i loove the neo king au ToT ur rambles bring me so much joy

aww tyyy :']] i have a couple of asks i havent answered yet still sitting in my inbox, but i HAVENT FORGOTTEN THEM, ive just been doing irl stuff!! theres definitely more neo king rambles in store!!!

The "oh god one of my dupes caught hypothermia I need to help them immediately" to "I get it you're scalding stop crying it's only like 120 degrees" pipeline

hELLO IS ANYONE OUT THERE????

OKAY HI hELLO  FIRST OFF I HOPE EVERYONE IS WELL NOW

THAT THE EVIL WHATEVER I AM HAS FALLEN AND GCANT GET UP COMMERCIAL

SOMETHIN SEOMTHIGN DID IT HURT WHEN YOU FELL FROM HEAVEN THE ANSWER IS YES I GOT SHOVES TO THE FLOOR RECENTLY AND THIS FUCKIN BRUISE ISNT FADING FUNNNY HAHA OK PLEASENTRIRSSE ARE DONE

UH IM CATHERINE, MOD-SAN, GOLD, whatever they're callin me nowadays holy shit dude my hands are shakin like crazy

they've had me literally cleaning house PRETTY MUCH AS SOON AS I RECOVERED all work no play makes jack a dull boy thats me IM jack damn it i can't tell if i've eveolved into  a live-in housekeeper or some sort of roomaate and the paymetnt si s that i get to keep my lifeand also i REALLY need to move my keyboard over or get the window to leave the screen cause i can't blind type it just ain't happenin my leg's jitterering like hell BUT THE MOST IMPORTANT PART IS IM ALIVE YAHOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO but i have absolutely NO CLUE how ;long THAS gonna last BBUT the great news is that ive finally been able to sit at my dangf computer and and actual;ly TYOOUCH ANFD LOOK AT IT ive practically been buried in all the freezers BUT ANYWAYS GOD MY HANDSA THEY STING SO FUCKING IABAD D ALKl ANYWAYS IM ALIVE IM STILL HERE IM TRYING?????????? TO GET BACK BUT EVERYONE HERE IS UHH NOT GOOD TO PUT IT LIGHTLY ITS TERRIFYIN OVER HERE BUT IM SENDING MY WELL WISHES THAT EVERYONE IS OKAY OVER THERE AND YOU SURVIVED WHETER THE HECK ANGR MY BIG SDIS MUST"VE SBUBJECTED YALL TOO BEACSE SHE IS FUCKING PISSSEEED LATELY IM GENUUNINLY WORRIED FOR OURLIVES LEVEL THERES SO MANY FIGHTS AND COMING-OUT-ABOUT-HER-LEGEND-OF-VIOLENCE STORY AND THE SHOOTIGN REVENTLY AND POINT IS THE LEGAL STUFF MIGHT GET RESOLVED OKAY?????? DADS MAGIC PROTAG POWERS OR WHATER APAPRENTLY HE KNOWS EVREYONE PERSON ON THE PLANET ITS GODDAMN WITCHCARAFT BUT MOMS DROPPIN LIKE EVERY OTHER DAY BBBBBBUYT OTS HER BIRTHDAY THIS WEEK AND WERE GONNA TRY AND TAKE ME OUTSIDE AND SEE IF I EXPLODE IN THE SUNLIGHT SO UUUUUUUUUUUUUUH THANKS FOR EVERYTHIGN I LOVE YOU GUYS ILL TRYT TO FUCKIN REACTIVATE ALL MY ACCOUNTS ALL A BAJILLION OF THEM APPARENTLY I WAS ONE CRASY AKJSFI KID PLEAASE PASS THIS MESSAGE ON MY BI G SIS WAKES UP SOON IF SHE HEARS ME IM GETTTIN IT I HAVE NO FUCKIN IDEA WHATS GOIN ON ON YOUR SIDE CAUSE NO ONE IS SAYIN JACK SHIT BADUM TSSHH BUT I GOT  MY SHIT COMIN AT LIKE 9 AM RIGHT WHEN I TAKE MY VERY MYSTERIOUS NO ONE KNOWS WHAT THE FUCK THEY DO ANYMORE MEDS AND IF I KICIK THE BUCKET AT LEAST I FUCKING STAYED BABY YAHOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO

ALSO IM NOT DRUNK WE DONT DRINK IN THIS HOUSE EVER BUT I DEFINITYL NEEDS A LIL HELP IN LIKE ANY SORT OF MEANIN NO ONE IN THIS HOUSE FUCKIN REMEMBERS ANYTHING IN ANY SOR TOF WAY FOR ANY SORT OF THING ITS AN ACTUAL I HAVE NO IDEA WHOSE CALLIN OR TOUCHIN SHIT OR WHAT TALL THIS SHTI IS IN THE HOUSE AND FRANKLY IM TERRIFIED CAUSE EVREYONE LEAVES POR PASSES OUT BEFORE I CAN GET A CLEAR ANSWER AND AND ADN COLD WAR INTELLIGENCE WHATHER NEWS STORY OLD POPS HERE IS PUTTIN ON TV ANYWAYS LOVE YOU GUYS STAY SAFE CALL OUT IF YOU SEE ME IN THE WILDS SOMEDAY BUYYEYEEE

