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theoptimisticdaydreamer · 4 years

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18 Again Ep 6

**** SPOILERS****

Episode 6 has come to an end and with it the first three weeks of 18 Again.

This episode left me with mixed feelings.

Let’s start with Da Jung as the episode mostly centered around her. I loved seeing her kill it as a reporter on the scene of a scary situation. How she went to everybody on the scene from the medics to the firefighters to the police to gather information instead of applying her makeup was absolutely brilliant. Her dedication definitely deserved her reporting the news instead of the jealous senior reporter. I loathe almost everyone at her workplace however. The asshole CEO (or whoever the old dude is) forcing everyone to retract all their offers because he’s angry at the comments was infuriating. Does he not realize how quickly public attention shifts? I assure you, her divorce will become old news very soon - its not like there is a lack of drama and scandal in the world. Yoo Mi is also proving to continue to be a b*tch which is highly irritating. Also, I hope eventually she will be recognized as the most competent reporter they have. I also adore how she didn’t go to a training academy to be qualified or aid in the exams, she did it all by herself in front of a muted TV (with Dae Young looking fondly at her working) and got in purely on her talent and skill.

Furthermore, I love how the show calls out the taboo topic of divorce and how women in particular are treated in the aftermath (as if their worth suddenly diminishes now that they separated from their partner) and how absolutely stupid it is. Plus, as Ji Hoon pointed out saying the wrong thing leaves a more permanent stain on your reputation than a divorce.

Dae Young was great this episode. The beginning of the episode where Da Jung’s heel breaks (after a very awkward love triangle standoff) and she goes with Ji Hoon to the hospital instead of Woo Young stung. You felt like Woo Young/Dae Young was the third wheel to Da Jung and Ji Hoon and it was really sinking in for him how he was only an observer in her life now (especially as Woo Young) and so couldn’t help her but instead watch others help her and that she had the freedom to have this new romantic life as well because she is divorced now. Then him arriving to the hospital after having her shoes fixed and getting her slides only to see them being very comfortable with each other and her having new shoes provided by Ji Hoon - you felt his anguish this entire time. It was perhaps the longest 10 minutes of my life because I couldn’t bear watching it in one sitting.

Dae Young and Deok Jin were absolute peak comedy though. The amount of beeping that went on in that conversation (after Deok Jin gifted Dae Young a signed Ji Hoon jersey not knowing that Dae Young is no longer a fan) was so funny. It was nice to see Dae Young no longer have to pretend to be someone else and be absolutely casual and brutal to his longtime best friend. The horror on the employees’ faces just made it all the more perfect. Him attempting to comfort Deok Jin later on in the episode was very sweet though. You could tell that while Dae Young cursed at Deok Jin a lot, he also genuinely cared about him.

Your heart ached for Dae Young when him and Da Jung were walking back in the rain (after she ran to him with an umbrella after seeing him just standing there looking at her) and he told her “thank you for always caring about me” - he was not saying that as Woo Young but as Dae Young, speaking for all those years that he never really thanked her properly for caring about him. Him watching her broadcast live and on his phone with a smile on his face was so sweet. I freaking love how Dae Young signed to the deaf lady asking for directions (I really hope they continue to show this ability of his because it meant he took the time to learn how to communicate to the hard of hearing because he cared about talking to them).

I love the minute progress we are getting with Woo Young and Si Woo’s bond because Si Woo invited him over to work on homework. Woo Young’s face absolutely lit up and you knew that Dae Young was over the moon to get that offer. Him seeing the dishes in the sink and the realization that he never did the amount of housework he should have (leading her to pick up after him more than she should have-which is at all) was an important one. I love how he was committed to doing the dishes instead of working on the assignment (that he could potentially fail as a result). It shows how he wanted to make up for his past mistakes more than he wanted to succeed independently as a 18 year old student. I am a little bothered that Woo Young and Si Ah’s relationship has made no progress beyond them sniping at each other and her generally getting annoyed at his presence. A conversation along a calmer vein would be a nice change. The fact that he wanted to blurt out that he was her father during their argument was hilarious. But what made me crack up laughing was the multitude of facial expressions that flashed across Woo Young’s face and his physical surprise at seeing his mother-in-law as he exited the bathroom (after he finished talking to her on the phone as Dae Young). He practically ran out of the apartment.

There was also a Si Ah romantic story line moment between her and Ji Ho. It absolutely made me smile. Him preventing a heavy box from falling on her and the way they looked at each other made me feel like the love triangle is tilting in Ji Ho’s favor. Them locking hands simultaneously while the teachers came closer to the cabinet they were hiding in made me squeal. Was he going to kiss her? Who knows but I think that she likes him more than she lets on.

We learn more about Ji Hoon this episode. The revelation that he is a father came as a little bit of a shock. I wonder who the other man in the photo on the shelf was and how the woman who ushered her husband out the door when the news came over the radio is connected to the entire thing (she looked more worried than she should have been if she was just a random person). It is really nice though to see another dad who cares immensely for his child. I am here for the normalizing the existence of the loving dad. The way he ran out of the stadium at the news she was missing and the way he ran into the police station to find her really tugged at your heartstrings. But what topped the cake of adorableness was the way he was carrying her as they left the station. However his family situation ends up panning out as more gets revealed, you can tell that he really loves the little girl. The police officer leaking that information and taking photos of them was downright low and how public opinion shifted was another example of how nonsensical people’s expectations of others are (in this case- a celebrity baseball player possessing a family when he should probably be single in their eyes). You can tell also how taken he is by Da Jung (and it was really nice to see Da Jung smile freely and laugh freely at the baseball stadium).

