i've brought this up before i'm sure, but byakuya being sooo self-involved during the ss arc and so myopically obsessed with rukia's execution and how it relates to him and makes him feel etc... that he just doesn't clock the massive government conspiracy going down opens such a juicy can of worms for characterization.

Goldie, for God's sake, answer me just this once. Please, like I told you before, I'm not a shipper and i have a reason why but i can't descussion it here. I'm just Jimin Stan.And all I care about is the comfort of this boy who took my mind called Park Jimin. Just a question if Jikook is real. Why do I feel that Jimin is always unhappy? He complains about loneliness and not getting and making friends. Does one live in illusion only and imagines that he is happy while he is always insinuating and complaining about loneliness and gloom? Don't you understand his feelings through his album? Is it logical that this side appears when you are happy with the one you love, or does the one you love not treat you well?Please, I don't want to accuse anyone, but it seems that Jimin has changed a lot since before He became shrunken in himself and shy too much. Where is the bold and flirtatious Jimin? Something must have happened to him. Something last. Did you read the Weverse magazine article about him because it made me cry so much?

Sigh

Ever heard the saying the higher you go the lonelier you become? Dude literally released an album that addresses his struggles with fame and being in the spotlight- as big as Jungkook's dick is and as sharp as his thrusts are- big dick don't cure everything so let's not lay it on him okay?

I don't know if he's become shrunken in himself and shy when Jungkook has been saying for years Jimin is the most shy member of bts he knows. He is extroverted sure but he's quiet demure and graceful elegant and pretty too. Don't confuse is public persona for his actual persona. He's used to performing his extroversion and playing up his daring character for TV.

Jimin the artist is not the same as Park Jimin the brother, son, friend and human others know and that's what he's been saying for years. So if you ask what happened to the old Jimin I'd say FUCK IT HE'S FINALLY FREE BOTTOMS UP

Like he said, raise a glass to the old him- emphasizes on old. He keeps trying to break loose from old habits and behaviors that hold him back and don't serve him. I'd wager one of such habits was keeping up with his public imagine of constantly being a spectacle.

His duality is part of who he is. We should give him room to express and explore himself without attaching vehemently to our single lensed view of him. There's nothing wrong with him.

But I understand your concern. I used to be like this too. for years he had said bulking up and building his body wasn't his thing. I nearly- well who am I kidding, I had an actual melt down when he started working out and building his body again because I thought he was being coerced into doing it again- turns out he just wanted to look ripped in jeans🥴

Dude was tryna get laid and I was out here cussing hybe out for oppressing him💀

I don't know if he's always unhappy when he's only opening up about his struggles which I think is a good thing for him and his fans. For me it helps me understand him more, empathize with him more and grow more closer to him.

Jimin is not the melancholic type.

The shit he deals with is real. I've heard many western artists complain of similar struggles and some of them are happily married with kids. Relationships are not a magic cure for loneliness especially if the feeling of loneliness IS NOT STEMMING FROM LACK OF HUMAN CONNECTION.

Do you actually thing Park jimin is lonely because he lacks intimacy and human connection? Loneliness is a complex issue and many things can lead to a person feeling this way. For me, I think he's inability to be who he really is was his biggest emotional trigger. He lives in a conformist society surrounded by people who constantly expect maturity and discipline from him, with a fan base that will desert him and unstan him if he says the wrong thing, dates the wrong person or make the move. There's no room for mistakes and that can be pretty dehumanizing.

Social expectations can alienate people and I'm afraid jimin is no exception. And in case you aren't aware, life sucks and hits every body including Jimin.

I don't appreciate you demanding my attention in this way. It makes me feel I have to rush my response so if this feels rushed it's on you🙃

Tadaima, Okaeri Ep 4

Now that I'm fully caught up, I might start doing a weekly thing for this show because I am really enjoying it. This week I thought was really cute, but also very well-balanced in touching on Masaki's struggles. So much of the story is about Masaki, their past, their experiences, particularly as an omega in this world. And I was honestly kind of surprised at how surprisingly deep things got this episode.