WAIT I JUST REMEMBRED BIG SIS IS GONNE DESTROY SHIT SOON SONSONSOON SHIT HSHISTHSHIT OK ANYWAYS ERVYTHIN ONLINE LOOKS OKAY FROM WHERE I CAN SEE IT IN MYSETRUOS VPN LAND AND IM GOIN THROUGH MY COMP RIGHT NOW BUT EVREYON IN OUR HOUSE RECOGNIZES THE DISCORD SYMBOL PROBABLY>>>?????? SO IM TRYIN TO FIND ALL OTHER CONTACTS BUT ITS JUST A BUNCH OF EMAILS DDDDUDE I JUST HAD TO LET YALL KNOW WE'RE ALIEV HOPE ALL OF YOU ARE WELL LOVE YALL EVER IF YOU DONT BELIEVE THAT ASTY SAFE WATCH OUT FOR FUKCING PUNCHES OR SIDESWEEPS AND MY BIG SISSS KILLING BLOW AND THE FCKKGNGI  SWORD ON TOP OF HER BOOKSELG OR THE LITTLE GUN THING IN HER LCOSET WHAT THE FUCK IS EVEN IN HER ROOM ANYMROE ANYWASY DONT DIE OUT THERE LIKE ME!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! PEACE OUT BURY ME UNDER A BLUE SKY WITH ALL MY SHIT IIM HANDING  DOWN WHATEVR THE ITTY BITTY NOT SO BITTY NEICE WANTS LIL PRINCESS LILLY HAACKER SCAMMER HUSTLER SECOND LEGEND OF VIOLENCE IN THE MAKIN IM GONNA FUCKIN PASS OUT I HAVE NO  IDEA OF FUCKIN ANYTHIN THATS HAPPPENIN HERE EVERERR GOD CAN I TALK TO ANYONE THAT ISNT THIS NEIGHBORHOOD THAT THIGNS I HAVE HEARSD ABOUT THE PWOPLE ROUND HERE any ewysbans m y hands are shak in and breakin and crankin love yall stay safe dont fall into a ditch like me ever again mMWAHH TEDDIE IF YOURE OUT I STILL OWE YOU THAT FUCKIN LETTTERRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR

ok so i just watched the movie split. and wow. what a shit show.

like it had a strong start, it seemed pretty interesting. im very glad 2/3 girls werent idiots and actually did what they could to escape. but the other one casey (idk if thats how u spell her name but im spelling it like that) was SO ANNOYING. idk it was probably her trauma or something but why did she literally not do anything??? she was all like “oh its not gonna work” and then as soon as she was on her own she got her ass in gear. what a team player 🙄 /sarc

speaking of her trauma, what even was it? i think she was raped or sexually assaulted by her uncle and then had to live with him after her father died, and she started self harming, i think. i understand that through the flashbacks but what were the other flashbacks even about? i know it was about hunting but considering the fact she didn’t even use the advice her father gave her, what was the point? like you really don’t need to show her love for her father because it’s a fucking given. maybe to show how innocent she was? idk still a given fact. like every child is innocent, most children love their dads. unless you specifically show her dad being an asshole, we’re gonna know she loves him.

on one hand, (i might be reading too deep) but it is very interesting to read this in an abused/abuser way. like the beast in kevin’s body is the abuser and hedwig, patricia and dennis are the abused and cling to the abuser because it makes them feel protected, even though the beast/abuser is doing harm (by fucking eating people). and then ofc casey, despite doing everything to survive when she was kidnapped and also running away from home, still ends up with her abuser (rapist uncle). that’s a cool thing to think about. i wish they went down that road instead of ‘ahhhh people with DID are big scary beasts!!!!’

and also i knew that this movie would not be respectful in any way possible. i didnt even want to watch the movie because i knew it would portray people with DID as monsters (crazy how i was right! /sarc) but my dad forced me to watch it lol. and like not only is it so disrespectful and contributes to the stigma around DID, it was so…lazy. like i thought it would be interesting to have the alters inside kevin fight or whatever (like some alters send the emails) and then at the end, the girls escape and kevin gets help. which i know is too hopeful of an ending. but it’s way better in my opinion from having some weird ass beast. why was it strangely catholic? its like the writers didnt know how to end it and just were like hmmm ok supernatural beast it is. and i spoke to my dad about this and he agreed that the beast thing was too predictable because they spoke about the beast too much. and what even was the beast. it was just the same guy but had like black contacts and prominent veins and blood from his teeth. not scary. i had to try hard not to laugh at some scenes because they were just so ridiculous…

also what was that weird thing where they mentioned dennis was a pedo then just…didnt bring it up again. dont get me wrong i do NOT want a movie about a pedo kidnapper, but this whole movie seems like a mess so i had to comment on how strange this is. like theres a few more details that are just mentioned then left and ignored but this is the one that irks me the most. oh, also the beast only left casey around bc it saw her self harm scars. what if she didn’t have any scars ?? big plot hole or the beast is just supposed to be dumb or something? like its all like “oh yeah everyone has to suffer to be ‘pure’ but if it doesn’t leave scars ur not valid and ill eat u 🤬🤬”

idk weird movie. only good part was hedwig because he’s funny and i feel bad for him. everyone’s acting was super good too. overall i would give it a wtf/10. jk like a 4/10, maybe a 5. also i hope its not just me who thinks this movie is crap. it had potential and it was thrown away.

