for my LA friends who are registered to vote— this mayoral election is gonna be a big fucking deal. it’s the first time ballots are going to be mailed to every eligible voter, and on top of that, if a candidate gets more than 50%+ of the vote in June’s primary, they win outright, no general election.

on top of this, the frontrunner for the Republican Party, Caruso, is a Trump-esque billionaire who is anti-abortion, and has spent millions upon millions of dollars more on campaign ads in comparison to any other candidate regardless of party, meaning a lot of uneducated/not politically involved voters may have only heard about him when the ballot arrives in the mail— which makes his strategy to avoid the general election altogether that much more obvious. his platform is outright against abortion, and actively criminalizes unhoused people even moreso.

i’m not going to tell you who to vote for, but ultimately ANY vote towards ANY candidate in the race besides Caruso will take away from his ability to gain the 50% he’d need to win outright. obviously, voting is not the end-all be-all, but if you’re registered and getting a ballot anyway, you might as well help keep a racist, rich, anti-homeless, anti-abortion asshat from buying L.A.’s mayoral office in the primary like he plans to.

here is the link to register to vote online

needed to get this off my chest b4 i rot from the inside out

i dont know if this will reach the target audience that i want but (t) at this point nothing is going to stop me

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basically i've seen a lot, and i mean a lot of drabbles or fics or whatever they are called, of perv! eddie munson, and steve harrington, and like a few billy hargove pieces. and maybe one or two perv! reader pieces that aren't meant for me, because i am a girl (of age! to be reading and writing this) and the pieces are meant for guys.

but whatever.

the point is that how can anyone write smuttty pieces of billy without ever mentioning his spectacular butt. just look!

how can you just not want to bite and suck marks at the cheeks and praise and love and show off this whole bakery!

and okay enough of that.

i want to get to the horrible (not as bad as i thought) stuff that i need to put down. so tags and warnings will be added here!

SEMI CONTENT WARNING: penetration for the reader

tag: perv! reader, mentions of exhibition (basically wanting to get caught), gross! reader, bathroom s*x (no touching the cake yet :/ unfortunately), s*x without a cond*m, plse have safe s*x peoples!, mentions of drinking, smoking, han*jobs, bl*wjobs, stealing clothing items, watching someone sleep, almost getting caught at peeking (ha), 3-4 am writings, lowercase intended, not proof read, somehow it ended up with me praising him, OOC! billy (maybe idk) (most likely, dialogue sucks)

to those interested, what i had in mind was a reader (totally did not decide to finally write this when writing a fic with a similar sort of reader) that has a friend with benefits deal with billy. haven't decided on romance (maybe no romance cus it kills the vibes)

just imagining getting to know the californian transfer better than anyone else (not completely, he's keeping you at football field length of his home life) seeing him as a close friend, and maybe he sees you at the same wave but he ain't admitting anything

just like you won't ever admit that the whole reason you even started to talk to him (you totes made the first move on the new guy which was not appreciated by many) was because you just saw a glimpse of the cake on him. you don't even want to talk about having the same p.e. class as him. getting to see him in those sickening shorts on him, and without a shirt! a so added bonus on your book

you can ogle and stare, not too much tho, can't show yourself as a creep just yet! or ever, but your stare can never be hidden too long

and after befriending him over whatever you could to get close to him, the both of you are at a party (even if you weren't exactly keen on going to tina's party but he was going to be there, how much more convincing can it get?)

so after bumping into him on accident, the two of you are now in a bathroom. lips and bodies practically glued together with an arm of his on your waist and the other on your neck to prevent you from pulling away (as if, oh and the taste of the beer that still lingered in his mouth had your knees weak which he could mistake you being turned on by the hand that used to lay on your waist that is now settling on the front your bottom half)

which yeah that too has you weak in the knees, but getting a taste of something that was already in his mouth, it was just... it made butterflies explode in your stomach

but the feeling could only last for so long, as you both had to pull apart (read billy) for air. you obvi chased after his mouth, and he could have laughed if it weren't for the fact that you were able to last longer than him in kissing

you are severely desperate for something, and he is so not going to give it to you easily now. and that's fine, you could play the desperate brat he could be into (at least until you get just the one nibble on the cake)

you're moving your hips against one of his jean cladded thighs of his, he's letting you with what you can assume to be light blush (probably due to the lack of oxygen a moment ago, but it gets you going, having built a fantasy of him getting the blush differently) on his face and a smirk that has you begging (vocal) him to just take you. like now. like right now

and okay maybe you underestimated his size, and if either he would be rough or gentle (you thought you had garnered positive points for being a friend of sorts to him) but it doesn't matter anymore. you had pushed yourself to sit on the sink with your legs wide open (who knew your legs can stretch that far? you didn't) underwear somewhere on your ankle (i didn't know if i should have mentioned pants or shorts or if imagining a dress, considering the latter gives easier access, but you had undies)

you feel him moving, and all you could do was throw your head back with a darn smile on your face. he's sweaty and using your hole like a fleshlight and the only thought in your head was that you are a step closer to your goal.