Omegaverse has been regarded pretty often as a way to perpetuate heterosexual relationship stereotypes in a homosexual romance, and I kind of agree with that take. It's why if I ever partake in omegaverse stories, I don't care for the tropes of having omegas be extraordinarily feminized. I generally skew more towards reading stories where the omega is just as "masculine" as the alphas, and generally in those stories as well you'll see the alphas being very emotionally competent...if that makes sense. The way Tadaima, Okaeri has chosen to present their universe sets omegas as an 'inferior' race, and so in many ways it feels like Masaki's struggles more directly reflect racism and the struggles of an interracial couple, versus struggling against homophobia.

I can't personally tell if this is intentional, I don't have much information about the creators of the manga or the anime. I would hazard a guess that it is not, but I can't know for sure.

But where this all stems from is a scene early on in the episode where Masaki is still pregnant and Hikari is talking about the baby, and there's a conversation about how Hikari seemed to know about the pregnancy before anyone. Masaki contemplates if Hikari being so aware could mean that he might be able to tell if the baby is an alpha or omega even in the womb. Now they don't give a full biological rundown on how that works genetically. I always kind of processed being alpha or omega as something more like a secondary sex characteristic, or something that would present in puberty, but not be obvious at birth. In this universe it seems to be something almost like a recessive trait, or a gene that someone might carry, but would only be present/possible if both parents carry the gene. Because it seems like Masaki is an omega born to alpha parents based on the flashbacks we've seen.

But back to my point, Masaki in the moment wondering if Hikari could tell if the baby is an omega or not puts them in a place where they consider terminating the pregnancy, because he knows the struggles of being an omega in the world at large, but especially in the family that he has married into. While Hiromu's father seems to have had a change of heart, and is determined to reconnect with his son and his grandchildren, if that means that they will eventually have a more regular place in Papa Fujiyoshi's world, that increases chances of more direct bigotry. While Masaki has very much come into their own, very few people would choose to regularly have to deal with that type of behavior, and no good parent would want to subject their child to it.

But to why this particularly makes me think more of the struggles of an interracial relationship and mixed race family is because as an American, one of the things that is fairly widely known is that it is very common for African American people to have some percentage of white ancestry dating back generations prior to the legalization of interracial marriage. This is, as one could guess, not the result of starcrossed lovers, but the result of the subjugation and abuse suffered by black women during the time of legalized chattel slavery, as well as the immediate aftermath of the Civil War and emancipation. The presence of European based genetics in a portion of the African American population would occasionally lead to some African American people looking very 'white'. Due to the overt and horrific racism of the time, it was not uncommon then for 'white-passing' African Americans to separate themselves from their families, and basically pretend to be white to escape basically daily racism. (And who could blame them.) Colorism in the Black and Afro-Latino communities, and the prevalence of increased discrimination towards darker complected member of that community both from inside and outside of it, often leads to parents hoping their child will 'take after' a lighter complected parent, or even grandparent, as it will likely indicate a life of less discrimination.

That's kind of what Masaki's story feels like to me. It feels like Masaki is from a 'white' family (I know obviously all of the characters in the show are both ethnically and culturally Japanese), that perhaps had an ancestor who was not, and that those genes showed up as prominent in Masaki, leading for him to be discriminated against in his childhood and life overall. Now, as an adult and in his relationship with Hiromu, they present as essentially an interracial couple, with Hikari 'favoring his father' and appearing 'white'. This is further supported by the intentional character design of Hikari, to have dark hair like his father, the small mole by his mouth (something that generally would not be a genetic trait).

I honestly can't tell if I'm overthinking this, but I just feel like the parallels are so consistent. {Also, I know the gifs aren't really a perfect representation of my concept, but I suspect I am one of few who is more interested in the existential struggles of Masaki, then just allowing the show to be sweet, fun fluff.}

I'm actually really angry about this ngl:

This is why I don't believe fandom advocacy (i.e. arguing on behalf of a fictional character) necessarily equates to an actual conscious understanding of the topics at hand. Soft-blocking my blog and then making a follow-up in your own space discussing whatever problems you had in my post is one thing. I can respect that.

Reblogging my content and then immediately blocking me so that I can't see it -keeping my content on your blog (while misinterpreting everything I said) and enabling the rampant anon hate to funnel into my blog is an entirely different matter. And now I can't see anything, or even understand the arguments being thrown my way. That is incredibly disgusting fandom behavior - more so considering that I was speaking to a specific crowd that makes those arguments. And EVEN MORE, because my post was NOT an admonishment of the Darkling.