also im dropping my own fanon lore i hope thts ok HDNDKD needed someone to show this to 🥺😔 ill put it in bullets to make it easier

blue cheese family wealthy family of assholes

roguefort and almond shared a school together and are best friends <3 i like to think that teen almond actually did want to become a detective, and roguefort knew of this

ok i wrote this fanon before i knew abt that fire thing u mentioned so.. 💀 in my own hc, the blue cheese family did smth dumb that caused their family to be on the edge of downfall

roguefort, being the Loyal Blue Cheese they are, tried to save their familys name and honor. by stealing smth idk what it is yet, probably a document or an artifact or wtv that they think would definitely help their family

roguefort didnt tell anyone of this plan, including almond, which caused the latter to be suspicious of them. he figured roguefort was planning something bad and so he HAD to stop them before they get into trouble with the authorities ! so almond follows his best friend sneakily

alas it didnt go as planned 😔 roguefort caught almond and in a state of panic and vulnerability, they accused him of spying on them. almond tried explaining himself but then bear jelly officers showed up behind him, not helping his case in front of his best friend at all. and so that was rogueforts first arrest and betrayal

rogueforts arrest was the thing that really tipped the family over the edge. roguefort was trying to help but they only made it worse.. since then their family lived by sweeping the streets they used to strut on

blue cheese wife left the family bc she couldnt stand the miserable life, so blue cheese dad remarried. new wife is very demanding unfortunately. she also cldnt stand the life they lead, but suggests blue cheese dad to remove roguefort from this household so they can live better lives together

and that is how blue cheese dad tricked roguefort and abandoned them in the middle of nowhere in the forest.. inserts abandonment issues in this poor little guy

theyr abt 15-16 i think. they barely managed to survive until they find another village. they steal apples from markets to survive, and soon enough those apples turn to actual treasures. enter phantom bleu, known serial thief.

ok that was my roguefort lore fleshed out and. i just realised i havent made much lore for almond cookie JDNJDND but ljke the point is i needed for roguefort and almond to go thru Betrayal when they were younger. bc i dig the friends to enemies to lovers trope. also bc almond sounds like he regrets what happened to roguefort by his line in the relationship chart. also i based their past on this fanart i found on the internet ill look for the artist asap. but yes sorry for dumping this in ur inbox HDNDND

HOLY SHIT THIS IS SO COOL AND BASED ?? EATS YOUR FANON OOUUU . this slaps so hard (also please tell me the artist so i can credit them i dont like reposting ppls artwork <//3)

Hyuna for character opinion bingo

In regards to this post! Feel free to send more~!

Thank you for asking about Hyuna, its a unique choice because I feel like shes both enigmatic but also gives a lot of material for how little we've seen of her! I ended up rambling, so let me just tuck this under a...

Thinking about her Even A Little Bit can send me into a spiral of character speculation, but I wouldnt say thats exactly headcanons--thus, I didnt mark that for her! And I really need to make my character speculation post, itll just be genuinely SO LONG for even one character, much less the six of them, lol, kdaljbnadfkjn- orz

I definitely have the feeling that Hyuna will be a very active in the plot, so thats why shes a BEAST, shes going to go ham somehow, trust me. Putting her in a salad blender is about the same as putting her in Alien Stage, and the squeaking and holding her gently in my hands pretty much sums of my feelings whenever I rotate Hyuna in my brain. Ultimately, IM GOING TO BE HURT WHEN SHE DIES, BECAUSE IM PRETTY CONVINCED SHES GOING TO DIE, LOL.

I actually genuinely thought Hyuna was going to live or even potentially take Mizi's place as the MC of Alien Stage, but due to this art and a moot pointing out thats MIZI and not Hyuna (due to the outfit), I can only assume Luka and Mizi meet (as implied in the art) because Luka BEAT HYUNA in their match, so.........

Its a fairly interesting twist if thats the case, because I think that based off Hyuna's apparent desperation to survive and disdain for Luka, itd be easy to assume she would win. Its just going to be sooo sooooo sad for me because I KNOW shes going to have a breakdown and/or try to lash out in her last moments against Luka when she loses. In her brief depiction singing in Sweet Dream, Hyuna looks like shes SINGING HER HEART OUT, and imo, that tells me that despite the hatred, Hyuna can possibly respect Luka enough to give them a fair match rather than straight up trying to murder them. I also think Luka is probably going to win in their match by virtue of Luka's been hinted to be kind of famous and the votes will be purely popularity rather than consideration of effort, quality, passion, etc....extra pain. c:

In my optimism, my current thoughts are: Hyuna vs. Luka happens and Hyuna dies (likely), Hyuna vs. Luka happens and Luka dies (not unlikely, just significatly less likely than I thought before), Hyuna vs. Luka happens with Hyuna losing but she manages to escape (Very Optimistic, Extra Badass Points For Her Tho), or Luka actually battles a rando in the first set of rounds, while Hyuna is an outside force for Alien Stage/trying to sabotage him (fun but honestly a stretch).

Expanding on the last option above, I think its too soon for Luka or Hyuna to die, especially since we dont know much about either of them. Hyuna being an outsider also would make every match in the first set of rounds unique in their own way, as Round 1 establishes, Round 2 has murder, and Ivan's round would serve as a baseline of whats normal (if it goes as I speculate, lol). I also think that Luka and Hyuna are both from an older generation of Alien Stage contestants; thus, one could argue that would make their round unique enough on its own. But I still think itd be perceived as a "standard/baseline" round too similar to what I assume Ivan's round will be. Thus, the last option would have Hyuna be an outsider with no risk of being killed, while Luka also lives by steamrolling their opponent, lol. As both of them provide backstory and thoughts on the other until they actually interact~!

