely held up for me.  Anyone who’s even had a basic flash animation class knows about this thing called ‘motion tweening:’ it’s an optimized process for creating movement, with which you can set a path for objects to move and deform as opposed to painstakingly animating each frame one by one.  It’s a much quicker process, but the (immediate) result often looks way more mechanical than its traditional counterpart and can often come off as... soulless, or even lazy.  It was unbelievably easy to notice this throughout the movie and it was a huge distraction for me.
You can more easily see what I’m talking about here.
As a side note, I was never really on board with the ToonBoom style from the get-go; I eventually got used to it, but I was never able to totally immerse myself in it-- the whole tweening thing just cemented my dislike for it.  
Continuing my comments on style, the new character designs were interesting, but... so many of them felt too disconnected from established MLP universe conventions.   In fact, the only ones I could only get on board with were the hippogriffs (with a preference towards their seapony forms).  My biggest problem with them has to lay in the fact that nearly all of the new characters-- background and supporting-- were bipedal, when in-show nearly every new race introduced has been on all fours like our titular ponies... and to add insult to injury, so many of them had hands!  Their designs just felt too distant for me to connect that they live in the same world as our pony heroes.  
Note: I realize most of these creatures inhabit lands self-defined by Celestia to be ‘beyond Equestria,’ but that doesn’t dismiss that they still felt like they belonged in a movie not prefaced with ponies.
(Tempest is a little different.  She was visually darker than most ponies than we’re used to seeing, and to the surprise of nobody the poster child for edgy pony OCs, complete with the perfect voice.  Unfortunately, her intimidating demeanor was sometimes too much for me, as it’s much more *effectively* threatening than what we’re used to seeing in-show-- the closest being the Shadow Pony in the S7 finale.)
On a more positive note, I really enjoyed the new environments.  Just the fact that we had new locations to begin with was endearing already, but unlike a lot of the other stuff (see above) they were on par with what I was expecting from MLP on the big screen.  I seriously think the environments had more character/place in the MLP universe than most of the (we’ll call them NPCs) NPCs that occupied them.
Speaking of character, I can forego most of what I’ve talked about above in lieu of a good story (spoilers: the story wasn’t even all that fresh, it was predictable and full of classic kid’s movies tropes).  What I can’t ignore is blatant out-of-character writing.
“But Salt Mom, if you hate out-of-character writing, why are you still watching the show post-season five?” -Most Starlight Glimmer Opposition
As I mentioned at the start, I still enjoy the show at face value.  We’re seven seasons in; our beloved ponies have seen some noticeable character development over the years, which is what some people (perhaps those ruled by nostalgia for the earlier feel of the show) like to label ‘out-of-character writing.’  But the changes are justified by their development, which is why I don’t see it that way.  The movie, however, seems to completely forego character development and reduces them to (at times, vapid) caricatures of themselves and the out of character writing is now completely obvious to someone like me who doesn’t typically enjoy ponies through heavy analysis.  
Pinkie was by far the most glaring.  Pinkie is already one of my least favorite ponies, so maybe I’m biased here, but she was for the most part written as comic relief.  She wasn’t a pony Grubber-- she did play the part of ‘voice of reason’ in the climax with Twilight-- but she had an irritating tendency to completely downplay the seriousness of their situation, as they all did (she was just the most obvious, second being tied between Dash and Rarity).  Since when have they all been so naive?  Except for Twilight, all our heroes had minimal speaking roles (and even more damning, speaking roles with substance), most notably Fluttershy.   
Other problems included the princesses (once again) being victims of weak writing-- they’ve been proven to be capable of putting up more of a fight than we were shown, jeez!-- for the sake of putting the Mane 6 in the spotlight, probably something some people would call ‘forced progression’ (related: bad pacing).  
... Which leads into the movie’s general issue with logic.  
