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harvestmoth · 5 months

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more rejuv things but its. its just this guy again, im sorry shes all i can draw

#everyday im like i wanna draw :] and then i just end up with this thing on the page #i refuse to draw hands holding. because i cannot and im too lazy to figure it out #oh yea a couple of these i havent posted before because theyre lame to me but ill put them here for now #anyways!!#i was gonna say something about a couple of these but i forgot #oh well #pokemon rejuvenation #does she. lose her ribbon in blacksteeple. i forgot #she still has it to me..#to me her c15 hair tie is a torn part of the ribbon #anyways again. yesterday i finally figured out what the rejuvrp is. very cool stuff im so incredibly intrigued by it #i have no idea whats going on! but it looks so cool ill try to read it more later.#oh right again about the rejuvrp thing. the character designs ive seen are so so so cool i want to draw them so bad #i think i have to ask about that first though and there is! no way i am going to do that!!! i do not want to bother them #and i think my heart would explode from the fear of it all before i even typed the message.#that and im very lazy! theres a very good chance i wouldnt even draw it in the first place #anyways unrelated but i think if i get another comment from someone on something i Will Actually Explode.#i see someone said something and it kills me on the daily. what is happening... thank you.. i appreciate it very much...#sorry to whoever read all of that. um. hi youre really cool and i hope you have a good day/night #i think being on twitter has done something to me i have to leave it immediately. anyways back to twitter #wait actually i should go back to playing rejuv. im still in the grove from when i first posted the gym leader melia au. im afraid to leave #also play pokemon rejuvenation no i will not stop saying that everytime i post one of these

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obstinatecondolement · 4 months

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Just something about the middle of the fucking night that has me perseverating about how I could explain to my former boss that she shouldn't have allowed me to be bullied relentlessly at work and done nothing and then also penalised me for things I never did and gave me "feedback" in performance reviews that was just insulting my social skills and calling me annoying and a show off, lol.

#like for real I have to knock this shit off #it happened: move on #I'm obviously never going to bother this woman in her place of work to try and make her feel bad for being a bad boss to me #and why am I so fixated on telling *her* that she failed me #and not the woman who bullied me so badly that I wanted to cry every time we worked together #who seemingly treated me like this for no other reason than because there were no consequences for doing it *to me*#because I was the lowest rung of the hierarchy and she knew I didn't feel safe reporting her #(also anyone who is reading this: please do not give me advice or tell me I am obliged to make sure that people see consequences for this #I'm so tired and so defeated by this and it is not *my* job to stop them from being bullies and bad managers)

