Therapy williams for the soul

bunch of doodles from today ^v^ first pic is from yesterday..!!

AND HGDUO/GOSSIPDUO/QMOCKINGJAYS YOU WILL ALWAYS BE FAMOUS!!!

girl blink if you need help

the naruto vs neji fight makes me laugh because:

naruto frames his win as a victory for "hard work" (as opposed to inborn talent) even though the only reason he turned the battle in his favour was due to his innate potent chakra reserves. neji may be a genius, but he also learned and mastered the hyuuga main house techniques through his own labour. neji is a closer representation of hard work than naruto will ever be (especially when it comes to this fight).

naruto goes "haven't you considered HINATA is suffering too" after hearing about how neji's dad died for the main house

realized how fucked up it was that neji refers to hinata with the suffix "sama." the only others who receive that level of deference are the kages and the sannin.

naruto seems more outraged at neji for reacting negatively to what’s been done to him and his father than hiashi or the hyuuga clan in general (because he, too, is an orphan boy and he alone gets to dictate how every other orphan in the series behaves, apparently)

naruto immediately shelves the issue of the hyuuga clan to be revised after he rises to the position of hokage.

naruto says to neji "you can change your destiny." myself and presumably all audience members assumed that meant neji would not die for a main house member exactly like his dad did.

and watching this fight for the first time i thought "great we'll get development on all these fronts for naruto and neji and the hyuuga plotline later on" and isn't that just hilarious

okay poll question but first clarification -> by bio i mean specifically the text under the pfp like the description. & by "bio link" i mean like carrds or rentrys or txtis or about pages on their blog (like url.tumblr.com/about)

man idk what’s going on but i keep getting really intense anxiety at 2am, followed by insomnia

i’ve been triggered as all hell the last couple of days so i can only assume it’s that, but it’s like,,, cutting through my chest so viscerally it’s difficult to breathe???

the overthinking is eating me alive, my abandonment issues just abt have me pinned by the throat, i’m hypervigilant and i want to completely shut down and run away. over things that rly aren’t that big of a deal???

ig that’s the thing w trauma. i’m violently oscillating between “i am being ridiculous this is so insecure and small and stupid” vs. “no i’m right, something terrible is going to happen and i need to run”

its rly rly awful. i wish i wasnt like this. i wish therapy was making a difference for this quicker. i feel like such a burden;;;

venting in tags about gender n shit (long as hell) (u can comment and talk 2 me as always :3)

posted this on twitter but i wanted to make people here suffer too /j

sometimes i wonder whether i havent been making gifs just cause im busy or if im using that as an excuse to myself bc i might still be subconsciously fucked up abt the whole “being seen as a gif machine instead of as a person” thing from when i had my whole breakdown during ao

oh me,,,, im just thinking about how the sheep started out as a mutual aid group (breaks down sobbing because they were all trying to support eachother when the outside world turned their back on them)

Rewatching South Park and god I can never get over how ready to cause fucking problems early Kyle is. Completely evil little bastard. Being of chaos. Cheery little hell spawn. Yah he was a little shit but he used to be a happy little shit. I miss him

.

its so late but im like. ive been thinking for Three Days Straight about how much i love mileena lmao like okay. okay. she's a fucking construct basically made to be kitana's 'better' replacement & Made To Order to suit her father's purposes, except she's kinda put in this weird position where despite being told she's the rightful heir etc etc, she's also constantly reminded of the fact that she's not the original, that she's a clone at Best. & her tarkatan side is so very off-putting to people around her, she's feared and that gains her some respect but also she's never actually been loved, so there's something she's missing out on and i think honestly on a very deep subconscious level, that's exactly the type of connection she's craving. i don't even know if she would organically want to be khan, or if she just had it drilled into her that it was 1. the only path for her to take and 2. the only way she would ever find any sort of acceptance from anyone, even it was was forced.

i think there's a part of her that really does want a real connection with her sister but because she has no real way of knowing how to build that (not like kitana is interested in the first place lmao) it just manifests in hostility. idk maybe it's just projecting but i read a lot of her lashing out & anger as a cover for a deeper hurt & feeling of isolation. it's very clear that no one is really accepting her for Her nor are they interested in doing so, and i have to believe it's affected her emotional development. i could also just be reading too much into her teddy bear tea party, but there was something i found to be really just... sad almost? about the jade and kitana bears. like yes it's silly or whatever but c'mon. i think it's very much implied that there's some jealousy towards their friendship, and i think that there was a time she would have loved to be included in it but just couldn't break in. i maintain she doesn't actually hate kitana & what we see is a mixture of shao khan's influence + repeated rejection.

i'm not saying that love can 'fix' her or whatever, but i think a genuine friend who was in her corner and just wanted to be around her without fear-based coercion would make a huge impact in her life.

sometimes i get rly sad abt friends i fell out of contact with but then i remember like. Man i was going through some rly bad shit and in the cases i did try to reach out to no response like. that’s not my fault. i can’t put that on me. we all have our own lives and things change and people drift apart and that’s not on any one person