Everytime I see a take that says Buck has feelings for Eddie in 704 not Tommy I think I die inside

That whole episode was a bait and switch, you were not meant to realise till he and Tommy kiss but Buck doesn't want to be with Eddie. He mentioned Eddie because it's something he has in common with Tommy. He tries to get Eddie's attention in the firehouse because he wants to be invited to hang out with Tommy. He could have asked Eddie if he wanted to go to basketball but chose to go about it the long way (why it was so exhausting)

He is not projecting feelings for Eddie onto Tommy. He is a grown man who knows how he feels about Tommy otherwise he wouldn't have wanted to spend more time with Tommy after the first date disaster. He booked the tour and was crushing not on Eddie but on Tommy.

This relationship is not about buddie or buddie getting together or Tommy making Buck realise he loves Eddie. It is about Buck realising he is bisexual and dating Tommy because he likes Tommy. Oliver and Tim have mentioned rom com vibes guess what all those theories of Buck not realising projecting etc to me don't think that.

Please just stop.

I JUST READ THE CHALTWR SMD IM 🤭🤭🤭🤭 had to try so hard not to moan 😔💔💔 anyways BEFORE I GO TO SLEEP I’m gonna tell you what i think 🤭🤭

splitting it again bc it makes it a lot easier n feels more organized ig? so yeah !!

listen ik i talk a lot about the way you present the characters but i can’t oh my god i csnt stop. i’ll start off with ran again n i hope it won’t be too long so !! there’s so much to say about the past part i was not okay i was about to scream and throw up and cry why would you do that to me 💔💔 i’ve noticed you always describe rans words as sharp and sometimes even loud and when i talk ab rin i’ll mention the difference and how important i think it is 🤭🤭 not only do i think it’s extremely fitting, but that one word always sets the mood and pace for the next few paragraphs at least if h get what i mean. throughout the majority of tjr chapters, rans tone is being presented as very..asserting? i guess? and it’s such a small smalll tiny detail but it does wonders for, not only his character and character development, but also for understanding him and rins AND him and yns relationship. a lot of the time his sharp tone isn’t even menacing, it’s more grounding and in some situations, asserting. i think someone else mentioned how ran is big on eye contact snd i think that this AND the eye contact thing is jusy so… intimate idk how else to explain it. yn is always shying away from their gazes but also their words and i think tnst ran using a more firm tone in situations where yn may be a little…yk unwell or overstimulated is so beautiful to read idk i love it im just 🤭🤭🤭💗💗💗💗 and oh my gof in this chapter… when the roles were reversed and it was ran being unable to meet her eyes, ran holding his tongue because and not even being able to speak, ran being more vulnerable and emotional than we’ve ever seen him… i cant i had to stop reading for a second i jsut,, the roles being reversed was so interesting snd i didn’t expect it AT ALLL. and the way he made her promise??? i love that ran is big on eye contact and yk yn using her words bc that’s EXACTLY HOW I SEE HIM AND I LOVE THSY YOU WRIYE HIM THIS WAY !! wanna give you a kiss for showing us a more vulnerable side of him im screaming oh my god…