Several things bothered me this episode though that left a rather bitter taste on my tongue.

First, they are continuing to paint the grandfather as this sympathetic figure which pisses me off. They have completely glossed over the fact that he abused his son- like because it was in the past and only happened to Dae Young (whom everybody hates right now) it no longer matters which is absolute bullshit. I don't understand why Da Jung would treat the grandfather so nicely. "Because he is your parent" does not excuse any of the parent's behaviors. If I found out that my SPOUSE was going behind my back and regularly interacting with my ABUSIVE PARENT (and bringing my CHILDREN along eventually), I would be beyond furious.

The behavior of Da Jung's mother towards Dae Young also ticked me off. It has only been 6 episodes but I am tired of everyone treating Dae Young as the epitome of human trash when he is far from it. How on earth is he ever going to repair things when everyone has this cemented terrible opinion of him?!! And WHY would talking to your mother in law be a requirement to get divorced?! Like her opinion matters?!!! It is their relationship- not hers. The only people who should matter are Dae Young, Da Jung, Si Woo and Si Ah. The fact that the grandparents are expecting to be consulted or being apologized to is freaking archaic.

It was sad also to see the behavior of Da Jung towards Dae Young’s phone call. On one hand, it makes complete sense because she just divorced him because of their crumbling relationship. On the other, it just signifies the large chasm that exists between them and I have no idea if and how it is going to be bridged in the next 10 episodes.

Another thing that bothered me was Da Jung and Ji Hoon's relationship. I admit I have no emotional investment in her separate love line as a result of the more heart-tugging plot lines. However, in no way whatsoever do I begrudge Da Jung of happiness. I admire that she is following her dreams even if the path to get there was in no means traditional. She is an amazing mom and an amazing broadcaster. She deserves all the happiness in the world and if Ji Hoon makes her happy so be it. I also like that 18 Again is showing her side of the story as the movie never really focused on it.

What I have a problem with is the timing of her relationship. Perhaps if this relationship was introduced later after some things in the story had resolved, I would have a different mindset. But the show presented as one of the main sources of heartbreak --- the chasm that has built up between Dae Young and his children. Thus, I - the audience - am emotionally invested in this family relationship. The resolution of this pain, both as Dae Young and Woo Young, is where I am pouring most of my emotional commitment and energy. I want to see Woo Young get closer to both Si Ah and Si Woo, and the bond between Dae Young, Si Ah and Si Woo to be repaired. So I am uncomfortable with how the show seems to prioritize Da Jung and her love line while giving Dae Young minuscule progress with his children. I would have preferred for this story line to come into play when his relationship with his children is looking more hopeful. That it is happening now makes me unable to stop thinking that it is diverting time and attention away from the relationships I care the most about. If we pass the halfway mark and this trend still continues, I will be out for blood.

The fact that the P.E. teacher is still in this story infuriates me. How incredibly low of him to pose as Teacher Ok's boyfriend just to hurt Deok Jin. For him to describe himself as a friend when all of his actions point to how he still delights in causing Deok Jin pain all these years later is an outright lie. What sucks is that Teacher Ok said she had a boyfriend just to get away from the situation not intending it to be such a large source of pain that it became when the P.E. took that opportunity to be a douchebag. Also while Deok Jin’s attempt to ask her out came from a good place, I do not appreciate that no wasn’t respected as an answer. No means no - no questions asked no further prodding appreciated.

The best part of the entire episode was the epilogue hands down. I love how the shoes came from Dae Young (even though she thinks they came from Ji Hoon which stings) and how he was her biggest fan. My favorite thing about the epilogue though was all of the little things he did (repairing the light, doing the dishes and leaving her favorite snack on the table) and how he confessed he finally realized that it was the small things that made her happy. “It’s impossible to share my feelings because it’s too late. But I’ll be okay as long as it makes you smile.” MY HEART. It tugs on all my heartstrings how committed he is to her happiness in this new beginning even if all of the things he does to make her happy are never recognized as coming from him because all he wants is to make her smile. It feels so bittersweet because it feels like in the end he is going to walk away, or let her walk away completely, in the name of her happiness.

The previews for the next episode seem to promise a lot of drama. I never envisioned Ae Rin being the first to find out that Woo Young is Dae Young nor would I want her to be the first (though her dramatic slipper breaking scene was hilarious as was the contrast between how much more care Woo Young gave Da Jung and how much indifference he gave Ae Rin). While she has instances where she is a good friend, I am not her biggest fan. Primarily for the clips shown in the preview. I despise people who knowingly get drunk beyond their limits and blurt out other people’s secrets, potentially endangering other people. Ae Rin is shown to do this and blurt out said “Woo Young = Dae Young” secret IN FRONT OF CHIEF DOUCHEBAG P.E. TEACHER. I am in fear of the damage that the P.E. teacher will do with this information (because the show does not need more problems thank you very much).

I am sick and tired of there being barely any change between Dae Young as Woo Young and his children and absolutely no change between Dae Young as Dae Young and his children. I am also sick of the P.E. teacher’s toxic and evil existence as well as the glossing over of child abuse (both of Dae Young and Ja Sung). I hope the show shows progress in the familial and friendship relationships I care about (as well as people being brought under the Dae Young Woo Young Dad Friend Umbrella) and does not shift its focus to being a romantic love saga of Da Jung. I also hope that the P.E. teacher does not cause irreparable damage and set back any and all progress Dae Young has been making a million years.