OH BOY.  I had so many issues with the movie logic.  As mentioned before... the ponies’ general naivety, their blatant disregard for the grim nature of their situation...  Capper betrays them, doesn’t explain his reasons, doesn’t get a proper chance to apologize, and our ponies are totally cool with him by the falling action sequence of the movie?  Celaeno’s crew (and similarly, the seaponies) is swayed into changing allegiances with a simple, three-minute song?  The Mane 6 add six or so characters to their posse and suddenly it’s possible to take back Canterlot, after being overwhelmed so easily in the beginning, when the princesses weren’t yet turned to stone?  Really?  How could Tempest-- a pony who comes off as smarter than the rest-- be so desperate to have her horn back that she couldn’t foresee the Storm King’s betrayal?   
*angry flailing motions*
In summary: the animation was mechanical, character designs suffered from a serious disconnect with established MLP canon, and everything from logic to pacing to character behavior suffered from bad, trope-y writing.
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(2) “The movie demographic was shifted noticeably.”
(A lot of what I’ve addressed above can also be applied to this section of grievances.)
Very few times have I watched anything in general and walked away feeling like a real dumbass.  This was one of those times.  Everything from the humor, the songs, the logic (see above)... it all came together to make me feel dumbed down and like a huge moron for even buying a ticket.  Overall, it was extremely apparent to me that they’d knocked the target demographic down a few years, and that the movie was made with younger kids-- rather than families as a whole-- in mind.  
The brand of ‘humor’ (I use that term loosely) employed by the movie has to be the cringiest one in the book.  It was clear that it was the most vanilla one they could have gotten away with and I found myself rolling my eyes a lot because honestly, none of it was funny at all.  Grubber was purely on the screen for comic relief (we literally don’t see him again after the finale); Pinkie’s naivety was obviously supposed to be funny, as were Rarity’s trademark dramaticisms-- They got close sometimes to pulling a laugh, but then it just... fell short and wound up feeling more pathetic and forced than anything.  Was it even humorous to the kids? 
I laughed literally once during the entire movie, and that was at a very transparent marketing joke (perhaps not deliberate) made towards the beginning, after the Mane 6 fall from Canterlot and band together to decide how to proceed.  They end up saying something to the effect of “hungry, hungry, hippos” as they’re brainstorming and I chuckled because... Hungry Hungry Hippos is also a Hasbro property. 
I thought I might be able to find solace in some of the songs-- I’d heard SIA’s contribution in the days leading up to the movie and thoughts it was a decent tune-- but alas... They turned out to be completely vapid, with the sole exception of Tempest’s song.  Compared to the extensive library of songs we’ve gotten in the show, the lyrics and melodies we got in the movie were neither clever nor catchy (I recall thinking that rhyming schemes were nearly non-existent) and I found myself waiting with bated breath until they were over.  “Time to be awesome?”  Blegh.  Completely forgettable.
IDK.  Maybe I need to see the movie again to confirm my position with it; after all, I had already decided I didn’t really like it before the end of the first act.  For the better part of a year I couldn’t get away from the hype surrounding MLP The Movie, but when I finally saw it it didn’t deliver on the same level and ended up being a huge let-down.  It was lacking in a lot of things standard to its TV-counterpart, including what makes the in-show universe so appealing (lore, memorable songs, and magic), and if they end up putting out a sequel I hope it can bounce back in the same way EQG2 built on the shortcomings of its predecessor.  
That’s all I’ve got.  If you’ve managed to get this far, thanks for reading.  ✌
(Bonus) Things I would have liked to see: an entire pirate fleet (instead of a single crew); more Capper and time spent in Klugetown; more Storm King and the land he comes from; the hippogriffs actually doing something (isn’t Queen Novo supposed to be friends with Celestia?) to contribute to the finale, even if it was them swooping in just before the final fight.
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3one3 · 6 years
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The Sequel - 883
Intruder
André Schürrle, Juan Mata, other Chelsea/BVB players, and random awesome OC’s (okay they’re less random now but they’re still pretty awesome)
original epic tale
all chapters of The Sequel
“You’re getting crumbs all over me.”
