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dyketubbo · 1 year

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Transfem CWilbur hcs. Now.

why anon i am so glad you would honor me with this request

i think that cwilbur would probably keep her name because she looked up like name meanings and shit and was like hoooolllyyy shit my name is cool as fuck actually. i do also like the idea of her having a name based off of one of wilburs songs though. i admittedly misremembered vienna as sienna but i think both are cute so either of those also work as names for her

cwilbur to me is very like. obviously she knows about trans people her son is trans (i also like to see cclingy as trans but ctommy would have not transitioned yet and ctubbo just doesnt think to tell anyone if they dont think its necessary) and shes very proud of him! but shes also like. well at least fundy enjoys being a man because i sure dont this is miserable and everyone within a 5 mile radius immediately raises an eyebrow. i think being in pogtopia fucked her up about it because she started seeing people as being Afraid of her and for a reason she couldnt place being a Big Scary Crazy Man hurt in more ways than one but she was spiralling too hard to really analyze those feelings

and then in limbo all she Has is her own thoughts. and she comes back and shes manic and she considers telling everyone but but but but. tommy is looking at her with a shocked expression and tubbo isnt even talking and the new kid is trying to shield tubbo from her and suddenly all the feelings from pogtopia start rushing back and shes like oh. not enough to stop the mania but enough to sting hard enough, like a pin that she puts in the thought itself for another time

i thought the utah reveal was very funny. i also wish wilbur got to talk to more people, and i think that itd be interesting for him to talk to ghostboo whos like god i was SO scared for people to know this "real me", the me that everyone would be scared of, but now that i dont care about any of that anymore im free!! and wilbur would also talk to like. idk various others including more genuine convos with eret and with all of it eventually shes able to get to a calm resolution of. i need to be somewhere else when things are good enough that i can leave

and cdream dies (<-fully talking in terms of my rewrite now) and wilbur makes sure tommy is okay and everything and Then something similar to the utah reveal but like. slightly less mentally ill happens. wilbur is still sorta vague and tommy gets panicked and pissed thinking wilburs about to commit suicide again and wilburs like oh god no i just. i need to be somewhere else to change without everyones eyes on me. i dont like this me i think theres something deep inside me thats broken and im trying to repair it but i cant repair it if im This me. and tommy talks about how its all just One wilbur, just going through changes like everyone else but tommy and the people who matter love wilbur, no matter what kind of wilbur hes being, because hes still himself and thats the person they love, no general or president or ghost from the past, just wilbur. whoever he wants that person to be yada yada

and it sort of Clicks for wilbur in a sense. oh, this is all just one me, and im in charge. and people stick by me because im me no matter how much i change. and i think i know what changes i need to make (around this point is like. i think this would trigger the acceptance of ghostbur in a sense. i have complicated feelings about the ghosts but just know he and wilbur would truly be the same person through and through now). but i still need to go away for a bit. just a little. and tommy trusts her and she leaves for a bit and takes hrt and takes a while just to know that she likes the changes and when she does know she likes the changes she decides ok. this is who i want to be. this is Me. and comes back eventually to heal with everyone else too

misc hcs: i think she would actually prefer relying on hrt and breast forms to full top surgery. also dont think hed care about bottom surgery. she would still like her big coats and sweaters but she'd also wear skirts more often. maybe not dresses though unless its a formal event. also think she would grow out her hair a bit but not that much. in general like.. she doesnt change That much. shes still wilbur soot. but shes happier now and she looks more comfortable, like this is the self that she wants to be. i think she would feel like whatever broke inside her was slowly being patched back together

(and eventually, she realizes there was never anything broken about her in the first place. and she sits on a balcony and she still gets an intrusive thought about jumping but she knows she doesnt want to, not anymore. shes alive, and shes herself, and shes making the most of it.)

#angel answers #wilbur #dsmp #transfem c!wilbur #ig i may as well make a lil tag for her huh #vienna soot #<-just for tagging purposes if i talk about her in the future #jubilee is also a cute one but that would be very mentally ill to get her name from the song directly about suicide #even if itd be interesting as a 'death of the old self' type metaphor #but i think wilburs story works best as an acceptance of the self. no more suicide. no more death. just learning how to enjoy life again.#or maybe even for the first time

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thatweirdguyinthebushes · 2 years

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ctubbo n cwilbur for the ask game

Ask Game!

answered ctubbo here, so cwilbur! cwilbur is invariably linked to folk punk in my mind, so his Theme is People II: The Reckoning by AJJ. I think the way it describes his highs and lows, how everything feels complicated and too large and too small is very resonant to cwilbur. also the way the third verse talks about a bad person inside everyone is very cwilbur. and then the last part, where the singer speaks to someone named mrs robinson, telling her that no one cares if she lives or dies and they all probably hate her feels even in the original song as if the speaker is projecting his own insecurities onto someone else. i always imagine cwilbur speaking to ctommy and thinking about himself when this line comes on.

also, because im contractually obligated to associate at least one mother mother song with every character i like: happy by mother mother is a cwilbur song.

#cwilbur #ask game #ask game response #headcanon #music #dream smp

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jackiebrackettt · 2 years

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Fic Recs But They're All Mine ^_^ hey hi here's all my dsmp fics in one spot hope u enjoy

(side note: all of these are ctubbo pov unless specified otherwise)

(second side note: i'm going to be updating this post whenever i post a new fic so please make sure to check out the original post just in case the version u come across isn't the most recent ^_^)

reblogging this post is welcome and i'd really appreciate any kudos and comments on the fics themselves ^_^ hope you guys enjoy<3

(Under the cut bc there’s 70K+ words worth of fics here)

Ongoing:

Little Plastic Robot: this is a ctubbo centric fic that explores his experiences and relationships from Manberg era onwards - currently estimated for eight chapters and at the time of creating this post (24/3/22) has 4 chapters and 26k words

Exercises In Doom: ctubbo pickpocketing cranboo + there's magic involved au! a snippet:

"At the edge of the marketplace there’s this big library with stone stairs leading up to it. It’s a common meeting spot for scholars, so there’s often people of all ages standing around and staring out into the crowd. It’s a perfect vantage point with an effective cover for him to pick his target.

And right now, he thinks his target might be an enderman guy wandering through the crowd.

Seriously, he’s wearing a full suit to the markets. Tubbo thinks he can even see the shine of jewelry. It’s like he’s asking to be robbed."

This fic has 3/5 chapters posted currently (3/9/22) and 21.1k words

Carve That As Your Epitaph: this is an au cbenchtrio alternating pov fic based on the story of "Once Upon a Time (In Space)" by the Mechanisms - which is a story album retelling of fairy tales in space.. if they were also fighting in a major political resistance against a corrupt empire (for more info i use the tag: "ctaye" to talk about it but be aware there might be vague spoilers)

Complete:

It Wasn't Your Fault: this is a cClingyduo fic set post-disc war finale but pre-tommy prison death and they talk about exile. here's a lil section of it: "But Tommy’s different and half of that is Tubbo’s fault. Tommy’s different, and so is he, and he’s not sure where they stand with each other anymore. Not when it comes to things like this. It’s easier when it’s casual. When it’s like nothing has changed. And maybe that’s a cowardly move, but Tubbo never said he wasn’t a coward." This fic has 2700 words and 1 chapter

It's My Problem: this is a ctubbo centric fic that focuses a little bit on his complicated relationship with cwilbur, l'manburg and music. the first chapter is a dream and the second one involves an _beloved family morning. 2800 words all up and 2 chapters

Clear Nights: this is an early new l'manburg cbeeduo fic where they go stargazing ^_^ focuses on their developing relationship with some complicated feelings from ctubbo about l'manburg and home. it's 2500 words and 1 chapter

Tentative Friendships: this is a cranboo pov early new l'manburg cbeeduo fic. it happens right after tommy is exiled but the main focus is on their developing relationship. here's a lil section of it: "President Tubbo leans against him, head resting on his shoulder. Ranboo can just barely see his face from this angle. And he looks devastated, in Ranboo’s tentative opinion. Tubbo is a person who keeps his emotions locked up tighter than an enderchest. But something about the exhaustion from the past couple of days must have finally worn through his defences." this fic is 2600 words and 1 chapter

It's Fine, We're Fine: this is a fic where ctubbo interacts with enderwalking cranboo. here's a lil section of it: "Tubbo technically isn’t woken up by the bed dipping. What actually causes him to slip from one of his more peaceful rests into semi-consciousness was his front door opening and closing a minute or so prior. But the lack of action recently has made him soft. And his brain stays hazy and unfocused until, as mentioned, the bed dips.

And by then, it’s too late to consider that this could be someone out to get him or his son. Because he blinks his eyes open and comes face to face with Ranboo." it's 2100 words and 1 chapter

Twisted Traditions: this fic is something i wrote for cbeeduo's 1 year marriage anniversary! here's a snippet: "The grass is cool underneath them, and the sky above them is empty of clouds and full of stars. Tubbo and Ranboo lay stretched out on the grounds of L’Manburg, staring up into the sparkling void of the night sky. It’s a beautiful night, Tubbo notes absently. The grass is growing well after the replanting to cover the craters. The lanterns above L’Manburg city cast a nice glow over them without ruining the view of the stars. Ranboo is next to him." 1600 words and 1 chapter

On Grief and Other Things: a short fic set ten years in the future where ranboo has been revived and tubbo is reacting to that. here’s a snippet: “The process of grief goes like this: it is horrible and all consuming and you try to push it into the back of your mind and cover it up with work, work, work. You cover it up until you don’t have to try anymore and suddenly it’s like something’s been taken from you.” 800 words and 1 chapter

An Overthinker's Perfect Storm: a new l'manburg fic from cranboo's pov of ctubbo falling asleep on his shoulder. here's a snippet: "No, correction, the president is too short to reach his shoulder and is instead asleep on his arm. The president is asleep on his arm and has been for the past five minutes or so and Ranboo’s not exactly sure what to do about it because he can’t just move . Because if he moves, Tubbo wakes up. And Tubbo needs the sleep, in his tentatively given opinion." this is 2k words and 1 chapter

Working 9 Til 5: a fic where tubbo, ranboo and michael go to the beach! here's a snippet:

"The reason he’s packing away lunch instead of serving it is because roughly ten minutes ago Ranboo had suggested they take a trip down to the beach. “An actual beach,” Ranboo had said, “not the one - not your frozen one outside.” Tubbo had laughed. Until Ranboo started - lightheartedly - complaining about being made fun of and insisting he was serious. “You can’t even swim.” Tubbo reminded him." it's 1.6k words and 1 chapter

Tumblr Specials!

yeah under the cut because this is already getting long and i don't feel the need to highlight these ones

What A Wonderful Time: hitting on 16th aftermath that is just sort of me trying to piece together my thoughts on ctubbo's feelings about what happened. this one is an ao3 link but i do have a tumblr copy here: link. basically this is kind of disjointed which is why i feel like it belongs here

Untitled Scientist cbeeduo au: okay so this is a little fic snippet that i’m not going to finish (so don’t mind the first scene being clunky lol) of scientist cbeeduo hope u enjoy ^_^ please check the tags for content warnings Untitled Post-cranboo Death: just something i wrote after he died from tubbo pov - i felt kinda bad because it's a no happy ending thing and i don't like to read those.. but i wrote one.. yeah. so it's staying on tumblr! please check the tags for content warnings

Fanfic I wrote for a 30daysmp fic: this is a fic from lungs of the universe by @/nightmare-rivulets and it's 30!ranboo's pov. not sure how long it is but probably a little less than 1k words

Rpverse:

memorybooks and tubbolul: chapters 1 and 2 - this will be explained when u click on the fic posts but basically it's set around the time when mbranboo was thinking about running away but hadn't yet memorybooks and tubbolul: chapter 3 of this above fic - don't ask why it's formatted so 2 chapters are in one post but the 3rd is in another i don't remember memorybooks and tubbolul: chapter 4! well, retconned to be chapter 4 because i never wrote it but this has the same concept. the major differences is that "chapter 4" was writing in a response to mbranboo actually leaving and the canon events are a little more updated than the previous ones

rpverse benchtrio fluff: no idea how long this is (not too long though like i'd estimate around 1k words) but it's just a little slice of life fluff fic ^_^ tubbolul pov

#brackett.writes.

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astroninaaa · 2 years

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great! Ok so some people are upset bc ctubbo forgave ctechno but said he couldnt forgice ceret yet.. They said it was ooc for ctubbo. Like I dont get why they're upset at that?? It makes sense to me.

Ctechno clearly hurt ctubbo more, dont get me wrong, his actions have affected ctubbo waaayyy more than ceret's betrayal, but thats the thing, ctechno didnt betray ctubbo. Ctechno has always been an anarchist and has always said he was gonna destroy L'manberg and then he did.

The whole festival thing was a mess but it wasnt a real betrayal, ctubbo barely knew ctechno and it was more ctubbo trusting cwilbur and then getting disappointed than him trusting ctechno (at least imo gimme ur thoughts).

But like he knew ceret, he GRINDED FOR LIKE 12 HOURS the day prior to the revolution with them and then he got betrayed. I dont think ctubbo EVER trusted ctechno, but he did trust ceret. A Lot.

So TO ME, since ctubbo is a very logical character, it makes sense that he would forgive the character who's always been very upfront about where his loyalties lie and why he still doesnt fully trust ceret.

but idk thats just my opinion plss tell me your takes

i had never thought of that actually but that makes a lot of sense. that’s actually a great take towards ctubbo’s forgiveness (or better lack of lmao) towards c!eret.

imo as much as ctubbo is in fact still not over getting blown up, he doesn’t keep that much of a grudge against ctechno because. because ctubbo is just too fucking smart to. he understands ctechno was put in a weird position and understands why cwilbur and ctommy didn’t jump in and understands why ctechno wanted to just let it go. does he think they could have/should have done something to stop it? definitely. does he get why they didn’t? of fucking course. i’ve said this in that one other analysis about ctubbo and logicality i wrote but like — ctubbo can see big pictures and work a thousand steps in the future before anyone can even understand what the issue is. as much as ctubbo will probably never trust ctechno like he might trust others (in the same way he could never truly trust cwilbur after the festival), he’s also not going around hating him for it because. what’s the point? what’s the point of hating him, in the big picture? what does that change?

i think what ctubbo feels about ceret is different to that bc, as you said, ctubbo genuinely cared about ceret. ceret was his family. he didn’t love ctechno, but he loved ceret. his betrayal definitely hurt a lot more bc he was actually someone ctubbo loved and cared for and worked with before the betrayal. there was no weird position. there was no impromptu decision to be made. worse: it was the beginning of the end. i mentioned this in the cove today but i believe eret’s betrayal was, for ctubbo, the first domino to what would become the sequence that ruined his life and made him into all the ugly parts ctubbo has never been able to love. of course ctubbo still feels strongly about it.

has ctechno earned redemption? fuck no. but i don’t think ctubbo ever truly blamed ctechno for the festival. he blamed cwilbur for letting it happen, and blamed schlatt, and even quackity a little bit, even tho quackity did not have a hand in it in the way ctubbo told cranboo he did. ctubbo’s feelings towards the festival are complicated and gnarly and confusing in a way i don’t think even ctubbo understands them, but as i’ve read someone say today, ctubbo never outright blamed ctechno for his execution. ctommy did. only ctommy did. so why are people so adamant in pushing ctommy’s feelings towards the festival onto ctubbo in the first place?

has ceret earned redemption? absolutely. but there’s the whole thing on how someone earning redemption doesn’t mean the people they hurt are obligated to forgive them. so there

PSA: i’m talking out of my ass. i haven’t watched today’s stream. i have no idea what’s going on. my opinions are INCREDIBLY biased towards ctubbo and everything i say is catered towards tubblings. have a good day

#askbox #beloved mutuals

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elytrafemme · 2 years

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Cghostboo is literally two halves like floating around while his legs run around somewhere else. It was quite a shock for ctubbo the first time they met after saving Micheal_B to see only a single floating half of his husband.

Micheal_B hides things in his eye socket. Just it’s a good place to hide the jewelry he steals. He also like stealing gold. He’s a piglin after all

When cTommy got back from exile he hogged and stored food away. Often having it in his pockets. He also looked like he had aged seven years and he didn’t sleep well. Alone especially. He would constantly stand in the corners of rooms so he could see everyone and would jump/wince if someone caught him off guard. He still isn’t one hundred percent out of most of these habits.

Ctubbo has multiple toes. And on of his eyes glows. Because of an accidental toxic nuclear spill when he was building those nuclear weapons. He hides both his eyes because cjshlatt used to say that eyes are the window to the soul and he feels exposed when people can see them. Also doubles as a fashion style with his long bangs covering his face and hidig his burn scars. Also when cranboo was alive they didn’t need to worry about accidental eye contact.

Ctubbos burn scars are extensive and he used to wake up from nightmares about getting them. The eye on that side is only half functional and his ear is completely deaf.

CWilbur can’t see the color blue.

CTommy wears a blue sweater that he made for himself from friends wool as well as many patches on it given to him by Tubbo Ranboo and Niki.

Cdream always has had long hair and he’s very narcissistic about it. Constantly taking care of it but while in jail with the lack soap and hot water it has become sort of disgusting. Also it’s white. Result of revival book usage/exposure.

I have more but if I don’t send this it’ll delete so

THAT'S SO FUCKING FUNNY IMAGINE YOURE JUST LIKE. IMAGINE YOU'RE C!WILBUR IN THE BURGUR VAN AND THEN SUDDENLY YOU SEE TWO LEGS RUNNING AT YOU

king shit tbh i mean if you have the space might as well

this hc hurts me personally and i'm calling my lawyers /j no but you're right like. the trauma response of making sure you can see everything 1000% makes sense and. yes you're so right basically.

oh i actually think that's really fucking cool like. yeah that's really fucking cool. i had never heard an hc about like nuclear damage to his body before and i can't say i know much about the medical side of that aside from inherited complications but all in all yes. and i agree as well with the c!tubbo scarring

see you guys drop small sentences and i think oh this is a light hearted hc and then i think about it for two seconds long and im like. wait Blue. wait c!wilbur and blue. Wait

OH MY GOD YES PATCHES... so much love can be stored in the patches u wear on ur clothes fr

vain is probably the better word for that but yes i think c!dream with long hair is a kind of neat hc. plus im a big fan of him having really white hair as well

#nightmare.ask #chase tag :d #ask to tag #eye trauma tw #eye gore tw #just in case i think that would be the worst one but lmk otherwise

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