I made multiple points about oppression within oppression - I gave multiple examples of the ways it works with the dynamic between revolutionary characters and their relationships with people within the race/group (specifically women of color v. men of color; revolutionary v minor). I came from a primarily misogynoir angle - as I am a black woman. But the points were central and could be applied to any in a similar situation. And for the REAL WORLD IMPLICATION of my point to be ignored in favor of the fantasy element of the story is very heartbreaking and annoying. And very, very frustrating.

How are only implying real-world morals when we need to justify or sympathize with him? Like - I've seen so many comparisions to racism with Darkling and then none of the actual real world implication of what that may look like in a character. Like - think about Hoteps who oppose white supremacy only because they cannot participate. Racism is an ideology. Think of white feminism and how its opposition to patriarchy stems from the fact they cannot participate. Think of the way DV and abuse happens in minority homes as a result of racism. I really implore people to read Notes of a Native Son by James Baldwin. It talks about the inheritance of plight and how these manifest negatively in the household and creates trauma. And how we can reconcile (if ever) the anger and oppression with our own personhood.

I gave the reason I didn't like the *specific angle* of constantly sanitizing the Darkling's action in regards to two things (1) the other Grisha and (2) the comparison to real world racism. I believe the argument can be made, but not sustained. Because the world building is not strong enough to support it. I said this AGAIN specifically because I said that the Darkling's actions tend to be dismissed in regards to other Grisha. And it was why I made allusions to characters like Magneto and Kilmonger. I don't give a shit was anti darkling arguments are - I didn't make those claims.

There are problems with the Darkling situation - yes. That was my point. With both the character and writing. But my problem with fantasy racism is that the real world implications only become relevant when discussing a character and then everything (1) in opposition to the character and (2) outside the *acceptable* real world implications is just..ignored. I made a whole post talking about the way oppressed revolutionary men oftentimes parrot or assume oppressive ideologies toward those beneath them (i.e. women of color and minors) and allllllll of that was ignored for the sake of an argument I DID NOT MAKE about the Darkling.

That is the tragedy of his character - and it is in some parts well written and other parts not. That is the point.

You can't escape it.

The behavior I will call "human reaction to circumstance", is everywhere. It cultivates the way you think, respond to situations, evaluate them, etc, and the same for those around you. Of course everyone is different, and has been brought up and impacted differently by their surroundings.

What I find intriguing is an individual's response to a certain situation. Let's look at a few examples.

Joe is a teenage boy, just about to start his senior year of private highschool. Joe is well liked by his teachers, and earns good grades. He is also an athlete on the school baseball team. During the final game of the season, Joe strikes out, leading his team to a crushing loss, or so he views it. Joe's Coach tells him not to be bothered by it, he can try harder next year. However, the teenager beats himself up about it, saying he should have done better, he shouldn't have missed the pitch, and that it's all his fault, despite there being several strikes during the game.

Tyler is an older man searching for work. He's single, with only a widowed mother to take care of. Tyler has sent in multiple applications to many firms of varying fields. He believes he can master any field if someone just gives him a chance. When a few of his forms are rejected, he picks himself up and tries again.

Ann is a working mother of three, and has been married for ten years. She is very lenient with running her household, which leads to messes around the house, and her children leaving work undone. She makes several attempts to train them how to be responsible with the help of her husband, but the children always revert to their bad habits, leading to arguments and punishment.

I apologize if these examples are unrelatable or bland.

After reading the scenarios, ask questions. What led Joe to react to the team's loss the way he did?

Why did Tyler respond the way he did after getting rejected?

Why is Ann blatantly hypocritical?

"Human reaction to circumstance" defines how and why these people reacted the way they did. The University of New Hampshire provides a means of understanding this phenomenon with a simple acronym.

A - Activating event (usually imprinted in the memory): what happened in either of the subjects past that may have influenced their interaction with the people and circumstances around them?

It's possible Joe's parents have very high expectations of their son, and have strict boundaries on what is success and what is failure. Living under such conditions would either put Joe under constant stress, or desensitize him from their demanding mindset.

It is possible that Tyler was taught at a young age, either by more experience, or his parents that life won't always work out, and that he must keep trying, even when everything seems to be going wrong.

It is also possible Ann's parents never paid attention to their daughter's uncaring attitude when it came to cleanliness, and she, as a result, unknowingly passed it on to her children. Since her parents never saw a problem with her messes, she doesn't realize she's the reason her children are messy the way they are.