Looking towards next Monday with bated breath but still highly recommend.

#eighteen again #18again #kdrama #ep 6 #lee do hyun #kim ha neul #yoon sang hyun #wi ha joon #noh jung eui #ryeoun #choi bomin #kim kang hyun #love the dae young deok jin friendship dynamic #PLEASE give me progress in dae young's relationship with his children #both as woo young and dae young #REPAIR THIS FIRST #da jung's love life can wait until later #love how dae young did all the little things that made her happy #even though he got no credit for it #please let the P.E. teacher not destroy all of dae young's progress #STOP GLOSSING OVER CHILD ABUSE #love ji hoon as a loving dad tho #love seeing da jung kick ass as a reporter #can we get to the part of the story where dae young isn't universally hated #PLEASE GIVE ME A HAPPY ENDING #also si ah and ji ho are very cute #she likes him more than she lets on #love dae young knowing sign language #give me the Dae Young Woo Young Dad Friend Umbrella

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anxiously-introverted · 4 years

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Can you write a a scene about Will first activating his powers and losing control and El and Mike ( Mike is there cuz it’s the holidays so they’re all visiting eatchother) and maybe Joyce idk and they have to snap him outta it and calm him down? What others powers/other stuff can he do with his electricity?

On top of being able to manipulate electricity, I also like the idea of Will having telepathic powers like El’s. However, instead of being able to enter the minds of people, Will is able to enter, and even control, the minds of the creatures from the Upside Down (such as the Demogorgon).

Here’s the scene I was picturing! Please be aware, Lonnie is a jerk with homophobic views in this and the kids like to swear. Hope you enjoy!

“Why is it that every time something seems to go wrong here nowadays, it’s because of you?” Lonnie snarled, hand twisted into the fabric of Will’s shirt as he cornered his son against the brick wall of the local convenience store. It was cold, wind nipping harshly at Will’s skin as he stared up at his father with wide eyes.

The past few days had been going so well for him. The Party had already had several hangouts and movie nights, trying to spend as much time as possible together before Will and El had to return to their new home in New Mexico. So far, it almost felt as if things hadn’t really changed. Sure, Will still felt that particular pang of hurt when he saw Mike and El showing each other affection. Yeah, there came a certain sting when he heard about how some kid at their school was so great at Dungeons and Dragons, yet the group never wanted to play when Will had been suggesting it. Maybe he did still feel left out when everyone talked relationships while he knew he could never discuss the feelings he had without the others being disgusted.

Perhaps there was still a lot of pains that still rattled him, but the small flashes of happiness with his best friends that made up for it. For the most part, at least.

Yesterday, though, there was a sudden change in the mood. Lonnie Byers had blown into town like a glowering tumbleweed, the news of what happened during the summer making its way back to him after a long delay.

His unstable son, after going in and out of a lab that was eventually shut down permanently, had also been involved in a huge incident at the mall which resulted in it being destroyed. There was gossip of Russians and the disappearance of the chief of police.

He insisted that he would’ve come sooner to see Will, if only Joyce had given him their new address. He told Will he’d been so worried, that he didn’t know what to think when he’d gotten random bills from the lab and the hospital. He assured that had he’d known everything that had been happening, he would’ve been here. But, he said, he was here now.

He said he wanted to know what was going on.

He said he wanted to help.

Will felt like a fool for believing him.

“It wasn’t bad enough that you had to be a dirty little queer,” Lonnie said with curled lips, as if the taste of bile came up with the word. “But now I’ve got people around here sayin’ my kid was moved to a looney bin outta state, locked up with the other bleeding hearts and crazies. You have any idea how goddamn humiliating it is to have the town freak as my son?”

Tears stung at Will’s eyes, though he refused to let them fall. He tried blinking them away, hazel eyes clearing up the blur minimally as he tried to retort, “Why do you care? You don’t even live here anymore! I don’t even live here anymore!” He was shaking, he was struggling. He felt like he was in a cage with a lock that was on the verge of breaking.

“Oh, so it’s fine to turn your family into a fucking joke?!” Lonnie snapped. “Not to mention all the damn bills that keep flooding in from the hospital. You have any idea how much money-“

“All you care about is money!” Will cut in angrily, fear and frustration coming out in a rage that had been smothered and repressed for as long as he could remember. His chest felt like it was burning, his head feeling weightless and as if a boulder rested on it all at once. The building resentment paced in his mind like a tiger in an enclosure two sizes too small. “I know about how you tried to sue Sattler after the funeral! I know you only cared about making some quick money before ditching mom and Jonathan all over again!”

For a brief instant, there was shock on Lonnie’s face. He had never heard his son, embarrassingly weak and shamefully reserved Will, speak to him with such venom. If he weren’t so pissed, he may have felt proud. Instead, Lonnie hatefully shot back, “That money would’ve done us a hell of a lot more good than what you’ve been doing! Meltdown after meltdown, disaster after disaster, not once have you ever dealt with any of this like a man! That money wouldn’t have ruined this family’s reputation, and it wouldn’t have dragged us to the brink of debt!”

Hotter, hotter, hotter, there may as well have been lava in his veins. Will felt more and more tears gathering in his eyes, hatred for himself and the man in front of him strangling his heart with barbed wire. There were so many things he wanted to scream. It wasn’t his fault the Demogorgon came after him; it wasn’t his fault the Mind Flayer haunted him every day until eventually robbing him of his autonomy; it wasn’t his fault Billy and the others were possessed, nor were the deaths or the destruction of StarCourt his fault. He didn’t want any of it to happened, he didn’t mean for any of it to happen. All he wanted was to forget, to move on, to start a new chapter-

“It would’ve been better for everyone if you just stayed dead!”

