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hwanswerland · 3 months

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240204 : dance break

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redrobin-detective · 7 months

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My favorite part of my Adventure Time binge is I pick what looks like the most silly episodic episode with a weird title and a plot that seems pretty open and shut and it goes in the most unexpectedly painful and lowkey horrifying direction that leaves me shook. I expected shenanigans and got an existential crisis instead.

#adventure time #haha princess monster wife has Ice King assemble a wife from other princess parts how silly #instead Im repeatedly kicked in the face with Ice King - Simon's - utter capacity for love and empathy #Like yes he kidnapped those princess parts but the love and care he showed his monster creation in making her feel “normal” and loved #the dual nature of Ice King's curse is he acts out irrationally but then the love he can't contain still leaks through somehow #And how his wife eventually gave back the stolen parts herself -damning her own existence- bc she knew IK loved her beyond her physical for #BECAUSE SIMON HAS BEEN LOVING AND IDOLIZING AND PINING AFTER BETTY FOR 1000 YEARS WITHOUT SEEING HER #Betty wasn't fully introduced for like another whole season but her footprints on IK's heart can be seen and felt so clearly in this ep #i just wanted something silly in the bg while I ate breakfast and now I need to lie down and cry

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pineappical · 9 months

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nothing lasts forever

#good omens #good omens 2 spoilers #go2 spoilers #good omens fanart #aziraphale #crowley #ineffable husbands #HEY WHAT IF I CRY REALLY LOUDLY!!!!!!!!!!!! <- JUST FINISHED S2 #pn.art #I BAWLED MY EYES OUT!!!!!!!!!!!!!#oh my god i have so much to say about it but im literally just so. so fucked up right now oh my god im never recovering from this #apologies if this is too much colors for the eyes i saw that intro and was immediately wailing <3 #I WANT TO DRAW SO MUCH MORE FOR THIS SEASON BUT I NEED TO LIE DOWN AND DISINTEGRATE AFTER THAT FINAL EPISODE............#IM FUCKED UP!!!!!!

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quarks-pussy · 7 months

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So I know we here at Startrekfandom love that "came back wrong but from the pov of the wrong" thing and apply it to many different characters and canon situations and I am far from trying to complain about it (I'm "came out wrong" trope myself so I was always gonna obsess over it) but having recently watched a very important episode (you'll know which one) for the first time I think there's a character who hits both tropes mentioned but llike, intertwined, opposite and subverted, and whom I wanna talk about.

Julian Bashir.

From his parents' pov he's "came out wrong but we got him help and he came back better" while from his own pov it's "came out 'insufficient', was destroyed for it, came back wrong and only later slowly came to terms with his new self tho never the process (justifiably so)" and it's heartbreaking because in a way, he's right! Jules Bashir died! His parents had an intellectually disabled child and decided to eugenics him! Julian is not the person he used to be and while I do love the person he is now, that doesn't bring back who he was! Part of me wishes we could've gotten to see Jules at least once and part of me hopes we never do because my heart would shatter.

This isn't a good comparison but nonetheless one I can't help drawing: it's giving similar vibes to anti-vaxxers. "I'd rather risk having a child who is dead than one who's autistic". Obviously this doesn't map over since Julian is still autistic and the procedure his parents subjected him to specifically targeted his intellectual disability and if any folks with id wanna comment on this I definitely recommend you listen to them over me, but it's a similarity I, as an autistic who has encountered anti-vaxxers again and again, can't help but point out. "Give me a normal child or give them death."

This may have been written about already but there needs to be stories about teenage Julian (after finding out and rediscovering who he was) practicing some good ol' recognition of the self through media. I need to hear about how he would encounter a story about someone who came back wrong (I'm gonna assume there's plenty of "wrong" pov stories floating around by the 24th century) and absolutely weep. I need to see Julian mourning Jules, taking years and years to process his feelings, experiencing guilt about how he, the imposter, didn't deserve to live Jules' life.