his lips are on you again and he's getting aggressive as you get loud. you might as well become the music. geezus

he's stuffing two fingers in your mouth, saliva running down your lips as you gag and tighten both mouth and hole as he angled his hips to go deeper when you are moved to be a little closer to falling off the sink

you hear him tell you stuff but you can't answer. he removes his fingers and wipes them on your cheek and you can't help it when your eyes roll to the back of your head as he wraps both arms around your upper torso. you nearly came when you got a whiff of his sweaty musk

you hear him say if you want to be caught like this, to which you can only reply before tightening around his dick

"let them! let them see that you're the only that can make me feel this good!"

you so messed up by saying that because now he's slamming his hips against your ass and kissing you and you return the kiss with whatever sense of control of brain you had left. goal long forgotten

this time you pull away when you cum and a second later he does too. your arms wrapped around his shoulders, his neck becoming so inviting as his sweat glistens under the bathroom light

now you're pulling your underwear up, letting the band snap against your skin as you get down on your knees in front of him. feeling him getting hard again as you give him a handjob because you never thought you were this dirty. your thighs rubbing together as you practically drool at the sweat that was on his thighs

giving a kitty lick on his tip before he's grabbing the back of your head and making your mouth take all of him. you're moaning (gagging first if you got gag reflexes) when your hands are perched on his very slight hairy legs. you don't even care about tasting yourself, your goal back in action

spoke too soon. the grip on your head was stilled (he was moving your head, now becoming a literal fleshlight) as he moved his hips to his liking and he's cumming down your throat

you swallow every last bit as if it were your last meal and licking his dick as he pulls away from your mouth. you finally (reluctantly) pull your head away from him. you're opening your mouth to show him that it's all gone (of course it is, it's his)

he seemed to have softened up a bit, and so have your legs as your try to stand. like the real gentleman that he is, he laughs then helps you up. you so won't tell him that you came a second timr at the thought of being an inanimate object to him

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fast forward weeks, it's now the second day of christmas break and you've had more than once some special fun with billy. speaking of him

he was on your bed, on his stomach with shorts cus there is no way you are going to wait until summer for the heat to make billy wear shorts (you made sure your house was slightly warmer for his standards)

you stood at your doorway, admiring the absolute unit of an ass that he has. he takes notice of you and raises a brow at your outfit. and okay so maybe it was hot for him, but it was warm for you. and now you're dressed in a pair of egg sweatpants and a "kiss the jock" sweater that was pink and unfortunately tight around your torso but loose and long enough in the sleeves. now you can line up and smack all the empty beer cans that he leaves behind

you, still in a daze of finally seeing him in shorts outside of the school, could only mutter the one single word that can be taken at a completely different path with zero context

"ass."

and you do exactly what you wanted to do (not goal), you picked up all the beer cans and have them stand on the bed frame at the end of the bed and you so want to line a few on him

and as if all the winds were against you, he had turned over to lay at his side to stare at whatever your sleep deprived brain wanted to do

there's a trash bin on your right and you manage to get a few in (as in few as in like five) and billy watches you for a hot minute before he obnoxiously yawned and stated that he was going to take a nap, with a smirk on his face as you glared

because who does he think he is! does he think that he can make fun of you by saying that he's going to nap when you've gotten a full day of no sleep (granted he does not know that, and he's not going to) and expect you to not do anything to earn negative points? then you're absolutely right. you wouldn't disturb this man when the scrunch of eyebrows is finally relaxed. not even a scowl to the face (an angel face if you will)

he's baby and you get out of your room to do laundry (cough cough something that is only seen by men, and you totally understand like about 3% on why it's done) with the laundry bin, both yours and billy's clothes in it. you rummage through to find the one thing you've been hoping to find since all the others were already washed and cleaned, every thursday because it's two people and you're not that messy)