B - Belief: religion often has a part in how devoted a person is to success, or traditional values, such as persevering and cleanliness (or lack thereof.)

C - Consequences: How the figures presented deal with their situations based on what they've gone through in the past, and the events, good or bad, that follow as a result.

It all stems down to the mind. The mind is easily moldable, especially during vulnerable periods of our lives. Combined with your personality (influenced by experience to a degree) this creates this psychological reaction.

Thank you for reading, if you have any questions, don't hesitate to ask, I'll do my best to answer.

Please don't quote me, I'm not a trained Psychologist.

UNH PACS. “What Triggers Your Emotional and Behavioral Reactions?” Psychological & Counseling Services, 15 Feb. 2023, www.unh.edu/pacs/what-triggers-your-emotional-behavioral-reactions.

How about a scenario with Shouto Todoroki where S/O confesses to him, he rejects her confession and only later on becomes obsessed with her, but now she has moved on

So... I went a little overboard— but anyways. This is my first time writing out for Shouto, so I hope I did him justice!

Warning(s): Slight Obsessive and Possessive Behavior, Hints of Delusional Thoughts/Beliefs (Todoroki just... Doesn't have a good grasp on things like love so it's very skewed, the perception of love), Hints of Stalking (he likes to watch you a lot)

The reason behind his rejection would probably stem from his focus on being a hero. Todoroki was never good at making personal connections with anyone due to his upbringing and it had left him to basically show disinterest in spending time with potential companions/friends. When you had initially confessed to him, there was a high belief on his part that you only did so because he was the son of Endeavor or that you wanted to gain something out of dating him. Deep down it pissed him off, but didn't want to show you that. It was better to keep a calm composure, even if that was or was not the reason.

I can see him being slightly harsh (well, just blunt) in rejecting you, stating that he has more important things to concentrate on than futile stuff like relationships. No matter how he could have worded it, you'll be hurt nonetheless but at least not devastated. Maybe he didn't understand at the time that deep down he believed that he was unlovable; he just couldn't translate that feeling into something he could read into. All he took it as was him simply never harboring feelings for you.

Todoroki actually gets obsessed with you when he truly gets to know your personality and what made you unique. He wasn't a close friend to you, just a man who you'd have brief conversations with even after your rejection. He had seen you avoid him for a bit after that, but noticed you bounced right back up. Though, you just never took initiative to befriend him.

Everything about you, stood out to him, in the best way possible. There were moments where he'd stare at you for prolonged periods of time, along with the small attempts in longer conversations. However, he would just always be somewhere in the background; just a presence you would feel.

Todoroki wanted to understand what he felt for you. Is this really how love for another felt like? Do crushes make you want to protect you? Do they make you have the feeling of dread and possible animosity towards those who took so much of your time when he wanted to do so as well? He'd do so much for you, it was insane to him.

... Maybe he did gain affections for you, but it was nothing he saw as dangerous or unhealthy. How could he, when something like that was shared so much, know what love is when it was twisted or even nonexistent. Love to him was only the fragments of such with lots of other, more intense emotions. You were something he always wanted in life and he couldn't believe he did not see so sooner. So this was it.

"I have heard that being honest is always best when it came to these situations, which I'm not against. I've grown affections for you which is ironic in a sense. Apologies for my behavior earlier on but... I'd like to try this out; being in a relationship with you. I just want to rewrite my mistakes."

Ah, how the tables have turned. The reaction he presents to you upon rejection is bewilderment, albeit it being toned down severely. He just... Couldn't understand. Didn't you also like him?

Moved on? Moved on from him? But... How could you? You loved him, so that shouldn't be something you can just brush off from, right? Love was that thing you can't turn back from as he'd heard. Are you... Trying to make him feel sorry? If so, then he'll apologize as much as you'd want until you forgave him. He didn't know he was that bad... No? Then what was it?

Todoroki in short would have a difficult time understanding why you'd reject him purely because you lost feelings for him. It was upsetting and seemed like you ripped his heart out to only stomp all over it. He deemed it as a petty attempt to hurt him for what he's done, but you insist on that not being the case. There was no way he could let you go like this. If you loved him before, you can love him even now. He'll make sure of it. Todoroki just doesn't want to lose a person like you, who he knows would make him so happy in life. You're so perfect in every way and now, he was done standing on the sidelines watching.