A tear broke free, gliding down his cheek. The lock on the cage broke and Will raged.

In the Wheeler’s basement, Mike looked at the clock hanging on the wall for the fifth time within the hour. His worry and agitation was palpable, setting the other Party members on edge. El rested a gentle hand on the other’s arm, commenting, “I’m sure he’s alright, Mike.”

“They should’ve come back by now,” the teen insisted, his brown eyes flicking worriedly to hers. “Something must have happened.”

“He’s just out with his dad, Mike. What could happen?” Max asked, looking up with a raised brow from where she was playing cards with Dustin and Lucas.

Mike shook his head, “You don’t know his dad, Max. He’s… He’s a major asshole. He’s been a dick to Will since elementary school.”

“He’s right,” Lucas said, his lips twisting into a frown as memories came to mind. “He would yell at him, call him all sorts of names. And that was just what he did in front of us.”

El’s face pinched into a look of concern at the information. She knew Lonnie was a sore subject for the Byers family, but she thought perhaps it was just the bitter aftertaste of a bad fight or the awkward hurt that had settled after the divorce. Asking questions wasn’t really an option, she felt as though it wasn’t her place to go digging into old wounds. Not to mention that Will had seemed off for what seemed like days, perhaps even weeks, now.

She now wishes she had learned more about her new family.

Mike stood with a hardened expression and said, “I’m going to go find him.”

“I’ll come with you,” El said, coming up from her spot on the couch as well.

“Do you need us to come with you?” Dustin asked, his head popping up from where he was laying on the floor.

“We should be fine. We’ll radio you if we need help, but stay here in case my mom asks where I am,” Mike said, putting one of the radios into his sweatshirt’s pocket. With that, he and El made their way up the stairs and out of the house.

The sky was overcast with flashes of blue.

No words would be sufficient to describe the way Mike felt as he took in the scene before him. Lonnie lay on the ground, clutching his upper arm as he stared with petrified eyes at Will. His skin looked burned, almost charred, as if struck with a bolt of unbridled energy.

And Will…

Screams of anguish, rage, heartbreak; the cries of one who’s been broken one too many times cut through the air like a razor. His eyes were alight with electric energy, his irises turned dark despite the flashes of neon blue crackling out of them and emanating from the rest of his body as if he were an overpowered battery. The very air around had turned to static, almost burning with the intensity.

One by one, shop windows began to rattle, crack, and break. Street lights flashed in bursts of blinding light, the hum of constant electricity humming through them like a chorus. The sky above them rumbled, almost gurgling on the blue energy being blasted into and out of it. Veins of blue and black danced along Will’s body, a sickening tango of power intermingled with overwhelming grief.

Lonnie screamed, “Fucking monster! He’s a fucking monster!”

Another bolt shot out at Lonnie, but he managed to roll out of the way just in time for it to strike and scorch the ground beside him. The man yelped as he accidentally put pressure onto his injury, his legs scrambling to get him up onto his feet.

El could relate all too well to the scene in front of her. The lack of control, the surge of emotions, feeling as though you had all the power in the world and yet none at all. She looked at Will screaming, sobbing, breaking, and saw herself. She could see the steady stream of crimson pouring from his nose, pouring like a faucet as his body poured his very soul into the outburst around him. It was so familiar, she could almost feel the blood on her own lip.

Willing her voice to be steady, she called out, “Will! It’s me! It’s Eleven!” Screaming broke into choppy outbursts before stopping, as if an old engine were struggling to stop. The scratch and catch in Will’s throat could be heard from where the pair stood. Mike snapped himself from his reverie, following El’s lead, “Will, it’s Mike! Listen, it’s-“

“Do not say it’s going to be okay!” Will rasped, heat and venom seeping through the hurt. “Nothing’s okay now and nothing’s ever going to be fucking okay!” There was a pulse of more intense energy, as if a second kick jolted within the brunette and poured out as even more strands of tangled lightning.

“Will, please, what’s going on? You can tell us. We want to help you!” El continued, brow furrowed as she watched the boy struggle. “But first, you have to calm down!”

“Calm down? Calm down?!” The enraged teen demanded, electricity crackling. “I’ve been told to calm down for the past three years! And it never. Fucking. Helps!” Two more bolts shot out, one striking the brick wall behind him, another striking a lamp post and shattering the bulb with the surge.

“Then tell us what will help!” Mike pleaded, taking a small step forward. “Tell us what you need, Will!”

“It-it,” Will struggled, gripping his hair tightly with white knuckles. “Why do you care? Just-Just stop pretending! Stop acting like I matter to you!”

El shifted toward Will, her hands lowered and body language open. “We’re not pretending! We care about you, Will. All we want is for you to be okay.”

“You want me dead!” Will screamed, though his energy was dipping. “You all wish I had died in that quarry! You all wish I never came back!”

“That’s not true!” Mike said, fire coming back to his voice. “We never wanted to give up on you! Seeing your body coming out of the water, the funeral… It killed us, Will! It killed me!” The crack in the dark haired teen’s voice seemed to dim the intensity of the light coming from Will. “When we found out you were still alive, when El was able to contact you, it meant the world to us. It was… Will, do you remember what I told you that day in the shed? Do you remember what the best decision I ever made was?”

Only the quiet crackling of electricity broke the silence.