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silenthillbunni · 3 months

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#just a little diary dump:#i've contacted my school therapist again. asked for help regarding anxiety abt schoolwork since i dont get any other treatment #she said she can help me go thru if there are other options since neither psychiatric nor healthcare center will help me #+ she said that she and i can talk abt my anxiety regarding school etc. so in two weeks i'll see her #school starts next week. 4days a week rip... lol thats much for me. a bum. a cellar dweller. i've decided that im gnna go to all my classes #and always work while im there since its harder for me to do it at home. and i will also talk more w my teacher nd ask them for help #then im looking into an online therapy service. it miiight be possible for me to do that. but then i have to contact them and focus on only #1 or 2 issues. in my experience it just doesnt work to go to them and be like everythings bad :(( they wont help u then. i have to narrow it #down for them. nd i'll think i will talk 2 them abt my extreme feelings of loneliness and also my procrastination behavior #but yeah i have no idea if it's possibly bc idk if i can get financial aid for that service. im still in contact w the healthcare center so #i hope she will come to some sort of conclusion nd not just leave my high nd dry (she sent another referral to the persobality disorder -#clinic. even if they rejected the first one. so i'll see)#hmmm yeah. the situation w my sisters is sooooo rough. i hate it. they make me feel so so bad #and the housing situation is roughhhh. it's impossible to get an apartment lol.#so i need to find a way to shut it off and try to not let it bother me #just focus on finishing upper secondary school. nd i've been thinking abt taking out a loan for it and take german/french/spanish classes #instead of doing what im doing now when im actually poor and stressed bc they can choose to cut me off anytime #im meeting my highschool friend on tuesday. she asked if i wanted to hang out for a bit c:#im a bit anxious but like yeah.. it's nice to get out and talk to someone besides my family. which is just my mom lol #i messaged my other old highschool classmate on insta and said i saw her in my neighborhood #she replied but i had lowkeyyy hoped for more... like maybe being able to befriend her T-T but she didnt seem so interested in talking to me #which is ok ofc. it just made me a bit sad bc idk how to make friends and i thought she was rlly nice. but oh well #im rlly sad atm. maybe heartbreak prob. even more sad bc it was my stupid fault but yeah #im still grateful for all that it gave me. nd how i got to experience feelings of warmth nd love nd appreciation i didnt know i could feel #so even if im just contantly heavily sad bc i keep being like oh. i wanna ask this. say that. wonder what theyre up to. etc etc. i just have #to... be sad and just keep going forward #hope and try to not fuck everything else up. even if it feels like... what do all the other things matter when what i rlly rlly wanted got #ruined..... thats life tho. i know. im just so bad at handling life :((#i feel so broken and confused and i hate that i didnt get to be normal and healthy #im so illequipped at dealing w myself nd my emotions nd there seems to be no professional help for me

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a-walking-fandom-reference · 7 months

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it can be really frustrating being a chronically ill person and living with an ableist non-chronically ill person when they have an injury or are sick because it’s hard to have sympathy and in turn compassion for them when they never seem to have the same for you

#is this word does this make sense #basically my mom’s leg has been bothering her this week and my dad has the flu or something idk #and it’s just like they see me and my sister as lazy because we are disabled but as soon as they have an issue we need to be there to help #them even though they don’t want to help us because if your in pain all the time shouldn’t you be used to it by now and you don’t #complain about it constantly so it can’t be that bad just deal with it #(even though i was taught early on to not voice my pain because it was annoying to my parents)#like for some reason they kinda still think it’s a choice but when they are ill it’s way worse because they didn’t choose this #idk it’s just FRUSTRATING #and my mom like doesn’t ask for help she just loudly complains and then is like why aren’t you helping me LIKE JUST ASK OMG #rey actually speaks

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princekirijo · 11 months

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I don't even think ATLUS realizes that the Female Protagonist is popular and if they do they don't know WHY

You get to have social links with the male party members and Ryoji (Junpei's social link is one of the best), you get to choose your Velvet Room attendant, you get to save Shinjiro, you get two fan favorite characters, Saori and Rio, Yukari misgenders femc and Fuuka misgenders Theo, every female party member and Elizabeth have a bisexual awakening because of femc

And then in FES the Answer gives us AMAZING character development for Yukari Aigis and Mitsuru plus it introduces an underrated character that Atlus has ignored ever since in Metis

So why not have both. Baffling.

Yeah it is kinda like crazy that they could literally make everyone happy by just combining portable and fes into this upcoming remake and add the new stuff they want to add but ig that's just not what they wanted to do 😫

Reading that article and the ign one it seems that they're really bent on remaking the persona 3 experience as opposed to like idk make a definitive edition to the game (which is what most p3 fans want). There's not really much we can say there because I suppose from like an "artistic" point of view so to speak they chose to bring the original p3 experience (well fes' journey) to newer audiences. As I said before there's absolutely nothing wrong with that HOWEVER I do think that adding the extra content from fes and portable would have served that goal way better than just... remaking p3. As you said both the answer and portable add much more dimension to the story and characters of p3 so by essentially ignoring that not only are you doing the game a disservice (im like 90% sure portable is canon and 100% sure the answer is canon) but it's also gonna confuse new fans when we start talking about Metis or Erebus or idk what actually happened in the final battle of p3.

