Romantic kind of love isnt bad in my eyes (ive had crushes duh) that i avoid it sm, its just that growing up im bombarded w it. Adult topics seep into children convos and consequently try to emulate it. Then when i show avulsion to it, other children would think im weird or just plainly a bitter loser for having no one like me or sumth. I remember my classmates in elementary school singing along to whatever popular love song is at the time with such longing in them id just know who they have in mind, then i remember thinking to myself "surely this isnt what life is all about". Its been a decade and years more later and its still the same scenario, just with different faces from my college friends and classmates. Still, im hoping this isnt what life is all about.