“It was becoming your friend, Will,” Mike said, taking two more steps forward. “That decision changed my life for the better. You made my life better, Will. You make all of our lives better. Please, Will, believe me.”

El stepped forward as well, coming closer with small steps as she added, “You help us, Will. You helped me at school, with my homework. You took me to the movies, made us waffles, put up with shopping with me. You took care of me. Let us take care of you.”

With a shuddering breath and a heartbroken tremble, the lighting died away and Will fell forward, angry blue and black veins disappearing as he landed into the gentle and loving arms of his sister and the boy he’s loved in secret for years.

For the first time since 1983, Will Byers felt safe.

#stranger things #stranger things season 4 #will byers #byler #mike wheeler #eleven #el hopper

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raeyvies · 7 years

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RFA + Saeran w/ an MC whose background/past image puts her in a problematic situation in the future

@juminsmcmysticmessenger asked: “maybe one with a lot of Angst! Ofc if you want! A mc who gets bullied because of her image? Via internet, people outside and at work?”

I kind of broadened your request to give myself some more creative freedom. I felt that bullying kind of didn’t allow me to have variety from one character to the next so I hope you dont mind! You asked for angst and that’s exactly what I’m giving you :D You’ll notice that it just gets more angsty after each character ^^

Again, it’s a long headcanon (b/c personally I prefer long ones)

Yoosung

You never told Yoosung that you also once upon a time attended Sky University before him

You always hated to admit that you were that one perfect student in all the dramas on TV.

You were in your third year of your computer science major when it happened

A family incident occurred and you no longer had the drive to study

You disappeared from all your competitions that fall semester and never showed up back on campus.

The next thing everyone knew was that you had officially withdrawn from the University

Overall, there was resentment and animosity directed toward you then and now

That day you visited yoosung for lunch

Some girls who recognized you followed you back to the parking garage and cornered you when you were going to leave

They didn’t get physical but they threatened you

“Does Yoosung know who you really are? Huh?”

“You know we lost everything because you never showed up to the competitions”

“We were almost kicked out of our majors because you!”

You just wanted to get in your car and leave.

They threatened to get Yoosung kicked out of the university in revenge against you. And they threatened to reveal who you were to the entire school

After all, you were the school’s greatest embarrassment

One of the girls had connections so the threat was not an empty one.

Yoosung insisted on you having lunch with him everyday and you reluctantly went

But the threats haunted you every time you came to campus

Each visit, Yoosung noticed that you were more anxious than before

“Jagi, what’s wrong? Is something bothering you?”

You shrugged it off as just something from work that was bugging you.

But you couldn’t hide it because the next day that you visited, those girls who threatened you approached you while you were having lunch with yoosung

“We told you not to come back. All I have to do is call my dad and I’ll have Yoosung kicked out too”

Yoosung was so confused but he was quick to defend you although he didn’t know the context behind the threats.

And then a broadcast appeared on all the TV screens

Your face was everywhere now. You were reliving your worst moments in front of Yoosung

Yoosung was wide eyed and he looked at you in disbelief. Somewhat hurt too that you never told him about this

You were drowned in shame and couldn’t face Yoosung

The last thing you said was “It’s not a crime to abandon my school. But I deserve this punishment…for not being there for my parents when they died while I competed.”

Pulling your hoodie over your head and covering up you ran away from campus all the way to the park you and Yoosung frequent.

Meanwhile at the University, Yoosung was dealing with things

He was utterly disgusted at the girls who would do that to you.

Disgusted that they couldn’t let go of the past.

If it weren’t for the fact that they were girls, Yoosung would have actually hurt them badly.

He basically towered over the girls and breathed down on the one girl who claimed her dad could get him kicked out

“Tell your dad he doesn’t need to kick me out. I’ll drop out myself. I don’t want to be a part of this kind of school”

Then he chased after you and comforted you once he found you by the river.

You let it all out. All the built up rage, guilt, and anguish.

And yoosung held you in his arms until you finally felt free of your burden.

A week later Yoosung told you he dropped out too much to your dismay

He didn’t want to go to a school all they didn’t care about emotions and expected everyone to be robots

Jumin

You never imagined that your school days would catch up to you.

You committed some awful mistakes but you assumed your errors would stay in the past.

You never told Jumin that you were a bully back in high school.

You were the kind of bully that insisted on making every day a hell for somebody.

So much so that you almost drove a girl to suicide. After that, you left behind your violent days.

You transferred schools and lived life quietly.

And 10 years later, here you were at Jumin’s side as his wife and economic advisor. You completely changed from who you were

It ran all too smoothly until now

The girl who was driven to almost suicide grew up to be a famous reporter

That girl hadn’t seen you since you transferred schools

She was in charge of covering a story about C&R which in truth, was a great report.

However, she took the opportunity to add on some information about you in the report

But then she claimed on public television that you were a fraud. That you nothing more than a gold digger and power hungry

You were watching it while you were in the lounge resting

Your heart was racing and your eyes began to water but when you heard the lounge door open you quickly wiped your eyes and acted as though nothing happened.

It was Jumin and he had also watched the report.

He embraced you so tightly assuring you that nothing will happen to you

He had been through so many scandals already he was sure that he would get through this one with you easily.

He thought wrong.

At home, you and Jumin were on social media like usual every night.

But on every single site, you and that girl were trending.

She even tweeted out photos of newspaper articles of the incident revolving around you and her suicide attempt

Your past was catching up to you and many of that girl’s followers sent awful messages

Jumin hadn’t seen what was trending yet as he was in the bathroom

Meanwhile you were in the beginnings of a breakdown.