Came back wrong from the returned's pov but it wasn't an accident. It was done to you deliberately by the people who claim to love you. And now you are here, piloting the corpse of your predecessor.

Jules Bashir is dead. Long live Julian Bashir.

#i've called julian jules before simply as a normal nickname but i don't think i ever will again. not after this #and knowing that if it had been possible i would have probably gone the way jules did. knowing that at his age i would have gone willingly.#fuck dude i am literally actually crying literal tears irl right now this is not a joke #fuck!!!!!#julian bashir #jules bashir #doctor bashir i presume #came back wrong #star trek deep space nine #HE WAS SIX YEARS OLD!! HE WAS SIX YEARS OLD AND THEY KILLED HIM!!!!#i cannot stop crying i am literally crying and like not even just a little #i cannot... poor julian how the FUCK do you ever come to terms with something like that #and like... julian remembers. he has most if not all of jules' memories and also knows he was murdered simply for not being julian #like how did he cope #(im about to go off on a tangent that will contain censored names for the sake of not clogging those tags if you dont know who i mean hmu)#like this is literally the thing that fucked up j*ran so bad he went on a murder spree isn't it #he remembers the one who came before who was killed. very different circumstances of course esp since tr*ll are expected to replace one ano #another but he remembers this person he remembers BEING this person who was young and simply enjoying life and who died a sudden death and #he remembers the experience of that death as well and how it lead to his own creation. it's not remotely similar ofc but considering that #the only time we see t*rias in alpha canon is in julian's body... i need to lie down for a moment.#and jor*n couldn't cope! he couldn't! it was far too much and the weird thing is right now in this moment i GET it y'know?? like that's #so horrific. and i haven't watched any jo*an episode besides facets yet but do you think. do you think j*dzia told julian about all this an #he nodded along and kept composure and then when he was alone he broke down crying? like julian you're doing SO well ily you're coping and #you shouldn't have to obviously but you do nonetheless!! do you think julian still has something from jules? like i've heard there's a tedd #but i mean jules prolly didn't keep a diary he was a six year old with an intellectual disability it's pretty unlikely he could write but #does julian have drawings made by jules? i'd like to think so but honestly his parents probably threw them out. like they also moved so #sorry i'm just. many thoughts head full. ive stopped crying now but who knows for how long. also i'll have to tag this with my original tag #maybe i should've picked something less silly for when i make serious posts but like what am i gonna change my url as well? don't think so #original posts fresh from quark's pussy #and thats the tag limit folks it's been fun. i had to delete two other tags but my god. anyway. thinking about jules bashir forever & cryin

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shima-draws · 5 months

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THEY DON’T EVEN REMEMBER??? Luffy be walking out of this with LONG lasting trauma of watching all his friends nearly die and the others are just like. Man that was a nice nap! Luffy what are you doing on the ground sprawled out like that? Meanwhile Luffy’s internally having a breakdown because holy fucking SHIT what the hell did he just have to go through,

#One Piece #JFJSJTNSNNGNSNFNSNM #Okay logically I know that if the arrows stayed in he 100% would have died #But I kinda want to write a fic about it #The Strawhats wake up and see their captain just. FULL of arrows #And they flip their SHIT #Nami and Zoro are screaming what the FUUUUUCCCKKKKKK #Usopp and Chopper are crying Sanji is losing his MIND #Robin’s just looking at him in shock #They gotta get all the arrows out. Is he gonna die? He’s probably gonna die!!!#Anyway. That final punch was SO Summer Wars #Like the black and white and the emphasis and the blur and.#Has anybody done a GIF comparison of the final punch in Summer Wars VS the final punch in Baron Omatsuri #I bet they’re VERY similar lol #Shima speaks #Still cannot believe they just woke up from Body Horror Nightmare not remembering a SECOND of it #And Luffy’s lying there like. This is fine :)) I’m fine :)))))#WELL. That was a fantastic movie. I’m gonna go lie down now. I need to emotionally recover probably

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cantstayawaycani · 9 months

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Personal...

