I love that the whole fandom agreed Stede topped the first time.

However, if you think that's how they will keep doing it forever you are wrong. Stede finally got the man he wanted and got to do something so good with him it made Edward Teach throw out his leathers and become a housewife, and now that he got a taste, this hedonistic little man who found out what Good Sex With Someone You Love is like, is about to try every flavor of it. he will see Ed having a good time and think 'I want what he's having'

And Ed. Look at him and tell me that's not a man who's willing to do anything to make his boyfriend happy, and this is not a look of somebody who Will introduce this repressed man to his prostate later. That's a service top in the making.

They are two super inventive, imaginative men who are so obsessed with each other and trust each other, who live in the middle of nowhere. if you do not think they will invent 858 new ways to have sex, probably publish a new Kamasútra for queer pirates and publish it in hard binding and sell it at the inn's gift shop, you're wrong

There's a lot of Voy Crew & DS9 Crew crossovers for good reason but what about Voy Crew meets the TNG Crew so they can confuse and alarm them at every turn? Most Normal Crew Ever vs Most Fucked Up Weirdos Ever - let's go!

wip of the new guy

On one hand, I want a final fantasy 6 remake, because the game is criminally underrated and the amount of fan content (which is all absolutely fantastic btw) is Not Enough for my neurodivergent, hyperfixating brain.

On the other hand, that would inevitably encourage more people to join the fandom, which would be great, except it seems these days the bigger a fandom gets the more toxic it becomes, and I really like what we have going on over here in our little corner. We all just love the game and its characters and nobody fights about who should and shouldn't date who or who you shouldn't like because they're ~problematique~. Nobody's trying to make one ship morally better than another, nobody's calling anyone names or threatening to doxx people who don't agree with their opinions. It's so peaceful and I love that for us. We're just vibing. Moisturized. Unbothered. In our lane. Flourishing.

it's so funny (read: sad) that if bigoted fuckheads didn't insist i was a woman simply by virtue of my body at birth, i'd probably be chill with she/her pronouns in addition to he/they. if my mom didn't insist i was her daughter, i'd probably let her call me that, and we could still have a relationship.

i'm nonbinary and 'gendered' words are hypothetically meaningless, but because there are so many people who are more interested in telling me who i am rather than lovingly and curiously letting me express my own sense of self, those words carry trauma.

there's no reason a nonbinary person like myself can't be a son and a child and a daughter. there's no reason a nonbinary person like me can't go by he, they, and she.

'she' is not a slur. 'daughter' is not derogatory. 'beautiful' 'pretty' 'gorgeous' 'feminine' are not insults.

to the contrary, they're parts of language that express certain facets of a multi-faceted human existence, like mine.

and i have this sad, mournful feeling that if it weren't for unloving, condescending people, i'd probably be down to be called any of those things alongside my usual masculine/neutral terminology.

but i'd rather die than let anyone tell me what i have to be called.

ive already shown this to anyone who actually cares pretty much loll (anyone following the addison arg) but i might as well post it on here

this is actually the first proper animation ive done :'D like other than this ive animated a ball bouncing but that was more to test the software than anything,, lucky for me i consume animation memes more than i consume water so i know the basics B)

i want out of this apartment so, so badly, but we got the email saying we're gonna be receiving renewal documentation this week and having to decide NOW whether i need to figure all of that shit out is. bad.

google how to not be sosososo anxious all the time. its not even like stress that motivates me to get things done it's just like. i make a mistake and misunderstood instructions in class and my teacher is like "you were supposed to figure out precisely where 180 was before taping the draft and punching your marks" when i like an idiot guesstimated it and after a moment of me going "oh..." bc its something i can't fix bc i've already punched in all the holes on the part he's like "i think you'll be okay" and goes back to what he's doing and then for three hours im like he's so annoyed with me i bring things to him too much and ask him too many questions and make the stupidest mistakes every day he hates me. i ask a friend something and they don't respond because they're busy or forget about it or don't see it or any number of other reasons and then a couple weeks later i send them something else and they don't respond for a few hours and its enough time for me to convince myself i said something a while ago that they took offense to without realizing and they're ignoring me and i send another message saying "are you mad at me did i do something can you tell me what i did so we can work it out" and he's like "what?". a friend posts about people treating them badly in a way that's clear they're talking about a specific phenomenon or person and im always like omg are they talking about me did i do something bad and not realize it... and its someone i talk to so infrequently and casually it obviously would not be a concern or someone i've known for so many years that they would obviously come to me if there was any conflict that arose. help