Unless of course Atlus is planning on retconning the answer and portable. Which... wouldn't be great. But hey at this point I am curious as to see what they're gonna do but I'll say it rn none of the remake stuff will be canon in my eyes.

#asks #latenitewaffles #koopa bro #i hope what im saying makes sense #i suppose what im trying to say is that they have a vision for p3 and its not one a lot of p3 fans seem to agree with #at least from what ive seen #at this stage i'm genuinely curious to see what they do #it really does feel like they're gonna p5ify the game if you get what i mean #not just in graphics style because lets be honest that was inevitable #it might not necessarily be all bad but my hopes are low #also i havent mentioned this yet but the fact they ported portable over to like steam switch what have you confirms to me that atlus is jus #way too lazy to remake portable #they really cant be bothered to make a femc model and do her story properly #they're either just gonna be lazy fr and not do it or come out with another game in a few years called like p3 reload female edition or som #absolute bullshit 💀💀💀💀💀💀#but either way as i said before im not tryna make atlus' business descisions for them they obvs know what they're doing #i know i said i wouldnt talk about it more and after this i wont but i do think its like an interesting point they bring up in the intervie #i have a fear about them retconning the answer but i'll keep that to myself cause i dont want to accidentally speak that into existence #and besides atlus wouldn't be that dumb surely #oh one last thing the fandom is quite divided over femc to be fair so that could also be a factor

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qilinkisser · 2 months

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uuuUUGHGHGHHHHHHHH!!!!!!

#vents 🌧️#I'm so fucking MAD #I've been seeing SO many fucking valentines day drawings today and I wanted to join in so badly #but I have my stupid fucking homework #and my mom said that if I get my homework done I can have 'a few minutes' of time #A FEW FUCKING MINUTES #yeah. great. so I can make a shitty doodle that nobody bothers to interact with #on the ONE fucking day I was hoping to get some attention #is that selfish? yeah it absolutely is. but I don't care. everybody's so fucking sick of me in real life #is it so bad that I want everyone to see me here? everyone to tell me how good I'm doing #I just want people to tell me I'm doing a good job #I'm failing all my classes in school. I have a terrible social life. I fall asleep constantly and I'm never fun to be around irl #all my parents do is nag me to do the homework I have no willpower to do and yell at each other outside my door #I'm doing a really shitty fucking job in real life. maybe if I got some imaginary fucking internet points I'd feel a little better #I don't care if it's selfish. I want to feel wanted. I want to feel admired. I want everyone to see me and think I'm doing so good #I've got nothing else. art's the last thing I'm good at. it's so fucking over for me. this is it.#it's rock bottom isn't it? my meds still aren't working. my dad is relentless in his anger. my mom is at her wits end #my friends at school give me maybe half of the love I give them if I get really lucky #my teachers are so fucking tired of me #who the fuck gives a shit anymore. this all feels so fucking pointless #who cares about regents or sats or college or jobs or anything. that's it. I give up. this is it for me.#I don't know how it's supposed to get better.#I'm so fucking sorry. I'm liveblogging an absolute spiral on here. I'm so sorry #if you read all the way down to here.. I'm not in trouble. I'm not going to do anything bad. you don't have to worry about me.#I'm just. so. tired.#I should probably delete this later.