that’s enough of ran for now idw it to b too long 💔💔 BUT oh my FUCKING GOD the way you reversed the roles between ran and yn, RIGJT SFTER DOING TJR SAME W RSN SND RIN?? i’m so used to seeing the words “sharp” and “hissed” being used with ran i had to do a double take n reread the paragraph to make sure it was rin you were talking about. this definitely counts as cjaracter development to me and it was so beautifully done i can’t even think of a better way for that scene to have been depicted tbh. rindou has always been the more shy? and just generally softer one between the two (at least with yn 🤭🤭) so seeing tnst drastic change and watching HIM get fed up was so insane i never knew i needed it tnst bad. i don’t think ive ever really talked about rin much but god i love how you write him so much i csnt think of anyone tnst writes the brothers as well as you im jsut.. oh my god. i love the way you emphasize the tone they’re using but it’s done in such a smooth way idk how to explain it but i hope you get what i mean 🤷🏻‍♀️🤷🏻‍♀️ “rindous voice was sharper than it ever had been with you” and “help us understand, we want to understand” give me a moment i’m going to sob i csnt do this rn. he sounds so desperate and so fed up at the same time and idk if that’s what you were going for but it completely changed the mood for the entire past bit and made it so much more emotional (to me at least 🤭) it’s just so heartbreaking i had to stop AGAIN you can’t keep doing this to me cat i’m going to cry soon. the scene where rindou and yn were arguing and when she mentioned her uncle yk the bit, every single one of yns dialogues ended so abruptly because rindou cut her off every single time and oh my god… i cannot do this it’s far too late for this why would you do that. it adds to the mood but also the pacing i said this last time but holy fuck your pacing is absolutely amazing reading your works is always just the best because you know how to set a mood, and how to make sure it matches the pace and it just goes together so well if that makes sense i can’t find the words atm but whatever. both yn and rindou were so desperate in that scene but their desperation was written in different ways and i csmt even begin to find the words to tell you how fucking impressive tnst is?? you wrote?? two desperate people??? arguing??? but both of them??? we’re desperate in completely different ways??? OH TKDJISNAISHISZ i absolutely admire the little details in your writing i csnt fo this. before i move on from characters and thei developments (i barely wroye ab the development im sorry sob 💔💔💔💔 but jsut know tnst i haven’t read any pieces, in any fandom, that had character development as good as yours, i’ll talk ab it next time tho 💗🫶🏼) i said i was also going to mention the differences in rsn and rindous way of speech. i already said ran has a sharper and more firm and asserting tone, whereas rindou is a lot more soft spoken (especially w yn) and not as assertive as ran is. alone it’s already great but seeing you wriye them both TOGETHER AND reversing their roles is nothing short of impressive i’m absolute and completely in awe of your understanding of them and, not just their separate personalities, but also their personalities TOGETHER and with yn.

anyways moving on !! i wanted to mention your use of analogies involving the sky and weight. it’s repeated in many chapters and in different ways based on the context, but it’s so??? effective?? like it adds so much to the story but also to our understanding of the characters ESPECIALLY yn seeing as it is used on her the most i’ve noticed. i’ll never stop talking ab how much i love that you didn’t just forget about yn but you continue to build and develop her ever chapter it’s so refreshing i love it.

i won’t speak about pacing on its own because i think that i mentioned it a lot in the other bits but AAGIN YOUR USE OF REPETITION IS SO SOOSOSOSOS BEAUTIFUL and well placed and just genuinely perfect to me. it says eitjer slows everythint down or speeds it up or does both and makes me dizzy (in a good way 💗💗) but either way it’s so perfect, especially here with the repetition AND the bold font to emphasize certain phrases. it doesn’t just emphasize it, it changes the tone and has you reading the repeated phrase differently snd it changes so much if you get what i mean. speaking of repetition actuslly, the sky thing isn’t the only thing you repeat in chapters,, the paragraph about how her uncle said smth sb jump starting and all that you knwo the one, everytime you repeat something ESPECIALLY IF ITD IN ANOTJER CHAOTER, it jsut adds so much to it like the way i read it, it almost sounds like she’s trying to remind herself and using tnst as justification for her actions so the guilt doesn’t get to her snd tnst desperation is fucking doubled everytime its repeated THIS MIGJG NOT MSKE SENSE BC ITS LIGERSLLY 4 AM HERE BUJT WHSTEVER ITS OKAY 🤭🤭

last thing !! the way you subtly mention characters is so cool like, izana was barely mentioned in tnst one chapter. all you said was his hair was white and his eyes were purple and then boom he ends up being one of the most impoetstn characters for both yn and the entire stories development. you briefly mentioned mikey in a similar way at one point as well and it’s been fucking my head up bc i’m trying to figure out if ur doing it again cat please stop playing with my head i am gonna pass out 🙏🙏 ALSO hanma bring mentioned at the end of this chapter made me giggle a little bit bc k hate him but i don’t but i really do but i love the way you write him and i want him to come back im waiting on hanma to make an appearance so i can actuslly talk ab him cuz i love the sys you write him. OH AND the quick change in mood between the past and present bits had my head reeling i loved it 🤭🤭