you hide the briefs in a space that no one knows about (as you should) and continue as if you hadn't stolen another clothing piece of his. well, it's his fault really. leaving his clothes behind as if he wanted you use the already used pieces of clothes for your own pleasure (first step is acceptance)

when you're done loading the washing machine, you move back to your room. billy is still asleep, in a fortunate ballerina sleeping position. his feet covered by a blanket that reaches just his calves (is it that hot? nah)

now you wish you had a camera. you need to keep this moment forever. how has he gotten comfortable enough around you, to... to sleep in such a way! (making a mental note to get one)

you're quietly groaning in your bundled sleeves at the way the shorts stretch on his ass and thighs. how his shirt is lifted a little and you could see a small part of his happy trail. it's really almost like he knows what he's doing

well, he could. he's not dumb. but that's a thought for another day

you move quietly to stand at the foot of your bed. spectacular. magnificent. marvelous

maybe you shouldn't leave the thought for another day, and leave the room before he completely wakes up. you say this because he's moved around as if to get comfortable, but you already know that he's waking up

it comes with the added benefits when staring at someone sleep at every chance you could get (you never know what could happen)

you go to leave your room to go to the kitchen... for something. you definitely needed to leave

"now where do you think you're going after staring at me for an hour?"

his voice caught you off guard, you don't jump (because you knew), now you're at your doorway again, staring at him with a relaxed expression

"it was not an hour."

the words leave your mouth before you fully see where this was going. cursing under your breath before taking a full glance at him. at his whole body. at him lighting up a cigarette

"you're just a little freak then, huh?"

crossing your arms and you walked towards him with no stutter to your steps. he's no longer lying down; his back is leaning on the headboard and his eyes don't leave your form

you sat on your bed, besides his outstretched legs. a knee under you as you pluck the cigarette that he's already using

"you have no idea what your body does to me."

you blow some smoke towards his face and there wasn't much of a reaction on top. down below though, your response definitely woke something up

"you are so fucking attractive, hargrove. so so attractive."

your face inched closer to his

"from the way your eyelashes frame your sky-blue eyes to the way your mouth stretches in that tiny smile of yours."

ignoring the way a few recognizable (albeit still different) butterflies return as your hands are on his shoulders after he took the cigarette back. only to burn it out and his arms stayed at his sides. with a roll of his eyes, he huffed

"and there is definitely something you love more about me than what you are saying."

you smiled and lowered your hands to his chest before wrapping your arms around his torso. bringing your head down to where his heart should be

"i really, really like the way sweat looks on you. and your chest. and maybe i do love your ass more than you, but i call it even when you are always putting your baby above me."

it brings out a short laugh and you hugged him closer

"i actually like that laugh of yours, where i know you are totally having fun. i like your music taste, and somehow the volume too. i like the fact that my room is becoming ours. and i like being your friend. and that you left me a seashell on my nightstand one day."

he had stiffened and you tried to cool your rapid heartbeat. this is so much worse.

"and i kind of really like you." (I LIED! ROMANCE FOR THIS MAN. I was sucked in the billy hargrove deserves better hashtag earlier today and he DESERVES ALL OF MY LOVE)

"of course you do."

he pulled you closer as you straddled his hips.

"i could list off all the things i like about you as a friend."

you suggested with a small sniff on his neck. one that he ignored in your eyes. (totes not unnoticed)

"do not."

Hey so... How do you like... Find character voices, tones and speech patterns or mannerism for your characters? Especially with so any variations on the same cast members? I really admire it, and am having trouble doing it for a story I've had outlined and a cast I've had set for years, but now the writing time cometh and I cannot for the life of me put dialogue to any of this.

WOOF this is a Big Ol Question but i will do my best to explain how i work 😞🤙 the art of dialogue is a careful one and entirely too much practice BUT we will push on

as such, stickin this under a cut

so i’m opening up with a quick flex on y’all: my dialogue is the one of very few things that was always very Good abt my writing (to the point that in uni it was one of those things ppl never even bothered commenting on cause they were like ‘idk i cant make it better lmao’) SO ive been doing dialogue for YONKS and at this point i dont rly have to Think abt it so much as just. do it. lmao

but one of the reasons i got Good was because an a monotone autistic kid i spent a lot of my early years like... listening to how ppl spoke and mimicking it because yall i used to talk At The Same Speed In The Same Tone At One Hell Of A Lick for years and tryna sound normal took me just shutting tf up and having a good listen to how other people spoke, which is my first tip: listen to people!! sit in a discord chatroom!! listen to convos in a coffee bar!! be nosy and listen in on convos!! humans r VERY GOOD at talking and we love 2 do it and theres so many types of dialogue to listen out for that will help u get better!

the other tip is thinking a lot abt personality and how that shines thru; every person i write is a very different person to the character next to them, and how they are effects how they verbalise shit; let’s take, for instance, yang and weiss, yeah?