“Ask me if I care.”
“Do you care?”
“No. Did you like the stew?”
“I told you I did. And I ate the whole bowl. Twice.”
“Just checking.”
Mwah, André narrated in his head as he kissed Christina’s. She was curled up on him and eating from a plate of charcuterie in his lap, awaiting the kickoff of APOEL vs. BVB on TV. As a special favor for him, she “slaved” over a hot stove to make a paprika-laden salmon and potato stew that she thought was sort of like Hungarian goulash fish. It also vaguely reminded her of the fabada that Juan loved, since that too was a reddish-orange broth with stuff floating in it that she didn’t particularly like. Lukas enjoyed it, obviously, because it stained everything it touched and was more or less a soup. Lukas loved soup. He and Dad dined on salmon and potato stew while Mom showered and answered emails. Her work schedule dictated a late lunch, so she wasn’t hungry at dinnertime even if the menu had been more to her liking. She was looking forward to the dried meats, cold cuts, cheese, and bread anyway. Her morning grocery shopping was influenced by the hunger from which she suffered at the time. All sorts of cravings landed in her basket. There were chocolate covered pretzels in the kitchen for the second half.
“How many ridiculously healthy fish stews do I have to make for you to get fit enough to play football instead of watch it on TV?” Christina inquired, almost disdainfully, while she took in the line-up and formation graphic on the screen. She wasn’t a fan of Peter Bosz’s decision-making, and seldom understood it. Her question wasn’t about disparaging her partner’s slow progress back to the team, but her desperation to see him bring them some useful quality.
“How many times do I get to laugh at you later when you complain about getting acid reflux from eating in this position?”
“None. If you love me you’ll just get me an antacid and rub my head.”
I like her so much lately, André thought, smiling again before kissing to the right of her topknot once more. I like her when she’s relaxed and fake-bossy and cute and making me special meals and wanting to be together for everything. She even stayed in our bathroom this morning and trimmed her toenails outside the door to the toilet while I was in there so that she could tell me all about how she did 15 pull-ups and felt so strong with the weights. Which, by the way, he continued remarking to himself while his girl hummed the Champions League song and chewed salami, I’m pretty sure is down to her having a more regular routine- sleeping in the same place, having her meals at more or less the same time, having the choice to make whatever she wants instead of hotel food, relaxing regul-
“Mario looks less fat this week. Is the black kit that slimming or is he getting leaner?”
“I don’t know. If he lost any weight, I know where to find it. You put on some padding this week,” he joked, poking at her side.
“I know. I lost a handful of pounds when I was sick.”
“Here we go.”
“We should put Real and Spurs on the computer or iPad or something, yeah?”
“You want to get up and get it?”
“No.”
“You want to get up so I can get it?”
“No.”
“Then I guess not.”
Dortmund was in trouble in their group. Real Madrid and Tottenham were each on 6 points going into matchday three, and the Bees were on none. APOEL was in the same boat, after heavy defeats to the other two. Dortmund’s best hope to get to the knockout stages of the competition was beating APOEL and hoping that Real Madrid would defeat the London club, as Tottenham still had to travel to the Westfalenstadion and would be an easier target for the needed second win than Real Madrid at the Bernabéu. Christina thought her team’s new manager tactically inept. To her it was as if he watched footage of opponents to prepare for the game and then chose to do the exact opposite of what she would do, and what she thought was the obvious right plan. She also thought him incapable of adjusting or organizing the team from the touchline, or his seat in the dugout, where he seemed to spend all his time. On top of that, he couldn’t change a game. His substitutions seldom made a difference. The team lacked balance and organization, always, and there was never any leadership on the pitch.