ANYWAYS THIS IS SOSOSOEHODJS LONG but ig it sort of makes up for the fact that i LIGERSLLY DIDNT WRITE SNYTBINT FOR THE KASY CHAOTWR even tho it’s one of my faves so far but it’s okay. IM SORRU ITS SO LONG BUT HESH POINT IS LDA IS SOSJOWHSJSKSDNJSIAJZKANSKSJZ🤭🤭🤭💗💗💔💔💔💔💔💔🫶🏼🫶🏼🫶🏼🫶🏼💓💓💓💓💓👍😔😔😔😔😔😔😔😔🙏🙏🙏🙏🙏🙏 if you get what i mean :p y never disappoint and k was actuslly do stressed cuz i have school again tomorrow and idw go but you made my night i can sleep well now thanks 🤭🤭

ANYWYS BYE BYE ILY 💋💋🤭🤭🤭

SOBS I DONT THINJ ILL EVER BE ABLE TO CONVEY ENOUGH HOW MUCH I LOVE YOU 🥹 DONT EVER APOLOGIZE FOR IT BEINF LONG I SWEAR IT MAKES ME SO HAPPY EVERY TUME no bc deadass :((( i literally cried when i read this ask, and i read it like 40 times. i dont even know where to start sobs you literally catch all of the little things i put in there and hope that ppl will catch -- like the switch up with rindou, and the brief appearance of izana who ended up being a huge character. AND THE WAY RAN ACTS WITH READER. YES. OMG. HE IS ONE HUNDRED PERCENT ASSERTIVE LIKE THAT AS A WAY TO KEEP HER GROUNDED AND PAYING ATTENTION TO THEM OTHERWISE HE KNOWS DAMN WELL THAT SHE'LL EITHER TRY TO SLIP AWAY OR CHANGE THE SUBJECT OR EVEN WHEN SHE'S JUST GETTING OVERWHELMED.

AND RINDOU'S SWITCH UP IN THE AIRPORT DUDE. i had so much fun writing that bc he had always been the one shielding her from ran when they were younger bc ran would lose his temper and get snappy with her. like not only was it jarring for HER but honestly it was jarring for me to write bc i was so used to having him being the mediator between the two of them.

omg the analogies with the sky/atlas is some of my favorite parts to add in there bc she rlly does feel like the whole weight of the world is on her shoulder, and her and izana had been so big on different types of mythologies that thinking back to it and relating the pressure on her to myths that they had talked about is honestly kind of a comfort for her, if it makes sense.

AND YES omg the repetition with the mention of the uncle is 100% her trying to (1) justify to herself what she was doing and (2) convince herself that it was the only viable choice.

hanma. hehe.

once i stopped obsessing over "omg what gender am i what do i identify as what do i Feel like i am" and simply started existing life got easier and i recommend it to every teen that keeps obsessing over the same

I’ve been out of school sitting for two hours for a doctors appointment to check up on medicine that I haven’t even been taking long enough to be checked up on n im gonna throw a fit bc I just wanna go home

russian doll au i/the Surprise ii

this is a lil low quality bc we're prepping for the Big Drop tomorrow and im writing it real quick after a long day AND i have more work so!! sad face emoji and wink emoji

odnt worry kids even tho this one is bad tomorrows was made by @ratcarney AND its our favorite so!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! get ready wink cowboy emoji

so basically

russian doll has some fuckin raw lines and scenes that fuck BUT also we have a weird amount of hcs!!!

so heres jusy... some stuff!!

orpheus is alan obv and eurydice is nadia

persephone is ruth and... bc im the one making this post and jo has STILL not given me a better alternative, hades is horse

theres no great love story spanning generations in this plot.

just 1 sad dumbass and 1 depressed genius who are both trying to not die Too Much

alsso hermes is ferran, the shop owner

so eurydice is reliving her bday and orpheus is reliving the anniversary of his moms death

(bc 1. we couldnt think of a new gf for orpheus 2. we couldnt think of someone to have sexual relations with said orphe's gf AND eurydice and we really didnt want it to be hades or a fate 3. its still sad enough to make orpheus kick off the whole thing with the first death)

speaking of the fates! clotho is maxine

characters are really hard for this au we will iron it out eventually i swear to u i promise u guys

the workers r probably ... sprinkled in

orpheus carries around a guitar instead of the wedding ring

anyways!! their first meeting pretty much is the same classic elevator scene

eurydice gets on board, tired, and orpheus is already there, tuning his guitar

small talk ensues

until the elevator stops to drop, a red emergency light flashes on, and someone screams- "we're all gonna die!"

the others on the elevator drop to the floor, trying to minimize damage

eurydice doesnt move. she glances to orpheus, who's still tuning his guitar.