YANG comes from a backwater island off the coast of vale; it’s a rural, outdoorsy farming community that’s very tight-knit and quite remote, which means a few things for yang’s speech patterns. ONE is that she talks in a dialect native to patch, which is a more drawl-y (yet surprisingly staccato) version of vale’s accent. it’s also SLATHERED in local slang and terms that any valian will be thoroughly unfamiliar with. we’re thinking of a mix of rural southern america and also somehow californian/australian surfer dude stereotypes??? it’s a WILD mix.

WEISS comes from the very high-class, very technologically-advanced and Strict society of atlas, which has scandinavian/germanic origins! her speech is very measured and very articulate, given the high standard of education she’s been subjected to, and her atlesian accent (again, very german-esque) can be suppressed very well in the right crowd to better fit in (tho it shows when she gets Angery). she rarely uses slang, she’s speaks very clearly, and it’s all very... prescriptive, yeah?

so yang and weiss have literally two OPPOSITE ways of speaking, built in entirely different communities for very different NEEDS and personalities. of course they dont sound like each other; it’s not just a change of location, but a change of person. even if weiss had lived on patch and yang in atlas, what you could guarantee is that weiss could still be a stickler for grammar and yang would still learn all the slang that’s used in atlas/mantle/solitas, right?

this same process can be done for any character; ruby’s manic and talks REALLYREALLYREALLY QUICKLY CAUSE SHE HAS SO MUCH TO SAY AND IF YOU STOP HER SHE’LL FORGET WHAT SHE WAS SAYING AND THEN SHE WON’T REMEMBER AND IT’LL BUG HER ALL DAY SO PLEASE LET HER JUST JUST THIS ONE REALLYREALLYREALLY LONG THOUGHT OUT FIRST PLEASE HANG ON JUST A MOMENT--

but blake is very sort of. laid back and chilled and brooding and considering revolution so for them, they speak less often, and usually in much more succinct thoughts: we’ll see a lot of one-word answers, a lot of bluntness. of course, this backfires when theyre trying to be genuine because sometimes it gets in the way! of course, compared to, say, tribelands blake, who is chieftain and is REQUIRED to be more articulate, we see a blake who is still calm and collected and therefore they speak rarely with error. all very thoughtful, a lot more like weiss.

of course, thats not even going into how they TEXT as seen in frapp logs (since how someone speaks and how someone TEXTS is like, two diff ways for speaking) which is a whole other kettle of fish that’s still impacted by a BUNCH of other factors!

dialogue, when boiled down, is basically just an extension of a character’s personality -- and it’s an IMPORTANT aspect of their personality, because speaking is how we impart a lot of our ideas and thoughts into a space that other people can, uh, interpret! a character is, ultimately, a bunch of concepts that form a person, and when they speak is when those concepts are on show for everyone to see! so WHAT those ideas are and HOW they envision those ideas informs the way their dialogue will function. are they like ruby, who thinks twice as quickly as she can get the ideas out of her mouth? are they like blake, who likes to mull things over before jumping to conclusions (unlike theyre impassioned, of course)? are they like weiss, who had her way of speaking beaten into shape by academia? or are they like yang, who speaks in a way that best allows her to connect with her community and her people? these are all distinct people and ideas!

a good way to test if theyre distinct in your writing is to write down a transcript w/o any tags or names, and see if people can tell you how many characters are in that conversation. the most distinct their voice (even if they use similar words or one another), the better chance you have at having characters with distinct speaking methods. consider every word! consider every phrase! everybody approaches speaking differently!

Pretty asks

I was tagged by @smoldinopup to answer these questions. Thanks for tagging me sweetie!

What’s your favorite song(s) to sing/hum?

To be honest, I hum a lot of songs literally all of the time so the answer to this is pretty much “Whatever I happen to be listening to”

What’s your favorite flower/tree/plant (all 3 or whatever you have the answer to)?

My favorite flowers are roses. They’ve been my favorite since I was a little kid. I don’t even know why I like them so much, I just do. 