André’s irritation and dismay was triggered by far fewer issues. He just wished the team had more fight in it, and more responsibility. He saw things spiral out of control, or turn into 11 guys each doing their own thing based on their own ideas, and no one taking ownership of his role. There were a lot of new pieces put together, a lot of in and out due to injury, and a regular lack of experienced personnel, as well as lack of consistency from everyone. The Bees were getting away with in the Bundesliga for the most part. In fact, they were still atop the table. But they suffered an embarrassing defeat at home at the weekend that exposed the same problems plain to everyone watching the Champions League.
His teammates were especially bad against APOEL. They were sluggish and unmotivated. A Bürki mistake led to a goal, which ignited serious fire under the home side and seriously demoralized the visitors. Most of the match was a mess, tactically speaking and also in terms of execution. Personality-wise, it was a disaster. It was painful to watch. The other team had to sub off their main striker and goalkeeper due to injuries in the first 40 minutes- two of the most key players- and were still looking more capable than the Germans. And Tottenham opened the scoring in Madrid, just to make the situation more fraught. Both BVB and Real managed to get equalizers eventually, but the former’s attempt to secure a winner was equal parts chaos and heart attack. They almost conceded a winner at least twice as often as they looked like getting one for themselves. The score line in the other game was not helpful. Christina’s attitude at the whistle was one of resignation and bitterness, but without any surprise. Her husband was legitimately shocked by the terrible performance, and profoundly disappointed.
“Think of it this way: you were never going to get far in the knockout rounds anyway, not this year. Wouldn’t you rather have a chance to win the Europa League than get spanked by Barcelona or Chelsea in the round of 16?” the non-footballer posed for consideration while taking apart her bed. The housekeepers changed the sheets and made it up nicely, which meant Christina had to pull it all apart and rearrange the pillows. André was trying to figure out the gas fireplace under the TV. They hadn’t had occasion to use it yet. He was looking forward to real cold setting in so that they could light the real wood-burning fireplaces in the foyer and living room. In fact, he was looking forward to the winter holidays, when he’d have an excuse to have those two going as well as the tiny gas one in the kitchen that was visible on the other side of the wall in the dining room too. Zoe put a glass-enclosed gas fireplace in every new wall she added to the house, and then cut a big hole in an existing wall in order to add one to the round room with the Jacuzzi.
“I guess. But we need to get a hold on things before we get momentum in the wrong direction.”
“Yeah, for real. Especially now that Heynckes is back at Bayern and they’ve maybe possibly stopped their delicious descent into mediocrity. I think you’d be perfectly happy without European football in exchange for a Bundesliga title.”
“Correct.”
“Oh, that looks nice,” the rider smiled when she realized he got the low flames ignited. She didn’t pay any attention until she crawled into bed and got under the covers. “Come snuggle! We can pretend we’re somewhere alpine.” André yawned twice while he watched the fire for a second, and then he stopped in his dressing room to discard his sweatpants before he slid into the predominantly navy linens with his favorite girl and set the fireplace remote down. She picked out the new sheets on a shopping trip with him in the city. They had some thin white stripes spaced far apart, and they were incredibly soft. Christina didn’t like duvet covers because of the bunching issues, but she was willing to overlook that because the linen set felt so nice.
“Tell the truth,” the player requested with a sort of facetiously probing squint as he got settled on his pillow and captured her legs with his. “You just want Chelsea to win the Champions League.”
“Yep.” She nodded from the opposite pillow and poked at his chest while his left palm settled on her right side. “But I also think you all never had a chance.”
“I know.”
“It was fun to watch together and like, be real about the team,” she chuckled. “I’ve been biting my tongue about it for...I don’t know...13 months? I dunno if Reus mentioned it, but I vented some frustration about it at him yesterday and he took it pretty okay and suggested that you are a big boy and could handle it too, so...”
“I can always take it. As long as you aren’t mean just to be mean or argumentative,” André replied with an assuring, easy expression. “I even enjoy your angst sometimes. It’s like having Arsenal Fan TV right in my living room.”
“Heyyyy.”
“You have a cute nose.”
“You have a crooked nose.”