"didn't you get the memo? we're all about to die." her voice is tired and she isnt excited to experience the end of this life.

he finally looks up at her and she has the striking thought that, oh, he's kinda cute

"its fine, i die all the time." he talks fast and his voice is high pitched, and she smiles until she realizes what he said.

"wait, what-" she goes to ask, but her neck snaps first.

she jolts back into the bathroom, hands grasping the edge of the sink, and meets her own eyes in the mirror.

'what the fuck?'

what a great way to fall in love

anyways nect thing bc its jos favorite but also theres an offhanded joke i made a WHILE back and i still love it

eurydice is getting fed up with this whole dying thing.

or, at least with the gas leaks.

the first time was odd, but then she realized persephone was dead as well, so she went back

abd it happened Again.

the third time she tried to stop it, she got bit by a fucking snake!

who the fuck has snakes! its new york fuckin city!

the fourth time, its still the snakes

("bike accident," orpheus says, the first time.

"snake bite!" she annouces, and he looks confused.

the second time, she speaks first.

"Snake Bite!"

whatever orpheus was going to say, he doesnt, and all he says is "again?")

after that, she gets the bright idea to just report the gas leak

in a very... interesting. phone call

("every Fuckin day i'd like to report a gas leak!")

it didn't work anyways.

basically!! this follows the plot of the show, just Tweaked a little

like. its still modern new york but like, yknow?

anyways thank u goodnight

Who wants to learn about my family drama? Too bad I'm gonna post about it anyway.

So mom got pregnant at 16. Married the guy. He went into the military. I came along 8 years after my sister. It was all fine and good I guess until he came home from a deployment when i was... 12 maybe.

I bring this up because i took a 3 hour roadtrip alone with dad's wife. She spilled all sorts of beans..

So anyway. That was at least his 2nd or 3rd deployment and i guess he sent mom 70k. When he came home, there was no money. No one ever figured out where it went. Figured mom spent it. We have no idea on what. Looking back I can't think of anything she could have spent it on. I dont remember her leaving for secret trips or anything. No new items. No strangers coming around. Its a mystery.

So shit didnt really start take a turn for the worse until we moved to Ohio when I was around 14. Dad had another deployment, but this time he acquired PTSD. I never questioned why, i just figured war was obviously bound to leave you fucked up.

Dad's wife told me differently. I had to twist her arm just to give me vague cryptic keywords. Like "murder" "people who ought not be murdered" and "practically coerced him into being involved" 😳

My poor daddy. No wonder he ended up locked in his room with a swat team surrounding the house.. Until mom donkey-kicked the door in to get to him and take his gun. He witnessed some fucked up shit, even though I'm not quite sure what.

But the real juicy bit is something i didnt even know about until my late 20s. Sissy told me while we were in Ohio, my parents were involved in swinging. Knew no details other than thats where a couple of their friends came from.

The new light she'd on this topic though, was it was mom's idea. I always figured it was dad. But apparently he only did it for mom.

(His now-wife is named Stacy. I love her but i just cant call her stepmom.)

Sje said she researched the topic, and typically swingers are middle-aged couoles who married too young. (So, typical case)

Anyway. I guess mom gradually started breaking rules. Like getting permission from dad first. And she snuck around during his next deployment..

During this time, we jad a daughter of familt friends staying with us. I was only 14 but i knew this woman was trouble. She was the type who could and would totally kick your ass if you pissed her off. Questionable choices. Wild child. All that shit. But she was good to us, so.