My favorite trees are ponderosa pines. They’re everywhere here and, once again, I liked them since I was a kid. We used to call them “puzzle bark” because the bark looks like puzzle pieces. We used to take the parts that fell off and used them as chalk when I lived in Yosemite.

Favorite colors?

Reeeeeeeeeeeedd. And black. But i prefer red and white over red and black. The white makes the red pop a bit more. I don’t have a favorite shade, though, all shades of red are my favorite.

What do you always doodle (if you ever do)?

I used to doodle a lot on my homework or classwork, but I don’t anymore because, well, I don’t have homework to do, and I don’t really draw anymore. I do remember drawing eyes a lot, and sometimes I’d draw little South Park characters. I think I doodled little Mysterions (Kenny’s superhero persona) the most.

How do you take your coffee/tea?

I like both of them pretty sweet, so sugar in both. I use less sugar in my tea tho. My coffee normally has 2 teaspoons of sugar and a decent amount of flavored creamer. My tea only has one teaspoon, or none at all, depending on the kind of tea.

Favorite candle scent?

Vanilllaa. I actually have one going right now. It makes my room smell like cookies! But i also like floral scents (like lavender), anything that smells like the ocean, sometimes fruits if they aren’t too strong, and surprisingly linen. I don’t know why but I got a candle that smelled like freshly dried towels and it was? So good? 

Sunrise or sunset?

Why not both? I mean, I like what comes after sunset more than sunrise but they’re both kinda equal in my opinion.

What perfume do you wear, if any?

I do not wear perfume, but I am gonna have to say I do kinda like the smell of vanilla. Again. It’s just, vanilla perfume reminds me of my aunt? Is that weird to say? Just, my aunt always wears vanilla perfume when she’s in a good mood and if I hug her and she smells like vanilla it makes me happy because I know she’s happy.

What’s your go to dance move when you’re alone?

If I’m listening to kpop, I’ll half-ass the dance to the song, but if it’s anything else I just sorta... move? I dunno.

Favorite quote?

There are way too many quotes to list here, honestly.

Favorite self-care thing(s)/routine(s)?

................what the fuck is self care.............?

Fuzzy socks or house slippers?

FUZZY SOCKS! I get fuzzy socks every year as a stocking stuffer and they are literally the best thing for winters in the mountains.

What color are your eyes?

Hazel, but I’ve honestly had people tell me they’re almost golden so haha I have pretty golden eyes.

What’s your favorite eye color on others?

I honestly don’t care about eye color too much? All the eye colors are pretty to me!

Favorite season? Why?

I like autumn because the trees get all colorful and the weather starts getting cooler, but not too cold. And if you’re lucky (because I’m a Californian and we have drought going on), it could rain. And I love the rain. I kinda named myself after it... sorta.

Cheek, neck, or nose kisses?

Cheek kisses because you can get those from anyone and they’re always super cute! (Yes, platonic cheek kisses are a thing and I love them)

What does your happy place look like?

...Currently it would be sitting outside on my porch with my cat in my lap. But someday, I want my happy place to be my room, with bookshelves on every wall, candles of different colors and scents on top of every surface (that won’t cause a fire). Maybe a dog or cat or both cuddled up on my bed next to me, blankets warm and pillows nice and fluffy. And of course, reading a good book while music plays softly.

Favorite breed of dog?

...I like maltipoos. They’re Maltese poodle mixes and they’re? So damn cute? And fluffy? And smol? I love?

Do you ever want to be married? If so, what colors would you pick for your wedding theme?

I, uh... literally have never thought about this.... I’m 18 and very single... I don’t wanna get married just yet pfft. If the time comes, then I’ll start thinking about this sort of thing.

Cursive or print?

My handwriting is kind of both? I’ve had classmate hand me back a paper he was supposed to help edit and say “I can’t read cursive.” Oh, the look on his face when I told him that was print pffft. But I can’t write in actual cursive, my print is just very curly.

Silk or lace?

Why not silk with a lace trim? I mean that’s typically only done with lingerie but hey, it still looks nice.

Favorite weather?

Slightly chilly, just enough where you don’t need a jacket, but a sweater is a must. Gray clouds float across the sky, blotting out the sun, causing things to become dark. The wind pick up and it begins to rain.