“Should we turn the other way and look at the fire? It doesn’t make much heat, so if you don’t look at it it’s kind of pointless.”
“Okay.”
“Okay.”
The couple shifted into their more standard positions, with him on his back and her under his arm and on his chest. Both rejected turning the TV on, or queuing up some music. They wanted to just chat until ready to sleep. Contrary to the prior conversation, Christina did feel bad endlessly hammering Borussia Dortmund, and she did want to give her blonde boy something better to think about at bedtime, so she pivoted to romance. The two baby pink boxes with the black satin bows sitting on the bench in her closet were on her mind.
“Let’s go out tomorrow night for dinner, no Munchkin. Someplace with tablecloths.” And then after dinner I’ll put my new outfit on and be all sexy and stuff.
“Like Palmgarden tablecloths and tasting menus, or like Pfefferkorn tablecloths and sizzling steak plates?”
“Steak.” But if we have steak, is he going to eat a whole cow and then be too tired and full for my outfit?
“All right. Make sure you ask Espen in the morning if she can stay. Don’t forget and spring it on her at 4. She hates that,” André yawned. He also scooted down the bed some. Just because the squad was in Cypress didn’t mean he had a day off. He trained with the youth team and the other first team guys coming back from injury, and did his individual work too. Feeling sleepy and ready to kill the lights and fire came earlier than expected for him.
“She hates everything lately.”
“I think I’m done with the fire actually.”
“Tired, babe?” The little bundle of warmth trying to suck up whatever additional heat she could get lifted her head for a second and rested her chin on his pectoral muscle. Her quiet, sympathetic tone was affectionate and sweet to his ears, and in a way it actually made him even more sleepy. It was the voice she used when tucking Lukas in at night, or comforting him after some toddler-spec calamity. It was like she was asking if he was really tired because she could do something for him if he said yes, like cuddle in some different, better way, or say something that guaranteed him pleasant dreams. He nodded at her. “Kill the fire, then. And be big spoon? You can use me as leg pillow.”
They got comfortable in the proposed arrangement, in the dark, in their pocket of warmth to insulate them from the cool, fresh air around them from the cracked window, and they did their standard quiet last words for the night. One said “Night night, sweet dreams, love you”, and the other, “Love you, Prinzessin”. About two hours later, Lukas turned up in their bed with his pony, complaining that he couldn’t sleep without Spencer and Lucky. It was a curious claim given that the dogs weren’t even allowed in his room, let alone his bed.
He seldom took advantage of the increased freedom since switching from the crib to his toddler bed, and when he did, his parents took him back where he belonged and tucked him back in because he wasn’t allowed to do the “can I sleep with you?” thing that so many kids get dependent on. He knew in general that he wasn’t supposed to get up during the night, or wander around. He knew he’d get in big trouble if he messed with the baby gate blocking access to the stairs, or tried to get in any of the closed doors. Only his bathroom door stayed open at night. The door to the master bedroom was always closed, but he could open it. The others had childproofing mechanisms to keep him out. Mom and Dad didn’t want him coming in their room because they didn’t want to get rid of all the safety hazards in there, or put things away every night. But they didn’t want him to panic about being alone either, so they didn’t lock him out. They just told him it had better be a serious emergency if he was coming in, and he seemed to grasp that pretty well up to that point.
Christina was too comfortable to get up and take him back to bed, and André was too sleepy, so they told him he could stay with them if he forgot about needing the dogs. The little boy was reluctant. He thought it over for a minute. His mom hugged him into agreement. Then he wanted his own spot between the grown ups, and he said “Sorry, Mommy” and gave her a kiss when he sensed her irritation at the whole affair. He ended up sleeping on André’s right bicep, spooning his stuffed animal. Christina slept with her back to the boys, and wasn’t sure if the big one even knew the little one was there. It was a relief to wake up in the morning and find that Lukas hadn’t been crushed or smothered in the night by his father’s migratory cuddle instincts, especially since it was really cold and he usually tried to snuggle close to her for extra warmth.