#just got racially profiled at my local post office while trying to buy money orders for my rent #i go there every month and deal with the same postal clerks #and they know this is my rent money #for some reason this was the day they decided to treat me like i was trying to commit fraud #i was so upset #there were three of them #all asian #which really hurt and confused me #two of them know me #i've been going to that post office for almost six years now #those clerks know me #but today they treated me like dirt #i'm so mad and sad #i need a stiff drink #i want to cry #but i'm a grown woman #I don't know why i'm telling the internet #my mom lives all the way in new york so she can't come give me a hug and calm me down #it sucks to be reminded that people will lie TO you and ON you because they don't like that you're black and can afford what they can't

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archduke-enver-gortash · 5 months

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#i finally stopped crying constantly yayyyyy #i think i need to lie down now

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andoutofharm · 10 months

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WHAT A CATCH

#4th time................................i need 2 lie down #seeing this for the FIRST time of the tour is something i am still so so so [crying emoji] about #seeing it AGAIN i am double crying emoji about #the fact that he's played it FOUR TIMES NOW..........cryring emoji forever

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daz4i · 7 months

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man if anyone else was in my situation I'd tell them "noooo don't listen to the people in your life who tell you you're making excuses and just being lazy, it's clear that you're in pain, not to mention executive dysfunction makes everything so much harder and depression draining you immediately after one action, be kinder to yourself" however. i am not anyone else

#parents 🤝 old therapist 🤝 friends a few years ago -> convincing me I'm lazy and making excuses to not do anything #it eased up a bit when i had the original crohn's scare bc suddenly ppl had to believe there might actually be smth wrong with me -#- and I'm not just faking my pain/it's just in my head. but the novelty of that passed even though it's still unclear if i have it or not #i don't know either. whether I'm being lazy or not. bc when I'm home alone for a week i DO do some of these things -#- that i normally struggle with. but 1 not all 2 as i mentioned i do need to lie down and recharge after everything #even if I'm not having stomach pains my muscles Do Not like me moving around that much but that might also be me being out of shape #which is think is what all those ppl i mentioned think. which is why they try to encourage me. it's not malicious or anything #but it still hurts a lot to hear. esp when it's coming from all directions and i still. can't. do. anything.#being told I'm just being lazy isn't as encouraging as they may think. tho at this point they're also expressing frustration-#- which i can't blame them for i mean I'd be frustrated too. i AM frustrated too #no one is meaner to me than myself after all #vent #man. that post hit hard akdlglg i didn't realize how much i have held up inside me abt this topic #I'm. really sad now. i just started the day and I'm already crying. damn

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non-un-topo · 9 months

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The irony of trying to start a "pain journal" but being too fatigued and having too much brain fog from said pain to start one

#is that irony? idk. i can't think.#i try so hard not to get crabby when i'm in pain like i genuinely try so so hard to be kind and patient #posting this on fb not to make my parents feel bad but also maybe to show them how bad this is #far as i know i don't have scoliosis like my dad. i was checked growing up. but there has to be some kind of curve #and at this point i will not tolerate anyone telling me it's just posture because it canNOT be just posture now.#i wake up in pain now. at the moment it's so bad i was just crying and waddling and pacing #it's my spine right in my mid-back. like where my bottom ribs connect to my spine #trying to stretch. took some naproxen 3 hours ago and it genuinely did nothing. put some tiger balm on #does tiger balm make anyone else drowsy??? or is that just brain fog from the pain?#fatigue and brain fog are things i literally just realized. like this whole time i thought i was just a lazy person #needing to lie down for most of the day unable to concentrate on even fucking reading.#but no it turns out when you're in pain every day all day for at least 11 years it makes you foggy and exhausted.#the more you know #literally drag me by the hair to a doctor because i cannot do it. i cannot be told to just Do yOgA and go on birth control or w/e #if you're afab it's always gotta be your period huh. that's a physician's only answer.

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chrisbangs · 8 months

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