Andor. This show. It's so good. I'm absolutely overwhelmed. If I were a YouTube essay person you would have hours of me going on about all the brilliant things about it. But I'm not! Instead I've been putting my Cassian Andor thoughts and feels into this vid. It's less than three minutes, but hopefully it gets across some of what's in my heart and in my head right now.

CW: A few rapid cuts, a few flashes of light. Mild violence. Rogue One ending spoilers.

Song: Patterns Artist: Simon and Garfunkel

Lyrics

From the moment of my birth To the instant of my death There are patterns I must follow Just as I must breathe each breath Like a rat in a maze The path before me lies And the pattern never alters Until the rat dies

Vid on AO3 with download options, or if you just want to leave a kudo or comment over there. ♥

i miss weed so much but i told myself i wasnt gonna smoke til i knew when my top surgery is bc i cant smoke 6 weeks prior to that but im still waiting for them to confirm my appointment so im sitting around like i could probably have a lil bit.... as a treat..... right.....?

guys what if i want to make my own apollo justice game.

out of all my time brainstorming for the Minecraft AU never did I think one of the thought processes I would have is "the moon is made of glowstone"

Being a 9-1-1 fox fan and a teacher is so interesting and fun bc we took our preschoolers to the local fire station today and one of my only thoughts was about the 118 going offline for a bit just to give local schools and daycares tours. Special interest brain rot.

I think one reason I try to make my headspace form appear more 'adult-like' and less leaning towards adorable-cute(but more towards hot and maybe vaguely intimidating) is because I don't want to be infantilised. Idc if ppl like a decade or more older still see me as a kid sort of for being 20(and I am literally bodily 20), but I don't want my peers or ppl only slightly older to assume I'm a child or desexualise me(as in like treat me as someone who doesn't want to be involved in anything sexual and has nothing sexual about my existence).

Peers and even slightly younger ppl have already infantilised me enough in my lifetime just bc I'm autistic and quiet. I'm not the uwu innocent 'child' people want me to be. It also bothers me as an alloaro bc sexuality is a large part of my identity personally and I don't want romance or friendship. Ppl irl assumed I'm lonely and want friends when that wasn't the case.

I would actually kind of be repulsed if someone assumed all I want is friendship, especially if they just think so bc I'm aro (I'm way more apl than aro). I just idk when I was 18 I was a little more tired of childhood than I am now. I was tired of the ageism and sure it doesn't go away entirely once you turn 18 bc they still treat young adults like we 're irresponsible and don't know anything but should still meet expectations.

I think when I was a tween and teen there were expectations from peers to act a lot older than we were. We were expected to like live action shows and movies, especially pg-13 and r-rated ones. It made no sense to me. There's no shame in liking cartoons or kids shows even as an adult. That's not a reason to infantilise someone, and there really shouldn't be a reason to do that to anyone in the first place.

Like idk but. Why should I have wanted to go to parties or be obsessed w some band as a tween/young teen?? Why should I have engaged with more violent/adult media and understood every vague sexual innuendo?? Why should I have been wearing expensive brands? Those aren't requirements for respect. Maybe it's just the district I went to middle school in but yeah...

trying to figure out if I should come out 2 my friends or not...

Scrolled to 2020 to try and update the file for Theo's birthday pic (HBD to him 💙) and that really was such a wonderful period for me in terms of drawing 🥲