BUT! I think the unique factor could also be fulfilled by the opportunity that Hyuna vs. Luka happens but she escapes, Ill definitely take that. Especially since it seems Hyuna is going to sing AT SOME POINT (Sweet Dream)... If Hyuna can escape, hopefully she can just survive the entire series afterwards, lol.....

Thats not even getting into how I think their dynamic is, how they view each other, and/or how they got to viewing each other that way, but nonetheless...I think a much of that is definitely more speculation and would honestly not find it toooooooo worth saying here because we just dont have that much info of them to work off yet. Thank you for asking, I hope you enjoyed~!

So life update: I am slowly getting better though im still very tired and am also rn having a random anxiety attack because my body loves to bestow those on me where i am randomly anxious and stressed with no clear cause. BUt! At least I am cooking dinner again. Also lemon finally had (part of) her babies!!! Yesterday I suddenly spotted a bunch of dead fry on the gravel (likely stillborn) that the other fish were very excited about but I also saw at least 2 live fry resting on the plants! I have also spotted one today but I am not sure if any will survive to adulthood. Lemon still has a bit of a pink mass inside her rn so i dont think she is entirely done yet. Orange is also a lil bloated still but that might be because she is hogging all the food as her poop looks normal. I think ill do a general cure just to be safe once im able to catch all my assasin snails and put them in a seperate (temporary) plastic tank i have that also hold a lot of pest snails since snails are more sensitive to the general cure medication. shrimp should be fine according to the packaging. So yeah I hope this nightmare will soon be over and I can go back to doing art. I really want to get back into it but I dont feel quite ready yet which sucks because its the primary/best way for me to keep my anxiety and stress in check. So yeah, thats what is up with me rn. I miss my blorbos so much augh. Maybe send me some character asks or even asks about me or my art? Need to keep my brain occupied somehow and reading, gaming and youtube videos arent really cutting it rn. Might try watching another movie but thats also hard for my brain to push myself to. Sorry for rambling, tl;dr: Im doing slightly better but im anxious and bored out of my mind. Please send asks, it would be very appreciated. Also lemon finally popped out some babies after being overdue for half a month.

im gonna break the 160s soon im so excited i think

tw tw ed stuf, numbers, specific stuff with me, do not recommend ofc,

just ramblings abt life tbh

idk if im going thru weird stuff emotionally or not but its been really easy to liquid fast whole days or not eat much during the week, when im around ppl its worse but ive reached a point where its getting easier and maybe thats kind of scary bc im prolly not getting enough protein bUT!!

when i am eating i never feel bad if its beef or chickeni just try to have a lot of veggies and low carbs if its possible and its like, it was hard but my body prefers this bc maybe some foods make me nauseous or maybe its just knowing that i hate feelong too full or full at all, so if i eat more i have to ease into it

but idk i am rly anxious abt stuff and just trying to live and do well at school ya know

at this point i get distracted so much with hobbies and small social stuff that i only have enough time for school and money for survival if i am working and doing schoolwork all the time, and during work even though I have infinite access to food and smoothies I force myself to drink water bc im always dehydrated anyway and the smoothies have always made my stomach uncomfortable. ill have small amounts tho, or some whipped cream w espresso in the espresso cups r so cute,

but anyway a week or 2 ago i was 160 or 162 but then my mom came into town and it was my partners bday so i was eating some stuff but still avoided a lot? but i did eat a lot of chocolate covered strawberries lmao they were good tho i dont regret (theyre technically still fruit rigghhhttt)

and i didnt rly we1gh myself but then i was 167 ish again at the end of the day but now im 161 so its weird but i just want to get past this for good and be in the 150s like i need to get to the normal/healthy weight at LEAST and keep my muscles since im starting to see them in some places.itll take a lot more work to have abs thoughhh, whatwvee gn sorry if you had to read thru my ramblings

oh also i got rly cute oxford type sketcher shoes and i really hope im able to land an internship / leads at the career fair in a couple weeks n i know the shoes will complete the look and i just want to be attractive and competent idk but i dont do school enough / fast enough rip

god im having such strong urges to kill myself and i just cut and i'm so alone my head is killing me intrusive thoughts are fucking awful i feel that if i don't kill myself right now i will lose my mind please let me end it god I'm sorry for dumping this on you im alone I'm tired I'm so desperate

hey, please seek medical attention ASAP if necessary. i know it's extremely different to see things from any perspective other than the one you're currently locked in, but strong suicidal urges are truly not built to last in intensity and you do not have to act on them. i understand that that's an eye roll of a statement because it's a million times easier said than done, but please try to hear me out. i also understand the absolute compulsive hell of dealing with the worst intrusive thoughts fathomable. you can crucify yourself over it all day but ultimately, they are a result of mental illness, and not something you to need to internalise guilt for. they make you feel so awful because they go against everything you rationally think and believe, they are a manifestation of your fears and of your disgusts in the most vivid form. that's their awful mechanism, that's how they get you to this point, but they aren't real. they aren't you in this moment. you're not going to lose your mind, you're having an extremely difficult time right now and i am so sorry you have to deal with it. i know it goes beyond words, i know there's nothing i can say that will rival the weight of what you're feeling, what you've maybe been feeling for a long time. there is no rationalising in this state, and there doesn't necessarily have to be. it's ok to accept how you're feeling, it's ok to let it be fucking god-awful because sometimes it just really fucking is.