Anyway. My niece has brought back stories from her bio-dad's side of the family. One of which being that one time whilst mom and our guest were at a bar, mom tried to get into (bio-dad's family member's pants)

I always thought wow, never knew mom couod/would do that; crazy..

But Stacy filled in some swinger drama from that time and it all fits.

(Took a break from posting to actually discuss and compare notes with my sister)

The only discrepancy is sister is adamant that this WAS dad's idea to swing.

So anyway.

The next bit of drama was my sister having the niece. We all went to Iowa because we spent summers with the aunt and everyone.

At this point we were already planning on the move to Iowa that winter.

So dad, being fed up with my 23yr old sister who was a slob, refused to get a job and support her child.. He's just like "so you can either stay here and I'll send your shit or you can come back for your shit and gtfo"

He sent her stuff. But because she had a child that half belonged to someone else and essentially moved several states away, he sued. Thankfully dad helped with the lawyer and while not perfect, my sister got the best possible deal for the situation.

But all through this, dad absolutely loved his granddaughter. And it was an asshole move, but dad only agreed to support my sister and let her stay with us if he got to name her daughter. He picked Dominatrice. (Doh-min-ah-treece) Because you can get Trixie out of it. We were all like Wtf but ok.

So the last biggest drama was the events that led to dad ghosting my niece.

So one thing that happened was dad wanted to take little niecey out to lunch. She was 5ish. Sister couldnt get work off though, but hes all "its fine, I'll just pick her up and drop her back off"

But sissy was able to leave and met them. But as soon as she did he's like "you know what, im actually gonna go ahead and take off"

Which created a slurry of suspicious thought like "wtf is going on, did i foil plans to whisk my daughter back with them?"

When sissy told me this, I figured it was either just a weird mix of coincidence that set off alarm bells or weird timing. Or both. I'm 100% confident dad didnt plan anything. What was he going to do with her? Its not like he'd be able to kidnap her and go off grid never to be found again. Also was he going to just raise her? None of that makes sense.

Anyway. The big blowout didnt happen until dad was on his way back to virginia and the niece was due to be picked up from ohio. He offered to pick her up along the way and we were supposed to go up after them and spend vacatipn with them.

Sister told him no, he couldn't do that. He asked why. She tried to avoid answering him, but eventually told him that it was in the court order that he not be left alone with the child. Probably because he CAUSED the whole custody fiasco.

But this was the first he'd heard of it. So he was understandably upset. And then he tried hounding her for answers, for proof. Send him the document stating this. It escalated until he would jusy be yelling and svreaming over the phone and make sissy cry until mom had to shut down the phone calls.

I asked my sister why she didn't just show him the proof. Like, thats all he wanted.

She said it was not her job to prove it to him. It was public record, he could do it him damn self.

Stacy told me he tried, but couldn't get it because niece was a minor.

When I told Sissy this, she gave me the SNOTTIEST facial expression which i think meant "well, shit." Mixed with a mocking sort of "he's still a whiny-piss-baby"

So yeah. We're only visiting because after like 9 years dad reached out after forcibly pushing all this anger and feels down in effort to reconcile. Sissy is attempting to but at the same time feels he's too toxic to bother with and doesnt want him near her kids.

All because after this went down, he then ghosted the niece. He used to call her and send her gifts all the time. Her little heart was absolutely broken when he started ignoring her. Stacy told hom not to do that, so the general consensus was that it was indeed a dick move.

His reasoning though was "my daughter thinks i want to kidnap my grandchild, how can i reach out and have a relationship with her without incriminating myself?"

So yeah. Stacy and I are very alike in the fact that we both are able to see both sides of an argument. I'm glad i got to see the other side because apparently dad told her (about the dicorce and everything) "they'll figure out what happened and realize its not all my fault"

Like, uh. No? How were we supposed to reach that conclusion? And i dont know about my sister, but i was a self-absorbed naive teenager, I wasnt aware of jack shit. 😂

And that is the story of the day. :D

In other news, I wrote this while dad finally got his gallbladder surgery and we worried he'd either bleed out or have a heart complication and die. Aaaand he was out in like an hour and a half. So far he's good. Now we can visit the aquarium without stewing in anxiety. Hooray!