Reading messages saying the Jumin should divorce you, you became anxious.

Your were shaking and cried out at you threw your phone

it ended up hitting the fish tank and cracking the glass.

Jumin freaked out and ran out of the bathroom at the sound of smashed glass

Then he noticed you crying on the bed

You told him to open up twitter and see what was trending

He was about to call his lawyer to sue the girl for defamation and well anything else he could

“No I’ll take care of it by myself. This is a personal matter and I’d like to get this cleared up as quietly as possible”

Jumin got you a new phone and everyday you kept up with the hate messages

They got worse every single day and you became a crying mess in the shower every night.

Jumin kept telling you to ignore it but he never told you to suppress your emotions

Jumin would accompany you even though he got soaked each time.

Gradually you were falling into anxiety and maybe mild depression after two weeks

He asked again if you were sure that you didn’t want him to file a lawsuit but you denied.

He gave you strength to face every day and the hate messages that filled your inbox.

You messaged the reporter girl and asked her to please be the better woman here.

The bullying didn’t stop though and you blew up

You cursed at her through messages. You used the most profane language that you’ve ever used in your life.

And that’s where things escalated out of control. It now became the company’s duty to cover up this scandal.

Jumin had to take over and filed a lawsuit that of course he won

You were unable to attend any of the court hearings because psychologically you were a mess

And damage had already been done to the company’s reputation

After the storms rage ended, Jumin took time off from work despite protests

A lot of workers under Jumin wanted you to be fired but one look at the Ceo-in-line and they kept their thoughts to themselves

Jumin knew you had gone through something way too rough and he made sure absolutely no one came to harm you

Zen

It all happened so out of the blue

Old neighbors from where you lived as a teenager created a video on youtube that ranted to everyone how you grew up to be such a snob by dating Zen.

It went viral

You never told anyone in the RFA that you were from a very very low income neighborhood

You thought that it wasn’t something relevant anymore

You really tried to progress and successfully did so

You proved that your background had done nothing but motivate you

But your old neighbors clearly didn’t know you studied abroad to move up in social status

They kept claiming that you were only with Zen so that you could leave poverty and the ghetto

You didn’t just spend 4 years in Japan to let your efforts get overshadowed by your previous social status

You took it fairly lightly and told Zen about the video

“Those assholes are gonna know what’s good for the God dammit. Tell me where they live, MC”. Zen was furious

Even though he didn’t know who you were in the past, he didn’t care for it at all because you made a new image for yourself

You’re a coordinator for the RFA

You’re a translator for a famous publisher

You tell him you’re fine

The days afterward were when the nasty comments started to appear.

The comments were directed both at you and Zen

The ones directed at you were harsher than Zen’s

You were tough and didn’t let the comments bother you

You’ve already learned that you don’t need to justify yourself for something you know isn’t true

it was the fact that Zen was receiving hate and bad news coverage that got to you

You felt so guilty

Paparazzi followed you more closely asking bizarre questions

They were invading your life so much that Zen had to take it upon himself to protect you from the public eye

When the paparazzi swarmed your home (you lived with zen), he would make sure that no one got close to you

But one day it was just too much for Zen and he hurt one of the paparazzi.

His agency had to make a public statement about Zen’s behavior

Basically your image turned into that of a bad influence on Zen.

The only places you were safe from any harassment was your home.

You rationally kept thinking of ways to fix all this

And you know that was a lie.

This whole situation kept chewing at you even at night.

In your sleep you weeped and it broke his heart. Zen wanted to take some blame but you never let him.

You only told him that comforting you was the best thing he could do.

And one day, verbal bullying from the public turned physical.

Cameras swarmed you and they pushed you against your car. There was so much going on that even your head got hit by a camera since they had no sense of personal space

You were actually hurt from what they did to you but luckily a fellow colleague defended you and made the paparazzi go away.

It wasn’t until you got home that blood started trickling down from your head and down your cheek. It was from an open wound when you were hit by a camera

That night he cleaned you up and well stayed with you when you took a bath. He wanted to be with you and comfort you every moment he could.

You admit, that even his company while you bathed was the best thing that happened to you that day

HE told you that things will get better for the both you you. He embraced you so lovingly and protectively

And well things led to the next and you two had a really heated make out session in the bathroom

The next day, Zen holds a press conference to express his disappointment in his fan base and the public

You were watching him from the sidelines until you took it upon yourself to speak at the microphone

You explained your background and how you studied abroad and moved up socially by yourself.

You reiterate that you’re with Zen because you love him and not for money or fame.

And since that day, the hate did die down. Of course there were some stragglers who still tried to instigate controversy on social media but it failed.

Warning after this point: drug use, sexual harassment, physical abuse, and implied rape.

(The head canons get longer too after this point. Enjoy!)

Seven

Seven met you when you were in your darkest moments

You struggled with your parents deaths, your sister being murdered in front of you eyes, dropping out of high school, and ultimately, you falling into drug abuse.

The stars were always aligned against you

You were barely living on a day to day basis with your crummy salary

And on top of it, after paying necessary expenses, you bought drugs underground for cheap.

One day, there was a major drug bust and you were caught up in the mess. You managed to escape but only because you bumped into Seven.

You begged him to help you not get caught by the police despite your photo on a wanted list

Keep in mind, you met Seven when he was also struggling with his depression

He felt empathy for you and took you in to live with him at his bunker

You struggled with withdrawal symptoms and Seven helped you through it all.

