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i-bez-togo-toshno · 3 days

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#mr villain's day off #i watched like 5 episodes #im no longer mentally ill #Kyuujitsu no Warumono-san

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spannardnation · 5 months

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i need to be shot from a canon into space directly into the face of the sun just experience a modicum of the warmth radiating out from this man HELP ME

#hes SO FUCKING CUTE #his smile fixed me #im no longer mentally ill

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drac0nia · 1 year

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Love you babe

U3U

suddenly my depression left, ive moved on, and god exists

i thank thee

i love you too 🫶

#★ ┊ shut up sov.#— honey !!#after the shit show i had this past two months #im no longer mentally ill #/j

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hawkeyes-boy · 1 year

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hawk and beej wriggling around whilst the nurses throw water and soap on them and everyone laughing cured me actually

#im no longer mentally ill #the smell of music #squid watches mash

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nullheaven · 1 year

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hehe im gonna eat sushi for dinner ^_^

#im no longer mentally ill

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searchingforbucky · 2 years

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Got a face mask on and drinking a caprisun, life is good

#im no longer mentally ill #searchingforbucky

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inkskinned · 1 year

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something bad happened to you, and you died, and you came back wrong.

not wrong all the way. the little ways. you forget important dates, stopped going out with friends. it's harder to make you smile. you're apathetic towards things you used to love, afraid of places you used to go to cheer up. quieter. flinching. different.

you came back for love. you're still here for love. what pulled you back was a brightness so loud that even death couldn't outshout it. death heard the call and smiled at you and said okay. go home. somebody is waiting for you.

but you came back different. like lot's wife; you've turned into salt. you used to chirp through life in hops and skips; but now you lose skin just standing up. you have to move slower, skimming across this world without-touching-it. most things feel dull - until they're suddenly all-too-much. life, and being alive just rushes up and over you and you get hopelessly crushed.

you try to explain it to them: it is ugly, but this is what you are, now. the huge golden hoop of your halo now a little bronze ring. you are still watering your plants and wearing the same clothes. after all, you worked hard to come home. this life; so odd and off-color, now that you are wrong.

but they waited for you - it's just that they wanted the "you" that happened before this. the "you" that could sing in the show and hug people tight and look at a blade without breaking down to cry. the you with a smile in pictures. god, holyshit, it's like looking at a completely different person, isn't it. that other-you; the one they actually wanted.

you are the consolation prize. you are the body that forgot the ghost. you are the memory of the bad thing, and the death after; like you are wearing that memory as a banner. you are a fragment, an assembly. simulacrum. you don't make eye contact in mirrors, afraid the light will glance off and your true nature will flash back at you.

you hear them talk about it in their hushed, desperate whispers. sometimes they even admit it to your face; harsh and violent, acid thrown at christmas dinner. god, can you just fucking be normal again. you do not remember what normal is. you had to climb so far to get back here; you are far too exhausted. you want to open the glass door of your heart and show all the gears. can you help resolve whatever got messed up?

you try so, so hard. you came back for them. because you believed they would love you, even when you were so horribly broken. because you believed they would be patient. because you believed unconditional meant "without exception." you cannot do things the same way. you just get tired too quickly these days.

you want to put them on a couch and pour them the tea with hands that shake more than they remember. you want to line them up and draw them a map of where you have had to wander. you want to show every bruise in a backsplash; the little helpless ant of your soul carrying all that weight, over and over. you want to say: yes! it is different! but i did it for love!

you want to say: "i'm not the same, but i'm yours and i'm here. can that be enough?"