He will have you one way or another.

this would never happen but after watching the wen ning movie and reading the asks you got about lsz stabbing jc (🙏✨) I had the idea that it'd be really cool to read about lsz possibly trying to rebuild the dafan wen sect, not wanting to lose his ancestors' practices and preserving their legacy. I think this could only rlly happen after some epic cultivation world drama where wwx gets to go a little crazy protecting lsz and wn (and wq 👀 if it's au...why can't she be there) and lwj strongarms the rest of the world into giving reparations and whatnot but I do like the idea of lsz embracing his wen heritage and also dressing in the wen colors red and black to match wwx, wq and wn! if jc could rebuild the jiang from almost nothing why can't wen yuan? I love that lsz is lwj's son and I don't mind him being a sweet polite lan disciple but I think a lot of his behavior stems from wanting to emulate lwj and be a model lan but now that wwx is back and he knows that lwj is less lannish than one might think, he could start wanting to embrace that side of himself. let lsz say fuck 2k21

i'm a covert lan sect stan account so i do love lil lan boy sizhui but i also think his polite lan behaviours are a side effect of the writers refusing to develop him beyond "ideal son" so... honestly getting a-yuan out of gusu might be a win for me lol. a-yuan and wen ning creating a new sect from the ashes of the dafan wen is a really good concept with a lot of opportunity for a-yuan to grow and for wen ning to heal! especially if wen qing is alive and they're able to return the wen sect to its roots of kindness and medical knowledge like g-d yes

i like the idea of lan wangji's rebel tendencies encouraging a-yuan to be more accepting of the wen part of himself & while i agree it's going to be difficult to create a situation where he chooses to leave the lans, it'd be fun to watch the sects fly into another panic about the wen sect rising again only for his excellency chief cultivator hanguang-jun to pull an uno reverse card and point out they all owe these people reparations. i can just picture wei wuxian smirking over lan wangji's shoulder like heh heh how have the turntables >:)

Ok I need you opinion on this, In Final Battle Sozin Comet book, I read through Azula's PoV when she rejected Ozai's decision. She deeply regretted the second these words left her mouth, and said lines like "I never raised my voice to my father before. Never." and "I'm shaking." and "Oh no.. What will he do to me now?". I mean she literally feared physical harm, but also was combinated with fear of rejection and abandonment. It's so fucked up. What does she feel this way toward him?

Why does she feel this way, you mean? Well, I think it’s not that hard to guess what’s going on behind the scenes.

Azula was there, watching and rejoicing as Ozai burned Zuko during the Agni Kai. She knew Zuko was being hurt, but she wasn’t appalled by it. Both because of how Ozai groomed her, and because of her building resentment towards her brother, she saw him being hurt and thought he deserved it. 

All her life, Azula has been competing with her brother and had her father’s support in everything. This is something Zuko coveted, and it’s something Azula always took pride in having for herself.

When things get complicated, though, Azula tells Ozai that he can’t treat her like that: he can’t treat her like Zuko. This is when Ozai tells her to shut up, and that sequence you’re asking about happens.

Why would Azula be this terrified of what Ozai might do to her? Because she’s afraid of the worst case scenario. It may not be conscious on her part, but Azula knows what Ozai can do to the child who disappoints him, the child who fails him. And she doesn’t want to be that child, so she tries to stand up to him to demand the respect she believes she deserves. She achieves the entire opposite effect: Ozai tells her to shut up.

Her fears then seem to come true because Ozai would have never said those words to her before. She isn’t used to this, but she thinks she’s condemned herself to becoming the same thing Zuko is in their father’s eyes. He doesn’t trust her anymore, he doesn’t respect her anymore, he wants her to be quiet. As I said, she knows what he could do to Zuko. Her fear of being hurt by him, in my opinion, comes from that awareness.

I know there’s a lot of people who are convinced that Azula was physically abused by Ozai too. Personally, I don’t subscribe to that theory at all. I don’t believe Ozai ever abused Azula physically because he had a pretty great excuse to do that when Zuko revealed she had lied to him about Aang, and yet it seems he didn’t do anything to her. At the start of Boiling Rock, Azula is her usual self, no noticeable changes in her personality and behavior until the betrayal. If Ozai had given her the beating of a lifetime for having lied to him about the Avatar, she wouldn’t have been as calm and collected as she was before the betrayal. The markings of her breakdown would have started to show already.