Okay now to tag others... Idk who’s been tagged already or if you even want to but @ringdingdongenthusiast @sapphicshawol @minhos-ace @kibuttcheeks @fleur-de-jinki @lnsplred @the-tinfoil-soul @kimjongkey (Sorry, i just sorta tagged everyone I knew, please note you don’t have to do this if you don’t wanna!)

tagged by @latinsimonez! this was really fun to do lmao thank u for taggin me

answer 30 questions + tag 10 people you’d like to know better

-nicknames: ......i hesitate to inform you all of this but my uncle started calling me ‘the squish’ when i was a baby because i was so fat and now everyone on my mom’s side of the family calls me that more than they call me by my actual name. also sometimes people call me ari but not that often and my dad’s side of the family calls me arielita

-star sign: sad pisces binch

-gender: i’m a girl but. idk i’ve kinda been very slightly questioning it a little just to make sure? i’ve pretty much come to the conclusion that yup i’m a girl tho so 

-MBTI type: mainly infp, probably like 15% enfp because i get really excited when i’m around groups of people i love and Lose All Sense Of Boundaries. does that qualify me as enfp? i get tired being around most people tho so idk

-height: 5′5.5″ and yes the half inch COUNTS

-time: 10:41pm

-birthday: march 1. when i was little i couldn’t pronounce 1 correctly like i said “much fust” so everyone thought i was saying march 4 tho lmao 

-favorite bands: there’s this band called gorillaz i really like idk if anyone following me has heard of it tho :/// also phoenix, vampire weekend, the lumineers, glass animals, purity ring, young the giant, maroon 5, the beatles. i would die for ezra koenig and one time he liked something i tweeted at him and i cried for 10 minutes and my roommate took a video and made fun of me

-favorite solo artists: stromae, damon albarn, shawn wasabi, ingrid michaelson, childish gambino, nicki minaj, sohn, kanye west, lil wayne. gorillaz should collaborate with stromae also like i think they’d be good together

-song stuck in my head: ......the mii channel song but where each pause is uncomfortably long. yes i hate myself 

-last movie I watched: wonder woman like three months ago?? ? i like never go to the movies which is actually kind of a shame because going to the movies is one of my favorite things to do ever i know it’s like not that wild but i always get so excited wow i love movies

-last show I watched: rick and morty like the pickle rick episode. someone save morty and summer please i fucking hate beth

-other blogs: @ratqueenofficial is my main! also i have an art blog @ratqueenarts but i like never actually post there so. and i have multiple urls about antigone and about half mexican murdoc hoarded lmao

-when I created my blog: april 6 of this year but i made my main on new year’s eve because my friend came over so we could relaunch.......a semi-popular meme archiving blog whose name i’m not allowed to actually say because mods are a secret.........but anyway my old main had been around since 2013 and i wanted to start fresh so yeah

-what I post about: that son of a gun sure do love those gorillaz. also i post my own mediocre art and make shitposts and memes because i find myself hilarious and i write headcanons and am starting to do fics. but yeah it’s all centered around grillz, and sometimes like 1% damo but never hewll because. i don’t really like him lmao. i think my most common tag is murdoc and i know he sucks but i would fucking die for him in a heartbeat

-last thing I googled: ..........mii channel hip hop remix on youtube and i’ve had it on loop and my roommate hates me but. it’s a fucking bop okay don’t judge me

-following: 939

-followers: 1,233

-favorite color: yellow but like a Very Specific Yellow like strong golden yellow that one might be able to argue is actually orange but Bitch It Is Fucking Yellow (here it is) like half of everything i own is this color which was fun at first but one day i walked out of the house when it was raining and realized i was wearing yellow boots, a yellow raincoat, a yellow beanie, a yellow backpack and was holding a yellow umbrella and it was at that point that i realized that i had a Problem. my friends make fun of me for it rip

-average hours of sleep: half of the week it’s like 4 and half of the week it’s like 14 because of the ol’ depresh so i’m not actually sure at all. probably like 7 if i absolutely had to pick a number

-lucky number: 3

-instruments: classical piano (and i guess keyboard by extension) but i can’t sightread for shit (i’m good at playing by ear tho!), general percussion like bells and xylophone and marimba, i did tenor drum in marching band for like one year but i’m pretty horrible at non-mallet percussion lmao. also i had a vuvuzela for like two years but my roommate confiscated it because “vuvuzelas are not to be played at 3 in the morning, ariel” and anyway i don’t think it really counts