#this is very obviously about my battle with #ptsd #but i think it's also like a pretty apt metaphor for a lot of things like setting boundaries or going to therapy or choosing recovery #i was thinking about the 'comes back wrong' trope and i was like. oh no i have feelings about this bc i have mental illness #and once i stopped masking - i was WRONG. i was different #here's the good news: i am now INNUNDATED with love. fucking swimming in it. excelling at it. the people who stayed #learned my new self. my new different body and how i am different but i am trying. they have held me so tightly #and my life no longer feels quiet. it is not based in my suffering. it feels like i have been growing a tree in my chest #and now it is flowering.#it is so lovely to be surrounded by people who have said - oh! you cut off so many branches i was worried you weren't the same. but now...#... this is just a new you. and i love you. and i love that you're different and happy.#(but yeah also im nb so i was absolutely influenced by Trans things)

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glossmimi · 2 years

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Hoseok has painted his nails, and painted posted pics with it two times in a row I'm no longer mentally ill

#bts #방타소년단 #bts jhope #jung hoseok #jhope #uarmyhope #im no longer mentally ill

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poofbark · 2 months

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AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH

#haikyuu is back IM NO LONGER MENTALLY ILL #RAHHHHH KENHINA ATTACK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!#hi. i like knhn and haikyuu #haikyuu #haikyuu fanart #hq #hq fanart #hinata shoyou #kozume kenma #kenma kozume #hinata shoyo #kenhina #hq kenma #hq hinata #haikyuu hinata #haikyuu kenma #hq fandom #haikyuu fandom #poof art

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ink-the-artist · 1 year

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I am so curious if anyone else does this, one of the most useful things I do when making art is being stupidly overconfident almost deluding myself, like if throughout the entire process I completely convince myself I can pull off whatever it is I’m trying to do, even if it’s something beyond my skill level that I naturally don’t end up reaching at the end, the end result comes out better than I expect even when it doesn’t look like what I was going for. I don’t rly know how to properly explain this but I’ve been doing it all my life and it’s probably one of the funniest mental processes I go through when making art

#you would think this leads to feelings of disappointment when the end result doesn’t meet my lofty goals but it doesn’t #idk how it works #I mentioned this in an art class once related to a conversation I can’t remember now #no one related 😭#I will convince myself I can do this super impressive thing beyond my abilities #and hold onto that delusion the entire time im working #and of course the outcome isn’t that I actually achieve this impressive thing #but the outcome is often better than I would’ve expected when looking at it at the end no longer in the overconfident delusional headspace #I think I have a mental illness

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firrkat · 18 days

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aleharoldddd they make me sooo ill

#i love aleharold so much #i promise im not mentally ill #or am i #this took longer than i expected #since when are memes sohard to trace #anyways yaoi…….#ily yaoi #total drama #my art #td harold #art #aleharold #td alejandro #meme redraw #yaoi

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jils-things · 2 days

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by the lighthouse.

dividers

#alright i suppose i should tell what's up lately! im mostly posting this like a mini update or whatever haha #so - since i made that last post on my disappearance i worked endlessly to finish my animation project and thank goodness it's finally over #i had to take a break from trying to be social here and just stay in my own space and i did that by having a smaller side blog to ramble #the project was very... tiring - definitely took out so much energy from me post physically and mentally and i was just frustrated everyday #so i just took my time to be alone with a few close people and i like to think im okay now?#i like to think so - since i was able to deliver a few commission drafts today so i'm relieved that im back to my usual pace #I'll post a few of my doodles here i did during my project just to fill the void haha #i've acquired a minor familial from another video game and i care for him a lot :] idk ill bother to talk abt it here but yeah thats funnn #also indulging a lil bit of t.n.m.n content as of late also thanks to my friend who knows abt it hehe #soo yeah! I don't know if ill be active like the usual but know that i'm doing alright now! hope everyone's doing okay too xoxo #ill probably still stay in my smaller blog for a little longer but will occasionally pop in here!#sooo yaaa #~ art #♥️ memoryshipping #also yea i think no.rton only had like. 10 days worth of being the blog brand here until i switched back to the usual guy lmaooo sorry 😔

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averysmolkirbo · 4 months

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Im so mentally ill about him right now (theres worms in my brain) i want to grab him and squeeze him aggressively but since i cant here have some kris gavin memes 🤲🏻

* i hand you some crumpled up memes from my absurdly large pockets like how a penguin gives another penguin a pebble as a gift *