you have every right to lose it if you need to lose it, you have every right to scream and cry it out, to breakdown or to go numb. sob, breathe, get some sleep, have something to eat, lay in your bed and don't move, write it down and rip it up, trash your room, take care of your wounds. whatever you need, it's okay. that being said, please try to find the courage alongside that to act against your impulses by seeking medical attention/mental health support as soon as you can if you need it - if you need tangible proof that you are not alone and that you can survive this. or at least truly accept that it is a genuine option, and keep it in the back of your mind at all times. say fuck it and let your thoughts scream at you as you act in the opposite direction of what they're demanding. your brain was not always in this heightened state of panic and suicidality, and it can be helped out of it again in a variety of ways, even all the ways that feel like bullshit such as therapy and creating a crisis plan and recognising healthy coping mechanisms and all the crap you don't want to hear. no matter how much you are dead set on believing it can't. you are so worthy of love, of being listened to, of a life that feels calm and manageable, of being here. you are so worthy of all of the things you don't believe you are worthy of. i know it's all so impossible, i know it's all grossly unfair. i know the fear is pathological and so is the sense of of isolation. but you absolutely do not deserve to hurt yourself, or to have to confront this on your own, and that is the bottom line here. please take care and please (!) reach out if you need to. x

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#5

Senku hcs

Oh this shall be fun

Realizes he's aromantic asexual in middle school. Everyone else was going on about romance and dating and all that other stuff, and all he cared about was science.

Was the one lecturing people in elementary school about why certain super powers can't be real and crushed the hopes and dreams of those wanting lazer vision

Would secretly leave Taiju money or other things he needed but pretended he had no idea where they came from

Since hes the definition of aroace, his gaydar is never wrong

Tried to figure out if he could turn himself into a robot as a kid, it did not work

Speaking of robots, he had robot pj's up until he was 11 in which he traded them for science ones

His experiments would make stay up late into the night, so naturally, he developed a taste for energy drinks.

At night he will sometimes think of Byakuya and remember all the memories he has with his dad, he might try to act like the man was embarrassing and all, but deep down hes a kid who never got to say goodbye to his dad

The only two people he can fully confide in are Taiju and Yuzuirha

While its common for kids who are adopted to want to know about their biological parents, he doesnt. He had Byakuya after all, and Byakuya is his dad, nothing else matters.

Hope you like them. Senku is a very fun character to make headcanons for.

45 notes - Posted March 28, 2022

#4

no one in Dr.STONE is an autistic retard so why do you plan to make a post about it? just cause you're retarded doesnt mean they are

congrats you got me to use Tumblr Desktop instead of my phone because im going to have a lot to say.

First of all, fuck off with the R word here, its an outdated and harmful term thats rooted in Ableism. Secondly i was going to ignore this and delete it when i saw the first line but then you also decided to insult me so you know enjoy getting your ass handed to you.

But whats wrong with noticing that certain characters in Dr.STONE are ASD coded? Like everyone accepts that Ryusui has ADHD but being autistic is something bad right? News Flash it isnt. Also show me where in the manga that Sai and Yuzuriha dont show traits of autism? i feel explaining to you would be a waste of energy but just know this is only going to make my post on it even longer cause holy fuck the beginning will now have a rant about people like you. Do me a favor and never send an ask here again and kindly fuck off.

Also this comment really pissed me off and i was going to focus on just Sai and Yuzuriha but now im gonna add Magma,Senku and Ruri to this as well cause ive also been seeing them as ASD coded but have been keeping that to myself.

47 notes - Posted August 13, 2022

#3

so i finished fmab

sobbing crying wailing etc it was SO GOOD and completely destroyed me at the same time fhjfjkfjhfkjhsahjsdjhfkjdjghdkjsk definitely the anime of all time

welcome to the world of FMAB. The obsession will never leave, and the pain gets worse with every rewatch. But with that also comes seeing little things you never noticed before which makes the series even better. 

47 notes - Posted January 23, 2022

#2

Ok so ill be posting about the final chapter soon but. IM SO HAPPY SENKU DIDNT GET ANY LOVE INTERESTS. HES AROACE AND STAYS AROACE HAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA

54 notes - Posted March 6, 2022

My #1 post of 2022

Ok but i really need to know what people have against aroace characters? Like theres nothing wrong with any character being aroace but for some reason it just causes others to be so upset and for what? Ive seen it with mostly One Piece and The Disastrous Life of Saiki K. Luckily havent seen it as much with Dr.STONE or at least on tumblr. The number of people ive blocked on tiktok for getting upset about Senku being CANONICALLY aroace is ridiculous. But yeah can someone just explain this to me? Cause aroace exist and we do deserve to have our representation in media and not in the "oh im rude because im aroace and thats my only personality" way. But in a way where we ardnt dehumanized for not feeling romantic or sexual attraction.

331 notes - Posted July 1, 2022

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how can you dismiss "some images of dead ppl" aka hundreds and hundreds of images and videos of adults and children sick and starving, horrifically injured, or dead as just propaganda? don't you think that's your propaganda working on you to just dismiss those?

This is like one of the only asks that seems like a genuine question, so Ill answer it.