There’s also that Ozai is shown using Azula to impress Azulon in the Zuko Alone flashback. He’s very satisfied with everything his daughter does, and he ushers her to show off her knowledge and firebending prowess. All along he smiles, and seems to be pleased to show his father what a capable girl he’s raised… and then Zuko steps in and Ozai’s smile disappears. The difference in treatment is blatant, it’s obvious, it’s there. 

We saw he burned Zuko on ONE opportunity. Zuko never says that his father hurt him many times, he only talks about the Agni Kai. Ozai’s abuse towards Zuko was layered and multifaceted, but it only got physical ONE TIME. The rest of it was emotional, psychological. You can think that’s the worst kind of abuse, maybe, and it certainly can be very harmful, but I don’t believe Ozai resorted to burning Azula to teach her lessons when he wouldn’t even burn Zuko regularly, even though he despised his son as much as we know he did.

Another thing that I don’t think anyone takes into account other than myself, but… Ozai’s actually slightly attached to Azula, I believe. Not in an actual loving way, no, but I think it’s because Ozai’s father treated him the same way Ozai treats Zuko. I believe Ozai might have decided to groom Azula into the perfect heir while being his second child because that’s what he wished his father had done with him. He especially sees Azula’s talent in firebending, and he sees her academic and leadership aptitudes from early on too. He thinks that she’s everything he COULD HAVE BEEN, if Azulon had given him a chance.

… Not true, though, because Ozai actually resembles Zuko, but the guy doesn’t have the most sound judgment ever.

So he projected on Azula, and he made efforts for her that he never made for Zuko. He gave her opportunities to actually fulfill important military missions, gave her a huge barge for her exclusive use, airships, left the defense of the city in her hands for Day of Black Sun… did you know Ozai never served as a military officer in any capacity, yet Iroh did? Do you think it’s chance that he provides Azula these military opportunities and resources while giving Zuko nothing comparable? I’m pretty sure it’s not. I’m really convinced he did it because he projected on her and wanted her to be successful from a young age as he would have wanted to be, despite she is clearly more similar to Iroh while Ozai is similar to Zuko.

He entrusts Azula with the mission of catching Zuko and Iroh, even though he could have sent other people, multiple squads, whatever he pleased. But he trusts Azula can do it, and in the end, his trust pays off because not only she delivers those two but she also delivers Ba Sing Se on a silver platter. He knows he can trust her… up until she lets him down. But even then, he doesn’t really raise a hand against her. He just doesn’t trust her anymore. His attitude and behavior are more akin to indifference than to actual displeasure towards her.

Only, Azula doesn’t know this. She has no idea if her father knows any limits, and she knows his approval can be withdrawn as quickly as it was given. She doesn’t know what’s going on inside Ozai’s mind, and she’s already falling apart: thus her fears are heightened, worsened, to the point where she thinks he might hurt her because he hurt Zuko for speaking out of turn before.

Further evidence is also that Azula’s body has no signs of burns, in a show that has even pulled off some crazy stuff like:

See that mark on Aang’s foot? It’s SO EASY to miss it, and yet it’s there. Where did that scar come from?

That’s right. Part of the damage Aang takes in Book 2‘s finale is still evident by the next season’s finale. The scar on his back is always there as well, goes without saying. Zuko’s scar is also never hidden, so scars, in this show, don’t fade away just like that.

If Azula had ever been harmed by Ozai, not only would her behavior likely be different (she might be a lot more insecure, less confident than she seems to be, kind of more similar to Zuko in that way, and she would have been WAY too scared to lie to Ozai about Aang’s alleged death), but she would have been shown with burn marks because unless Ozai only burned her lightly (which isn’t all that likely, since in these headcanons he’s supposed to have been even more abusive to Azula physically than he was to Zuko), the burn marks would show in episodes like The Beach:

She shows more skin here than at any other point in the show. If Ozai burned her anywhere, it would’ve shown here. It doesn’t.

So I don’t think Azula’s reaction comes from some sort of conditioned behavior, if that’s what you might have thought. I think it all stems from knowing that she could lose her standing, become an eyesore, a problem to get rid of, the same way Zuko was. For further context, Ozai is the last person she has left in her life. The only one she assumed would never leave her, who would always validate, encourage and approve of her worst impulses. And then even he discards her, which destroys her inside in every possible way. She’s already falling apart, and Ozai’s rage isn’t something she ever expected could be turned against her.