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solomon-tozer · 9 months

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#it was my birthday yesterday #and it was not very nice lol #hardly anyone remembered and said anything #first time in my life not getting a card from my uncle too #my mother also didn't bother to send or leave me a card which... well okay i guess #she has everyone's birthday in her calendar apart from mine and her own (she detests her birthday)#my dad didn't get me anything either but he did buy some food to bbq and spend a few hours with me so that's okay #then i was just gonna chill on my own at home with the cats but my ex fucked that up ofc #then got mad at me for being upset and crying #so yeah yet to have a birthday where i don't end up in tears :')#i hate this so much i want a do-over #i cherish the things i did get i need to see if i can print one of them so i can gaze lovingly at it #but ugh when a server i've been in for over 10 years doesn't even remember... hurts kinda #i don't feel worth much to anyone at all #rhubarb crumbles #i have not been okay lately (well for a while) lol #i also wish i knew what was going on with my uncle #it's been a good few days and my dad hasn't heard anything back #no one's got in touch with him with news either #but my dad said he sounded really bad and - for the first time ever - scared #i don't like not knowing #anyway gonna curl up bc i'm cold and haven't got anything to eat so it's all fun and games #might watch more terror i was doing an armitage watch #which is just watching all the episodes he's in

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maddy-ferguson · 7 months

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i spent two hours (two hours) with my "friends" from school today and i'm MISERABLE roman voice you need to stop this (@ me)

#and like i say: brf slt #forgot to say we were literally sitting down. in class. taking notes. like there's genuinely no reason for THAT to make me feel this bad!#i'm not even bad at talking to people i never talk to again in class or only hang out with in school not having real friends doesn't bother #me because i have friends outside of school but it's my third year so everyone already has established groups of friends and it's :/ like #on monday in my first class of the year the girl sitting next to me was very nice we talked and we have more classes in common like apart #from the big ones where everyone's here the ones where it's only maybe 30 people. so i'm like that's fun i hope i see her again and i did #but she's friends with the bigger group of friends my friends who don't actually like me are friends with like my non friend's boyfriend's #friends so THEIR friends. like what are the odds. i guess not that crazy because there's only maybe 200 of us or 150 i have no idea #but still #but anyway #today we have one of these classes where it's not everyone but it was like another group of students so it was #me. this girl i've been hanging out with for two years who i didn't want to keep hanging out with at the end of the year because of the way #she reacted to something i did that was like an honest mistake she took it wayyy too seriously and said some things i didn't like i was #like girl fuck you😭 except then they kept the exact same groups AND I DIDN'T HAVE ANYONE ELSE and it was four months later so i actually #sat next to her and we were together for projects and things like that like my bad. that's on me.#and on her first day last year she met a girl who wasn't in our university the year before and they became bffs basically so it was them +#me. and i like the second girl better i think but she's insanely judgey like not to be like i'm so much better than her but i grew out of #the criticizing everyone 24/7 because it's genuinely a fun activity for me and i enjoy it mindset when i left middle school because the one #friend who liked it as much as me went to a different high school and i stopped seeing her every day. i made a post saying this in january #then during the second semester we became friends with another person i don't wanna explain how. we worked on a thing together for class #basically. them i genuinely like even though i don't think we would actually hang out out of school and have that many things to say to #each other. but they're more friends with girl 1 and girl 2 than they are with me because well i'm not comfortable with them so i talk less #than i would if i was comfortable. and there's also person 3's partner we have a few classes with who's cool but same as person 3 with the #being closer to girl 1 and girl 2 even though they're not even that close. but like. yeah idk #they just (girl 1 and girl 2) make me feel like i'm the weird kid in middle school and that wasn't even my middle school experience i'm #gonna let that happen to me NOW AT 22 YEARS OF AGE?#but last year it was like fine actually it's crazy how one class two hours made me rethink it all #but it's also awkward because like am i just gonna go sit all by myself because i don't wanna hang out with them. especially because we #still have a group thing we're gonna have to do until the end of the year that we started last year and it's not like i'd wanna switch #groups because they're a good group to work with. like they actually do the work. and i guess we only have two classes where it's. tag limi

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ofcowardiceandkings · 9 months

