dream log Nr. -010
12/04/2022 (extracted from a chat, unstructured)
hade:
aber fuck war ich müde
die letzten beide nächte schlecht egschlafen
wieder nur scheißintensive träume
und nicht die gute variante
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Tuffi:
Was ist denn die schlechte Variante? Alpträume?
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hade:
einer endete mit just screaming before I woke up bathed in sweat because I'd just torn a big chunk of my gums off
it was the teeth falling out dream on crack
i wrote it down at work because it bothered me so much to try to get it out of my head
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Tuffi:
Torn for real or in the dream?
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hade:
in my dream, sorry
irl wouldve been fucked up
no I dreamt my teeth were falling out/I was pulling them out because they felt loose
and I was pulling off a big tooth in the front (it was weirdly long like a lego)
and as it was pulling it off
it came loose halfway before it took like a big piece of gums with it
in my dream I had a literal handful of rotting flesh
like.. an overcooked, gross steak piece in my hand
and it was falling apart
and I just start screaming
it didnt hurt but I was just screaming
fuck it messed me up all day
the dream before that was just as confusing and offputting
the one last night as well
so I'm just really tired
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Raincode is an interesting commentary on masculinity. Yakou, Number One, Makoto, and Yomi all refuse to get help, upholding the "men are not allowed to be helped and have to deal with everything on their own" ideal. A lot of the games tragedy comes from these guys being too scared to reach out and get help and God forbid they get too emotional or take a step back and say they can't do this. Yuma is forced into accepting others help and expressing his emotions because he has amnesia and is just so confused and in so much danger he literally can't operate otherwise. The solution to everything is teamwork and communication instead of trying to take everything on yourself and worrying about being seen as weak or unmanly or whatever. That you really don't have to do it alone and it's better if you don't. If Yomi hadn't become so self-rightous and allowed others in, to have equals, he probably wouldn't have become so power-hungry and. Well. Yomi. If Makoto had someone, anyone to talk to, he could've found a better solution for the homunculi's diets. As soon as he opens up about what's going on, a better solution is almost immediately made. If Yakou had opened up to the NDA about his wife and the letters, they definitely wouldve helped him out. Investigating, finding the truth, maybe even getting Huesca arrested. If Number One had EVER accepted help, he wouldnt have needed to give himself amnesia to solve one of his own mysteries- because Makoto most definitely retained that trait of his. If any of them had asked for help, things would have been better. Asking for jelp is good and healthy, and something that many guys struggle to learn and accept and get used to.
Idk. This game definitely sucks when it comes to how it treats women but. This is. A very nice take on expectations of guys. That no, that stuff is stupid actually.
There are very few male protagonists that are allowed to be emotional or empathetic or unsure of themselves. The only ones that really come to mind rn outside of Kodaka's works are. Steven Universe. Shinji Ikari. Uhhhhh............... yeah that's all I can think of rn. And those two characters are shit on and called weak and that they're not real men. And Yuma also gets shit on by Some People for those same reasons. (Obviously there's other reasons to dislike him and the other two, but I'm talking about these specific reasons)
And idk. It's just.... really nice to see a game go out and make its ENTIRE message about how you don't have to do it alone. It's a universal message of course but it's also really important for a lot of guys. I know I sure resonated with it. My family is very gung-ho on being the perfect example of masculinity. So it's just. So rare to see a piece of media challenge these ideas. Thank you Raincode you mean a lot to me. Even though you're stinky. Ily
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staring off into the distance . am i really up to the challenge of another daily account
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idk if you care about the Academia views on horror but for a long time there was the idea pushed by second wave feminists that horror was and will always be inherently reactionary and misogynistic because the act of viewing could only be enjoyed by a sadistic male viewer who liked to watch men suffer. but in the 90s that view began being disputed by people like eve kosofsky sedgwick who pointed out how essentialist and flat that view was and horror studies has bloomed since then to include the queer viewer (benshoff 1997, “monsters in the closet”) and expand beyond the simplistic view that horror is inherently bad and “low art” because of its violence. so basically this is all to say that anon is stuck in 1990
fuck yeah. that's really interesting
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obviously the worst possible time to faceblindness blank stare my former preceptor is when i run into him at the hospital post-cardiac surgery on his 2 day old baby BUT in my defense. ive never seen himwithout a mask before
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