-what I’m wearing: glasses, black skinny jeans, my black x men sweatshirt that has like pictures of the vintage comic panels on it and yes i got it from hot topic don’t judge me for that i was like 14, dark blue baseball cap that says “best dad ever” across the front but i’m wearing it backwards because i’m cool. i got it for father’s day so that i could match with my grandpa

-how many blankets i sleep with: generally like 2 or 3 but at this point they’re all crumpled up at the bottom of the bed anyway so mainly just the big comforter and a throw blanket over that if it’s really cold

-dream jobs: oh man uhh. i used to think i wanted to be like a genetics/evolutionary biology professor and do research on evolution or cancer or hiv/aids and teach at like ucsf or something. or like work for nasa as an astrobiologist, or maybe work as a vet for a zoo. but now i don’t think i wanna do that anymore? to be quite honest if i could be 100% guaranteed whatever job i wanted i think i’d want to be a showrunner for an animated show on cartoon network or adult swim, like not something just with storyboards or animation, but like actually involved in the writing of the show. i’d love to write for a tv show on cartoon network or something like the office or brooklyn 99 or even a story-based video game, or maybe like do something where i get to just joke around and be funny all the time like what the mcelroys or game grumps do but. i have No Idea how to go about doing that and honestly i think jobs like that just happen to people randomly so it’s not really like, a Secure Job Option To Pursue. but i really hope somehow i end up doing something like that. i just wanna do something where i can create something meaningful that i’m proud of and see people connecting with it and feeling happy and inspired and less alone because of it, and maybe liking it so much a fandom or something grows around it. i’d be so fucking happy if that happened. 

-dream trip: i really want to go to new york with my jewish grandparents and see where they grew up and all the places they lived so i can finally experience all the places i’ve heard so many stories about? same thing with my abuelitos like i wanna go to mexicali with them or mérida in the yucatán and just see where they came from and where all their stories happened and meet all the relatives that they left behind when they came to the united states. also i think going to like, denmark or england or germany would be really cool? my friend studied abroad in england this summer and her snapchat story was full of dogs and random cows and those are some good things. i would very much like to softly caress a gentle english cow they have beautiful eyes

-favourite food: kbbq? ? ?? Bitch I Love KBBQ. fuck now i want kbbq. also mangoes, and deli sandwiches from the deli by my temple, and jazz apples, and sugary coffee, and sweet corn tamales, and high mountain milk tea with taro qq but sharetea stopped selling taro qq and i’m still salty because of that. and raw lemons because i’m an inhuman monster. can you tell i’m hungry rip

-nationality: american (specifically born and raised californian even though i know that’s not really a nationality but i love california so much you guys im so glad it’s my home) edit: apparently people are puttin in their ethnicities too on this?? ? i’m half american jewish which is. basically white lmao and half mexican idk i look super white tho im so pale rip

i tag @two-chi @drugstore-soulboy @murdoctrinated @murdochub @ephemeralprince @funeralshawls @astronomutual @maccamc @loboluchia @helloitsbees @grimdarkmatt @gorillahz @hewlll and i know that’s more than 10 but this is my house also like. if i tagged u and we Don’t Actually Talk it’s because i see u on my dash a lot and we’re mutuals and i think you’re Super Cool But I Am Too Shy To Actually Talk To You But Yeah I Think You’re Really Cool 

tag gameu (ayyye)

Tagged by @gummicows <3 thanks boo (tbh I wish I could tag you back, I’d like to know your answers to my new questions lol)

questions:

1) What’s the weirdest nickname people have given you? Probably Satan/Hades cuz they are what they are lol but I didn’t mind; oh and also Care Bear which is just weird altogether 2) How did you get your url? Well all of my social media accounts have this username so I kinda just kept it, the extra n for ‘nikki’ and I love LoZ 3) What’s the weather like outside? Well it’s nighttime rn so it’s really cold and probably still sprinkling since it’s been raining like all day  4) Favorite band? Favorite album of theirs? I have several favorite bands but I’ll just stick with my top 2, Green Day and One Direction. For GD my favorite album has to be the first one of theirs I ever got, which was 21st Century Breakdown in like, 6th or 7th grade from one of my very good friends, I honestly think it’s their best album. For 1D, gosh idk I can’t pick a favorite since Made in the AM is really good but also I have a special connection with both Four and Midnight Memories; I guess I’d pick Midnight Memories cuz a lot of my favorite songs come from that album. 5) How did you meet your best friend? Which one lol I guess I’ll do all of them. So i’ve got three; the one I’ve had the longest is my friend who I met in the 9th grade, we met in JROTC if I’m not mistaken. My middle bestie, Becca, I met her in Spanish class my sophomore year (whoops can’t believe I can’t remember if it was 10th or 11th), we both were really shy and found ourselves only talking to each other because we sat next to each other and refused to move or socialize lmao. My most recent best friend I’ve also known since 10th but we didn’t get super close until we were juniors (hence why I said most recent), we met in a biology classroom cuz we would always hang out there after school waiting out the crowds and we didn’t have a lot of friends so we hung out with that teacher lol. 6) Do you have a calendar on the wall? What’s this months photo? I do have my own calendar and it’s full of baby animals :D this month’s happens to be a little elephant walking through a desert  7) Favorite fruit? Dang this is kinda hard, I like lots of em. I guess I’d have to say cantaloupe or watermelon tho, cuz tbh I could eat a whole one by myself in one sitting (which i’ve probably done before lmao) 8) Ever been to a national park (or equivalent in your country)? did you like it? I think I’ve been to a few actually, the Grand Canyon, Joshua Tree and I’ve passed through San Bernardino forest before. Of course I liked it, seeing so much area of pure nature that hasn’t been tampered with is breathtaking; especially the Grand Canyon, every distant view looked like a postcard, I couldn’t get over the unrealistic beauty that I saw before me. 9) Is your desk clean or a royal mess? Honestly it’s a huge mess but for me it isn’t a problem cuz I know where things are at, they just aren’t organized very cleanly   10) Do you like wearing hats? Yahh I have a few snapbacks and like a million and one beanies haha 11) Has any of the fandoms you have been in disgusted you? I’ve been on tumblr for too long that nothing has really disgusted me. Seriously.  12) If you wanted to change your url, what would it be? I can honestly say that I haven’t wanted to change my url but now that I think about it, I’d probably throw in a youtuber reference lmao   13) Do you have any hobbies? Well I dabble in the writings sometimes otherwise usually just YouTube, tumblr, and listening to music are my well known habits  14) How socially awkward are you (stories anyone ;D)? Very much so that I’m uncomfortable talking to other people unless I’ve been friends with them for awhile. I can’t think of a story off the top of my head but tbh I’m sure there are many a times I’ve been. Oh god ask me about the time I entered a cosplay contest as the Fnaf Marionette, it’s hilariously embarrassing 15) Do you have a musical preference? Not precisely considering my fav bands are Green Day and 1D lmao but I’d prefer not to listen to country   16) Are there any books that hold a special place in your heart? There is this adorable graphic novel called Smile by Raina Telgemier that I love so much cuz it’s about the author’s crazy journey from middle school to high school with dental drama, I like to relate to it since I’ve had braces, rubber bands, and even headgear lol I also can never get over The Fault in Our Stars, it’s one of my favorite books, and my favorite book series is The Wolves of Mercy Falls by Maggie Stiefvater, it has a brilliant concept  17) Any movies you’d recommend? Recently we watched this sorta indie fantasy movie called The Monster Calls and it has an interesting story with some cute animations (it isn’t animated tho). A more mainstream movie I’d recommend is Fantastic Beasts, it was, fantastic, sorry I had to lol and also Moana , it’s sooooooo amazing  18) What is a phrase you commonly use? ”Rip me” I also have the language of a pure Californian so I say ‘like’ almost a hundred times in one sentence and I call basically everybody ‘dude.’  19) What is the first thing you notice when you see someone? Usually their teeth. That’s weird, I know lol or sometimes their hair 20) Have you ever fainted or passed out before? I don’t think so. I thought I was gonna pass out after I ran the mile once but I ended up throwing up instead.

my 10 q’s:

1) What’s your favorite song? 2) If your walls are painted, what color are they? 3) Do you have any pets? What are they? Names? 4) Right or left handed?  5) Do you play video games? If so, what is your favorite one? 6) What is you current wallpaper (as in phone or computer)? 7) Do you have a daily ritual that is somewhat unusual? 8) What is the current time? 9) What’s your star sign and do you identify with it? 10) If you could have one of those deep conversations with anyone in the world, living or dead, who would it be?

So i’m gonna tag a few of my lovelies like @alphawolfspider @micahkors @myneighborkelsey @dxmn-lourry @sempiternalguess @ricegoddesshanayo and really anyone who wants to do it lol, hope you’ll be up to the challenge, really looking forward to the answers c: