while we’re on the topic of the Rick and Morty stuff can we pls talk about how nasty it is that so many fans ship Rick and Morty. It’s soooo upsetting to be scrolling through a new blog that posts about r and m only to find out they ship them like🤮🤮

Oh my god don't get me started on that 😡🤢 I actually think the worst part of the fandom here is that they ship a 14 year old boy with his grandfather ??????

God. Okay.

I every once in a while play out AUs in my head, and I’ve tried to think about which other one of my OCs would be the Commander, if I had to pick someone other than Kerra.

There’s a decent amount of possibilities and worlds to play with, but god...I’m having feelings over having it be an AU Cyprian right now, specifically in a world where he actually woke up with the Secondborn.

In that AU, he ends up part of the Nightmare Court, swayed by Cadeyrn and Faolain’s particular brand of charisma. As time went on and their viciousness gets clearer and more pronounced (and especially after Faolain took clear control as Duchess), he drifts further and further from them, becoming one of the first of the Soundless. Cyp is vicious in his own right, but he learns to see the holes in Faolain’s words, and being used is worse to him than what he read as being thought useless.

He still takes on the vigilante role here, at first, but it’s a different sort of vendetta. He has friends here--whether or not they’re close, he has people he protects, and he wields his emotional projection for them, too. This Cyprian knows how to get people to listen because he knows what it is to trust. If they won’t listen to what he says and it’s important to him, he can and will make them feel strongly like they should believe him, and that’s often enough.

He ends up back on Caithe’s radar by intervening when Bercilak attacks Dagdar and Eladus, and Kerra, only around a month out of her pod at most, ends up on his radar when she tries to help Tiachren and Ysvelta. She gets another mentor of sorts now, another sibling, one who argues with Caithe and is uncertain around Trahearne and who understands better than most how her power works.

(He’s also one with the opposite problems she’s had. Cyp’s issues stem from him feeling lesser and useless, and Kerra can’t stop hearing that she has to be useful, that it’s her destiny, and her own personality and inclination to help isn’t particularly helpful there either.)

Malyck trusts Kerra but isn’t sure what to make of Cyprian. Cyp’s still more than happy to stamp out the Knight of Embers. When it comes to Waine, Cyp says he has no particular love for the Firstborn, but Kerra has to stop him from killing Riannoc’s former squire.

Kerra joins the Order of Whispers. Cyprian stays unaligned, half falling back into old patterns of guarding the Soundless in Caledon and half doing what passes for his best at watching out for the sapling he at some point accidentally adopted as a little sister, but he’s never not busy. He gets wind of the upcoming attack on Claw Island, and though he’s the farthest thing from invited, he finds his way there anyway.

He holds his sister as she cries, out of view of those she herself had done her best to comfort, and for the first time he sees the world as she does--all the people she’s claimed as her own, as hers to protect, whether or not they’re sylvari or whether or not they’ve even met. He’s afraid for her.

In another world, Cyprian is asleep when Claw Island is retaken, deep underground in an abandoned lab in his pod. Here, he stands on the ramparts with his brother and sister, and he doesn’t care for being beholden to anyone but his sister is beholden enough, and he’s learned to trust his brother, and even if these aren’t his people, they’re hers.

He asks Trahearne for a job.

Some people are so obsessed with trying to prove that Sam is a capable adult with agency all while overlooking how a person’s lack of lived experiences can undermine their agency and get them into shit situations. You don’t feel like such an adult once you realized you’ve been manipulated because you didn’t know better. Not only do you feel like shit, you feel like a child because your youth and ignorance was used against you. Even if these things aren’t intentionally weaponized, often times, the younger partner feels their age or younger because something reminds them that this still have a lot of living to do before they’re on the same level as their older partner.

don't cancel me for this but i don't like croutons. i just don't think hard bread is all that special. and i realize this might create problems with many people. just understand that everyone is their own person, and i, as my own person, don't like to break my teeth on my already-mediocre caesar salad.

Mmmmmm

I open the mcyt tumblr tag. I see technoblade x reader fanfic. I close the mcyt tumblr tag

turns out i've got to have two foreign language playlists: one with languages i can vaguely understand because then i get distracted trying to translate things and one with languages i do not understand so that i can actually focus

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gender is weird and by that i mean i’m ending up having to make lists of term preferences in my head as i try on different ideas in my head bcus while i functionally know what my gender Is (at least at this point in my life) having the words to explain that is very different

the untapped potential of the aaron/renee friendship dynamic literally lives in my head rent free. SPECIFICALLY while andrew was at easthaven. might make a bigger post about this bc I CANNOT stop thinking about it

I just realised that even after the 100 premiers, opening posts tagged with “spoilers” still won’t be safe because the first two episodes will get leaked... Meaning there will be a full week where gifsets will get bad engagements because people who have only seen episode 1 doesn’t want to be spoiled by episode 2

You know what I think we should talk about more? The sheer amount of mental effort it takes to be ‘out’ because I didn’t expect that. I didn’t expect to spend so much time feeling people out, listening to their opinions, how they talk, dropping hints just to test how they react, all in an effort to avoid potential bigotry if they find out I’m agender (or aro/ace, but I find there’s less backlash to that out of sheer ignorance to what that even means).

Like, every time I interact with someone new its The Waiting Game and me nervously feeling out how they interact with me and with others in an attempt to Spot The Bigot and that’s a fuck ton of energy. Cis people don’t need to do that, straight people don’t need to do that. Not to mention if I’ve felt someone out and I think they’re fine there’s still a real possibility that I’ve read them wrong, and its anxiety until they’re Confirmed Safe. I imagine this feeling transcends LGBT+ people into other minorities, and honestly I do not think people in privileged positions understand the mental effort it takes to walk around in the world with the very real possibility that the next person you talk to might be the one to react badly, and you don’t know what that will look like.

having a psych degree is literally only looking at a very powerful and meaningful meme/comic/article about how humans function and pressing (x) to doubt

honestly in all my years of fandom I have never seen a female character fanbase so unbelievably awful, and for no deserved reason at all, as Ph@rah’s

honestly..