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[sits on the floor]

im wamt to draw cute smooshy fings but i have feelings about stuff

#as in im Compromised by feelings and cant think properly ... but also like gjsbd #mild embarrassment ?? i guess ... but moreso that im uh #... bad at it ?? or at least VERY out of practice ??#and in a phase of like 'i have no good ideas / original ideas' which of course dont exist #it gjskfj im also just terrible for being like 'oh that looks nice now i have to cover it in CLOTHES gross'#and then picking clothes with easy recognition ?? idk man i have such a lovehate relationship with Link&Zelda's primary outfits #i LOVE the palettes and balance in Zelda's too but the actual garment construction bothers me SO much ...#i need to look at the creating a champion notes again but listen ... free her fkebfjdb #drawing layers for some of these softer moments just eehh no thanks #idk if thats just a me thing but also theres something very intimate about seeing normally dressed up characters in half-outfits #so yknow tldr my brain is mean im frustrated and i need to like .. not want them to be naked but drawing a billion uptight layers is tedious #this is dumb and doesnt make sense okay bye sorry fkdjdjd #expect sketch sheets of cuddling in underclothes or just a bedsheet because im useless and predictable i guess #rory's ramblings

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tvrningout-a · 9 months

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i’ll have y’all know that i’ve been researching raven creatures and i’m about to go stupid go crazy and add this lady to the blog when i get back

#i’ve had her concept in my brain for years now but i never followed through with fleshing her out #but the time has come B))#i spoke about her last night BUT i decided she’s gonna be something called a valravn #which yes was in senua’s sacrifice but he was a lil different from the danish myth #which is a raven who becomes this scary creature with intelligence and whatnot who can take a human form #but only after eating a child’s heart/blood #i might scrub that from her origin? and make it anyone’s heart just bc it doesn’t suit her moral code #but we’ll see!#her name’s gonna be branwen/bronwyn bc it means fair raven and that tickles her #with how obvious it is asdfg #i wrote about her personality in the tags of a post if you wanna see #i just love the idea of a creature character who is rightly intimidating but you can befriend her #if you’re cool and aren’t annoying/are forgive-ably annoying #she’s actually a lot more patient and chill than folks think bc she encourages spooky tales so she #can have her privacy tbh #but you want her to kill some guy?? she’s got you man don’t even bother with the details #she doesn’t need them if you really braved scary woods and risked meeting a foul monster to ask #her for a favor :’ )#moral code is strictly according to what she thinks is good and bad and not what is typically perceived #as good and bad #i’m rambling i know but i’m excited okay :’ ))))#get ready to ramble | ooc

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me-a-mess-morelikelythanyouthink · 1 year

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hey alexa what’s the morality of pretending you picked up a spare shift at work and that’s why you ghosted your friend for a day because talking to them is draining and you were very tired last night and now it’s been over 18 hours and it’s a bit awkward to respond now

#silv's back on her bs #vent #sors but oh my god #i love my friends i love him but it's just so.#it is so draining talking to him when all he seems to talk about is how much happier he is (which is v good im happy for him) now that he's #friends w me and some other people and how we're so much better and we're his best friends and his other current friends are the worst and #his life USED to suck but now it's so much better but remember how much it sucked and yk fuck whatever we were talking about before when we #can talk about how bad the past was for him i just #i feel so bad for saying that bc i genuinely love him (/p) and want to be able to talk to him but i'm so drained from literally everything #else going on in my life that when i see his notifs pop up i just. can't be bothered to open them #he texts the gc last night like 'you guys have different friend groups that you eat w at lunch right?' (we have lunch together every other #day bc of club stuff) and when me and my other friend was like 'yeah what's up' he starts going on about how his current friends suck and #ignore him and i feel so bad for being annoyed at him for this but i just #need a second to BREATHE for gods sake #i do not blame him for feeling terrible and i know that I need to tell him how im feeling but i just.#i'm consistently never getting enough sleep and am piled under assignments that were due way too long ago and i'm drowning okay #and i feel like there's literally no one there as a lifeguard that i can count on and someone that i thought could at least be floating #above me (not needed to save me but at least There) is pushing me down further #i just #god #sorry that was a bit silly of me