Im not dismissing the footage of war and ppl suffering that are real. People ARE suffering. Im dismissing the tons of footage that was taken from Ukraine, Syria, etc, and claimed as gaza, to paint a picture. Or the way ppl try to defend terrorists that either attacked/murdered civilians or used them as shields as some brave freedom fighters that did no wrong. I dont remember ppl being this outraged when Hamas attacked, raped and tortured innocent civilians, paraded their dead and mangled bodies on the streets and then kidnapped another 200. I remember rather vividly how many people celebrated it, and still do, and it was completely socially acceptable for whatever reason. And instead of going after Hamas and their atrocities and realizing how little they care about their own prople to do this, y’all are sending death threats to jews online. All the aid thats been going to gaza for 20 years, can you guess where it went? There is a very simple way to stop the current situation immediately, and its giving back the remaining hostages and ending Hamas. That’s literally it. You can come and say that Israel is not accepting hostage deals and Israel has illegal settlements and Israel this and Israel that, and to some extent, some of that is true! But guess what? There is usually (not always, and Ill get to that later) reasons for that! And all those reasons come from centuries if not millennia of history, decades of this specific conflict, and lot of nuance, that I cant write even an oversimplified version of it, yet the average tumblr user suddenly considers themselves an expert on! Its easy to simply look at it from a lense of “death bad” and claim moral superiority bc guess what, yes, death bad, but so is literally everything that preceded it. Also if you think Im the one brainwashed by propaganda here… I invite you to look online, literally everywhere. When I say westerners dont understand shit about whats going on here, I mean it. People think Israel is some kind of China type government that brainwashes their people to be zionists or whatever, when people here are probably the number one critics of our own government. Nobody talks about the protests that were going on here and all the struggle to fight our stupid government for years. Do you think we like Netanyahu? Every damn day I pray he gets the Rabin treatment. Do you think we don’t criticize the IDF when it does bad shit? The IDF has sooo much to be criticized for, I promise you, but it’s usually none of whatever the anti-zionists keep crying about. Its a war. What do folks expect war will look like? Its literal hell, ofc it is. Israel didnt start this war, and yet people expect it to be the one to lay down arms? It literally started because of the October massacre. Did you tell the same to the ruzkis that attacked Ukraine? Should Ukraine also stop fighting back already bc then less ppl get killed? The only reason why Israelis are not dying in masse is bc it cares for their own, and built the means to over the years. It took decades of fighting, massacres, and wars, with the sole purpose of “survive. Because nobody else will save you out there”. That is not the case for Hamas. Hamas never cared about their own people, and I hope ppl realize this soon, and start to go after them at least half as much.

ohhhh just had an idea for a good personal essay about capitalism, fishkeeping, and infection prevention (and to a degree, my special interests/autism). will work on it soon but the conceit of it is this: (read more bc it got long)

ive noticed a couple diff reactions when i got into fishkeeping, and told people the actual requirements for a betta fish. some would express sorrow that they were tsught the wrong thing by society, and felt bad they'd done harm to a living thing. some, who currently had a fish, would go out and try to get better equipment - some would offer their fish to me, knowing i'd do a good job taking care of them. (most of the time i could not handle their fish burden, as a college student with only enough room for a couple tanks)

some, dismissed me -- if that was the case, then why do they sell betta fish bottles? betta fish vases on pinterest with no filter and plants in the top, betta fish prizes at carnivals, my betta fish lived in a bowl fine, i dont know what youre talking about -- its probably fine.

and i get it, to a degree - if what im saying is right, it means that person was taught the wrong things. they might even feel stupid for being "tricked" -- and that means they caused harm to a living being, something i believe most people would feel guilty about, and people dont want to admit-- to others or to themselves, and thats a hard thing to do. i get it.

but i dont blame the second person when tbe entire world (outside a cursory "betta fish care reddit" google search would tell you) tells them its okay. thats how betta fish live and survive, they'll be fine. and, surely, most people think -- in a just world, betta fish wouldn't be kept in plastic pint containers in the back of every chain pet store in the country. the amount of hurt and pain caused to living creatures would be unthinkable, and surely that can't be allowed? surely, since everyone doesn't meet the level of care that i say betta need, and those betta seem fine, i must be wrong -- if i was right, the levels of deception and harm caused by our system would be unimaginable.

unfortunately, we dont live in a just world -- we live in a capitalist world. betta fish on shelves in unheated, unfiltered pint containers with barely enough water to cover their fins are the norm. to sell you more -- to sell you an easy solution to wanting a fish. bc the work has already been done to make it a norm to mistreat these fish -- going with the norm, modeling behavior is extremely powerful as a species. its already established most people don't take all this extra care -- why should i? and thats what companies rely on to sell you more, more, more.

if every chain retail store did a complete education on how to actually. responsibly keep fish, the sticker shock would cause most people to discount fishkeeping as a whole. which simply wouldn't do in our unjust, capitalist society.

then id probably do a whole section how this relates to masking and infection prevention -- the power of norms, modeling behaviors, looking to systems youre supposed to trust, being harmed by those systems. if what im saying is true, then that means theyve caused harm - that people they know and love are causing harm, and the prospect of having to cope with all that harm is simply too much to take

id also do more hard research on betta treatment and go into the cognitive dissonance of petco; selling pint containers of betta but also selling a million specialized betta products (betta heating pad, betta food...etc) one shelf over, like they know the right care, and are going to get money off the people who think theyre doing the right thing by buying the special products. like they can get money from the ignorant, and then also from the guilty. and then even more money from the actual hobbyist. idk whay that has to do with precautions yet but ill get there. let it cook