He took care of you when you were nauseated and vomited, later collapsing in his bathroom because your body was really fighting withdrawal

Months passed and you two grew closer. You got to know his life story and you felt comfortable enough to tell him yours

And well a relationship was built from each other’s mutual darkness.

A year later, you both had overcome your struggles together and you had enough courage to ask Seven if he could clear your criminal record.

It was a selfish thing to ask but you knew he could do it.

But it risked his job

He loved you so much so he did it and cleaned your record

You just didn’t know how to repay him but all he said was that if you stayed with him, it would be enough

With a cleared record you were able to get your GED, attend medical school and five years later you became a general surgeon

Life was as amazing as it could be. You married Seven who now went by Saeyoung

You became one of the best surgeons at your hospital and Saeyoung had been promoted in his agency as a director

On your anniversary, you convinced Saeyoung to stop working at his computer and take a shower so that you could go out to celebrate

He left his computer open while he cleaned up and you read the email that was open

You gasped and covered your mouth as your eyes read every single word

It was a final notice saying that Saeyoung would be removed from his position because he was caught for having cleared your record

He already had charges against him for housing a felon.

They found your record in the end

You never knew your past would catch up to you and that Saeyoung would be the one paying the price

Next thing you know, there’s banging at the door and you hear multiple people yelling out “Director Choi!!”

You felt your body go cold and you slowly walked to the entrance but Saeyoung beat you to it.

His hair was still wet from showering and he punched in the code to open the door

As soon as it opens, the group of people grab him and handcuff him but you pull their hands off of Saeyoung.

You fall to your knees and beg for them to leave him alone.

“No please! He only did it because I asked so I’ll pay for my crimes instead! Please don’t ruin him, he doesn’t deserve it.”

Instead the group of men took you and Saeyoung to deal with this matter

In the end, Saeyoung was freed of all charges

You were charged with illegal drug abuse and distribution of the illicit drug.

You were found guilty of all charges but were let off on a six month probation considering that your record was especially clean prior to your crime.

You hoped life would remain normal.

But then you were fired from the hospital and that was your breaking point

Your employer found out about your record and did not cater to the idea of having a surgeon with a previous drug abuse record.

Since the day you were fired you held the pain in and never told Saeyoung.

You searched and applied for new jobs and returned at night without mentioning it at all

You never did find a job again because of your criminal record

But Saeyoung noticed when he had a day off and hoped to visit you at the hospital

He found out you had been fired 4 months ago.

Then his heart broke.

What had you been doing all this time?

Since it was late he knew you were home and ran back there.

When he came home, he found you in a corner in your bedroom.

And there was a small packet of oxycodone in powder in front of you.

You were staring at the packet wondering if you should take it

But Saeyoung broke through your thoughts as he fell to his knees and embraced you so tight

“Don’t think about it, MC. You’re stronger than this.”

He took the packet and hid it in his pocket to throw away later.

“Saeyoung… I-I was fired. No one wants to hire a surgeon with a drug record…”

“No its not like that. You’ll get back on your feet. I’ll help you, I promise!”

You voice was so broken and you sounded monotone, and so void of life

“All they see is my record… I might as well be what they think I am, right?”

This time Saeyoung was the one who broke into tears and you followed right after, letting out everything you’ve held in

It hurt to know that everything you built up for so long crumbled so fast

“Stop crying, Saeyoung! I set myself up for this when I first started taking drugs anyway. It’s not your fault…”

Later that night you still had an urge to take the drug and desperately looked for it but Saeyoung had already thrown it out

He saw you looking for it and he was worried that you would relapse.

And you ended up relapsing, but he still stayed with you and helped you rehabilitate

Just like when he first met you.

V/Jihyun:

V already knew you had an embarrassing image that you wanted to burn and keep in the past.

It was around a year after you two had become a couple that you showed him photos of a younger you modeling for erotic magazines

It was something you wanted to forget about but after all it is what got you through college.

You made some great money off and you never had a debt to pay after graduating college.

It was a small price in the short run that benefited you in the long run because now you’re a successful graphic designer (and V’s model ;D)

V sometimes wonders if you still feel exposed to hundreds of men and women who read this magazines

Since that day, he never pressured you and treated you delicately. He can’t imagine what it must have felt like to be so young doing such a thing

One day, V invites you to a photography convention

It’s literally such a cool event.

There’s photographs displayed everywhere

Photographers were taking pictures of everyone and showing how they turn simple photographs into amazing abstract works of art.

There were a bunch of cameras on display that people and you could see how ecstatic V was to use them. He brought his SD cards and any photos he took were saved

You were also having a great time with your boyfriend but when it started to get late, things took a turn for the worst

A lot of photographers suddenly recognized you

You had a feeling that none of their intentions were good-hearted.

And you were sure that out of the group of photographers, there were at least three registered sexual offenders

Some of them approach you but V assures you you’ll be okay

Seeing as your happiness and joy faded away, he knew that you weren’t enjoying the convention anymore.

However, one of the photographers came onto you and held you by your waist and pulled you right out of V’s arms

You tried to fight back but you felt so weak to your knees and cold

Your heart was racing like it was about to be ripped out of your chest

Right then and there in front of V, one of the photographers began to take off your jacket and whispered

“Maybe we should see if you still have the same body from those magazines, my lady”

V ripped him away from you immediately and punched him causing a commotion

The photographer fell to the ground and V pulled you away from the convention, holding you close.

Later at home, V feels so guilty and apologizes over and over again to you for taking you there

He didn’t want to bring up old memories, he just wanted to have fun with you at the convention

For the next few days he never let’s you leave his sight.

