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#fucking body of work before you say something that presumptive and dismissive ๐
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Scrolled to 2020 to try and update the file for Theo's birthday pic (HBD to him ๐) and that really was such a wonderful period for me in terms of drawing ๐ฅฒ
#just wanted to update my signature but mobile app and browser don't work ๐ซ ๐ซ ๐ซ
#le whiny text post
#also the few asks I got back then were just stellar ๐ฅฒ
#it sucks that I don't feel the same joy and contentment when I draw anymore
#idl PSA if anyone reads this far down my tags: never tell anyone they should draw: (1) just for fun. (2) for the success in their heart
#(3) assume that they do not actually draw for themselves and proceed to tell them to not draw what fandoms want despite. like look at their
#fucking body of work before you say something that presumptive and dismissive ๐
#(4) don't assume they are just* clout chasing. I lost my job in the middle of COVID and still had a whole year's worth of tuition to pay
#in the middle of lockdown. so no money for anything including necessities. foolishly thought I might be good enough for comms
#very very VERY foolishly put out a rhetorical Q on how to build a following. again my bad for assuming I'm good enough
#and then was told indirectly that 'people conflate numbers with worth' and like yeah ok
#but also I lost my job Jan ๐ซ
#sometimes hyper positive 'encouragement' comes off so dismissive
#and now (3 years later) I still can't even say what I draw is 'art.' I feel ashamed of sharing anything. I think everyone hates everything
#draw (tho that is kind of a true fact with the gnshn fandom if we're talking art styles). I can't even call myself an 'aspiring artist'
#I feel guilt and shame for wanting to have ever been one despite wanting to be one since I was a child and wanting to like open comms or
#design prints and stickers and shit.
#what they thought was 'encouraging' comes off dismissive. like getting scolded by your betters that you shouldn't aspire to have and do
#the things that they have and do. and girl when I tell you it took a lifetime to get some of them to even acknowledge me ๐ซ
#like hoping they thought of me as a peer but it sounds like I'm beneath them
#and they are bigger fandom artists. all of them had either comms or something open and literally that's all I ever wanted. the other stuff
#is clearly beyond me but idk. just sucks to hear bigger artists tell you to just be content to be the little nothing that you are and to no
#aspire to achieve the things you want.
#and I shouldn't let it get to but 3 years later and we have given up.
#even lowering goals to just such small things and those can't even be achieved ๐
#anyways HBD Theo. You gave up on the dream of being an artist. Me too ๐ค๐๐
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