11/1/2023

I didnt do anything today besides carve this pumpkin and to to the gym. Didnt know what to put on it so i just did a cat cause this was the first time i carved one in years. Plus i miss my fat ass cat penut. Love her but my bitch ex wife (lovely ex girlfriend) kept the kid (cat). Even tho it was MY IDEA to have her inside in the first place. I’ll die on that hill. Without me that little baby would still be outside only. Ive thought about getting a cat but not only do i not like the hair i also dont know how much longer ill be alive. I keep having this really tight feeling in my chest and i dont know if its indicative of something serious or not. Heart problems run in my family and i dont really have any of the genetic physical ailments my siblings inherited. I had collapsed lungs when i was born but i survived so its chill. My sisters both have really bad stomach issues from our parents. Little brother got the cancer when he had that cancerous tumor in his brain but we got that taken out n hes fine now. I mighta got the eye diseases and or the heart problems. I wouldnt be surprised if i did ive abused my heart forever now from all the drugs and alcohol and stimulants and getting hit there a lot. Im sure I’ll be fine tho im built sturdy. If i drop its cool too cause that means it was completely outta my control. I need to write my will soon tho. Today was really good in the gym tho. Worked really hard, saw some guys in costumes which was funny. Also caught this girl staring at me hard, when i turned n accidentally looked at her we made eye contact n both looked away. I just spent the rest of the time staring at the ground. She was pretty but im just now trying to not be cripplingly distraught over my ex so im definitely not ready for any new relationships or anything. If i were to start something now id just compare them to my ex and no one compares in any capacity so it would suck for me and wouldnt be fair to them. But i looked great in the gym today even if im fat rn. Other than that i just tried to be happy n all but it would rocky cause i was just thinking of how much i miss spending holidays with her. Its cool tho im feeling neutral rn. Feeling very tired

The dreaded time returns once again. I hope your first day back wasnt bad. Oh hell yeah peak fuck it we ball right there. & its always nice to have the support system. Oh yeah mt fuji is on my list too i wanna see it. Also id love to see the native birds. Love seein different types of birds. Oh okay words not commonly used bein dropped got it. Occasionally annoying is like the catchphrase of the english language. Oh yeah big same 80 is like my max comfort level for heat before it becomes unbearable. So 42c was like death it sucked so bad. Thanks! I also finally got through jarilo-vi story & playstation beta version opened to test so hopefully soon ill be able to play there. Mobile is hard to play on. Very nice i should check out rain world see what its like. I need to set aside time to draw its a relaxing hobby. I feel that i keep dropping games for a bit. Now that im all caught up on genshin again im trying to play more dredge & river city girls. Maybe even beat them. I wish you luck in your minecraft quest. Fair enough. I get along okay with my half sister but not enough to like. Tell her things. Oh hell yeah congrats on the dye job done. Always feels good. Yeehaw new game mode. Star rail is doin good at havin fun & interesting side stuff to do really. I got so many facts about fish & birds & such in my head at all times but can i remember all of them all the time? No. Such is life with adhd

it really does. but hey i survived the first week AND made friends with the cool alt girls from my class so its not ryover 👍and yeah i was. actually quite surprised how chill my mom is with me being queer but im not complaining. and yeah definitely!!! i dont rlly know a lot about birds but i agree its always nice to see them. and yeah isnt it!!!! tho Being Polish kinda desensitized me to languages being annoying since it is like that as well. while i do operate my mother language quite well, i cannot remember a Single grammar rule ive ever learned. just freestyle it and hope for the best. what the fuck is a przydawka. and ough congrats on surviving that then. im going to alicante with my school pretty soon [mightve mentioned this but i dont remember?] and from what we know its going to be like 25c there and like. damn. here i was getting happy about not having to deal with the heat until the next vacation. but Whatever. AND AHH THATS NICE!! id love to hear ur thoughts on the story i honestly Really like the jarilo vi arc. mobile IS hard to play on. survive out there. RAIN WORLD IS SO GOOD OMG THE GRAPHICS AND STORY ARE AMAZING AND ALL THE DIFFERENT SLUGCATS ARE SO FUN TO PLAY AS...... and ah good luck with that!! i have a little less time now that school is back but ive been trying to at least doodle every day. and ooh i dont recognize either of those, tell me ab them!! i did the genshin archon quest and havent logged in since but it was very fun. excited for the next part. and thank you o7 ill keep you updated on that. and yeah i feel you on that i have a pretty similar relationship with mine, its just that we rarely ever talk. AND THANK YOU!! im probably gonna repeat it soon since, as i said, dye doesnt really like to cooperate with me so its basically gone by now but at least i know this dye stays for at least a bit. i havent played star rail recently aside from the main quest tbh, didnt really have the motivation to do it i guess. BUT i heard the new simulated universe is fun so ill probs check it out Eventually. and yeah it really IS like that

I know I missed screaming about bullshit on your blog! Yes I literally had 4 days of feeling good after bronchitis then boom COVID TIME 😭 my respiratory system is in shambles, but it's getting better. Omg that trip sounds cool, any ghosts buddies? I was in Spain, Germany and Czechia. Next week I'm going to Malta though it's period time so 💀💀💀💀

I'm crying at that fan with the rose isuduwhdhshhsjsjshssg but this is cute

Baker Hwa just like in my dream wtf. Delinquent Hwa who uses the window to get to the snakcs first, imagine fighting him for strawberry milk

I got TWO POLAROIDS so far one Seonghwa and one Yunho! But Yunho went to my friend.