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lover-official · 12 days

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I'm gonna ruin this because I don't know how to be normal about having a crush unless I'm high apparently

#carmina posting #lover posting #i want to text her so bad right now and i KNOW what a bad idea that is #bc im gonna look clingy #and apparently one of my friends briefly dated her and like shes skittish about affection and like #idk i feel like our bantery dynamic is really great and straddles the line between affection and just annoying each other well #but like what if she feels differently #her life is falling apart a bit and i dont wanna add stress #but i actually legitimately really like her and like #honestly im definitely spiraling a bit rn and i know that #but idk when I'll see her again #and im like... having this awful sinking feeling that thats bc im not going to #bc she's not actually into me and like she is just annoyed by me #so all i wanna do rn is text her and invite her over for tomorrow night but like.#i am forcing myself not to text until she texts first #and BEFORE we did shit she was often texting first so i have to hope she will again #but i feel very scared and broken and alone rn #and i also am afraid of driving away ny friends by bothering them too much #so like im just alone about this #im crying in the dark in my room listening to music and it occurs to me that i should probably only be listening to music #that already is crying music for me tbh #so i dont ruin something else i love for myself #what the fuck is wrong with me

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zickmonkey · 1 month

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Hey besties currently reading the Oath of Björn and I'd just like to come on here and say don't.

#Look okay i hated the voyage of Freydis for one big reason: it started with the lead (freydis) in a bad position #and ended with her in a worse one #the ending was so bad I read the second one to see where it could possible go. because the first seemed like a stand alons #the second one again started bad ended worse #and now this one has been bad the whole time #it started with Björn at home being hunted by the Beothuk for blinding one of their best hunters #I would support the Beothuk killing the norse if not for the fact that they raised Björn. He lived with the Beothuk his whole life.#Though he was very much so in the wrong so i support their anger at him #but this means that him and Anja have to flee the nordic settlement #they end up going to another norduc settlement in which those norse disrespect torture and murder the Beothuk #even when Björn explains that they are kind and speaks with the Beothuk in their native tongue #worse half the time Björn doesn't even bother to stand up for the Beothuk despite them showing him kindness when he respected them #after a huge battle between the Beothuk and the norse they end up returning briefly to the inital settlement #where EVERYONE is sick. Björn almost instantly receives the news of his uncles entire family being dead along with others #and his own sister (who had wanted to come with him) is deathly ill. As are the other four #His father and their father Nanashuk asks after his daughters lovingly and recieves only bad news.#he sets off to get the Beothuk medicine man with Anja (daughter of the Beothuk chief) only for Anja to be captured by the beothuk as bait.#the norse KILL Nanashuk. they kill so many of them and burn their village. they capture the chief as a pricey slave #jamie shut the fuck up #personal blog #just vibing #rambling #books

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nadjabear · 3 months

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I finished Hell's Paradise and while I did like it the ending was just meh but there are some aspects about the ending that make it worse the more I think about it so I just have to shut off my brain

#it's not tokyo gh/oul re ending level of bad but it's just kinda meh #a little rushed too #spoilers i guess but i do want to complain about something #so there was a tensen left which are the immortal guys and you see him in the present day still alive #which makes sense since no one killed him but why the fuck is mei there????#i feel like that makes her death so meaningless #if she survived at least leave some hints that she did idk and also having her appear but not say anything????#she desperately wanted a normal life but her in the present not even making a comment on why she's helping the other tensen like???#i get it's her family and such but i feel like she was going towards the path of healing from the family that hurt her #so her helping in bringing them back doesn't make sense to me #and all of that implied in TWO pages of the final chapter!!!!#as i said it gets worse the more i think about it but I've read worse endings so this one doesn't bother me that much #if this is me not really caring about this ed imagine how i was with the promised never/land and tokyo gh/oul re: lol #this manga was fine i just wanted to complain a little but i did enjoy the first season of the anime

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