#i'm just writing my bachelor's thesis and that takes a lot of my brain power
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Despite what it looks like, I am in fact ocasionally still writing, I just tend to word vomit about my current obsession and then never finish it.^^° So yeah, my last game that I finished was Fire Emblem Fates: Conquest and it made me go insane, so have a part of my 1k monologue that I wrote for a potential time travel fix it. It is only 5 sentences because 6 would have been awkward, but if I ever get to it again you'll get a lot more.
"They ordered me to kill you but I couldn't do it. I would have ruined everything because I looked at you and remembered cherry blossoms and warm nights. I remembered off key lullabies and larger hands than mine on my back. I couldn't do it. And I think when you looked at me you knew that."
Gonna tag @adraveins and @stylishanachronism if you have anything you'd like to share.^^
#thanks for tagging me!#i know I don't respond to a lot of tags these days but i promise i see and appreciate all of them#i'm just writing my bachelor's thesis and that takes a lot of my brain power#i am in fact currently procrastinating on that#anyway wanna guess what that scene is?#it's not hard for anyone who's played the game probably tbh most of that monologue right now is just recounting what happened#with a bit of personal perspective#that game is wild in how it fluctuates between legit punching me in the teeth with emotion and being absolute garbage#the idea of that potential fic is that the corrin of all paths is the same#kinda like how some 3h fics work#time travel back to the crux and try again#my excuse is magic dragon bullshit cause no one can stop me#i am ironically also somewhat itching to write an Odin and Camilla ship#cause i have opinions about that#might write a separate post for that some time if anyone's interested#would be another opportunity to procrastinate xD#anyway orime don't be confused about my follow message for some damn reason tumblr unfollowed me a while back and i didn't notice#tumblr shenanigans
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13 IX 2022
my euclidean geometry journey will be over soon and the start of the semester is so close, it's kinda scary
recently I stumbled upon someone's post with a time-lapse video of their study session. I liked it so much that I decided to make mine
this is me learning about the snake lemma and excision
the excision theorem is the hardest one in homology so far btw, I spent about 4 hours on it and I am barely halfway through. I like the idea of the proof tho, it's very intuitive actually: start simple and tangible, then complicate with each step lmao
I realized two things recently. one of them is that deeply studying theorems is important and effective. effective, uh? in what way? in exams we don't need to cite the whole proof, it suffices to say "the assertion follows from the X theorem"
yeah right, but my goal is to be a researcher, not a good test-taker, researchers create their own proofs and what's better than studying how others did it if I am for now unable to produce original content in math?
the second things is that I learned how to pay attention. I know, it sounds crazy, but I've been trying another ✨adhd medication✨ and after a while I realized that paying attention is exhausting, but this is the only way to really learn something new, not just repeat what I already know. it made me see how much energy and effort it takes to make good progress and that it is necessary to invest so much
I am slowly learning to control my attention, which brings a lot of hope, as I believed that I had to rely on random bouts of hyperfocus, before I started treatment. I am becoming more aware or how much I am focusing at the given moment and I'm trying to work on optimizing those levels. for instance, when I'm reading a chapter in a textbook for the first time, it is necessary to remember every single detail, but wanting to do so consumes a lot of energy, because it means paying constant attention. it is ineffective because most likely I will have to repeat the process a few more times before I truly retain everything. being able to actually pay attention at will sure does feel good tho, as if I had a new part of my brain unlocked
I am solving more exercises for algebraic topology, procrastinating my lecture prep lmao. I am supposed to talk about the power of a point and radical axes, I have a week left and I can't force myself to start, because there is so much good stuff to do instead
I have a dream to produce some original results in my bachelor's thesis. it may be very difficult, because I hardly know anything, that's why I'm calling it a dream, not a goal. the plan is to start writing at the end of the semester, submit sometime in june
I spent last week at the seminar on analysis and oh boi, I will have to think twice next time someone asks if I like analysis. the lecturer who taught me at uni had a different approach than the "classic" one. we did a little bit of differential geometry, Lie groups and de Rham cohomology, those are the things I like. meanwhile at the seminar it was mostly about analytic methods of PDEs, the most boring shit I have ever seen
complex analysis will most likely be enjoyable tho, I'm taking the course this semester
for the next few days I need to force myself to prep that damn geometry lecture. other than that I plan to keep solving the AT exercises and maybe learn some more commutative algebra. I wish everyone a pleasant almost-autumn day 🍁
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