But after a week or so, he feels that nothing is going to happen to you

He let you walk to work on your own at last but that was a huge mistake

On your way to work, that photographer from the convention caught you and took you somewhere unknown against your will

HE had his camera ready to snap photos of your body for his own twisted purposes.

You were tied up to rope (the hung from the ceiling) by your wrists as you stood in the middle of a warehouse

He had the camera in one hand and began snapping photos just as he began removing your clothing one by one with his other hand

You screamed for help

You screamed for V

And that was just what the photographer wanted to capture. Your misery and fear in every photo along with every inch of your exposed body.

When tears fell down your cheeks, the photographer was pleased

All you had left was a tank top and panties when V came bursting in

HE beat the photographer unconscious and smashed his camera

You were his priority and he untied you

You fell into his arms, weak and almost lifeless

You were a crying mess and the sobbing never stopped for the rest of the day

Police arrived at the scene and took the unconscious photographer away while V took you home, wrapped in his jacket.

You couldn’t put on your clothes that was removed because it has been ripped and torn.

V called for Jumin to bring a car to his location and you cried on V’s lap the entire way home.

V had to carry you bridal style into the house because your legs had given out and drew a bath for you

And you stayed soaking in the tub until night fell without talking to anyone, not even V.

Saeran: (let me explain real quick b/c I feel this one isn’t as clear as the others. In her past, MC came from an abusive household and she developed trauma bonding. Basically forgives her abuser constantly. This predisposes her to repeat the same mistake in the future, thus a problematic situation with Saeran. By no means do I condone MC’s behavior though.)

Warning: Saeran is not a fluff ball. He’s actually very disturbed so don’t expect romance.

You grew up in a toxic and abusive household

You had grown accustomed to being pushed against walls, furniture, being beaten with kitchen instruments, and being pulled around by your hair

You always endured through it all and you were always convinced that one day it would stop

You wondered why you never ran away when you had the chance

You had grown up and at the age of 18, you were still taking beatings without fighting back

You were happy to finally cut you hair off when enlisted in the army right after graduation. Luckily you were never deployed so you stayed in the city.

One weekend you were out for a walk and met saeran. More like you helped seven tame a crazed Saeran.

At the time you didn’t know why Saeran was like that . You gradually became friends with the two and despite his anger issues and uncontrollable outbursts, you grew fond of Saeran

Even Seven was confused as to why you were growing attached to him

Maybe you pitied him? Maybe you wanted to care for him?

And no it was not that. While you lived in your old home, you developed something called trauma bonding.

That was why you never ran away from home.

You always forgave your parents for all they put you through anyway.

And now you were repeating the same mistake with Saeran

So now you were falling for Saeran because he was so violent. And just like with your parents, you were convinced that one day Saeran would change for the better

Seven tried to keep you from falling for Saeran because he knew his brother was a lost cause. He would never recover from his early years of trauma and his violence was his only coping mechanism.

When he was not violent, Saeran somehow grew attached to you too.

The poor kid never knew what is was to have someone around other than Seven and to not be abandoned.

Oh this was the start of another toxic relationship. It was just wrong from the get go

You were already predisposed to fall back into the cycle of abuse and Saeran was possessive of you. He never wanted you to leave him.

He didn’t want to be left alone again. Never.

Seven saw this relationship grow. And when you and Saeran moved in together, so many alarms went off in his head.

He knew you were in danger but he was so confused as to why you were so oblivious to such a blatant fact.

Life continued and you were blindly in love with Saeran. You were supportive of him through his therapy and coped with his verbal outbursts.

Seven was surprised to know that Saeran hadn’t gotten physical with you…yet

Oh but that changed soon enough.

One day he was home alone and he was losing his mind. He was building up rage because you weren’t there. He was angered that you left him alone.

You were just running late from work and when you came back, you were greeted with a vase smashing against the door.

Of course you were scared but you just approached Saeran and tried to calm him down like the first day you met him.

Things didn’t go your way and next thing you know, he tossed you against the floor and had you pinned down under him

“I-I’m going to…kill you next time you ab-abandon me”

His eyes and mouth were twitching and you were scared for you life when you felt his icy hands wrap tightly around your neck

You gasped for air but didn’t fight back.

This was just like when you were younger. You just took the abuse because you were so sure it would end one day.

You were losing consciousness the moment Seven walked through the door and found you pinned down.

He pushed saeran off of you but you’re already out cold.

Seven locked him in the basement until he calmed down and waited for you to gain consciousness again.

“MC, why do you still stay with him? You know he’s going to hurt you so much. I mean I know you’re a grown adult but this isn’t healthy…”

You turned away from Seven. Of course he wouldn’t understand you. He’d already given up on his brother

But you still had hope (it was delusional hope) that Saeran would one day be rehabilitated.

Seven, the therapists, and everyone with a logical mind knew that Saeran was better off in an asylum.

And so you told Seven to leave you and Saeran alone because “Saeran will be okay one day.”

The abuse never stopped. But you never stopped forgiving Saeran. You were utterly convinced that he would change

Despite the pattern always repeating.

Even after years of physical torment from your “lover”, you stayed with him.

He was as possessive as ever. At night Saeran held you so tightly that you could move. And in the mornings you’d wake up with marks around your abdomen from how tight he held you

And let’s just say every time you two had intimate moments, you had trouble recovering

As he grew more violent, you grew more forgiving and delusional.

You loved him with all your heart because pain was the only form of love you ever received and forgiveness was the only thing you knew how to give

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