“You are an adorable sleepy little human,” she grinned at her son while he fought the attempt of sleep to draw him back to his dreams. His eyes could barely stay open, and his hair was a mess, and his cheeks were pink. He still had Dave in his arms, though he’d moved off his dad’s arm and was using his dad’s pillow instead. I’m supposed to be rushing him to the potty now, Mom realized. But can’t we stay here for a little? He’s so sweet, she cooed inside. “Want to wake Daddy up?” Lukas nodded and began to try to get up. His tiny body wasn’t cooperating yet, and he kind of fell over.
“Da-Daddy,” he laughed in the process. Dave was used as leverage to help him get on his hands and knees, and he then crawled onto André’s chest. The player stirred but didn’t open his eyes. “Hi Daddy.”
“Hi Mausi,” he mumbled back.
“We need snuggles,” his wife chimed in. His brain was as slow to get into gear as Lukas’ body was, so it took him a few seconds to comprehend exactly where he was and what was going on. And when he did, it made him feel old. This is one of those moments when you realize your life is unrecognizable, he thought. You wake up with a wife and a toddler in your bed, and your back hurts, and you need 3 more hours of sleep, and it’s 6 in the morning and that’s when the toddler’s day starts, so, you know, it is what it is. This is what I wanted. I imagined this. I fantasized about it, even. And it’s nice, I guess. He’s such a happy kid, André added as he held onto his son and turned over onto his side and took him with him. His eyes were still shuttered against the real world because he wasn’t done with the one in his head. I love them. I love our family. We have everything. But this morning was better in the fantasy. “Munchkin sandwich,” Christina interjected into his reflection. She’d moved closer and was trying to get her feet between his calves and her arm over his side. There were more replica trophies downstairs in the fantasy, and the bed was in London, and I was waking up after a big European night at Stamford Bridge, after a big goal. I’m tired, the Borussia forward yawned.
“Dave sandwich,” Lukas giggled, trying to squeeze his stuffed animal between him and his mom the way his mom was trying to squeeze him into Daddy.
“Let’s all by quiet and go back to sleep,” André suggested.
“Chyea,” his girl snorted. Once the baby is up, the baby is up, he reminded himself. Oh well. I guess I- Wow. Slowly opening one eye gave him a reason to stop the mild internal complaining. She looks good today. What a smile.
“Morning, Prinzessin.”
“Morning, boyfriend.”
“Did you sleep good, Mausi?”
“Uhhuh.” Lukas fought to wiggle onto his back so that he could talk to both parents.
“Well don’t get used to it because you’re not sleeping in here again,” his Mom reminded him, stern but still smiling. André thought their little one should be allowed to sleep over more often if it was going to make her so happy in the morning. He thought she looked better rested than she should have been. He kissed Lukas’ head and smelled his nice kid’s shampoo scent and continued to take in the glow coming from the adjacent pillow. The morning didn’t seem too far off the fantasy anymore.
“Where did he go?” he asked Christina while pulling the comforter up over the little boy between them.
“I dunno. Must have run off. Guess he didn’t want any kisses.”
“I’m here!” Lukas giggled under it.
“I like kisses. I’ll have his.”
“No! Me! Mommy!”
“Do you hear something?” she questioned.
“Nope.”
“Mommy!”
André made exaggerated kissing sounds and leaned over the covered blob to smooch his girl all over the place. Soon tiny arms and legs were punching and kicking up from the blanket. The rider made kissing noises too, and kept asking her partner where else he needed kisses after a sweet one on the lips. An anxious child emerged out of the top of the comforter and got viciously kiss-attacked by both parents, which resulted in so much laughing and giggling that he almost wet his overnight diaper. He had to shout and say he needed to go before Mom and Dad realized what was up. André took him to the bathroom since he was about to wet himself too. Christina rolled over to check her phone. There was a text from 3:18 am.
“When are you coming home again?”
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