Yes one thing Seonghwa will do is L👁👁K 😭 it was nice to see him after a long time and apparently he was happy to see me as well. I hated when he showed his bicep THANKFULLY he was wearing that fishing net outfit so they hwarms weren't that visible 💀🤚🏻

Seonghwa will have to come see me soon hahahaha. Omfg right ticketing is happening, good luck!!! Thanxx doc Baek, I'm trying, I'm drinking a lot because it's so hot and I keep sweating 🤒 I tried watching some stuff but recently I can't focus, especially when my head was pounding, so I'm behind on EVERYTHING. I can't wait to go back to eating properly and not going to sleep at 10pm...

When will my Fever Diary arrive I need to lick the photos of Seonghwa in glasses also lil prairie boy I'm gonna kiss him 😭 and now another photobook?! KQ fucking knows I'm a sucker for Softeez ehhh, I don't have a concert to go to so might as well...

I'm gonna tell you about the second Hwa call soon, because it was unhinged 🙈🙉 but first I need to face ALL of them diuduehdhsjshdhdhdje

I got "sarcastic fan favourite" yeah sounds about right - DV 💖

hi hello!!

I know I missed screaming about bullshit on your blog! Yes I literally had 4 days of feeling good after bronchitis then boom COVID TIME 😭 my respiratory system is in shambles, but it's getting better. Omg that trip sounds cool, any ghosts buddies? I was in Spain, Germany and Czechia. Next week I'm going to Malta though it's period time so 💀💀💀💀

HDDJJD I DID TOO,,, omg i hope you’re better now bc wtf 😭😭😭🤚🏼 the respiratory system is in shambles but at least u drank more water hUh 🔫 none ghosties yet! but i THINK when i was recording the inn form the outside something waved in the video <3 but no one was outside the hotel or inside bc it was early morning <3 dbdbdb AYO????? HOW’D THAT GO ?? omg bestie??? drop ur itinerary riGHT NOW?? omg ur so coolio,,, love ur rewrite the stars yn??? but here is a sunset i captured dbdb hopefully the quality is there bc im gonna sob if not 🔫

I'm crying at that fan with the rose isuduwhdhshhsjsjshssg but this is cute

ME AT THEIR CONCERT FBWBDHEJ that’s so cute omg,,, manifesting this 🤲🏼

Baker Hwa just like in my dream wtf. Delinquent Hwa who uses the window to get to the snakcs first, imagine fighting him for strawberry milk

have u watched yumerio patisserie?? that au but with seonghwa 😭😭😭 ILL DRAFT IT OUT RN BDDB delinquent hwa who throws stones at windows so u look down and u see him standing their w ateez in their band instrumentals confessing his love to u <3 dbwnbdjks this was supposed to be in boxer hwa fbwbd FIGHTING OVER STRAWBERRY MILK FBWMDBWMHDKW

I got TWO POLAROIDS so far one Seonghwa and one Yunho! But Yunho went to my friend.

Yes one thing Seonghwa will do is L👁👁K 😭 it was nice to see him after a long time and apparently he was happy to see me as well. I hated when he showed his bicep THANKFULLY he was wearing that fishing net outfit so they hwarms weren't that visible 💀🤚🏻

AAAA UR INTERACTIONS WAS SO WHOLESOME TEARD UP AND ALL TOO 😭😭🤚🏼 i am very afraid of what this new concert seonghwa will do. i will not survive. fbdnddb even if he’s wearing a fully dressed shirt i would have the absolute same reaction

Seonghwa will have to come see me soon hahahaha. Omfg right ticketing is happening, good luck!!! Thanxx doc Baek, I'm trying, I'm drinking a lot because it's so hot and I keep sweating 🤒 I tried watching some stuff but recently I can't focus, especially when my head was pounding, so I'm behind on EVERYTHING. I can't wait to go back to eating properly and not going to sleep at 10pm...

HE WILL HAVE TOO !!! good luck indeed bdndhd 😭😭😭 i hope u get better soon bc that’s so messed up right after bronchitis 😭😭😭🤚🏼 hope ur travelling is better and ur all good when ur in malta !!! DROP ALL THE PRETTY PHOTOS PLS AND THANK YOU,, dOC BAEK DBDBDB

When will my Fever Diary arrive I need to lick the photos of Seonghwa in glasses also lil prairie boy I'm gonna kiss him 😭 and now another photobook?! KQ fucking knows I'm a sucker for Softeez ehhh, I don't have a concert to go to so might as well...

STOPPPPPP HE LOOKS SO FINE IN THOSE PHOTOS ITS A FRIENDS TO LOVERS AU 😭😭😩 BWSTIE STOP IM GONNA WRITE FOR HIM DBDBBD give him a fat smooch pls in both the photo books,,, but this photo omg??? he’s so pretty and the concept fits him so well 😭😭

I'm gonna tell you about the second Hwa call soon, because it was unhinged 🙈🙉 but first I need to face ALL of them diuduehdhsjshdhdhdje

PLS DO IM LOOKING FORWARD TO IT ALL, ALL OF THEM DBDBD HOW UNHINGED ON A SCALE OF 1 TO 10 WITH SEONGHWA VS OT8

I got "sarcastic fan favourite" yeah sounds about right - DV 💖

I DID TOO !!!! got some more quizzes one /// two

have you…have you heard from your uber driver recently?

😭😭😭

i would like to say, mr park

Anyways I'm going to think about my rpg au some more so I don't have to think about my favorite characters dying